บทถอดความฉบับเต็มของ Messages from Beyond: My Journey with the Other Side

sleeping on my friend's couch. I did not have a job. My parents were not speaking to me. It was a very, very tumultuous time in my life and at the end of 2018. And a good friend of mine passed away suddenly at a very young age. And that's how I got into tarot and oracle cards was that a friend told me, hey, you can try to connect with him through these sacred cards. And boom, I the first card that I pulled changed my entire outlook of how I looked at tarot cards and oracle cards and fast forward to now. Yeah, tarot reader made my whole life around it. But Alex Diaz was his name. And he showed up in a lot of those cards. And So when this was happening in 2022 with my father-in-law, I really had to think back like what helped me during that time of loss and grief. And I started pulling more cards, angel cards, tarot cards to help me sort through the chaos that was in my mind, the grief that was unbearable, and to try to function and give me some focus. For the day, right? And that's when I started to feel Steve, even though he was already still here, alive and kicking, and his personality was still a kick in. If you know Steve Sr., he's so funny, a great storyteller, but also very stubborn and you know has his opinion. So I he was not into tarot cards, let's put it that way. But I was connecting, I feel like, to his spirit during this time of transition into the different worlds that souls go through that are besides this 3D realm and our earth suit and our human vessel that transcends the personality part of us, the soul part of us. And As I was pulling cards, that's when I realized that I wanted to start collaging them, that I wanted to work with my hands, that I wanted them to take me into a different ride and into a different journey and into a different dimension, basically. And it helped me really connect to Steve Senior because it was also helping me connect to my real father here on this plane. And my father was a collage artist, and I was able to go through some of his archive. Collage items because I couldn't find a lot of symbols in Vogue magazines, for instance. There's no not lot of swords in Vogue magazines. And I was able to connect to the journey of what does it mean to lose someone? What does it mean to have a dominant male in your life? And what does that mean when that person is no longer in your life? And And then I was able to connect with my mother-in-law, who was losing her best friend, and we were collaging a lot together. And so it just really felt like we were in this beautiful journey of healing together as his diagnosis progressed. And Fast forward to not just the feeling that I was connecting to actual signs. So it was the night that we got the call that he was in the hospital and that it was not looking good and that we had to get there right away. And it was a day that was pouring down rain. And we had to, we didn't even pack. We just jumped into the car and went to Roseville. And as miracles happen around this time,

Shannon Steve's sister was with us in our home when we got the call. So all three of us were together and were able to drive together. And it was pouring down rain. Like this is straight out of a movie scene. And you could hear a pin drop in the car. We were, it was silent. We are driving as fast as we can, but as safe as we could, because it was torrential. And I was texting a lot of my healing groups and sister friends and asking for prayers for Steve Sr. As he was most likely moving across the Rainbow Bridge, is what we call it. And I have been taught. From a few different people that as someone's moving across the rainbow bridge, they can hear you, they can hear your thoughts, they can hear every single word as if you're speaking to them for three days up into the passing, but three days after the passing as well. You have a direct line to them between worlds, between the 3D realm and the 4D and 5D realm as they transcend through the different dimensions. of their soul and As we were driving speeding to Roseville to see him before anything transpired as fast as we could, I felt a huge weighted blanket wash over me, like as if an egg cracked on me and was like spilling down. It was this spilling down of peace. It was like I was melting into the seat. My shoulders were pushed back into the seat. And it was so strong. It was so vibrational. It was so visceral that I was like, no. I hope that this is not him saying goodbye. Because this happened to me. I I've lost a friend a couple years ago. Not Alex Diaz, but my friend Roscoe Sarchevich. And he came to me before the night he passed away, but it was through flooded memories of him. And I was like just wondering at the time in my head, being like, why am I thinking of Roscoe so much? I have all these memories of Roscoe coming up. And I think that was him saying goodbye as he was passing through the realms. And so I knew already a little bit of that feeling. And so it was so much so that I peeked through because I was in the back seat, they were in the front seat, I peeked through the seats to look at the dashboard and I clocked the time and it was 519. And I was like, okay. I hope to God, the universe, to everyone that he's there and that we can see him and say goodbye. But if he's not there, I'm I I need to look at this time because this is the time that I'm getting this really big message. And we get there and thank gosh he was still with us. he said a few words, but he was not doing well. And they said we probably maybe he'll survive the night. But most likely, it's within the next, you know, 24 hours or so. And so many friends and family came. It was beautiful, and he was surrounded by family, and that was very healing. And I know that he really enjoyed that because all he wanted was his family to be around him, probably at all times, to be honest. he was a big family guy, family man. And As his breathing started to slow down the next day around one PM, I started to think back to ooh, the time yesterday was 519 PM. And I just remember looking at the clock and being like, okay, his breathing's slowing down. But I wonder if he will go at 519 for some reason. Like I just felt like maybe that was the moment that he picked for his soul to leave. You know, they sometimes say that a soul will decide when they actually like they'll contract with the universe being like, Okay, I'm gonna wait until this person comes to the hospital or I'm gonna leave before this person comes to the hospital. Like they kind of have a little bit of lead time play time with when they go sometimes that's what some people say and i was started to think of that i'm like i wonder if he made some sort of contract of the universe that he would leave this earth at 519 and that's when i felt that symbol or that that that really strong feeling it turns five o'clock and we all know that it's at any moment at any time now. And His last breath was at 519, 520. And that's how I knew that I felt Steve Sr. And not only was this my personal experience, everyone in the room obviously was so emotional and so impacted. But they all kept saying 520, 520, 520. And I was like, why is everyone saying 520? And in my head, I'm saying 5'19, 519, 519. And their childhood home that he grew up in and that all the kids grew up in was at 520 Sylvan in San Mateo. And Steve loved being from San Mateo. And he even would call into news stations and be Steve from San Mateo. And It was at 520. So I think Steve picked 520 to leave, knowing all of his friends and family would be around him and being so joyous and so sad all at the same time that he left with a symbol for them to all hold on to. And that I somehow tapped in and tuned in that that's that's when he had decided to to exit this world the day before, twenty-four hours before. And so after that happened, I felt so connected to him. I felt he was one of my guides. I know he's all of our guides, but it it just was like a different feeling, feeling like that I knew that. And as time went on, it was just such a sad, sad, sad, sad time. And we missed him so much. And he was such like the main character in the room. So it was very difficult for a long time. And I had a dream. about him and he said, Why so serious, Christina? And he had said something very similar to me in person when we got to the hospital. And I was, very upset when we got into his hotel room or his hotel room, his his hospital room. And he said, No sad faces. And so I feel like that was his way of saying again, like, I'm okay. Please, like enjoy the The parts of me that are the good parts, the storyteller parts, the parts that he loved about himself. And Long story short, after that, I finished the collage tarot deck with my mother in law. And it was a big family project. And we were healing and creating together really in his honor. the tarot cards came to me when I had taken two weeks off from my corporate job when he first got diagnosed. That's when the collages started.

And so to know that he was such a big part of me starting to me finishing the deck, I know that he was not a tarot fan, but his soul is, I think, because he his soul awakened something, I feel like, in me. And yeah, it was just the most beautiful story that there is. And lastly, I thought that was gonna be the end of my kind of connection with Steve Sr. as he was passing through the Rainbow Bridge and us honoring him. But what happened was fast forward to My trip to London last last summer, we went to an Oasis concert and we went to Liverpool and we saw Oasis in London, but we went to Liverpool because my husband and his best friend, who's also his cousin, who's also a Murphy, wanted to go to Liverpool and do the entire Beatles tour. I think they had already done it before, but they wanted to take their families. It was great. It was fun. but if you don't know, my husband is obsessed with the Beatles. he is. And we were down at the cavern where the Beatles first played, where they're known to have started and been first on stage. And the cover bands were amazing, and it was like the place was popping, like popping off. And I was having a great time. And I looked over behind me because I was kind of closer to the stage. It's a very small place, by the way. I turned over and I saw Scott and Steve singing their hearts out to whatever song was playing, whatever Beatles song was playing. And all of a sudden in the back of my head, did you hear that sound as I said that? Wow. All of a sudden the back of my head, the back, the nape of my neck, where your head touches your neck, I felt something like come into like half of my body, literally from the back. And all of a sudden I realized that Steve Sr. was like it was like ghost, like it was like in my body. Like I felt Steve Sr. looking through my eyes. And all of a sudden he just was, I could just feel this elation, this elation that like he said, he's like, I ooh, makes me emotional. I'm not like proud of everything that I did in my life, but what I'm so proud of is the love of music that I instilled into my family. And it wasn't even me crying at that time because I was still like kind of freaked out like what was happening. And it was like the tears were like these massive like globs of water. They weren't like my tears. They were like maybe his tears or he was alchemizing through my body. I don't know what it was, but it was like these massive teardrops. Like I felt I looked like a cartoon with these massive Teardrops coming out of my eyes, and I couldn't speak because I think he was still somehow in my body, with my body, having an experience maybe through my body and seeing through my eyes. But I could not speak. But I was really honoring him at that time, even though I was kind of freaked out in that moment. But I just kept looking at Steve and And Scott and my heart was welling up, and my heart was so open. And I think Steve's heart was so open, and he was having the best time with his two, his

son and his nephew, and experiencing the cavern club again. And it was so wild that I finally like kind of collected myself and I I felt like he was kind of. okay, I had my moment. I'm gonna let you have your body back. And I went and sat down next to my cousin in law and their child. And that's when I just like had to keep crying because it was such an experience that I like, I didn't even know what to do. And it just needed to come out. And I felt so much for Steve Senior. I felt all of his emotions and so I just had to cry it out. And I think people thought I was cray cry up in the club because I was like in the corner just like sobbing. But it was so moving and I felt so honored and I felt so Happy for Steve Sr. to be able to experience that with us in London or in Liverpool. And Yeah, so that's my mediumship experience that I had, where I feel like Steve is like my grand, I don't know, grand angel of tarot, spirituality, and mediumship, which is hilarious because he was so not that person in this lifetime when he was here as a 3D, but his soul connects with me in that way. And I haven't connected with anyone like that on the other side. I know that I have. my angels and guides and people that have passed on, like my grandma and my stepgrandmother. I know that they are my spirit team and that they're here with me and that they're always watching out for me. But I haven't had so much one-on-one other side experiences like I have with Steve Sr. And I always knew that we were very connected and I couldn't explain it while he was alive. I, you know, we we got into it sometimes as well. And you know, there'd be some times where we would frustrate each other as humans to human, mostly with our political views. And but there was a very strong soul connection between us. And his middle name is Anthony, my husband's middle name is Anthony, my dad's middle name is Anthony, and my brother's middle name is Anthony. And I saw a psychic before I met Steve, and she told me I'm gonna meet my husband this year. And that was the year in 2020. And I did meet him in 2020. And she said, There's gonna be a big field. And in this big field in front of you, that's where you're gonna meet. And there's gonna be something about his middle name. And he's gonna be about five nine, five, ten, and he's gonna have light-ish eyes. And I was like, gosh, this is so specific. And of course, it was COVID. not when I got that reading, but Later in 2020, obviously. And so Steve and I's first date was a hike and a walk with a huge field. And we sat on this bench, and all of a sudden, boom, I was like, Holy crap, this is the field. Is this my person? I was like, Do I dare ask what his middle name is? And I was like, I'm gonna ask, I'm gonna ask. You can imagine my butterflies in my stomach. And he was like, Anthony. And I was like, my jaw, stomach, everything dropped to the root of the earth. I was like, like I couldn't even look at him. Cause I was like, this is my person. Like, you know, that that feeling that comes through. And you don't even want to look at them because you're like, my God. You just can't even believe your own everything. And so then I slowly turned towards him and look at his eyes. His eyes were light. And I was like, How tall are you? And he's like five nine. I was So I was trying not to lose my cool, you know what I'm saying? It was a first date. but it's just so funny how the Murphys and me are so connected on these spiritual levels. And all of that to say and to share with you is that I hope you're inspired to think about all of the little things and the little moments and the little goosebumps and the little truth bumps and the little whispers that you hear in your mind, all the coincidences and synchronicities that. Come through because spirit is speaking to us if we are open to it. But that's the key. We have to be open to it. And it's really, once you are open to it, the magic of life turns on full color. It's like as if I had been living in black and white Pleasantville, if you ever saw that movie, and now it's in full color because energy and energy understanding and all of the signs and Subtleties make life so rich. There's not one day that goes by that I don't see some sort of angel mumber. that something in my path isn't giving me the goosebumps. and when I walked out of the cavern, there was a gold earring. It looked exactly like my gold earring on the path. And Scott picked it up and was like, Is this yours? And I was like, no, that's not mine, but that looks like mine. And so a lot of times, spirit can also leave you little trinkets across your path and across your way. And I really took that. I kept it. All of my like little altars have all my little trinkets that come across my path, but it was a trinket that I knew Steve had left to say, don't doubt it. That was me. And I'm so happy you took me with me. And I'm so happy that you let me come in. And so, anyways, going to say you don't want to have all spirits coming through. So, in this time of spooky season, Sawin, Day of the Deads, and Ancestors, as you probably can see for those that have YouTube, or if you've met me in person or you see my videos, I always wear my black tourmaline medicine pouch. This was given to me by my dear. Friend and shaman Ed Aguilar. And we can call in lots of spirits, not necessarily good spirits, you know. I don't I don't believe that the universe is trying to, you know, freak us out or send us bad spirits, but just like there's good humans, bad humans, you know what I mean? Like good intent, bad intent. I mean, there's a yin and the yang, there's the light in the dark. I mean, there just is. We want to protect ourselves, right? So these are some practical spiritual tips for you is that wear something, you can wear those, bracelets that have the beads on them of black tourmaline or tiger's eye, something that protects your root chakra. and then, or you can wear it around your your necklace. So a necklace is really great for it too, or earrings. And then another way to protect it is that you ask. When you ask spirit for help, when you ask your guides, angels, and ancestors, you want to say my healed guides, my healed angels and ancestors come and help me now. Only those that are here for my best and my highest good. You can ask for Archangel Mikhail for protection for your highest and best. And that just allows because spirits can't come to us unless we ask them to. They can't come into our field unless we somehow, whether it's consciously or unconsciously, give them per permission. So by doing protection, by keeping selenite next to you, by keeping Himalayan salt lamps next to you, by keeping crystals with you, crystal grids, crystal guides, by cleaning your space. We also have Florida water, which we can put on things and anoint things, incense, palasanto, Even drumming and really high vibrational music can be also very helpful. These will all keep your spaces clean and clear because I've had a time which I had already said on one of my podcasts before is that I had a psychic tell me that girl, you call in your guides all the time, but you have a crowded party room in your, you know, sphere in your energy field because you're just calling in way too many people. You need to Really work on how you're calling in your angels and guides. So now it's my healed, ancient, wise ancestors and guides that are here for my best and highest good, here for my evolution. Archangel Mikhail, please protect me. All evil eyes send back to sender. I also do a lot of egg cleanses. If you want to know what that is, reach out to me because I have that on my magic maker school app. But there's lots and lots of different techniques that you can protect yourself, but we also don't want to protect ourselves so much where we close ourselves off from what spirit has to say. So I hope that this is very on brand for Halloween, for spooky seasons, for changing of the seasons, for Diet los Muertos. I love you, Steve Sr. I love you, Steve Senior. I love you, Alex Diaz. I love you, Roscoe Sartrevich. Place up those photos of your people, light a candle for them, say a prayer for them and for the people that are living, because it it's almost harder for the people that are living on this earth without them than it is for them, because they're a spirit that are always around us. They're always with us. It's like they're not without us, but we feel without them in our human form. So that's why it's important for us to to kind of ascend or transcend into the spirit world and then we can feel them. So I hope you enjoyed that episode. I love you all and I will see you next week.