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119- We Don't Need Men (ft. Josie Canseco)

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WEBVTT 1 00:00:03.160 --> 00:00:06.320 What is up, Daddy Gang? It is your single father, 2 00:00:06.580 --> 00:00:09.470 Alex Cooper, with Call Her Daddy. 3 00:00:12.429 --> 00:00:14.509 Not every day you meet an Irish legend. 4 00:00:14.689 --> 00:00:16.050 I know what you mean, Coo Collin. 5 00:00:16.250 --> 00:00:19.329 Leaping vast distances, holding off armies. 6 00:00:19.469 --> 00:00:21.589 Eating tonnes of fresh grass. 7 00:00:21.750 --> 00:00:22.010 What? 8 00:00:22.190 --> 00:00:23.489 Not you, we're cows. 9 00:00:23.750 --> 00:00:26.609 That's one of the reasons Irish milk is so good. 10 00:00:26.859 --> 00:00:29.000 It's famous all over the world. 11 00:00:29.260 --> 00:00:30.899 Legendary. 12 00:00:31.359 --> 00:00:34.420 Ireland's grass and our farmers' commitment to more sustainable actions 13 00:00:34.700 --> 00:00:37.479 help make Irish dairy a true Irish legend. 14 00:00:37.780 --> 00:00:41.039 Always look for the National Dairy Council guarantee. 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Daddy Gang, 36 00:02:08.069 --> 00:02:14.610 I have not had sex in almost a month. Alex, 37 00:02:14.710 --> 00:02:17.830 did you and your boyfriend break up? No, actually that's 38 00:02:18.030 --> 00:02:20.930 what makes it even sadder. I still have a boyfriend 39 00:02:21.229 --> 00:02:24.349 and I haven't had sex in almost a month and 40 00:02:24.500 --> 00:02:27.400 he is such a fucking asshole. The fact that he 41 00:02:27.439 --> 00:02:29.560 won't fuck me, I'm just kidding. It has literally nothing 42 00:02:29.599 --> 00:02:32.039 to do with him. And that again adds to the 43 00:02:32.080 --> 00:02:34.800 fucking sad part of the story. I have been stressed 44 00:02:34.840 --> 00:02:37.159 about work and I will explain all of those things 45 00:02:37.340 --> 00:02:39.900 in the next two weeks. But I've been stressed with 46 00:02:39.979 --> 00:02:43.400 work and it's so sad because my boyfriend wants to 47 00:02:43.460 --> 00:02:46.259 fuck me and I want him to fuck me. That's 48 00:02:46.310 --> 00:02:49.009 the sad thing. It's like, so why aren't you? Some 49 00:02:49.050 --> 00:02:52.990 would say, get the dick, big Al. Big Al, a 50 00:02:53.069 --> 00:02:57.340 big dick in the vagina will fix you right up, sweetheart. 51 00:02:57.400 --> 00:02:59.659 But you know what? And I hope people can relate 52 00:02:59.680 --> 00:03:04.580 to this. Sometimes there's two situations. You are stressed and 53 00:03:04.659 --> 00:03:09.159 you say, I need to have an orgasm. I need 54 00:03:09.500 --> 00:03:11.860 that release. Or you're on the other spectrum, which I 55 00:03:11.900 --> 00:03:13.539 have been for the past few weeks. And it's like, 56 00:03:14.060 --> 00:03:16.689 I don't want to fuck. And I know that's shocking 57 00:03:16.710 --> 00:03:18.250 because it's called her daddy. But like, I'm not in 58 00:03:18.270 --> 00:03:20.789 the mood to fucking have sex. And I feel bad. Honestly, 59 00:03:20.810 --> 00:03:23.659 my boyfriend the past few weeks has been like... I'm 60 00:03:23.740 --> 00:03:27.039 ready to not feel like the Uber Eats man. I'm 61 00:03:27.099 --> 00:03:29.919 ready to not be the delivery guy in the morning 62 00:03:29.939 --> 00:03:32.689 with your coffee. Like I'd like to get my dick wet. 63 00:03:33.030 --> 00:03:35.110 And I look at him and I say, shut the 64 00:03:35.310 --> 00:03:38.129 fuck up. Can you guys tell I'm like PMSing? The 65 00:03:38.169 --> 00:03:42.090 thing is, is I know that this is going to 66 00:03:42.129 --> 00:03:44.979 turn around soon. One, because in the next few weeks, 67 00:03:45.020 --> 00:03:50.379 I'll have clarity on work shit. But two, bitches, it's 68 00:03:50.439 --> 00:03:55.310 about to be summer. And this isn't just any old 69 00:03:55.569 --> 00:04:01.469 motherfucking summer. This summer is going to be so fucking psychotic. 70 00:04:01.949 --> 00:04:05.319 So fucking out of control. I feel like everyone is 71 00:04:05.439 --> 00:04:10.370 so suppressed. Everyone is so ready. To fucking get naked, 72 00:04:10.789 --> 00:04:14.060 drink alcohol, and fuck. And I know there's going to 73 00:04:14.069 --> 00:04:17.620 be people that are like, Alex, that's not
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right. Well, 74 00:04:17.660 --> 00:04:20.240 that's just, I'm just saying the fucking truth. You know 75 00:04:20.420 --> 00:04:22.779 all of your fucking friends are ready to booty bump 76 00:04:22.800 --> 00:04:24.879 the fuck out of this summer. I'm pretty sure someone 77 00:04:24.899 --> 00:04:26.500 told me that condom sales are up. 78 00:04:27.519 --> 00:04:27.879 Okay? 79 00:04:28.379 --> 00:04:30.399 I didn't say it. The condom sales said it. 80 00:04:30.430 --> 00:04:30.689 Okay? 81 00:04:30.930 --> 00:04:31.790 Fuck you too. 82 00:04:32.389 --> 00:04:32.910 Daddy! 83 00:04:32.930 --> 00:04:37.350 Motherfucking gang. Welcome back to another week of Call Her 84 00:04:37.370 --> 00:04:40.910 Motherfucking Daddy, baby. We have a guest this week who 85 00:04:40.930 --> 00:04:44.209 has now become a fast friend. I've never had someone 86 00:04:44.290 --> 00:04:47.420 on the show so far that's come in and talked 87 00:04:47.480 --> 00:04:51.839 about so openly their dynamic with their parents and how 88 00:04:51.879 --> 00:04:54.720 it's affected not only their romantic life, but their life 89 00:04:54.779 --> 00:04:59.079 in general. And also, I think it's a pretty cool 90 00:05:00.220 --> 00:05:03.389 scenario when you have someone come on that I admit 91 00:05:03.569 --> 00:05:07.370 I had my preconceived notions and I thought certain things 92 00:05:07.410 --> 00:05:09.689 and I didn't know half of the story. And so 93 00:05:10.189 --> 00:05:11.680 I don't know. I think it's cool today in our 94 00:05:11.709 --> 00:05:14.420 social media age, like we stalk people or you follow 95 00:05:14.480 --> 00:05:16.920 someone on Instagram that you think you know their life. 96 00:05:18.279 --> 00:05:20.000 And then I would go as far to say from 97 00:05:20.220 --> 00:05:22.839 these interviews that I'm learning most of the time, what 98 00:05:22.860 --> 00:05:27.319 you see on social media, it's not only not accurate, 99 00:05:27.360 --> 00:05:31.439 but sometimes it's almost the complete opposite scenario. So Let's 100 00:05:31.459 --> 00:05:35.360 have fucking fun this week. Everybody relax. Everybody go take 101 00:05:35.379 --> 00:05:38.100 a fucking shit and then come back and be in 102 00:05:38.120 --> 00:05:40.939 a good fucking mood because this week it is fun. 103 00:05:41.110 --> 00:05:41.850 It's girl talk. 104 00:05:41.870 --> 00:05:42.509 We're chilling. 105 00:05:42.750 --> 00:05:46.290 Go grab a bottle of wine. Get yourself some tequila, vodka, 106 00:05:46.389 --> 00:05:48.930 shot glasses, whatever you're in the goddamn mood for. A 107 00:05:49.310 --> 00:05:52.310 nice blackout or a nice buzz. I don't judge here. 108 00:05:52.850 --> 00:05:59.220 Let's have a good time. Introducing Josie Canseco. I'm going 109 00:05:59.240 --> 00:06:02.040 to be honest. I never thought that I would have 110 00:06:02.100 --> 00:06:04.980 you on the podcast. One, because we didn't know each other, really. 111 00:06:05.040 --> 00:06:07.180 I feel like I've seen you on Instagram. I'm sure 112 00:06:07.279 --> 00:06:08.759 you've seen me on Instagram. Or you're going to be like, nope, 113 00:06:08.779 --> 00:06:09.399 I've never seen you. 114 00:06:09.360 --> 00:06:11.569 In my life. No, we have. Obviously, we crossed paths 115 00:06:11.589 --> 00:06:13.329 a couple times, seen each other. I definitely knew who 116 00:06:13.350 --> 00:06:15.470 you were when you reached out. I was like, fuck yeah, 117 00:06:15.490 --> 00:06:15.970 super down. 118 00:06:16.110 --> 00:06:18.990 So random, though. And so I think I was thinking 119 00:06:19.029 --> 00:06:20.689 about it. And I'm like, just to get right into it, 120 00:06:20.689 --> 00:06:24.389 Daddy Gang, the first real connection we had on the 121 00:06:24.490 --> 00:06:26.810 internet was that your dad DM'd me. 122 00:06:27.459 --> 00:06:30.600 Oh, my God. I completely forgot that that happened. And 123 00:06:30.620 --> 00:06:34.399 I remember, did you tweet me about it? No. I 124 00:06:34.420 --> 00:06:36.379 think someone else was like, they were just like, yeah, 125 00:06:36.399 --> 00:06:39.399 get your dad. So my dad does this. Yeah. It's 126 00:06:39.439 --> 00:06:41.470 a thing he does. And I'm like, please do not 127 00:06:41.589 --> 00:06:43.949 do that to friends, people I know, younger girls. 128 00:06:43.990 --> 00:06:47.209 Well, and I wanted to first almost actually, this is 129 00:06:47.250 --> 00:06:48.889 going to probably throw you up. I actually wanted to 130 00:06:48.930 --> 00:06:52.589 apologize to you because I feel like I've had time 131 00:06:52.670 --> 00:06:54.629 to think about it and i feel like in the 132 00:06:54.769 --> 00:06:57.810 moment i knew he was beefing with barstool like i 133 00:06:57.850 --> 00:07:01.089 work with barstool so i when i saw that i 134 00:07:01.269 --> 00:07:04.329 my initial reaction was to post it because i'm like 135 00:07:04.740 --> 00:07:06.779 oh there's creepy dudes in my dms like what the fuck. 136 00:07:06.720 --> 00:07:08.819 Yeah and he was yelling at like barstool and all 137 00:07:08.839 --> 00:07:11.000 these people about the fights and stuff like he kind 138 00:07:11.019 --> 00:07:12.660 of brought it upon himself. 139 00:07:12.399 --> 00:07:15.240 Right right so then i think in that moment my 140 00:07:15.319 --> 00:07:19.230 initial reaction was like oh like protect barstool and like, 141 00:07:20.089 --> 00:07:23.149 like post it. But as I've now not, I haven't 142 00:07:23.230 --> 00:07:25.629 really gotten to know you yet, but like now knowing 143 00:07:25.850 --> 00:07:28.670 who you are also, I wanted to say, I'm sorry, 144 00:07:28.730 --> 00:07:33.829 because I can't imagine being in your position, and then, like, having, like, 145 00:07:33.870 --> 00:07:36.449 we're the similar age, and then having to see that, like, 146 00:07:36.470 --> 00:07:38.949 that fucking sucks. So now I'm, I wish I could 147 00:07:38.990 --> 00:07:40.050 take that back, so I'm sorry.
148 00:07:40.129 --> 00:07:42.750 You're so sweet! I love that you actually, like, afterwards, you, like, 149 00:07:43.189 --> 00:07:45.589 obviously thought about it in depth, and you're like, wow, like, maybe, like, 150 00:07:45.769 --> 00:07:47.009 I don't know how she felt about it, could have 151 00:07:47.029 --> 00:07:50.000 hurt her. Yeah. It makes you feel any better. It's okay. 152 00:07:50.389 --> 00:07:53.620 It did it. I honestly, like, my dad does whatever 153 00:07:53.639 --> 00:07:55.350 he wants to do whenever he wants to do it. 154 00:07:55.360 --> 00:07:57.120 He's a public figure. He tweets and does his shit, 155 00:07:57.160 --> 00:07:58.459 and I don't really have a say in it, so 156 00:07:58.480 --> 00:08:00.750 at this point, I've just kind of been, like, I 157 00:08:00.769 --> 00:08:02.730 take it as it comes. Like, it is what it is, 158 00:08:02.769 --> 00:08:05.569 and I don't really get affected by it. But also, like, 159 00:08:05.600 --> 00:08:07.379 this has been a thing that he's, like... He doesn't 160 00:08:07.389 --> 00:08:10.720 really know who's my friend exactly and who isn't because 161 00:08:10.740 --> 00:08:13.180 he's not, like, that well-versed with, like, social media and Instagram. 162 00:08:13.779 --> 00:08:15.839 But he DMs. He's, like, DMed a lot of my 163 00:08:15.860 --> 00:08:18.180 friends and sent that exact same thing. Come to Vegas. 164 00:08:18.220 --> 00:08:20.040 Here's my number, blah, blah, blah. And I'm just like, Father, 165 00:08:20.060 --> 00:08:23.060 that is my friend. Like, he's just not around. Like, 166 00:08:23.079 --> 00:08:24.459 he's not super close, so he doesn't know the people 167 00:08:24.480 --> 00:08:25.819 I hang out with all the time. But this is, like, 168 00:08:25.860 --> 00:08:27.220 a thing that a lot of my friends have been like, Yo, 169 00:08:27.220 --> 00:08:29.040 your dad DMing. I'm like... I'm so sorry. 170 00:08:29.060 --> 00:08:30.699 And it puts you in such a hard position because 171 00:08:30.720 --> 00:08:31.660 you're like, dad, what the fuck? 172 00:08:31.680 --> 00:08:35.419 It's my father. He's like 55, 56 now. I'm just like, dad, 173 00:08:35.450 --> 00:08:36.559 these are my girls are like 20, 21. I.... 174 00:08:38.539 --> 00:08:40.500 Well, I think I was thinking about it because I'm like, 175 00:08:40.519 --> 00:08:42.899 people may be like, wait, what the fuck? What's going on? Like, 176 00:08:43.070 --> 00:08:44.889 if they don't know you, if they don't know your dad, 177 00:08:44.970 --> 00:08:46.450 I think it's good for us to kind of just 178 00:08:46.490 --> 00:08:48.909 like go all the way back to the beginning and 179 00:08:48.990 --> 00:08:51.750 kind of just start with like where you're from, who 180 00:08:51.789 --> 00:08:55.309 you are. And obviously like your dad is a part 181 00:08:55.370 --> 00:08:58.960 of your life and like why at first you were like, 182 00:08:59.299 --> 00:09:02.519 quote unquote known. And obviously now you're so much more 183 00:09:02.580 --> 00:09:05.460 than just Jose Canseco's daughter, way more than that. 184 00:09:05.940 --> 00:09:06.240 But yeah. 185 00:09:06.820 --> 00:09:09.759 I have talked so much on this podcast about dating 186 00:09:09.840 --> 00:09:12.480 professional athletes, Josie. And it has been like, I've seen, 187 00:09:12.500 --> 00:09:12.779 but I. 188 00:09:12.759 --> 00:09:15.059 Actually saw, cause I've obviously did my, did my homework, 189 00:09:15.080 --> 00:09:17.370 did some tape, watch my tapes. Um, you have nicknames 190 00:09:17.379 --> 00:09:19.629 for them, which I'm obsessed with. I was like, if 191 00:09:19.649 --> 00:09:21.669 we refer to anyone, like we can give them like little. 192 00:09:21.509 --> 00:09:24.730 Nicknames for you today. Cause Josie doesn't want to talk 193 00:09:24.750 --> 00:09:26.950 like straight names, which I totally respect. We're just talking 194 00:09:26.970 --> 00:09:30.049 about Josie. We're talking about Josie today. But, um, so I've, 195 00:09:30.169 --> 00:09:32.129 I've talked about dating professional athletes and I was sitting 196 00:09:32.149 --> 00:09:33.429 here and I'm like, wow, like this is going to 197 00:09:33.470 --> 00:09:35.690 be such an interesting interview because I'm sitting with someone 198 00:09:35.730 --> 00:09:38.639 right now that is not isn't dating professional athletes, but 199 00:09:38.700 --> 00:09:41.019 is the daughter of one. 200 00:09:41.039 --> 00:09:45.409 And I've seen his dating life and how athletes perceive girlfriends, relationships, 201 00:09:45.529 --> 00:09:47.889 and yes, doesn't seem great. Right. 202 00:09:47.990 --> 00:09:49.429 It's not, it's not. 203 00:09:49.570 --> 00:09:50.009 Okay. 204 00:09:50.029 --> 00:09:54.070 So can you kind of explain like growing up as the, 205 00:09:54.210 --> 00:09:57.110 in that position, like walk us through what that was like? 206 00:09:58.190 --> 00:10:02.350 So my parents split very young. They met at a Hooters. 207 00:10:02.370 --> 00:10:04.210 It was my mom's first day working at Hooters and 208 00:10:04.230 --> 00:10:05.769 she like just got a little boob job and she 209 00:10:05.789 --> 00:10:07.490 was so excited. And the first day I worked, she 210 00:10:07.509 --> 00:10:09.830 met my dad, pretty much fell in love instantly. And 211 00:10:09.850 --> 00:10:11.909 he like took her up out of Cleveland, Ohio. But yeah, 212 00:10:11.929 --> 00:10:14.480 they met and they were together, fell in love, got pregnant, 213 00:10:14.500 --> 00:10:16.039 got married. And then they were only together for a 214 00:10:16.029 --> 00:10:18.679 couple of years because I think there was a certain 215 00:10:18.779 --> 00:10:22.960 level of like, toxicity and unfaithfulness between both of them. 216 00:10:23.080 --> 00:10:24.860 I think my dad kind of initiated... I mean, he 217 00:10:24.879 --> 00:10:26.210 was an athlete. He was in the road. Like, back 218 00:10:26.230 --> 00:10:28.629 in the day, that
era of baseball and, like, his 219 00:10:28.649 --> 00:10:31.129 level of success was, like, massive. It was, like, really 220 00:10:31.149 --> 00:10:34.169 put baseball on the map as a sport. And, yeah, 221 00:10:34.190 --> 00:10:35.669 and they just, like, kind of split. And then I 222 00:10:35.710 --> 00:10:38.629 was raised in L.A. with my mom. Okay. Single mom 223 00:10:38.669 --> 00:10:40.610 just kind of raised me her whole life, me and her. That's, like, 224 00:10:40.649 --> 00:10:42.549 my rock. My mom was, like, my best friend on 225 00:10:42.710 --> 00:10:45.389 the planet. She's, like, the best person ever. And my 226 00:10:45.450 --> 00:10:48.049 dad just kind of always, like. 227 00:10:49.509 --> 00:10:52.549 So he retired or not retired. He got kind of 228 00:10:52.570 --> 00:10:54.669 like blackballed because I don't, for anyone who doesn't know, 229 00:10:54.970 --> 00:10:57.389 took steroids and like got kicked out of baseball and 230 00:10:57.409 --> 00:10:59.330 then wrote a book and kind of like snitched on people, 231 00:10:59.370 --> 00:11:01.789 but it was actually like the truth. And so my 232 00:11:01.830 --> 00:11:03.710 whole childhood with him, he was just kind of always, 233 00:11:03.750 --> 00:11:06.149 since he stopped playing baseball, like kind of abruptly, he 234 00:11:06.169 --> 00:11:08.269 just always kind of had to chase the next opportunity 235 00:11:08.320 --> 00:11:10.799 for money and success because he went from being the 236 00:11:10.820 --> 00:11:13.500 highest paid athlete in the world to having nothing. Like 237 00:11:13.519 --> 00:11:15.120 I've seen my dad at a point of having like, 238 00:11:15.139 --> 00:11:17.220 you know, $ 20 to his name and not knowing like, 239 00:11:17.629 --> 00:11:19.789 his next meal and stuff, and, like, he's really been 240 00:11:19.820 --> 00:11:20.500 through a journey. 241 00:11:21.519 --> 00:11:24.659 That's already interesting, too, because I feel like, naturally, just 242 00:11:24.700 --> 00:11:27.970 to be honest, I think anyone would perceive you as being. 243 00:11:30.019 --> 00:11:31.879 Not like I feel like people look you and probably 244 00:11:31.899 --> 00:11:33.779 like oh she has it so easy like that. 245 00:11:33.620 --> 00:11:36.860 Everyone thinks I'm rich everyone thinks I'm just like rich 246 00:11:36.899 --> 00:11:38.679 and Canseco's daughter you have so much money this and 247 00:11:38.710 --> 00:11:40.350 that I'm like little do they know like that is 248 00:11:40.370 --> 00:11:42.210 so not the case so. 249 00:11:42.090 --> 00:11:44.370 At all you're raised by your mother what was your 250 00:11:44.409 --> 00:11:47.370 relationship then with like your dad like was he in 251 00:11:47.409 --> 00:11:48.509 your life. 252 00:11:49.090 --> 00:11:51.690 So he tried to be here and there like he 253 00:11:51.710 --> 00:11:54.830 lived in LA for I'd say maybe like four or 254 00:11:54.950 --> 00:11:58.409 five years total throughout my entire life to
date. Ever 255 00:11:58.450 --> 00:12:01.929 since then, he's lived elsewhere. He's been playing softball, like, 256 00:12:01.950 --> 00:12:04.409 playing baseball, like, Little League, kind of, like, whatever he 257 00:12:04.450 --> 00:12:06.190 can get his hands on to play and make money, 258 00:12:06.230 --> 00:12:07.789 he would do that. And a lot of the time, 259 00:12:07.809 --> 00:12:10.549 that meant not being around me, unfortunately. But, you know 260 00:12:10.580 --> 00:12:11.960 what I mean? He had to make money. He had 261 00:12:11.980 --> 00:12:13.639 to do something. So I kind of, you know, I 262 00:12:13.639 --> 00:12:16.000 have to give him a little bit of respect for, like, hustling. 263 00:12:16.019 --> 00:12:16.440 Totally. 264 00:12:16.460 --> 00:12:18.279 But he wasn't around, really, ever. 265 00:12:18.419 --> 00:12:22.580 So basically... for everyone listening, I'm gonna, you can explain now, like, 266 00:12:22.759 --> 00:12:26.799 your most vivid memory of your father is probably when 267 00:12:26.870 --> 00:12:27.809 this book came out. 268 00:12:27.870 --> 00:12:29.409 Yeah, it was just, like, the time where he was 269 00:12:29.429 --> 00:12:32.350 probably the most, uh, controversial. He had, this was, like, 270 00:12:32.549 --> 00:12:35.210 the year after, uh, playing, so he still had money, 271 00:12:35.230 --> 00:12:37.250 he was out in LA, he was getting into acting, 272 00:12:37.269 --> 00:12:39.379 he was always, like, the Playboy Mansion, writing his book, 273 00:12:39.460 --> 00:12:42.600 and he was, like, very controversial, but, like, still successful, 274 00:12:42.759 --> 00:12:44.240 and so as soon as he wrote the book and 275 00:12:44.279 --> 00:12:47.070 the book came out, I got a lot of, um, 276 00:12:48.330 --> 00:12:50.570 heat for it i guess it's his daughter and like 277 00:12:50.629 --> 00:12:53.809 heard a lot of weird terms and like very derogatory like. 278 00:12:53.970 --> 00:12:57.070 Well let's first explain yeah the book was basically and 279 00:12:57.110 --> 00:12:59.710 correct me if i'm wrong but he essentially came out 280 00:12:59.909 --> 00:13:03.610 and exploited the mlb for saying like a bunch of 281 00:13:03.649 --> 00:13:05.789 these guys are on steroids yeah and at first he 282 00:13:05.830 --> 00:13:08.090 got blackballed because everyone was like what are you talking 283 00:13:08.110 --> 00:13:10.250 about that's not true that's not true meanwhile ends up 284 00:13:10.269 --> 00:13:11.379 coming out that he was. 285 00:13:11.340 --> 00:13:13.549 Slowly but surely this is true this is true a 286 00:13:13.549 --> 00:13:15.320 raw everything you know what i mean like bring up 287 00:13:15.360 --> 00:13:17.620 names but all yeah it was all ended up being true. 288 00:13:17.500 --> 00:13:19.419 So at first it was like oh you're a fucking 289 00:13:19.539 --> 00:13:22.200 snitch because you're coming out and but what you're revealing 290 00:13:22.240 --> 00:13:24.299 the truth and the
dark side of what at that 291 00:13:24.340 --> 00:13:26.059 time the mlb was and the. 292 00:13:26.039 --> 00:13:28.159 Guys were testifying in court being like i have not 293 00:13:28.259 --> 00:13:30.080 i never have this and that like mark mcguire these 294 00:13:30.100 --> 00:13:31.590 people were just like i swear to god i've never 295 00:13:31.610 --> 00:13:33.990 done it and it's like but you are and then 296 00:13:34.049 --> 00:13:36.149 my dad was so bitter because he was the only 297 00:13:36.289 --> 00:13:39.629 one who my dad was obviously like not to like Yeah, 298 00:13:39.649 --> 00:13:41.690 go for it. Blow smoke up his ass. But he 299 00:13:41.730 --> 00:13:44.519 was like incredible at what he did. He was very talented. And, 300 00:13:44.559 --> 00:13:48.259 you know, I know the steroid era was like controversial 301 00:13:48.279 --> 00:13:50.750 in the sense of like, did they really work that hard? Like, 302 00:13:50.889 --> 00:13:53.590 was it just steroids or whatever? But he was great 303 00:13:53.649 --> 00:13:57.120 and he lost, just like that, his passion. And it 304 00:13:57.159 --> 00:13:59.240 was unfair that all these other players kept making money 305 00:13:59.279 --> 00:14:02.159 and kept getting to play. And he didn't when they 306 00:14:02.200 --> 00:14:03.299 were all doing the same thing. 307 00:14:03.580 --> 00:14:05.340 When did he, like, why did he stop playing? Why 308 00:14:05.360 --> 00:14:06.100 did he retire? 309 00:14:06.639 --> 00:14:09.029 So he got blackballed in the sense that, like, no 310 00:14:09.129 --> 00:14:13.090 one offered him a deal. Like, everyone just kind of 311 00:14:13.129 --> 00:14:15.509 congregated and talked about the idea of, like, do we 312 00:14:15.529 --> 00:14:17.129 want to play with Jose? Do we want Jose to 313 00:14:17.149 --> 00:14:18.580 go on any of our teams? He went from being 314 00:14:18.620 --> 00:14:20.600 like highly paid and like entertaining and one of the 315 00:14:20.620 --> 00:14:23.000 best players, not a single offer. No one would speak 316 00:14:23.019 --> 00:14:24.600 to him. No one would talk to him. Mark McGuire, 317 00:14:24.620 --> 00:14:26.519 his like bash brother boy, like cut him off. Like 318 00:14:26.620 --> 00:14:31.220 everyone completely like blacklisted him from the MLB as a whole. 319 00:14:31.240 --> 00:14:34.840 And I think it was obviously the organization that was like, no, 320 00:14:35.139 --> 00:14:35.860 we're done with this. 321 00:14:36.159 --> 00:14:40.279 Josie, can you walk me through your life when that 322 00:14:40.399 --> 00:14:43.179 book comes out? Was there bullying, et cetera? Yeah. 323 00:14:43.210 --> 00:14:47.169 Uh, I just, like, always, so obviously being Josie Canseco 324 00:14:47.220 --> 00:14:48.860 and having the name tied to me, like, I just 325 00:14:49.000 --> 00:14:53.019 always heard about my dad, but he was never really around. Like, 326 00:14:53.059 --> 00:14:54.559 he tried to be, and he tried to be there. 327 00:14:54.600 --> 00:14:55.940 He tried to be there for me, and, like, this 328 00:14:56.000 --> 00:14:58.059 is when he was in LA, and he was, you know, local. 329 00:14:58.100 --> 00:14:59.460 He lived in the Valley, I think, in, like, Encino 330 00:14:59.500 --> 00:15:01.539 or something, and I'd see him here and there, but, like, 331 00:15:02.480 --> 00:15:05.419 success and fame and money was always before me, and 332 00:15:05.820 --> 00:15:08.620 so therefore, like, Like, I was, like, for example, like, 333 00:15:08.850 --> 00:15:10.629 I was, like, so I cheerleaded for a while, like, 334 00:15:10.649 --> 00:15:13.269 competitive cheering, and he would, like, not show up to 335 00:15:13.309 --> 00:15:16.210 my competitions, and everyone was like, oh, Conseco's daughter, Conseco's daughter, 336 00:15:16.230 --> 00:15:18.149 and I'd be like, I don't even know. 337 00:15:18.230 --> 00:15:19.529 Yeah, yeah. 338 00:15:19.929 --> 00:15:21.500 And I know he tried his best, but, like, he 339 00:15:21.519 --> 00:15:23.460 just had a lot on his plate, and maybe, you know, 340 00:15:23.700 --> 00:15:26.580 I think sometimes people have kids when they're not ready or, 341 00:15:26.679 --> 00:15:28.899 you know, appropriate timing, so maybe that's part of it. Yeah. 342 00:15:29.409 --> 00:15:33.049 Do you remember anyone, like, specifically saying anything to you 343 00:15:33.330 --> 00:15:35.889 about when those, like, what would people say to you? 344 00:15:36.029 --> 00:15:38.340 They would just be like, I mean, anything that they 345 00:15:38.379 --> 00:15:42.220 could shoot at me for, like, your dad's a fucking snitch, blah, blah, 346 00:15:42.259 --> 00:15:45.220 fuck you and your family. At the time, my mom 347 00:15:45.259 --> 00:15:47.559 had also, like, maybe, like, a year after had done Playboy. 348 00:15:48.159 --> 00:15:50.759 Which was, like, back in its prime. Like, did the cover, 349 00:15:50.899 --> 00:15:54.860 full nude. Like, hot as fuck. But for so many reasons... 350 00:15:54.700 --> 00:15:55.639 I know, I'm like, go mom. 351 00:15:55.659 --> 00:15:56.500 Go mom. 352 00:15:56.639 --> 00:15:58.080 But for so many reasons, people were like, yeah, you're 353 00:15:58.100 --> 00:16:01.279 fucking family. Fuck this. Fuck you. Like, your dad's a snitch. Like, 354 00:16:01.299 --> 00:16:04.320 your dad's, like, worthless. And I'd, like, be out in 355 00:16:04.379 --> 00:16:07.120 public with my dad and people would, like, yell at him. Like, 356 00:16:07.139 --> 00:16:09.340 people had the audacity. When we'd be, like, walking in, like, 357 00:16:09.360 --> 00:16:11.460 a movie theater or whatever. I specifically remember a time 358 00:16:11.480 --> 00:16:13.240 we were walking into a movie theater, like, him and 359 00:16:13.279 --> 00:16:15.429 I together because we'd had, like, daddy-daughter dates or whatever. And... 360 00:16:17.519 --> 00:16:20.000 walking out and someone's like you fucking snitch and I'm 361 00:16:20.039
--> 00:16:22.190 like I literally just like at this time my dad 362 00:16:22.230 --> 00:16:23.990 wouldn't really educate me on much because I was so 363 00:16:24.029 --> 00:16:26.870 young but I knew like something was bad and I 364 00:16:26.909 --> 00:16:28.850 knew something wasn't wrong but I just like didn't know 365 00:16:28.889 --> 00:16:31.309 what so I was like why do these people hate 366 00:16:31.330 --> 00:16:33.169 my dad why is my dad like one of the 367 00:16:33.220 --> 00:16:37.720 most sought after spoken about kind of people right now 368 00:16:37.779 --> 00:16:39.679 but I just I was just young I didn't get 369 00:16:39.700 --> 00:16:41.139 it and I didn't get why I was getting hate 370 00:16:41.159 --> 00:16:42.039 for it either and then. 371 00:16:42.649 --> 00:16:45.139 Josie that is like the like I'm trying to put 372 00:16:45.200 --> 00:16:47.299 myself in that situation because I feel like at a 373 00:16:47.399 --> 00:16:51.360 young age that's not a normal situation to have as 374 00:16:51.399 --> 00:16:53.659 a child that like you're walking into a movie theater 375 00:16:53.700 --> 00:16:56.360 and people are screaming at your dad yeah like I 376 00:16:56.379 --> 00:16:59.899 I can't even imagine what mentally that did to you 377 00:17:00.000 --> 00:17:03.269 and like psychologically because you were an only child right. 378 00:17:03.070 --> 00:17:06.589 Yeah only child no no siblings Just my Josie. 379 00:17:06.750 --> 00:17:09.130 OK, so like I was like just dealing with some 380 00:17:09.279 --> 00:17:11.740 family shit. The other we have been dealing with it 381 00:17:11.799 --> 00:17:13.599 and I have not publicly talking about right now. But 382 00:17:13.640 --> 00:17:15.839 like I was thinking, too, I was saying to my brother, 383 00:17:15.900 --> 00:17:17.539 I was like, I have no fucking idea what I 384 00:17:17.559 --> 00:17:19.920 would do if I didn't have my siblings. Because I 385 00:17:19.960 --> 00:17:22.299 look back at really hard times in my childhood when 386 00:17:22.319 --> 00:17:24.920 like my dad works for the NHL. And when I 387 00:17:24.960 --> 00:17:26.980 was younger, the NHL went on a big strike. And 388 00:17:27.000 --> 00:17:29.349 so my dad lost his job. And I remember, like, 389 00:17:29.450 --> 00:17:32.849 all my friends growing up were really wealthy. And when 390 00:17:32.890 --> 00:17:34.690 my dad lost his job, like, I couldn't go to 391 00:17:34.730 --> 00:17:35.950 my parents and be like, hey, can I have that 392 00:17:36.000 --> 00:17:38.539 extra $ 20 to go to the mall? And, like, there 393 00:17:38.619 --> 00:17:40.660 was a really hard time in my life where I was, like, 394 00:17:41.000 --> 00:17:43.660 watching my parents struggle, but I would turn to my 395 00:17:43.740 --> 00:17:45.690 siblings and, like, talk about it with them. 396 00:17:45.710 --> 00:17:49.900 Because that's all you have, technically, is, like, family is, like. Unconditional. 397 00:17:50.059 --> 00:17:51.940 And it's trusting and loving. 398 00:17:51.980 --> 00:17:54.400 But I'm like, but you didn't have siblings. So, like, 399 00:17:54.480 --> 00:17:56.380 who the fuck did you go to in those moments 400 00:17:56.420 --> 00:17:59.849 where you're, like, in California, your dad's nowhere to be found, and, like, 401 00:17:59.869 --> 00:18:01.609 your mom is your mom, but it's your mom. Like, 402 00:18:01.829 --> 00:18:04.029 you didn't have siblings. Like, who did you go to 403 00:18:04.269 --> 00:18:05.210 in dark times? 404 00:18:06.109 --> 00:18:06.180 Um. 405 00:18:10.210 --> 00:18:10.910 You don't know one. 406 00:18:11.049 --> 00:18:13.809 No, not really. I just kind of like I think 407 00:18:13.849 --> 00:18:15.930 that kind of translates into why I have this like 408 00:18:16.009 --> 00:18:17.789 tough shell where I just like kind of don't give 409 00:18:17.829 --> 00:18:19.670 a fuck. And I know when to like shut off 410 00:18:19.690 --> 00:18:23.329 and detach and shit because like I didn't really have 411 00:18:23.390 --> 00:18:25.789 anyone to go to and resort to. And like my 412 00:18:25.849 --> 00:18:28.009 mom's upbringing with me is also a different story. She 413 00:18:28.049 --> 00:18:31.150 was around, but she was also kind of like my dad. OK, 414 00:18:31.190 --> 00:18:32.609 so I'm going to kind of put him on blast. 415 00:18:32.650 --> 00:18:33.130 I feel bad. 416 00:18:33.690 --> 00:18:35.710 He just he never took care of us, never paid 417 00:18:35.730 --> 00:18:38.390 child support, never nothing. My mom had no job, no 418 00:18:38.410 --> 00:18:41.799 nothing and had to. Raised me single mom with, like, nothing. 419 00:18:42.720 --> 00:18:45.900 So she was kind of, you know, she was hustling, too. 420 00:18:45.980 --> 00:18:48.130 She had to. She had to work. She did Playboy. 421 00:18:48.190 --> 00:18:49.690 She ended up doing a reality show that was, like, 422 00:18:49.730 --> 00:18:52.910 successful as well. And she hustled, but that means that 423 00:18:52.970 --> 00:18:54.410 she had to be absent as well a lot of 424 00:18:54.430 --> 00:18:54.809 the time. 425 00:18:54.829 --> 00:18:56.009 So it's like you're just, like, alone. 426 00:18:56.029 --> 00:18:57.309 So just, yeah. 427 00:18:57.690 --> 00:18:58.990 Just little Josie. 428 00:18:59.089 --> 00:19:00.990 Just me. Now I, like, I love it. I appreciate 429 00:19:01.009 --> 00:19:03.559 it because that's obviously probably what I'm used to. But, yeah, 430 00:19:03.700 --> 00:19:06.339 I just, I mean, I just, I don't know. 431 00:19:06.359 --> 00:19:06.700 I just. 432 00:19:07.779 --> 00:19:09.619 I couldn't even tell you. Friends, maybe? 433 00:19:09.640 --> 00:19:11.240 Yeah, I was going to say, do you look at 434 00:19:11.279 --> 00:19:15.750 your friends with greater value? They're like your sisters. 435 00:19:15.910 --> 00:19:20.269 I'm such a loyal ride or die for my friends. 436 00:19:20.369 --> 00:19:22.750 If I love you and that's reciprocated and
the respect 437 00:19:22.829 --> 00:19:24.970 and loyalty is reciprocated, I'll die for you type shit 438 00:19:24.990 --> 00:19:26.859 when I connect with someone. Because that's so important to 439 00:19:26.880 --> 00:19:28.480 me and it's so rare. And because I don't have 440 00:19:29.079 --> 00:19:32.039 Brothers and sisters, like, that is priority is being an 441 00:19:32.079 --> 00:19:32.940 incredible people. 442 00:19:32.960 --> 00:19:33.549 Absolutely. 443 00:19:33.589 --> 00:19:35.970 And an incredible person to the people who are there 444 00:19:36.009 --> 00:19:37.630 for you and love you. And, like, now I have 445 00:19:37.690 --> 00:19:39.269 so many good friends. I mean, actually not so many. 446 00:19:39.289 --> 00:19:41.890 That's a gap. But I have a couple of really 447 00:19:41.910 --> 00:19:44.970 close people that I can go to for anything, anytime, anywhere, 448 00:19:44.990 --> 00:19:47.789 and they're there for me. 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Because you can't keep up 470 00:20:43.789 --> 00:20:44.750 with all the group chat. 471 00:20:45.619 --> 00:21:14.269 OK, my other question was, Cause. 472 00:21:14.150 --> 00:21:15.759 This is, we're going to get into the dating shit, 473 00:21:15.799 --> 00:21:19.359 but I wanted to know steroids are obviously a drug. 474 00:21:19.380 --> 00:21:23.839 And I was wondering like, were you able when you 475 00:21:23.880 --> 00:21:27.500 were younger and in your life to separate like your 476 00:21:27.579 --> 00:21:31.029 dad on when, when that was the case versus like 477 00:21:31.529 --> 00:21:34.049 who basically like who he was like when he was 478 00:21:34.130 --> 00:21:36.630 on drugs versus not like, or was it all one 479 00:21:36.710 --> 00:21:38.420 for you? Because, like, I feel like it must have 480 00:21:38.440 --> 00:21:40.579 been hard to differentiate at such a young age. 481 00:21:40.539 --> 00:21:41.779 Of, like, why he was acting. He just, like, kept 482 00:21:41.799 --> 00:21:44.410 it all from me. But I did. So he had... Obviously, 483 00:21:44.430 --> 00:21:47.109 steroids comes with, like, you know, mood swings a little 484 00:21:47.150 --> 00:21:51.650 bit and stuff like that. And I definitely... Excuse me. 485 00:21:51.769 --> 00:21:54.309 I definitely saw it. And, like, I knew he was 486 00:21:54.349 --> 00:21:56.720 on steroids because, obviously, it was, like, public knowledge. I'm 487 00:21:56.759 --> 00:21:58.240 still his daughter. I still know what's going on. I 488 00:21:58.279 --> 00:21:59.900 just don't know, like, to what extent exactly. 489 00:21:59.920 --> 00:22:01.039 Yeah. 490 00:22:02.299 --> 00:22:04.319 Yeah, it was tough. He was moody and he was. 491 00:22:06.529 --> 00:22:08.609 He was always in his head and he was bitter from, 492 00:22:08.930 --> 00:22:10.269 you know, he was already had a reason to be 493 00:22:10.309 --> 00:22:13.670 upset and be bitter, much less. Yeah, he was just 494 00:22:13.710 --> 00:22:16.009 kind of like, I just didn't know what the fuck 495 00:22:16.049 --> 00:22:18.390 steroids was. Like, I didn't know exactly how much he 496 00:22:18.410 --> 00:22:20.640 was taking, like finding out that he was taking like 497 00:22:20.740 --> 00:22:23.720 way above the appropriate dose to get to a certain 498 00:22:23.759 --> 00:22:26.319 point of a certain build, you know. 499 00:22:26.339 --> 00:22:30.000 You obviously also on top of that being public, it 500 00:22:30.019 --> 00:22:32.859 was public that some of your dad's relationships were like 501 00:22:32.920 --> 00:22:34.339 volatile and intense. 502 00:22:34.359 --> 00:22:34.500 Yeah. 503 00:22:34.759 --> 00:22:39.700 Yeah. How did that affect you at a young age? And, like, 504 00:22:39.720 --> 00:22:44.559 how has it affected you with men, I guess? Like, 505 00:22:44.660 --> 00:22:47.559 that's a very public topic I know is probably very sensitive, 506 00:22:47.619 --> 00:22:49.119 and we don't have to talk about it if you're uncomfortable. 507 00:22:49.140 --> 00:22:52.000 No, I'm just trying to make sure the way I, obviously, 508 00:22:52.039 --> 00:22:55.089 articulate it is the way I mean, and I'm getting 509 00:22:55.109 --> 00:22:56.980 my point across properly, because no one's ever asked me 510 00:22:57.009 --> 00:22:57.440 that question. 511 00:22:57.789 --> 00:22:57.990 Yeah. 512 00:22:58.130 --> 00:23:01.470 And this is my second podcast. Take your time. I 513 00:23:01.650 --> 00:23:04.630 think that... Having the kind of dad I did, whether
514 00:23:04.690 --> 00:23:07.720 it was watching him with girlfriends, the cheating or the, 515 00:23:08.349 --> 00:23:11.470 you know, I don't know if he's ever, you know, 516 00:23:11.630 --> 00:23:13.680 laid a hand or done anything. Like, these are things 517 00:23:13.700 --> 00:23:15.299 that I kind of like out of sight, out of mind. 518 00:23:15.319 --> 00:23:17.859 I don't really talk about those kinds of things. I 519 00:23:17.859 --> 00:23:22.319 just don't know. You know what I mean? But I 520 00:23:22.400 --> 00:23:25.910 think just seeing how he was as a partner made 521 00:23:25.970 --> 00:23:29.940 me have this bitter taste to men being like, I 522 00:23:29.960 --> 00:23:32.819 will never be that girl that gets like played. And like, 523 00:23:32.920 --> 00:23:34.769 I just kind of, I move with a more of 524 00:23:34.809 --> 00:23:38.390 a masculine energy, I think. And I'm just like, I 525 00:23:38.410 --> 00:23:39.750 don't know. I'm just not going to like stress about 526 00:23:39.789 --> 00:23:43.470 a fuck boy and like be like, just the way 527 00:23:43.509 --> 00:23:45.190 I treat them. Like I'll have a thing with a 528 00:23:45.210 --> 00:23:46.890 guy and I'll like be talking to them. I won't 529 00:23:46.910 --> 00:23:48.859 even sleep with them. And I'll just like, you know, 530 00:23:48.880 --> 00:23:50.579 we'll like talk and this and that. We'll hang out 531 00:23:50.619 --> 00:23:51.220 and then done. 532 00:23:51.279 --> 00:23:51.539 Boom. 533 00:23:52.200 --> 00:23:53.299 Like over it. 534 00:23:53.339 --> 00:23:54.900 Like all of a sudden one day things will just change. 535 00:23:54.940 --> 00:23:57.259 I'll just be like onto the next type shit. But 536 00:23:57.299 --> 00:23:59.720 maybe that's from seeing my dad be like that and 537 00:23:59.779 --> 00:24:02.640 be such like a fuck boy kind of guy. 538 00:24:02.660 --> 00:24:04.720 Because you saw like the inner workings from your dad. 539 00:24:04.740 --> 00:24:07.089 Of a man and how men feel. I mean, granted, 540 00:24:07.109 --> 00:24:10.170 my dad's probably not a great example of guys, but 541 00:24:10.230 --> 00:24:12.329 that was my example. You know what I mean? That 542 00:24:12.369 --> 00:24:14.150 was my father figure growing up. So it definitely made 543 00:24:14.190 --> 00:24:16.109 me move in a more like cold kind of like. 544 00:24:17.190 --> 00:24:18.740 A lot of guys have been like, wow, you're the 545 00:24:18.759 --> 00:24:20.640 girl version of me. Like, a lot of guys I've, like, 546 00:24:20.700 --> 00:24:22.420 hung out with or dated, they'll be like, wow, you're, like, 547 00:24:22.440 --> 00:24:24.259 literally me in girl form. And I'm like, I know. 548 00:24:24.279 --> 00:24:24.740 I know. 549 00:24:24.759 --> 00:24:27.490 Well, because you're going about it, I kind of, I, that's, I, 550 00:24:28.220 --> 00:24:29.920 not that it's, I don't know if it's healthy or not, 551 00:24:29.960 --> 00:24:30.809 but I say it. 552 00:24:30.829 -->
00:24:32.309 I don't know if any of it's healthy either. I'm 553 00:24:32.329 --> 00:24:33.690 just like, just myself. That's just what it is. Let's 554 00:24:33.730 --> 00:24:34.490 hope for it's healthy. 555 00:24:34.710 --> 00:24:38.170 Yeah, I think, like, I've said at times to... women 556 00:24:38.190 --> 00:24:40.710 that are looking for advice on, like, there's so many 557 00:24:40.769 --> 00:24:42.509 guys that are playing me and I don't know what 558 00:24:42.529 --> 00:24:43.170 I'm doing wrong. 559 00:24:43.190 --> 00:24:45.289 Well, guys are like that. Guys move the way, like, 560 00:24:45.490 --> 00:24:47.339 I kind of move now. They just, like, talk to 561 00:24:47.359 --> 00:24:49.059 a girl, get her hopes up, the girl gets feelings, 562 00:24:49.099 --> 00:24:50.900 and then they bail. Like, I'm on the other end 563 00:24:50.920 --> 00:24:52.279 of that now. And I'm like, if you get feelings 564 00:24:52.299 --> 00:24:56.519 for me, please stay away. Please, just don't call me. Like, 565 00:24:56.539 --> 00:24:58.500 don't text me. Like, I don't know. Also, when I 566 00:24:58.519 --> 00:25:00.299 fall for someone or if I, like, really start liking someone, 567 00:25:00.319 --> 00:25:02.000 it has to be reciprocated because I'll never be the 568 00:25:02.019 --> 00:25:05.460 first one to, like, I'm never the needy one. I'm 569 00:25:05.480 --> 00:25:07.700 never the one that's, like... like calling you every day 570 00:25:07.720 --> 00:25:09.519 let's hang out blah blah like I know and it's 571 00:25:09.539 --> 00:25:10.940 not even a game it's just kind of like how 572 00:25:11.000 --> 00:25:13.140 I am with dating like I love boys I love 573 00:25:13.180 --> 00:25:15.029 dating I think it's fun but I'm never that girl 574 00:25:15.140 --> 00:25:18.849 that is gonna chase one or like go out of 575 00:25:18.890 --> 00:25:21.130 my way to like really be with one or have 576 00:25:21.150 --> 00:25:22.009 you ever told. 577 00:25:21.750 --> 00:25:27.509 A guy you loved him first yes yes really yes 578 00:25:27.890 --> 00:25:32.150 um my my last relationship wow was that hard for 579 00:25:32.190 --> 00:25:32.819 you to. 580 00:25:32.779 --> 00:25:34.579 Say that it was hard because the first time I 581 00:25:34.619 --> 00:25:37.380 said it he didn't say it back yeah but he 582 00:25:37.400 --> 00:25:39.079 said it ended like a week later and like whatever 583 00:25:39.519 --> 00:25:42.940 but um what was that like it was I so 584 00:25:43.140 --> 00:25:44.880 it was at a point where I was comfortable enough 585 00:25:44.900 --> 00:25:46.680 to say it because I knew that we loved each 586 00:25:46.740 --> 00:25:49.380 other we were getting so close to a point where 587 00:25:49.400 --> 00:25:51.099 I was just like I know he like loves me 588 00:25:51.119 --> 00:25:52.890 and has love for me we're just it's just a 589 00:25:53.220 --> 00:25:55.349 scary thing to say especially I think for him it 590 00:25:55.369 --> 00:25:57.069 was just like you know a moment a hump to 591 00:25:57.089 --> 00:26:01.490 get over um and you took it no so when 592 00:26:01.529 --> 00:26:02.910 I said it and it didn't say it back I 593 00:26:02.910 --> 00:26:05.339 was just like That is a shit feeling, and I 594 00:26:05.380 --> 00:26:07.740 don't want to feel it ever again. But I'm honestly, like, 595 00:26:07.819 --> 00:26:10.099 the older I get, the more I'm just, like, down 596 00:26:10.140 --> 00:26:12.029 to express myself. If I feel a certain way about you, 597 00:26:12.039 --> 00:26:14.039 I'm going to let you know. I'd rather be an 598 00:26:14.099 --> 00:26:16.900 open book than play games and, like, not to... You 599 00:26:16.920 --> 00:26:18.390 know what I mean? Like, if I feel something, I'll 600 00:26:18.410 --> 00:26:19.130 tell you. I'm not afraid. 601 00:26:19.369 --> 00:26:21.210 I actually agree with you in the sense of, like, 602 00:26:21.390 --> 00:26:25.440 I would never say... that I love someone first unless 603 00:26:25.700 --> 00:26:28.440 I knew it was going like I knew. 604 00:26:28.279 --> 00:26:30.420 It we had like a joke about it yeah yeah. 605 00:26:30.319 --> 00:26:32.769 So you weren't like out of nowhere the crazy girl 606 00:26:33.089 --> 00:26:35.569 I love you and it's like read the room bitch 607 00:26:35.730 --> 00:26:38.190 like what is going on self-awareness don't say it now 608 00:26:38.450 --> 00:26:40.269 right no I feel you totally here we go you're 609 00:26:40.289 --> 00:26:43.240 a Scorpio I am I was like literally reading up 610 00:26:43.319 --> 00:26:44.859 on Scorpios you have to tell me if this. 611 00:26:44.799 --> 00:26:48.430 Is true I'm a very cliche Scorpio, so I've learned. 612 00:26:48.490 --> 00:26:49.359 I think so, yeah. 613 00:26:49.450 --> 00:26:53.079 Okay, they said, Scorpio women are universally known as the 614 00:26:53.259 --> 00:26:55.680 sex goddesses of Zodiac. 615 00:26:55.980 --> 00:26:57.460 Josie! Oh my god! 616 00:26:57.900 --> 00:27:01.480 Renowned for their passion, their strong libidos, and their exceptional 617 00:27:01.619 --> 00:27:05.049 prowls as lovers. Sex is extremely important to these women, 618 00:27:05.190 --> 00:27:07.869 and sharing a sexual connection with their deeply bonded lover 619 00:27:07.930 --> 00:27:10.769 is necessary for them to feel completely fulfilled in life. 620 00:27:10.910 --> 00:27:11.869 That being said. 621 00:27:12.329 --> 00:27:15.170 Scorpios don't really love to sleep around, nor do they 622 00:27:15.210 --> 00:27:18.349 take sex casually. So until they find their soul match, 623 00:27:18.390 --> 00:27:21.410 a Scorpio can feel a little adrift without a partner. 624 00:27:21.430 --> 00:27:22.609 Is that true? 625 00:27:24.490 --> 00:27:27.450 Yes, the first half a little bit. Also, in the 626 00:27:27.470 --> 00:27:30.190 sleeping around sense as well, it takes... So I have 627 00:27:30.230 --> 00:27:32.609 a rule. Oh, tell us your rule. So minimum a 628 00:27:32.670 -->
00:27:35.450 month of knowing someone, getting to know them. Like if 629 00:27:35.490 --> 00:27:37.490 I'm seeing someone or talking to someone, minimum a month 630 00:27:37.529 --> 00:27:40.089 to two months, depending on how close we get, how quickly... 631 00:27:40.299 --> 00:27:42.180 Before I end up sleeping with them or doing anything 632 00:27:42.220 --> 00:27:42.500 with them. 633 00:27:42.940 --> 00:27:45.299 Okay, what I posted on my Instagram the other day, 634 00:27:45.480 --> 00:27:48.180 which I was dying because so many women were, like, 635 00:27:48.440 --> 00:27:49.210 relating to it. 636 00:27:49.299 --> 00:27:52.619 I've heard that before. Have you? Yeah, so I've heard it. So, typically, 637 00:27:52.640 --> 00:27:54.680 I think I saw a TikTok about it. It was, like, someone, like, 638 00:27:55.069 --> 00:27:58.029 public speaker, just, like, a TED Talk type thing. Being, like, 639 00:27:58.069 --> 00:28:01.009 your first love is... So do you want to say 640 00:28:01.029 --> 00:28:02.289 what it was? Yeah. 641 00:28:02.369 --> 00:28:02.589 Okay. 642 00:28:02.609 --> 00:28:04.319 So I came up because I was looking for books. 643 00:28:04.359 --> 00:28:06.240 I'm like, I think it would be fascinating to start 644 00:28:06.299 --> 00:28:09.079 reading books and then relating it into the podcast because 645 00:28:09.440 --> 00:28:10.519 we love to be educated. Yeah. 646 00:28:10.579 --> 00:28:11.119 Yeah. 647 00:28:11.140 --> 00:28:13.079 So the book is called You Only Fall in Love 648 00:28:13.180 --> 00:28:17.519 Three Times. And apparently the three people is number one 649 00:28:17.640 --> 00:28:20.039 is the soulmate. And the soulmate introduces us. 650 00:28:20.140 --> 00:28:21.119 It is the first love. 651 00:28:21.160 --> 00:28:22.160 Yes. The first love. 652 00:28:22.180 --> 00:28:22.329 Okay. 653 00:28:22.720 --> 00:28:26.210 Introduces us to the dream of love but somehow what 654 00:28:26.289 --> 00:28:28.730 seemed like it would be happily ever after wasn't meant 655 00:28:28.769 --> 00:28:30.509 to last forever and it's like your soulmate and. 656 00:28:30.549 --> 00:28:33.529 I can relate to this right and isn't it crazy like. 657 00:28:33.650 --> 00:28:36.609 I'm thinking of the person just like yes and they 658 00:28:36.630 --> 00:28:38.750 just showed you like what love was then the next 659 00:28:38.849 --> 00:28:42.250 is we're so consumed with making the karmic love work 660 00:28:42.509 --> 00:28:45.009 that we often fail to question whether it even should 661 00:28:45.069 --> 00:28:47.410 work as painful as it is to accept this love 662 00:28:47.690 --> 00:28:50.279 that felt so right in the beginning is actually all 663 00:28:50.299 --> 00:28:52.779 wrong for you. And so a lot of girls, like, right? 664 00:28:52.859 --> 00:28:54.900 This is crazy. I'm just, like, I'm applying it to 665 00:28:54.940 --> 00:28:57.339 my life. Because I've had two people that I've been, like, 666 00:28:57.960 --> 00:29:00.579 truly head over heels in love with, like, would marry 667 00:29:00.619 --> 00:29:01.200 them type shit. 668 00:29:01.259 --> 00:29:01.519 Wow. 669 00:29:01.680 --> 00:29:04.000 And so I'm like, my third's next. And, like, thinking 670 00:29:04.039 --> 00:29:04.859 about that, I'm just like. 671 00:29:05.200 --> 00:29:08.289 nervous yeah because the third one my house you're like 672 00:29:08.329 --> 00:29:11.150 where is he the third one guys is the twin 673 00:29:11.190 --> 00:29:13.789 flame comes into our lives and often we don't even 674 00:29:13.849 --> 00:29:16.150 know it's love because it's. 675 00:29:16.069 --> 00:29:18.390 Too easy this is the love who helps us to 676 00:29:18.430 --> 00:29:20.980 accept ourselves just as we are because this is precisely 677 00:29:21.019 --> 00:29:22.920 what they do everyone's like alex this is fucking call 678 00:29:22.940 --> 00:29:24.539 her daddy what are you doing right now No, but 679 00:29:24.579 --> 00:29:26.299 I read this and I was like, oh, my God. 680 00:29:26.319 --> 00:29:27.700 And then Josie DM to me and was like, oh, 681 00:29:27.700 --> 00:29:29.299 my God, I can already think of the two of them. 682 00:29:29.359 --> 00:29:33.269 So can you walk us through again? We're not naming names, 683 00:29:33.309 --> 00:29:35.650 but I think you kind of walking us through a 684 00:29:35.710 --> 00:29:38.970 relationship that you knew. Oh, my God, this person is 685 00:29:38.990 --> 00:29:39.569 like my soulmate. 686 00:29:39.609 --> 00:29:39.970 I love this. 687 00:29:40.049 --> 00:29:42.309 Person and it didn't work out and how you walk 688 00:29:42.349 --> 00:29:45.519 away and kind of dissect just like some of the 689 00:29:46.150 --> 00:29:48.259 pros and cons and all the things because i think 690 00:29:48.279 --> 00:29:49.880 a lot of girls are like wait but if it's 691 00:29:49.920 --> 00:29:51.180 your soulmate what the fuck. 692 00:29:51.180 --> 00:29:53.700 I know that's what you think and you work you 693 00:29:53.720 --> 00:29:55.000 work i promise this i'll go but i swear i 694 00:29:55.019 --> 00:29:58.759 just hit the puff last night stupid thing um yeah 695 00:29:58.779 --> 00:30:00.880 so my first relationship my first love like my first 696 00:30:00.920 --> 00:30:03.740 like real love was four years and he was with 697 00:30:03.759 --> 00:30:05.920 this musician who was like always on the road always 698 00:30:05.960 --> 00:30:08.339 traveling always in the studio working touring whatever like kind 699 00:30:08.359 --> 00:30:10.329 of that that the musician life of like you know 700 00:30:10.490 --> 00:30:12.190 girls on the bus getting fucked up every night this 701 00:30:12.210 --> 00:30:15.250 and that um but we were so in love and 702 00:30:15.289 --> 00:30:17.809 so obsessed um and it was I think it was 703 00:30:17.829 --> 00:30:20.990 just kind of like It started off a little rocky. 704 00:30:21.049 --> 00:30:23.029 I think the trust wasn't always there because both of
705 00:30:23.089 --> 00:30:25.019 our jobs and what we did. We were young. I 706 00:30:25.039 --> 00:30:29.160 was 18. He was, like, 25, 26. Okay. And we just, like, 707 00:30:29.200 --> 00:30:31.720 were so in love, but, like, in a controlling way. Like, 708 00:30:31.759 --> 00:30:34.039 I just knew, like, we started off... We, like, formed 709 00:30:34.079 --> 00:30:36.539 bad habits that we didn't know how to break as 710 00:30:36.640 --> 00:30:38.579 we progressed more and more, like, years and years down 711 00:30:38.619 --> 00:30:41.460 the road. And we would just, like, fight all the time. 712 00:30:41.480 --> 00:30:43.160 And what I learned also is, like, so we would 713 00:30:43.200 --> 00:30:44.869 party a lot because he was, like, kind of, like, 714 00:30:44.900 --> 00:30:46.720 a party boy and that was, like, his brand and whatever. 715 00:30:46.740 --> 00:30:46.809 And. 716 00:30:48.809 --> 00:30:50.450 And we'd travel the world together and party, but we 717 00:30:50.470 --> 00:30:52.210 would argue when we partied. And I think because the 718 00:30:52.289 --> 00:30:56.630 alcohol intensifies the emotions and the environment, the girls and 719 00:30:56.650 --> 00:30:59.380 throwing themselves at him, whatever it was, it was hard 720 00:30:59.430 --> 00:31:00.930 because we were so in love, but we were in 721 00:31:01.359 --> 00:31:03.619 one of the most toxic environments for what our love 722 00:31:03.680 --> 00:31:06.480 was and for what it needed. And we were also young. 723 00:31:06.539 --> 00:31:09.799 I was learning. I was growing up. My coping mechanisms 724 00:31:09.839 --> 00:31:13.299 back then for heartbreak were a lot different. We were 725 00:31:13.339 --> 00:31:15.000 super on and off, so whenever we'd break up, I'd 726 00:31:15.039 --> 00:31:17.000 be like, I'm going to go out in L.A. and, like, 727 00:31:17.039 --> 00:31:18.680 do this and go to this guy's after party and 728 00:31:18.700 --> 00:31:20.339 be around these people and blah, blah, blah. Like, fuck 729 00:31:20.380 --> 00:31:23.740 you type shit. Like, more spiteful and, like, toxic behavior. Absolutely. 730 00:31:23.759 --> 00:31:25.559 Because you're younger. And, like, that's what I would have done. 731 00:31:25.579 --> 00:31:27.539 All I knew. I was just like, fuck it. Totally. 732 00:31:28.200 --> 00:31:31.099 And then we just kind of. So my process with 733 00:31:31.240 --> 00:31:34.220 it was that we were together for four years. And 734 00:31:34.279 --> 00:31:37.109 we fought so much and just kind of couldn't. We 735 00:31:37.119 --> 00:31:38.730 tried to make it work so many times. We were 736 00:31:38.750 --> 00:31:40.349 just like, let's try this. Let's do this. Let's make 737 00:31:40.369 --> 00:31:41.869 it work. I love you enough. Like, let's just fucking 738 00:31:41.910 --> 00:31:45.650 do it. Eventually, I fell out of love. Like, eventually, 739 00:31:45.690 --> 00:31:47.539 I just kind of was like, it's not there for 740 00:31:47.559 -->
00:31:49.400 me anymore. Like, I kind of just fell out of love. 741 00:31:50.059 --> 00:31:52.019 Loved him to this day. Like, love him to death. 742 00:31:52.059 --> 00:31:55.339 Will always, like, want the best for him. But passion-wise and, like, 743 00:31:55.420 --> 00:31:57.099 for me to, like, continue to be with someone, it 744 00:31:57.140 --> 00:31:59.470 just wasn't there anymore. And even then, I tried to 745 00:31:59.509 --> 00:32:02.369 stay a little bit longer. I think we both did. Because, 746 00:32:02.410 --> 00:32:05.269 you know, loyalty and love and That unconditional– the idea 747 00:32:05.289 --> 00:32:07.559 of unconditional love in marriage is, like, you go through 748 00:32:07.599 --> 00:32:10.140 hard times. Like, how are people married for, like, 50, 749 00:32:10.140 --> 00:32:10.640 60 years? 750 00:32:10.660 --> 00:32:12.680 Yeah. You think– And it's hard when you, like– because 751 00:32:12.700 --> 00:32:14.660 I'm sure every– I feel like every couple does. Like, 752 00:32:14.680 --> 00:32:17.369 you talked about probably marriage and babies and all the things. 753 00:32:17.410 --> 00:32:18.809 All the time. You go there. I think there was 754 00:32:18.849 --> 00:32:20.329 a point where he was, like, about to, like, propose 755 00:32:20.349 --> 00:32:22.690 to me. Like, we talked about, like– we were– like, 756 00:32:22.710 --> 00:32:24.609 we had promise rings and this and that. Like, we 757 00:32:24.630 --> 00:32:28.500 were just, like, so in love but so young and– And, yeah, 758 00:32:28.519 --> 00:32:31.119 and so we just kind of, like, eventually one day, like, 759 00:32:31.180 --> 00:32:33.369 something popped off. And, like, I remember, like, going on 760 00:32:33.400 --> 00:32:37.630 his phone and finding something that, like, really bothered me. 761 00:32:37.829 --> 00:32:39.990 And I was already, like, I was already ready to go. 762 00:32:40.029 --> 00:32:41.769 I was, like, one more thing happens and, like, I 763 00:32:41.789 --> 00:32:44.289 just see myself, like, having that switch and it's flipping 764 00:32:44.309 --> 00:32:48.750 and it's done. Right. And, yeah, then that happened and 765 00:32:48.769 --> 00:32:50.710 I just kind of was, like, I got to go. 766 00:32:50.910 --> 00:32:52.450 One of us has to go. Right. This is bad. 767 00:32:52.569 --> 00:32:53.569 One of us has to go and if one of 768 00:32:53.609 --> 00:32:55.730 us doesn't go... We're going to end up hating each other. 769 00:32:55.849 --> 00:32:58.279 And like, this can't, I have to think about myself 770 00:32:58.339 --> 00:33:00.259 and be selfish, selfish finally. 771 00:33:00.880 --> 00:33:05.299 So when you talk about leaving, because that topic is, 772 00:33:05.319 --> 00:33:10.960 there's so many fucking layers to that. The amount of people, women, men, 773 00:33:10.980 --> 00:33:12.809 I don't give a fuck who it is. When you 774 00:33:12.849 --> 00:33:15.630 make the decision to leave something that you were so 775 00:33:15.690 --> 00:33:18.380 in love with someone, there's history there, there's years there. 776 00:33:18.680 --> 00:33:20.920 And that, I think, is a lot. Like, people are, well, 777 00:33:20.940 --> 00:33:22.599 I just, that was four years of my life. I 778 00:33:22.640 --> 00:33:25.589 can't leave them. It's so hard to see, like, what 779 00:33:25.609 --> 00:33:28.589 life is going to be like without that person. Did you, 780 00:33:28.789 --> 00:33:31.809 were you the type of person that then went... Like, 781 00:33:32.130 --> 00:33:34.670 did you guys keep texting a little after the breakup? Like, 782 00:33:34.730 --> 00:33:37.579 how did you handle moving on? Because a lot of 783 00:33:37.640 --> 00:33:40.319 people write in being like, it's so fucking hard to 784 00:33:40.359 --> 00:33:42.420 go from being in bed with someone every day. They're 785 00:33:42.440 --> 00:33:44.319 your best friend. You love them. And then what? You're 786 00:33:44.339 --> 00:33:46.869 just not supposed to talk? It's literally like morning to death. Like, 787 00:33:46.890 --> 00:33:48.079 how did you go about it? 788 00:33:48.109 --> 00:33:48.170 So. 789 00:33:50.420 --> 00:33:52.759 Obviously, I was a bit younger. My breakup, as soon 790 00:33:52.779 --> 00:33:54.700 as we broke up, I was just, like, I tried 791 00:33:54.740 --> 00:33:56.500 to replace him. I tried to replace it. I was 792 00:33:56.519 --> 00:33:58.680 just kind of, like, dating. I started seeing someone. Like, 793 00:33:58.920 --> 00:34:00.049 I even got to a place where we were, like, 794 00:34:00.089 --> 00:34:00.930 exclusive kind of. 795 00:34:01.769 --> 00:34:02.410 Oh, right away? 796 00:34:02.750 --> 00:34:03.130 Right away. 797 00:34:03.329 --> 00:34:03.569 Wow. 798 00:34:03.650 --> 00:34:05.529 I mean, not right away, but, like, right away. Like, 799 00:34:05.589 --> 00:34:07.509 pretty much. But also, like, keep in mind, I was 800 00:34:07.529 --> 00:34:10.429 already had been checked out of this relationship for, like, maybe, like, five, 801 00:34:10.489 --> 00:34:12.210 six months, like, at least. And I was just kind of, like, 802 00:34:12.670 --> 00:34:16.809 waiting to, like, us to finally separate. And also, when 803 00:34:16.829 --> 00:34:18.710 I was younger, and maybe this stems back to, like, 804 00:34:18.730 --> 00:34:21.929 you know, not having a father figure. always like my 805 00:34:21.989 --> 00:34:24.730 my one figure my one sense of stability within a 806 00:34:24.769 --> 00:34:27.250 man had just collapsed after four years someone i thought 807 00:34:27.269 --> 00:34:28.969 was gonna spend my life with it all collapsed so 808 00:34:29.010 --> 00:34:32.170 i was like i need maybe it was another sense 809 00:34:32.210 --> 00:34:34.130 of like love from a from a guy or a 810 00:34:34.179 --> 00:34:36.780 man or just someone to like make me feel yes 811 00:34:37.050 --> 00:34:39.699 like a male presence just to make me feel happy 812 00:34:39.719 --> 00:34:41.519
and good and complete and like when i was younger 813 00:34:42.800 --> 00:34:44.880 stemming back to like dad shit maybe i thought that 814 00:34:44.920 --> 00:34:47.360 that's what i needed And I've learned now that it's, like, 815 00:34:47.440 --> 00:34:49.039 so not. It's so within. 816 00:34:49.059 --> 00:34:50.360 You need to be on your own for a minute. 817 00:34:50.429 --> 00:34:54.570 Exactly, and go through that healing process. And we definitely 818 00:34:54.610 --> 00:34:57.070 talked a bit. It was more toxic, and we would 819 00:34:57.150 --> 00:34:59.699 argue because he would hear. Like, oh, you're with this guy. Oh, 820 00:34:59.710 --> 00:35:01.989 you're with that guy. Blah, blah. Like, what are you doing? 821 00:35:02.030 --> 00:35:03.960 You fucking hoe. You thought this and that. You know 822 00:35:03.980 --> 00:35:05.480 what I mean? Like, the fucking jealous, whatever. 823 00:35:05.500 --> 00:35:06.320 The emotional, yeah. 824 00:35:06.340 --> 00:35:08.639 So we fought a lot. But then there were times, like, 825 00:35:08.920 --> 00:35:10.300 you know, where we would try and hang out a 826 00:35:10.320 --> 00:35:12.780 little bit. But as much as we, like, even, like, 827 00:35:12.880 --> 00:35:13.139 you know. 828 00:35:15.380 --> 00:35:18.579 Not recently, but up until my last relationship, we kind 829 00:35:18.619 --> 00:35:20.360 of were just dabbling with the idea of making it 830 00:35:20.400 --> 00:35:22.440 work again maybe or hanging out. But every time we did, 831 00:35:22.480 --> 00:35:24.860 it just wasn't there for me. It just wasn't it. 832 00:35:25.019 --> 00:35:27.440 It wasn't like that fire wasn't there anymore. 833 00:35:27.500 --> 00:35:30.480 It's like the soulmate that taught you what love is, 834 00:35:30.579 --> 00:35:34.719 but it's not right. Yeah, totally. I do think that's fascinating, Josie, 835 00:35:34.780 --> 00:35:36.980 because now as you've gotten older, it's interesting because now 836 00:35:37.000 --> 00:35:39.139 you're almost like you were now in a relationship and 837 00:35:39.179 --> 00:35:41.659 now you're single. And instead of running to a new guy. 838 00:35:42.280 --> 00:35:46.719 your I mean you're like please I'm not I'm not. 839 00:35:46.639 --> 00:35:49.059 Alex wait till you see TMZ this week I've got 840 00:35:49.099 --> 00:35:51.800 a new boyfriend I'm like fuck. 841 00:35:51.280 --> 00:35:53.119 No I am I'm being better about it like I'm 842 00:35:53.159 --> 00:35:55.699 not out here like sleeping with anyone I'm not you 843 00:35:55.719 --> 00:35:57.719 know I'm making it very clear that I'm pretty emotionally 844 00:35:57.739 --> 00:36:00.460 unavailable in the sense of just like really wanting the 845 00:36:00.500 --> 00:36:02.719 best for myself and I want to focus so this 846 00:36:02.739 --> 00:36:04.900 is the way I look at it it just none 847 00:36:04.940 --> 00:36:06.960 of these people that I've been with are my person 848 00:36:07.179 --> 00:36:10.340 and I and I
find closure in that in itself 849 00:36:10.519 --> 00:36:13.239 and acceptance and I'm just like That's cool. Like, so 850 00:36:13.260 --> 00:36:15.079 my dad taught me growing up, because whenever I'd, like, 851 00:36:15.099 --> 00:36:16.340 be sad about a boy, like, I had, like, a 852 00:36:16.380 --> 00:36:18.119 high school love that I, like, thought I was in love, 853 00:36:18.159 --> 00:36:20.090 but it was, like, we were, like, 14, 15. It 854 00:36:20.280 --> 00:36:22.869 wasn't real. And I was, like, distraught about it. I 855 00:36:22.869 --> 00:36:24.489 was just so upset. My dad's like, Josie, you're going 856 00:36:24.510 --> 00:36:26.070 to fall in love so many times. You're going to 857 00:36:26.090 --> 00:36:29.489 have so many, like, romances and boyfriends and relationships. Like, 858 00:36:29.570 --> 00:36:31.070 do not do this. And, like, to this day, that 859 00:36:31.090 --> 00:36:34.360 sticks with me. So when any, anytime anything falls apart, 860 00:36:34.380 --> 00:36:34.789 I'm just. 861 00:36:34.679 --> 00:36:35.860 Like, I'm good. 862 00:36:36.420 --> 00:36:39.099 I'm good. We're good. Whether I have someone or have myself, 863 00:36:39.139 --> 00:36:41.059 like I love myself so much right now and I'm 864 00:36:41.099 --> 00:36:43.070 so proud of myself for getting to this point of, 865 00:36:43.619 --> 00:36:47.170 you know, just completely supporting myself, being strong mentally, like, 866 00:36:47.190 --> 00:36:50.630 you know, being very independent and, you know, getting through those, 867 00:36:51.389 --> 00:36:53.849 you know, unhealthy coping mechanisms that I used to have. 868 00:36:54.409 --> 00:36:55.309 And I'm just like, good. 869 00:36:55.610 --> 00:36:57.510 No, that's interesting what your dad told you because it 870 00:36:57.710 --> 00:36:59.800 is so true and I think it's so hard to 871 00:36:59.889 --> 00:37:03.079 tell people that until you experience it. Like, I have 872 00:37:03.119 --> 00:37:04.940 been in love before and I have a boyfriend right 873 00:37:04.980 --> 00:37:08.429 now and like, Those people that I was in love with, I... 874 00:37:08.809 --> 00:37:12.070 At times, right after maybe, I would be like, oh, 875 00:37:12.130 --> 00:37:15.639 I regret that. But, like... You go through the motions. Right? 876 00:37:15.699 --> 00:37:17.800 You're bitter. Yeah. And you miss them. And then you're like, 877 00:37:17.840 --> 00:37:19.559 fuck them. And then you're, like, you're neutral. 878 00:37:19.619 --> 00:37:22.079 And then you're like, holy shit, thank God that happened. 879 00:37:24.079 --> 00:37:30.010 Let's talk about your career. Did you feel, like, a 880 00:37:30.110 --> 00:37:32.989 pressure when you were younger because of the name that 881 00:37:33.050 --> 00:37:33.610 you had? 882 00:37:33.630 --> 00:37:36.329 Oh, yeah. I just... Yeah, because I feel like a 883 00:37:36.349 --> 00:37:40.449 lot of the celebrity kids are, you know, well off. 884 00:37:40.489 --> 00:37:42.340 They have a safety net, something to fall back onto 885 00:37:42.380 --> 00:37:44.559 if they don't want to, like, bust their ass and work. 886 00:37:45.159 --> 00:37:46.719 And that was never the case. Like, when I first 887 00:37:46.739 --> 00:37:51.980 started modeling, I had, like, maybe $ 100 a week to spend. 888 00:37:51.760 --> 00:37:52.659 In New York. 889 00:37:53.219 --> 00:37:55.289 And I was in model apartments where it's, like, six 890 00:37:55.329 --> 00:37:57.510 girls shoved into it. It's, like, three girls per bedroom. 891 00:37:57.530 --> 00:38:00.269 We're all in twin beds. And it's just, like, coexisting 892 00:38:00.329 --> 00:38:03.030 with all these other girls that don't even speak English 893 00:38:03.170 --> 00:38:05.780 or they, like, are smoking in the apartment. Like, I 894 00:38:05.800 --> 00:38:08.909 had nothing. And everyone was like, oh, she's Canseco. Why 895 00:38:08.949 --> 00:38:10.389 doesn't she have this and that? And I'm like, because 896 00:38:10.469 --> 00:38:11.110 I don't have it. 897 00:38:11.110 --> 00:38:12.659 Because I don't have that. I don't have it at all. 898 00:38:12.670 --> 00:38:14.170 I don't have that, but I felt like I had 899 00:38:14.190 --> 00:38:16.409 to always make it seem like I was okay. Like, 900 00:38:16.469 --> 00:38:19.639 I love to, like, not fake it till you make it, but, like, 901 00:38:19.679 --> 00:38:21.079 fake it till you make it. Like, put on a 902 00:38:21.099 --> 00:38:23.079 straight face and make it work and get a cute 903 00:38:23.099 --> 00:38:25.719 style on going to castings and stuff and, Play the part. 904 00:38:25.920 --> 00:38:26.639 That's so crazy. 905 00:38:26.659 --> 00:38:29.630 I didn't even think about that. Like, you, everyone has a, like, 906 00:38:29.809 --> 00:38:32.809 an image that they think you are. Like, you're rich. Yeah. 907 00:38:32.849 --> 00:38:35.610 You're beautiful. Oh, my gosh. She's got, like, the greatest life. 908 00:38:35.750 --> 00:38:37.590 And then you're saying, like, it actually was kind of 909 00:38:37.650 --> 00:38:41.219 the complete opposite in terms of having. Yeah. And so then, wait, 910 00:38:41.239 --> 00:38:44.920 so you were in it with them at what age? 911 00:38:44.920 --> 00:38:48.320 17, 18. And then I would say by the time 912 00:38:48.360 --> 00:38:50.559 I was 19, I kind of, like, had enough of 913 00:38:50.579 --> 00:38:52.380 a clientele. I was making enough money. I was actually making, like, 914 00:38:52.539 --> 00:38:54.619 pretty good bank. Like, the reason why I actually, like, 915 00:38:54.989 --> 00:38:56.599 gave up everything else, started modeling, is because it ended 916 00:38:56.619 --> 00:38:58.260 up being a full-time gig. Like, some of the first 917 00:38:58.280 --> 00:39:01.940 couple jobs I did were massive, big deals, especially in, like, 918 00:39:01.960 --> 00:39:03.360 the fashion industry over in New York. 919 00:39:03.860 --> 00:39:06.320 Wait, that's amazing. Yeah. No, it was
great. So you 920 00:39:06.340 --> 00:39:07.840 finally started making money and you're like, I'm going to 921 00:39:07.860 --> 00:39:08.320 stick with this. 922 00:39:08.340 --> 00:39:10.260 We saw Faith and I was just like, I worked 923 00:39:10.320 --> 00:39:12.199 and worked and worked and I stayed with it and 924 00:39:12.239 --> 00:39:13.989 I adjusted to New York and I just stuck through 925 00:39:14.010 --> 00:39:15.510 with the model apartments and I was just like, I 926 00:39:15.590 --> 00:39:15.949 want it. 927 00:39:15.949 --> 00:39:19.550 I will admit. I wouldn't say now, but, like, prior 928 00:39:19.650 --> 00:39:23.360 to educating myself more on what models go through, I 929 00:39:24.019 --> 00:39:26.429 feel like a lot of people are probably, like, listening 930 00:39:26.469 --> 00:39:28.789 and they're like, hey, like, you have a so fucking easy, like, 931 00:39:28.829 --> 00:39:30.940 you have a perfect body. and you have like no 932 00:39:30.960 --> 00:39:34.780 imperfections can you explain a little bit though about like 933 00:39:35.500 --> 00:39:38.880 what really is the truth about a modeling career and 934 00:39:38.900 --> 00:39:41.860 like what it does take and and body image and 935 00:39:41.880 --> 00:39:44.260 what you go through on a day-to-day basis of trying 936 00:39:44.300 --> 00:39:46.909 to keep and maintain a certain image because I think 937 00:39:47.199 --> 00:39:49.769 people think it's so easy, and I'm going to assume. 938 00:39:49.679 --> 00:39:52.230 It's... I know, there's that stigma that's like, oh, you model, like, whatever, 939 00:39:52.269 --> 00:39:53.250 but it's actually, like. 940 00:39:53.730 --> 00:39:54.989 And also, it comes with also, like, don't you feel 941 00:39:55.010 --> 00:39:56.250 like people are like, oh, you're not, then you have 942 00:39:56.289 --> 00:39:58.670 no talent. And it's like, what? Yeah. Like, I think 943 00:39:58.690 --> 00:40:01.469 people think because I think maybe because the Instagram model 944 00:40:01.530 --> 00:40:02.409 has shifted into. 945 00:40:02.449 --> 00:40:04.139 Now it's like a blurred line of, like, what an 946 00:40:04.219 --> 00:40:05.840 actual model is, but I came up in the more 947 00:40:05.900 --> 00:40:08.139 traditional way that was just, like, the grind to get 948 00:40:08.199 --> 00:40:13.300 there and not having much was hard, and it's definitely, like, for... 949 00:40:13.219 --> 00:40:15.510 I also don't want to give, like, a sob story, like, me, me, me. No, 950 00:40:15.630 --> 00:40:16.210 don't tell us. 951 00:40:16.230 --> 00:40:16.400 But, um. 952 00:40:17.239 --> 00:40:18.489 I can't remember the last time I looked in the 953 00:40:18.510 --> 00:40:21.369 mirror and was happy with how I looked because of 954 00:40:21.429 --> 00:40:24.449 the industry and the competitive nature, especially in New York 955 00:40:24.469 --> 00:40:26.829 City when all the girls are so fucking tiny. 956 00:40:26.849 --> 00:40:27.090 Tiny. 957 00:40:27.269 --> 00:40:29.309 And they go above and beyond to be that small. 958 00:40:29.389 --> 00:40:31.090 At least this is more traditionally back in the day 959 00:40:31.110 --> 00:40:32.650 when that was like what you had to be. Right. 960 00:40:32.829 --> 00:40:34.389 You walk into an agency, they put a measuring tape 961 00:40:34.409 --> 00:40:36.420 around your waist. your bust and your hips. And if 962 00:40:36.440 --> 00:40:37.940 you don't have the right numbers, you're not getting it. 963 00:40:37.940 --> 00:40:40.480 You're not even meeting the directors of it, whatever. Like 964 00:40:40.539 --> 00:40:42.820 it was incredibly, incredibly strict. And that was hard for 965 00:40:42.840 --> 00:40:44.650 me because I was an athlete and I was a dancer. 966 00:40:44.670 --> 00:40:46.929 So I had like more built naturally. I'm just like 967 00:40:46.949 --> 00:40:51.489 a little bit, not thicker, but like athletic, athletic. Yeah. Yeah, exactly. 968 00:40:51.510 --> 00:40:54.309 It really was a lot mentally in the sense of 969 00:40:54.369 --> 00:40:58.300 like what it does to you. And, you know, you 970 00:40:58.320 --> 00:41:00.139 get told no, no, no, no, no. 971 00:41:00.800 --> 00:41:03.699 But to get told no so many times, I can 972 00:41:03.739 --> 00:41:04.900 only imagine the dark place. 973 00:41:04.920 --> 00:41:07.320 You get so defeated. Yeah. And then in New York, 974 00:41:07.340 --> 00:41:09.739 when all the girls are out doing, like, drugs and 975 00:41:09.780 --> 00:41:11.699 shit and partying, it's so easy to get dragged into 976 00:41:11.739 --> 00:41:13.340 that life in New York, especially in New York, because 977 00:41:13.360 --> 00:41:16.090 all the guys, like, all the models can go wherever, whenever. 978 00:41:16.159 --> 00:41:17.070 Same like in L.A., you know what I mean? 979 00:41:17.090 --> 00:41:17.230 Totally. 980 00:41:17.250 --> 00:41:18.389 If you're a hot girl, you can do whatever the 981 00:41:18.409 --> 00:41:20.929 fuck you want. So when you get told no, no, no, 982 00:41:20.969 --> 00:41:23.150 and you... start going into it and you start spiraling 983 00:41:23.170 --> 00:41:24.050 into that dark place. 984 00:41:24.349 --> 00:41:25.789 It's like, let me lose more weight. Let me try 985 00:41:25.809 --> 00:41:27.090 to like figure out how can I. 986 00:41:27.130 --> 00:41:29.769 The weight thing. Cause you're also, so for castings for shows, 987 00:41:29.789 --> 00:41:31.679 you're in a room and there's like a hundred girls 988 00:41:31.719 --> 00:41:33.519 there and you've been there for like six hours waiting 989 00:41:33.559 --> 00:41:35.960 just to walk in a line for a casting director 990 00:41:35.980 --> 00:41:38.059 because of how important that show would be for your career. 991 00:41:38.480 --> 00:41:40.219 It's just a show. You're just walking. It's not even 992 00:41:40.239 --> 00:41:44.619 a campaign. So shows also like you, they don't pay shows, 993 00:41:44.659 --> 00:41:47.429 pay
like $ 500, but shows are so important for the 994 00:41:47.469 --> 00:41:49.429 resume in the fashion world. And it's just like walking 995 00:41:49.449 --> 00:41:51.920 for Gucci is like, they don't really pay. But it's like, 996 00:41:52.059 --> 00:41:53.460 you just walked from fucking Gucci. 997 00:41:53.480 --> 00:41:54.860 You know what I mean? Because then it can get 998 00:41:54.920 --> 00:41:56.199 you a huge campaign. Exactly. 999 00:41:56.239 --> 00:41:58.900 It leads to bigger and better. But yeah, and you 1000 00:41:58.920 --> 00:42:01.119 sit there, and you're just sitting here, and half the 1001 00:42:01.159 --> 00:42:03.329 girls don't speak English. You've never met anyone. There's hundreds 1002 00:42:03.349 --> 00:42:05.670 of girls in the room. And all of them are 1003 00:42:05.710 --> 00:42:08.949 just so perfect and tiny in their walks. And you're 1004 00:42:08.969 --> 00:42:11.769 just like, I'm looking at these girls, and I'm picking 1005 00:42:11.809 --> 00:42:15.250 myself up. to pieces, picking myself apart, looking at all 1006 00:42:15.269 --> 00:42:17.929 these other girls and, like, their thigh gaps and, you know, 1007 00:42:17.949 --> 00:42:19.789 fat on their stomach. They're like, they have none. Like, 1008 00:42:19.809 --> 00:42:22.070 they're fat on their stomach. 1009 00:42:22.530 --> 00:42:23.170 Where'd it go? 1010 00:42:23.309 --> 00:42:25.550 There is none. Yeah, it's just like, and what that 1011 00:42:25.590 --> 00:42:27.150 does to you mentally because you see the girls who 1012 00:42:27.170 --> 00:42:30.329 get the part and that's that girl and you're like, fuck, 1013 00:42:30.369 --> 00:42:32.210 is that what I need to do to book this 1014 00:42:32.269 --> 00:42:34.170 role because you want it so bad? Like, that feeling 1015 00:42:34.329 --> 00:42:36.889 of booking a show or booking a campaign and getting 1016 00:42:36.909 --> 00:42:38.769 that thing that you, like, were aiming for is just 1017 00:42:38.789 --> 00:42:40.849 like a sport when you finally, like, win the Super Bowl. 1018 00:42:40.889 --> 00:42:43.530 It's like, finally walk the BS show or something. I 1019 00:42:43.550 --> 00:42:46.590 don't know. I just, body dysmorphia. I just kind of, like, don't, 1020 00:42:47.070 --> 00:42:49.989 there's always something to tweak and fix. And I'm, like, 1021 00:42:51.070 --> 00:42:54.409 progressively working at getting to a mindset where I'm okay 1022 00:42:54.449 --> 00:42:56.530 and I'm, I feel beautiful. I'm confident. It's not, like, 1023 00:42:56.550 --> 00:42:58.570 a confidence thing. I'm definitely, like, I love myself. I 1024 00:42:58.590 --> 00:43:00.469 love my soul. I love mentally where I've gotten and 1025 00:43:00.489 --> 00:43:03.239 how I've gotten to this point of, like, mental strength. 1026 00:43:03.260 --> 00:43:03.449 Yeah. 1027 00:43:04.659 --> 00:43:08.460 But it's such a dark spiral because it's all based 1028 00:43:08.519 --> 00:43:10.840 on what you look like. Nobody gives
a fuck about 1029 00:43:10.860 --> 00:43:13.179 your personality. You could be the biggest fucking bitch. You 1030 00:43:13.199 --> 00:43:15.000 could be a sweetheart. No one really cares. No one 1031 00:43:15.019 --> 00:43:18.000 cares if you're educated. Totally. You don't speak at all. 1032 00:43:18.019 --> 00:43:19.360 You don't speak to anyone. You don't have a conversation. 1033 00:43:19.400 --> 00:43:21.619 If you do, they think you're too friendly, so they're like, next. 1034 00:43:21.929 --> 00:43:22.949 They want someone who's more, like. 1035 00:43:23.070 --> 00:43:23.869 Fucking new. 1036 00:43:23.949 --> 00:43:24.170 Yeah. 1037 00:43:24.389 --> 00:43:27.070 And I remember that's when we... Before we started talking, 1038 00:43:27.130 --> 00:43:28.949 Daddy Gang, I was talking to Josie, and I was like, 1039 00:43:29.170 --> 00:43:31.489 I watched you on YouTube, and I thought you were 1040 00:43:31.510 --> 00:43:33.530 so articulate. And she was like, oh, my gosh, thank you, 1041 00:43:33.550 --> 00:43:37.969 because I feel like you don't get really an opportunity to, like, 1042 00:43:38.179 --> 00:43:41.599 use your... Like, it's... Your brand is obviously more your model. Like, 1043 00:43:41.619 --> 00:43:43.840 your pictures are perfect. Like, you're amazing. And then it's, like, 1044 00:43:43.920 --> 00:43:47.300 to hear you speak, it's so cool, because you have 1045 00:43:47.320 --> 00:43:48.320 so much more than just. 1046 00:43:48.360 --> 00:43:50.119 I always get nervous, because I'm, like, kind of breaking 1047 00:43:50.159 --> 00:43:52.469 out of that shell and being... Just being in L.A. 1048 00:43:52.550 --> 00:43:54.130 now again and being part of people who are so 1049 00:43:54.190 --> 00:43:56.269 public with their lives and, you know, being on YouTube 1050 00:43:56.329 --> 00:43:58.369 or whatever it may be, like, I'm getting used to it. 1051 00:43:58.369 --> 00:44:01.070 But it makes me nervous, especially with how accessible information 1052 00:44:01.190 --> 00:44:05.210 is with people and cancel culture. Like, I get nervous to, like, 1053 00:44:05.289 --> 00:44:08.010 and God forbid if you don't have the opinion of 1054 00:44:08.050 --> 00:44:11.159 the majority, then you're, like, shunned. You know what I mean? 1055 00:44:11.199 --> 00:44:14.199 God forbid. Like, even, like, politically, like, it's just hectic. 1056 00:44:14.219 --> 00:44:16.139 It's so hectic right now. I try and stay out 1057 00:44:16.179 --> 00:44:17.559 of it because I just try and stay in my 1058 00:44:17.599 --> 00:44:20.679 own lane. And in person, I'm like, I'll definitely, you 1059 00:44:20.699 --> 00:44:22.239 know what I mean, like, talk about topics that I'm 1060 00:44:22.260 --> 00:44:24.349 passionate about and, like, get into a conversation. I'm, like, 1061 00:44:24.389 --> 00:44:26.670 pretty opinionated. But online, I just don't think there's a 1062 00:44:26.769 --> 00:44:29.809 point to, like, I get influencing people, but it's just, 1063 00:44:29.909 --> 00:44:30.389 it's hectic. 1064 00:44:30.429 --> 00:44:30.880 It is. 1065 00:44:30.889 --> 00:44:33.190 There's always something, a response, a tweet, likes, whatever. 1066 00:44:33.789 --> 00:44:37.389 Have you openly talked about dealing with depression and anxiety? 1067 00:44:37.829 --> 00:44:42.250 Anxiety, yes. Not necessarily depression because, I mean, I've hit 1068 00:44:42.289 --> 00:44:44.909 those points. I've hit, like, really, because I can be emotional. 1069 00:44:44.929 --> 00:44:47.210 I'm a little Scorpio, so, like, I can. in my 1070 00:44:47.269 --> 00:44:50.900 feels um and I've hit those points but like I 1071 00:44:50.980 --> 00:44:53.679 really really try so hard to not get to those 1072 00:44:53.739 --> 00:44:58.039 points because I'm disappointed in myself uh just the things 1073 00:44:58.079 --> 00:44:59.869 I'm I do the things I'm capable of when I 1074 00:45:00.050 --> 00:45:02.849 am like in that dark place and I try and 1075 00:45:02.889 --> 00:45:06.030 stay incredibly optimistic you know the glass is um half 1076 00:45:06.050 --> 00:45:08.210 full right half empty and look at the bright side 1077 00:45:08.250 --> 00:45:10.679 of things and I've learned, it took a while to 1078 00:45:10.719 --> 00:45:12.780 train your mind to be this way, but. 1079 00:45:12.980 --> 00:45:15.099 Could I ask you, and you can say no, but, like, 1080 00:45:15.139 --> 00:45:19.199 when you were saying you, you see, like, you recognize 1081 00:45:19.260 --> 00:45:21.670 when you're, like, going down that dark path, like, could 1082 00:45:21.690 --> 00:45:23.929 you give us an example for anyone that may be like, oh, 1083 00:45:23.969 --> 00:45:24.730 I do that too? 1084 00:45:25.590 --> 00:45:28.329 I just, like, it's hard to say, like, one example, like, 1085 00:45:28.429 --> 00:45:30.630 one specific, like, it's just a domino effect of, like, 1086 00:45:30.730 --> 00:45:33.230 me being hard on myself, because I'm such a fucking 1087 00:45:33.309 --> 00:45:35.199 critic on myself, like, I get so hard on myself, like, 1088 00:45:35.239 --> 00:45:36.949 I'm saying, like, I can't remember the last time I 1089 00:45:36.949 --> 00:45:38.650 looked in the mirror and was, like, satisfied with what 1090 00:45:38.670 --> 00:45:41.070 I look like. Like, that's not cool. Right. That's not right. 1091 00:45:41.380 --> 00:45:44.440 So whenever I see myself having those thoughts, I'm just like, Joes, like, 1092 00:45:45.340 --> 00:45:49.199 you're good. But it's just, like, a domino effect of, like, oh, like, 1093 00:45:49.260 --> 00:45:51.440 this is wrong and this is wrong and, oh, I 1094 00:45:51.480 --> 00:45:53.760 gained this weight this week and, oh, my skin's dry 1095 00:45:53.780 --> 00:45:56.199 and whatever and spiraling and my family and then financially 1096 00:45:56.219 --> 00:45:57.260 and what if I, you know what I mean? 1097 00:45:57.320 --> 00:45:58.099 Yeah, and then it spirals. 1098 00:45:58.219 -->
00:46:00.360 Everything starts. I just think, like, I have, like, a 1099 00:46:00.389 --> 00:46:03.170 door for the most part. I have a door and 1100 00:46:03.190 --> 00:46:05.179 for the most part the door is closed. To all 1101 00:46:05.239 --> 00:46:07.179 things that are out of my control and things that 1102 00:46:07.199 --> 00:46:09.940 will bring me down. But sometimes the door is cracked 1103 00:46:10.440 --> 00:46:13.239 because mentally, whatever I'm going through, whether it be a 1104 00:46:13.280 --> 00:46:15.739 breakup or family issues like that door opens up and 1105 00:46:15.760 --> 00:46:18.530 I'm in a vulnerable place. things fucking pour in naturally 1106 00:46:18.719 --> 00:46:20.079 and it's out of my control and that's when my 1107 00:46:20.119 --> 00:46:22.440 anxiety kind of like some days it's like crippling like 1108 00:46:22.460 --> 00:46:24.980 i don't want to socialize like i've been super introverted 1109 00:46:25.019 --> 00:46:27.159 lately too like really not i have been too i 1110 00:46:27.179 --> 00:46:29.659 feel like i'm just like because the pandemic i'm just 1111 00:46:29.679 --> 00:46:31.179 like i was in a relationship but now i'm just 1112 00:46:31.199 --> 00:46:33.190 like i pain i kick it i'm yeah i just 1113 00:46:33.250 --> 00:46:35.309 also like i'm just in a work mode like i 1114 00:46:35.349 --> 00:46:36.389 don't do you. 1115 00:46:36.230 --> 00:46:38.630 Like being alone i love it yeah i do too 1116 00:46:38.710 --> 00:46:39.429 i love. 1117 00:46:39.269 --> 00:46:41.119 It But, yeah, so when I– because I think, like, 1118 00:46:41.300 --> 00:46:43.599 I am, like, you know, only child alone, like, not 1119 00:46:43.619 --> 00:46:45.340 much family, whatever. Oh, that's true. But when I find 1120 00:46:45.389 --> 00:46:47.130 that person, like I said, with, like, friends and stuff, 1121 00:46:47.170 --> 00:46:50.449 I'm just like, oh, hi. Like, I'm just, like, cuddly 1122 00:46:50.469 --> 00:46:51.789 and more sweet and just, you know. 1123 00:46:51.809 --> 00:46:53.969 Like, you're so good at being on your own, but 1124 00:46:54.030 --> 00:46:57.090 you welcome having a partner or someone. 1125 00:46:56.650 --> 00:47:00.210 To– I cherish having those connections with people. I think, like, 1126 00:47:00.289 --> 00:47:02.849 love and relationships and loyalty is some of the most 1127 00:47:02.909 --> 00:47:05.250 beautiful things that you can bring to someone and get 1128 00:47:05.309 --> 00:47:06.090 out of someone. Wow. 1129 00:47:08.030 --> 00:47:10.679 Have you ever been in a situation where you're hooking 1130 00:47:11.099 --> 00:47:13.860 just exclusively... Like, not exclusively. You're hooking up with someone, 1131 00:47:13.900 --> 00:47:15.960 but you don't know if they're hooking up with other people. 1132 00:47:16.019 --> 00:47:16.360 Or no. 1133 00:47:16.440 --> 00:47:17.119 You're always. 1134 00:47:17.219 --> 00:47:17.400 Yeah. 1135 00:47:17.920 --> 00:47:21.449 Of course. Of course.
I mean, well, yeah. Yeah. Yeah, 1136 00:47:21.469 --> 00:47:23.909 I have. And because we don't really have the conversation. 1137 00:47:23.929 --> 00:47:26.050 And this is the thing also. Like, I'm never... It 1138 00:47:26.090 --> 00:47:27.969 takes a while for me to be the one to, like, 1139 00:47:28.030 --> 00:47:29.969 bring it up. Yeah. Because I'm cool, too. Like, I'm 1140 00:47:30.030 --> 00:47:32.219 cool with us doing our own thing, but... Once the 1141 00:47:32.239 --> 00:47:34.809 feelings grow and it's been, like, a couple months of 1142 00:47:34.869 --> 00:47:36.849 us doing the same thing, talking every day, and, like, two, 1143 00:47:36.869 --> 00:47:38.769 three months comes along and, like, we haven't done anything 1144 00:47:38.809 --> 00:47:41.980 about it, then I'm like... Do you ever ask? Yeah. No, 1145 00:47:42.019 --> 00:47:43.079 I've asked. I've asked. 1146 00:47:43.199 --> 00:47:43.699 I've asked. 1147 00:47:43.780 --> 00:47:47.070 How do you ask? Um, I was just like, I'm 1148 00:47:47.090 --> 00:47:48.630 trying to think exactly what I said. Because it's, like, 1149 00:47:48.650 --> 00:47:49.329 group verbatim. 1150 00:47:49.650 --> 00:47:51.860 Yeah, no, because it's, like, I think it can really 1151 00:47:52.260 --> 00:47:54.440 turn people off. Just, like, I've had guys ask me, 1152 00:47:54.460 --> 00:47:55.659 and then I'm more turned off. 1153 00:47:55.840 --> 00:47:56.280 Yeah. 1154 00:47:56.400 --> 00:47:57.340 It's a weird, annoying. 1155 00:47:57.380 --> 00:47:58.079 It's a weird question. 1156 00:47:58.159 --> 00:47:58.239 Yeah. 1157 00:47:58.260 --> 00:47:59.019 And it's just kind of, like. 1158 00:47:59.280 --> 00:48:02.199 It's hard, because if you're enjoying yourselves, and then someone asks, but, like, 1159 00:48:02.239 --> 00:48:04.539 I get why they're asking, and I've asked that sometimes, 1160 00:48:04.579 --> 00:48:06.280 but it has to be... I don't know, it's hard. 1161 00:48:06.320 --> 00:48:07.280 When did you ask? 1162 00:48:08.179 --> 00:48:08.980 Well, it was, um. 1163 00:48:09.900 --> 00:48:11.940 It was three months of talking to someone every single day. 1164 00:48:11.960 --> 00:48:15.440 We were pretty public at the time also, but we 1165 00:48:15.480 --> 00:48:18.559 had never had the, like, exclusivity conversation, and so eventually 1166 00:48:18.599 --> 00:48:21.820 I was just like, yeah, so... It was actually, like, 1167 00:48:21.860 --> 00:48:24.639 Valentine's Day the next day, and I was, like, didn't 1168 00:48:24.699 --> 00:48:26.860 know if, like, he had a plan or what, and 1169 00:48:26.900 --> 00:48:31.369 we were together the night before, and I was like, yeah, so... well, 1170 00:48:31.670 --> 00:48:33.110 what are we doing here? Like, I would just like 1171 00:48:33.130 --> 00:48:34.929 to know for my sake, because I also, like, I 1172 00:48:34.969 --> 00:48:36.829 think sometimes it's good to clarify what it is, because 1173 00:48:36.869 --> 00:48:39.320 God forbid, like,
one person slips up, or if I 1174 00:48:39.340 --> 00:48:40.719 were to go do something and hook up with someone else, 1175 00:48:40.739 --> 00:48:42.679 and then he's like, well, fuck you, you did that, bye. Like, 1176 00:48:42.840 --> 00:48:45.559 let's clarify it so it's healthy and not, like, a 1177 00:48:45.699 --> 00:48:48.139 messy situation. Because always being in that middle area with, like, 1178 00:48:48.199 --> 00:48:51.849 feelings but no label is always, like, can get hectic. 1179 00:48:51.909 --> 00:48:53.030 And how did it go? 1180 00:48:53.050 --> 00:48:54.429 Not good. 1181 00:48:54.469 --> 00:48:54.869 He, uh. 1182 00:48:57.940 --> 00:48:59.280 He was like, this is all I have to give 1183 00:48:59.340 --> 00:49:01.800 right now. This is like, this is it. This is like, 1184 00:49:02.460 --> 00:49:05.440 I can't do anymore. And I disappeared from his life. 1185 00:49:05.519 --> 00:49:08.579 I just like ghosted full blown. Because I'm like that also. 1186 00:49:08.699 --> 00:49:11.639 And the way he went about it just kind of 1187 00:49:11.639 --> 00:49:14.380 like rubbed me the wrong way. And I'm also like, 1188 00:49:14.380 --> 00:49:16.590 it took so much in me to even ask that 1189 00:49:16.590 --> 00:49:19.380 question and then to be rejected. And then and then 1190 00:49:19.420 --> 00:49:21.440 I was just like, fuck this. Like, this is not 1191 00:49:22.079 --> 00:49:22.800 what I'm doing. 1192 00:49:22.860 --> 00:49:25.219 I respect that. I do think it's like, if you, 1193 00:49:25.239 --> 00:49:28.110 if you are, cause I think a lot of times 1194 00:49:28.199 --> 00:49:30.590 people get in a situation where they want to know, 1195 00:49:31.090 --> 00:49:34.010 but even no matter what the answer, sometimes they're not 1196 00:49:34.050 --> 00:49:37.079 going to walk. So, like, if you're listening and you 1197 00:49:37.099 --> 00:49:40.590 want to ask him, like, hey, what is, what are we? 1198 00:49:40.710 --> 00:49:43.090 And he's going to say, oh, I'm just not there 1199 00:49:43.150 --> 00:49:46.449 right now. Well, what? Know what you want when he 1200 00:49:46.489 --> 00:49:48.059 gives you answer A or B. 1201 00:49:48.090 --> 00:49:48.570 Yeah, of course. 1202 00:49:48.590 --> 00:49:50.409 Because sometimes girls go into it and they're like, what 1203 00:49:50.489 --> 00:49:52.469 are we? And he's like, oh, like, I'm just chilling. 1204 00:49:52.510 --> 00:49:55.519 And she's like, okay, yeah, me too. I'm just chilling too. 1205 00:49:55.760 --> 00:49:56.579 And then she's all upset. 1206 00:49:56.599 --> 00:49:58.739 Yeah, whatever you want. Yeah, totally. 1207 00:49:58.760 --> 00:50:00.360 And then you go home and you're crying. And it's like, 1208 00:50:00.619 --> 00:50:03.239 if you go into it, that's my one advice. If 1209 00:50:03.280 --> 00:50:06.090 you're going to ever ask someone what we are, know 1210 00:50:06.159 --> 00:50:08.789 kind of like Josie knew. Like, if he gives you 1211 00:50:08.829 --> 00:50:10.869 that answer, you knew you were kind of going to walk. 1212 00:50:11.190 --> 00:50:12.369 That is way more healthy. 1213 00:50:12.469 --> 00:50:15.429 Eventually, I mean, after three months of time and after like, 1214 00:50:15.449 --> 00:50:17.130 you know, if you're like traveling with this person, like 1215 00:50:17.170 --> 00:50:19.780 we were like pretty much fucking like we were doing it. 1216 00:50:19.789 --> 00:50:22.150 We were sleeping together, fully like together. And then when 1217 00:50:22.170 --> 00:50:23.449 it comes down to him being like, I don't want 1218 00:50:23.469 --> 00:50:24.909 a relationship. I was just like, that's such a fuck 1219 00:50:24.949 --> 00:50:26.289 boy thing that I'm not going to put up with. 1220 00:50:26.409 --> 00:50:27.570 I know I deserve something different. 1221 00:50:28.059 --> 00:50:28.920 I completely agree. 1222 00:50:28.940 --> 00:50:30.730 So I was just like, yeah, I'm good on all that. 1223 00:50:30.849 --> 00:50:33.010 And then we came back around because they always come 1224 00:50:33.030 --> 00:50:33.650 back around. 1225 00:50:33.670 --> 00:50:34.269 They always fucking. 1226 00:50:34.289 --> 00:50:36.570 They always come back around. Especially. 1227 00:50:36.650 --> 00:50:40.050 All of them. When you act like that. When you're like, okay, like. 1228 00:50:40.150 --> 00:50:43.000 When you don't really care because I don't really care. 1229 00:50:43.039 --> 00:50:44.460 I'm not going to stress over like. 1230 00:50:45.380 --> 00:50:48.579 Josie, how to tell if someone wants a relationship or 1231 00:50:48.599 --> 00:50:51.110 just a hookup? The amount of women that write into 1232 00:50:51.139 --> 00:50:54.230 this podcast and they're like, I cannot tell... if he 1233 00:50:54.269 --> 00:50:57.289 wants a relationship, if he wants a hookup. I feel 1234 00:50:57.309 --> 00:51:00.969 like that question in itself gives you the answer. I know. 1235 00:51:01.260 --> 00:51:06.059 It's just being kind of reading a room a little bit. 1236 00:51:06.119 --> 00:51:08.159 This is the thing. You have to know guys. You 1237 00:51:08.179 --> 00:51:09.460 have to know how to play their game, and you 1238 00:51:09.480 --> 00:51:12.159 have to know how they move in order to kind 1239 00:51:12.219 --> 00:51:14.079 of know when they want a relationship and when they don't. 1240 00:51:14.260 --> 00:51:15.800 But the thing is that some guys are just like, 1241 00:51:16.900 --> 00:51:19.760 They'll like lead you into thinking that that's what they want, 1242 00:51:19.840 --> 00:51:21.989 which I've learned is just being upfront from the beginning. 1243 00:51:22.110 --> 00:51:23.730 If you don't want it, that's not what you're looking for. 1244 00:51:23.769 --> 00:51:24.579 Be honest about it. 1245 00:51:25.210 --> 00:51:27.809 Is that what you ask guys? Like, would you be 1246 00:51:27.869 --> 00:51:29.050 upfront and ask a guy that? 1247 00:51:29.530 --> 00:51:31.929 No, I'm the one who says it.
I'll be like, 1248 00:51:31.969 --> 00:51:33.750 like as of recently, like if I'm like dating or 1249 00:51:33.769 --> 00:51:35.889 this and that, I'm just like, I am not looking 1250 00:51:35.989 --> 00:51:41.630 for a relationship. I suggest you don't get feelings. Is that. 1251 00:51:41.650 --> 00:51:41.699 I. 1252 00:51:41.750 --> 00:51:43.750 Is that mean? I don't mean to be mean. I'm 1253 00:51:43.769 --> 00:51:44.150 just like. 1254 00:51:44.170 --> 00:51:45.289 This is why you're on the show. 1255 00:51:45.309 --> 00:51:46.639 I love you. Thank you. 1256 00:51:46.659 --> 00:51:47.980 This is why you're here, Josie. 1257 00:51:48.019 --> 00:51:49.460 No, I do. I did not say that to their face. 1258 00:51:49.519 --> 00:51:51.400 I'm just like, don't... I'm telling you right now. I'm 1259 00:51:51.440 --> 00:51:52.960 not in a place where, like, you're going to be 1260 00:51:53.019 --> 00:51:53.599 safe with me. 1261 00:51:53.679 --> 00:51:55.590 Did you say that before you started dating your last 1262 00:51:55.650 --> 00:51:57.010 ex-boyfriend or no? 1263 00:51:58.329 --> 00:51:58.530 Uh.... 1264 00:52:00.940 --> 00:52:03.420 No, because I wasn't in that place. I'm in this 1265 00:52:03.460 --> 00:52:05.079 place because I'm fresh off a breakup and I'm not 1266 00:52:05.119 --> 00:52:07.360 looking to replace it with anyone new. I'm just on 1267 00:52:07.389 --> 00:52:07.800 my own shit. 1268 00:52:07.840 --> 00:52:10.550 But before, I was like... Because I think a lot 1269 00:52:10.590 --> 00:52:13.409 of girls will say that but don't mean it. And 1270 00:52:13.449 --> 00:52:15.309 that's a fucking issue when you're like, I don't want 1271 00:52:15.329 --> 00:52:18.340 a relationship. And my friend Lauren, she recently got out 1272 00:52:18.360 --> 00:52:19.920 of a breakup and she's been saying that to guys 1273 00:52:20.019 --> 00:52:22.739 and they don't believe her. They're like, oh yeah, sure, haha. 1274 00:52:22.760 --> 00:52:24.610 You're gonna go fall in love. And she's like, I 1275 00:52:24.650 --> 00:52:26.429 do not want a relationship. 1276 00:52:26.469 --> 00:52:28.610 That's me right now. To a T. To a T. 1277 00:52:28.650 --> 00:52:30.469 And you're like, how do I make it so clear? 1278 00:52:30.489 --> 00:52:31.989 And they think it's a game. They want to go 1279 00:52:32.030 --> 00:52:33.780 after you even more. They're like, oh, she's emotionally unavailable. 1280 00:52:33.800 --> 00:52:35.340 She doesn't care. Watch me make her fall in love. 1281 00:52:35.380 --> 00:52:36.159 I'm like, I warned you. 1282 00:52:36.320 --> 00:52:36.539 Right. 1283 00:52:37.099 --> 00:52:38.400 I'm really not the one. 1284 00:52:38.440 --> 00:52:41.170 But I think that's good to be upfront about it. 1285 00:52:41.219 --> 00:52:43.400 But I do think if you're on the other end 1286 00:52:43.440 --> 00:52:44.840 of it, you can't tell if someone wants to be 1287 00:52:44.860 --> 00:52:46.559 in a relationship. And I do think that's kind of 1288
00:52:46.579 --> 00:52:48.920 the answer. Like, I feel like a guy you'll know. 1289 00:52:48.940 --> 00:52:50.860 Yeah, if someone wants to be with you, they will 1290 00:52:50.909 --> 00:52:53.050 be with you. They'll show it within their actions, not 1291 00:52:53.070 --> 00:52:56.530 just words. And I think that you'll know. And also, 1292 00:52:56.550 --> 00:52:58.730 it just has to be, like, reciprocated. Like, everything kind 1293 00:52:58.750 --> 00:53:01.349 of has to come together as one. And you'll feel 1294 00:53:01.409 --> 00:53:03.710 that connection. And typically, if you have a feeling, like 1295 00:53:03.769 --> 00:53:06.199 a red flag in your gut... a red flag in 1296 00:53:06.239 --> 00:53:08.320 your gut there's a red flag in the gut there's 1297 00:53:08.380 --> 00:53:09.699 a red flag in my gut I get what you're 1298 00:53:09.719 --> 00:53:11.099 saying you know what I'm saying there's a red flag 1299 00:53:11.119 --> 00:53:12.840 you should just like you know be aware of those 1300 00:53:12.900 --> 00:53:14.659 and be aware of what guys are capable of like 1301 00:53:14.679 --> 00:53:17.329 emotionally they work differently than we do and just kind 1302 00:53:17.349 --> 00:53:21.829 of just don't prioritize it like let it happen organically 1303 00:53:21.909 --> 00:53:23.409 and don't be like oh does he want it does 1304 00:53:23.449 --> 00:53:25.869 he want it like just play it cool be that 1305 00:53:25.929 --> 00:53:28.110 cool girl like don't be too needy don't be too 1306 00:53:28.150 --> 00:53:30.340 up his ass like Let him focus on his work 1307 00:53:30.420 --> 00:53:32.429 and let him come to you. Right. You know? 1308 00:53:32.510 --> 00:53:33.469 And you do the same. 1309 00:53:33.489 --> 00:53:33.710 Exactly. 1310 00:53:33.730 --> 00:53:34.690 Like, go focus on your shit. 1311 00:53:34.710 --> 00:53:37.369 Be that independent boss bitch who, like, doesn't, isn't looking 1312 00:53:37.389 --> 00:53:39.010 for a man. But if the right, if the cards, 1313 00:53:39.269 --> 00:53:41.670 you know, are played properly and it happens, then. 1314 00:53:41.690 --> 00:53:44.630 Because don't, I feel like when, when you feel yourself 1315 00:53:44.750 --> 00:53:47.349 chasing around someone and being more in their shit, it's like, 1316 00:53:47.550 --> 00:53:49.550 pause and be like, you need to be so up 1317 00:53:49.570 --> 00:53:51.400 your own asshole that you don't have time to be 1318 00:53:51.440 --> 00:53:51.860 up someone else's. 1319 00:53:51.900 --> 00:53:52.440 Dead ass. 1320 00:53:52.559 --> 00:53:53.340 And like, go do your shit. 1321 00:53:53.360 --> 00:53:54.780 Because you have this age, too. Like, we have so 1322 00:53:54.800 --> 00:53:58.340 much work to do and so much, like. So much growth, like, internal, 1323 00:53:58.429 --> 00:53:59.159 personal growth. 1324 00:53:59.199 --> 00:54:01.829 Yes. Like, ladies, if you're listening to this, like, and 1325 00:54:01.869 --> 00:54:05.050 you find yourself constantly wondering what he wants, then you're 1326 00:54:05.070 --> 00:54:06.030 not focusing enough. 1327 00:54:05.909 --> 00:54:06.389 On other shit. 1328 00:54:06.469 --> 00:54:07.610 Why do you have enough time to even question that? 1329 00:54:07.630 --> 00:54:09.170 And if he doesn't make it clear, that's probably not 1330 00:54:09.190 --> 00:54:10.650 the guy you want to be with, regardless. If he 1331 00:54:10.670 --> 00:54:11.980 wants to be with you, he's going to be with you. 1332 00:54:11.989 --> 00:54:13.510 He wants to call you and see you and talk 1333 00:54:13.530 --> 00:54:16.130 to you. He's going to call you. Like, it's not 1334 00:54:16.170 --> 00:54:17.130 that hard, you know? 1335 00:54:17.210 --> 00:54:18.010 I agree. 1336 00:54:18.030 --> 00:54:19.349 There you have it. 1337 00:54:19.389 --> 00:54:21.150 What is next for you? You're going to shoot in. 1338 00:54:22.449 --> 00:54:25.230 mexico yes i'm going to mexico on uh what day 1339 00:54:25.250 --> 00:54:27.030 is it it's on sunday going to mexico on sunday 1340 00:54:27.050 --> 00:54:28.909 for the week to shoot this cover that i can't 1341 00:54:28.929 --> 00:54:30.550 say what it is but i'm really excited about it 1342 00:54:30.590 --> 00:54:32.400 yeah i'm excited also just like a little mexico trip 1343 00:54:32.559 --> 00:54:35.360 and you're single right now i am single very single 1344 00:54:35.440 --> 00:54:36.960 like really just focus on me. 1345 00:54:36.920 --> 00:54:40.079 How long do we think that's gonna last a while. 1346 00:54:39.780 --> 00:54:41.820 I think i mean i think i don't know it's 1347 00:54:41.980 --> 00:54:42.860 kind of hard to tell i. 1348 00:54:43.139 --> 00:54:45.829 Just don't unless you find that to inflame I've had. 1349 00:54:45.710 --> 00:54:47.949 People, you know, since my last relationship that I've like 1350 00:54:47.969 --> 00:54:50.940 really cared for and really gotten really close with. But 1351 00:54:51.139 --> 00:54:53.320 like I said, I'm just like, I can't give myself 1352 00:54:53.440 --> 00:54:55.219 up to a partner the way I'd like to right now. 1353 00:54:55.260 --> 00:54:58.260 Like I have so much personal growth to go through 1354 00:54:58.320 --> 00:54:59.949 and I have so much I want to accomplish. And 1355 00:54:59.989 --> 00:55:03.630 I find myself being way more focused and motivated without 1356 00:55:03.650 --> 00:55:06.059 a partner. like getting my shit done. And like, sometimes 1357 00:55:06.079 --> 00:55:08.179 you get comfortable in a relationship and you, you know, 1358 00:55:08.219 --> 00:55:09.900 kind of just like, you're like, oh, I have this 1359 00:55:09.940 --> 00:55:11.920 safety net, this love and this person. You don't really 1360 00:55:11.980 --> 00:55:14.130 crush it as much as you should be crushing it. 1361 00:55:14.280 --> 00:55:17.980 And I agree. So yeah, I'm single. I'm single for 1362 00:55:18.000 --> 00:55:21.019 a while. Tomorrow. I'm like, I'm in a relationship. Maybe 1363
00:55:21.039 --> 00:55:22.199 change the podcast. 1364 00:55:22.599 --> 00:55:24.739 Josie, thank you so much for coming on and telling 1365 00:55:24.800 --> 00:55:25.380 us your story. 1366 00:55:25.460 --> 00:55:26.480 You're amazing. 1367 00:55:26.539 --> 00:55:27.119 Thank you. 1368 00:55:27.969 --> 00:55:31.769 Okay, Daddy Gang, that is it for this week's episode. 1369 00:55:32.110 --> 00:55:36.610 I hope you guys enjoyed Josie's story, the insight, and 1370 00:55:36.800 --> 00:55:40.320 just her overall vibe is fucking amazing. And I'm so 1371 00:55:40.360 --> 00:55:43.119 fortunate to have met her and been able to sit 1372 00:55:43.159 --> 00:55:47.500 down with her and have a new friend. So thank you, Josie, again. 1373 00:55:47.559 --> 00:55:50.920 Go show her love in the DMs, Daddy Gang. Next 1374 00:55:51.559 --> 00:55:56.179 week is about to, honestly, I don't even, I'm not 1375 00:55:56.219 --> 00:55:58.699 even going to try to explain it. All you need 1376 00:55:58.780 --> 00:56:03.820 to know is next week is fucking therapy time, bitches. 1377 00:56:04.030 --> 00:56:07.349 Next week, we are really looking inward and we're going 1378 00:56:07.389 --> 00:56:10.590 to have a lot, a lot, a lot of introspective 1379 00:56:10.630 --> 00:56:13.469 moments because if you follow me on social media, you 1380 00:56:13.510 --> 00:56:15.710 know I've been recently obsessed with a show called Couples 1381 00:56:15.730 --> 00:56:19.570 Therapy and Bitches. The therapist flew across the motherfucking country 1382 00:56:19.650 --> 00:56:22.730 and she's coming next week to sit down with the 1383 00:56:22.789 --> 00:56:26.590 motherfucking tiny kittens. Oh my God, I can't even say 1384 00:56:26.610 --> 00:56:30.010 it without getting chills. Dirty gang, you know the motherfucking drill. 1385 00:56:30.210 --> 00:56:32.869 I will see you fuckers next Wednesday. 1386 00:56:46.969 --> 00:56:49.050 Not every day you meet an Irish legend. 1387 00:56:49.230 --> 00:56:50.570 I know what you mean, Cú Chulainn. 1388 00:56:50.769 --> 00:56:53.869 Leaping vast distances, holding off armies. 1389 00:56:54.010 --> 00:56:56.130 Eating tonnes of fresh grass. 1390 00:56:56.289 --> 00:56:56.630 What? 1391 00:56:56.730 --> 00:56:58.010 Not you, we're cows. 1392 00:56:58.289 --> 00:57:01.150 That's one of the reasons Irish milk is so good. 1393 00:57:01.389 --> 00:57:03.530 It's famous all over the world. 1394 00:57:03.800 --> 00:57:05.420 Legendary. 1395 00:57:05.880 --> 00:57:08.960 Ireland's grass and our farmers' commitment to more sustainable actions 1396 00:57:09.239 --> 00:57:12.019 help make Irish dairy a true Irish legend. 1397 00:57:12.300 --> 00:57:15.239 Always look for the National Dairy Council guarantee. Learn more 1398 00:57:15.420 --> 00:57:16.579 at ndc.ie. 1399 00:57:17.760 --> 00:57:21.409 With TUI, there's more choice than you think. Beach days 1400 00:57:21.570 --> 00:57:22.329 or a city break. 1401 00:57:22.730 --> 00:57:23.610 Weekend in Rome? 1402 00:57:23.630 --> 00:57:26.010 Booked. Fly from your local airport? 1403 00:57:26.289 --> 00:57:26.869 Of course. 1404 00:57:27.329 --> 00:57:30.429 Just a hotel? Got them too. Number of nights? 1405 00:57:30.809 --> 00:57:31.469 Take your pick. 1406 00:57:31.889 --> 00:57:35.800 Tailor your trip with more options and more choice. TUI. 1407 00:57:37.500 --> 00:57:40.920 Delicious beef ragu for dinner. Because you can't keep up 1408 00:57:40.960 --> 00:57:41.920 with all the group chat. 1409 00:57:42.630 --> 00:57:43.789 Make your mark. 1410 00:57:43.829 --> 00:57:46.949 Always choose beef with the Bored Be A Quality mark.
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