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r I dot Calm Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad,
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Chapter two, Part one, one evening, as I was lying
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flat on the deck of my steamboat, I heard voices approaching,
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and there were the nephew and the uncle strolling along
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the bank. I laid my head on my arm again
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and had nearly lost myself in a doze when somebody
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said in my ear, as it were, I am as
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harmless as a little child. But I don't like to
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be dictated to. Am I the manager or am I not?
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I was ordered to send him there? It's incredible. I
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became aware that the two were standing on the shore
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alongside the forepart of the steamboat, just below my head.
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I did not move. It did not occur to me
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to move. I was sleepy. It is unpleasant, grunted the uncle.
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He has asked the administration to be sent there, said
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the other, with the idea of showing what he could do.
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And I was instructed accordingly. Look at the influence that
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man must have. Is it not frightful? They both agreed
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it was frightful, then made several bizarre remarks make rain
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and fine weather, one man the council by the nose,
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Bits of absurd sentences that got the better of my drowsiness,
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so that I had pretty near the whole of my
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wits about me when the uncle said, the climate may
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do away with this difficulty for you. Is he alone there? Yes,
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answered the manager. He sent his assistant down the river
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with a note to me in these terms, clear this
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devil out of the country, and don't bother sending more
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of that sort. I had rather be alone than have
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the kind of men you can dispose of with me.
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It was more than a year ago. Can you imagine
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such impudence anything since? Then asked the other hoarsely. Ivory
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jerked the nephew. Lots of it, prime sort, lots most
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annoying from him, And with that questioned the heavy rumble
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invoice was the reply fired out? So to speak, Then
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silence they had been talking about kurts I was broad
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awake by this time, but lying perfectly at ease, remained,
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still having no inducement to change my position. How did
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that ivory come all this way? Growled the elder man,
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who seemed very vexed. The other explained that it had
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come with a fleet of canoes in charge of an
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English half caste clerk Kurtz had with him. That Kurtz
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had apparently intended to himself, the station being by that
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time bare of goods and stores, but after coming three
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hundred miles, had suddenly decided to go back, which he
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started to do alone in a small dugout with four paddlers,
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leaving the half caste to continue down the river with
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the ivory. The two fellows there seemed astounded at anybody
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attempting such a thing. They were at a loss for
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an adequate motive. As to me, I seemed to see
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Kurtz for the first time. It was a distant glimpse
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the dugout, four paddling savages, and the lone white man
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turning his back suddenly on the headquarters on relief, on
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thoughts of home, perhaps settling his face towards the depths
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of the wilderness, towards his empty and desolate station. I
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did not know the motive. Perhaps he was simply a
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fine fellow who stuck to his work for its own sake.
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His name, you understand, had not been pronounced once. He
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was that man, the half caste, who, as far as
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I could see, had conducted a difficult trip with great
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prudence and pluck, was invariably alluded to as that scoundrel.
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The scoundrel had reported that the man had been very ill,
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had recovered imperfectly. The tubelowmy moved away then a few paces,
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and strolled back and forth. At some little distance I
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heard military post doctor two hundred miles quite alone. Now
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unavoidable delays, nine months, no news, strange rumors. They approached again,
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just as the manager was saying, no one, as far
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as I know, unless a species of wandering trader, a
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pestilential fellow snapping ivory from the natives. Who was it
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they were talking about? Now? I gathered in snatches that
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this was some man supposed to be in Kurtz's district,
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and of whom the manager did not approve. We will
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not be free from unfair competition till one of these
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fellows is hanged. For an example, he said, certainly grunted
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the other, get him hanged. Why not anything? Anything can
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be done in this country. That's what I say. Nobody here,
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you understand here can endanger your position, and why you
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stand the climate, you outlast them all. The danger is
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in Europe. But there before I left, I took care
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to They moved off and whispered. Then their voices rose again.
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The extraordinary series of delays is not my fault. I
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did my best. The fat man sighed very sad, and
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the postiferous absurdity of his talk continued. The other he
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bothered me enough when he was here. Each station should
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be like a beacon on the road towards better things,
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a center for trade, of course, but also for humanizing, improving, instructing.
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Conceive you that ass and he wants to be manager. No,
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it's here. He got choked by excessive indignation, and I
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lifted my head the least bit. I was surprised to
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see how near they were right under me. I could
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have spat on their hats. They were looking at the ground,
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absorbed in thought. The manager was switching his leg with
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a slender twig. His sagacious relative lifted his head. You
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have been well since you came out this time, he asked.
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The other gave a start. Who I oh, like a
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charm like a charm. But the rest, oh, my goodness,
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all sick. They die so quick too, that I haven't
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the time to send them out of the country. It's
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incredible hum just so grunted. The uncle. Ah, my boy,
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trust to this, I say, trust to this. I saw
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him extend his short flipper of an arm for a
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gesture that took in the forest, the creek, the mud,
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the river seemed to beckon with a dishonoring flourish before
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the sun unlit face of the land, a treacherous appeal
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to the lurking death, to the hidden evil, to the
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profound darkness of its heart. It was so startling that
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I leaped to my feet and looked back at the
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edge of the forest, as though I had expected an
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answer of some sort to that black display of confidence.
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You know, the foolish notions that come to one sometimes.
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The high stillness confronted these two figures with its ominous patients,
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waiting for the passing away of a fantastic invasion, They
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swirl out together out of sheer fright, I believe, then,
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pretending not to know anything of my existence, turned back
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to the station. The sun was low, and leaning forward
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side by side, they seemed to be tugging painfully up
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hill their two ridiculous shadows of unequal length that trailed
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behind them slowly over the tall grass without bending a
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single blade. In a few days, the El Dorado expedition
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went into the patient wilderness that closed upon it as
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the sea closes over a driver. Long afterwards the news
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came that all the donkeys were dead. I know nothing
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as to the fate of the less valuable animals. They,
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no doubt, like the rest of us, found what they deserved.
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I did not inquire. I was then rather excited at
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the prospect of meeting Kurts very soon. When I say
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very soon, I mean it comparatively. It was just two
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months from the day we left the creek when we
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came to the bank below Kurtz's station. Going up that
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river was like traveling back to the earliest beginnings of
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the world, when vegetation rioted on the earth, and the
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big trees were kings. An empty stream, a great silence,
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an impenetrable forest. The air was warm, thick, heavy, sluggish.
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There was no joy in the brilliance of sunshine. The
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long stretches of the waterway ran on, deserted into the
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gloom of the overshadowed distances. On silvery sand banks, hippos
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and alligators sunned themselves side by side. The broadening waters
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flowed through a mob of wooded islands. You lost your
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way on that river as you would in a desert,
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and budded all day long against shoals, trying to find
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the channel, till you thought yourself bewitched and cut off
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forever from everything you had known once somewhere far away,
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in another existence. Perhaps there were moments when once past
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came back to one, as it will sometimes when you
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have not a moment to spare for yourself. But it
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came in the shape of an unrestful and noisy dream,
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remembered with wonder amongst the overwhelming realities of this strange
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world of plants, water and silence. And this stillness of
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life did not, in the least resemble a peace. It
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was the stillness of an implacable force, brooding over in
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its scrutable intention. It looked at you with a vengeful aspect.
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I got used to it. Afterwards, I did not see
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it any more. I had no time. I had to
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keep guessing at the channel I had to discern, mostly
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by inspiration, the signs of hidden banks. I watched for
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sunken stones. I was learning to clap my teeth smartly
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before my heart flew out when I shaved by a fluke,
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some infernal sly oled snag that would have ripped the
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life out of the tin pot steamboat and drowned all
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the pilgrims. I had to keep a look out for
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the signs of dead wood we could cut up in
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the night for next day's steaming. When you have to
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attend to things of that sort, to the mere incidents
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of the surface, the reality, the reality, I tell you, fades.
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The inner truth is hidden, luckily, luckily. But I felt
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it all the same. I felt often its mysterious stillness
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watching me at my money tricks, just as it watches
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you fellows performing on your respective tight ropes. For what
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is it half a crown a tumble, Try to be civil,
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Marlowe growled a voice, and I knew there was at
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least one listener awake beside myself. I beg your pardon.
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I forgot the heartache which makes up the rest of
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the price. And indeed, what does the price matter? If
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the trick be well done, you do your tricks very well,
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and I didn't do badly either. Since I managed not
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to sink that steamboat on my first trip, it's a
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wonder to me. Yet, imagine a blindfolded man set to
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drive a van over a bad road. I sweated and
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shivered over that business considerably, I can tell you, after all,
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for a seaman to scrape the bottom of the thing
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that's supposed to float all the time under his care
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is the unpardonable sin. No one may know of it,
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but you never forget the thumb eh a blow on
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the very heart. You remember it, you dream of it,
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You wake up at night and think of it years after,
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and go hot and cold all over. I don't pretend
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to say that steamboat floated all the time. More than
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once she had to wait for a bit with twenty
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cannibals splashing around and pushing. We had enlisted some of
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these chaps on the way for a crew. Fine fellows
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cannibals in their place. They were men one could work with,
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and I am grateful to them. And after all, they
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did not eat each other before my face. They had
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brought along a provision of hippo meat, which went rotten
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and made the mystery of the wilderness stink in my hostels.
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Who I can sniff it? Now? I had the manager
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on board, and three or four pilgrims with their staves,
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all complete. Sometimes we came upon a station close by
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the bank, clinging to the skirts of the unknown, and
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the white men rushing out of a tumble down hovel
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with great gestures of joy and surprise and welcome, seemed
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very strange, had the appearance of being held there by
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a spell. The word
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for a while, And on we went again into the silence,
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along empty reaches, round the still bends, between the high
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walls of our winding way, reverbating in hollow claps, the
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ponderous beat of the stern wheel. Trees, trees, millions of trees, massive, immense,
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running up high and at their foot, hugging the bank
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against the stream, crept the little begrimed steamboat, like a
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sluggish beetle crawling on the floor of a lofty portico.
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It made you feel very small, very lost, And yet
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it was not altogether depressing that feeling. After all, if
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you were small, the grimy beetle crawled on, which was
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just what you wanted. It to do where the pilgrims
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imagined it crawled to, I don't know, to some place
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where they expected to get something. I bet for me,
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it crawled towards kurts exclu lusively. But when the steam
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pipes started leaking, we crawled very slow. The reaches opened
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before us and closed behind, as if the forest had
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stepped leisurely across the water to bar the way for
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our return. We penetrated deeper and deeper into the heart
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of darkness. It was very quiet there at night. Sometimes
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the roll of drums behind the curtain of trees would
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run up the river and remain sustained, faintly, as if
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hovering in the air, high over our heads till the
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first break of day. Whether it meant war, peace or prayer,
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we could not tell. The dawns were heralded by the
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descent of a chill stillness. The wood cutters slept, their
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fires burned low. The snapping of a twig would make
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you start. We were wanderers on a prehistoric earth, on
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an earth that wore the aspect of an unknown planet.
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We could have fancied ourselves the first of men taking
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possession of an accursed inheritance to be subdued at the
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cost of profound anguish and of excessive toil. But suddenly,
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as we struggled round a bend, there would be a
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glimpse of rush, walls of peaked glass roofs, a
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of yells, a whirl of black limbs, a mass of hands,
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clapping of feet, stamping of bodies, swaying of eyes, rolling
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under the droop of heavy and motionless foliage. The steamer
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toiled along slowly on the edge of a black and
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incomprehensible frenzy. The prehistoric man was cursing us, praying to us,
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welcoming us. Who could tell we were cut off from
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the comprehension of our surroundings. We glided past like phantoms,
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wondering and secretly appalled, as sane men would be before
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an enthusiastic outbreak in a mad house. We could not
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understand because we were too far and could not remember.
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Because we were traveling in the night of first ages,
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of those ages that are gone, leaving hardly a sign
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and no memories, The earth seemed unearthly. We are accustomed
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to look upon the shackled form of a conquered monster,
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But there there you could look at a thing monstrous
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and free. It was unearthly, and the men were no
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they were not inhuman. Well you know that was the
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worst of it, this suspicion of their not being inhuman.
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It would come slowly to one. They howled and leaped
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and spun and made horrid faces. But what thrilled you
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was just the thought of their humanity like yours, the
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thought of your remote kinship with this wild and passionate uproar. Ugly, yes,
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it was ugly enough. But if you were mad enough,
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you would admit to yourself that there was in you
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just the faintest trace of a response to the terrible
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frankness of that noise, a dim suspicion of there being
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a meaning in it, which you, you so remote from
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the night of first Ages, could comprehend. And why not?
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The mind of man is capable of anything, because everything
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is in it, all the past as well as all
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the future. What was there after all? Joy, fear, sorrow, devotion, valor, rage?
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Who can tell but truth, Truth stripped of its cloak
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of time. Let the fool gape and shudder. The man
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knows and can look on without a wink, But he
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must at least be as much of a man as
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these on the shore. He must meet that truth with
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his own true stuff, with his own inborn strength. Principles
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won't do acquisitions clothes, pretty rags, rags that would fly
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off at the first good shake. No, you want a
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deliberate belief and appeal to me in this fiendish row?
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Is there very well? I hear, I admit, But I
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have a voice too, and for good or evil, mine
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is the speech that cannot be silenced. Of course, a fool,
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what with sheer, fright and fine sentiments, is always safe.
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Who's that grunting? You wonder I didn't go ashore for
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a howl and a dance. Well, no, I didn't fine sentiments,
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you say, fine sentiments be hanged. I had no time.
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I had to mess about with white lead and strips
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of woolen blanket, helping to put bandages on those leaky
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steam pipes. I tell you, I had to watch the
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steering and circumvent those snags, and get the tin pot
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along by hook or by crook. There was surface truth
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enough in these things to save a wiser man. And
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between whiles I had to look after the savage who
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was fireman. He was an improved specimen. He could fire
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up a vertical boiler. He was there below me, and
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upon my word, to look at him was as edifying
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as seeing a dog in a parody of breeches and
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a other hat walking on his hind legs. A few
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months of training had done for that really fine chap.
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He squinted at the steam gage and at the water
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gage with an evident effort of intrepidity. And he had
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filed teeth too, the poor devil, and the wool of
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his pate shaved into queer patterns, and three ornamental scars
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on each of his cheeks. He ought to have been
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clapping his hands and stamping his feet on the bank,
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instead of which he was hard at work, a thrall
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to strange witchcraft, full of improving knowledge. He was useful
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because he had been instructed. And what he knew was this,
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that should the water in that transparent thing disappear, the
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evil spirit inside the boiler would get angry through the
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greatness of his thirst and take a terrible vengeance. So
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he sweated and fired up, and watched the glass fearfully,
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with an impromptu charm made of rags tied to his arm,
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and a piece of polished bone as big as a
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watch stuck flatways through his lower lip. While the wooded
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bank slipped past us slowly, The short noise was left
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behind the interminable miles of silence, and we crept on
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towards Kurts. But the snags were thick, the water was
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treacherous and shallow. The boiler seemed indeed to have a
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sulky devil in it, and thus neither that fireman nor
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I had any time to peer into our creepy thoughts.
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Some fifty miles below the inner station, we came upon
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a hut of reeds, an inclined and melancholy pole with
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the unrecognizable tatters of what had been a flag of
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some sort flying from it, and a neatly stacked wood pile.
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This was unexpected. We came to the bank and on
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the stack of firewood found a flat piece of board
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with some faded pencil riding on it. When deciphered, it
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said wood for you, hurry up, approach cautiously. There was
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a signature, but it was illegible, not kerts, a much
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longer word hurry up. Where up the river approached cautiously.
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We had not done so, but the warning could not
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have been meant for the place where it could only
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be found after approach. Something was wrong above, But what
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and how much? That was the question. We commented adversely
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upon the imbecility of that telegraphic style. The bush around
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said nothing, and would not let us look very far either.
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A torn curtain of red twill hung in the doorway
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of the hut and flapped sadly in our faces. The
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dwelling was dismantled, but we could see a white man
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had lived there not very long ago. There remained a
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rude table, a plank on two posts, a heap of
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rubbish reposed in a dark corner, and by the door.
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I picked up a book. It had lost its covers,
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and the pages had been thumbed into a state of
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it extremely dirty softness. But the back had been lovingly
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stitched afresh with white cotton thread, which looked clean. Yet
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it was an extraordinary find. Its title was an Inquiry
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into some points of Seamanship by a man Towser Tausen,
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some such name, master in his Majesty's Navy. The matter
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looked dreary reading enough, with illustrative diagrams and repulsive tables,
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of figures, and the copy was sixty years old. I
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handled this amazing antiquity with the greatest possible tenderness, lest
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it should dissolve in my hands. Within townshen Or Towser
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was inquiring earnestly into the breaking strain of ships, chains
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and tackle, and other such matters. Not a very enthralling book,
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but at the first glance you could see there a
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singleness of intention, an honest concern for the right way
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of going to work, which made these humble pages, thought
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out so many years ago, luminous with another than a
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professional light. The simple old sailor, with his talk of
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chains and purchases, made me forget the jungle and the
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pilgrims in a delicious sensation of having come upon something
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unmistakably real. Such a book being here was wonderful enough.
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Still more astounding were the notes penciled in the margin
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and plainly referring to the text. I couldn't believe my eyes.
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They were in cipher. Yes, it looked like a cipher fancy.
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A man lugging with him a book of that description
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into this nowhere and studying it and making notes in cipher.
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At that it was an extravagant mystery. I had been
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dimly aware for some time of a worrying noise, and
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when I lifted my eyes, I saw the woodpile was gone,
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and the manager, aided by all the pilgrims, was shouting
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at me from the river side. I
slipped the book
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into my pocket. I assure you to leave off. Reading
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was like tearing myself away from the shelter of an
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old and solid friendship. I started the lame engine ahead.
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It must be this miserable trader, this intruder, exclaimed the manager,
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looking back malevolently at the place we had left. He
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must be English. I said. It will not save him
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from getting into trouble if he is not careful, muttered
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the manager darkly. I observed, with assumed innocence, that no
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man was safe from trouble in this world. The current
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was more rapid now. The steamer seamed at her last gasp.
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The stern wheel flopped languidly, and I caught myself listening
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on the tiptoe for the next beat of the boat.
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For in sober truth, I expected the wretched thing to
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give up every moment. It was like watching the last
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flickers of a life. But still, we crawled. Sometimes I
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would pick out a tree a little way ahead to
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measure our progress towards Kurtz by, but I lost it
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invariably before we got abreast. To keep the eye so
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long on one thing was too much for human patience.
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The manager displayed a beautiful resignation. I fretted and fumed,
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and took to arguing with myself whether or no I
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would talk openly with Kurtz. But before I could come
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to any conclusion, it occurred to me that my speech,
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or my silence, indeed any action of mine, would be
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a mere futility. What did it matter what any one
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knew or ignored? What did it matter who was manager?
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One gets sometimes such a flash of insight. The essentials
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of this affair lay deep under the surface, beyond my
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reach and beyond my power of meddling. Towards the evening
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of the second day, we judged ourselves about eight miles
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from Kurtz's station. I wanted to push on, but the
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manager looked grave and told me the navigation up there
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was so dangerous that it would be advisable, the sun
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being very low already, to wait where we were till
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next morning. Moreover, He pointed out that if the warning
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to approach cautiously were to be followed, we must approach
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in daylight, not at dusk or in the dark. This
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was sensible enough. Eight miles met nearly three hours steaming
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for us, and I could also see suspicious ripples at
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the upper end of the reach. Nevertheless, I was annoyed
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beyond expression at the delay, and most unreasonably too, since
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one night more could not matter much after so many months,
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as we had plenty of wood, and caution was the
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word I brought up in the middle of the stream.
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The reach was narrow, straight, with high sides, like a
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railway cutting. The dusk came gliding into it long before
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the sun had set. The current ran smooth and swift,
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but a dumb immobility sat on the banks. The living
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trees lashed together by the creepers, and every living bush
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of the undergrowth might have been changed into stone, even
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to the slenderest twig, to the lightest leaf. It was
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not sleep. It seemed unnatural, like a state of trance.
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Not the faintest sound of any kind could be heard.
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You looked on, amazed, and began to suspect yourself of
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being deaf. Then the night came suddenly and struck you
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blind as well. About three in the morning, some large
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fish leaped, and the loud splash made me jump as
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though a gun had been fired. When the sun rose,
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there was a white fog, very warm and clammy and
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more blinding than the night. It did not shift or drive.
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It was just there standing all round you, like something solid.
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At eight or nine, perhaps it lifted as a shutter lifts.
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We had a glimpse of the towering multitude of trees,
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of the immense matted jungle, with the blazing little ball
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of the sun hanging over it, all perfectly still. And
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then the white shutter came down again, smoothly, as if
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sliding in greased grooves. I ordered the chain which we
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had begun to heave in to be paid out again
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before it stopped running with a muffled rattle. A cry,
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a very loud cry as of infinite desolation, soared slowly
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in the opaque air. It ceased. A complaining clamor modulated
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in savage discords, filled our ears. The sheer unexpectedness of
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it made my hair stir under my cap. I don't
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know how it struck the others. To me, it seemed
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as though the mist itself screamed. So suddenly, and apparently
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from all sides at once, did this tumultuous and mournful
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uproar arise. It culminated in a hurried outbreak of almost
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intolerably excessive shrieking, which stopped short, leaving us stiffened in
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a variety of silly attitudes and obstinately listening to the
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nearly as appalling and excessive silence. Good God, what is
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the meaning? Stammered at my elbow. One of the pilgrims,
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a little fat man with sandy hair and red whiskers
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who wore side spring boots and pink pig pajamas tucked
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into his socks. Two others remained open mouthed a while minute,
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then dashed into the little cabin to rush out incontinently
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and stand, to rush out incontinently and stand darting scared
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glances with winchesters at ready in their hands. What we
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could see was just the steamer we were on, her
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outlines blurred as though she had been on the point
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of dissolving, and a misty strip of water perhaps two
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feet broad around her, And that was all the rest
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of the world was nowhere, as far as our eyes
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and ears were concerned, just nowhere. Gone disappeared, swept off,
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without leaving a whisper or a shadow behind. I went
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forward and ordered the chain to be hauled in short,
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so as to be ready to trip the anchor and
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move the steamboat at once if necessary. Will they attack,
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whispered an odd voice. We will all be butchered in
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this fog, murmured another. The faces twitched with the strain,
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the hands trembled slightly, the eyes forgot to wink. It
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was very
curious to see the contrast of expressions of
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the white men and of the black fellows of our crew,
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who were as much strangers to that part of the
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river as we, though their homes were only eight hundred
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miles away. The whites, of course, greatly discomposed, had besides
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a curious look of being painfully shocked by such an
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outrageous row. The others had an alert, naturally interested expression,
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but their faces were essentially quiet, even those of the
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one or two who grinned as they hauled at the chain.
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Several exchanged short, grunting phrases, which seemed to settle the
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matter to their satisfaction. Their head man, a young, broad
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chested black, severely draped in a dark blue fringed cloths
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with fierce nostrils, and his hair all done up artfully
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in oily ringlets, stood near me. Aha, I said, just
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for good fellowship's sake, catchum, he snapped, with a blood
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shot widening of his eyes and a flash of sharp teeth.
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Catch im, give em to us, to you, eh, I asked,
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What would you do? Then? Edam? He said, curtly, and
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leaning his elbow on the rail, looked out into the
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fog in a dignified and profoundly punceive attitude. I would
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no doubt have been properly horrified had it not occurred
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to me that he and his chaps must be very hungry,
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that they must have been growing increasingly hungry for at
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least this month passed. They had been engaged for six months.
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I don't think a single one of them had had
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any clear idea of the time, as we at the
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end of countless ages have they still belonged to the
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beginnings of time, had no inherited experience to teach them
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as it were, And of course, as long as there
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was a piece of paper written over in accordance with
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some farcical law or other made down the river. It
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didn't enter anybody's head to trouble how they would live. Certainly,
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they had brought with them some rotten hippo meat, which
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couldn't have lasted very long anyway, even if the pilgrims hadn't,
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in the midst of a shocking hullabaloo, thrown a considerable
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quantity of it overboard. It looked like a high handed proceeding,
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but it was really a case of legitimate self defense.
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You can't breathe dead hippo walking, sleeping, and eating and
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at the same time keep your precarious grip on existence.
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Besides that, they had given them every week three pieces
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of brass wire, each about nine inches long, and the
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theory was they were to buy their provisions with that
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currency in riverside villages. You can see how that worked.
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There were either no villages, or the people were hostile,
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or the director, who liked the rest of us fed
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out of tins with an occasional old he go thrown in,
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didn't want to stop the steamer for some more or
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less reckoned it reason. So unless they swallowed the wire
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itself or made loops of it to snare the fishes with.
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I don't see what good their extravagant salary could be
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to them. I must say it was paid with the
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regularity worthy of a large and honorable trading company. For
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the rest, the only thing to eat, though it didn't
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look eatable in the least I saw in their possession,
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was a few lumps of some stuff like half cooked
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dough of a dirty lavender color. They kept wrapped in leaves,
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and now and then swallowed a piece of but so
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small that it seemed done more for the looks of
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the thing than for any serious purpose of sustenance. Why
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in the name of all the gnawing devils of hunger
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they didn't go for us? They were thirty to five
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and have a good tuck in for once. Amazes me
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now when I think of it. They were big, powerful men,
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with not much capacity to weigh the consequences with courage
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with strength. Even yet, though their skins were no longer
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glossy and their muscles no longer hard, and I saw
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that something restraining, one of those human secrets that bawful probability,
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had come into play there. I looked at them with
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a swift quickening of interest, not because it occurred to
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me I might be eaten by them before very long,
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though I owned to you that just then I perceived
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in a new light, as it were, how unwholesome the
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pilgrims looked. And I hoped, Yes, I positively hoped that
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my aspect was not so what shall I say, so unappetizing,
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a touch of fantastic vanity, which fitted well with the
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dream sensation that pervaded all my days at that time.
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Perhaps I had a little fever too. One can't live
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with one's finger everlastingly on one's pulse. I had often
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a little fever, or a little touch of other things,
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the playful pas strokes of the wilderness, the preliminary trifling
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before the more serious onslaught, which came in due course. Yes,
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I looked at them as you would on any human being,
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with the curiosity of their impulses, motives, capacities, weaknesses, when
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brought to the test of an inexorable physical necessity, restraint
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What possible restraint was it? Superstition, disgust, patience, fear, or
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some kind of primitive honor. No fear can stand up
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to hunger, No patience can wear it out. Disgust simply
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does not exist where hunger is. And as to superstition, beliefs,
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and what you may call principles, they are less than
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chaf in a breeze. Don't you know the devilry of
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lingering starvation, its exasperating torment, its black thoughts, its somber
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and brooding ferocity. Well, I do. It takes man all
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his inborn strength to fight hunger properly. It's really easier
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to face bereavement, dishonor, and the perdition of one's soul
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than this kind of prolonged hunger. Sad but true. And
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these chaps too, had no earthly reason for any kind
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of scruple restraint. I would just as soon have expected
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restraint from a hyaena prowling amongst the corpses of a battlefield.
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But there was the fact facing me, the fact dazzling
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to be seen, like the foam on the depths of
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the sea, like a ripple on an unfathomable enigma, a
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mystery greater when I thought of it, than the curious,
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inexplicable note of desperate grief in this savage clamor that
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had swept by us on the river bank. Behind the
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blind whiteness of the fog, end of Chapter two, Part one,