บทถอดความฉบับเต็มของ You Are Not The Problem Child - You Are The Beacon (Episode 144)

00:04:47.839 --> 00:04:48.560 Yeah. 00:04:48.560 --> 00:04:55.680 So if I were healed, I would see all the baggages of because I have, you know, I had my own childhood trauma, but he had his trauma too. 00:04:55.680 --> 00:04:58.319 So trauma with trauma together is not good. 00:04:58.319 --> 00:05:04.160 And I was trying to get away from the trauma, whereas he had not even acknowledged his pain. 00:05:04.160 --> 00:05:10.399 When we don't acknowledge part of healing, the first step to healing is acknowledging that there's a problem. 00:05:10.399 --> 00:05:11.759 Yes, it is. 00:05:12.079 --> 00:05:19.199 And sometimes that's the hardest, actually, honestly, sometimes that's the hardest part, is just admitting that there's an issue. 00:05:19.199 --> 00:05:21.839 I don't need nobody, I don't need nothing, I'm just fine. 00:05:21.839 --> 00:05:23.839 And that's what we tell ourselves, right? 00:05:23.839 --> 00:05:25.120 Especially men. 00:05:26.240 --> 00:05:26.879 Yes. 00:05:27.199 --> 00:05:30.399 Um, so let me ask you this. 00:05:30.399 --> 00:05:35.040 So we got the general background, but I really want to focus on this part of the conversation. 00:05:35.040 --> 00:05:40.560 What did healing actually look like for you on an emotional level? 00:05:40.959 --> 00:05:54.959 And when did that make it look like walking it from a family that never approved of me, that never accepted me, and no longer having to cry myself to sleep because I didn't know what was wrong with me. 00:05:54.959 --> 00:05:57.519 I learned and found that I was different. 00:05:57.519 --> 00:06:00.560 I understood that I was the black sheep of the family. 00:06:00.560 --> 00:06:10.639 And the black sheep is the one who goes against the grind, the one who rewrites tradition, rewrites bloodlines, because that's the one who understands that there's a different way to do things. 00:06:10.639 --> 00:06:18.079 And I understood that they could not only give me what they knew, they lacked the capacity to love me in the first place. 00:06:20.720 --> 00:06:23.439 So you you understood that on an emotional level. 00:06:23.439 --> 00:06:26.240 Take us through the journey of what did that look like for you? 00:06:26.240 --> 00:06:28.160 Like when did that process start? 00:06:28.160 --> 00:06:33.600 What create what made that process happen inside you on an emotional level? 00:06:33.920 --> 00:06:42.800 On an emotional level, it's when I graduated with my associates because I moved to the US for college and I called my father, I was so excited and proud of myself. 00:06:42.800 --> 00:06:46.560 And he's like, oh, okay, you you have to talk to my wife. 00:06:46.560 --> 00:06:51.199 That's the stepmom who wanted me dead from the day she met me. 00:06:51.199 --> 00:06:53.920 Um so, and I was like, okay, you know what? 00:06:53.920 --> 00:06:55.279 That's fine. 00:06:55.279 --> 00:06:56.879 He that's his reality. 00:06:56.879 --> 00:07:00.720 He has chosen to live in fear and not freedom. 00:07:00.720 --> 00:07:02.480 And that's fine. 00:07:02.480 --> 00:07:07.279 This is this was the moment where I realized that they really don't care about me. 00:07:07.279 --> 00:07:09.199 And I was like, you know what, that's fine. 00:07:09.199 --> 00:07:19.360 I'm walking away, not in anger, not in bitterness, but with understanding that we are not on the same page and we want different things, which is absolutely fine. 00:07:19.360 --> 00:07:21.600 That was the first step. 00:07:21.600 --> 00:07:31.040 The next step was um later on, you know, I went through another healing because healing, I believe healing is continual. 00:07:31.040 --> 00:07:32.319 We have not healed. 00:07:32.319 --> 00:07:35.279 You are healing from something, but we are always healing. 00:07:35.279 --> 00:07:36.560 Should we do the work? 00:07:36.560 --> 00:07:38.720 So I went to the stage. 00:07:38.720 --> 00:07:45.759 For me, it was that prompting in my heart to just cut my hair off and start over. 00:07:45.759 --> 00:07:48.319 And do you know we carry a lot of stress in our hair? 00:07:48.319 --> 00:07:57.600 I'll look back, I'm like, all those decades from childhood trauma, from uh to adolescence, looking for myself, finding myself, being married, and getting divorced, it's too much. 00:07:57.600 --> 00:08:02.560 So I understood why I had that prompting to just go for the big shop and start over. 00:08:03.519 --> 00:08:14.959 So what I'm hearing from you is you had to go through the process of accepting that you would never be accepted. 00:08:16.879 --> 00:08:17.439 Yes. 00:08:17.439 --> 00:08:18.480 Yes. 00:08:18.480 --> 00:08:27.600 It didn't make it any less painful, but it gave me peace, knowing that I was not the problem because I was made to be the problem all the time. 00:08:27.600 --> 00:08:36.000 And now one, and also I think in my case, what really helped me is moving away from that family, not being there, you know, they're all the way in another continent. 00:08:36.000 --> 00:08:37.120 I'm here in the US. 00:08:37.120 --> 00:08:39.840 So that space really helped me, you know. 00:08:39.840 --> 00:08:42.879 And I believe I was brought here to to drown. 00:08:42.879 --> 00:08:46.960 Let's see, the US is a sea, I'm at the sea and I don't know how to drive. 00:08:46.960 --> 00:08:54.799 Uh, I was thrown here without them knowing that I superior, superior uh swimming skills. 00:08:54.799 --> 00:09:00.080 It's here that I found myself, that I uncovered the truth of my identity. 00:09:00.080 --> 00:09:02.960 And uh I just exposed the lies. 00:09:03.279 --> 00:09:10.320 So did you, when you said you exposed the lies, you just fell into that, or did you intentionally seek out a way to heal from it? 00:09:12.000 --> 00:09:15.039 Uh I intentionally I saw that. 00:09:15.039 --> 00:09:20.320 You know, when the when the teacher student is ready, the teacher shows up, right? 00:09:20.320 --> 00:09:21.120 For me. 00:09:21.120 --> 00:09:22.000 Yes, yes, yes. 00:09:22.000

--> 00:09:25.600 It was uh an invitation to church. 00:09:25.600 --> 00:09:29.279 And I took that invitation and it just started opening the door. 00:09:29.279 --> 00:09:35.039 And as I accepted that invitation to go to church, I was riding the bus from college home. 00:09:35.039 --> 00:09:37.759 The bus driver happened to be a pastor. 00:09:37.759 --> 00:09:41.519 And one day, every we every every day he would talk to me, minister to me. 00:09:41.519 --> 00:09:42.720 He gave me a Bible. 00:09:42.720 --> 00:09:49.440 And the last time I saw him, I'm like, I know that usually you start a book from the beginning to the end, but where do I start in this book? 00:09:49.440 --> 00:09:50.960 He's like, great question. 00:09:50.960 --> 00:09:52.320 Start with the book of John. 00:09:52.320 --> 00:09:55.120 And he told me, my assignment is over. 00:09:55.120 --> 00:09:57.039 Fatima, I didn't know what he meant. 00:09:57.039 --> 00:09:58.639 I never saw that man again. 00:09:58.879 --> 00:10:00.960 Ah, his assignment was to get you started. 00:10:00.960 --> 00:10:04.559 So let's let's go jump into my next question that I was going to ask you anyway. 00:10:04.559 --> 00:10:12.720 So we talked about a little bit, you gave us a little bit of background about what it actually looked like at an emotional level for you to heal. 00:10:12.720 --> 00:10:22.159 And I think the biggest thing, part of that, is the acceptance because I think a lot of times people, and I have counseled people and seen this personally, so I know what you mean. 00:10:22.159 --> 00:10:28.240 The hardest part is accepting that the person will not admit that they mistreated you. 00:10:28.240 --> 00:10:31.519 They will not accept that you are who you are. 00:10:31.519 --> 00:10:36.159 They won't accept, and you have to be okay with not being accepted. 00:10:36.159 --> 00:10:43.360 But let's talk about what made you feel accepted because a large part of your story is the spiritual healing that took place. 00:10:43.360 --> 00:10:44.559 So take us into that. 00:10:44.559 --> 00:10:49.679 You just started it with the Bible, with him giving you the Bibles, but tell us more about your experience with that. 00:10:50.000 --> 00:10:55.440 So, my experience after that, on my way to the church, I was invited to it, was a bigger church. 00:10:55.440 --> 00:10:56.720 I stumbled. 00:10:56.720 --> 00:10:57.600 I was pushed. 00:10:57.600 --> 00:10:58.960 That's beyond my explanation. 00:10:58.960 --> 00:11:01.039 At the time, I didn't know it was the Holy Spirit. 00:11:01.039 --> 00:11:03.279 I was pushed into a smaller church. 00:11:03.279 --> 00:11:07.279 And as I got into that church, the pastor was talking about a 40 days fast. 00:11:07.279 --> 00:11:08.799 I'm like, 40 days? 00:11:08.799 --> 00:11:10.559 I grew up Muslim. 00:11:10.559 --> 00:11:17.440 So we would fast during Ramadan, which is um one month, and also from sundown to sun up, 12 hours. 00:11:17.440 --> 00:11:23.039 But this man went 40 days without food, without water, and he told me it's in the Bible. 00:11:23.039 --> 00:11:25.600 And after that, he started to pray. 00:11:25.600 --> 00:11:30.480 And I saw with my own eyes the manifestation of evil spirits. 00:11:30.480 --> 00:11:36.559 My shoes that were tied flew off on their own, off my feet. 00:11:36.559 --> 00:11:37.759 I felt fire. 00:11:37.759 --> 00:11:44.720 And this guy proceeded to talk to me in privacy, revealing the deepest secrets of my life, and I felt naked. 00:11:44.720 --> 00:11:47.759 I was really intrigued and impressed. 00:11:47.759 --> 00:11:50.320 And to be honest with you, it doesn't happen a lot. 00:11:50.320 --> 00:11:52.399 I grew up the father, the daughter of a diplomat. 00:11:52.399 --> 00:11:53.200 We traveled a lot. 00:11:53.200 --> 00:11:57.279 I lived all over the world, speak a few languages, but I was really impressed. 00:11:57.279 --> 00:11:59.519 I was intrigued, but I was scared. 00:11:59.519 --> 00:12:01.120 I went with what was comfortable. 00:12:01.120 --> 00:12:04.000 I hurried up and went to that church where I was invited. 00:12:04.000 --> 00:12:05.600 And I saw that it was a bigger church. 00:12:05.600 --> 00:12:07.919 I'm like, here, at least I can fit in, you know. 00:12:07.919 --> 00:12:11.279 You learn to, you learn those survival habits. 00:12:11.279 --> 00:12:14.639 I can just hide myself without taking up space. 00:12:14.639 --> 00:12:16.080 Nobody's gonna notice me. 00:12:16.080 --> 00:12:20.399 I was getting, I was choosing comfort over growth. 00:12:21.600 --> 00:12:22.240 Mmm. 00:12:22.240 --> 00:12:24.720 You were choosing comfort over growth. 00:12:24.720 --> 00:12:29.519 And what made you make uh a decision to start working towards growth? 00:12:29.840 --> 00:12:33.360 What made me, it's just that that small church, that's the thing. 00:12:33.360 --> 00:12:35.679 Don't be deceived. 00:12:35.679 --> 00:12:42.639 The Bible tells us that even the very elect shall be deceived because it's all glamorous, it's a mega church, but there was no power. 00:12:42.639 --> 00:12:45.039 At the other place, I saw healing. 00:12:45.039 --> 00:12:48.960 I saw healing, I saw miracle signs and wonders, you know. 00:12:48.960 --> 00:12:54.320 And I got deeper because I heard about Prophet Muhammad growing up and I was questioning. 00:12:54.320 --> 00:13:05.600 I was 10 years old then, back in Libya, which is a Muslim country in North Africa, and I was asking, uh-because my name is Muslim name Aisha, I was forced into a class called Quran. 00:13:05.600 --> 00:13:07.679 I'll bring my red mat and pray. 00:13:07.679 --> 00:13:09.039 Do all my five prayers. 00:13:09.039 --> 00:13:13.759 Up to today, I know the surat by heart because it never leaves you somewhere in your back of your head. 00:13:13.759 --> 00:13:17.279 So I asked my teacher, Miss Muslim, I'm like, what am I saying? 00:13:17.279 --> 00:13:18.240 Why am I doing that? 00:13:18.240 --> 00:13:23.440 She said, Aisha, Muslim ladies and

girls are doing, are doing what they're told. 00:13:23.440 --> 00:13:24.480 They don't ask questions. 00:13:24.480 --> 00:13:26.000 You're being defiant. 00:13:26.000 --> 00:13:29.279 So it was revelation then. 00:13:29.279 --> 00:13:33.039 And here I have freedom and I just put the Bible to test. 00:13:33.039 --> 00:13:36.639 If I do X, Y, and Z, I'm gonna get these results. 00:13:36.639 --> 00:13:38.720 It was tested and proven. 00:13:38.720 --> 00:13:42.480 And I've seen the manifestation, the tangible proof in my own life. 00:13:42.960 --> 00:13:55.600 Okay, so what you're saying is what you experienced is you experienced some actual spiritual results and a difference, and you saw a difference in yourself and not just a bunch of rules and religion. 00:13:55.600 --> 00:13:56.639 Yes. 00:13:56.639 --> 00:13:59.759 And that helped you to heal. 00:13:59.840 --> 00:14:01.200 How did that help you to heal? 00:14:01.200 --> 00:14:04.320 It helped me to heal on a deeper level. 00:14:04.320 --> 00:14:07.440 First, I accepted that there was nothing wrong with me. 00:14:07.440 --> 00:14:14.639 But back in 2020, the Lord took me through a 30-day fast by his grace and for his glory. 00:14:14.639 --> 00:14:22.159 And at the end of that fast, I was um, I was what is the word? 00:14:22.159 --> 00:14:27.759 I was uh ordered to go and ask for forgiveness to my offenders. 00:14:27.759 --> 00:14:29.440 I'm like, why, Lord? 00:14:29.440 --> 00:14:33.919 I'm the one here who was mistreated and saying, no, this is nothing to do with you. 00:14:33.919 --> 00:14:37.440 We fight not against flesh and blood, but against principalities. 00:14:37.440 --> 00:14:41.600 So there's no loophole, there's no way the enemy can attack you. 00:14:41.600 --> 00:14:44.480 Because the Bibles tells you to respect your parents. 00:14:44.480 --> 00:14:45.600 Parent figure. 00:14:45.600 --> 00:14:54.080 Any anyone who is a parent figure in your life, you still have to respect and honor them for you to reach the fullness of all the blessings that he has in store for you. 00:14:54.080 --> 00:15:01.679 Again, through that fast, also, I was saw that my dad was held in bondage through witchcraft, and I could see clearly what was going on. 00:15:01.679 --> 00:15:16.960 Another dream that I got also, I was in a room without a window or a door, and uh, my childhood best friend, again from Libya, was telling me, get on this red mat, you're a Muslim, you will never be a Christian, come back. 00:15:16.960 --> 00:15:18.399 So the Lord opened my eye. 00:15:18.399 --> 00:15:25.679 What it looked like physically as asthma was spiritual bondage from my Muslim background holding me back. 00:15:25.919 --> 00:15:27.919 Oh, let's talk about that right now. 00:15:27.919 --> 00:15:33.840 So let's take a deeper dive because there are people whose details may be different than yours, but they can relate. 00:15:33.840 --> 00:15:38.159 Um, there's some Muslim people out there right now who can actually relate to

a lot of what you're saying. 00:15:38.159 --> 00:15:43.759 So what you're saying, what there's a couple different things I'm hearing that I want to talk about. 00:15:43.759 --> 00:15:46.480 Number one, forgiveness. 00:15:46.480 --> 00:15:52.639 You you said it real quick, but it's not a minor detail. 00:15:52.639 --> 00:16:00.480 Forgiveness, and I'm saying this for the audience, not to you really, forgiveness is not about the jerk who hurt you. 00:16:00.480 --> 00:16:02.720 It's not about the person who did you wrong. 00:16:02.720 --> 00:16:09.919 Forgiveness is about releasing it for yourself so that you don't build ulcers and stress and other spiritual things within yourself. 00:16:09.919 --> 00:16:14.480 But the other thing is, people kept putting you in a box. 00:16:14.480 --> 00:16:19.440 You are Aisha, you are a Muslim, so you must do this. 00:16:19.440 --> 00:16:29.919 And many listeners right now, and it might not be about religion, it might be about something else, but they keep being put in a box because there's a label on them. 00:16:29.919 --> 00:16:32.080 I mean, you could say the same thing about me. 00:16:32.080 --> 00:16:35.440 My name is my name is one of the most famous Muslim names in the world. 00:16:35.440 --> 00:16:39.039 I'm a Christian now, but I have one of some people could do that. 00:16:39.039 --> 00:16:40.399 I don't let anybody put in a box. 00:16:40.399 --> 00:16:42.559 I'm real quick to let you know I'm climbing out. 00:16:42.559 --> 00:16:55.679 So, you know, but but uh, but there are there are young people out there right now, and even some adults listening right now, who people keep putting them inside a box saying, you have to be this because you're a label. 00:16:55.679 --> 00:17:04.960 You have to act this way because you're autistic, you must be this way because you're black, you must be this way because you're Muslim, you must be blah, blah, name a detail. 00:17:04.960 --> 00:17:09.039 And it's and you you have to fight past that. 00:17:09.039 --> 00:17:20.960 And what I'm hearing from you, Aisha, is that is a part of your journey, is your journey, your story as well, is you made a decision, not a feeling, but a decision that you weren't gonna let that hold you back. 00:17:20.960 --> 00:17:23.839 No, I don't belong in that box, and that's not where I'm sitting, right? 00:17:24.240 --> 00:17:24.880 Yes. 00:17:25.200 --> 00:17:28.960 And I think that is awesome and a really awesome message. 00:17:28.960 --> 00:17:38.880 Um, everybody's story is gonna be different on how they healed, and yours is different than anybody else I've had on here, mostly anyway. 00:17:38.880 --> 00:17:43.920 Um, and that is that the spiritual aspect combining with actual healing. 00:17:43.920 --> 00:17:47.359 And I want to point that out for a couple different reasons. 00:17:47.359 --> 00:17:55.759 A lot of times, as we're both Christians, so as Christians, a lot of times people say, Jesus is all you need, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. 00:17:55.759 --> 00:18:06.960 And they don't deal with the actual healing part or dealing with the spiritual healing and the spiritual and the emotional healing because both of those work together. 00:18:06.960 --> 00:18:08.400 It's not one or the other. 00:18:08.400 --> 00:18:10.240 You really honestly need both. 00:18:10.240 --> 00:18:22.480 And I love the fact that you bring, um, that you're bringing together the fact that you need both, because there's too many people in in in religious settings who say, well, you you just need, you just need the religion. 00:18:22.480 --> 00:18:23.200 That's all you need. 00:18:23.200 --> 00:18:26.559 You just need Jesus, you just need Allah, you just need religion. 00:18:26.559 --> 00:18:27.839 No, you don't. 00:18:27.839 --> 00:18:30.880 You need actual spiritual healing and then the emotional healing. 00:18:30.880 --> 00:18:37.039 When they're coupled together, you now have a superpower person who can get on here and talk about this stuff without crying, like Aisha is right now. 00:18:37.039 --> 00:18:42.960 There's many of you listening right now who cannot talk about it without crying because you haven't arrived there yet. 00:18:42.960 --> 00:18:45.039 Now we both want to see you get there. 00:18:45.039 --> 00:18:55.759 But I just want to point that out because I I just, it's just so important to point out that there's it's never just one thing alone. 00:18:55.759 --> 00:18:57.440 You have to have both. 00:18:57.440 --> 00:19:03.039 You can't just say all you need is religion and never go see a therapist or get some kind of therapy. 00:19:03.039 --> 00:19:09.519 Therapy comes in many forms, but you you've got to deal with the emotional aspect or it will still eat away at you. 00:19:09.519 --> 00:19:15.839 Say, let's say, let's say, Aisha, let's say you just kept going to church and going to Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, but you never actually forgave. 00:19:15.839 --> 00:19:17.440 How do you think that would have affected you? 00:19:17.680 --> 00:19:25.680 Oh no, it's a poison I was dying slowly inside because when you hold on to resentment and forgiveness, people are living in your head of entry. 00:19:25.680 --> 00:19:28.640 They've moved on from their wicked ways to other people. 00:19:28.640 --> 00:19:32.319 They have new targets and you know, they're preying on new people. 00:19:32.319 --> 00:19:34.559 They don't even think about you anymore. 00:19:34.559 --> 00:19:38.559 Meanwhile, you're rotting inside, and that shows up as anger. 00:19:38.559 --> 00:19:41.759 When the Lord showed me that I had anger in me, I'm like, how could I, Lord? 00:19:41.759 --> 00:19:44.000 And he showed me that what my anger could do. 00:19:44.000 --> 00:19:48.880 And that brought me to my knees and to tears because I'm like, this is not who I am. 00:19:48.880 --> 00:19:51.920 But life had hardened my heart. 00:19:51.920 --> 00:19:53.359 And I made that decision. 00:19:53.359 --> 00:19:55.839 I refuse to be what I have been

through. 00:19:55.839 --> 00:19:57.680 I refuse to be defined by that. 00:19:57.680 --> 00:20:14.240 And the Lord told me, Aisha, because again, the perfectionist, I was always putting up that perfect persona, perfect marriage until it ended in divorce, person, perfect mom wearing my six inch eels, and people, you know, the problem when you put yourself on the pedestal, people keep you there. 00:20:14.240 --> 00:20:16.880 People would tell me, uh, I get my hair done that often. 00:20:16.880 --> 00:20:17.759 I'm like, what? 00:20:17.759 --> 00:20:23.279 Well, we went from that to the hair being completely shopped off. 00:20:23.279 --> 00:20:26.400 So you have to really be naked with yourself. 00:20:26.400 --> 00:20:28.559 You don't have to do that for the word, with yourself. 00:20:28.559 --> 00:20:32.079 Sit down with yourself and ask yourself, why am I feeling this way? 00:20:32.079 --> 00:20:34.319 What is triggering me? 00:20:34.319 --> 00:20:39.119 Why does what they're saying mean so much to me? 00:20:40.240 --> 00:20:42.880 And those are questions that a healing person asks. 00:20:43.039 --> 00:20:43.519 Yes. 00:20:43.759 --> 00:20:45.920 And those are good, healthy questions. 00:20:45.920 --> 00:20:56.720 And healing doesn't take place in five minutes in in like a seminar or a ceremony or uh a session, right? 00:20:57.119 --> 00:20:57.759 Yes. 00:20:58.319 --> 00:21:00.000 Now, let me ask you this. 00:21:00.000 --> 00:21:07.440 Did you have anybody um that pastor handed you a Bible, but did you have other people around you that helped support your journey? 00:21:07.440 --> 00:21:16.960 Like, did you have people around you that um that helped to praise you when you're doing good, to help you feel good about yourself, to build your self-esteem and confidence? 00:21:17.279 --> 00:21:24.400 Yes, I would, the Lord would always send one or two men, two of his people, men or women of God, to confirm his word over my life. 00:21:24.400 --> 00:21:28.160 We'd be like, oh, you're on the bright path, you know, you are doing good. 00:21:28.160 --> 00:21:33.920 This is gonna bring fruit here and there, but there's not been anybody like consistently. 00:21:33.920 --> 00:21:38.799 My teacher is and will always remain the Holy Spirit, that nudging inside. 00:21:40.400 --> 00:21:47.519 So, what I'm hearing from that, and the reason I'm asking you that is for the young Ayas that are out there right now, who are where you were. 00:21:47.680 --> 00:21:47.920 Yes. 00:21:48.079 --> 00:21:51.359 And maybe they don't have people around them that they can confide in and trust. 00:21:51.359 --> 00:21:56.000 And what I like actually about your answer is that it wasn't just one person. 00:21:56.000 --> 00:21:57.759 And that's actually okay. 00:21:57.759 --> 00:21:59.680 Everybody's not gonna have the one person. 00:21:59.680 --> 00:22:02.000 That was consistently there their whole life. 00:22:02.000 --> 00:22:03.759 I mean, it's great if you can have that. 00:22:03.759 --> 00:22:06.799 But everybody's experience is not going to be like that. 00:22:06.799 --> 00:22:22.000 And the fact that you're able to heal and we can hear the healthier talking from you now, um, the fact that you're able to heal and you didn't have one consistent person that was your partner the whole time, that means that other people out there can do that too. 00:22:22.720 --> 00:22:23.440 You can do that too. 00:22:23.440 --> 00:22:25.119 So I put God to the test. 00:22:25.119 --> 00:22:31.759 When I went to that church where I was invited to, I heard somebody talking about an internship in my field of study. 00:22:31.759 --> 00:22:40.960 And I just said in my heart, you know, innocently, in my adolescent self, but I always believed, you know, before even before I was a Christian. 00:22:40.960 --> 00:22:48.400 I said, Lord, if you give me that internship, I will never stop serving you because I was working three jobs to put myself to college. 00:22:48.400 --> 00:22:54.079 And with the income of that internship, I was able to quit one job and only work two jobs. 00:22:54.079 --> 00:22:58.079 I'm like, Lord, if you make this happen, I will never ever stop serving you. 00:22:58.079 --> 00:23:02.160 I put him to the test early on in my faith, and that's when I found out I'm like, you know what? 00:23:02.160 --> 00:23:03.200 You're my friend. 00:23:03.200 --> 00:23:04.880 I'm gonna stick with you. 00:23:05.680 --> 00:23:06.480 You know what? 00:23:06.480 --> 00:23:08.319 I I gotta be honest with you. 00:23:08.319 --> 00:23:24.720 I have heard so many stories like that from people on this podcast, um, a few people on this podcast, actually, a few people in person, and a lot of famous people, quite a few famous people, who are just like, I made this promise to God, and then I got everything I'd asked for, and I'm still keeping my promise. 00:23:24.720 --> 00:23:27.200 I'm re-rewording all of it. 00:23:27.200 --> 00:23:29.839 But um, I absolutely love that. 00:23:29.839 --> 00:23:37.519 So, Aisha, what would you say to teens who feel like there's a problem, the problem child or the black sheep in their family, their own home? 00:23:37.519 --> 00:23:39.200 Everything we've been talking about. 00:23:39.200 --> 00:23:44.160 I want you to speak to the young Aishas who are where you were right now. 00:23:44.799 --> 00:23:53.039 You are so much uh you are you are so much worth what you're leaving behind because you cannot heal in the place that wounded you. 00:23:53.039 --> 00:23:58.000 You need this distance, whether it means emotional or physical, get away from that. 00:23:58.000 --> 00:24:05.519 You are not accepted, you are not valued because they have recognized something in you that you yourself might not recognize or acknowledge yet. 00:24:05.519 --> 00:24:10.960 For me, I have always had my gift of the prophetic, is the ability to see things past, present, or future. 00:24:10.960 --> 00:24:14.160 In dreams, I would see things, I

would see things before they come to pass. 00:24:14.160 --> 00:24:19.359 And when I would bring that up to uh grown-ups, they would tell me, no, I don't think so. 00:24:19.359 --> 00:24:21.359 I think your mind is playing tricks on you. 00:24:21.359 --> 00:24:24.079 But behind my back, they would be like, How does she know these things? 00:24:24.079 --> 00:24:29.839 So I learned at the young age, make myself small, and kind of suffocated my gift. 00:24:29.839 --> 00:24:34.240 I kind of pushed my gift away because I'm like, no, I don't want to get in any more trouble, you know? 00:24:34.240 --> 00:24:36.559 But they see your light. 00:24:36.559 --> 00:24:42.880 You were born into that dark family, into that toxic family to be a beacon of light. 00:24:42.880 --> 00:24:52.559 Don't you stop shining because you are the one who's trusted to bring your whole lineage and bloodline out of darkness into his marvelous light. 00:24:53.680 --> 00:24:55.039 Girl, I love you. 00:24:55.039 --> 00:24:56.240 I'm just saying. 00:24:56.240 --> 00:25:04.400 So I you that I just I don't even have anything to put on top of what you just said. 00:25:04.400 --> 00:25:08.480 I just think it was so incredibly power powerful what you just said. 00:25:08.480 --> 00:25:11.519 Um, and uh, they do have value. 00:25:11.519 --> 00:25:18.400 And I would love to see every single one of them get to a point where they actually believe it for themselves. 00:25:18.400 --> 00:25:21.839 Not just us telling them that, but for them to believe it for themselves. 00:25:21.839 --> 00:25:26.160 But unfortunately, we can't just like reach into everybody's home and magically make that happen. 00:25:26.160 --> 00:25:27.920 I try, but it doesn't work. 00:25:27.920 --> 00:25:34.319 So we all have to go on our own journeys to arrive, you know, where you are. 00:25:34.319 --> 00:25:44.480 And I just want to reiterate to the audience, to those listening, and especially if we're talking about you, Aisha's story is her version of how she did it. 00:25:44.480 --> 00:25:50.720 You'll hear other people's story, and it might not be like yours, and that's okay, but listen to the principles behind everything that she's saying. 00:25:50.720 --> 00:25:53.279 If she can do it, so can you. 00:25:53.279 --> 00:25:57.920 And there are those of us out there who actually do care. 00:25:57.920 --> 00:26:07.519 We want to help you, and some of you don't let us, and some of you just need to reach out to us once you see that we're a person who honors our word and we care. 00:26:07.519 --> 00:26:09.839 I mean, those are the things you need to look for. 00:26:09.839 --> 00:26:13.359 And when you see that, uh you know, reach out to us. 00:26:13.359 --> 00:26:16.640 We're willing to help you, even if it's only for a season. 00:26:16.640 --> 00:26:19.200 I mean, listen to what Aisha just said. 00:26:19.200 --> 00:26:25.279 It's only she had different people in different seasons of her life, but that works for a lot of us. 00:26:25.279 --> 00:26:27.839 It doesn't have to be one consistent person. 00:26:27.839 --> 00:26:31.599 So there are different ways for all of us to heal. 00:26:31.599 --> 00:26:40.640 And I don't always talk about the spiritual aspect on here a lot because everybody's got different beliefs, but it's important. 00:26:40.640 --> 00:26:46.799 Even if you're not a Christian, spirituality is a major part of who you are as a human. 00:26:46.799 --> 00:26:48.480 I don't care who you are. 00:26:48.480 --> 00:26:51.519 And so ignoring things doesn't make them better. 00:26:51.519 --> 00:26:56.799 And you know, it's like if you want to bake a cake, you need several ingredients. 00:26:56.799 --> 00:26:59.599 You can't just put flour and water together and call it cake. 00:26:59.599 --> 00:27:01.599 It'll be dough, but it won't be cake. 00:27:01.599 --> 00:27:07.920 You're gonna need sugar, you're gonna need bacon powder, you're gonna need uh flavor, you're gonna need eggs, blah, blah, blah, whatever. 00:27:07.920 --> 00:27:17.680 And when we only do one part of our healing, we can't wonder why we don't get a cake. 00:27:17.680 --> 00:27:20.160 We didn't add all the ingredients yet. 00:27:20.160 --> 00:27:23.119 I'm off my soapbox because I'll go on. 00:27:24.079 --> 00:27:26.319 I would like to add something else, Fatima. 00:27:26.319 --> 00:27:27.680 You know, it's not about us. 00:27:27.680 --> 00:27:35.119 We go through these the law, uh, we go through these experiences so that we can teach and lead the way and make it easier for others. 00:27:35.119 --> 00:27:41.359 So you have to say yes to your healing because people are always watching you for good or for bad. 00:27:41.359 --> 00:27:42.799 And they'll be the first one. 00:27:42.799 --> 00:27:48.480 The nonsayers, the critics will be the first to say, Yes, I knew him, I knew her when she was back. 00:27:48.480 --> 00:27:54.960 And then so you you owe it to yourself and the people that you are called to reach. 00:27:56.720 --> 00:27:59.200 And we're not always excellent. 00:27:59.599 --> 00:28:02.799 Yeah, when we heal, we give others the permission to heal. 00:28:04.000 --> 00:28:05.519 Yes, yes, so true. 00:28:05.519 --> 00:28:10.799 When people watch us, they people watch us and they are encouraged. 00:28:10.799 --> 00:28:21.599 And here's the thing: they may not say a word to you, but they're watching you and they see that you're dealing with it, they see the hurt and pain that you're still fighting through, that you're still working through, and that you're trying. 00:28:21.599 --> 00:28:32.319 And you have no idea how much that might mean to somebody around you who is this quietly discouraged, but quietly encouraged by watching you overcome. 00:28:32.319 --> 00:28:35.039 That is that is an excellent point, Aisha. 00:28:35.039 --> 00:28:39.519 So, Aisha, tell people uh more about what you do and where they can find you. 00:28:40.160 --> 00:28:44.880 So you can find me on my website,

AishaBerrycoaching.com. 00:28:44.880 --> 00:28:49.839 My book is 2020 Vision, the perfect with fruitful dry fast. 00:28:49.839 --> 00:28:52.079 It's about the fast the Lord took me over to. 00:28:52.079 --> 00:28:56.160 And out of this fast, uh, the gift of healing was bestowed upon me. 00:28:56.160 --> 00:29:01.200 I would pray for people virtually and in person, and they will receive healing right away. 00:29:01.200 --> 00:29:11.440 So now I help born-again Christians just reconnect with God and find their true identity so they can let go of the lies and live in purpose. 00:29:11.839 --> 00:29:12.480 I love it. 00:29:12.480 --> 00:29:18.480 So her information will be in the um description in the show notes, and all of you can find her there. 00:29:18.480 --> 00:29:21.279 Well, Aisha, thank you so so much for coming on. 00:29:21.279 --> 00:29:23.759 I really enjoy talking to you on and off air. 00:29:23.759 --> 00:29:24.559 Thank you. 00:29:24.559 --> 00:29:25.759 Thank you. 00:29:25.759 --> 00:29:30.960 And now for a mind-shifting moment. 00:29:30.960 --> 00:29:37.200 I want you to take a moment and ask yourself some questions. 00:29:37.200 --> 00:29:42.960 What is the narrative that you believe about yourself? 00:29:42.960 --> 00:29:45.680 Were you different growing up? 00:29:45.680 --> 00:29:48.079 Are you different now? 00:29:48.079 --> 00:29:51.839 You think there's something wrong with you or you're weird? 00:29:51.839 --> 00:29:58.160 Chances are there's a lot right with you that someone else just didn't get. 00:29:58.160 --> 00:30:10.720 I want you to take a moment and I want you to question the narrative that you have about yourself, meaning what you believe about yourself, how you see yourself. 00:30:10.720 --> 00:30:16.240 And for those listening who feel unworthy, it came from somewhere. 00:30:16.240 --> 00:30:26.960 You were not born unworthy, but somewhere along the way, you were made to feel that way, and eventually you believed it. 00:30:26.960 --> 00:30:32.400 So, what I want you to do is to question why do I believe that? 00:30:32.400 --> 00:30:34.960 Where did that come from? 00:30:34.960 --> 00:31:01.680 Because once you begin to answer that question, you can begin the journey of changing your narrative, changing how you see yourself, and dispensing or dismantling, dissolving, breaking apart the lies that you have been repeatedly told over and over again. 00:31:01.680 --> 00:31:09.200 Maybe you're not weird, maybe you're gifted, and those around you didn't recognize your gift. 00:31:09.200 --> 00:31:12.640 Maybe there's nothing wrong with you. 00:31:12.640 --> 00:31:14.960 Maybe there's something wrong with them. 00:31:14.960 --> 00:31:18.720 I really want you to think about it. 00:31:18.720 --> 00:31:31.359 You've been listening Mind Shift Power Podcast for complete show notes on this episode, and to join our global movement, find us at fatimabay.com. 00:31:31.359 --> 00:31:37.759 Until next time, always remember there's power in shifting your thinking.