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Welcome back.
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Today we're heading into plague-ravaged medieval France with Christopher Buhlman's Between Two Fires, a book full of demons, suffering, terrifying encounters with the sacred, and people who somehow keep finding reasons to care for one another.
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And we loved it, which gives us an interesting place to begin.
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Peter is Buddhist.
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I'm pagan.
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And this book takes Christian cosmology seriously.
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So what happens when a story rooted in a faith you don't practice gets under your skin and breaks your heart a little?
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We're talking about a disgraced knight, a mysterious girl, and a deeply human priest.
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We're asking whether violence can protect goodness without destroying it, whether forgiveness has limits, and whether religious authority deserves our trust simply because it calls itself holy.
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And eventually we're putting a question on trial.
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Does between two fires earn its redemption?
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We'll start with a little spoiler-free love for the book, then give you fair warning before we walk straight into the darkness.
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Bring your questions.
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Apparently, we're going to need them.
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Okay, Peter.
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This is such a multi-layered book.
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I knew that I wasn't going to be able to synopsize it, so that's your job.
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Yeah, and I think that I need the uh first part of the book's help to do this, so I am going to read how this book opens up real quick.
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Now in these days the Lord God had turned his face from the business of men, and the angels who had remained loyal to him said to one another, We must look after the children of Adam, and they did so as best they could.
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Now also the third part of the angels who had rebelled looked upon the earth and saw the hand of God withdrawn from it, and the air was cold in the valleys of men, and the sea was also cold.
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And one of the fallen angels, whose name was Uziel, said, It was for man's sake that we were cast down, for we would not bend our knee to him.
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Let us test the Lord and see what he will do if we inflict their mightiest kingdoms with hunger.
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And the spikes of wheat and the ears of barley were heavy with that rain, and they fell into the mud, or withered, or went to rot, and the livestock were made sick, and they died in great numbers, and in their turn the children of Adam knew hunger, and men devoured all there was, and there was no more, and many died, and some would go into the dead yard and eat of the newly buried, and the babes born during those years who lived to be children had only twenty two teeth, and the Lord made no answer.
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Now another of the fallen, whose name was Beliel, said, It was for man's sake that the war began in heaven, so let us try them with wars in their greatest kingdoms.
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And he rose to the wells of a king who ruled a mighty island, and blew pride into his mouth.
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And then when the king spoke, he swore that he would have the crown of an even greater kingdom, which he would take with the sword.
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And so he came upon his neighbour's shore under arms and with banners.
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Now the greater king, seeing that his land was in peril, sent out a mighty host in armor of iron and silver, and they rode against the men of the island who shot them with arrows, even through their armor, and they died.
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And so the long war began, and the Lord made no answer.
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So it came that the first among the fallen, whose name was Lucifer, said, Our old enemy sleeps.
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If we do not seize this hour, we will come to the end of days as he has written them, and he will grind us under his heel and destroy us forever.
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Let us rise against him now in all our numbers, and pull the walls of heaven down, and shake out the souls of the just, and let us seize our brother angels by the throat and cast them down into hell, and let us live as once we did upon the great heights.
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But some were fearful of the power of the angels of God, whose numbers were greater, and whose generals were Uriel and Gabriel and Michael, who had broken the back of Lucifer and sent him into the hot coals in the bellies of the earth, to blacken his face with soot, and know he was lower than the Lord.
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And some were fearful that God would wake from his slumber, his drowsiness, and rack them with pains and fires even they had not learned to endure or destroy them utterly.
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And the first among the fallen spoke to them, saying, Then let us test him one more time.
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It is for man's sake that we were insulted, for his sake that we were driven out, and for his peace that we are mortared under.
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Let us break the roof of hell with our fists and murder the seed of Adam.
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For if God will not rouse himself to save his favorite creature, his sleep is deep, and we may catch him by the hair and cast him down.
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And one of the fallen, whose name was Azazel, said, Shall we kill them with fire or with cold?
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And Lucifer spoke to him, saying, Neither of these.
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What then said the wicked angel?
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With a great plague, answered Lucifer, and so it was.
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And the years that had passed since the Lord had come to be born among men were 1,348.
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So that's a fairly long way to say that this book is set in the bubonic plague era, with the backdrop of spiritual warfare going on between angels and demons.
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And the story primarily centers around three people a disgraced knight named Tomas, a mysterious young girl who speaks to angels and performs miracles named Delphine, and a compromised priest that they meet along the way.
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Named Matthew.
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Yes.
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And they go on a spiritual pilgrimage ultimately to Avignon en France and all the things that happen along the way as they sort of follow this young girl and learn to put their faith in her.
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Right.
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Okay, so we're gonna go into our copile right now and go through some of our spoiler-free things.
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And you just mentioned the three main characters, and we start with characters.
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I love this.
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It feels very Canterbury Tales meets Dante's Inferno, and I say that because of the plague aspect.
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There is this pilgrimage going on, and Tomas is good and then very, very flawed.
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And he was a knight, and now he's not a knight anymore.
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And I love him as a character because he's very vulnerable, he's sometimes childish, but at his heart, still noble in what he wants to do.
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And so I love Tomas.
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I love Delphine, she is a mysterious character.
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She's like a, I don't know, very ambiguous character.
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We can't quite define her for a long time, and then pieces start falling into place.
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So it's very mysterious in that way.
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And then my favorite character in a lot of ways was Matthew, the priest, because he represented the church on this pilgrimage, but he knew himself to be what the church would consider a sinner.
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He knew himself to be very fallible, and it is just a real journey for him to recognize and see himself, as well as the journey for Tomas and Delphine.
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So I really loved all three of the main characters.
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Of course, there are other characters, but those are really the ones that you become attached to.
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Right.
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Yeah.
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And they represent three different aspects of faith.
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Tomas is deeply disillusioned with his faith and with mankind in general.
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Right.
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Delphine is clearly all about her faith.
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I mean, she is in touch with angels themselves and she just believes with her whole heart.
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And then there's Matthew, who represents the best intentions of a person with faith, yet deeply flawed in many ways.
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Right.
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And I thought that was an interesting balance of caricature in this story.
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And they are the three main characters, which therefore they're the three developed characters in the story.
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Right.
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And I feel like in a lot of ways, and I know I get like this a lot, I got like this with Lord of the Flies, and there are a lot of times where I'm looking for these biblical illusions because they're so prevalent in literature.
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But I feel like it's very Trinitarian.
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And if I were going to make it very Trinitarian, you know, I would clearly put Tomas kind of in a father state, and then we'll go on from there.
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But I I feel like there's a Trinitarian thing going on.
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Yeah, I think you might be right with that intentionally, yeah.
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So atmosphere-wise, oh my God.
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Uh he does so well with creating the atmosphere in this, it really could make you sick to your stomach.
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Right.
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I mean, the historical details.
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Yeah.
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I'm a history person, and so I mean, it was spot on.
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I always worry when a book's gonna go into historical fiction that it's going to just mess it up.
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And he knew his stuff.
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This is very medieval, it's very much the plague, and then it has all the historical characters in it too.
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And it manages to include all of those details without becoming bland, without feeling like he's showing off his historical knowledge.
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Yeah, it's not verbose in that way.
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Accurate to the the horror of the plague.
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Right.
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And then therefore, the writing I thought I love the writing.
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It it felt so poetic.
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It was just so beautiful.
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I mean, even that little part that I read in the beginning, I just thought that that was so it was poetry, you know, and the Lord made no answer, and the Lord still made no answer.
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I mean, it just
reminded me of poetry.
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Right.
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Well, he is a poet as well.
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Christopher Buhlman is.
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So he does definitely have that poetic sense.
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And I'm with you, you know, sometimes things can become very burdensome if someone gets too poetic, if someone gets too historical.
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This is such a beautiful blend.
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Now, in fairness, the first part of the book I felt like I was plodding along, but I kind of felt like that's the way you were supposed to feel as they were starting their journey, and they really had no sense of purpose.
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And so there were times where I felt very much like, oh my goodness, like this is painful.
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Like all the things they're going through, and it kind of went on this slower pace.
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And then the last half of the book, it just picked up and flew forward with all the things that were happening and kind of all the climactic moments and everything else.
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And that is not a criticism negatively of the book.
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It's just it really takes you on that journey as a reader.
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And so I wasn't sure if I'd like it at first, and then I was like sold.
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I think that's very intentional.
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It's one of the main themes of this book, journey before destination.
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Uh-huh.
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And I think we'll discuss that later on.
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But this book is all about the journey.
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And so I I really believe it had to feel that way for us to develop along with the characters and change as they change.
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Uh, plot-wise, oh boy, this plot is so intricate and gets better and better and better.
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Like you say, at first we're like, okay, what's going on here?
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Yeah, what's happening?
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But the further they they take this journey in faith, the more they begin to put their faith in Delphine, the more things begin to happen.
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Right.
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The faster things begin to happen.
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It's their resistance at first that slows down their progress.
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And Delphine's growth is in tandem with that, right?
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Yes.
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So Delphine has to grow and then they have to put their trust in her on some level.
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And so it's like this dual thing going on.
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And I think he does a beautiful job of marrying all these different elements in these characters and these plot
lines, both the fantasy horror with the historical.
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And the plot just is is well conceived.
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He had to have mapped that out all over the wall or something.
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I mean, it is very complex.
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And intrigue, the intrigue comes from okay, what is the demon's agenda here on Earth with man and the machinations that they are putting into play to basically torment and deceive mankind in the midst of this horrible plague?
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And also Delphine, what is her relationship in all of this?
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At times she seems to be taken over by another person, and it's like, what's going on there?
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Where is her power coming from?
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Why her?
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Why has she been chosen for this?
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Right.
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And then also Tomas' background and the horrible things that happen to him that get revealed very slowly.
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And there is definitely an intrigue related to who he is, who he will become, you know, what his journey is all about.
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And so I feel like he's a very mysterious character.
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And Mathew is kind of hanging out there in a lot of ways.
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People are constantly airing his dirty laundry, and he's very vulnerable the entire journey.
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But there is an element of intrigue with him as well to really know who he is as a person.
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So it really is an intrigue of character discovery and then coming upon that ultimate spiritual conflict.
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Logic.
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I this, okay, so obviously we're dealing with supernatural elements.
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Okay, so that throws logic out the window in certain circumstances.
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However, I think the logic really comes into play with the pace of the journey.
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Did we move too fast from one place to another?
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Did we go from doubt to faith too quickly and unbelievably?
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And I feel like there was just enough pushback from Tomas and even Matthew uh to make that feel logical to me.
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Like they they really do struggle.
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They push back very often.
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And even when they see certain things, it changes them only so much until they see more and more and more, and then they cannot deny.
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And so I do think he felt he followed a logical progression.
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Right.
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I think that is very, very true.
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Now, that is not to say there won't be times in this book when you're like, what the hell is happening?
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Sometimes literally, and you'll be wondering like, how is this and what?
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And are they dreaming?
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Like, or is this like a real thing that's happening?
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So there are those moments because that's what you're dealing with when you're dealing with the magical realism slash fantasy elements in this story, but it is very human.
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And in that way, the progression of these characters is beautifully realistic and logical.
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And I enjoyed it very much.
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Yeah, the enjoyment part right there at the end, I did.
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Like I enjoyed this so much that I immediately went to school and in my department, I looked at one of my um colleagues that I know loves this type of literature, and I was like, you have to read this.
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You have to read this so we can discuss it.
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And he's already read it and we have been discussing it because it is such a good book.
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So, yes, enjoyment was there 100%.
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And without spoiling the ending, you know, this would be one of those books that you might feel trepidatious about reading because it just sounds so dark and heavy, and ultimately you fear it's just gonna be so tragic, and you're just gonna be left with this feeling of, ugh.
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And I was not left with that feeling.
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I left, I left with great inner peace over the ending.
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Right.
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I agree.
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So if you're worried at all, you've seen the cover of this book, you've read the name, you've seen the medieval horror thing, and you're worried at all about being left with that icky feeling that Peter is talking about, don't worry about that.
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There's certainly going to be very disturbing moments in this book, but I think you'll be happy with the ending too.
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And for those people who don't like to be scared by what they read, did you feel like this book was scary?
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No, I never had that moment.
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I mean, it was scary, but in a spiritual human sense, not in a gratuitous, like I was gonna jump out of my seat sense.
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I mean, I listened to this as I was driving around doing Amazon Flex in the dark, and I wasn't feeling scared.
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And you know I'm a scaredy cat when it comes to that stuff.
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Right.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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So it's good.
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Yeah.
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So you
can you can do this.
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All right.
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On that note, we are going to leave our spoiler-free section.
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We have so much to talk about.
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So we will catch you on the flip side.
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All right, Peter.
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So the two of us reading this book feels a little like a joke, like a Buddhist, a pagan, and a Christian walked into a bar or went on a trip together.
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So I think we need to address some of the spiritual aspects of this.
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I'm gonna kick it over to you to talk about that a little bit.
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Yeah, I think I think we have to get a little personal in this episode in order to really dive deep into the themes of this book and the messages that we got out of it.
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Without this being an attack on Christianity, right, in any way, shape, or form, I really feel like my journey to deconstruct my Christian faith and the message of this book really correlate with one another well.
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And in order to get into that message, I I'll just tell you as briefly as possible how I deconstructed my faith.
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So as a Christian, I became a Christian primarily because of the teachings of Jesus and the works of Jesus spoke to me.
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And so throughout my young adulthood to adulthood and my studying of the Bible, I always read the Bible through the lens of Jesus' teaching.
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Right.
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So my understanding of the old covenant was always seen through the eyes of the new covenant.
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Right.
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And that is how I lived my faith out and the values that formed who I am were formed through Jesus' teachings.
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And so it wasn't until later on in life when I began to see that there were many people who called themselves Christians who seemed to do it the opposite way.
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Right.
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And they would interpret the new covenant through the lens of the old covenant.
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And that allowed them to support their conservative ideals and their conservative values.
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Or they're just personal agendas, conservative or not.
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It was very self, it could be very self-serving.
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And I saw that not only did a lot of Christians fall under that umbrella, but the church itself as an organization seemed to embrace that attitude and that mindset, both politically and spiritually, towards the Bible, which caused me to then step back and drop that lens that I always saw the Bible through, that that apologetics lens that I always read the Old Testament through.
00:18:57.599 --> 00:19:08.480
And apologetics, if you do not know that word, is the term used to describe the theological defense of certain parts of Scripture or dogma of your faith.
00:19:08.639 --> 00:19:09.279
Uh that are challenged.
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Yes.
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The theological explanations to basically explain certain parts of scripture that are complicated or problematic, some might say, and certain dogmas.
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And as I dropped that lens and just started reading the Old Testament or Old Covenant on its own merit, I saw in in no way, shape, or form could the teachings of Jesus and the teachings of Judaism be blended.
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Yes, be uh compatible with one another.
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In no way, shape, or form could they be compatible.
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And when I started looking at the data instead of the dogma, it all started falling apart.
00:19:43.839 --> 00:19:59.519
And so then I was left with the teachings of Jesus, the red letter parts of the Bible, and those values, and that slowly started to draw me towards another spirituality, and that was Buddhism, because I felt like it lines so much more up with the teachings of Jesus than Judaism does.
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And so that's kind of how I made that transition.
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Yeah.
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And without going into the same details necessarily, I deconstructed in a very similar way for very similar reasons.
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And it was really that kind of duplicity, the hypocrisy, and then looking and breaking down what that really looks like and what people value and how that plays out.
00:20:22.159 --> 00:20:29.439
And I just really struggled to reconcile Christianity, the teachings of Jesus, the way the church acted everything out.
00:20:29.519 --> 00:20:31.599
So yes, the deconstruction was very similar.
00:20:31.759 --> 00:20:36.879
I landed with paganism basically because it takes us all the way back to our
roots.
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And I felt like we came to a point as human beings where we began to divide and parse out religion.
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And it wasn't about just goodness and the things that we should be doing or the things that were right to interact with the earth and with man.
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I feel like it became so much human agenda woven into religion, and we divided it up so much that I wonder if religion is not a vast sea, or if faith is not a vast sea.
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And religion is a contaminant.
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Religion is this effort to try to contain the sea, and it's not that.
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And so I have to go all the way back to the roots, which are just the simple interaction with nature and the universe and our relationship with one another and with our environment and with what's around us.
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And so that's where I end up landing.
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But that whole parsing out of trying to put the sea in a bunch of different glasses, which is a semi-allusion to Glenn and Doyle's memoir that she wrote, but I just can't do that.
00:21:38.720 --> 00:21:39.599
Yeah, I agree.
00:21:39.679 --> 00:21:43.519
And I don't see Buddhism as a religion, I see it as a philosophy.
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Right.
00:21:44.079 --> 00:21:48.879
And I see paganism very much in the same way because you don't have to act in one particular way.
00:21:48.960 --> 00:21:52.960
To be pagan is simply not to be part of any of the major world religions.
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Right.
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And and spiritually speaking, I think it is one of the only paths of spirituality that specifically seeks to empower women in a spiritual way.
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Clearly, I'm drawn to that.
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But the reason why we we bring this up is because Christopher Buellman is a self-identified agnostic.
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He calls himself a red letter believer.
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And he also has made statements of how he believes that the teachings of Jesus blend well with Buddhism.
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And so that really resonated with me.
00:22:21.119 --> 00:22:28.799
And the reason why I think that is and how it correlates with the book is because I think one of the main messages of this book is about action.
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Right.
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That that faith is not passive.
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Right.
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That God shows up in you.
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And it's as they take this journey, the more they take steps in faith, the more Delphine specifically, her power grows.
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And when they take faith in that relationship and they interact with people around them and they exercise goodness.
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All of those things kind of play out.
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And so that very much gels with that idea of Buddhism and doing the most good in those moments.
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Buddhism is all about mindful living.
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It is not about passively doing good.
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It is about examining yourself in every aspect possible.
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Your thoughts, your intentions, your words, your action, what you do for a living, who you keep company with.
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All of those things are constantly examined because all of those things have an effect on your life and on the world around you, like a butterfly effect in a sense.
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That's what karma is.
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Karma is essentially a spiritual butterfly effect.
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Right.
00:23:25.759 --> 00:23:27.599
And so why are we so caught up on this?
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It's really because this feels like at different points, if you simply looked at it on the surface, that we're on this Christian journey of sorts and we end with this Christian ending in a lot of ways, which we will not talk about right this moment.
00:23:41.439 --> 00:23:42.960
But it can feel like that.
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And so I want to be clear about kind of where Christopher Buellman is going with this kind of philosophical theological approach.
00:23:51.359 --> 00:23:53.039
And I think that's essential to the book.
00:23:53.279 --> 00:23:53.359
Right.
00:23:53.439 --> 00:23:56.559
I see when I read this, I expected medieval horror.
00:23:56.720 --> 00:23:56.960
Right.
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And I got Pilgrim's Progress.
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Right.
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And you don't know what that is.
00:24:01.119 --> 00:24:03.599
That's a Christian allegory, but you know, we digress.
00:24:03.839 --> 00:24:10.399
So I I think that was very that that is very crucial to this book, is that they're they're waiting for God to show up and save them.
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They're waiting for divine intervention, and it does not come until the human element, which is Delphine, Thomas, and Matthew, step out in faith and take this journey.
00:24:21.599 --> 00:24:22.000
Right.
00:24:22.240 --> 00:24:24.879
So this is not a, you know, God swoops down.
00:24:24.960 --> 00:24:29.119
It's like the Ducex Machina, like God swoops down and he fixes everything.
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That's not how this works.
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And Christopher Buhmann makes that very clear.
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So when we talk this idea of taking action in the world, taking action for good, one of the things we have to discuss right away is how Tomas and Delphine really come together.
00:24:44.720 --> 00:24:50.559
And it is in a lot of ways against Tomas' will and somewhat accidental at the same time.
00:24:50.879 --> 00:25:00.720
So she is a young girl in this plague-ravaged area, and her father, her family has died, clearly, and she's left there all alone.
00:25:00.799 --> 00:25:22.240
Somehow she has survived, and she comes across Tomas and this crew of bandits, mercenaries, scavengers, brigands, brigands, who are eating her donkey, and which is very interesting symbolically, but they're eating her donkey, and she's like, You're eating my friend, basically.
00:25:22.399 --> 00:25:25.439
This is this is my only other living companion here.
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And as one would expect, some of these men are ill-intentioned.
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They see this young girl, and she is a girl, and she is a potential object of lust.
00:25:35.679 --> 00:25:42.399
And Tomas stands out right away because he is the one man that cannot stomach that type of action.
00:25:42.559 --> 00:25:50.720
One of the things I notice about Tomas is he has the streak of nobility, honor, maybe even the heroic.
00:25:50.879 --> 00:25:53.039
But in this moment, he's very reactionary.
00:25:53.119 --> 00:25:58.159
And he does end up quote unquote saving her, but it's not really intentional action.
00:25:58.319 --> 00:25:58.559
Right.
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And then after that, he it wants to be done with her.
00:26:02.240 --> 00:26:02.559
Right.
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Absolutely.
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Like, go away.
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I have saved you, but now you can go about your business.
00:26:07.519 --> 00:26:12.559
But the angel tells the girl that she has to go with Tomas, and he's like, Oh, great, she's crazy too.
00:26:12.720 --> 00:26:15.439
And she insists, and he sort of gets saddled with her.
00:26:15.679 --> 00:26:16.159
Right.
00:26:16.399 --> 00:26:24.559
And he is going his own way, and he intends to leave her with the first stable family that he finds in the next town.
00:26:24.799 --> 00:26:24.960
Yeah.
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And it doesn't quite go that way.
00:26:27.119 --> 00:26:35.919
No, she is a permanent picture in his life from this point forward, but she's definitely holding on with both hands, both arms, both feet and legs.
00:26:36.079 --> 00:26:38.159
She's she's firmly entwined around him.
00:26:38.240 --> 00:26:39.439
She refuses to let him go.
00:26:39.679 --> 00:26:42.639
And she definitely gets a little angelic help in doing that.
00:26:42.879 --> 00:26:43.279
Correct.
00:26:43.519 --> 00:26:52.799
So they go on this unintentional journey with one another, and they come across this small village where they seek shelter with one of the local priests, which is Matthew.
00:26:53.119 --> 00:26:53.439
Matthew.
00:26:53.679 --> 00:26:54.000
Matthew.
00:26:54.240 --> 00:26:54.559
Matthew.
00:26:54.799 --> 00:26:55.119
Matthew.
00:26:55.359 --> 00:26:55.839
Sounds like okay.
00:26:55.919 --> 00:26:56.480
It's very French.
00:26:57.599 --> 00:26:57.679
Yeah.
00:26:57.839 --> 00:26:58.159
Matthew.
00:26:58.240 --> 00:26:59.039
They come across
Matthew.
00:26:59.359 --> 00:27:00.480
Yes, we'll just go with that.
00:27:00.720 --> 00:27:02.639
And this is this compromise priest.
00:27:02.720 --> 00:27:03.919
He's clearly an alcoholic.
00:27:04.079 --> 00:27:04.319
Yes.
00:27:04.559 --> 00:27:06.720
But he's definitely a man of faith.
00:27:06.879 --> 00:27:13.199
He definitely is still doing good in the midst of everyone else abandoning all these people, the flock.
00:27:13.519 --> 00:27:17.039
All of his superiors have either died or hidden themselves away.
00:27:17.199 --> 00:27:20.159
Anyone with any kind of power has sort of abandoned the whole village.
00:27:20.240 --> 00:27:25.279
And he's the only one still sort of there to offer mass and last rites, and he's doing his very best.
00:27:25.439 --> 00:27:35.199
And he takes them in for the night, and then he tells them the story about this strange river monster that everybody's afraid of that is just eating people alive like whole, just like biting them in two.
00:27:35.279 --> 00:27:44.000
And it's this outrageous story, but no one's been brave enough to actually go and slay this monster and free the townsfolk from the fear that this monster has brought upon them.
00:27:44.159 --> 00:27:50.319
And so Tomas agrees that in the morning he will head out and he will attempt to slay this monster.
00:27:50.480 --> 00:27:54.079
Well, unwillingly initially, because he has no desire to do this.
00:27:54.240 --> 00:28:03.359
And then he finally decides, no, I actually have to take intentional action, which one wonders how much influence Delphine is already having on him at that point.
00:28:03.679 --> 00:28:13.439
But the fact that he feels motivated to step forth and do this is really intentionally significant in this particular moment in the book.
00:28:13.599 --> 00:28:18.079
But before we get there entirely, I feel like I want to talk about Matthew for just a second.
00:28:18.240 --> 00:28:20.079
Matthew is a challenging character.
00:28:20.240 --> 00:28:20.559
Okay.
00:28:20.799 --> 00:28:25.599
If you're someone like me, and maybe someone like Peter, but I'm speaking for myself at the moment.
00:28:25.759 --> 00:28:27.599
I initially wanted to dislike Matthew.
00:28:27.679 --> 00:28:30.000
I'm like, he's a symbol of the church, he's a priest.
00:28:30.159 --> 00:28:31.679
This guy's going to annoy me.
00:28:31.839 --> 00:28:34.720
You know, what is his real agenda that's going on?
00:28:34.960 --> 00:28:40.240
From a Christian perspective, however, and there's always that dual nature operating within my person.
00:28:40.399 --> 00:28:43.279
From a Christian perspective, you're like, is this guy really a Christian?
00:28:43.439 --> 00:28:44.319
I mean, look at him.
00:28:44.480 --> 00:28:47.759
He's an alcoholic, he's good for nothing in that way.
00:28:48.000 --> 00:28:52.079
And clearly he just has no bravery in this moment either.
00:28:52.240 --> 00:28:56.240
He's looking to Tomas, and we discover some other things about him as well.
00:28:56.319 --> 00:28:59.599
And I'm like, so the Christian side of me is going, sinner.
00:29:00.079 --> 00:29:03.759
And the pagan side of me is going, oh, member of the church.
00:29:03.919 --> 00:29:10.480
And so Matthew, when he's first introduced, becomes an interesting character for the reader to reconcile themselves with.
00:29:10.639 --> 00:29:12.879
And that becomes increasingly so throughout the book.
00:29:12.960 --> 00:29:18.559
But yes, the river monster is really Tomas' first intentional action for good.
00:29:18.799 --> 00:29:23.519
And I think it becomes the symbol of him facing his inner demons.
00:29:23.679 --> 00:29:34.960
I think I compared this book to Pilgrim's Progress earlier, and I think that's that's very true because in Pilgrim's Progress, Pilgrim comes across these different moments where his faith is challenged.
00:29:35.039 --> 00:29:37.119
Like he has to fight these literal monsters.
00:29:37.359 --> 00:29:37.679
Right.
00:29:37.919 --> 00:29:42.319
And each time it teaches him to rely upon a different aspect of his faith.
00:29:42.480 --> 00:29:48.079
And in a similar way, the same thing happens to Tomas as he goes on this journey with Delphine.
00:29:48.240 --> 00:29:54.240
In this case, I think it is his feeling as though he can no longer do any good in the world.
00:29:54.480 --> 00:29:54.720
Right.
00:29:54.799 --> 00:30:09.279
It's really a facing these challenges to reconcile himself, to be able to see himself and be able to know what ability he has to do the right thing anymore because he's been doing the wrong thing for so long.
00:30:09.439 --> 00:30:14.480
And so this really isn't about him, you know, recognizing his Christianity.
00:30:14.799 --> 00:30:16.799
No, it's the moment he becomes a knight again.
00:30:17.119 --> 00:30:17.359
Right.
00:30:17.439 --> 00:30:21.839
The moment he becomes a knight, and a knight does good things, and a knight is supposed to help people.
00:30:22.000 --> 00:30:25.839
And Tomas has for a long time not operated in that way.
00:30:26.000 --> 00:30:39.199
But in this moment of handling the river monster, motivated by Delphine and Matthew, he goes in to actually do something for the people of that village, which is a very unique moment in his life and a turning point.
00:30:39.439 --> 00:30:39.679
Right.
00:30:39.759 --> 00:30:44.399
And and and as he faces this monster, which is clearly a demonic being, right?
00:30:44.639 --> 00:30:47.279
It has several different unusual aspects of it.
00:30:47.439 --> 00:31:00.319
It is a giant snake with spines, and it has a hand for a tail, and it's able to speak, and it's able to mock him and try to discourage him as he fights it, which I thought was very significant.
00:31:00.480 --> 00:31:08.240
The fact that this demon is trying to beat him down, to beat down his courage, to beat down his virtue, and to kill the confidence in himself.
00:31:08.799 --> 00:31:18.079
Well, it's the inner doubt and the inner evil, the inner inner nature of being selfish and everything else that is coming out to throw itself in his face.
00:31:18.399 --> 00:31:19.599
You are corrupt.
00:31:19.759 --> 00:31:21.919
You are incapable of doing this.
00:31:22.240 --> 00:31:24.559
And that is everything the river monster is.
00:31:24.639 --> 00:31:27.679
So I feel like when he's fighting the river monster, he's really fighting himself.
00:31:27.919 --> 00:31:32.240
Yeah, I think I think it's how the demons want him to see himself.
00:31:32.399 --> 00:31:32.559
Right.
00:31:32.879 --> 00:31:33.599
The ugliness in him.
00:31:34.159 --> 00:31:36.079
And how he's probably seen himself as well.
00:31:36.399 --> 00:31:39.199
Yeah, because he's done monstrous things as a brigand.
00:31:39.279 --> 00:31:46.559
He hasn't crossed certain lines, but he's certainly turned a blind eye to certain other horrible acts, even if he didn't participate in general.
00:31:46.720 --> 00:31:54.720
He's sort of given up on himself and in humanity and morality in general until he comes across Delphine, and then it's just too much.
00:31:54.799 --> 00:31:55.759
That's his breaking point.
00:31:55.839 --> 00:31:56.559
She's a child.
00:31:56.720 --> 00:31:58.000
She's like 12, I think.
00:31:58.240 --> 00:31:58.480
Right.
00:31:58.720 --> 00:32:03.359
And then, so, like you said, kind of against his better judgment, against his will, he acts.
00:32:03.519 --> 00:32:09.279
But this is the point where I think he takes intention to actually be a good person again, once more.
00:32:09.359 --> 00:32:10.639
And that's when he becomes a knight.
00:32:10.879 --> 00:32:11.039
Right.
00:32:11.119 --> 00:32:18.399
And it's not that he doesn't have doubts from this point forward, because this is a very human journey for Tomas, and he continues to doubt himself.
00:32:18.559 --> 00:32:22.799
He continues to want to kind of run the opposite direction of the things Delphine wants him to do.
00:32:22.960 --> 00:32:29.119
He wants to do it in his own way, which is sometimes very violent, you know, so he's not without those continuing flaws.
00:32:29.279 --> 00:32:37.359
So this isn't a moment that radically changes his person, but it is his first intentional action for good, and it is his road to redemption.
00:32:37.599 --> 00:32:46.799
And because of the fallout from this, a very, very obvious miracle has to occur in order for them to move on.
00:32:46.879 --> 00:32:50.399
And when it does occur, then he fully commits to the pilgrimage.
00:32:50.559 --> 00:32:50.799
Right.
00:32:50.960 --> 00:32:52.000
But then they come to the next challenge.
00:32:52.079 --> 00:32:52.319
Okay.
00:32:52.399 --> 00:32:55.119
So the demons are going, okay, fine, you're a knight.
00:32:55.199 --> 00:32:56.399
Let's we can work with that.
00:32:56.559 --> 00:32:58.000
And there's this weird part in the book.
00:32:58.079 --> 00:32:59.359
That's the weirdest part of the book for me.
00:32:59.679 --> 00:33:00.159
But really?
00:33:00.319 --> 00:33:01.119
That's the weirdest?
00:33:01.359 --> 00:33:01.519
Yeah.
00:33:02.000 --> 00:33:02.960
Well, I mean, I don't know.
00:33:03.039 --> 00:33:05.839
We all have our own things where I'm like, okay, what the hell is going on here?
00:33:06.079 --> 00:33:09.919
But they they they come across this castle in the middle of a field, right?
00:33:10.079 --> 00:33:10.159
Right.
00:33:10.480 --> 00:33:16.000
Delphine says, Don't go in there, but they're tired, they're hungry, they're starving to death, and then like, no, we can we're gonna stay.
00:33:16.079 --> 00:33:16.720
And she refuses.
00:33:16.879 --> 00:33:20.559
She's gonna, I'll stay in this tree tonight if you insist upon going in there.
00:33:20.720 --> 00:33:21.599
But don't blame me.
00:33:21.679 --> 00:33:22.799
I warned you essentially.
00:33:22.960 --> 00:33:23.199
Right.
00:33:23.359 --> 00:33:28.000
And and they go in there, and it's sort of this seven deadly sins situation.
00:33:28.240 --> 00:33:28.720
It is.
00:33:28.960 --> 00:33:31.839
And and and it's just full-on debauchery.
00:33:32.000 --> 00:33:44.720
But not only that, it's this it's this poking at his desire to not just be a knight, but to be a knight with honor, to be a knight with respect, to be a knight that gets his glory back.
00:33:44.879 --> 00:34:02.639
And so the demons set up this sort of jousting tournament, which they use to again try to beat him down, to point out all his flaws, all the things he cannot do, all his weaknesses, to make fun of his lowly birth because he's not born of nobility.
00:34:02.799 --> 00:34:07.919
He was made a knight under very specific circumstances, and they bring all of that back up.
00:34:08.240 --> 00:34:14.000
And his pain for being made a cuckold by another nobleman who stole his wife and his lands and his title.
00:34:14.240 --> 00:34:14.480
Right.
00:34:14.639 --> 00:34:26.000
And all that all that is brought to bear upon him, and it's this really strange, horrific situation involving zombies and and all kinds of stuff.
00:34:26.159 --> 00:34:28.720
Like it it really is like a fever dream.
00:34:28.880 --> 00:34:36.559
Like as he's going through it, I'm like, oh my God, this is like the worst type of nightmare anyone can possibly have, and he can't quite get out of it.
00:34:36.720 --> 00:34:45.920
It's like he's on loop, like the moment where he tries to get through the castle and then he comes out in the same exact room where he started from, and you're like, that's what I knew.
00:34:46.000 --> 00:34:58.559
I'm like, this is a psychological journey, this is psychological torture, and and he is trapped inside his own misgivings, his own doubt, his own guilt, and his own inability to find his way forward.
00:34:58.799 --> 00:35:00.960
And fortunately, he does make it out of this.
00:35:01.199 --> 00:35:04.960
And let's just make it clear, he he's also sharing this delusion with Matthew.
00:35:05.679 --> 00:35:13.679
Yes, because Matthew is in a similar spot because he's equally equally compromised, equally questioning whether he's even a priest anymore.
00:35:14.000 --> 00:35:14.159
Right.
00:35:14.319 --> 00:35:23.440
Because it they ply him all night long with alcohol until he is debauching himself with another man because we get the impression that he's a gay priest.
00:35:23.759 --> 00:35:25.119
And this is his great shame.
00:35:25.360 --> 00:35:25.679
Right.
00:35:25.840 --> 00:35:27.920
Because he's been told that's his great shame.
00:35:28.079 --> 00:35:28.400
Right.
00:35:28.559 --> 00:35:28.799
Right.
00:35:29.039 --> 00:35:33.039
So did you get the impression, like, I'm sorry, this is just a moment of humor.
00:35:33.119 --> 00:35:49.440
And for those of us that are Gen X and have watched a lot of Monty Python, like I felt the whole scene in the Holy Grail where they come up to the French people that are hurling insults at them, except in this case, they're nice to them to draw them into the castle and then like throw all this random crap at them.
00:35:49.519 --> 00:35:52.480
And that's what I felt like when I was going into this moment.
00:35:52.719 --> 00:35:57.039
I actually, I actually it's thought of the same movie, but Castle Anthrax instead.
00:35:57.279 --> 00:35:58.319
Okay, that makes sense.
00:35:58.559 --> 00:35:59.920
That absolutely makes sense.
00:36:00.239 --> 00:36:14.319
So it is just really weird, but it does represent a very, if we want to analyze it from a psychoanalytic perspective, which again, literature nerd, but if we really want to criticize it in that way, this is very much a psychological moment.
00:36:14.480 --> 00:36:21.840
Whether it's Freudian or Jungian or whatever it is, it is it is a psychological journey in this weird fever dream that he has.
00:36:22.079 --> 00:36:25.920
So he comes out of the fever dream, and then we have to move forward from there.
00:36:26.079 --> 00:36:30.880
And do you think he comes out with a renewed sense of confidence because he overcomes it?
00:36:31.039 --> 00:36:34.000
Or is he shaken by that moment?
00:36:34.239 --> 00:36:36.079
I think he's shaken by that moment.
00:36:36.239 --> 00:36:40.400
I think he comes out with a new sense of confidence in Delphine.
00:36:40.559 --> 00:36:44.799
And okay, the next time she tells me I shouldn't do something, I'm not gonna do it.
00:36:45.199 --> 00:36:46.960
But no, I I I think it gets to him.
00:36:47.119 --> 00:36:56.880
I think it gets to him because he's still got this desire for revenge, he's still got a lot of pain that he's carrying and anger, and it opens up a lot of wounds in him.
00:36:57.119 --> 00:36:57.279
Right.
00:36:57.360 --> 00:36:59.599
And I think I think that has to happen, right?
00:36:59.840 --> 00:37:08.239
Because that was all stuff he'd suppressed, and now it has to come to the surface because until it comes to the surface, he can't really start to deal with it.
00:37:08.400 --> 00:37:13.599
And so, on some level, Delphine told him not to go in, knowing he was gonna go in.
00:37:13.759 --> 00:37:18.719
But I think going into that moment was absolutely necessary for the steps that he takes after this.
00:37:18.960 --> 00:37:19.279
I agree.
00:37:19.440 --> 00:37:26.559
So the next interesting thing that happens in the book is takes place in another city that they come to, and it's interesting.
00:37:26.880 --> 00:37:32.719
The city is being tormented at night by something that is killing anyone that's in the street.
00:37:32.960 --> 00:37:34.400
Right, and this is Paris, by the way.
00:37:34.719 --> 00:37:35.279
It is Paris.
00:37:35.360 --> 00:37:35.599
Yes.
00:37:35.840 --> 00:37:45.519
And it turns out that the statues of the saints in front of the church come alive and walk down the street just slaughtering anyone who's outside.
00:37:45.759 --> 00:37:58.639
And and so the statues, he opens the door to these statues because he gets tricked thinking there's a baby, there's a baby out there, and Mary comes in and she swinging a dead baby's body from her arm.
00:37:58.719 --> 00:38:02.559
The statue of Mary comes in, very again fever dreamish, but go ahead.
00:38:02.799 --> 00:38:07.360
And slaughters everyone, and he has to fight these impossibly to kill monsters, monsters.
00:38:09.279 --> 00:38:13.519
And I felt like what it was was it was a mockery of the saints, right?
00:38:13.679 --> 00:38:20.480
It was a mockery of human icons of goodness, right, but also religious icons of goodness.
00:38:20.639 --> 00:38:29.279
This is the ultimate challenge to the church and and really exemplifying for me the corruption of those icons.
00:38:32.400 --> 00:38:32.799
Right.
00:38:33.039 --> 00:38:45.199
And so that church corruptions, it's very creepy because Tomas ends up going by that church the next day and seeing all those statues repositioned and the horrible things associated with them.
00:38:45.360 --> 00:38:46.639
And they're all like holding dead children.
00:38:46.799 --> 00:39:03.679
Yeah, they're all holding dead children, and it really shows that horrific corruption of what is considered quote unquote holy ground, and really get the feeling that the only holy ground that exists in that picture is what Tomas is carrying in the cart with him, which is Delphine.
00:39:04.000 --> 00:39:11.199
And everything there is just corrupted and nasty, and it's just this really disturbing moment.
00:39:11.360 --> 00:39:36.239
So for me, that really challenges the religious institution and what we claim to be holy, quote unquote, things that call themselves holy, and it shows the damage that can do because of all those dead children, because of the dead people in the house, because in that moment when he opens the door, the Virgin Mary kills this potential mother and father that Delphine has actually found.
00:39:36.400 --> 00:39:42.880
And of course, that's very plot-driven as well, because she has to keep moving forward, but it is also very symbolic.
00:39:43.039 --> 00:39:53.119
So I want to go back to that Trinitarian thing I started to say during the first part of the podcast and really identify how I apply that Trinitarian idea in this moment.
00:39:53.360 --> 00:39:57.519
And for me, Tomas is God the Father.
00:39:57.759 --> 00:40:03.440
And we already heard in that opening passage that God made no answer and God made no answer.
00:40:03.759 --> 00:40:08.559
And like God the Father, Tomas has had a major period of inaction.
00:40:08.639 --> 00:40:11.759
He hasn't been making a lot of answers toward anything, right?
00:40:12.079 --> 00:40:13.920
So I feel like he is God the Father.
00:40:14.239 --> 00:40:17.840
And when he does act, his his action is violence.
00:40:18.000 --> 00:40:19.039
Yes, it's killing.
00:40:19.279 --> 00:40:20.159
Yes, it's killing.
00:40:20.239 --> 00:40:22.639
It's not, it's not some act of goodness.
00:40:22.719 --> 00:40:24.159
It is it is violence.
00:40:24.400 --> 00:40:39.599
So then I feel like in that way, Matthew really represents the Holy Spirit, and he is that first moment where Tomas is called into deeper action, you know, the the small voice of the Holy Spirit calling you, right?
00:40:39.679 --> 00:40:44.400
In this case, I think Matthew really represents that Holy Spirit in a lot of ways.
00:40:44.480 --> 00:40:46.400
He is the conscience in the background.
00:40:46.559 --> 00:40:54.000
Now he may be a flawed conscience, which he really is, but he continues to be that conscience all the way up to the point where he doesn't.
00:40:54.319 --> 00:40:57.440
Well, biblically speaking, people of faith are vessels for the Holy Spirit.
00:40:57.679 --> 00:40:58.000
Right.
00:40:58.159 --> 00:40:58.480
Right?
00:40:58.639 --> 00:41:02.960
So he is a person of faith, and therefore he is a vessel for the Holy Spirit in that sense.
00:41:03.039 --> 00:41:10.319
So his flaws included the Holy Spirit, quote unquote, is at work in him in whatever way it can.
00:41:10.480 --> 00:41:10.639
Right.
00:41:10.880 --> 00:41:15.360
So in that sense, I do think, yeah, he definitely represents the presence of the Holy Spirit.
00:41:15.679 --> 00:41:15.840
Right.
00:41:15.920 --> 00:41:17.759
And so then that that leaves Delphine.
00:41:17.840 --> 00:41:22.559
And so obviously the Trinity, the Father, you know, the Holy Spirit, the Son, right?
00:41:22.719 --> 00:41:24.719
Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
00:41:25.039 --> 00:41:30.719
So Delphine is really the embodiment of the Christ figure in this situation.
00:41:30.880 --> 00:41:34.960
And there are some really interesting moments where those illusions are very real to me.
00:41:35.119 --> 00:41:47.599
And one of the moments is on the road to Avignon, after they've escaped Paris, and both Matthew and Tomas become drunk and go to sleep, and they cannot be waked.
00:41:47.759 --> 00:41:49.920
They're just completely out of it.
00:41:50.159 --> 00:41:55.679
And Delphine recognizes that something bad is happening, that something is wrong.
00:41:55.840 --> 00:41:58.159
And her angel tells her, No,
don't go.
00:41:58.319 --> 00:41:59.360
It's dangerous.
00:41:59.599 --> 00:42:03.599
But she is driven to go anyway because she needs to try to go help.
00:42:03.759 --> 00:42:12.960
And so she leaves a sleeping Tomas and Matthew passed out while she heads in to try to do some good.
00:42:13.039 --> 00:42:27.279
And it was very Garden of Gethsemane to me, you know, that she was going to head in and maybe, although not in this moment, but maybe willingly sacrifice herself in order to do whatever good this is to stop the bad that is happening.
00:42:27.440 --> 00:42:32.400
And Tomas and Matthew are oblivious to that action until the very last minute.
00:42:32.559 --> 00:42:34.960
But do you want to share just a little bit about what's going on there?
00:42:35.199 --> 00:42:45.840
Yeah, and that was really reminiscent to me of different points within the Gospels where the disciples or somebody advises Jesus not to do this thing, and yet he must, and he does.
00:42:46.079 --> 00:42:49.039
And the angel specifically says, Don't go, you'll make it worse.
00:42:49.199 --> 00:42:53.759
And there were moments like that in the gospel where Jesus acts and a mob reacts.
00:42:54.000 --> 00:42:54.239
Right.
00:42:54.400 --> 00:42:55.679
And they come after him to kill him.
00:42:55.840 --> 00:42:56.880
So something similar happens here.
00:42:56.960 --> 00:43:01.119
Delphine goes off to this town and she witnesses basically the forming of this cult.
00:43:01.279 --> 00:43:08.480
This group of spirituals are coming through, banging their tambourines, dancing, doing flips, and they're singing praises and stuff like that.
00:43:08.559 --> 00:43:14.400
And there's this man at the head of it, and he's claiming that he's can cure the plague and he can bring people back to life.
00:43:14.480 --> 00:43:18.480
And he starts performing these miracles where he literally brings dead people alive.
00:43:18.639 --> 00:43:18.799
Right.
00:43:18.960 --> 00:43:20.799
And Delphine sees-I mean, for real, for real.
00:43:20.960 --> 00:43:21.039
Yeah.
00:43:21.279 --> 00:43:25.679
Delphine sees this and says, This says, Stop, this is an abomination.
00:43:25.840 --> 00:43:30.239
And she goes up to the people that he's just brought back to life and touches them, and then they fall dead again.
00:43:30.799 --> 00:43:31.759
Right, and they're at peace.
00:43:31.920 --> 00:43:32.880
And they're at peace, right?
00:43:32.960 --> 00:43:36.719
Because what these demons are doing are basically trapping their tortured souls within their body.
00:43:36.880 --> 00:43:37.920
And so it's not a good thing.
00:43:38.000 --> 00:43:39.840
And it's also, like I said, a cult.
00:43:39.920 --> 00:43:46.480
So it's a it's is this guy's kind of uh bringing this sort of worship onto himself instead of God, and there's all sorts of things going on there.
00:43:46.559 --> 00:43:54.719
But anyway, after she does this, of course, they accuse her of being a witch, and something very biblical happens is when they come to try to kill her, all of a sudden everyone is struck blind.
00:43:54.880 --> 00:43:55.199
Right.
00:43:55.360 --> 00:43:57.440
And she's able to escape the mob.
00:43:57.599 --> 00:44:05.679
But unfortunately, this does bring the attention of the demonic forces directly upon her because she kind of got under the radar before this point.
00:44:06.000 --> 00:44:11.199
As would be true of Christ in the Bible, in that he operated under the radar for a long time.
00:44:11.279 --> 00:44:18.639
And it's that Sermon on the Mount and some of the other miracles he performs that suddenly thrust him into the eyes of everyone else.
00:44:18.719 --> 00:44:21.920
So Delphine is now thrust into the eyes of the demons.
00:44:22.079 --> 00:44:31.199
The demons are very aware of her and who she is or what's possessing her, and they are zeroed in on her at that moment.
00:44:31.519 --> 00:44:46.799
I couldn't help but this was very reminiscent of the flagellants during the plague, the religious figures that ran around beating themselves on the back and trying to perform these holy acts in order to get rid of the plague, and they actually just made it worse.
00:44:46.880 --> 00:44:48.079
They were just spreading death.
00:44:48.239 --> 00:44:54.319
And for me, this man that Is up there going, I can bring the dead to life, is spreading more death.
00:44:54.559 --> 00:45:02.639
He's just reanimating these corpses and trapping, trapping these souls, and the death is just being spread as a result.
00:45:02.799 --> 00:45:04.159
So it's very cultish.
00:45:04.239 --> 00:45:12.719
It has the biblical illusions, and then I feel like historically it really matches up with some of that stuff that was going on, motivated by quote unquote the church.
00:45:12.960 --> 00:45:19.599
And it's right on theme with one of the major points of the book that we've already discussed, and that is faith being a matter of action.
00:45:19.840 --> 00:45:20.079
Right.
00:45:20.319 --> 00:45:22.960
Good and evil being matters of action.
00:45:23.119 --> 00:45:24.319
They are not passive.
00:45:24.480 --> 00:45:26.000
Actions have consequences.
00:45:26.159 --> 00:45:30.239
And sometimes even good actions have negative consequences.
00:45:30.400 --> 00:45:30.880
Correct.
00:45:31.039 --> 00:45:35.199
But also, there's another element of action that Thomas takes just before this.
00:45:35.360 --> 00:45:45.440
Right after Thomas Tomas saves Delphine from being essentially raped by killing the men who are going to rape her, she says, don't kill ever again from this point forward.
00:45:45.920 --> 00:45:47.679
And he's like, What the hell you say?
00:45:48.159 --> 00:45:48.480
Yeah.
00:45:48.799 --> 00:45:50.719
Don't do the thing that I'm best at doing.
00:45:51.039 --> 00:45:51.519
Great.
00:45:51.679 --> 00:45:52.079
Great.
00:45:52.239 --> 00:45:58.880
But it goes right along with that right occupation, right living, you know, that whole, you know, our actions, what we put into
the world matters.
00:45:58.960 --> 00:46:02.319
And if you put death into the world, you will get death back.
00:46:02.400 --> 00:46:04.000
And she tells him to stop doing that.
00:46:04.159 --> 00:46:06.159
Stop being a vehicle of death yourself.
00:46:06.480 --> 00:46:08.960
Don't cut off the ear of the centurion.
00:46:09.279 --> 00:46:10.960
He that lives by the sword will die by the sword, right?
00:46:11.519 --> 00:46:14.880
And he breaks this promise to her just before this moment.
00:46:15.119 --> 00:46:16.960
And so we're waiting for the consequence.
00:46:17.119 --> 00:46:32.639
And unfortunately, the consequence of all this, him breaking that promise, getting drunk, Delphine having to face this evil alone with no protection, it all comes back around to being the death of Matthew and the exposure of them to the demons.
00:46:32.960 --> 00:46:33.360
Correct.
00:46:33.519 --> 00:46:43.679
And it is really that moment where Tomas has blasphemed the Holy Spirit, blasphemed the conscience, gone against what he was supposed to do.
00:46:43.840 --> 00:46:46.159
And then they're exposed to this greater evil.
00:46:46.480 --> 00:46:53.039
See, and I'm glad you said that because what when you hear blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, what did you always interpret it as in the Bible?
00:46:53.279 --> 00:46:58.559
I always interpret it as you know what's right and you know what's wrong, and you choose to do the wrong anyway.
00:46:58.880 --> 00:46:59.199
Right.
00:46:59.360 --> 00:47:00.079
Yes, okay.
00:47:00.239 --> 00:47:06.719
Yeah, and I would I would concur with that because I I was always told growing up that blasphemy of the Holy Spirit was refusing to accept Christ into your heart.
00:47:07.039 --> 00:47:09.199
Oh no, that's it that is a free will moment.
00:47:09.599 --> 00:47:10.159
Right, right.
00:47:10.400 --> 00:47:17.440
And I I I balk at that idea because the first time Jesus has mentions it in the Bible, he's talking to the Pharisees.
00:47:17.679 --> 00:47:18.000
Right.
00:47:18.239 --> 00:47:21.119
And why why is he saying that to the Pharisees?
00:47:21.279 --> 00:47:23.440
What is the Pharisees' biggest sin?
00:47:23.759 --> 00:47:26.239
Spiritual pride, but in action, right?
00:47:26.400 --> 00:47:26.799
Right.
00:47:27.039 --> 00:47:29.279
Being good in their own mind, right?
00:47:29.519 --> 00:47:30.559
But not actually doing good.
00:47:31.599 --> 00:47:37.679
And then every time Jesus mentions an action that will condemn you, it's forgive others or you will not be forgiven.
00:47:37.840 --> 00:47:48.079
You will be judged by the measure you judge others, and the the good Samaritan, the sheep, and the goats, it's all about taking action in the name of his spirit.
00:47:48.319 --> 00:47:48.559
Right.
00:47:49.199 --> 00:47:57.199
But if you know you're supposed to take action and then you don't, or you take the wrong action deliberately, that is where the blasphemy comes into play.
00:47:57.519 --> 00:48:01.679
Especially when you attribute it to you you attribute that kind of behavior to Christ.
00:48:02.000 --> 00:48:02.480
To the good.
00:48:02.719 --> 00:48:07.599
When you are acting antichrist, but calling yourself Christ, that is blasphemy of the Holy Spirit.
00:48:07.759 --> 00:48:19.440
And so I think that's exactly the message of what's happening in this book is that everybody is waiting for God to intervene, God to act, but we are the vessels of the divine.
00:48:19.840 --> 00:48:24.880
The divine comes into the world through us and through our actions, as does evil.
00:48:25.119 --> 00:48:25.360
Right.
00:48:25.440 --> 00:48:27.440
So that's very Eastern Orthodox of you.
00:48:27.599 --> 00:48:32.079
The idea that we have the spark of God in all of us is a very Eastern Orthodox idea.
00:48:32.239 --> 00:48:39.519
And I think that if I still gel with any part of Christianity, it's probably that more Eastern philosophy than the Western.
00:48:39.679 --> 00:48:52.559
So Matthew's death really throws Delphine and Tomas into crisis because Tomas has a kind of meltdown, a kind of paralysis over the idea that Matthew has died.
00:48:52.799 --> 00:48:56.719
And not just died, but he is killed by a giant demon.
00:48:56.960 --> 00:48:58.799
Right, killed by a giant demon.
00:48:58.880 --> 00:49:06.319
And Tomas has come face to face with the spiritual battle that is going on underneath what he had just seen on the surface.
00:49:06.480 --> 00:49:14.799
And now he knows that as they're on the journey from Paris to Avignon, that when they get to Avignon, only death can await there.
00:49:14.960 --> 00:49:21.039
For Delphine, for him, he knows that death is there and he cannot abide it any longer.
00:49:21.199 --> 00:49:31.679
And he definitely lacks the courage to do it without the Holy Spirit, without the buffer that he had, without the conscience, without Matthew, as much trouble as he'd given him along the way.
00:49:31.840 --> 00:49:34.960
Matthew is kind of this lifeline on some level.
00:49:35.199 --> 00:49:36.639
And Tomas can't do it.
00:49:36.719 --> 00:49:39.440
So he locks down and he's like, I'm not going any further.
00:49:39.679 --> 00:49:46.400
And so this leads to a moment where Tomas and Delphine are separated because Delphine knows I have to go to Avignon.
00:49:46.559 --> 00:49:47.759
That is my purpose.
00:49:47.920 --> 00:49:50.319
That is where I have to defeat the ultimate evil.
00:49:50.400 --> 00:49:54.400
That is where I have to actually do what I'm being called to do.
00:49:54.639 --> 00:49:57.279
So I have to leave you behind.
00:49:57.519 --> 00:50:05.440
And if I go with my Trinitarian thing for a second, it is Christ going to earth when the father stays in the background.
00:50:05.679 --> 00:50:11.679
So in going off on her own, Delphine faces her own type of evil and her own type of temptation.
00:50:11.759 --> 00:50:16.400
And I find it really significant that she faces that within the church.
00:50:16.639 --> 00:50:24.880
As when you
think Christ would have when he went to earth, Delphine has to face this evil that exists within a church building.
00:50:25.039 --> 00:50:30.480
And that's where she has her ultimate temptation and kind of her ultimate trial before she ends up in Amiens.
00:50:31.039 --> 00:50:37.599
Meanwhile, Tomas is on his own without Delphine as his conscience, and he has his own trials to face.
00:50:37.920 --> 00:50:50.159
Yes, this is the famous dark night of the soul moment in the spiritual journey, especially for Tomas, who after she leaves him, he kind of initially wanders around aimlessly.
00:50:50.239 --> 00:50:52.799
He's now a knight without a cause again.
00:50:52.960 --> 00:50:57.599
And he kind of is generally traveling in the direction he believes Delphine went.
00:50:57.759 --> 00:50:58.079
Right.
00:50:58.239 --> 00:51:01.440
But without much urgency because he still doesn't know where his heart is.
00:51:01.599 --> 00:51:03.519
He just knows that she shouldn't be alone.
00:51:03.759 --> 00:51:05.199
And he and he feels guilty about that.
00:51:05.360 --> 00:51:06.480
And he feels guilty about that.
00:51:06.639 --> 00:51:08.960
He comes across a town that has just been slaughtered.
00:51:09.119 --> 00:51:13.759
All the men have been slaughtered by these British soldiers that have come through and pillaged them.
00:51:13.840 --> 00:51:14.000
Right.
00:51:14.159 --> 00:51:17.840
And at first they think Tomas is one of these soldiers and they want to kill him.
00:51:17.920 --> 00:51:24.079
But once he identifies himself as French, uh, then they ask him to avenge the men in the city.
00:51:24.239 --> 00:51:24.480
Right.
00:51:24.639 --> 00:51:27.039
And he initially he vows that he will.
00:51:27.199 --> 00:51:33.119
And so later on, he goes to the next village and he finds that these men are all inside this bathhouse.
00:51:33.199 --> 00:51:34.799
And he knows that they are vulnerable.
00:51:35.119 --> 00:51:35.599
They're naked.
00:51:35.920 --> 00:51:36.480
They're naked.
00:51:36.880 --> 00:51:39.440
He can walk right in there and slaughter them like pigs.
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And he goes in there and he does stand above them the pool with his sword drawn, and they know they're all going to die.
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And then he goes through this crisis in his mind where he remembers that Delphine made him promise not to kill and the consequences of what happened the last time he broke that promise.
00:51:56.000 --> 00:51:58.880
But also, in a way, the hypocrisy of it all.
00:51:59.039 --> 00:52:07.119
Because at one point he was a knight who turned to brigandhood and had done all the things that he was now about to condemn these men for doing.
00:52:07.360 --> 00:52:07.519
Right.
00:52:07.599 --> 00:52:09.360
So is this the new covenant moment?
00:52:09.599 --> 00:52:10.480
Yes, I think so.
00:52:10.559 --> 00:52:10.880
Yeah.
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And I think it's it's really important decision.
00:52:13.599 --> 00:52:15.519
It's this is the crossroads, really.
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Right.
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This is the moment that is going to decide his fate.
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And he stands there and they know that he can kill them, and he has the power to do it.
00:52:23.679 --> 00:52:26.079
And then he sheathes his sword and he walks away.
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He opts for mercy.
00:52:27.759 --> 00:52:34.639
And again, this is another point that the book makes over and over again is that actions have consequences.
00:52:34.799 --> 00:52:37.840
Actions have results, good consequences and bad consequences.
00:52:38.079 --> 00:52:44.079
And this is a good action in that he's following Delphine's instruction, do not kill anyone else.
00:52:44.319 --> 00:52:47.599
Yes, because when he put death out there, death stayed out there.
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And death came back on him.
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And it caused more death.
00:52:50.559 --> 00:52:56.880
And in this case, he put mercy out there, and that stays out there, and mercy comes back upon him later on.
00:52:57.199 --> 00:52:59.519
Which is a very important point as we go forward.
00:52:59.759 --> 00:53:10.960
And it's after this moment where he has nearly been killed, and he himself has been shown mercy because of the mercy that he showed others, that Delphine suddenly miraculously finds him again and says, Are you ready to go to Avignon?
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And then he is ready to go to Avignon in that moment.
00:53:14.000 --> 00:53:14.239
Yes.
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Right after he has seen the providential nature of mercy, of goodness, of right action.
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And overcome one of his last temptations, which is the temptation for revenge.
00:53:25.519 --> 00:53:27.519
Right, which we won't totally go into.
00:53:27.599 --> 00:53:38.319
So we're kind of at this point in the book where we're at the end and we have this desire not to completely spoil the end andor, you know, flesh the end out entirely.
00:53:38.639 --> 00:53:45.119
But it goes without saying that ultimately Delphine has to make the ultimate sacrifice.
00:53:45.199 --> 00:53:51.440
If she is the Christ figure, she ultimately has to sacrifice herself to rid the world of evil.
00:53:51.599 --> 00:53:59.440
And Tomas is there with her, and he acts almost as a mirror to that in those final moments in Avignon.
00:53:59.599 --> 00:54:02.079
And the final message of this book is about redemption.
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It really is.
00:54:03.119 --> 00:54:06.559
And and why are we redeemed in the end?
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And what what what leads to redemption?
00:54:09.119 --> 00:54:16.480
And I think it goes right along with what we've been saying is that if your life is a vessel for the divine, the divine is the only thing that cannot be held in hell.
00:54:16.639 --> 00:54:16.880
Right.
00:54:17.039 --> 00:54:17.199
Right?
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The divine is the only thing that can go to hell and back.
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And come back from and come back again.
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And because Tomas has made certain decisions and started down that journey, that's very important for him as far as his redemption art goes.
00:54:30.960 --> 00:54:31.360
Correct.
00:54:31.519 --> 00:54:39.440
So it is about redemption, but in this case, it's redemption in spite of the things that have been labeled holy.
00:54:39.599 --> 00:54:48.319
Because when we go to Avignon, historically, in this time period, the seat of the Catholic Church is not Rome, it is Avignon.
00:54:48.480 --> 00:54:50.880
The current Pope has brought it to Avignon.
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So this is the seat of the church.
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And there is nothing but corruption in this seat of the church.
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And that's what Delphine has to go to conquer.
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And Tomas has to help her conquer.
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And so we really get the redemption in spite of the church, in spite of the quote-unquote holiness.
00:55:11.279 --> 00:55:23.360
And in that way, I don't feel like this is Christian apologetics that takes place at the end when Delphine defeats hell and Tomas defeats hell on some level.
00:55:23.599 --> 00:55:34.880
I feel like this is really human action coupled with the divine, the spiritual, reconciling and bringing good back into the world.
00:55:35.199 --> 00:55:40.319
And the holy, quote unquote, is really proven to be ugly.
00:55:40.559 --> 00:55:53.119
And we have redemption in the form of this 12, 13-year-old girl who then is coupled with this disgraced knight who then suddenly brings redemption to the world.
00:55:53.360 --> 00:55:53.599
Right.
00:55:53.679 --> 00:55:58.719
This book takes on the assumption uh that holiness can be inherent in something.
00:55:58.880 --> 00:55:59.119
Right.
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Without action.
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Right.
00:56:00.880 --> 00:56:01.920
And it can't.
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No.
00:56:02.559 --> 00:56:07.039
And and even in the end, there's a redemption in a way for the church itself.
00:56:07.279 --> 00:56:07.840
There is.
00:56:08.079 --> 00:56:12.000
But it comes through right action, right words.
00:56:12.159 --> 00:56:17.519
It comes through a change of heart and not just an inherent holiness because it's the church.
00:56:17.840 --> 00:56:18.079
Right.
00:56:18.159 --> 00:56:23.840
And there's an issue with the Pope and kind of the redemption, a redemption arc with the Pope.
00:56:23.920 --> 00:56:27.119
And I will leave that kind of unexplained to a certain extent.
00:56:27.360 --> 00:56:39.360
But the Pope is not redeemed from his flaws because the true Pope has terrible flaws, or not so terrible flaws, has terrible flaws by definition of the church.
00:56:39.679 --> 00:56:53.599
He is sleeping with a woman,
he has a mistress, he has other very human qualities and aspects to him, but he is also a tool of redemption in these closing moments.
00:56:53.759 --> 00:57:04.639
And it is the rejection of superficial holiness and the embrace of real flawed goodness.
00:57:05.039 --> 00:57:05.279
Right.
00:57:05.440 --> 00:57:08.559
And the book is called Between Two Fires for two reasons.
00:57:08.799 --> 00:57:15.119
Because the Pope has been ordered by his doctor to sit constantly between these two brasiers in order to ward off the plague.
00:57:15.199 --> 00:57:16.480
But I think ward off evil.
00:57:16.719 --> 00:57:17.360
Ward off evil.
00:57:17.440 --> 00:57:23.199
But I think more than that, it's the it's the two kinds of fires that we can face in our life.
00:57:23.440 --> 00:57:30.880
The fire that consumes, the fire of hell, the fire of punishment, or the fires of purification.
00:57:31.119 --> 00:57:31.519
Right.
00:57:31.679 --> 00:57:36.000
And and they are both distinctly different while being the same.
00:57:36.239 --> 00:57:42.000
So so the fire, the burning up, but in this case, baptism, baptism by fire.
00:57:42.159 --> 00:57:42.400
Right.
00:57:42.559 --> 00:57:43.279
And rebirth.
00:57:43.440 --> 00:57:45.840
It is an incredibly profound book.
00:57:46.000 --> 00:57:47.519
I just have to emphasize that.
00:57:47.679 --> 00:58:00.799
And it has something for everyone, but I think it has a distinct message about our responsibility as human beings, our responsibility to each other, our responsibility to the world as a whole, and what that really looks like.
00:58:00.960 --> 00:58:09.679
And the fact that it can be terribly flawed, but if we're doing the next right thing, then we're on the pilgrimage in the right direction.
00:58:09.840 --> 00:58:12.799
And I think that is really, really important in this book.
00:58:13.039 --> 00:58:13.279
Yes.
00:58:13.360 --> 00:58:19.599
And and you know, I I'll leave it with this insight is that Jesus said, I am the way, I am the truth, and I am the life.
00:58:19.679 --> 00:58:21.840
And I don't think that was a passive statement.
00:58:22.000 --> 00:58:25.519
I don't think that was just a say you believe in me, and you're good.
00:58:25.679 --> 00:58:26.239
And you're good.
00:58:26.480 --> 00:58:32.400
He showed you the way, he told you the truth, and he lived the life that you're supposed to exemplify.
00:58:32.559 --> 00:58:34.960
And that is the path to redemption.
00:58:35.199 --> 00:58:35.920
That is correct.
00:58:36.079 --> 00:58:41.759
So moving on, we've got to end this out and talk about what we're going to read next time.
00:58:41.840 --> 00:58:45.199
So, Peter, what are we headed to on our next episode?
00:58:45.440 --> 00:58:57.119
Well, we're well past Indigenous Persons Day, unfortunately, right now, but we did read a series of short stories by Indigenous authors called Never Whistle at Night.
00:58:57.440 --> 00:59:00.960
And I think we're going to choose a few to discuss, and that'll be our next episode.
00:59:01.199 --> 00:59:02.799
Yes, and I'm really excited about that.
00:59:02.880 --> 00:59:06.079
I've been trying to figure out which ones I can also use in my classroom.
00:59:06.239 --> 00:59:08.079
So this will be a really good discussion.
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So until next time, keep reading.
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Keep thinking.
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And we'll get back to you and talk to you soon.
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Bye.