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Like why would I ever go back to using fentanyl if my son's mother just passed from it, right?
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It was 2022.
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I was dope sick on my mom's couch.
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California sounds beautiful.
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Rehab sounds amazing.
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Like maybe it's time to get our stuff together.
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I'm not gonna do the same thing that I did in Florida.
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Just feel like you have to be beaten and broken to the point where you're just wrecking.
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I've tried treatment uh a hundred times before.
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Yeah, unfortunately, I didn't stay clean after that.
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Welcome, welcome, welcome everyone to Never Alone Never Again.
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I'm Johnny, this is Krista, and we are over the moon to have our brother Brendan Clark back.
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Brendan, how are you doing, kid?
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I'm doing good, man.
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Thanks, Johnny.
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Uh thanks, Krista, for having me back on the podcast.
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Appreciate it.
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Absolutely, dude.
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We met so we met you, you know, like six, seven months ago, and we did Never Alone Live.
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And now I'm real excited to do this, you know, and really get a chance to talk about what you're doing now, man.
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You know, time to go.
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Time to go.
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Time to go.
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Go ahead.
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I heard that a lot in uh my addiction.
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It's time to go.
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I know, right?
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It couldn't be perfect for uh you know for a name.
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Couldn't be granted.
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That's the that's like the one time that Krista's funny a month, so we gotta run with that.
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We got a couple sides of her.
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What is time to go?
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Uh so time to go recovery.
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I developed that uh a few years back.
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I have friends that get out there and do outreach, you know, out in the streets, out in the community, uh taking food and water, supplies, narcan, uh, tents, sleeping bags, fentanyl test strips, stuff like that, uh, out to the streets and and out to the people who are struggling and you know, taking out resources and stuff.
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So I was really inspired by that.
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So I started time to go, and uh we started doing missions and taking supplies out, tents, sleeping bags, like I've
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mentioned, boxes of Narcan.
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We have so much Narcan uh we've had donated.
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Uh we get donations and it goes towards like things like socks, uh, help provide the food, things like that.
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Socks is a big thing that that people ask for.
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We do clothes drives, things like that.
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It's been a few months since we've got out and and did one, but I plan on doing one here, like uh coming up soon, maybe in the next month, probably, because even though it's California, it's starting to get cold out here, and you know, especially at night, people get cold.
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So, whatever we can do to take these things out to help these people out and help them feel comfortable, you know, that's what we do.
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So you're based out in LA and you're doing a lot of stuff at MacArthur Park, and you're I watched a lot of your social media and watched you as you're as you're going forward, and you're on Skid Row, and you're in places where you know most people wouldn't go.
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So good on you for that.
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And so time to go is an as a nonprofit, correct?
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No, it's LLC.
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Um, it's it's not uh 501c3 uh just yet, but I I am working on another branch of that.
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Okay, and people can donate and they can donate clothes and they can do and you're doing besides just uh you're doing harm reduction, you know, a lot of harm reduction, and you're out there really making a difference with addicts and the homeless, right?
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Definitely, yeah.
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Um I do like to call it harm reduction.
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Uh there's a lot of other forms of harm reduction that they do out here, like in LA and in the streets and Skid Row that I really wouldn't necessarily do myself.
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Like they're handing out these these goodie bags with uh man, they've got chore, they've got a crank pipe in it, a bubbler, what do you a pookie, you know, meth pipe, um, even even like foil and straws.
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And to me, like that's enabling.
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I won't ever hand out, you know, uh anything like that or or participate in any needle exchanges.
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Now, um I have seen, you know, I do understand the the points and aspects of it, right, as far as like harm reduction, you know, helping to stop spread diseases and things like that, but I feel like it gets to a point where it's definitely enabling.
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Like we don't want to keep these people out here and on substances, like we need to provide other things, you know, one to help keep them comfortable until they're ready, and uh the resources for when they are ready.
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Yeah, you know, and harm reduction, harm reduction has a lot of different uh variants to it, you know, and a lot of people have a lot of negative connotations.
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They hear harm reduction, they think enabling, you know.
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Uh, but you know, the biggest thing that, and we talk about it a lot, Narcan, you know.
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Narcan is something that people should carry on their person all the time.
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All the time I just you never know.
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You never know when I mean, and Krista taught me that.
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Krista at the airport.
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At the airport, remember Krista?
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Tell us about that.
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You can fly with Narcan, by the way.
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Chat GPT said yes, and I put it to the test.
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But like in um addiction for me, I was buying sketchy Xanax.
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And I was and I had to fly with it, and I you never know.
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So it my mind takes me there today because there's a lot more fentanyl in those Xanaxes today than it was 11 years ago.
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And um you never know.
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You could be sitting next to someone that took one to they're scared to fly, or you just you never know.
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I taught my four-year-old well no, he's five, five-year-old, how to use Narcan two years ago, just when my husband was getting sober.
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Like, what if?
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Just what if?
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Like, I'm not around.
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And you know, and I have the demonstration one.
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So I showed him and I showed him where it is and what to use it for, you know.
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Better safe than sorry.
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Yeah, I'm telling you, I I learned so much that I picked up Krista from the airport and on her on her bag she has a Narcan holder, and I'm like, what's that?
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What's that for?
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And she kind of explained, you know, and you don't think I don't think about that as uh as I've been sober a long time, and you know, I don't think about people taking Xanax to to fly, you know, when there is a lot of anxiety around flying and just being at the airport and somebody takes a uh a Xanax that they don't know is laced with fentanyl, and boom, next thing you know, you got somebody overdosing, you can be saving their life just because you're carrying Narcan.
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Or they're trying to get rid of what they hide because they can't fly with it, so they're gonna take it.
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I took fentanyl in my mouth wrapped up in like wax paper.
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I flew with it.
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It only made it to the to the next layover, but I'm too scared to do all that.
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I just thought Oh, I was.
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I was shook.
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Yeah.
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But I mean, uh harm reduction is a real thing.
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And most people so if you keep a fire extinguisher at your house, that's harm reduction.
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If you put your seatbelt on when you drive your car, that's harm reduction.
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People are practicing harm reduction all the time and they don't even know it.
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And you know, harm reduction is just being ready in case something goes down, and Narcan is a big thing for that.
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But uh I keep it in my car.
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So you're originally from be careful with that because the temperature is in your car if it gets too hot.
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That's true.
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So you're originally from Ohio, you moved out to LA, and what do you do out there?
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I came out here four years ago.
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Uh just came up on four years sober also, and uh started working in addiction treatment, and now I do business development and I'm outreach coordinator for Northridge Addiction Treatment Center.
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Um, and I help people in the treatment.
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I go in, I check on them, uh, I run groups there, and yeah, I I love working in the field.
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Uh it's it's great to see people come in just like looking and feeling the way I did, right?
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Just feeling and looking like death, and then just seeing the the light and the spark come back to their eyes once they're you know through their detox, everything's almost kind of out of their system.
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They're they're not feeling 100% yet, but they're at like 85, and they just even you could just tell the difference in them like times 10, you know.
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Absolutely, dude.
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You know, that working in the recovery space, you know, it's a it's got it's so rewarding, you know.
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It's so it's I mean, you get a lot of cases that don't work out, but at least you planted a seed, right?
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And at least you're you're trying.
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We're trying, you know, that's all we can do.
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Exactly.
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It's all we can do.
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You know, like the percentages and the statistics of us as addicts, alcoholics, and recovery, the statistics aren't too good of us, you know, uh making it out here.
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You know, and you are a big proponent of recover out loud.
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And you are recovering out loud on all your social media platforms.
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Uh, I love following you and all the things that you're doing and saying, and you know, just just giving people love on their anniversaries and all the stuff that you're doing.
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Yeah, my time to go pages, that's that's really what they're utilized for, you know.
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Um, sober birthdays, whether it's months or or or years, you know.
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Uh I try to acknowledge those and and post them.
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Um, and it they get a lot of interaction too, which is cool.
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And like I I'll have like 30 people underneath the like congratulating, you know, these people on their clean time.
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And it's you know, I I know that it's a good feeling to them, and like that's a good feeling to me.
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I I love it so much.
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And Crick, I mean, we're we're talking to the queen of social media here, Krista.
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I'm like a princess, I'm not a queen, the princess of social media, sober Barbie.
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So uh, so let's to let's kind of get into what got you uh where you are, you know, what was it like?
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How did uh what was little Brendan like?
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Little Brendan, man, uh little Brendan, I'd say was was pretty shy, uh timid, and you know, uh I heard somebody say once that their first drug of choice was acceptance, right?
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And I was like, ooh, that that kind of hits hard, you know.
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Um growing up, I wanted to be, you know, accepted and uh just like everywhere, not just one place, but everywhere.
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So I would just try to fit in anywhere I could.
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You know, I went through like a freaking MM phase, a goth phase when I was younger.
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I just wanted to fit in.
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I wanted your acceptance, and like there was a lot of times where I just felt like I couldn't fit in, you know.
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Uh I did graduate high school, got an education that was important to me.
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My family stressed that to me.
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Make sure I get my education, graduated high school.
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Um, you know, uh I did do a little bit of prison time.
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I did three years for a burglary I committed when I was uh 18.
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I was hanging with the wrong crowd.
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They thought it was fun to hit licks and break into places, and I ended up doing three years in prison over it, you know.
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Um, and even in prison, I did uh a year and a half
of schooling, uh multimedia uh schooling, vocational, a little bit of like vocational college.
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I got a certificate in that, and after my first year in there, I became a tutor.
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And I, you know, I I'm always eager to like to like learn new things and and do new things, you know.
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So schooling was a big part of me, uh a part of my life.
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Um I'm I'm even thinking about you know looking forward into my education now, doing some college now, uh, some addiction studies courses.
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Um I just kinda I just kind of gotta light that fire, you know.
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Um, because schooling always kind of like scared me, you know.
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I don't know why, because I love to learn and and I, you know, definitely completed my schooling.
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But it sounds like you're good.
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You're good in school.
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Yeah, I guess it's just uh the feeling of starting something new, something different, you know, change um more more stuff on my plate, but I mean I can only benefit from it.
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Um so yeah, after some time in prison, I came home and um I got with my second son's mom, and that was kind of like when my addiction hit the hardest.
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Um I was selling drugs and I was introduced to opiates and uh I had never took them before, but it was my first time being introduced to a Vicodin, right?
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Because somebody told me you should sell these, that's where the money's at.
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And I'm like, really?
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You know, I've never like messed with these.
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So first time I took a Vicadin, I was hooked, and within like a year, um I was doing heroin and and shooting heroin, all while it was transitioning into fentanyl, also, mind you, and what as it was transitioning into fentanyl, like if you had real heroin, I I didn't want it.
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Like I looked for the white stuff, I looked where the feta was at.
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Like I wanted the fentanyl, I didn't want the heroin, you know.
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Um my second son was actually born addicted uh because we we couldn't get out of addiction, you know, Brittany and I.
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And uh this was uh 2013, and uh he was about five months old, growing on six months old, and I remember it was it was her birthday, it was it was my son's mom's birthday.
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Uh his name was Carter, so it was uh Britney's birthday, and we were in our addiction, like I said, and I remember we were at the gas station trying to do our thing and and get right.
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Uh, but I was about to take her out to eat for her birthday, and we were trying to have a good day.
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Well, unfortunately, uh it wasn't a very good day.
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Our phones just kept going off, and like we were busy trying to do our thing, so we finally got right and looked at our phones, and our phone said, get to the hospital now.
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It's it's Carter.
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Um now, mind you, after he was born, like I said, he he was born addicted, but he had got through it.
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Um, you know, he went to the uh the NICU for uh a couple weeks, and and he was just like a normal, you know, little baby.
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And he was almost six months old, and it was that day on her birthday, man.
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We had to drive to the hospital and um and like say goodbye to our little boy, man.
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He uh he passed from Sid's sudden infant death syndrome.
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And uh yeah, I don't know, it was just heartbreaking.
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And it was the first time I had ever seen my dad cry.
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Uh we were all there like as a family, like, you know, um all of our family members showed up say their goodbyes.
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And I just remember I knew what our families were thinking, right?
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They were like more than likely thinking this is either gonna help them get their shit together, or they're just gonna go even harder, and like that's that's what we did.
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We just went even harder.
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Um was in and out of psych wards and and in jail throughout the years.
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Um and uh also in in 2016 uh my youngest son, you guys know about this.
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Uh in 2016, my first son's mother, remember she had just gotten out of jail, and she's like, Oh hey, I'm I'm 30 days clean.
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I just got out of jail, did 30 days, you know, and I was like, hey, that's awesome! Congratulations, I love that for you, you know.
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I'm like, do me a favor, like please stay clean because people are dying out here.
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And I want to say, like, around that time, like I'd swear, like I had known like two or three people that had like just died that week.
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Um so I don't know, within the next few days, like later that week, she had sent me a message and was like, My boyfriend died last night.
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Because we weren't together.
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She was like, My boyfriend died last night.
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Yo, D.
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And um I honestly, like, I was so numb to like being told that like people were dying from it, you know.
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Like, I it was almost like I didn't I I feel like I didn't show enough empathy, you know.
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I I don't know.
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Um and the next day I had found out that she passed.
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Uh found out she she passed from a fan all overdose uh in a hotel room by herself.
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Uh you know, we don't know where she got it, we don't know who she got it from.
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No justice was served.
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You know?
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It's a mess.
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That's a lot of loss in a short amount of time.
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A lot that you've had to deal with.
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I don't know if I talked about this uh the last time we were on, but uh my second son, the one that I had mentioned, uh passed from SIDS.
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Uh his mom, his mother came out here uh to California for treatment.
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She was struggling.
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And uh she did a few weeks out here.
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She wanted to go back home.
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She was having like some health issues, and um, you know, I just told her like whatever decision you make, I just want you to stay sober and do good.
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So she went back home to Ohio, and this was just two years ago.
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Uh she went back home to Ohio, and I remember she wasn't at her 30-day mark sober, you know, yet, but uh, you know, a week or two went by and she told me she's like, I hit 30 days.
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I'm like, hell yeah, let's go.
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Congratulations.
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And um yeah, three days later she she hung herself, she took her own life.
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Um yeah, so that's that's why like I'm just a big advocate on mental health and and substance.
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Yeah, and that's a that was probably a lot of like the grief she carried through all them years.
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Like that's heartbreaking.
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Oh Brendan.
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It's life.
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I you know, I thank you, but like there's times where I'm like, hey, we we all got a sad story, you know?
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Yeah.
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And it's important to do inner healing and and process it.
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And I mean there's no timeline on grief, but like there's so many we did a we recorded a podcast yesterday and she was talking about what is it, EDM, EDM IMDR.
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Um, like there's different things that can help you kind of move move on, not move on, but move through a lot of that.
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Yeah, move through it, yeah.
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Um I feel like I don't know, in my opinion, I feel like grief doesn't really get any easier.
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It's just like more bearable.
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It's your you know, I just you gotta just push through it.
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Yeah, it changes you.
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It changed it changes you, you know.
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I I say because I've gone through a lot of grief in my life, and um it changes you, not necessarily bad, but you're just different.
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You're different after it.
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One of my best friends, really, and Brittany was we were close, like since our teens.
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I I you know, I don't know if it was like she relapsed or like or she was sober and just like life was just too much, but you know.
00:21:49.839 --> 00:21:53.359
And here's a few words from our sponsor, Never Alone Recovery.
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We are a toll-free number.
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Feel free to call 24 hours a day, seven days a week, 855-831-9996.
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This is available for someone who's suffering.
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Also, parents of those who are suffering, colleagues, whoever, feel free to call at any time.
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Krista, what else do we have?
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We host five free Zoom meetings a week, recovery meetings.
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We host a recovery TikTok live every morning.
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And you can find us on all social media platforms, Facebook, YouTube, Instagram, and TikTok, and all of it will be in our description.
00:22:38.400 --> 00:22:52.720
So you got kind of uh a little bit famous um with uh after your your son's mother passed and you did a YouTube video that got millions and millions of views.
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Uh this was like 10 years ago.
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And tell me about tell us about that.
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What uh what prompted you to do that?
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So in October, it'll be ten years this coming October.
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Um it would be ten years that when my first son's mother passed from a fentanyl overdose.
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I don't know, I had this weird idea just for like fentanyl awareness, some type of fentanyl awareness content, you know, like what if we recorded telling my son, you know, his mom had passed from a fentanyl.
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Well, I didn't say it was a fentanyl overdose, but you know, I told him mommy had passed and he had asked how and kind of put me on the spot and I I said from drugs, I was I was honest with him, you know?
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Uh and I asked his permission, he was only eight at the time.
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I kind of explained it to him why I wanted to post it, and I posted it, and yeah, I had no idea that like by the next day it would be worldwide, and
you know, um it got a lot of attention, uh some backlash on it, uh, but for the most part throughout the years, even even still today, I'm I'm reading messages and comments saying uh this helped get me sober, oh this helped get my brother sober, uh thank you so much.
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Um at the time I had no idea what type of impact it would bring.
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I thought if anything, like maybe a couple people locally would share it.
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Um it got like hundreds of thousands of shares, and I just think it's crazy that still to this day it kind of holds some weight and and it's still helping people, I guess.
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That's uh and so your son is is 18 now.
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What does he think about it?
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He he's eighteen.
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I'll be honest with you, Johnny.
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Uh recently I thought about deleting it.
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And in the past, I've I've asked friends, you know, if I should delete it or not, and they've said, don't you dare.
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You know, they're they're in recovery themselves.
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Well, it's out there now, really.
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Yeah, and a few people have also said that like it's already out on the internet, like you can't really take it off the internet.
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I mean, I can delete the original post.
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Um but it sheds so much light on on what addiction does to families and kids.
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Yeah, for sure, you know, yeah, and I think that's important because that gets uh uh kind of lost sometimes in the message, you know.
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It's really the kids, the next generation is what's gonna carry us to our future.
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Oh, yeah.
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And I did so I asked my son this last time that I'd visited home, flew out to Ohio and visited, like face to face in the car, and I asked him, I said, Hey, I I want to ask you something.
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Like, years later, does that video bother you at all?
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Like, I've thought about taking it down.
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Like, what do you think about that?
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And he goes, No, you can leave it up.
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He said, No, I I don't want you to take it down, leave it up.
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I I still I have family members that ask me to take it down, honestly.
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I've had a couple family members ask me to take it down.
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I have a couple family members that tell me to take videos down too, so but they don't get it.
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Well, so this was an enormous, enormous um video for fentanyl awareness.
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You know, ten years ago, most people didn't know about fentanyl.
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They didn't know that it was being, you know, shot up by people and used uh the way it was being used.
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So you kind of uh you were in the in the beginning of of this fentanyl war.
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And that's exactly what it is.
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Fentanyl is an epidemic.
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There is there, you know, the yes, it's it is it is killing so many people.
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And I mean, and you've just seen, I mean, how many, you know, how many names, how many names of people who have gone from fentanyl overdose now?
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It's uh it's it's it really is.
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It's a war.
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It's a war.
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And you were start you started it.
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You started uh the the awareness of it, and that was a long time ago.
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Then I actually woke up to a message this morning, right, from someone from my school district who was saying that she was reading a list, right, of all the people who had graduated in my class from Helen High School that have passed from fentanyl.
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And she had said she asked our principal, um, she said, you know whose name is not on there?
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Brendan Clark.
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And my principal, my past principal, I guess, had even said, I'm not gonna lie, I I wasn't sure he was gonna make it.
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Oh.
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Wow.
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And look at what you're doing today.
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I mean, that gives me the choke.
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You're advocating.
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So when you when you made that video, when you made that video, were you clean at that time?
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I was about 90 days sober.
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Yes, I was in sober living.
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People comment, they're like, he looks high.
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I was holding a cigarette, that pissed people off.
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Yeah, I was about to tell my son that his mom died.
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They didn't like, let me smoke a shit.
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Like, I it wasn't all up in his face, you know.
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Uh uh.
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Yeah.
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Well, I mean, but you so because you've had you've had bouts of clean time, and during this one experience in particular, you were clean.
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Uh, how does that uh you that that means something to you?
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Yeah, definitely.
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Um, yeah, unfortunately, I didn't stay clean after that.
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And like if that doesn't, you know, tell you how serious,
you know, this this disease of addiction is, then I don't know what else does, because like why why would I ever go back to that, right?
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Like, why would I ever go back to using fentanyl if my son's mother just passed from it, right?
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It's just that insidious and it's it's that much hard of a substance to kick.
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Just addiction, period, no matter the substance.
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And fentanyl is just so is so strong, and so, you know, everything calls you back to it, right?
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You know, and you've had you've had just a life of trauma, you know, and when, you know, because we talk about this a lot, right?
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You know, it was the solution.
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It was the solution to our problems.
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It was the the the thing that made us feel better or not feel at all, right?
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And when you don't work through the feelings, when you don't uh, you know, and that's that's most of uh addicts, most uh addicts are have you know trauma and all these things built up inside, and their solution is the drugs and alcohol.
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And I mean anybody who hears your story and all of the loss and you know and unhealed wounds, you know, that's any addict who knows knows what you're going through.
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Definitely.
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And there's there's these new uh strands of of fentanyl out now, like things I can't even pronounce, you know, like one after the other.
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Like a few years ago it was car fentanyl, and then the I I can't even think of the names of them.
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There's like so many now.
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Yeah, yeah.
00:30:52.559 --> 00:30:58.880
So let's talk, let's talk about how you found uh how you f eventually found recovery.
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How I eventually found recovery, it was 2022.
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I was dope sick on my mom's couch, and uh friend of mine who was out here in California in treatment already um offered me treatment.
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And you know, a small town guy, you know, in uh in Ohio, like with nothing out there.
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I'm like, California sounds beautiful, rehab sounds amazing, like maybe it's time to get our stuff together, you know.
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So flew out here, and you know, I say this in my story.
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I even came out here still closed-minded, like I wasn't even all the way open-minded to like real recovery, right?
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I told myself I was only gonna stay 30 days um that I was gonna go back home and probably go back to the same stuff.
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But I had done this twice in Florida.
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I'd went to Florida twice for treatment, only to AMA, go back home, and go back to the same stuff, right?
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Well, within these 30 days, I told myself, I said, I'm not gonna do the same thing that I did in Florida.
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I'm gonna go check out this sober living, see what they're talking about, see what it's looking like, and maybe try to get a sponsor out here, go to some meetings, go to some PHP, get some therapy, and see if we can really recover this time.
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And you know, by the grace of God, four years later, you know, here I am still out in California, uh sober and working in the field myself.
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What was different?
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What was different this time than all the other times?
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I think it's a decision, honestly.
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I just feel like you have to be beaten and broken to the point where you're just ready.
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There was time I've tried treatment uh a hundred times before.
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I was just telling my buddy yesterday, there's a treatment center, a building back home in Ohio, right?
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This building has been three different treatment centers.
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I frequented every treatment center, like as that building like became different treatment centers, I frequented every company that it was.
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I had been to that building so many times.
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And uh, you know, one of the last times I had I went home to visit family, I actually went and spoke there.
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On on the other side, you know.
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That's awesome.
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Yeah.
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How many how many treatment facilities were you in?
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I honestly I I couldn't tell you.
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I I know the girl you guys uh I follow or the guys you I was gonna say, you need to do a series like you're talking about you're talking about talking big 327.
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What I do know is that I've been to two state state facility psych wards where like I had no business being just because I wanted to come off a fentanyl.
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Where like there was real people that needed help, you know, going through it.
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But sometimes like here, you can't just go to a hospital and say, I want to detox.
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Like to help the last friend I helped get into like a hospital detox, which we had to tell him he had some mental it had to be it was a psych ward.
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He what they wouldn't take him into like a hospital.
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So they detoxed him.
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I had probably went to the hospital and said I was gonna off myself at least 30 to 40 times just to get
in somewhere.
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Yeah, that's the only way they'll like get you to in for detox.
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It's sick.
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Yeah.
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I mean, it'll get you there, you know?
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We got to the point where a doctor, a psychiatrist came in and said, Yes, uh Brendan Clark is clinically insane and will need a higher level of care and treatment.
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Because if you think about it, doing the same thing over and over, right?
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I had been there so many times and said the same thing.
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But they knew, they knew, you know.
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But what would you do?
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You would go, you'd go detox and then go right back to what you were doing.
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Yeah, right back to it.
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Because I went to put in the effort.
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I was like, okay, I put the drugs down, I'm cool, we're good.
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Yeah, I don't need any further therapy, I don't need any further treatment, I don't need any further support groups.
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I'm gonna go hang out with with you know Joe's.
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Go to the barber shop and then you're gonna get your hair cut.
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For sure, you know.
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Definitely, and got my hair cut a couple times.
00:35:53.199 --> 00:35:57.519
So, so you you you found recovery finally, you know.
00:35:57.679 --> 00:36:04.880
Um, you know, and you uh you you work the steps, you you incorporated the steps in your life.
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I see all the stuff you're doing now, you know, and you play an you're an active member if of a program.
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How important is that to you?
00:36:16.880 --> 00:36:29.519
I I feel it's very important because my ideas and and and the way I was living wasn't working, so you know I kind of needed some guidance for sure.
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Um while I was in sober living, they would take us to meetings, and I was told always not to hang so much with the people that had the same amount of clean time as you, or you'll stay a newcomer, and like I didn't really understand that until I started sitting at meetings with the guys who had five, ten, fifteen, twenty years sober, right?
00:36:56.960 --> 00:37:06.719
Looking back at my sober living, you know, uh community, like at the meeting with me, just like this, like on their phone.
00:37:06.880 --> 00:37:09.760
Yeah, missing the message.
00:37:10.239 --> 00:37:15.920
Um yeah, I I I feel that going to meetings, right?
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You're you're not gonna hear everything you want to hear.
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I'm not gonna hear everything that I want to hear at a meeting, right?
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I'm gonna hear some things that I'm not gonna relate with, some things that aren't gonna sit right with me, but I might hear a message, I might hear a snippet of something that might affect me, change my mood, change my thinking, and direct me on the right path of recovery.
00:37:39.920 --> 00:37:42.559
That's um amazing, amazing, amazing.
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Dude, I'm I'm I mean, I'm a big uh I'm a big 12-step proponent, and you know, and we talk about all the different ways of finding recovery, and all of them are good.
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We are big proponents of all path form pathways to recovery are good.
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You know, but uh whenever we find a fellow 12-stepper, I'm gonna we're gonna talk about it for a minute.
00:38:07.920 --> 00:38:08.960
Hell yeah, man.
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I mean you dig deep, right?
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Like this the steps like make you dig deep.
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Like you really gotta think and feel and then write things down.
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It's we all have something in common.
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We want to heal and be better people, and that's taking them steps.
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Johnny and I got to go to Founders Day, and we went to Dr.
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Bob's house, and ironically, there's 12 steps leading up to the front door, and they did not plan that.
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We don't even want to bring that up with Brandon right now because Brennan's.
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I know the folks to meet us there.
00:38:44.559 --> 00:38:47.599
Okay, see now you're bringing up sore subjects, Krista.
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We still had a fun time.
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We had fun.
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I know you guys did.
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I was looking at y'all's pictures and I was like, it was a good time.
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I learned a lot because I'm not I'm not even really an AA anymore, but it's my roots and my foundation.
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For sure.
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It was so good.
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It was so good.
00:39:04.719 --> 00:39:06.559
Did you guys visit his grave also?
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Yes.
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I put a baby Jesus on it.
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I love that.
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The one time that I went, it was at night.
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There was literally candles lit on his gravestone.
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They don't walk the graveyard at night?
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You did you break in?
00:39:20.800 --> 00:39:21.119
No.
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It might have been, I mean it was like towards the evening.
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It was like towards the evening.
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Oh, okay.
00:39:28.719 --> 00:39:31.679
And we went to the motorcycle um procession.
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That was like my favorite part.
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Um, okay.
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So what is one of the biggest gifts recovery's given you?
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One of the biggest gifts recovery has given me is uh, you know, they say a life beyond your wildest dreams, right?
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Like that's that's the quote.
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That's that's like an understatement.
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Like, if you would have told me, you know, over four years ago that I would have the life that I have today, I would have probably called you a liar, asked you for 20 bucks, or tried to rob you, you know.
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Like, I have a beautiful life today.
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Uh I have a beautiful girlfriend, a healthy relationship, two cats, you know.
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Um convertible that you make videos going through the city at night.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Hey, that's another thing, actually.
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Um, I had that car, it's a Camaro.
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I actually had that car on a vision board about maybe five, six years ago, and um I had it like on on my on my desktop, on my laptop, you know, for like the wallpaper.
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And I swear to god, I told myself like I'll drive a white Camaro one day.
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And I didn't even go looking for it.
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When I got my license back after 15 years of not having my license, I decided to go to a Toyota dealership to just look at some cars.
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And um, yeah, uh this guy's.
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I said, uh, I'm more of like a Chevy guy.
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And he said, Do you want to check this Camaro out?
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And I was like, Do I?
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So no camera, you got the Camaro.
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Yeah, I pulled off the lot with this one.
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I'm able to do things like that today.
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I'm able to be employed.
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Um I'm I'm I'm trusted, you know.
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Um, I'm trusted at my family's house when I visit home now.
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My mom doesn't have to put her purse up in her bedroom, you know.
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If anything, I'm I'm putting money in it, you know.
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So uh I have a beautiful life today.
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Um a good relationship with my kids.
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They're back home in Ohio.
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Um not sure how long I'm gonna live in California for, but uh, you know, I I've got a great life out here, and I go home and visit a lot, and not as much as I'd like to, you know, but I'm more present.
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That's big.
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That's big.
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And you dude, I'm just I'm telling you, watching from the outside and uh the relationship that we've been able to form and just seeing all the growth that happens just from the the short time that I've known you is just awesome.
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And you know, and that happens when you're you know, I think there's the program can be taught, right?
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The program can be taught that we can teach 12 steps to anybody.
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You anybody who wants to learn them can learn them.
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But enthusiasm is one thing that can't be taught.
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And I think the the gift of desperation is enthusiasm for recovery.
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And it's and it's it's open-mindedness, don't get me wrong, because uh you have to open your mind to some new ideas and some new things.
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But the the keeping of the enthusiasm to see I want what Brandon has, how did you do it, Brandon?
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I'm gonna do what you do, and and actually do that and and stay active and stay incorporated into whatever program we're using, or or whatever 12-step you know activity you're doing, which you're doing a ton of.
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You know, it's actually gotta stay active, stay involved, you know.
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Yeah, that's uh I think that's the the biggest key, is is I'm watching you and I just see the enthusiasm.
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And like I watch your social media, and it makes me think, shit, what else would I do?
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I'm supposed to be doing some shit now.
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That's why I said I watch your guys' stuff, and I'm like, why am I not doing that yet?
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You know?
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So it's we enjoy you you gotta enjoy the moment.
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And like we kinda I kind of thought it was gonna be boring.
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That's kind of why I never wanted to to try to get sober.
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Like, what fun was I gonna have?
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I'm never gonna have a good time without a drink ever.
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Are you serious?
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Um, I'm having the best time of my life.
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I'm remembering everything.
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I can drive a car at any time of the day.
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That's a big one.
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Legally.
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Um, I'm like remembering everything.
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I'm waking up a hundred and twenty percent versus waking up ten percent with hangover.
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Or dope sick.
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And like I you you gotta enjoy, you gotta have a good time.
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And you wanna share it.
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You can't keep it if you don't give it away.
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I know exactly.
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Um yeah, you gotta share it so so people can know that like that type of life is possible.
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I'm I'm proud to recover out loud, and I love it when others recover out loud, you know.
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Um I'm a big advocate for for treatment and and recovery.
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Um lately I've been working closely with uh Victor the Good Boss.
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Shout out to him.
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Um he's helping get people off the streets and scholarshipping them uh into treatment to find a better way of life, you know.
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Uh our treatment center is scholarshipping someone for him right now.
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And she's doing great.
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That's awesome.
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Yeah, that's awesome.
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Beautiful thing.
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It's very encouraging to watch because you he comes across some people that like may not even realize that there's they there is a way out, you know, because attainable recovery is probably what's really keeping most people away.
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Like I didn't I when I was getting sober, Google wasn't helpful.
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There's nothing in my area.
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So like if I didn't have a mom that like literally went and found this rehab hours and hours away, I would have never made it there.
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But like you got this guy out, you know, like just offering a solution, take it or leave it.
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And how many other people do that, you know?
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Like it's great, it's a pleasure to work with them, yeah.
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And there, I mean, there's a lot of that out there, right?
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There's a lot of that out there.
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I mean, in where you are at MacArthur Park, you know, it's basically an open-air drug area, drug monarchy, right?
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And you go to Philadelphia, you got Kensington Street, and you go to uh San Francisco, you got Turk Street.
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Uh shout out shout out to uh Ben Larson for my favorite song, Turk Street.
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And you go up to uh Vancouver, and there's a street up there where it's just open air.
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People are just doing drugs without any, you know, and they the cops come by, they turn around.
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Yeah, they just turn the cheek, man.
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They don't they don't care.
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So to have somebody that's actually going to these areas and saying, Hey, here you go, here's uh here's a chance if you want it.
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That's
enormous.
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That's really big.
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Big shout out uh to your guy.
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Heck yeah.
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Yeah, we'll have to tag him in it.
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Yeah, I'm a big fan.
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My husband watches them too.
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He he's got he does a lot, and he's all over the all over the place.
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All over the place.
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Shout out Victor the good boss and fresh start.
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Fresh start.
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It's uh dude, it's so funny because uh you uh you can tell a program person all the time, right?
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Uh you hear words, and like you said the word insidious earlier, and that's uh the there's not too many people out in the out and about saying the word insidious too frequently.
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Um but you want to hear a funny story is I was uh I was listening to Macklemore.
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Uh you know that song, the big song that came out was uh uh was it Thrift Shop or Thrift Store?
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You know what I'm talking about?
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Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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It was all over the radios.
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I thought it was so good.
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And I was like, dude, I like this guy.
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Let me listen to this album.
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And I'm listening to his album, and all of a sudden I'm hearing words like gratitude.
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And uh, you know, it's like, well, you don't hear the word gratitude too much in the ra in the real world.
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And then all of a sudden I was like, oh man, and uh found out that McLamore was in recovery as well.
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And then uh he had uh his song Starting Over, you know, the song Starting Over is one of the most powerful songs in in recovery because he he talked about his relapse, you know, and relapse it ha it happens.
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And you know, but if I can be an example of getting sober, then I can be an example of starting over.
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And dude, that's uh there you can't get a more powerful line than that.
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And you know and Brendan, your story, man, you are that example, you know.
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Uh, you know, you didn't get sober right off the giddy up, but you got sober and and it took some time, took a lot of time, took a lot of pain, but you did it.
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And if I can be an example of getting sober, I can be an example of starting over.
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And persistence wins, you know, persistence wins.
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I know that's right, man.
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And the work you do, like the outreach stuff, that's really, really big, because not a lot of people are doing that.
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It takes a lot of work and money.
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And but just being kind and just like giving someone a bottle of water, you don't know how like is huge.
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It's huge.
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Here where I live, there's not there's no homeless shelters.
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It's it's wild.
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So like we I I try to help where I can, but um what you're doing in like the m the numbers is huge.
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Takes a lot of like brainstorming and and like you know planning too.
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Um we have uh I'm I'm friends with a lady who comes out in her van to cut hair.
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She she has a mobile barber shop and she comes out, you know, uh to to our little events and stuff and out to MacArthur Park and she cuts hair in her van that she used to live in when she was home.
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Oh my gosh.
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Yeah, shout out to Gina.
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Sheer cuts by Gina Shears of Joy by Gina.
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Wow, that's bad.
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I think I think my favorite thing about you, Brennan, is that you know, you you you live by Rule 62.
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And rule 62 is we don't take ourselves so damn seriously, right?
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And uh, you know, so we make all these little videos and uh the and we send out, you know, hey, can you uh can you give us a 10-second video of this and that?
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And every time I need to put a smile on my face, it was You're always his favorite.
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Always my favorite.
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The wing.
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Always like Brendan.
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I'm telling you, and it anytime I need a smile on my face, I'll just go and watch that video.
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And and Brandon, Brandon says whatever he says.
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Uh, you know what?
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We're gonna play it right now, Megan.
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You play that video right now.
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Because it's just he says what he says.
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He drinks his coffee and he looks and and then Megan put the ding behind it.
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Oh man, you know, and we gotta continue doing that, man.
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We gotta life is short.
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Let's have a good time doing it.
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We get to live a life beyond our wildest dreams.
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We get to live a second life in one lifetime if we want to.
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Let's make the best of it.
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Let's help as many people as we can.
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Let's have a good time doing it.
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Let's keep laughing.
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Let's keep smiling.
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Whatever you see, Brennan, Brennan's always got a smile on his face.
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With all the, you know, he said he's had trauma.
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Anybody who's watched all the way up till now, they've heard your trauma.
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And the fact that you can still sit here and you got a smile on your face, you know.
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This is this is the this is living the being the example, dude.
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And, you know, and I'm proud of you, man.
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I'm proud of you for everything you're doing.
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I appreciate it.
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Me too.
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I'm really grateful we connected, and um, it was all because of that video, you know, that you posted many years ago that kind of brought your attention to us.
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And um, it's just it's cool to watch your journey and you're across the whole country, and um your connections and seeing you have gone through all that and now you're working in a treatment center, like you're the star student, and like to hear you were a tutor in prison.
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Yeah.
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Um but like that's cool, and um that you can be a good example for your kids and your community, your community needs you.
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So I will say this though.
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I mean, wet when we first met Brendan, you know, he was clean shaven and didn't have any glasses, and suddenly he meets me.
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I don't know.
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If he rolls through and bicks that head of his, uh or you or you grew hair.
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That grew out.
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Yeah.
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Unfortunately.
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Was I clean shaved last time?
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I think I was, actually.
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I'm telling you.
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I actually need a new pair of glasses, new new prescription.
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Well, next time we'll see him, we'll have the same style as Johnny.
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Okay, he's gonna have he's gonna he's gonna be rocking circle glasses and a shaved head, and we ain't gonna know what happened.
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I don't know.
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I don't know.
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Brennan, dude, thank you so much for coming out and being here with us and sharing your story.
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Um, love you, man, and love that you know that you're we're we're all in this together, right?
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You know, anytime we call on Brennan and say, hey Brennan, we need this, we need that, Brennan always down, and you know, and and we're having a good time doing it.
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And uh, and I just want to thank you, brother, for coming and sharing your story with us.
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Yeah, definitely, man.
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Thank you guys for having me.
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It's been a pleasure, man.
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Seriously.
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Always a thank you.
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And everybody who's pay who's who's watched, uh, thank you so much.
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Make sure you go and follow Brandon, follow all of his socials, follow uh Time to Go.
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And it's uh, you know, it's a real, real good thing that he's doing out there.
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So if you can help in any way, shape, or form, you know, reach out to Brendan.
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Brendan is always uh up for for a conversation.
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So thank you everyone.
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Thanks for being here, and uh, we'll see you next time.
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See you next time.