บทถอดความฉบับเต็มของ Opportunity

I do really like the psychology class. Maybe 37 00:02:50,130 --> 00:02:54,690 I could do that, become a psychologist, wake up, 38 00:02:55,330 --> 00:03:00,645 psychoanalyze some folks, go to sleep. Don't worry. 39 00:03:00,645 --> 00:03:08,325 Mom will make time for you too. What else other than spinning my 40 00:03:08,325 --> 00:03:13,790 wheels? Oh, I have a job interview on Thursday with some 41 00:03:13,790 --> 00:03:20,670 bank. Bank of bank of bank of money, cash of the world, known 42 00:03:20,670 --> 00:03:21,950 universe. I I don't know. 43 00:03:21,950 --> 00:03:26,545 Some big wig bank. Patti knew someone who knew someone, and I 44 00:03:26,545 --> 00:03:29,825 guess they felt bad enough about Patti's sad little sister that 45 00:03:29,825 --> 00:03:34,305 they decided to give me an interview. Imagine me, Babalu, 46 00:03:34,385 --> 00:03:38,545 wearing a pantsuit, making recommendations for personal 47 00:03:38,545 --> 00:03:44,610 lines of credits and certificates of deposits. I 48 00:03:44,610 --> 00:03:49,330 guess it's not that far fetched. Grandpa taught me a thing or two 49 00:03:49,330 --> 00:03:50,290 about business. 50 00:03:52,450 --> 00:03:58,655 So, yeah, I guess I'll put on my best face, do the song and 51 00:03:58,655 --> 00:04:03,695 dance. I doubt anything will come from it. Never does. 52 00:04:07,455 --> 00:04:10,655 Companies don't want someone with just a high school diploma. 53 00:04:11,390 --> 00:04:12,110 Yeah. 54 00:04:12,590 --> 00:04:17,710 God forbid, you have actual work experience. I guess it would be 55 00:04:17,710 --> 00:04:20,990 nice to have a job where I didn't have to pander to idiots 56 00:04:20,990 --> 00:04:25,150 or at least drunk idiots. And it'd be nice to have a pension 57 00:04:25,150 --> 00:04:30,335 or something. Could be a good opportunity. Who knows? 58 00:04:30,335 --> 00:04:32,895 Maybe they'll take pity on little me. 59 00:04:35,455 --> 00:04:36,175 What was that? 60 00:04:40,870 --> 00:04:49,750 Babalu, did you hear that? Or is mama losing her marbles? Yeah. 61 00:04:52,785 --> 00:04:56,065 What was I talking about? Oh, I don't know. 62 00:04:57,185 --> 00:05:00,465 Sometimes I feel like I'm just settling for what's in front of 63 00:05:00,465 --> 00:05:05,345 me. Just letting life happen to me. Goddamn Angela. 20 years 64 00:05:05,345 --> 00:05:10,470 old, brat. Maybe that's why I don't wanna hang out with her. 65 00:05:11,190 --> 00:05:13,990 That's not true. I don't really wanna hang out with anyone 66 00:05:15,110 --> 00:05:16,070 except 67 00:05:16,550 --> 00:05:19,125 my Babalu. 68 00:05:22,165 --> 00:05:26,725 And Deb. I like hanging with Deb. It's not easy to coerce me 69 00:05:26,725 --> 00:05:32,860 into friendship, so I must like her. Why am I such a bitch? 70 00:05:34,220 --> 00:05:35,020 Uh-oh. 71 00:05:35,100 --> 00:05:40,940 Mommy said a bad word. Yeah. Mommy said a bad word. Mama's a 72 00:05:40,940 --> 00:05:47,535 little bad sometimes. Is that okay, Babalu? 73 00:05:47,855 --> 00:05:54,495 Can you ever forgive mama? God, you're so stinking smart. You 74 00:05:54,495 --> 00:05:58,575 know that? It's okay. I'll remind you. 75 00:06:01,610 --> 00:06:06,010 Do you like hanging out with your mama? No? Well, you're 76 00:06:06,010 --> 00:06:08,890 stuck with me. That's not so bad. Right? 77 00:06:12,730 --> 00:06:15,765 Yeah. I'm not so bad. 78 00:06:27,090 --> 00:06:32,450 Luisa: [humming] That I'm in love with you... You-uuu, soft 79 00:06:32,450 --> 00:06:37,810 and lonely. You-uuu , lost and lonely... 80 00:07:10,605 --> 00:07:13,645 Dylan: And seeing the Earth from that vantage point is pretty 81 00:07:13,645 --> 00:07:16,845 sick. There really is nothing else like it. You you ever went 82 00:07:16,845 --> 00:07:17,485 skydiving? 83 00:07:17,485 --> 00:07:17,965 Luisa: No. 84 00:07:17,965 --> 00:07:19,005 Dylan: Do you want to? 85 00:07:19,165 --> 00:07:23,220 Luisa: No. I'm scared of heights and falling to my death. 86 00:07:23,220 --> 00:07:26,020 Dylan: I get it. It's not for everyone, but I promise if we 87 00:07:26,020 --> 00:07:27,940 went skydiving, you'd be in good hands. 88 00:07:27,940 --> 00:07:29,140 Luisa: I would hope so. 89 00:07:29,140 --> 00:07:30,660 Dylan: What are your thoughts on crypto? 90 00:07:30,900 --> 00:07:32,260 Luisa: Cryptocurrency? 91 00:07:32,260 --> 00:07:32,820 Dylan: Yeah. 92 00:07:32,980 --> 00:07:33,780 Luisa: People still do 93 00:07:33,780 --> 00:07:34,100 that? 94 00:07:34,100 --> 00:07:34,820 Dylan: Oh, yeah. 95 00:07:35,220 --> 00:07:37,355 Luisa: I can't say I know much about it. 96 00:07:37,355 --> 00:07:38,875 Dylan: I'll teach you if you wanna learn. 97 00:07:39,195 --> 00:07:41,675 Luisa: Oh, I don't know. That seems like one of those things 98 00:07:41,675 --> 00:07:45,515 that I'd be more interested in if I, like, had disposable 99 00:07:45,515 --> 00:07:46,395 income. 100 00:07:47,995 --> 00:07:49,960 Dylan: I mean, you could start with just a few bucks. 101 00:07:50,520 --> 00:07:56,760 Luisa: Oh, just a few bucks? I'm not sure I can swing that. I'm 102 00:07:56,760 --> 00:07:58,440 kidding, mostly. 103 00:07:59,000 --> 00:08:01,800 Dylan: I got you. What hobbies do you have? 104 00:08:02,840 --> 00:08:07,585 Luisa: I do enjoy indoor bouldering, emphasis on indoor 105 00:08:07,585 --> 00:08:10,785 because as you know, I'm scared of heights and dying. 106 00:08:11,745 --> 00:08:12,785 Dylan: That's cool. 107 00:08:15,425 --> 00:08:20,630 Luisa: Yep. Do you have any guilty pleasures? 108 00:08:21,030 --> 00:08:24,390 Dylan: No such thing. If it gives me pleasure, what's there 109 00:08:24,390 --> 00:08:25,830 to feel guilty about? 110 00:08:26,310 --> 00:08:31,830 Luisa: Not sure I agree with that logic. Well, my guilty 111 00:08:31,830 --> 00:08:36,315 pleasure is this paranormal romance series. It's like way 112 00:08:36,315 --> 00:08:41,835 over the top, like werewolves and

vampires and like witches. 113 00:08:41,835 --> 00:08:45,115 But it's like the right amount of insanity, but also like kind 114 00:08:45,115 --> 00:08:46,715 of raunchy, but not too raunchy. 115 00:08:46,715 --> 00:08:47,915 Dylan: So it's like you're reading porn? 116 00:08:48,440 --> 00:08:50,040 Luisa: I guess if you look at it that way. 117 00:08:50,040 --> 00:08:52,920 Dylan: Oh, you're reading about people having sex? So yeah. 118 00:08:53,160 --> 00:08:57,720 Luisa: Sure. Hence, the guilt and guilty pleasure. But I'm not 119 00:08:57,720 --> 00:09:02,145 a total perv. I do very much appreciate the romance aspect of 120 00:09:02,145 --> 00:09:06,625 romance novels. I mean, I love reading in general. 121 00:09:07,505 --> 00:09:11,425 I'm actually a pursuing novelist, not of dirty 122 00:09:11,425 --> 00:09:12,945 pornographic books, unfortunately. 123 00:09:13,680 --> 00:09:14,880 Dylan: What do you write? 124 00:09:14,960 --> 00:09:16,080 Luisa: Creative non fiction. 125 00:09:16,080 --> 00:09:17,440 Dylan: Nice. Like what? 126 00:09:18,000 --> 00:09:20,320 Luisa: Well, I just finished a manuscript about this Chinese 127 00:09:20,320 --> 00:09:23,200 immigrant who basically turned the San Gabriel Valley into 128 00:09:23,200 --> 00:09:25,120 this, like, Asian American haven. 129 00:09:25,120 --> 00:09:27,280 Dylan: Oh, you should write a book about CZ. 130 00:09:27,735 --> 00:09:28,455 Luisa: CZ? 131 00:09:28,455 --> 00:09:31,575 Dylan: Changpeng Zhao, founder of Binance. He's huge in the 132 00:09:31,575 --> 00:09:35,975 world of crypto. In fact, he's in deep shit with the feds. 133 00:09:35,975 --> 00:09:37,735 I'm surprised you don't know him. 134 00:09:37,815 --> 00:09:39,415 Luisa: I'd be surprised if I did. 135 00:09:39,415 --> 00:09:40,935 Dylan: Now that's a book I'd read. 136 00:09:41,960 --> 00:09:43,640 Luisa: I'm sure someone's writing it. 137 00:09:43,640 --> 00:09:48,280 Dylan: Shit I hope so. Or someone should turn his story 138 00:09:48,280 --> 00:09:51,080 into a movie. You write movies? 139 00:09:51,080 --> 00:09:51,880 Luisa: No. 140 00:09:52,120 --> 00:09:55,640 Dylan: Oh, maybe you should. 141 00:09:57,055 --> 00:09:57,775 Luisa: Maybe. 142 00:09:59,455 --> 00:10:04,255 Leon: Hey, Luisa. It's Leon. I have another assignment if you 143 00:10:04,255 --> 00:10:08,095 want it. I'm looking for a piece. Something along the lines 144 00:10:08,095 --> 00:10:13,990 of 'top 10 signs your man is a real ally' or something. 145 00:10:13,990 --> 00:10:17,030 Of course, we'll need you to pepper in some call to actions 146 00:10:17,030 --> 00:10:20,630 that point to an online t shirt company. They make really dope 147 00:10:20,630 --> 00:10:24,550 woke themed shirts for men. Anyway, should be a fun piece if 148 00:10:24,550 --> 00:10:27,155 you want it. Let me know by Friday. Bye. 149 00:11:06,700 --> 00:11:10,940 Reina: Okay. This is my take on shrimp etouffee. Oh. Part Cajun, 150 00:11:10,940 -->

00:11:14,380 part Latin. There's a butter garlic roux with a hint of 151 00:11:15,420 --> 00:11:17,980 Luisa: Reina, stop selling. I'm sold. 152 00:11:20,155 --> 00:11:21,035 Reina: Be honest. 153 00:11:24,475 --> 00:11:25,915 Luisa: It's amazing. 154 00:11:25,995 --> 00:11:27,115 Reina: You really think so? 155 00:11:27,115 --> 00:11:27,835 Luisa: Yes. 156 00:11:27,995 --> 00:11:30,315 Reina: I'm presenting this dish to the chef tomorrow, and if you 157 00:11:30,315 --> 00:11:31,595 let me make a fool of myself, I 158 00:11:31,675 --> 00:11:33,035 Luisa: You do that all by yourself. 159 00:11:33,510 --> 00:11:34,310 Reina: It's true. 160 00:11:34,310 --> 00:11:37,110 Luisa: But seriously, girl, you got this on lock. 161 00:11:37,110 --> 00:11:37,750 Reina: Yeah? 162 00:11:37,750 --> 00:11:38,550 Luisa: Yes. 163 00:11:38,550 --> 00:11:43,830 Yes. A thousand times. Yes. Now I don't suppose that there's a 164 00:11:43,830 --> 00:11:45,430 good wine that this dish could be paired with. 165 00:11:45,645 --> 00:11:47,965 Reina: Are you now asking me for free booze? 166 00:11:48,045 --> 00:11:50,445 Luisa: I feel like a thoughtful chef would have planned a 167 00:11:50,445 --> 00:11:52,045 perfectly paired glass of wine to 168 00:11:52,045 --> 00:11:57,165 go with this dish. Just saying. Also, you're drinking. 169 00:11:57,165 --> 00:11:59,485 Reina: I'm working. That's for table 10. 170 00:12:00,600 --> 00:12:01,720 Luisa: No. 171 00:12:04,120 --> 00:12:04,760 Reina: What? 172 00:12:05,720 --> 00:12:06,920 Luisa: Nothing. Just this guy. 173 00:12:06,920 --> 00:12:07,880 Reina: Oh, a date? 174 00:12:08,680 --> 00:12:10,120 Luisa: Yeah. But don't get excited. 175 00:12:10,360 --> 00:12:11,480 Reina: What's his name? 176 00:12:11,640 --> 00:12:12,520 Luisa: Doesn't matter. 177 00:12:12,520 --> 00:12:13,400 Reina: That bad? 178 00:12:13,480 --> 00:12:13,880 Luisa: No. 179 00:12:13,880 --> 00:12:16,895 It wasn't bad. It was just alright. 180 00:12:16,895 --> 00:12:18,495 Reina: So you're not gonna see him again? 181 00:12:18,815 --> 00:12:19,455 Nope. 182 00:12:19,935 --> 00:12:24,095 Lu, when was the last time you went on a second date? 183 00:12:24,175 --> 00:12:29,600 Luisa: Give me a glass of wine, and I'll tell you. Listen. He's 184 00:12:29,600 --> 00:12:30,240 a nice guy, 185 00:12:30,240 --> 00:12:31,280 but it would never work. 186 00:12:31,280 --> 00:12:32,240 Reina: How do you know that? 187 00:12:32,240 --> 00:12:34,640 Luisa: Because there wasn't any fun back and forth. 188 00:12:34,640 --> 00:12:35,520 Reina: Back and forth? 189 00:12:35,520 --> 00:12:40,960 Luisa: You know, a banter. I need banter. Also, he didn't 190 00:12:40,960 --> 00:12:43,040 laugh once at a single thing I had 191 00:12:43,040 --> 00:12:43,505 Reina: to say. 192 00:12:43,505 --> 00:12:45,505 Maybe what you had to say wasn't funny. 193 00:12:45,985 --> 00:12:47,265 Luisa: Girl, I'm funny. 194 00:12:47,265 --> 00:12:48,145 Reina: Yeah. You are. 195 00:12:48,785 --> 00:12:50,065 That needs dressing. 196 00:12:50,065 --> 00:12:54,785 Luisa: He didn't even crack a smile. And to make matters 197 00:12:54,785 --> 00:12:57,345 worse, he didn't make me laugh. 198 00:12:57,345 --> 00:12:58,305 Reina: Oh, that's no good. 199 00:12:58,760 --> 00:13:01,320 Ronnie has to make me belly laugh at least once a day or 200 00:13:01,320 --> 00:13:02,120 it's over. 201 00:13:02,200 --> 00:13:03,000 Luisa: Exactly. 202 00:13:03,240 --> 00:13:04,920 So no. I'm not gonna see him again. 203 00:13:05,480 --> 00:13:10,040 Reina: Lu, sometimes first dates suck. People get nervous. 204 00:13:10,040 --> 00:13:10,520 Luisa: Rei, 205 00:13:11,195 --> 00:13:14,555 I know you don't want me to die alone, and I don't want that 206 00:13:14,555 --> 00:13:19,355 either. But I already spent many years in a relationship where I 207 00:13:19,355 --> 00:13:23,835 was settling for what was in front of me, and I don't wanna 208 00:13:23,835 --> 00:13:29,930 do that again. I know. You know, I see you and Ronnie together, 209 00:13:30,410 --> 00:13:35,770 and I think, damn. What they have is so right. 210 00:13:36,490 --> 00:13:40,490 You two are so right for each other. I want my right person. 211 00:13:41,545 --> 00:13:45,945 Reina: I want that for you too. I'm just saying, could it be you 212 00:13:45,945 --> 00:13:48,585 cut things off before you even have a chance to-- 213 00:13:48,745 --> 00:13:49,385 Luisa: No. 214 00:13:49,545 --> 00:13:52,025 Reina: Get to know the guy. Okay? 215 00:13:53,065 --> 00:13:55,305 Luisa: Please, can we talk about something more interesting? 216 00:13:55,465 --> 00:13:55,785 Reina: Like? 217 00:13:56,860 --> 00:14:00,220 Luisa: Like, I started listening to my mom's tapes. 218 00:14:00,380 --> 00:14:03,340 Reina: Oh my god. Yes. And? 219 00:14:03,900 --> 00:14:06,060 Luisa: It's surreal. 220 00:14:06,700 --> 00:14:09,980 In a good way. It's, I don't know. It's hard to believe that 221 00:14:09,980 --> 00:14:13,705 I'm listening to my mother. You know? 222 00:14:13,785 --> 00:14:14,985 Reina: What's she like? 223 00:14:15,625 --> 00:14:22,745 Luisa: She's thoughtful, observant, funny, like, dry, 224 00:14:22,745 --> 00:14:24,025 sarcastic funny. 225 00:14:24,025 --> 00:14:25,545 Reina: Oh, now I know where you got that from. 226 00:14:27,680 --> 00:14:33,680 Luisa: Yeah. She's really cool. And this is crazy, but you can 227 00:14:33,680 --> 00:14:37,760 hear me as a baby on these tapes. 228 00:14:38,160 --> 00:14:41,120 Reina: Oh, right. Babalu... 229 00:14:42,215 --> 00:14:43,975 Luisa: She really did call me that. 230 00:14:44,775 --> 00:14:48,375 Reina: So are you, like, binging all of the tapes? 231 00:14:48,455 --> 00:14:52,695 Luisa: No. No. Not quite. I mean, I could easily see myself 232 00:14:52,695 --> 00:14:56,695 doing that, but the tapes are kind of a mess. None of them are 233 00:14:56,695 --> 00:14:57,095 labeled. 234

00:14:57,360 --> 00:15:01,440 Some are empty. Sometimes she just forgets to stop recording, 235 00:15:01,440 --> 00:15:04,880 so a lot of the audio is just her wandering off and doing 236 00:15:04,880 --> 00:15:08,320 stuff around the house, which I also like listening to. 237 00:15:08,800 --> 00:15:10,560 Reina: It's like you're seeing into the past. 238 00:15:11,545 --> 00:15:12,185 Luisa: Yeah. 239 00:15:12,985 --> 00:15:19,785 Yeah. I just wanna cherish this because I know it won't last. 240 00:15:20,905 --> 00:15:25,440 Reina: Oh, does she sound, you you know, like Mhmm. You know 241 00:15:25,440 --> 00:15:25,760 what? No. 242 00:15:25,760 --> 00:15:26,240 I'm sorry. 243 00:15:26,240 --> 00:15:29,360 Luisa: Yeah. No. I, um she sounds okay. 244 00:15:29,360 --> 00:15:29,840 Reina: Mhmm. 245 00:15:29,840 --> 00:15:33,600 Luisa: For the most part, it's... look. I know it's not 246 00:15:33,600 --> 00:15:34,720 that simple. Right? 247 00:15:34,800 --> 00:15:35,440 Reina: Yeah. 248 00:15:37,485 --> 00:15:40,765 Do you know when these tapes were recorded? Like, 249 00:15:41,085 --> 00:15:42,205 how close to...? 250 00:15:43,805 --> 00:15:50,080 Luisa: No. I mean, she died that October '89, I know she met 251 00:15:50,080 --> 00:15:53,680 Debra in that psychology class earlier that year. So it's, 252 00:15:53,680 --> 00:15:55,120 like, all around that time. 253 00:15:55,440 --> 00:15:56,080 Reina: Right. 254 00:15:56,400 --> 00:15:58,640 Luisa: Which is another reason why I'm trying to take things 255 00:15:58,640 --> 00:15:59,040 slow. 256 00:15:59,040 --> 00:15:59,600 You know? 257 00:15:59,600 --> 00:16:00,400 Reina: Right. 258 00:16:00,400 --> 00:16:04,320 Luisa: I just like hearing her talk, hearing her think out 259 00:16:04,320 --> 00:16:10,455 loud. It's wild. I spent all these years imagining what she 260 00:16:10,455 --> 00:16:11,255 was like. 261 00:16:12,535 --> 00:16:16,695 You know that one picture I have of her and I, where I'm in that, 262 00:16:16,695 --> 00:16:18,295 like, polka dot outfit? 263 00:16:18,295 --> 00:16:20,350 Reina: Aw. And she looks like she's whispering into your cute 264 00:16:20,350 --> 00:16:21,390 little baby ear? 265 00:16:21,390 --> 00:16:27,310 Luisa: Yeah. That photo was all I had of her. Because, you know, 266 00:16:27,310 --> 00:16:29,790 my aunt and uncle could never bring themselves to talk about 267 00:16:29,790 --> 00:16:32,590 her. So that was it. That photo. 268 00:16:32,590 --> 00:16:36,755 Nothing else. I still don't know if my mom left a note. 269 00:16:38,195 --> 00:16:40,675 Reina: What does Patti think about all this? 270 00:16:41,715 --> 00:16:43,155 Luisa: I haven't told her. 271 00:16:43,555 --> 00:16:44,275 Reina: Oh. 272 00:16:44,755 --> 00:16:48,035 Luisa: I just wanna experience this on my own for now. 273 00:16:48,035 --> 00:16:49,315 Reina: Yeah. That's probably for the best. 274 00:16:50,300 --> 00:16:53,740 Luisa: You know what's weird? My aunt claims that she doesn't 275 00:16:53,740 --> 00:16:54,780 remember Debra. 276 00:16:54,780 --> 00:16:56,780 Reina: I don't remember people I met last week. So... 277 00:16:56,780 --> 00:16:57,740 Luisa: I know. Yeah. 278 00:16:57,980 --> 00:17:01,740 I I get that. But it it was thirty years ago, but you'd 279 00:17:01,740 --> 00:17:04,795 think she'd kinda remember Debra. Right? They cleaned up my 280 00:17:04,795 --> 00:17:06,475 mom's apartment together. 281 00:17:07,035 --> 00:17:09,435 Reina: Well, that's what Debra told you. 282 00:17:09,515 --> 00:17:10,795 Luisa: You think she's lying? 283 00:17:10,795 --> 00:17:14,795 Reina: Not necessarily. I'm just saying you don't know her. 284 00:17:15,195 --> 00:17:15,515 Luisa: Yeah. 285 00:17:16,490 --> 00:17:17,130 True. 286 00:17:17,690 --> 00:17:20,970 Reina: Oh, did you hear about that woman who got killed by 287 00:17:20,970 --> 00:17:24,570 this nut job lady who claimed to be her long lost mother? 288 00:17:24,570 --> 00:17:25,370 Luisa: The hell? 289 00:17:25,370 --> 00:17:28,170 Reina: Yeah. It's like Netflix's biggest true crime series right 290 00:17:28,170 --> 00:17:28,410 now. 291 00:17:28,410 --> 00:17:30,010 Luisa: You know I don't watch that shit. 292 00:17:30,010 --> 00:17:34,185 Reina: I'm just saying people are psycho, so be on guard. I 293 00:17:34,185 --> 00:17:36,985 don't need my best friend winding up as a subject of a 294 00:17:36,985 --> 00:17:37,865 true crime series. 295 00:17:37,865 --> 00:17:40,105 Luisa: You know that is my literal nightmare. 296 00:17:40,105 --> 00:17:40,905 Reina: Mine too. 297 00:17:40,905 --> 00:17:41,305 Luisa: Great. 298 00:17:41,305 --> 00:17:45,560 We're on the same page. So you're gonna get me a glass of 299 00:17:45,560 --> 00:17:46,440 wine or what? 300 00:17:46,440 --> 00:17:48,200 Reina: Red, orange, or white? 301 00:17:48,200 --> 00:17:50,760 Luisa: I don't know. You're the chef. Shouldn't you tell me? 302 00:17:50,760 --> 00:17:52,440 Reina: Technically, I'm the sous chef. 303 00:17:52,520 --> 00:17:55,400 Luisa: With that attitude, you're going to stay the sous 304 00:17:55,400 --> 00:17:55,880 chef. 305 00:17:55,880 --> 00:17:59,575 Reina: Well, you are absolutely getting that true crime series 306 00:17:59,575 --> 00:18:01,255 because I'm going to kill you. 307 00:18:01,255 --> 00:18:03,175 Luisa: Damn. That's a good plot twist. 308 00:18:03,175 --> 00:18:04,615 Reina: Oh, how's your September looking? 309 00:18:04,615 --> 00:18:06,695 Luisa: So you can plan when you're gonna kill me? 310 00:18:06,775 --> 00:18:09,895 Reina: Ronnie and I are finally getting around to the 311 00:18:09,895 --> 00:18:13,200 housewarming party Oh. And I need you there. 312 00:18:13,200 --> 00:18:15,440 Luisa: Oh, don't murder me in your new home. 313 00:18:15,440 --> 00:18:18,080 Reina: It's the perfect place to hide your body. No one would 314 00:18:18,080 --> 00:18:19,280 ever suspect me. 315 00:18:19,600

--> 00:18:21,520 Luisa: You watch too much true crime. 316 00:18:21,520 --> 00:18:23,200 Reina: It's educational programming. 317 00:18:23,600 --> 00:18:23,920 Luisa: Apparently. 318 00:18:25,105 --> 00:18:26,625 Reina: I'm getting you a sav blanc. 319 00:18:26,625 --> 00:18:27,905 Luisa: It better not be poisoned. 320 00:18:27,905 --> 00:18:29,265 Reina: No promises. 321 00:18:29,345 --> 00:18:30,865 Luisa: Fair. 322 00:18:38,865 --> 00:18:41,000 Greg Voicemail Message: Hi. This is Greg Steiner with Laurie 323 00:18:41,000 --> 00:18:44,280 Publishing. I'm currently away from my desk, but please leave 324 00:18:44,280 --> 00:18:47,080 your name and number, and I'll get back to you as soon as I 325 00:18:47,080 --> 00:18:47,560 can. 326 00:18:49,080 --> 00:18:51,880 Luisa: Hey, Greg. This is Luisa Zhang Hillman. I'm following up 327 00:18:51,880 --> 00:18:54,520 to see if you had a chance to read my manuscript, the one 328 00:18:54,520 --> 00:19:00,405 about Frederic Hsieh. If so, I'd love to chat with you and get 329 00:19:00,405 --> 00:19:04,325 your thoughts. Otherwise, I hope you're having a great week. 330 00:19:04,885 --> 00:19:05,605 Thanks. 331 00:19:07,685 --> 00:19:12,920 Sherry: I had my interview today, and I don't know. I think 332 00:19:12,920 --> 00:19:17,320 I actually feel good about it. So good that I think I may 333 00:19:17,320 --> 00:19:20,600 actually have a shot. I interviewed with the branch 334 00:19:20,600 --> 00:19:21,640 manager, Gary. 335 00:19:21,640 --> 00:19:27,905 Gary. Terrible name. Anyway, I interviewed with Gary and, you 336 00:19:27,905 --> 00:19:31,345 know, he's your run of the mill business banking professional 337 00:19:31,345 --> 00:19:35,345 man. Whatever. He seems fine enough, but he was throwing 338 00:19:35,345 --> 00:19:39,265 these questions at me, and I was just hitting them out of the 339 00:19:39,265 --> 00:19:40,145 park. 340 00:19:40,625 --> 00:19:46,040 Every single one. At one point, it felt like I was having an out 341 00:19:46,040 --> 00:19:50,280 of body experience. I suddenly became conscious of how well the 342 00:19:50,280 --> 00:19:55,400 interview was going. It's as if I was watching myself be this 343 00:19:54,885 --> 00:20:01,845 confident, competent, and dare I say, charming person. Someone I 344 00:20:01,845 --> 00:20:04,405 don't recognize and she was in control. 345 00:20:05,205 --> 00:20:12,420 She was me. Must have been a fluke. Debra said that I have to 346 00:20:12,420 --> 00:20:17,460 start being kinder to myself because I'm an incredible human 347 00:20:17,460 --> 00:20:24,395 or some shit. And that I have to start celebrating my wins no 348 00:20:24,395 --> 00:20:29,195 matter how small I think they are. I don't know. 349 00:20:30,235 --> 00:20:34,715 It's hard to celebrate wins when you constantly feel like a 350 00:20:34,715 --> 00:20:40,420 loser. Good old Gary said, sky's the limit here at Bankers West. 351 00:20:40,420 --> 00:20:44,740 Work hard, and you'll be moving up the ladder in no time. No. 352 00:20:45,540 --> 00:20:47,700 It's not exactly what I had in mind. 353 00:20:48,260 --> 00:20:53,955 But fuck. Have I ever had anything in mind? This job could 354 00:20:53,955 --> 00:20:59,635 be a good opportunity. Who knows? Maybe that confident, 355 00:21:00,435 --> 00:21:03,955 competent, charming woman really is me. 356 00:21:05,155 --> 00:21:10,410 A new me who's finally gonna take control once and for all. 357 00:21:26,765 --> 00:21:30,685 Trey: Excuse me? Oh. Sorry. I think you left this behind when 358 00:21:30,685 --> 00:21:31,965 you were checking out, maybe? 359 00:21:31,965 --> 00:21:34,845 Luisa: Oh, shoot. My mangoes. Thank you. 360 00:21:35,120 --> 00:21:36,640 Trey: The yellow kind too. 361 00:21:36,640 --> 00:21:38,400 Luisa: The best kind. 362 00:21:38,480 --> 00:21:42,320 Trey: Not gonna lie. I was pretty tempted to steal them. 363 00:21:42,480 --> 00:21:47,280 Luisa: Oh, or you could have just, you know, purchased some 364 00:21:47,280 --> 00:21:50,055 at this very Sprouts we stand before? 365 00:21:50,055 --> 00:21:51,575 Trey: Oh, I did. 366 00:21:53,095 --> 00:21:55,095 Luisa: Greed knows no bounds. 367 00:21:55,255 --> 00:21:57,575 Trey: I I want to be better. 368 00:21:57,575 --> 00:22:01,735 Luisa: Well, thank you for not stealing my mangoes because that 369 00:22:01,735 --> 00:22:06,160 would have made me very sad. And And you, a criminal. 370 00:22:06,160 --> 00:22:10,160 Trey: Yeah. And I do not need another mango larceny on my 371 00:22:10,160 --> 00:22:10,720 record. 372 00:22:10,720 --> 00:22:12,960 Luisa: Repeat offender, I see. 373 00:22:13,600 --> 00:22:15,520 Trey: Nah. I'm not about that life anymore. 374 00:22:15,760 --> 00:22:15,920 Trey: And 375 00:22:15,920 --> 00:22:20,095 Trey: after much reflection, I realized I was just hurting 376 00:22:20,175 --> 00:22:25,375 other mango lovers, if that's what they're called. 377 00:22:25,375 --> 00:22:29,535 Luisa: I'm glad you're on the straight and narrow. 378 00:22:29,615 --> 00:22:31,375 Trey: Oh, thank you for your support. 379 00:22:31,615 --> 00:22:33,900 Luisa: You know, if only the world was made up of more mango 380 00:22:33,900 --> 00:22:35,900 lovers, not mango fighters. 381 00:22:36,300 --> 00:22:39,900 Trey: Wow. I hope I live long enough to see the day. 382 00:22:42,700 --> 00:22:43,340 Luisa: Yeah. 383 00:22:45,180 --> 00:22:48,915 Trey: Okay. Yeah. This has been this 384 00:22:48,915 --> 00:22:49,155 Trey: has been 385 00:22:49,155 --> 00:22:51,795 Trey: fun, unusually fun for a for a Sprouts 386 00:22:51,795 --> 00:22:52,755 Trey: parking lot. 387 00:22:54,515 --> 00:22:56,195 Luisa: It it sure has. 388 00:22:56,355 --> 00:23:00,675 Trey: Oh, sorry. It was nice meeting you. What what sorry. 389 00:23:00,675 --> 00:23:01,395 What was your name? 390 00:23:02,190 --> 00:23:02,990 Luisa: Luisa. 391 00:23:02,990 --> 00:23:05,150 Trey:

Okay. Nice meeting you, Luisa. I'm Trey, by 392 00:23:05,150 --> 00:23:05,550 Trey: the way. 393 00:23:05,550 --> 00:23:08,990 Luisa: Well, nice meeting you, "by the way, Trey." 394 00:23:09,390 --> 00:23:13,550 Trey: Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Have a good night. 395 00:23:13,790 --> 00:23:20,405 Luisa: You too. Hey, by the way, Trey. 396 00:23:20,405 --> 00:23:20,965 Trey: Yeah. 397 00:23:20,965 --> 00:23:25,125 Luisa: There's a tiki bar that does this really good fiery 398 00:23:25,125 --> 00:23:29,710 mango pina colada if you ever wanna check it out. 399 00:23:29,790 --> 00:23:30,430 Trey: Yeah? 400 00:23:30,990 --> 00:23:35,630 Luisa: Maybe we could have a mango lovers meetup there? 401 00:23:35,630 --> 00:23:36,190 Trey: Yeah? 402 00:23:36,190 --> 00:23:36,910 Luisa: Yeah. 403 00:23:37,150 --> 00:23:38,270 Trey: Yeah. Yep. Mhmm. 404 00:23:43,105 --> 00:23:43,905 Luisa: Okay. 405 00:23:44,065 --> 00:23:46,945 Younger Debra: Yes. It's recording. 406 00:23:47,345 --> 00:23:51,345 Sherry: What should I say? Anything. Just talk. About what? 407 00:23:51,585 --> 00:23:52,385 Anything. 408 00:23:52,385 --> 00:23:56,410 Your day, what you did, what you're thinking, anything. 409 00:23:56,410 --> 00:24:00,170 Younger Debra: Alright. Let's see. My mind's gone blank. Sher, 410 00:24:00,170 --> 00:24:00,970 help me out. 411 00:24:01,530 --> 00:24:04,090 Sherry: Well, you went to pick us up some burgers. Yeah? 412 00:24:04,090 --> 00:24:06,570 Younger Debra: Yes. Yes. I went to pick us up some burgers. 413 00:24:06,570 --> 00:24:07,865 Sherry: From In N Out. 414 00:24:07,865 --> 00:24:11,305 Younger Debra: From In N Out because Sher had a craving. 415 00:24:11,305 --> 00:24:14,025 Sherry: Massive craving. You know, sometimes you just need a 416 00:24:14,025 --> 00:24:14,985 goddamn burger. 417 00:24:14,985 --> 00:24:16,665 Younger Debra: And fries. And a shake. 418 00:24:16,665 --> 00:24:19,385 Sherry: We're not having In N Out without fries and a shake. 419 00:24:19,385 --> 00:24:21,545 Younger Debra: It's fuel for our long study session. 420 00:24:22,990 --> 00:24:23,790 Sherry: Kill me. 421 00:24:24,350 --> 00:24:26,750 Younger Debra: What are you worried about? You always ace 422 00:24:26,750 --> 00:24:27,470 your tests. 423 00:24:27,470 --> 00:24:29,150 Sherry: Ace is an exaggeration. 424 00:24:29,150 --> 00:24:30,510 It's not if you keep getting A's. 425 00:24:30,510 --> 00:24:32,270 I don't always get A's. 426 00:24:32,430 --> 00:24:33,950 Younger Debra: [whispering] Sherry Zhang is a 427 00:24:34,030 --> 00:24:34,910 brainiac. 428 00:24:34,910 --> 00:24:36,190 Sherry: Did you say something? 429 00:24:36,190 --> 00:24:39,725 Younger Debra: Nope. Just looking through my notes. Okay. 430 00:24:39,805 --> 00:24:44,205 According to Freud's personality theory, the psyche is structured 431 00:24:44,205 --> 00:24:45,485 into three parts...? 432 00:24:47,005 --> 00:24:47,565 Sherry: The id... 433 00:24:47,805 --> 00:24:48,365 Younger Debra: Mhmm. 434 00:24:48,445 --> 00:24:50,685 Sherry: Ego, and superego. 435 00:24:50,685 --> 00:24:51,405 Younger Debra: Correct. 436 00:24:51,405 --> 00:24:52,800 Sherry: Give me something harder. 437 00:24:53,120 --> 00:24:57,440 Younger Debra: Alrighty. Freud theorized that the id operates 438 00:24:57,440 --> 00:25:01,520 on the blank, that every unconscious wishful impulse 439 00:25:01,520 --> 00:25:05,125 should be satisfied immediately regardless of the consequences. 440 00:25:06,645 --> 00:25:07,605 Sherry: Could it be... 441 00:25:08,885 --> 00:25:10,485 [singing] the pleasure principle... Oh, oh, ohhh!  442 00:25:10,725 --> 00:25:10,885 Younger Debra: Correct. 443 00:25:16,860 --> 00:25:17,900 Brainiac. 444 00:25:18,060 --> 00:25:19,180 Sherry: You're the brainiac. 445 00:25:19,180 --> 00:25:19,900 Younger Debra: Oh, sure. 446 00:25:21,100 --> 00:25:23,740 Sherry: Speaking of pleasure, coffee's ready. 447 00:25:25,740 --> 00:25:26,540 Yikes. 448 00:25:26,620 --> 00:25:27,260 Younger Debra: What? 449 00:25:29,660 --> 00:25:31,100 Sherry: Coffee might be too strong. 450 00:25:31,355 --> 00:25:32,475 Younger Debra: No such thing. 451 00:25:32,875 --> 00:25:33,995 Sherry: Black. Yeah? 452 00:25:33,995 --> 00:25:34,795 Younger Debra: Please. 453 00:25:36,315 --> 00:25:37,915 Sherry: Tell me if it's too strong. 454 00:25:38,075 --> 00:25:44,555 Younger Debra: Don't be silly. Yes. Just what the doctor 455 00:25:44,555 --> 00:25:45,350 ordered. Ordered. 456 00:25:45,910 --> 00:25:48,070 Sherry: Your doctor must be a quack. 457 00:25:48,070 --> 00:25:49,590 Younger Debra: Sher, the coffee is great. 458 00:25:49,590 --> 00:25:51,030 Sherry: It's fine at best. 459 00:25:51,030 --> 00:25:52,630 Younger Debra: Does this coffee have caffeine in it? 460 00:25:52,630 --> 00:25:54,710 Sherry: It sure as hell ain't decaf, Deb. 461 00:25:54,710 --> 00:25:57,110 Younger Debra: And that's what I call a great cup of coffee. 462 00:25:57,110 --> 00:25:58,645 Sherry: Can't argue with that logic. 463 00:25:58,645 --> 00:26:00,805 Younger Debra: Alright. Let's get studying, wise ass. 464 00:26:00,805 --> 00:26:01,845 Sherry: Right on. 465 00:26:03,205 --> 00:26:04,805 Younger Debra: Oh, should I turn this thing off? 466 00:26:04,805 --> 00:26:08,645 Sherry: Ugh. Yes. I always forget. Say goodnight, Deb. 467 00:26:08,725 --> 00:26:09,925 Younger Debra: Goodnight, Deb. 468 00:26:10,645 --> 00:26:12,005 Sherry: Now who's the wise ass? 469 00:26:21,870 --> 00:26:24,030 Debra's Automated Voicemail: This is Debra. Please leave a 470 00:26:24,030 --> 00:26:27,150 message after the beep, and I'll get back to you as soon as 471 00:26:27,150 --> 00:26:27,630 possible. 472 00:26:29,485 --> 00:26:32,765 Luisa: Hey, Debra. It's Luisa. I'm just calling to let you know 473 00:26:32,765 --> 00:26:35,485 that your insurance has reached out, and they've been really 474 00:26:35,485 --> 00:26:43,005 helpful. So thank

you for that. Also, I started listening to the 475 00:26:43,005 --> 00:26:47,810 tapes, and, well, thank you. 476 00:26:48,770 --> 00:26:53,970 Thank you for keeping them this whole time. Anyway, sorry for 477 00:26:53,970 --> 00:26:56,210 the long voicemail. Do people even listen to voicemail 478 00:26:56,210 --> 00:27:00,605 anymore? Well, I guess I hope you do. And I hope that you're 479 00:27:00,605 --> 00:27:03,965 doing well and that we can stay in touch. 480 00:27:04,365 --> 00:27:05,325 Thanks again. 481 00:27:06,445 --> 00:27:09,005 Greg Voicemail Message: Hey, Luisa. Greg here. Finally 482 00:27:09,005 --> 00:27:13,290 circling back. I did read your manuscript, and honestly, I 483 00:27:13,290 --> 00:27:17,530 thought it was pretty great. Unfortunately, I don't think 484 00:27:17,530 --> 00:27:21,370 it's a fit for Laurie Publishing at the moment, but I encourage 485 00:27:21,370 --> 00:27:24,490 you to reach out in the future with any new work. 486 00:27:24,810 --> 00:27:27,025 I'd be happy to read it. 487 00:27:27,425 --> 00:27:29,025 Luisa: Why... 488 00:27:34,145 --> 00:27:39,825 Why the hell is there always a line? Is this the line for the 489 00:27:39,825 --> 00:27:40,065 drive 490 00:27:40,065 --> 00:27:42,570 thru? Oh, come. 491 00:27:43,850 --> 00:27:49,610 Yes. Okay. You know what? Fuck this. I'm going inside. 492 00:27:49,610 --> 00:27:50,250 In N Out Employee: And 493 00:27:52,250 --> 00:27:56,170 your order number is 54. Thank you. Have a nice day. Hi, miss. 494 00:27:56,205 --> 00:27:56,845 I can help you. 495 00:27:56,845 --> 00:27:58,285 Luisa: Hi. Yes. Can I do a number 496 00:27:58,445 --> 00:27:59,165 Angry Customer: Excuse me? 497 00:27:59,245 --> 00:28:00,045 Where's my order? 498 00:28:00,045 --> 00:28:01,645 Luisa: Okay. Sure. Just cut in front 499 00:28:01,645 --> 00:28:01,805 of me. 500 00:28:01,805 --> 00:28:03,005 Angry Customer: I've been waiting forever. 501 00:28:03,405 --> 00:28:04,925 In N Out Employee: What what's your order number, sir? 502 00:28:04,925 --> 00:28:05,645 Angry Customer: 43. 503 00:28:05,645 --> 00:28:06,125 Another Employee: That's number 504 00:28:06,125 --> 00:28:06,525 48. 505 00:28:06,525 --> 00:28:08,045 In N Out Employee: Do you have your receipt? 506 00:28:08,045 --> 00:28:09,645 Angry Customer: Why? I gave you my number. 507 00:28:10,200 --> 00:28:10,440 Another Employee: 48! 508 00:28:10,440 --> 00:28:11,960 In N Out Employee: I just wanted to check the order number on 509 00:28:11,960 --> 00:28:12,840 your receipt, sir. 510 00:28:12,840 --> 00:28:13,960 Angry Customer: Why the fuck? 511 00:28:13,960 --> 00:28:15,240 Shit! 512 00:28:15,880 --> 00:28:17,160 Another Employee: Guest number 51. 513 00:28:17,160 --> 00:28:21,000 Angry Customer: I told you. It's 43. See? Look. See? 514 00:28:21,000 --> 00:28:24,680 Here's your goddamn receipt. They're calling 48 now, so 515 00:28:24,680 --> 00:28:25,640 where's my shit? 516 00:28:25,965 --> 00:28:29,885 In N Out Employee: Sir, your receipt says 48. 517 00:28:29,885 --> 00:28:30,845 Angry Customer: Yeah. 518 00:28:31,965 --> 00:28:33,245 Another Employee: Number 48!! 519 00:28:33,325 --> 00:28:35,645 Angry Customer: That's me. 48. 520 00:28:36,125 --> 00:28:38,045 In N Out Employee: Sorry, miss. How can I help you? 521 00:28:38,045 --> 00:28:43,350 Luisa: More like how can I help you? Alright? Anyway, I'll get a 522 00:28:43,350 --> 00:28:45,590 number one, animal style, please. 523 00:28:45,590 --> 00:28:47,830 In N Out Employee: Number one, animal style. 524 00:28:48,150 --> 00:28:49,270 Luisa: And a vanilla shake. 525 00:28:49,270 --> 00:28:49,990 In N Out Employee: Vanilla shake. 526 00:28:49,990 --> 00:28:51,110 Will that be everything? 527 00:28:51,110 --> 00:28:53,030 Luisa: Yes. Thank 528 00:28:53,030 --> 00:28:53,350 you. 529 00:28:53,350 --> 00:28:54,790 In N Out Employee: That'll be $13.79. 530 00:28:56,465 --> 00:28:59,345 Luisa: Sorry that you have to deal with shitheads. 531 00:28:59,585 --> 00:29:01,505 In N Out Employee: It's fine. 532 00:29:01,505 --> 00:29:02,545 Luisa: It's not. 533 00:29:03,105 --> 00:29:03,745 In N Out Employee: Yeah. 534 00:29:04,305 --> 00:29:05,985 Your order number is 59. 535 00:29:05,985 --> 00:29:06,545 Luisa: Thank you. 536 00:29:14,650 --> 00:29:15,850 Simone: This is Simone. 537 00:29:15,850 --> 00:29:18,650 Luisa: Hey, Simone. It's Luisa Zhang Hillman. 538 00:29:18,650 --> 00:29:21,815 Simone: Yes. Luisa, what what can I do for you? 539 00:29:21,895 --> 00:29:24,535 Luisa: I've been thinking about that ghostwriting assignment you 540 00:29:24,535 --> 00:29:25,175 mentioned. 541 00:29:25,255 --> 00:29:26,055 Simone: Yes. 542 00:29:26,055 --> 00:29:28,535 Luisa: And I was wondering if the offer was still on the 543 00:29:28,535 --> 00:29:29,015 table. 544 00:29:29,095 --> 00:29:30,295 Simone: Yes, actually. 545 00:29:30,375 --> 00:29:35,160 Luisa: Great. Because I'd love to take it if you'd still have 546 00:29:35,160 --> 00:29:35,640 me. 547 00:29:35,640 --> 00:29:36,360 Simone: Yeah. 548 00:29:36,520 --> 00:29:37,240 Luisa: Yeah? 549 00:29:38,280 --> 00:29:44,200 Simone: I'll have to check with the team. JK, I call the shots. 550 00:29:44,200 --> 00:29:48,040 And, yes, Luisa, Hunter House would love to have you. 551 00:29:48,040 --> 00:29:48,760 Luisa: Oh my god. 552 00:29:48,760 --> 00:29:50,175 You got me for a second. 553 00:29:50,175 --> 00:29:51,455 Simone: I know. I heard it in your voice. 554 00:29:51,455 --> 00:29:53,855 Luisa: Seriously, I'm grateful, Simone. 555 00:29:53,855 --> 00:29:55,375 Simone: What made you change your mind? 556 00:29:55,695 --> 00:29:59,055 Luisa: I realized it was an opportunity, an incredible 557 00:29:59,055 --> 00:29:59,855 opportunity. 558 00:29:59,855 --> 00:30:02,830 Simone: It is, Luisa, and I'm excited to bring you aboard. In 559 00:30:02,830 --> 00:30:06,190 fact, this is superb timing because I just

got off the phone 560 00:30:06,190 --> 00:30:10,350 with actually, let me back up for a sec. So this ghostwriting 561 00:30:10,350 --> 00:30:14,430 project is a memoir for an extraordinary woman. And, of 562 00:30:14,430 --> 00:30:16,705 course, the memoir needs an extraordinary extraordinary 563 00:30:16,705 --> 00:30:17,665 writer. 564 00:30:17,825 --> 00:30:19,185 Luisa: Yes. Amazing. 565 00:30:19,345 --> 00:30:23,345 Simone: Which obviously you are. But listen, the writer for this 566 00:30:23,345 --> 00:30:30,065 project also needs to be open minded understanding because the 567 00:30:30,065 --> 00:30:35,200 subject, she's quite the force to be reckoned with. Know what I 568 00:30:35,200 --> 00:30:35,600 mean? 569 00:30:35,600 --> 00:30:36,960 Luisa: I I yeah. Sure. 570 00:30:36,960 --> 00:30:40,320 Simone: And I think you, your writing style, and your 571 00:30:40,320 --> 00:30:46,560 personality is frankly so perfect for this. Great. And her 572 00:30:46,560 --> 00:30:48,865 backstory. Wow. I mean, wow. 573 00:30:49,825 --> 00:30:52,465 It's gonna be a best seller, Luisa. 574 00:30:52,465 --> 00:30:52,625 I 575 00:30:52,625 --> 00:30:56,545 can't disclose too much before we have you sign an NDA. Uh-huh. 576 00:30:56,545 --> 00:31:00,945 But let's just say that she was part of the hottest true crime 577 00:31:00,945 --> 00:31:05,080 story of the eighties. True crime. When I say eighties, the 578 00:31:05,080 --> 00:31:07,240 the crime took place in 1989. 579 00:31:07,240 --> 00:31:07,880 Luisa: '89? 580 00:31:07,880 --> 00:31:11,480 Simone: Yes. Great year, right? Let me tell you that late 581 00:31:11,480 --> 00:31:15,240 eighties, early nineties nostalgia is so hot right now. 582 00:31:15,240 --> 00:31:18,735 Anyway, spoiler alert, she survived and ended up living the 583 00:31:18,735 --> 00:31:24,095 most ridiculously interesting life. Luisa, her story is very 584 00:31:24,095 --> 00:31:27,055 heavy, very sad, very gruesome. 585 00:31:27,055 --> 00:31:27,535 Luisa: Oh, I 586 00:31:27,535 --> 00:31:28,175 I see. 587 00:31:28,175 --> 00:31:33,720 Simone: Like, so tragic. Oh. But it's also an incredible survivor 588 00:31:33,720 --> 00:31:36,440 story, like, ball your eyes out incredible. 589 00:31:36,440 --> 00:31:38,440 Wow. Because, like, some really 590 00:31:38,440 --> 00:31:42,200 fucked up shit happened. Excuse my French. It's it practically 591 00:31:42,200 --> 00:31:46,040 writes itself. But, obviously, I can't wait to see how you bring 592 00:31:46,040 --> 00:31:50,285 our story to life, and it's true crime. What a dream. 593 00:31:50,285 --> 00:31:52,685 So tell me, you excited or what? 594 00:31:53,885 --> 00:31:57,405 Luisa: Yes. I'm very excited. 595 00:31:57,965 --> 00:31:59,325 Simone: I can hear it in your voice. 596 00:32:04,220 --> 00:32:08,220 Sherry: Everything is such bullshit. You could do 597 00:32:08,220 --> 00:32:13,495 everything right and still not get ahead or even caught up. I 598 00:32:13,495 --> 00:32:17,255 think the worst part about doing everything right is the hope it 599 00:32:17,255 --> 00:32:19,095 gives you. False hope. 600 00:32:19,255 --> 00:32:22,535 Makes you think that you somehow deserve better, that you'll be 601 00:32:22,535 --> 00:32:26,740 rewarded. Rewarded with things you didn't even want to begin 602 00:32:26,740 --> 00:32:31,300 with. "I'm so sorry, Sherry. I loved meeting with you, and I 603 00:32:31,300 --> 00:32:34,100 think you're very talented. But I'm looking for someone with a 604 00:32:34,100 --> 00:32:35,940 just a bit more experience." 605 00:32:37,380 --> 00:32:42,115 More experience for an entry level bank associate? What kind 606 00:32:42,115 --> 00:32:48,435 of stupid fucking logic is that? Patti is always riding my ass. 607 00:32:48,435 --> 00:32:51,635 "You gotta get a better job. You have a kid to take care of." 608 00:32:51,635 --> 00:33:03,470 Yeah. No shit, sis. Shit. Did I wake...? Seriously, how do I get 609 00:33:03,470 --> 00:33:05,630 an opportunity if no one ever gives me one? 610 00:33:06,285 --> 00:33:10,845 I just feel so behind. Like, everyone else is just passing 611 00:33:10,845 --> 00:33:15,805 me. This twerp in class asked me how old I was today. So I told 612 00:33:15,805 --> 00:33:19,645 him, and he was like, you're 29 years old and just now in 613 00:33:19,645 --> 00:33:21,565 college? What have you been doing this whole time? 614 00:33:25,100 --> 00:33:32,380 What have I been doing? Would have been nice though to finally 615 00:33:32,380 --> 00:33:37,375 be able to brag about something in my life. I fantasized what it 616 00:33:37,375 --> 00:33:41,295 would be like getting this job. The nice clothes I would wear to 617 00:33:41,295 --> 00:33:46,415 work, the house I'd save up for, the way people would look at me, 618 00:33:47,615 --> 00:33:56,770 treat me. God, When Patti finds out... I'm trying my best to do 619 00:33:56,770 --> 00:33:57,810 the right thing. 620 00:33:58,370 --> 00:34:06,515 I really am. Does it even make a fucking difference? I wonder 621 00:34:06,515 --> 00:34:09,315 what would happen if I started doing the wrong thing. 622 00:34:20,290 --> 00:34:21,490 Patti: Hello, Lulu. 623 00:34:21,490 --> 00:34:23,410 Luisa: Hey, auntie. How are doing? 624 00:34:23,490 --> 00:34:24,450 Patti: I'm okay. 625 00:34:24,930 --> 00:34:25,890 Luisa: Are you sure? 626 00:34:25,890 --> 00:34:29,170 Patti: Yes. I'm okay. I'm walking up to the pagoda. 627 00:34:29,705 --> 00:34:32,105 Luisa: I didn't know you were going to the pagoda. I would 628 00:34:32,105 --> 00:34:32,985 have joined you. 629 00:34:33,145 --> 00:34:36,665 Patti: I'm late. I was supposed to come for grandpa's death 630 00:34:36,665 --> 00:34:38,345 anniversary last week. 631 00:34:38,425 --> 00:34:40,905 Luisa: Oh, now I really wish you would have told me. 632 00:34:41,145 --> 00:34:46,345 Patti: It's okay. I will say a prayer on your behalf for 633

00:34:45,360 --> 00:34:50,160 grandpa and grandma Zhang and for your mom. 634 00:34:50,160 --> 00:34:51,600 Luisa: Yes. Please do. 635 00:34:52,240 --> 00:34:53,840 Patti: Hi. Good to see you. 636 00:34:54,720 --> 00:34:57,360 Luisa: I I know you are busy. You have to go, so I'll just 637 00:34:57,360 --> 00:35:02,145 make this quick. I have some good news. I accepted the 638 00:35:02,145 --> 00:35:03,345 ghostwriting job. 639 00:35:04,305 --> 00:35:05,745 Patti: Oh, that's good. 640 00:35:06,545 --> 00:35:11,025 Luisa: Yeah. It it is. I'm finally getting paid to write a 641 00:35:11,025 --> 00:35:18,850 novel. It's a memoir, which is amazing. It's true crime though, 642 00:35:18,850 --> 00:35:20,690 so that's not ideal. 643 00:35:20,690 --> 00:35:23,250 But hopefully, this leads to me getting my own work 644 00:35:23,250 --> 00:35:24,050 published. 645 00:35:25,250 --> 00:35:27,170 Patti: Okay. 646 00:35:27,730 --> 00:35:28,690 Luisa: I should let you go. 647 00:35:29,445 --> 00:35:30,085 Patti: Why? 648 00:35:30,245 --> 00:35:32,405 Luisa: Because you're at the pagoda, and you're not even 649 00:35:32,805 --> 00:35:33,365 listening and 650 00:35:33,365 --> 00:35:34,885 Patti: I I'm still walking. 651 00:35:36,005 --> 00:35:39,925 Luisa: Well, now that I'm gonna be a rich published author, 652 00:35:39,925 --> 00:35:44,100 kinda, I'm gonna bring you and uncle out for dinner. My treat. 653 00:35:44,100 --> 00:35:47,220 Patti: No. No. You don't have to pay. Save your money. 654 00:35:47,220 --> 00:35:48,100 Luisa: No. I'm I'm paying. 655 00:35:48,100 --> 00:35:49,220 Patti: No. No. No. Save money. 656 00:35:49,220 --> 00:35:49,700 Luisa: Auntie. 657 00:35:49,700 --> 00:35:51,060 Patti: Luisa, don't be silly. 658 00:35:51,060 --> 00:35:51,620 Luisa: Auntie. 659 00:35:51,620 --> 00:35:52,580 Patti: Save money. 660 00:35:52,580 --> 00:35:53,140 Luisa: Auntie. 661 00:35:53,140 --> 00:35:55,460 Patti: Luisa, don't be silly. Young. 662 00:35:55,460 --> 00:35:56,685 You need to keep your 663 00:35:56,685 --> 00:35:57,325 mind on 664 00:35:57,325 --> 00:35:57,725 calling on 665 00:35:57,725 --> 00:35:58,365 your family. 666 00:35:58,365 --> 00:35:58,845 Luisa: Stop it. 667 00:35:58,845 --> 00:35:59,165 Auntie 668 00:35:59,165 --> 00:35:59,485 Patti: Me and 669 00:35:59,485 --> 00:36:02,125 uncle are old. Yes. But you have kids. 670 00:36:02,125 --> 00:36:03,245 They'll need money. 671 00:36:03,245 --> 00:36:03,965 Luisa: Auntie, no. 672 00:36:03,965 --> 00:36:05,085 Patti: Or braces, piano 673 00:36:05,085 --> 00:36:05,725 Luisa: lessons 674 00:36:05,165 --> 00:36:09,965 Auntie, stop. It's okay. I love you. Okay? Stop. 675 00:36:10,310 --> 00:36:13,670 I want to buy you and uncle a nice dinner. That's all. End of 676 00:36:13,670 --> 00:36:17,430 story. Just let me have this. Okay? 677 00:36:20,150 --> 00:36:20,870 Patti: Okay. 678 00:36:21,590 --> 00:36:22,470 Luisa: Thank you. 679 00:36:23,190 --> 00:36:27,815 Patti: So what else is going on? Haven't been calling as much? 680 00:36:28,695 --> 00:36:33,815 Luisa: Oh, nothing. Just been busy? 681 00:36:33,895 --> 00:36:38,310 Patti: Busy? Because there's something happening in your life 682 00:36:38,310 --> 00:36:40,230 that you're not telling me about? 683 00:36:40,950 --> 00:36:41,830 Luisa: Like what? 684 00:36:41,990 --> 00:36:46,310 Patti: I don't know. Maybe a new man? 685 00:36:46,470 --> 00:36:47,110 Luisa: [laughs] Oh. 686 00:36:47,910 --> 00:36:51,590 No. I've just been busy. 687 00:36:53,525 --> 00:36:54,245 Patti: Kay... 688 00:36:54,805 --> 00:36:59,525 Luisa: Auntie, trust me. I'll let you know when there's a man 689 00:36:59,525 --> 00:37:01,685 in my life worth talking about. 690 00:37:02,005 --> 00:37:06,005 Patti: Lulu, you should be dating. You're not getting any 691 00:37:05,580 --> 00:37:06,380 younger. Okay. 692 00:37:07,020 --> 00:37:09,980 Luisa: I'm gonna let you go. Let me know when you and uncle wanna 693 00:37:09,980 --> 00:37:11,820 do dinner, which I'm paying for. 694 00:37:11,820 --> 00:37:12,700 Patti: We'll see. 695 00:37:12,700 --> 00:37:13,500 Luisa: Love you. 696 00:37:13,660 --> 00:37:14,940 Patti: Love you too. 697 00:37:16,700 --> 00:37:19,660 Luisa: New voicemail. Oh. 698 00:37:19,900 --> 00:37:22,835 Trey: Hey. It's By the Way, Trey. Just getting back to you 699 00:37:22,835 --> 00:37:26,435 about hitting up that tiki bar. I'm wide open on Saturday, so 700 00:37:26,435 --> 00:37:30,835 let's do it. Is it weird that I called you instead of just 701 00:37:30,835 --> 00:37:31,875 texting you back? 702 00:37:31,875 --> 00:37:35,475 I think I think I'm, like, one of the few people who still uses 703 00:37:35,120 --> 00:37:39,840 a phone to call people. So that's a fun fact about me. 704 00:37:40,480 --> 00:37:46,960 Welp. I hope you're having a nice day. Bye. 705 00:37:55,605 --> 00:37:57,045 Trey Automated Voicemail: You've reached the voicemail of 706 00:37:57,285 --> 00:37:58,245 Trey: Oh, Trey. 707 00:37:58,245 --> 00:38:00,260 Trey Automated Voicemail: Please leave a message after the tone. 708 00:38:01,220 --> 00:38:05,300 Luisa: Hey, Trey. It's Luisa. I don't know why I just told you 709 00:38:05,300 --> 00:38:09,700 who I was. I I assume you have my number in your phone. Anyway, 710 00:38:10,100 --> 00:38:14,180 now we're playing phone tag, and I feel like I'm back in 2002, 711 00:38:14,945 --> 00:38:16,945 which honestly, I'm not mad about. 712 00:38:17,505 --> 00:38:23,505 Anyway, I don't mind you calling instead of texting. I too enjoy 713 00:38:23,505 --> 00:38:29,265 making the occasional call using my telephone. But, yeah, 714 00:38:29,760 --> 00:38:34,240 Saturday it is. I'm looking forward to it. Shall we say 715 00:38:34,320 --> 00:38:35,440 six o'clock? 716 00:38:35,680 --> 00:38:43,535 Hope you're doing well and not thieving any mangoes. Bye. 717 00:38:48,815 --> 00:38:52,175 Sherry: I was at Debra's

place earlier, and she played this old 718 00:38:52,175 --> 00:38:56,830 song that I immediately recognized. It was a song my mom 719 00:38:56,830 --> 00:39:00,670 used to play, but I never understood the lyrics because 720 00:39:00,670 --> 00:39:06,590 the song was in French. Anyway, I haven't heard it in years 721 00:39:06,590 --> 00:39:19,505 until today. Deb told me it was by Edith Piaf, which translates 722 00:39:19,505 --> 00:39:25,610 to, "no, I regret nothing." Deb says the song is about letting 723 00:39:25,610 --> 00:39:26,650 go of the past. 724 00:39:27,370 --> 00:39:35,945 Good, bad, everything, and letting life begin anew. That's 725 00:39:35,945 --> 00:39:42,345 exactly how my mom lived... with no regret. I don't know. A life 726 00:39:42,345 --> 00:39:50,160 without any regret must be nice. I wish I could just let go and 727 00:39:50,160 --> 00:39:54,080 forget all the bad stuff. 728 00:39:59,680 --> 00:40:03,365 Funny. I think Patti lives that way too... without a single 729 00:40:03,365 --> 00:40:07,285 regret. She has this uncanny ability to charge forward 730 00:40:07,525 --> 00:40:13,605 without ever looking back. Patti would strangle the wife out of 731 00:40:13,605 --> 00:40:19,270 me if she heard this. Sometimes when I drop off Babalu at Patti 732 00:40:19,270 --> 00:40:24,230 and Jim's, I start to worry that she'll forget about me, that 733 00:40:24,230 --> 00:40:26,790 she'll think Patti's her mother. 734 00:40:27,910 --> 00:40:32,725 But today, when I picked her up, Patti was holding her and the 735 00:40:32,725 --> 00:40:37,045 moment I walked into the shop, she looked over at me and the 736 00:40:37,045 --> 00:40:43,045 look on her face when she saw me, she knew who I was. I was 737 00:40:43,045 --> 00:40:48,460 her mama. She reached out her little chunky arms for me, and I 738 00:40:48,460 --> 00:41:00,555 swear, I nearly burst into tears. My sweet Babalu. No 739 00:41:00,555 --> 00:41:06,955 regrets? I regret that I'm not in a place to give her the life 740 00:41:06,955 --> 00:41:11,275 that she deserves, that I may never be able to give her a life 741 00:41:11,275 --> 00:41:12,320 that she deserves. 742 00:41:12,400 --> 00:41:20,000 I regret not going to NYU when I had the chance. I regret not 743 00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:23,920 advocating for my dad when he couldn't advocate for himself. I 744 00:41:23,920 --> 00:41:31,885 regret putting myself in situations that allowed people 745 00:41:31,885 --> 00:41:38,980 to take advantage of me. I won't sit here and say that I think 746 00:41:38,980 --> 00:41:45,380 I'm cut out for this whole mom business, but Babalu's the most 747 00:41:45,380 --> 00:41:49,700 excellent thing that's ever happened to me. And to think, 748 00:41:50,180 --> 00:41:53,395 before she even came into this world, I already managed to 749 00:41:53,395 --> 00:41:54,835 screw things up for her. 750 00:41:57,235 --> 00:42:00,915 But that's what happens when you get entangled with a married 751 00:42:00,915 --> 00:42:01,315 man. 752 00:42:01,315 --> 00:42:03,715 Luisa: Oh, shit... 753 00:42:04,195 --> 00:42:12,090 Sherry: More regret. Maybe that's the underlying meaning of 754 00:42:12,090 --> 00:42:19,450 that song, that everything, no matter how awful, has to happen 755 00:42:19,455 --> 00:42:26,735 so you can be right where you're at now. I'm the mother to a 756 00:42:26,735 --> 00:42:29,215 spunky, brilliant baby girl. 757 00:42:30,495 --> 00:42:31,775 How could I regret that? 758 00:42:37,350 --> 00:42:40,950 Narrator: Babalu was created, written, and produced by me, 759 00:42:40,950 --> 00:42:45,830 Kimberly Truong. Directed by Katherine Chen Lerner. Sound 760 00:42:45,830 --> 00:42:50,055 design, editing, and mixing by Charles Moody. With performances 761 00:42:50,055 --> 00:42:56,695 by Christine Liao, Ruby Marez, Chriselle Almeida, Lee Chen, 762 00:42:57,015 --> 00:43:01,655 Diogo Hausen, Greg Smith, Heather Woodward, Varda 763 00:43:01,655 --> 00:43:07,670 Appleton, PJ McCormick, James Donahower, Kiera Nusbaum, Mark 764 00:43:07,670 --> 00:43:13,030 Morante, Julianne Kolb, and Kimberly Truong. Theme music by 765 00:43:13,030 --> 00:43:14,150 Edith Mudge. 766 00:43:14,230 --> 00:43:18,555 Additional music by Manish Ayachit. Studio recording by 767 00:43:18,555 --> 00:43:24,395 Parker Silzer and David Stern. Artwork by Gabi Hawkins. Logo by 768 00:43:24,395 --> 00:43:29,035 Alex Bruno. A very special thank you to Liesl Lafferty and the 769 00:43:29,035 --> 00:43:29,995 Firecracker Department. 770 00:43:30,500 --> 00:43:35,140 Mari Meyer, Peter Byrnes, Victoria LaVilla, Brandon 771 00:43:35,140 --> 00:43:39,860 Beardsley, Hillary and the boys, Katie McCuen, and our incredible 772 00:43:39,860 --> 00:43:45,175 Kickstarter backers. Babalu is a production of Uneasy Tiger. For 773 00:43:45,175 --> 00:43:49,415 more info or to support this series, follow at Uneasy Tiger 774 00:43:49,415 --> 00:43:54,775 on Instagram or TikTok or visit uneasytiger.com. If you or 775 00:43:54,775 --> 00:43:57,979 someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, please 776 00:43:57,979 --> 00:44:03,979 dial 988 or visit 988lifeline.org for resources 777 00:44:03,979 --> 00:44:04,698 and support.