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Broken curses.
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See one thing I never bought the drama of my
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past to my kids. My kids, they don't have no
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idea what I went through as a child growing up,
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because I never glorified or exposed them to family negativity.
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To them, family is family and Grandma's grandma, and they
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love their grandma, especially my sky, so I let them
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have that. I don't know how they're going to feel
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after they read or listen to my book, but they're
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adults now and maybe they should know a little bit.
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But it's their choice if they even want to listen,
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and if they do listen, it's still their choice if
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they still want to love Grandma, because all they know
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is love, and I made sure that besides on their
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mother's side of the family, they all receive love. None
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of them know what it's like to have their stuff stolen,
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and none of them know about drug addiction besides what
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they see on TV.
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But on my watch, it's not going down.
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And because I had no father, I try to be
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there for whatever they look up to me, and I'm
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happy about that, especially how I.
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Felt unworthy of them.
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They know I will protect and die for them, but
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what they don't know.
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Is they all had a peace in keeping me alive.
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If they only knew coming up how many times I
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wanted to kill myself. But when each of them came,
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I wanted to live a little more. That was God's doing. See,
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God knows I didn't have a good family, so he
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gave me the best kids. So one thing I need
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to say is I apologize to all they mothers who
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tried and still trying to love me. You're all dealt
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with damaged goods because I came with no label saying fragile,
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handle with care or toxic.
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So I exposed y'all to a lot of bullshit. But
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y'all still chose.
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To love me and become the family I didn't have.
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my best friends me looking in the mirror, I
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would have went far away, but y'all rolled.
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And still my kids are lucky to have the family structure.
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Y'all all have each one of their grandparents and families
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loving them to death.
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The curse of the Black Sheep is broken with them.
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Tasha and Keisha, y'all already are the greatest grandparents your
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grandkids have, and I hope their parents know that they're
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very lucky because it's easy for someone to be selfish
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and to keep passing down the hate from generation to generation.
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At some point someone has to stop it. That's stuck
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in her ways as bullshit. And if you ever said that,
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you are the problem. My family held no accountability, no remorse.
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For what went on in our lives.
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All they did was lie to protect their own image
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and came out still looking stupid and Grandma, if you
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still believe I blamed you for my mother's death, no
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I don't.
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I never said that, but I will.
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Say again, if you enabled her, like you enabled your sons,
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you had hand in it. No, it's not your fault,
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but you have some accountability. The same way you block
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Michael Junior for stepping to his dad. Maybe things would
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have been different if you just step back and allowed it.
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That's like if I was of age and.
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I knew what my mother was going through, I would
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have put my foot in her neck to help her.
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See Helpings sometimes is not given what a person wants, just.
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Giving what they need. And you needed to be told
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you were wrong anyway.
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I forgave you long ago, but you still need to
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forgive yourself. And Darryl, I gave you so many chances
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to redeem yourself, so many chances to apologize.
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And be different. I don't know what it is or
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what keeps that monkey on your back.
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Maybe I don't know because I never did drugs, but
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I saw what drugs did and how it destroyed the
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whole family. And as a man, how do you allow
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another man to destroy you? Michael showed you nothing but hate,
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and hate is such a strong feeling. It comes a
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time when you need to let that go. There's no
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turning back for Michael, especially now that you have a grandchild,
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because for your own you didn't and that's fucked up.
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Because Davonn loves you, and I'm sure Brandon loves you too,
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and Joanne for putting up with you, but you keep
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letting everybody down.
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You fumbled your father's legacy.
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And he was a great man, and being his only child,
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that alone should have motivated you to do more. So
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don't allow your mother's demons to crash you. She has
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to answer for Michael, not you. I forgive you for
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everything you've ever done to me, but it's not for you.
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It's for myself and Michael, you piece of shit. I
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don't wish death for nobody, but I pray you get
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what you deserve.
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You destroyed a whole family.
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You don't know how many lives you ruined, my mother,
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your mother, your brother, everybody. I'm just glad I didn't
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crash out and kill you like I wanted to. But
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you've got something coming to you. You're gonna get yours
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one day. I don't know about who, about what, but
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you will get yours. But my heart is clear and
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I'm good now.
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