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Hi, you magical, non-conforming humans, and welcome to Healing on the Fringe, a trauma healing space for the witchy, queer, and neurodivergent souls who feel at home on society's edges.
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There are endless ways to heal, but the real magic happens when that journey is uniquely yours.
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So if you're feeling anxious, stuck, or playing small in the name of safety, know this.
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You can feel good in your body and let your true self shine.
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Hi, I'm Natalie, a queer, neurodivergent, somatic psychotherapist and hedge witch.
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And after surviving trauma and years of addiction, I found my own path to healing.
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And now I help others do the same, creating lives that are meaningful, magical, and whole.
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So let's dive in.
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I am so excited about today's conversation because we are tapping into the magic of the Autumn Equinox, also known as Mabin, for those of us witches that celebrate the pagan wheel of the year.
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And you probably guessed that fall is one of my favorite seasons.
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I adore the flavors, the scents, the coolness in the air, the falling leaves, and the festivals and sabbaths that happen during this time of year.
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So, all that being said, let's get into why I love the magic so much and how you can tap into it yourself.
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So I love fall for a lot of reasons.
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A, I've I'm a fashion girly, I love clothes, and let's let's be honest, summertime, which I am ironically recording this episode in, doesn't give a whole lot of options.
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Tank tops and shorts don't give a whole lot of options for making fun outfits.
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And I'll be honest, I'm getting bored with my closet right now.
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Um, but that is a small part of why I love this season so much.
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I really do enjoy the sensation in the air.
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I enjoy the fact that the fall tends to be one of the seasons that people really feel connected to nature in.
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Like people love to see the leaves change, people love to celebrate different festivals, Halloween, whatever that happened in this time of year.
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The food and the flavors and the baking and all of the fall products that come out in the stores are super fun and people get excited about them.
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So I think part of the reason is because I love a lot of the themes that happen this time of year, but also I think I love it because that joy is just kind of in the air, like other people are very obviously enjoying it themselves, which I like because I
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feed off of other people's energy.
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And um, so me being able to really like enjoy and embody something while others are doing it too feels really wonderful.
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And I also just love the theme of falling leaves and this idea of letting go and watching nature really just release and let go what's no longer serving her with such ease and grace, and like how much we get to learn from that process.
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Um, so Maben is the celebration, the sabat uh in the pagan wheel of the year for the fall equinox.
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So the wheel of the year has eight festivals, otherwise known as Sabbaths, and there's four of them that fall on the equinoxes and solstices, and then there are kind of middle celebrations, which are called cross-quarter festivals, which usually celebrate the peak of that season.
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So you have the celebration of the transition, so autumn equinox, also known as Mabin, is the example, is the is the one that we're going with right now.
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And then you have the like cross-cultural or the cross um quarter festival, which celebrates the peak of that season, which for the autumn is um Sawin, which happens uh on and around Halloween, which we will do another episode on, and I am so excited about that episode as well.
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And I will be honest with you, I this is my first year being aware of Maben as it's held in the pagan year of Wheel of the Year, because I was recently invited to a Lunisaw celebration, and Lunisaw is the cross um quarter festival that celebrates the start of harvest season, but also the peak of summer.
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Um, and so that took place in August, and it was the first time that I was invited to a Sabbath or a like pagan Wheel of the Year festival celebration, and I just loved it.
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We made corn husk dolls, we ate like all of the food, so that's that celebration really focuses on grains because that was is what's traditionally harvested first.
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So corn, barley, things like that.
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And we had barley tea and we had all sorts of corn and we made corn husk dolls.
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It was just like really fun, and I felt really connected to that.
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And you know, I've been practicing witchcraft for seven years at this point, and I have yet to really dive into the pagan wheel of the year, and so I'm taking it upon myself for this next year to really dive into each Sabbath and find ways to celebrate, find ways to acknowledge.
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And so Mabin is the next one, which again falls on the autumn equinox.
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And I have been learning all about the Sabbath in the Sabbath's almanac, which is uh Llewellyn's um Sabbath almanac.
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She makes very they actually, I'm not quite sure what their identity is, make all sorts of great calendars and um planners.
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Anyway, the Sabbath's almanac has been really, really great and has all sorts of recipes, and I will um link it in the show notes for you so that you can get one yourself.
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Um, so ultimately, something interesting that I was reading in The Sabbath's almanac was this idea that the harvest festivals really have started to fall off because people are not as dependent on harvests and people are not as dependent on local farmers.
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And because we can walk into a grocery store and get pretty much whatever we want, whenever we want, and any time of year.
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And so the writer who was writing about this um specific celebration of the harvest was writing about how people have really shifted away from harvest festivals and towards Christmas, uh Yule, also known as Yule in the pagan Wheel of the Year, but really shifting to um celebrations like that instead.
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And that kind of like made me sad a little bit.
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Like this colonial individual way of living that all of us have been really forced into has had us fall off from some of my favorite things to celebrate.
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And so we're gonna dive deep and in honor of going against that idea.
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Um, we are going to get into that.
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First and foremost, the autumn equinox and Maben celebrates the equilibrium and balance of light.
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So on the autumn equinox, we have the same amount of light from the sun as we do darkness from the night, right?
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So that is what's really being emphasized and celebrated during this time of year.
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Not only is it the time where the harvest is plentiful and it's time to like, you know, store and make preserves and get ready for the winter, but there's also this like very even balance of daytime and nighttime.
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And so those two things are really only in balance twice a year and finding equilibrium between giving and receiving, right?
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When we're celebrating the harvest and when we're looking at, you know, pulling the last of the veggies from the veggie garden and making herbal remedies for the winter, like firesider and things like that.
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When we're doing all of these things at these traditional festivals and celebrations and Sabbaths, we are in relationship with community and we're giving whatever medicines we're making in exchange for whatever medicines and foods and preserves and whatever other people are making.
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So there really is this like giving and receiving, and this being in community and celebrating bounty and being able to share that
with each other, especially, I think, right now, where we're all looking at how unevenly distributed resources are and how scary that can be for marginalized communities and for anyone who is trying to survive in this world, as we're looking at having to pay more for rent and having to do all of these things because of inflation and all of that.
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Can we come back to some of these practices in order to find that like soul nourishing being in community space again and have that like kind of balance between giving and receiving?
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What can I give to my community while I am receiving nourishment from my community?
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And so this can be done in a lot of different ways.
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Um, so like I said before, Maben is the second celebration of harvest, right?
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So the first harvest celebration is Lunisaw in August, um, and this is the second of those.
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And it's also a really beautiful time to think about and be present with what are you reaping right now?
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What kind of benefits are you reaping from the healing work that you have already done?
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Like, can we slow down for a moment during seasonal transitions?
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And I I like to do this for any seasonal transition, but I think this one in particular, A, because it's the one that's coming up next, and B, because it's a really powerful time, just because summer and fall is a bit of a harsher transition, right?
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We're going from like really hot weather to like cool and crisp weather, and having that moment to pause, to take a deep breath, to sit at your altar or to pull out your journal and to say, like, what am I doing now?
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And what kind of healing have I been able to gain from the work that I have done?
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Maybe you're setting boundaries better.
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Maybe you've made different decisions for how you're gonna celebrate the holidays that feel more nourishing to you than what you felt like you've quote unquote had to do in the past in order to people please or whatever.
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Right?
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So, what kind of benefits from your healing journey are you really present with and reaping the benefits of right now?
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I think is a really beautiful thing to reflect on during this time of year.
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So that you can really reflect on your progress and not in a perfectionist way, in a way that's gonna heal that inner perfectionist to say, like, oh, yeah, these are things that I maybe I want to reset better boundaries during the holidays this year.
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Um, but right now I set this other boundary where I'm on the phone less or I'm doing this, and that is
really worth celebrating.
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So, what kinds of things can you celebrate in yourself that you are reaping the benefits of right now?
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So, gratitude rituals are also very abundant during this time of year.
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I like to, you know, I don't really love the idea of celebrating Thanksgiving anymore for obvious reasons, which is one of the celebrations that we have in the autumn.
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Um, and I like to call it gratitude day at this point in my life, where I'm gonna look at the things that I am grateful for and the privileges that I hold and how I can leverage those privileges to support people who don't have the same privilege, um, while also acknowledging the hardship that a day like Thanksgiving represents.
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And we can be grateful for all of the things that we have, right?
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So creating a gratitude list for the ways in which you have healed, like things that you were like, oh, if I could heal this or if I could really get past this behavior, that would be so wonderful.
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Um, sharing appreciation for your chosen family and and your family of origin, if you have really good connections with those people and that's something that you're grateful for.
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Yes, and but also the people that you choose to have in your life, can you show appreciation for them?
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Lately, I've been doing that by making essential oil rollers for people, or I will blend up an herbal tea blend for someone and give that away.
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These are not like super, super, super expensive ways for me to nourish my community because I have these things in my home already.
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I use them for myself, and so it's like, okay, I'm just gonna take some of the herbs that I have for my own herbal tea blends in the morning, and I'm gonna use that for um making something for a friend or something like that.
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Can you do something really simple like that to support and show gratitude for the people that you choose to have in your life?
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You can also bless your living space for the next season, right?
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Like I like to redo my altar during seasonal transitions, I like to um like take the whole thing apart and clean it and bless it, and then put out a new altar cloth, put out new crystals, set new intentions, kind of do all of those things for the next season.
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And then this season, one of my favorite things to do in terms of my home is decorate for Halloween and for just the autumn in general.
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Uh Halloween is one of my favorite holidays.
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Um, and so I really like to put out all of the Halloween decorations.
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In fact, my wife and I were discussing recently using Maben, the day of the Autumn Equinox Maben, to decorate and you know, transition our living space from the summer season to the fall season in that way.
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Um, you can also tap into some seasonal foods.
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This is another really beautiful way to celebrate the season.
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So that could be using apples or squash or root vegetables or cinnamon.
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I love to go to Trader Shows and get one of those cinnamon brooms and put it out front so that when you walk into the house you smell cinnamon and you can preserve and can foods.
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If you're into that, that's not something that I particularly love to do.
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I'm not one who likes to make jam.
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Um, but you know, if you're into that kind of thing, maybe you want to think about a seasonal one that you could make, and maybe you want to make an extra big batch and you can share it with your community.
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And you could also have a potluck.
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You could have a community dinner with the the Maben theme, the hot autumn equinox theme, um, allowing everyone to contribute.
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So you're really celebrating that giving and receiving that I was talking about earlier, and you're in community, you're telling stories, you're connecting with people, and you're connecting with the food and you're connecting with the earth as it transitions from one season to another.
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Um, some other ideas that you could use to celebrate the idea of balance, right?
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If you're into yoga, you could do a yoga practice that has more um balancing poses on the autumn equinox.
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So, can you kind of celebrate the balance of dark and light through your body through a yoga practice that uses more um balancing poses?
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And can you start to look at your wardrobe?
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This is another one that I love to do is to look at my wardrobe and kind of is there a piece, a new piece in my wardrobe that I want to get, or what kind of outfits do I want to think about wearing?
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What kind of colors do I want to think about wearing?
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There's lots of great colors for the fall season, obviously, like the dark hunter greens and the um like mustard orange and things like that that um can be really fun to kind of transition how you can celebrate the autumn fall season through what you're wearing, and then creating cozy spaces obviously for introspection.
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Like, do you want to put some new pillows out in where you like to read your books?
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Do you want to um get more like squishy, cozy blankets rather than you
know, the thin or no blankets that we're using in the summertime because we're hot?
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Um some ideas.
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Um and then if you are redoing your altar, which is again one of my favorite things to do, what kind what pieces of nature can you use for your altar?
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Leaves, acorns, apples, candles.
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Um, you could put a representation of scales for the theme of balance.
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Um or you could again use some of those colors.
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I really like it.
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I have this really beautiful altar cloth that I like to use um in the fall, and it has bats on it, and it has like a really pretty gold color and black and this like really deep purple.
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Um, and it has like, you know, pomegranates and squashes and like some of those seasonal foods on there.
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Um, so there's all sorts of ways that you can kind of represent this in the work that you're doing or in the like way that you're transitioning.
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And of course, one of my very favorite rituals, a fire ceremony ritual, um, where you can write down what you're letting go of as you're watching the leaves start to fall, as you're watching nature so beautifully display how to let go, right?
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Because not only do the trees release their leaves, but those leaves go down, fall onto the ground, and they turn into really nourishing soil for that tree to continue to pull from the nutrients of its own dead leaves, right?
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So there's this very like cyclical aspect, and so how can we look at that as an internal process as well?
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So writing down some of the things that you want to let go of and being able to burn those and watch them release.
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I like to bury my ashes in the dirt in my backyard while expressing gratitude and saying some sort of mantra for being able to release and let go and some ways to support your nervous system as well, right?
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Like this writing ritual is super, super helpful, especially if you are feeling like some of that pent-up energy around some of the things that you want to let go of or need to let go of.
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Um, and let's pair that with some more really beautiful nervous system practices, such as like grounding scents.
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Oh, the fall diffuser blends are my favorite.
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Cinnamon, pine, apple.
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I mean, apple is not an essential oil, but you get my point.
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Um, clove, nutmeg, like all of those scents are super, super fun.
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And you know, sh finding practices to support your body, to support your mind, whether that's yoga or just gentle stretching or somatic intuitive movement.
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You can go back to that episode if you want to revisit what that means and how you can start practicing it today.
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But yeah, there are all sorts of simple preparations that you can make as well.
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So here are some journal prompts that you can try, which I will put these in the show notes as well.
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As you're preparing for this season, what do you need in order to navigate the changes of this seal season while feeling nourished?
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What herbs, what oils, what medicines do you want to work with this season?
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What foods and creative projects do you want to focus on?
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And how do you want to be supported by yourself and by others in your community during this time of year?
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So some daily practices you can try, morning gratitude as the sun rises, um, lighting a candle as the darkness comes at night, and like nature walks.
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I love really witnessing nature in its process in all of the seasons.
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This is something I do in all of the seasons.
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Like what for me, it's it's one or two places locally that I go to often, like more than once a week, and I really love to watch the plants and and the the life and how it transitions, what dies, what comes to life, what falls away during each season, and that's something that you can do during the fall too, if you're somewhere where you get to watch all of the leaves change, which I am not.
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I mean, we have some trees in Santa Barbara that um the leaves change, but it's not like Vermont, which I got to visit last year and was absolutely stunning.
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But yeah, there's all sorts of little ways that you can tap into the magic with herbal teas and all sorts of uh kitchen items too.
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Like I love transitioning into soup season and starting to make more soups.
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I think I might try my hand at making like a bone broth or making um sourdough.
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I've been kind of starting to feel the call to try to make sourdough, so maybe I'll try that this year.
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And I think I will leave you with that because that is a lot of options.
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And I just hope that you can find some really beautiful ways to celebrate this seasonal transition and this season.
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And I am really looking forward to this podcast really becoming more of a seasonal approach, meaning like earth seasonal.
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So you'll get a certain amount of episodes in each season as we get into the winter.
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Um, and gonna try to play around with the idea of those happening on some of these holidays or sabbats, sabbath.
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Um, I never know if I'm pronouncing that correctly or not.
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Um but really looking forward to this seasonal transition, and I hope you are too.
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So thank you so much, as always, for uh tuning in to another episode of Healing on the Fringe.
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Please remember that healing isn't linear, just like in nature cycles, there are all sorts of ways that we our healing journeys are reflected in nature.
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And so take the time to slow down, find ways to celebrate in your home, in your kitchen, with your community.
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And thank you so much for being here.
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