บทถอดความฉบับเต็มของ Chapter 3: Missing, Not Lost

00:04:38.480 --> 00:04:41.000 has two siblings from Larry's former marriage to a woman 72 00:04:41.079 --> 00:04:44.639 named Sheila, Jenny and Daniel, and two on Johnny's side, 73 00:04:44.720 --> 00:04:45.720 Emily and Kyle. 74 00:04:45.879 --> 00:04:50.279 Bethany was born February first, nineteen ninety. Beautiful baby girl 75 00:04:50.839 --> 00:04:56.120 and silly, funny, sweet kid. I remember when she was little. 76 00:04:56.680 --> 00:04:59.319 She always she would bring me a ponytail holder and 77 00:04:59.399 --> 00:05:01.279 wan her hair put on top of her head and 78 00:05:01.360 --> 00:05:05.360 called her a water spountain. She had this. You could 79 00:05:05.399 --> 00:05:08.560 tell her to make a ugly face, and there's pictures 80 00:05:08.600 --> 00:05:15.439 of it. She would make an ugly face. Just very sweet, silly, funny, 81 00:05:16.519 --> 00:05:21.600 loved everybody, loved everybody. We had some neighbors that was 82 00:05:21.639 --> 00:05:23.839 an elderly couple, so Bethany would get off the school 83 00:05:23.879 --> 00:05:25.680 bus when she got older and stop at their house 84 00:05:25.680 --> 00:05:27.480 and check on and make sure that they were okay. 85 00:05:28.040 --> 00:05:30.680 The other voices you may hear throughout Johnny's interviews are 86 00:05:30.759 --> 00:05:34.040 her sister aunt Laurie, her sister Tommy, and their best 87 00:05:34.040 --> 00:05:37.160 friend Diane. We all sat together one evening and they 88 00:05:37.199 --> 00:05:41.600 took turns telling about Bethany. Sometimes they finish each other's sentences, 89 00:05:41.639 --> 00:05:44.480 sometimes they correct each other, and sometimes they all talk 90 00:05:44.519 --> 00:05:48.360 at once. Their sisterly bond is beautiful, and their nurturing 91 00:05:48.480 --> 00:05:52.240 hearts are contagious. They banter back and forth. We pause 92 00:05:52.279 --> 00:05:54.079 every now and then because one of them has made 93 00:05:54.079 --> 00:05:57.199 a joke that's hard to recover from. Johnny recalls fondly 94 00:05:57.319 --> 00:06:00.199 how Bethany as a toddler was always into some thing 95 00:06:00.279 --> 00:06:04.639 and up to something. That Bethany was very, very very busy. 96 00:06:04.759 --> 00:06:06.079 Here's sister Jenny. 97 00:06:06.319 --> 00:06:07.360 She was everything to me. 98 00:06:07.959 --> 00:06:11.279 We used to have lived beside the church in Sadonia, 99 00:06:11.439 --> 00:06:15.120 and we used to get a sheet, and I used 100 00:06:15.160 --> 00:06:18.879 to make us some mayonnaise and cracker sandwiches and cootlaid 101 00:06:18.959 --> 00:06:21.000 or water, and we'd go down to the church parking 102 00:06:21.040 --> 00:06:24.759 lot and sit under the tree and have picnics together. Me, 103 00:06:24.759 --> 00:06:26.519 me and my brother used to tie up to the 104 00:06:26.639 --> 00:06:32.120 chair and just you know, we used to do what 105 00:06:32.199 --> 00:06:37.360 siblings do. We were eight years apart, so I watched 106 00:06:37.360 --> 00:06:39.720 her a lot. She was just She hung out with 107 00:06:39.759 --> 00:06:43.800 me and my friends a lot. She was just everything 108 00:06:43.839 --> 00:06:44.079 to me. 109 00:06:44.720 --> 00:06:49.360 How would you describe her her personality to everyone who's 110 00:06:49.399 --> 00:06:52.680 never met Bethany if you had to, kind of just 111 00:06:52.759 --> 00:06:56.480 paint a big picture of Okay, Bethany's coming, get ready, 112 00:06:56.519 --> 00:06:57.399 this is what she's like. 113 00:06:58.480 --> 00:07:04.639 She was shot at first, talkative. We both have that problem, goofy, 114 00:07:05.319 --> 00:07:07.759 and we both bit our nails. We both bit our 115 00:07:07.839 --> 00:07:09.160 nails down to nothing. 116 00:07:10.959 --> 00:07:12.360 She was just fun to be around. 117 00:07:13.199 --> 00:07:14.639 She had her whole life ahead. 118 00:07:14.639 --> 00:07:17.439 Ever, I don't know she was so young. 119 00:07:18.040 --> 00:07:19.160 She was just so young. 120 00:07:19.759 --> 00:07:23.199 So many times in these interviews about Bethany, her loved 121 00:07:23.240 --> 00:07:27.399 one will finish talking, but they're not done speaking. You 122 00:07:27.439 --> 00:07:30.720 can almost feel their memories in the yeir hanging there, 123 00:07:31.160 --> 00:07:34.920 playing like a projector screen in front of us. The 124 00:07:35.000 --> 00:07:39.279 quiet isn't still, it's moving pictures filled with a recipe 125 00:07:39.319 --> 00:07:44.879 of nostalgia and grief. Here's Emily, Bethany's older sister, Johnny's daughter. 126 00:07:45.480 --> 00:07:48.680 She was so sweet, so funny, and she had like 127 00:07:48.680 --> 00:07:51.120 these little beanie moon eyes when she smiled, and she 128 00:07:51.160 --> 00:07:54.240 would laugh, and I remember her little Kokahontas room and 129 00:07:54.279 --> 00:07:57.920 she would sing and just the sweetest. She has been 130 00:07:57.959 --> 00:08:01.240 the most part happy considering like what kind of life 131 00:08:01.279 --> 00:08:04.839 she must have lived. You know, I was only there 132 00:08:04.920 --> 00:08:08.519 for a short period of time, you know, every other week, 133 00:08:09.040 --> 00:08:11.839 and so I'm sure things were a lot different whenever 134 00:08:12.120 --> 00:08:14.120 all of the other kids were out of the house. 135 00:08:13.879 --> 00:08:16.560 And it was just them beth Any's siblings on her 136 00:08:16.600 --> 00:08:19.800 mom's I didn't live with Johnny full time. Emily remembers 137 00:08:19.839 --> 00:08:22.160 when Larry and Johnny were together and all the children 138 00:08:22.199 --> 00:08:24.480 would be at the house for weekend visits. 139 00:08:25.040 --> 00:08:28.240 So when my mom and dad separated, all lived with 140 00:08:28.279 --> 00:08:31.759 my mom for a little bit of kindergarten, and then 141 00:08:31.879 --> 00:08:35.159 I ended up moving and with my dad. So I 142 00:08:35.200 --> 00:08:40.519 only

went to my mom and their house every other 143 00:08:40.559 --> 00:08:45.879 weekend for the most part. There were other time frames 144 00:08:45.960 --> 00:08:50.159 where it would be a large larger gap between me going. 145 00:08:50.840 --> 00:08:53.559 I will say that their house was a lot different 146 00:08:53.559 --> 00:08:55.840 from what I was used to at my dad's house. 147 00:08:55.879 --> 00:08:59.080 I just had my own room, a TV, a phone, 148 00:08:59.159 --> 00:09:01.120 and I just kind of do whatever I wanted to do. 149 00:09:01.159 --> 00:09:03.360 But at their house, we had to get up at 150 00:09:03.519 --> 00:09:06.679 like the crack of dawn, all like five of us 151 00:09:06.759 --> 00:09:09.440 kids had to be outside all day long and then 152 00:09:09.519 --> 00:09:10.919 come in like at the end of the day. It 153 00:09:10.960 --> 00:09:12.600 was really weird, like you can only come in to 154 00:09:12.919 --> 00:09:16.440 eat or go to the bathroom. Really strange, but that 155 00:09:16.519 --> 00:09:18.960 was what it was like. I just spent every other weekend. 156 00:09:18.679 --> 00:09:23.000 There, Bethany's sister on Larry's side. Again, Jenny recalls the 157 00:09:23.000 --> 00:09:24.840 heat and being forced to stay outside. 158 00:09:25.440 --> 00:09:27.360 He used to make us sit outside in the summer 159 00:09:27.879 --> 00:09:30.080 if he's so hot outside, and we'd be laying on 160 00:09:30.120 --> 00:09:34.200 the porch like dogs, and you know, at night time. 161 00:09:34.320 --> 00:09:36.799 I remember when they lived in Woodland Mills, he would 162 00:09:36.840 --> 00:09:39.519 put it back then it was just the air conditioning unit, 163 00:09:39.799 --> 00:09:42.480 not like a central heat in air, and it was 164 00:09:42.519 --> 00:09:45.559 in the living room, and he would we would sleep 165 00:09:45.600 --> 00:09:47.519 in the bedroom, beth and he was still in diapers, 166 00:09:48.120 --> 00:09:50.639 and me and my brother and her would sleep on 167 00:09:50.679 --> 00:09:52.679 the bedroom floor when I was there on the weekend, 168 00:09:53.399 --> 00:09:55.919 and he put towels underneath the doors to keep the 169 00:09:55.919 --> 00:09:58.519 air in the living room where him and Johnny slept. 170 00:09:58.960 --> 00:10:02.320 I remember we had a box fan and the window 171 00:10:02.320 --> 00:10:04.759 would be up and it would be so hot. We 172 00:10:05.399 --> 00:10:08.480 just take off our clothes and be just like in 173 00:10:08.480 --> 00:10:11.039 a T shirt and panties or underwear or whatever in 174 00:10:11.039 --> 00:10:12.879 that room, and it would be so hot. Bens Andy 175 00:10:12.919 --> 00:10:14.440 would just be in a diaper and we'd just be 176 00:10:14.519 --> 00:10:16.480 laying there. I'd be laying there at night, just like 177 00:10:16.600 --> 00:10:19.120 rocking her butt like this, like patting her butt, rocking 178 00:10:19.159 --> 00:10:22.000 her with her in her bottle. And I'm sure Larry

179 00:10:22.039 --> 00:10:25.320 would make Johnny stay in the living room and we 180 00:10:25.360 --> 00:10:28.080 would sneak out of the bedroom and like just try 181 00:10:28.120 --> 00:10:30.360 to not to fall asleep in the hallway so he'd 182 00:10:30.399 --> 00:10:32.919 wake up in the morning and zeus. So we'd try 183 00:10:32.960 --> 00:10:35.080 to like sneak out the door into the hall and 184 00:10:35.120 --> 00:10:38.200 get some air and then not fall asleep there to 185 00:10:38.240 --> 00:10:39.200 be back in the bedroom. 186 00:10:40.039 --> 00:10:41.039 Here's EMILYE. 187 00:10:41.279 --> 00:10:44.360 Do you mind going into why you were living with 188 00:10:44.399 --> 00:10:46.559 your dad primarily because I know a lot of people 189 00:10:46.559 --> 00:10:51.120 listening will obviously think that's not the norm to live 190 00:10:51.159 --> 00:10:53.919 primarily with your father. Are you open to going into that? 191 00:10:54.399 --> 00:10:59.720 Sure? I mean I wanted to and they let me. Apparently. 192 00:11:00.120 --> 00:11:03.000 Never it was time to go to court for custody, 193 00:11:03.559 --> 00:11:05.440 I don't think my mom was allowed to show up, 194 00:11:06.440 --> 00:11:07.559 so my dad got custody. 195 00:11:08.679 --> 00:11:11.639 This is correct per Johnny's recollection. Here's Johnny. 196 00:11:11.919 --> 00:11:15.159 When I left and moved to Union City, Tennessee, and 197 00:11:15.200 --> 00:11:17.519 I had an apartment and I was getting a divorce 198 00:11:17.559 --> 00:11:22.039 from my husband, I had custody of both of the kids, 199 00:11:22.320 --> 00:11:24.840 or you know, he got every weekend or every the weekend, 200 00:11:24.879 --> 00:11:28.039 I can't remember. And then when Larry and I got together, 201 00:11:28.559 --> 00:11:31.600 Max's husband got tired of picking the kids up and 202 00:11:31.639 --> 00:11:34.559 me having a black eye, or the kids saying, you know, 203 00:11:34.879 --> 00:11:37.840 we had to go outside and we could hear mama screaming, 204 00:11:38.639 --> 00:11:41.879 and so he took me to court for full custody 205 00:11:41.879 --> 00:11:46.399 of the kids, thank god. And so the court date 206 00:11:46.559 --> 00:11:48.639 came and I wasn't allowed to get out of bed 207 00:11:48.679 --> 00:11:51.679 that day. It really wouldn't have mattered if I'd have 208 00:11:51.720 --> 00:11:52.960 been able to get out of bed. I didn't have 209 00:11:52.960 --> 00:11:54.480 a car, I didn't have a way to go there. 210 00:11:54.559 --> 00:11:58.000 Larry had already sold my car. I was totally one 211 00:11:58.080 --> 00:12:02.039 hundred per dependent on him. But again, it was the 212 00:12:02.039 --> 00:12:07.440 best thing for my kids. Did it devastate me? Absolutely? 213 00:12:08.519 --> 00:12:11.799 I wanted my kids. I love my kids, and we 214 00:12:11.840 --> 00:12:15.279 didn't have a relationship for years. You know, Emily was twelve. 215 00:12:16.399 --> 00:12:19.000 She called to talk

to me one day, and you know, 216 00:12:19.080 --> 00:12:21.639 Larry answered the phone, and he was telling her, you know, 217 00:12:21.759 --> 00:12:24.440 she don't need you, She's got Bethany and all this stuff. 218 00:12:24.480 --> 00:12:27.840 And Emily said, kiss my ass. And I was not 219 00:12:27.879 --> 00:12:32.919 allowed to see my kids for the next five years 220 00:12:33.039 --> 00:12:37.600 until he decided it was okay for Bethany to call 221 00:12:37.639 --> 00:12:38.440 and talk to Emily. 222 00:12:39.039 --> 00:12:40.399 Here's Emily's right collection. 223 00:12:41.120 --> 00:12:44.519 I was in sixth grade, going into seventh grade, and 224 00:12:44.600 --> 00:12:47.120 I wanted to try it for cheerleading, and my mom 225 00:12:47.159 --> 00:12:49.200 and Larry were supposed to have health insurance on me. 226 00:12:49.600 --> 00:12:53.840 So I called and Larry answered the phone. And I 227 00:12:53.840 --> 00:12:56.399 don't know if you just maybe they just didn't have 228 00:12:56.440 --> 00:12:58.600 health insurance on me or something. I have no idea, 229 00:12:58.720 --> 00:13:02.240 but I guess he got pissed and he said to me, 230 00:13:02.759 --> 00:13:05.679 you don't need your mom because you have your stepmom. 231 00:13:05.799 --> 00:13:07.360 I'm not going to say her name, but he said, 232 00:13:07.360 --> 00:13:10.120 because you have your stepmom, which I'd never ever said before. 233 00:13:10.559 --> 00:13:13.039 And he said so, and your mom doesn't need you 234 00:13:13.080 --> 00:13:16.919 because she has Bethany. Period. I did not talk to 235 00:13:17.159 --> 00:13:21.759 or see any of them until several months before Bethany 236 00:13:21.799 --> 00:13:28.080 came up missing. She called me on my parents' landline 237 00:13:28.200 --> 00:13:30.879 and was just like, hey, this is Bethany, So we're 238 00:13:30.879 --> 00:13:35.639 like okay, and she came and spent the weekend at 239 00:13:35.960 --> 00:13:38.559 my dad and step mom's house a few weeks later, 240 00:13:38.600 --> 00:13:41.720 I guess it was. And then we just went and 241 00:13:41.759 --> 00:13:44.320 did like I don't know, shopping and stuff like that, 242 00:13:44.480 --> 00:13:47.519 and then they came and picked her up and that 243 00:13:47.759 --> 00:13:48.720 was the last time I. 244 00:13:48.679 --> 00:13:52.639 Ever saw Johnny remembers that last visit Emily had with 245 00:13:52.679 --> 00:13:53.559 Bethany as well. 246 00:13:54.039 --> 00:13:57.120 Emily called me I lost costin to my kids and 247 00:13:57.240 --> 00:13:59.120 which was the best thing in the world that could 248 00:13:59.159 --> 00:14:05.639 have happened to them. And Larry would say, do you 249 00:14:05.639 --> 00:14:08.120 want to do you want to call your kids? And 250 00:14:08.159 --> 00:14:10.399 if I said yeah, then he would be like, why 251 00:14:10.399 --> 00:14:12.120 do you want to call them? They hate you, they 252 00:14:12.120 --> 00:14:14.879 don't have nothing to

do with you. And if I 253 00:14:14.919 --> 00:14:17.720 said no, then what kind of parent are? You don't 254 00:14:17.720 --> 00:14:19.559 even want to talk to your kids. So there was 255 00:14:19.639 --> 00:14:24.320 no right answer at all, and he would do the 256 00:14:24.360 --> 00:14:26.159 same thing, you know, to Bethany, do you want to 257 00:14:26.200 --> 00:14:29.600 call your sister? And Emily and she would just look 258 00:14:29.600 --> 00:14:34.000 over me. But one day, out of the blue, He 259 00:14:34.039 --> 00:14:35.799 looked at Bethany and said, you want to call Emily, 260 00:14:35.799 --> 00:14:37.399 and Bethany, you looked at me, and she just kind 261 00:14:37.440 --> 00:14:39.960 of sugar her head. Yeah, he said, we'll call her. 262 00:14:40.679 --> 00:14:43.519 He called her and talked. Bethany called Emily and talked 263 00:14:43.559 --> 00:14:45.639 to her, and then I talked to her. 264 00:14:45.840 --> 00:14:46.159 And. 265 00:14:47.840 --> 00:14:51.879 Emily asked Bethany could she come and spend the weekend 266 00:14:52.120 --> 00:14:54.759 and Larry said yes, and she went and spent the 267 00:14:54.799 --> 00:14:58.039 weekend with Emily and her dad. 268 00:14:58.759 --> 00:15:03.000 Soon after that visit, Emily's little sister, Bethany would never 269 00:15:03.120 --> 00:15:07.159 be seen again. Johnny carries a lot of guilt about 270 00:15:07.159 --> 00:15:08.720 this time in Emily's life. 271 00:15:09.679 --> 00:15:12.360 She didn't understand she was just a kid, you know, 272 00:15:12.440 --> 00:15:15.320 she was twelve years old, or she was younger than that, 273 00:15:15.559 --> 00:15:18.840 and she didn't have a mom. For the first date, 274 00:15:19.279 --> 00:15:21.840 she had her dad, which she did an amazing job. 275 00:15:22.559 --> 00:15:24.559 And that's the guilt that I have to live with. 276 00:15:24.679 --> 00:15:29.720 You know, both Bethany's life and Bethany's disappearance, I simultaneously 277 00:15:29.799 --> 00:15:31.799 shaped everyone's life who loves her. 278 00:15:32.240 --> 00:15:35.799 I mean mistakes every single day, every day, and I'll 279 00:15:35.799 --> 00:15:39.879 own up to him. I will say on record, I 280 00:15:40.039 --> 00:15:42.960 lost my freaking mind. I was thirty eight years old, 281 00:15:43.080 --> 00:15:46.879 and I started drinking and I became pretty much an alcoholic. 282 00:15:47.679 --> 00:15:52.320 And I went to after Bethany had been missing for 283 00:15:52.360 --> 00:15:55.519 like ten years and I had done warm myself and 284 00:15:55.679 --> 00:15:59.480 my family out, I finally went and talk to a psychiatrists. 285 00:15:59.480 --> 00:16:02.600 And you know, one of the first things he told me, 286 00:16:02.799 --> 00:16:07.200 you know, we needed you need sleep. Yeah, I said, 287 00:16:07.440 --> 00:16:09.440 you know, the only time I sleep is when I'm drunk, 288 00:16:09.440 --> 00:16:11.440 and I passed out. And he said, well, that's that's 289 00:16:11.600 --> 00:16:15.600 not sleep, that's not sleep. And you know, he put 290 00:16:15.639 --> 00:16:20.480 me on Ambien and Xenex and adderall and all kinds 291 00:16:20.519 --> 00:16:25.559 of medication. And I took that stuff for like two 292 00:16:25.720 --> 00:16:27.840 or three months, and I just couldn't do it anymore. 293 00:16:28.440 --> 00:16:32.320 It noned me too much. I couldn't it sounds weird. 294 00:16:32.919 --> 00:16:36.960 I couldn't feel the pain, and I needed the pain. 295 00:16:39.080 --> 00:16:41.799 Johnny would spend the next ten years volunteering for the 296 00:16:41.919 --> 00:16:45.440 National Center for Missing and Exploited Children, helping other families 297 00:16:45.440 --> 00:16:49.320 of missing children. She poured herself into advocacy and activism. 298 00:16:49.639 --> 00:16:52.600 She knew how isolating it felt to be in their shoes, 299 00:16:52.919 --> 00:16:55.399 and she knew she could help them through her grief 300 00:16:55.480 --> 00:16:58.679 and her pain and everything she had learned by taking 301 00:16:58.720 --> 00:17:00.399 it one day out of time. 302 00:17:01.039 --> 00:17:04.240 So I started volunteering for the National Serphramasius for Children 303 00:17:06.079 --> 00:17:08.519 with a group called Team Hope. And I did that 304 00:17:08.559 --> 00:17:15.319 for I think about ten years, and it, Oh, it 305 00:17:15.359 --> 00:17:20.559 probably sounds crazy. It made me feel like I was 306 00:17:20.759 --> 00:17:25.000 doing something I wasn't looking for my daughter. I mean 307 00:17:25.039 --> 00:17:27.920 I still wasn't. And I took breaks. I did. I 308 00:17:27.960 --> 00:17:33.319 took I had to mentally and physically take breaks. But 309 00:17:33.400 --> 00:17:40.240 I was trying to help other parents because I didn't 310 00:17:40.319 --> 00:17:43.799 have I had my family, and I didn't have anybody 311 00:17:43.880 --> 00:17:47.640 really that had ever been through it. And once I did, 312 00:17:47.759 --> 00:17:50.559 once I talked to somebody that had a missing child, 313 00:17:52.440 --> 00:17:56.880 then I wasn't ashamed to speak the truth. I wasn't 314 00:17:56.920 --> 00:18:02.599 ashamed to tell them all of my crazy thoughts. That 315 00:18:02.720 --> 00:18:05.759 you're kind of embarrassed to your family. You don't want 316 00:18:05.880 --> 00:18:10.279 to feel like they're worried for you or anything like that. 317 00:18:12.279 --> 00:18:14.720 And I feel like if I know I did help 318 00:18:14.759 --> 00:18:17.319 one person because she became a Team Hope volunteer and 319 00:18:17.359 --> 00:18:21.640 she got her son back, that it made me made 320 00:18:21.680 --> 00:18:23.759 me feel good, made me feel like I did something 321 00:18:23.960 --> 00:18:28.920 good out of all this bad that happened to Bethany. 322 00:18:29.799 --> 00:18:35.400 I feel like it gave me a purpose. 323 00:18:36.880 --> 00:18:44.359 Yeah, when you're searching for answers at this stage, we 324 00:18:44.839 -->

00:18:49.920 searching for Bethany or are we searching for answers about 325 00:18:50.079 --> 00:18:53.880 what happened for Bethany? Is there a difference and what. 326 00:18:55.599 --> 00:19:00.880 Direction you've been going and now depends on the day. 327 00:19:01.519 --> 00:19:03.680 If Bethany was here with her family today, what would 328 00:19:03.759 --> 00:19:06.319 she be like? Would she have competed in sports like 329 00:19:06.359 --> 00:19:08.759 she wanted to do. Would she have been involved with 330 00:19:08.799 --> 00:19:12.960 animals horses specifically? Would she live near Johnny in Middle 331 00:19:12.960 --> 00:19:15.880 Tennessee or in East Tennessee near her sister Jenny and 332 00:19:15.920 --> 00:19:19.240 brothers Daniel and Kyle. Or would she have traveled the 333 00:19:19.240 --> 00:19:22.119 world and been a free spirit exploring the wonders of 334 00:19:22.160 --> 00:19:24.640 what this beautiful world would have had to offer her. 335 00:19:25.759 --> 00:19:30.000 Trauma rewires brains. It can be cruel and erase memories, 336 00:19:30.000 --> 00:19:33.880 making them foggy or replay the worst ones. Bethany was 337 00:19:33.920 --> 00:19:37.000 with their family for just eleven years, but she's been 338 00:19:37.039 --> 00:19:40.759 missing for twenty five years. But Bethany was never lost, 339 00:19:41.480 --> 00:19:45.519 she was never forgotten, she was never dismissed, but she 340 00:19:45.839 --> 00:19:50.960 is missing. Each day her family misses her so much 341 00:19:51.000 --> 00:19:53.759 so that what they do day in and day out 342 00:19:53.839 --> 00:19:57.160 is shaped by the absence of Bethany. You'll continue to 343 00:19:57.200 --> 00:20:00.519 hear stories about Bethany throughout the season, and you'll come 344 00:20:00.559 --> 00:20:04.519 to know her throughout her actions, reactions, words, hopes, and dreams. 345 00:20:05.079 --> 00:20:08.279 Bethany loved her family, and it's the same family that 346 00:20:08.359 --> 00:20:12.759 will never never allow Bethany's memory to become lost. No 347 00:20:12.799 --> 00:20:16.039 matter how exhausted, defeated, worn out, or hopeless they may 348 00:20:16.119 --> 00:20:19.119 feel at times, their love for Bethany carries them on 349 00:20:19.160 --> 00:20:23.839 their mission to find Bethany. Leanne Murkowski next time on 350 00:20:24.000 --> 00:20:24.920 Missing in Hushtown. 351 00:20:26.240 --> 00:20:30.559 As it got closer to her going back that week prior, 352 00:20:30.720 --> 00:20:34.400 she seemed one. I don't think she felt good. She 353 00:20:34.440 --> 00:20:35.720 seemed like she had a little bit of fear. I 354 00:20:35.720 --> 00:20:37.799 think she was coming down with something. But too she 355 00:20:37.880 --> 00:20:41.039 was going around to everybody in the house, you know, 356 00:20:41.119 --> 00:20:43.880 even the kids, and saying, you know what if Daddy 357 00:20:43.880 --> 00:20:46.240 didn't bring me back. So I felt like she knew 358 00:20:46.240 --> 00:20:48.720 something was going on, that he had done threatened her 359 00:20:48.839 --> 00:20:52.799 or done something because she didn't want to go and Johnny's, 360 00:20:53.000 --> 00:20:55.920 you know, the night before, she's trying to help her 361 00:20:55.960 --> 00:20:58.200 pack her bag, and she was like, well, do you 362 00:20:58.200 --> 00:21:00.440 want to take this? And she was like even that 363 00:21:00.759 --> 00:21:02.799 typical kid thing. No, I don't want that. I don't 364 00:21:02.880 --> 00:21:04.839 like that. I don't like so she and she's like, 365 00:21:04.880 --> 00:21:07.440 you have to pack. She said why she didn't want 366 00:21:07.440 --> 00:21:09.799 to go, and she's like, she said, you have to go. 367 00:21:10.279 --> 00:21:10.880 She said, if you. 368 00:21:10.880 --> 00:21:13.400 Don't go, I'm breaking the law, you know, and they'll 369 00:21:13.440 --> 00:21:15.880 they'll then they'll take you from me, and then I 370 00:21:15.880 --> 00:21:18.039 won't you know, then I want to you know. She 371 00:21:18.200 --> 00:21:20.559 was like, well, what if he doesn't bring me back? 372 00:21:21.240 --> 00:21:23.400 She said, he has to. He has to bring you back. 373 00:21:23.480 --> 00:21:25.079 He doesn't bring you back, we'll come and get you 374 00:21:25.119 --> 00:21:29.160 and he'll never see you again. And that was and 375 00:21:29.240 --> 00:21:32.359 she said she regrets that so much that she made her. 376 00:21:32.319 --> 00:21:51.680 Go missing in Hushtown. Season two is executive produced in 377 00:21:51.720 --> 00:21:56.160 partnership by Fireeyes Media LLC's Jules Thorpe and Johen Rivera, 378 00:21:56.480 --> 00:22:00.759 as well as mom Cast Productions Rachel Holloway and Heather Northcraft. 379 00:22:01.480 --> 00:22:04.200 The script is written by Jules Thorpe and edited by 380 00:22:04.240 --> 00:22:08.559 Heather Northcraft. Project lead is Rachel Holloway and master editing 381 00:22:08.599 --> 00:22:12.240 and audio production is done by John Rivera. Jules Thorpe 382 00:22:12.319 --> 00:22:20.319 is your host. Fireeyes media mom 383 00:22:20.440 --> 00:22:25.319 Haspard raising voices while raising kids.