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Welcome back to a lighthouse in the dark.
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Today we have a special guest, a world-renowned psychic medium and author, someone who I admire tremendously.
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Welcome, John Edwards.
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Thank you.
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Thank you for having me.
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I I'm kind of in awe and I I don't even know where to start because you've done so many things.
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Have it around.
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And we overlapped.
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I mean, we were joking about like I worked on Roseanne's talk show, and you were you were there all those years ago.
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I mean, it's got to be 25 years, maybe something like that.
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At least 20, at least 24.
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Yeah.
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It was like 99, maybe?
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Right around the TV.
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You know what?
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It's kind of a blur.
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Yeah.
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But it is definitely around the time I think I was doing Crossing Over, the TV show.
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And that debuted in 99.
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Okay.
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And then 2000 was when we were like up and running.
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Okay, since you mentioned it, talk about crossing over.
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Sure.
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I love the phrase you say at the end every time.
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Do you want to remind people?
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So every episode of Crossing Over ends with please take the opportunity to communicate, appreciate, and validate your loved ones and friends.
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So a medium like myself doesn't have to do it for you.
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Yeah.
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And nobody really knows the origin of that.
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It actually comes from Joan Rivers.
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Okay.
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I had gone to see Joan Rivers in New York on Long Island at a place called Westbury Music Fair.
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It was a 3,000-seat theater in the round.
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And it was right around the time her husband had passed, shortly after.
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And it was first of all, she was hysterically amazingly funny.
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She was like just brilliant.
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Yeah.
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Brilliant comedian.
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And she came out for like two encores.
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So like she had that moment of, you know, she did that signature thing with her.
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She had like a thing when she did her hand, like she like waved people down.
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Yeah.
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So no, no, no.
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Yes, yes, yes.
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She did that, she did that like twice.
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And then the lights came on, which was the signal like, you know, race to your car because there's like one entrance in.
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The light came on, everybody was standing, and she came running out again.
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So everybody stopped, high energy, laughing, right?
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Turned towards where she was standing, and she commanded everybody's attention.
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And she said, and remember, the energy was like really high, and we're waiting for the funny.
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And she said something to the effect of whether it's the person you're with or the person you're going home to, please let them know how you feel about them.
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Because sometimes you don't get a chance to do that.
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I know I didn't.
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Oh.
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And the entire room, the energy just in a good way plummeted.
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Right.
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She like flipped the energy.
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Right.
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And it was extremely profound.
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And the next day, I was working at a hospital.
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And the next day I walked into the preadmission testing area of the hospital.
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And one of the registrars, her name is Kathy.
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Kathy said, Are you okay?
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And I said, I am.
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She goes, Come into my office.
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So I walked into her office and I sat down and she shut the door and she was like, What's going on?
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I was like, nothing's going on.
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She goes, I'm not your mom.
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My mom had passed within that year.
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She goes, I'm not your mom, but I am a mom.
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She said, and I I I know.
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I know something's up.
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So what's on your mind?
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She's like, I'm not gonna do a patient until you tell me.
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And there was like a room full of patients that needed to be like registered.
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Yeah.
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So I was like, it's really, it's it's kind of silly.
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I just I'm a little in my in my head about something that happened last night.
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So she was like expecting like girl trouble.
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And I was like, you know, Joan Rivers.
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And she looked at
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me, she's like, Joan Rivers.
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I was like, what?
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She's like, oh, we're going in a completely different direction.
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So she said, What's what about Joan Rivers?
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I told her the whole story.
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And she said, I think that's beautiful.
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And she goes, you know, every time her husband's name was Roger, she goes, You see what happens every time Roger calls me.
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And I said, Yeah, you always say, I love you, Raj.
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And I made a joke with her prior, like prior to that.
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I said, if Roger didn't know that you loved him the first four times, you told him today.
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She goes, I think you think the fifth time is gonna be the thing.
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And then on a different day, she said to me, You know, one day the doorbell's gonna ring.
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And when you answer it, do you know who's there?
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And I was like, No.
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She goes, Life.
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Right.
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And she goes, and when life happens, she goes, you want to make sure you're surrounded by love and you let the people you know.
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She goes, So I agree with I agree with Joan.
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And that afternoon, when we were like leaving the pre-admission area, it's like hours had gone by, she walked around to where my workroom was and she knocked on the door.
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She said, I'm leaving.
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She goes, and I just want to let you know something.
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And I was like, What?
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And she goes, Joanfully yours.
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And a moment began where every day she would like say, Joanfully yours.
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Every card I got from her always ended with Joanfully Yours.
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And it was something that I had recently bonded with, with Kathy Griffin, the comedian, because she had a connection to Joan Rivers.
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And I told her that whole story.
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So now when we exchange texts or or connect, we end it with Joanfully Yours.
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But the communicate, Appreciate, and Validate ended, um, literally ended every episode of Crossing Over.
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And then all my events would end that way.
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Because I wanted people to take that opportunity.
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And now I do something even more so to honor that at the events.
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We don't know what time we have.
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And I'm a I'm a big firm believer in telling people how you feel.
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Absolutely.
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And I think you just live with a lot less regrets if you do that.
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Um, I know that you and I kind of have this, we share kind of a view on like not carrying regrets, not looking at it as an end.
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Um, you have a beautiful analogy about grief and love being like a pillow.
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Yep.
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Can you share that a little bit?
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So I worked at a heart hospital.
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Right.
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And in that area with Kathy, I was the phlebotomist who kind of took in all the patients and did their pre-surgical testings, their blood work.
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But I was also up on the floors.
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So I saw the patients when they came into the hospital.
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I saw them when they were admitted to the hospital, I saw them when they were like having their surgery.
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So you kind of get to know certain people.
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A lot of the patients, when they had surgery, they would be given this red heart that had the name of the hospital on it.
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And the reason why is that if you had a cough or sneeze or laugh, you were to hold on to the heart so that you didn't affect any of your surgical scores.
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Right.
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That became a symbol for me in my readings where I would see that heart, but one side said love and the other side said grief.
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And I kind of feel like throughout our lives, we're holding the love side when the person's here physically and we have that tangible connection.
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But the moment they cross and we don't have that physical connection, the pillow inverts to grief because we don't have a physical receptacle to direct our love to.
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So I feel like the work of a medium is to help people understand that there's a survival of consciousness, that life and love are eternal, love never dies, and that where there's love, there's connection.
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But in the human, physical, tangible, tactile way, we want a destination.
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We want a person, a place, a physicality to touch.
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Right.
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So we're taking our love and having to now create a construct that our energetic body still exists and we're still connected.
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So we want to work on getting the grief pillow to flip back to love.
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And the way we do that is by being 50% of the equation with the loved ones who've passed.
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Yeah, I think it's so important because I'm a big firm believer and talk to the people you love.
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They're still part of you, you're still part of them.
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I also think the best part of them lives in you and you should carry on the things that you admired most.
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And I think if we live in that way, it's also to me that the greater the love, the greater the grief.
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And it's okay because, and I think you share this is I don't really believe in closure.
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Correct.
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Because I think closure is kind of a weird concept, and it also is a closing of a door or like a disconnection, which really I want to hold on to the connection, which I think I've heard you say too.
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I do.
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I say that we don't want a period at the end of the statement.
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We want a comma, a dash, yeah, an ellipsis.
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Anything that's going to keep the connection moving.
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And that's to me what I feel like we're looking for.
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We want to have connection.
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And I think any way that we can achieve that in whatever way works for that person.
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I remember 1987 when my uncle passed.
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My aunt was constantly going to the cemetery.
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Every day it was like going to the cemetery.
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And I felt badly for her.
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I was like, oh, why is she going there?
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So I inappropriately now say, I looked at her and I said, you know, he's not there.
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Right.
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You know, you don't have to go there.
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And in that moment, she kind of like looked at me and she went, Oh no, he's not there.
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That's where I put him.
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That's where I'm going.
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And in that moment, and those two sentences, I got a PhD in grief.
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Right.
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Like I had no right to tell this woman how she needed to process her grief.
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So if she felt like going to the cemetery every day was her way of processing her grief, then that's the place that she goes.
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Right.
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In my mind, he'll meet her there.
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Right.
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But for other people, like myself, I don't like going to the cemetery.
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It makes me really sad.
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Yeah.
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So I'd rather go to the beach.
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I'd rather take a walk in nature.
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I'd rather, however, I, you know, can feel connected, I'm going to do it that way.
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And that works for me.
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I don't think there's any right way to process your grief.
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Right.
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Unless you're not processing your grief.
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I was going to say the one thing is if you're if you're holding it or hiding from it, because it comes in waves.
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I tell people all the time.
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Like it comes in waves and it will hit you when you least expect it.
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Yep.
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It's patient.
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Yeah.
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It's patient.
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It's so patient.
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And it's not going anywhere.
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Right.
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It's like, how about now?
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No.
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Not that way.
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Oh, that song you love that you shared, that smell, that place, that location, like it will just hit you and it will hit you hardest when you're running from it.
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I am a control freak everywhere in my life.
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Like, openly admit it, somewhat OCD in my personality, even as a kid.
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So I grew up in a town in Long Island, it's called Glen Cove.
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And there were five funeral homes right in Glen Cove.
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When it came time for my mom's memorial in her wake, I picked a funeral home that was about 30 minutes away from where we lived.
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And everybody in my family was so confused.
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My mom was one of 11 kids.
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So at least five or six of her siblings were like, Why are you making us go all the way to Manhasset?
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Like on Northern Boulevard.
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Like, why are we going all the way over there?
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There are five funeral parlors right here in Glen Cove.
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Like, why are we going over there?
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And I smiled and said, Because there were five funeral homes right here in Glen Cove.
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I don't want to pass it every day and go, that's where I memorialize my mother.
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I picked a place that I hardly would ever drive by.
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I did that on purpose, controlling the grief narrative.
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Like that was part of it.
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And I thought that was a brilliant thing to do.
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And it was very, very healing for me because I didn't have to confront that every single day.
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My grandmother, who survived, my mom
didn't have to confront that every day in the town that we lived in.
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And then there were other moments that like I prepared for, like her birth date, her death date, like all those things.
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I was like, no, I got this.
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And it wasn't those moments that were the ones that hit me hard.
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It was the moments that I couldn't prepare for.
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Yes.
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Like a traffic issue on a highway in New York.
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And I was coming back from doing an event or like a house party, a group in somebody's house.
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And they narrowed, they like navigated the traffic off of the highway.
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And now like I didn't know where I was.
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This was the days pre-GPS.
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I had no map of my car.
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So I was like, okay, I have to just, I'm gonna head north because I know we're on the north shore of the island.
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So I kept heading north.
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And where I wound up by chance was directly opposite a hair salon that my mom used to frequent when I was a little boy that I became a gopher at.
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And I wasn't prepared for that.
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Right.
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So the moment that that street opened up directly in front of Foxy Lady, which is the name of the salon, I had to pull over.
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Yeah because I I couldn't control the emotion.
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I wasn't prepared for it.
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It came out of nowhere, but it really wasn't out of nowhere.
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It was the dam that broke.
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Right.
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Because I was not processing.
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So when I say these things to people, when I say that I'm I'm coming from a place of wanting to express what I've learned, it wasn't it's not just because I talked to dead people, it's because I've done it.
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Like I know what it feels to try to run from your grief.
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And it's patient.
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It absolutely will wait for you.
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Yeah.
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And and there's a power there that I think we underestimate because we bury it, but then it builds up.
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I think it's like a volcano.
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And then it just like you use the the example of a dam bursting.
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It's like it just comes out.
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There are names, places, things in my life, and I think everybody has them.
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It's also one of the things I wish people would do with their romantic partners.
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Is I always wanted to make sure I kind of had an idea of like the important people in their lives.
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When were those people's birthdays?
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When were their passing days?
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Because whether people realize it or not, they're significant.
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They're significant.
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And things will change, right?
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And all of a sudden I would realize, man, this person is really giving me a hard time right now, or they're really like in a weird mental space.
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And I'd be like, oh, it's the end of this month, right?
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And that's that's her grandmother, right?
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Like whether she even fully is aware of this or not.
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It it's backing up, right?
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And I think you have to tell the people that are in your life.
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Yes.
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Like I started dating my my wife at in 1992, but my mom died at the October of 1989.
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So it was only like a two and a half year period of time, right?
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So the first year of loss, right?
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So from October 89 to October 90, to me, that's the coasting year.
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I tell everybody in the first year of loss, you're you're just you're energetically being moved down the current of grief, and you're going through all the first, you'll get support from people uh as best as they can.
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Right.
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And then the second year hits, they go back to their lives, everything goes back to normal.
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They feel like they got you through the first.
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So now you're literally sitting in that second year.
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So for anybody watching or listening to this, if you're in the second year of loss and you think, like, what's wrong with me?
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Nothing.
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Yeah.
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Nothing.
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Create some sacred space and grace for yourself to kind of go like, this is the second year, and it's going to be a little more intense.
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So I had that second year.
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And then, you know, going into like dating and stuff, you're moving forward, you're being progressive, but there's a part of you that's stuck in the past.
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Right.
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Like, there's a snapshot of me.
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Like, I'm 57, but there's a 19-year-old moment that's frozen in time where you're like, okay, like this is always going to be a moment that you're going to remember.
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And we have a lot of those grief moments.
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So when I first started dating my wife and I went to go see a movie with Michael Keaton called My Life.
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I legitimately was so happy that I had explained to her everything that had happened with my mom.
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Because there I was sitting at the Rosefield Mall movie theater watching this Michael Keaton movie that opens up with him saying, So I have cancer.
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And it was like the entire movie was now forcing me to process grief and cancer and death and mortality while I'm on a date.
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Right.
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And I'm like, and I tried to be like, you know, tough and strong.
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And I was a hot mess in the theater.
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Couldn't control it because it was just not something that I expected.
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So we can have these controlled moments as much as we want, but the universe is going to basically say, how about now?
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Yeah.
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So it's better to be, as you said, communicative about it.
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How did this journey really begin for you?
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When did you because you, I think, believe, and I share this, is that kind of everybody has gifts.
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The question is, how much do you pay attention to it and do you magnify it and grow this?
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So I like to get rid of the word gift.
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I jokingly say that gift is a four-letter word.
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Okay.
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And it comes after F, right?
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So like gift is um somebody's more special than somebody else.
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And I I understand that the word gift or gift has been associated with this subject matter for centuries.
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Right.
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I like to change the vernacular a little bit.
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Okay.
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Because I think if we say that it's an ability and we can equate it to a muscle, then we could say, well, everybody's got muscles.
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Right.
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But not everybody's going to be a bodybuilder.
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Not everybody's going to be as strong as the next person, but they can work on it.
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They can get in better shape.
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So I feel like the more that we flex that muscle, we learn how to use that muscle, we can then utilize that in our everyday lives, not to do readings, but to live a more energetic, intuitive experience to learn the lessons why we're here.
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So for me, I had a reading.
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I had a, you know, I have a
boring story.
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I had literally a psychic reading at my grandmother's house.
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I used to have people come to the house all the time.
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And this woman told me that I had this ability.
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Her exact words to me were, You have highly evolved beings of white and gold light, and they're ready to work with you and put you on your path.
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And that's why I'm here today.
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I was 15.
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So a 15-year-old sophomore in high school, yeah, listening to this, probably at that moment, 50-year-old woman, you know, saying this with such sincerity and intention, I actually thought she was crazy.
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That's why that's why I laughed because I was like, you're probably looking at her going, Well, I was being so random.
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I went into the room with a mocking attitude.
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I was like, I was going in to prove she wasn't legitimate.
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Right.
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She would not be able to do with me what she did with the other people in my family because I wasn't gonna help her.
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Right.
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So I went in and gave my like energy.
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Right.
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There was I wasn't giving her anything.
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The woman didn't look at me.
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She took my high school ring and she did something called psychometry.
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And psychometry is where you can hold on to an object and you could do objective psychometry, which is where you read the history of the object, or you could do subjective psychometry, read the energy of the person who owns it.
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So she was doing subjective psychometry, close her eyes, and started talking.
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Like she didn't look at me, she wasn't like looking at my body, she wasn't like reading my face, and I didn't really talk.
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It was just a very um amazing experience, but a little bit unnerving.
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And I say unnerving because if you don't believe something's real, and then you have to confront the reality that I don't know what this is, but something is happening here.
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This woman's knowing stuff because she nailed stuff about me that nobody in my family could have told her, my mom couldn't have told her.
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She gave me names of people that nobody knew, and then she gave me outcomes.
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Like it was just really profoundly accurate.
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I didn't sit there and go, wow, this is really cool.
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Oh, she said I'm psychic.
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I actually felt violated.
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I felt like somebody went through the draw, the drawers of my life, and I was like, oh no, I don't like this.
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I feel like I've been robbed.
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How do I make sure that nobody else could do this?
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Like, if she could do this, then maybe some of these other people that come in this house that they have parties with.
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How do I how do I stop this?
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And that sent me to the public library where I started reading about anything under the subject matter at that time was the occult in 1985.
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Right, right.
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So I legit read every book that they had in the in the public library.
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And my my learning about everything parapsychology related, right?
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Was that okay, maybe I wasn't as normal as I thought.
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And I had to reframe a lot of my childhood experiences.
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What does that look like?
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Can I ask that question?
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Like, what is that?
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And what are some examples of like where you looked at something and you're like, oh, I gotta look at this again.
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So I'm really logical.
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I'm an analytical logical person.
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Like that's how my brain works.
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Yeah, me too.
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I'm like very fact-based, and I don't take, I'm not a leapy kind of a person.
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Like, oh, this is happening, must be this.
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I'm like, no, let's explore how do we get to those steps.
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It's just how the brain works, my brain.
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In one of the moments that I had a flashback on was fourth grade.
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So the way the classroom was.
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So this is the classroom.
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Here was the door to the classroom.
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My fourth grade teacher's desk was over here.
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We had row, row, row, row.
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I was in this row, all the way in the back.
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Right.
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We had our vocabulary tests, and the vocabulary test was 10 words, and then like an extra credit.
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So Ms.
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Worthley was sitting at her desk.
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I was over here, and she gave us the 10 words, and then she gave us a bonus word.
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And the bonus word was phlegm.
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And when she said the word phlegm, I remember looking up at the chalkboard and I saw it on
the chalkboard.
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So I wrote it down.
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Spelled it correctly.
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Right.
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So that teacher asked my mom, who was the medical practitioner in the family that I would know how to spell that.
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So I got called into a like a conference, and my mom said, How did you know how to spell that?
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Because there was nobody that I was around.
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And the I was honest.
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I was like, Oh, she wrote it on the board.
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And Ms.
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Wortley was like, I did not, you know, and she was a very um, very she looked a she was a very wrinkly woman.
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So I remember her like whole face like shaking when she said that.
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And then in that moment, I just thought, like, oh my God, I'm gonna be in trouble for lying.
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And I looked at my mom, I was like, she's lying.
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And then I got in trouble for that.
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But um, the logical part of me was able to go back and say, okay, hold on, you're sitting here, she's sitting here, she announced the word there.
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Moments later, you looked up at the board and it was on the board.
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She wouldn't have had time to walk over and write that on the board.
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Right.
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So then I had that moment of like, oh, okay, that would fall into the category of seeing something that was there that other people did not.
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That had happened a lot.
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There was a lot of reframing.
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I had always, always had a dream of a little old man.
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And I used to call him my little old man friend.
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And if I was like looking this direction, I could see him like I'm seeing you.
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Right.
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But if I looked at him, he went blurry.
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And this little old man friend would give me information about my family.
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He would tell me stuff in my dreams that had happened, various things about my, you know, my grandma.
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And then sometimes things that were coming up.
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And one of the things that he had told me, and I think one of the last vivid ones that I remember from him was that a cousin of mine was buying a car and she wouldn't know that there was something that she thought she was paying for in the car, but she wouldn't know that it wasn't in there until the next season.
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So I said that to my grandmother.
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She actually, my grandmother asked me, she goes, You ever talked about your little man friend?
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She goes, Have you heard from him?
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I go, as a matter of fact, I did last night.
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And I told her the dream.
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And she said, Well, you know, your cousin's buying a car.
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You should tell her.
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So I called my cousin.
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And it was winter time.
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And I said to her, Grandma said you're buying a car.
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Are you buying a new car?
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She goes, I am.
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She goes, Why are you asking?
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I was like, I had a really weird dream.
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I tell her about the dream.
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She goes back and she has them look at the actual car.
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She had paid for air air conditioning in the car.
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She was buying it in the winter.
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The air conditioning wasn't in this car.
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And she would have never known until she would not have known that.
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Until it got warm.
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Until it got warm.
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Yeah.
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So there were those moments that I had kind of looked back on and like reframed.
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Um, I used to fly as a kid, but you know, every kid wants to be Superman.
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Every kid wants to fly.
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But I used to have a lot of anything that had powers, I was interested in.
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So, like Escape from Witch Mountain was a movie that I was obsessed with.
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But the Six Million Dollar Man, The Bionic Woman, any superhero, like anything that had like powers, I was very, very connected.
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To.
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But like all kids were, right?
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So to me, it wasn't like that's an anomaly.
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It's just all kids were.
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So a lot of reframing went into my childhood.
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When did you start to make the shift where you're like, oh no, this is undeniable?
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And then the shift again to deciding to help people with this.
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The shift of it that was undeniable was a slow, slow process because I kind of felt like the universe had to keep putting in in front of me.
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So I had the reading with Lydia.
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She was the first woman.
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And because my mom and my aunt, that's how the family always went to psychics.
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I used to go to psychic fairs.
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Okay.
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So I said to my mom, like, don't you think we should get like a second opinion?
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Like a doctor?
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Like, shouldn't we just like, shouldn't I go to somebody else?
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And my mom said, sure, but let me let me suss out some people.
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I'll I'm gonna go make sure that I'm okay with these people.
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I know that she used that as an excuse to go like have additional readings because she loved the subject matter.
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So she brought me back like five or six business cards from a psychic fair.
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And I went to them separately, privately, and they all said the same thing to me.
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So then I made a joke.
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I was like, maybe this is like a psychic thing.
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Like they all tell people that they're psychic.
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So you take their class.
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But nobody offered me a class.
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Like nobody said, come take my class.
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It was just like, do you know how psychic you are?
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I'd be like, not really, but I've heard it before.
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So when you have like five or six separate people who don't know each other from different parts of New York telling you the same thing, that to me was like, okay, I need to look at this.
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And one of the people actually, in the middle of the reading she was doing for me, got up, went to the phone, and called the woman who ran the psychic fair she worked at and said, Chili, you need to, you need to meet this kid.
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Like he's really psychic and he needs to come like work the fair.
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And I was like, what is happening?
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So she came and sat back down.
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And when the reading was over, I looked at her and I was like, How do you even know that I do readings?
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And she goes, How could you even ask me that question?
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I was like, but I never even asked you.
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Right.
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And she goes, How could you even ask me that question?
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Right.
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So that woman introduced me to the woman who ran the psychic fairs.
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And I had been doing readings at the time, cousins and cousins, friends, nothing really seriously.
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I went to the Snug Harper Cultural Center on Staten Island, New York, and I met the woman who ran the fairs.
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And she said, Go have a seat at
the back table.
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I'll play with you in a minute.
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So I walked through this room, like room full of people at tables doing readings.
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And when I sat down, I'm like sitting there thinking, like, okay, this is really weird.
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Like, I can't believe I'm like 16 years old, driving illegally to Staten Island, which is like 90 minutes away from where I am.
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This woman sat in front of me and she says, Do you do you have cards with you?
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I did.
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I had both business cards because Lydia had given me a gift of business cards to give to people that I wasn't planning on giving to anybody.
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And I had the cards that I was reading with.
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So she said, Read for me.
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And I was like, now?
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And she said, Yeah.
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So I was like, okay.
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So I did a reading, which I will still say to this day was a really bad one.
00:24:48.720 --> 00:24:56.319
And then about 10 minutes later, this other woman walks up to the table and she hands me a red ticket that had my name on it, had her name on it, and whatever time it was.
00:24:56.480 --> 00:24:58.240
And I looked at it, I was like, What is this?
00:24:58.400 --> 00:25:00.960
And she goes, Well, I think I give you the ticket and you give me a reading.
00:25:01.039 --> 00:25:02.880
I was like, Oh no, no, I'm sorry, they made a mistake.
00:25:02.960 --> 00:25:03.359
Come with me.
00:25:03.519 --> 00:25:06.480
I walk back up to the front and I said, She likes, oh, this woman just handed me a ticket.
00:25:06.559 --> 00:25:08.240
I go, I think this is for another John.
00:25:08.319 --> 00:25:09.279
Is there another John here?
00:25:09.359 --> 00:25:10.720
And she goes, No, it's for you.
00:25:10.799 --> 00:25:11.680
And she's laughing.
00:25:11.839 --> 00:25:13.200
She goes, just go read her.
00:25:13.359 --> 00:25:14.559
I read nine people that day.
00:25:14.640 --> 00:25:20.079
That was my first like real professional moment reading nine people at a psychic fair.
00:25:20.319 --> 00:25:27.759
And then those people told people, and those people told people, and it was that's how it just kind of just spiraled really, really, really rapidly.
00:25:28.960 --> 00:25:31.599
Talk me through a portion of this for sure.
00:25:31.920 --> 00:25:33.039
You actually like skeptics.
00:25:33.200 --> 00:25:33.519
I do.
00:25:34.240 --> 00:25:34.480
I do.
00:25:34.559 --> 00:25:35.599
And I think that's beautiful.
00:25:35.759 --> 00:25:36.720
Not cynics, right?
00:25:36.880 --> 00:25:37.519
But skeptics.
00:25:37.680 --> 00:25:37.920
Right.
00:25:38.079 --> 00:25:40.720
And I can't not like skeptics for various reasons.
00:25:40.880 --> 00:25:41.759
One, I was one.
00:25:41.839 --> 00:25:42.000
Yeah.
00:25:42.240 --> 00:25:42.480
Right.
00:25:42.559 --> 00:25:45.279
So when people attack me, I go, yeah, I get it.
00:25:45.440 --> 00:25:45.599
Right.
00:25:45.759 --> 00:25:46.240
I did it.
00:25:46.400 --> 00:25:47.680
Like I did the same thing.
00:25:47.839 --> 00:25:50.480
And I was better at it than some of the people who attacked me, to be honest.
00:25:50.640 --> 00:25:50.799
Right.
00:25:51.039 --> 00:25:53.359
And I just was like, okay, I know, I know where they're coming from.
00:25:53.519 --> 00:25:53.759
Right.
00:25:53.920 --> 00:25:55.680
But to be skeptical means that you're questioning.
00:25:55.759 --> 00:25:56.000
Right.
00:25:56.160 --> 00:26:03.599
And I think it was really significantly important back in the 80s and now in 2026 and moving into the future.
00:26:03.839 --> 00:26:07.440
I don't think anybody cannot be skeptical.
00:26:07.599 --> 00:26:09.039
And this is what I say at all my events.
00:26:09.200 --> 00:26:14.559
I'm like, how many times have you looked at your phone and had to turn to somebody and say, is this real?
00:26:14.720 --> 00:26:14.960
Right.
00:26:15.119 --> 00:26:18.640
Like, is what I'm seeing with my own eyes actually real or is this AI?
00:26:18.799 --> 00:26:22.559
On TikTok alone, I have one verified account with a blue check mark.
00:26:22.640 --> 00:26:23.519
You think that would be enough?
00:26:23.680 --> 00:26:24.079
It's not.
00:26:24.240 --> 00:26:24.400
Right.
00:26:24.559 --> 00:26:28.160
There were over 200 cloned accounts on TikTok of me.
00:26:28.319 --> 00:26:28.640
Yep.
00:26:28.799 --> 00:26:32.240
And now these people go after the people that comment on my stuff.
00:26:32.319 --> 00:26:36.400
So I think people have to be skeptical to make sure they're not taken advantage of for real.
00:26:36.480 --> 00:26:37.440
Like for real, for real.
00:26:37.519 --> 00:26:37.680
Yeah.
00:26:37.839 --> 00:26:39.759
So I think skepticism is really important.
00:26:40.640 --> 00:26:42.000
You're a curiosity person.
00:26:42.160 --> 00:26:42.400
Sure.
00:26:42.559 --> 00:26:43.359
You're a question person.
00:26:43.519 --> 00:26:43.839
I am.
00:26:44.079 --> 00:26:48.240
And I think that's kind of what led you here, but I think it continues to be, right?
00:26:48.400 --> 00:26:49.759
Because I'm a curiosity person.
00:26:49.920 --> 00:26:52.160
Part of the reason that we're here in this space.
00:26:52.400 --> 00:26:53.519
I'm fascinated.
00:26:53.920 --> 00:26:54.960
You see things.
00:26:55.119 --> 00:26:57.279
What how do you receive a lot of the stuff?
00:26:57.359 --> 00:26:58.640
What does it look like for you?
00:26:58.880 --> 00:27:00.480
It is a three-part process.
00:27:00.640 --> 00:27:02.799
I see, hear, and feel energy.
00:27:03.039 --> 00:27:06.640
And I want everybody to know that it is so subtle.
00:27:06.799 --> 00:27:08.799
It's not like you would think in the movies.
00:27:08.880 --> 00:27:10.799
It's not how things would be depicted.
00:27:11.039 -->
00:27:12.960
It's like so subtle that you can miss it.
00:27:13.119 --> 00:27:13.440
Right.
00:27:13.599 --> 00:27:25.359
Like, I mean, so subtle that it's the differentiating between what you're actually thinking and what you're receiving and paying attention and being able to put yourself in the place of receptivity.
00:27:25.440 --> 00:27:29.039
So where you clear your mind and just go with whatever it is that is actually coming through.
00:27:29.119 --> 00:27:31.680
So whatever I see here and feel, I'm going to now say.
00:27:31.839 --> 00:27:36.079
But it's kind of like psychic charades or sign language.
00:27:36.240 --> 00:27:41.200
I remember I did a uh I did a the Charles Groden show and there was a producer on there.
00:27:41.359 --> 00:27:42.640
His name is Brendan.
00:27:42.799 --> 00:27:49.200
And Brendan was a great, great, great skeptical producer, but skeptical in a healthy way.
00:27:49.359 --> 00:27:49.599
Right.
00:27:49.759 --> 00:27:52.240
And after I did the show, because I have a lot of symbols, right?
00:27:52.319 --> 00:27:56.480
So I'll talk about people being above you, which means you're older, people below you being younger to your side around the same age.
00:27:56.640 --> 00:27:58.000
I'll get initials and names.
00:27:58.079 --> 00:28:02.240
And then like I have a whole bunch of things that when I see, like if I see a white flower, it means happy birthday, congratulations.
00:28:02.319 --> 00:28:04.319
If I say pink roses, it's the way of expressing love.
00:28:04.480 --> 00:28:06.480
If there's thorns on the roses in life, they couldn't say it.
00:28:06.640 --> 00:28:08.640
Blue rose means someone's passed in the last 18 months.
00:28:08.799 --> 00:28:10.720
So like I have all these, like it's a quick shorthand.
00:28:10.880 --> 00:28:12.079
Like, I know I see that, I say that.
00:28:12.240 --> 00:28:14.240
And that's those are things that mean something to you.
00:28:14.400 --> 00:28:14.640
To me.
00:28:14.799 --> 00:28:15.039
Right.
00:28:15.200 --> 00:28:15.519
Okay.
00:28:15.839 --> 00:28:17.920
Over a period of time, they kind of get established.
00:28:18.160 --> 00:28:21.200
For example, like something really relatively new in the last decade.
00:28:21.359 --> 00:28:27.440
If I used to see a strand of DNA, I knew that somebody had a chromosomal abnormality in their family.
00:28:27.519 --> 00:28:27.759
Okay.
00:28:27.920 --> 00:28:30.160
Like a birth defect, the genome defect.
00:28:30.400 --> 00:28:33.519
Now it means somebody did their DNA and found out they have another relative.
00:28:34.160 --> 00:28:36.799
Because it's changed, because that wasn't possible 10 years ago, right?
00:28:37.039 --> 00:28:37.759
It completely changed.
00:28:37.839 --> 00:28:43.119
So after the Charles Grodin show, Brendan said, off camera, he's like, dude, I don't get it.
00:28:43.279 --> 00:28:47.279
He's like, why can't they just be like, I'm his dad, my name's John.
00:28:47.359 --> 00:28:47.519
Right.
00:28:47.680 --> 00:28:48.720
I had lung cancer.
00:28:48.880 --> 00:28:49.920
Tell him that I love him.
00:28:50.079 --> 00:28:52.640
And I looked at him and I smiled and I said, Well, they kind of do.
00:28:52.720 --> 00:28:55.200
And he goes, No, he goes, it's so cryptic.
00:28:55.359 --> 00:28:58.880
And I was like, Brendan, I go, how do deaf people communicate?
00:28:59.119 --> 00:29:00.640
And he looked at me and he goes, What?
00:29:00.880 --> 00:29:04.480
I go, how do people who are deaf communicate?
00:29:04.960 --> 00:29:06.799
He goes, sign language.
00:29:07.039 --> 00:29:08.480
And I went, why don't they just talk?
00:29:08.640 --> 00:29:09.039
Right.
00:29:09.279 --> 00:29:15.519
And the politically incorrect statement that I made to him, like, he was like, like, dude, like, how could you say that?
00:29:15.680 --> 00:29:18.880
I'm like, no, seriously, why don't deaf people just talk?
00:29:19.039 --> 00:29:20.480
He goes, because they're deaf.
00:29:20.559 --> 00:29:22.000
They're hearing impaired.
00:29:22.160 --> 00:29:25.599
They don't have the like the faculties to be able to do that.
00:29:25.680 --> 00:29:26.319
I'm like, right.
00:29:26.400 --> 00:29:27.359
And these people are dead.
00:29:27.440 --> 00:29:28.559
They don't have the physical body.
00:29:28.640 --> 00:29:32.000
So they can't actually make sound happen in the way that you're asking.
00:29:32.079 --> 00:29:37.599
I said, so it's got to be processed in the mind of the recipient, which is me that's the medium.
00:29:37.759 --> 00:29:40.319
And the way that it comes across to me is this way.
00:29:40.480 --> 00:29:42.640
You may talk to another medium, it's going to come across differently.
00:29:42.720 --> 00:29:42.880
Right.
00:29:43.039 --> 00:29:45.839
People have different abilities and they're going to see things in a different capacity.
00:29:45.920 --> 00:29:47.039
And he goes, got it.
00:29:47.200 --> 00:29:48.799
I go, so it's like sign language.
00:29:48.960 --> 00:29:51.440
And then I studied ASL for a hot second.
00:29:51.599 --> 00:29:55.359
And one of the things I was fascinated about ASL is that it's not what I thought it was.
00:29:55.599 --> 00:30:03.519
I thought that when somebody was communicating in ASL, they were literally saying word for word of what they're actually interpreting.
00:30:03.680 --> 00:30:05.039
And apparently they're not.
00:30:05.279 --> 00:30:12.880
They're not saying word for word, they're interpreting in gesture, word for word, and conveying that in a really, really big way.
00:30:13.119 --> 00:30:19.759
And I found that fascinating because otherwise everything would be like fingerspelled, or it would be like word for word.
00:30:20.000 --> 00:30:22.079
So I think it's a lot like that.
00:30:22.319 --> 00:30:26.720
The interpretation of energy is where things can go sideways.
00:30:26.880 --> 00:30:31.599
So I always say they 100% in their intention of coming through.
00:30:31.839 --> 00:30:32.799
Me, no.
00:30:33.039 --> 00:30:33.920
I
could, I'm human.
00:30:34.000 --> 00:30:40.880
I could misinterpret what they're saying, which is why my style is to share everything that I'm seeing, hearing, and feeling in case I go down the wrong path.
00:30:41.279 --> 00:30:43.039
At least they know what was attempted to come through.
00:30:43.359 --> 00:30:48.880
How often, because I imagine it's a bit like anything else, because you're translating in some ways, right?
00:30:49.119 --> 00:30:53.279
How often do you give somebody something and it makes no sense to them in the moment?
00:30:53.359 --> 00:31:00.960
And then afterwards they like reach back and are like, often, yeah, because I would imagine it's like, oh, I don't know anything about a rose, right?
00:31:01.119 --> 00:31:12.799
And then they go and talk to their mom, their sister, their brother, somebody else, and they're talking about the roses that this person used to grow, or the thing that that image actually could mean something completely different.
00:31:12.960 --> 00:31:16.480
Like rose is actually rose a person, not rose a flower.
00:31:16.640 --> 00:31:18.160
Like I would imagine that happens a lot.
00:31:18.319 --> 00:31:19.119
It happens quite a bit.
00:31:19.279 --> 00:31:19.519
Okay.
00:31:19.759 --> 00:31:21.519
And that's because people have expectation.
00:31:21.920 --> 00:31:24.240
And they have an expectation of what that process should look like.
00:31:24.319 --> 00:31:28.319
If this person was going to come through, they should be doing this, they should come through with this, they should say this.
00:31:28.480 --> 00:31:33.519
And that doesn't always happen because they're going through a third-party person that has to interpret it.
00:31:33.759 --> 00:31:41.200
So one of my favorite, favorite old-time stories is I did a private reading for a woman and her dad was coming in.
00:31:41.359 --> 00:31:42.319
And it was a great reading.
00:31:42.640 --> 00:31:45.200
It was like, you know, it was a good reading, it was validated, it was accurate.
00:31:45.359 --> 00:31:48.720
But the entire time the dad was showing me golf symbolism.
00:31:49.119 --> 00:31:51.839
So I said very confidently, I go, Oh, your dad wasn't having a golfer.
00:31:52.160 --> 00:31:53.920
My dad never golfed a day in his life.
00:31:54.079 --> 00:31:55.200
It's like, hmm.
00:31:55.599 --> 00:32:01.920
Throughout the entire reading, I'm seeing golf clubs, golf balls, golf carts, golf courses, golf hats, right?
00:32:02.079 --> 00:32:05.279
You name it, the golf symbolism is it couldn't get it couldn't get bigger.
00:32:05.440 --> 00:32:05.680
Right.
00:32:05.839 --> 00:32:07.680
So I'm like, are you sure?
00:32:07.759 --> 00:32:08.640
And she said, Well, not.
00:32:08.880 --> 00:32:10.880
She goes, Maybe he took up golfing in the afterlife.
00:32:11.039 --> 00:32:12.960
I was like, no, I feel like this has a bigger meeting.
00:32:13.119 --> 00:32:13.359
Right.
00:32:13.519 --> 00:32:14.880
So the reading ends.
00:32:15.039 --> 00:32:18.400
There is no resolve with any of the golf symbols that were coming through.
00:32:18.559 --> 00:32:19.680
And the reading's kind of like over.
00:32:19.759 --> 00:32:20.799
And I said, Do you have any questions?
00:32:20.960 --> 00:32:22.000
She goes, I do have one question.
00:32:22.079 --> 00:32:23.680
She goes, She goes, John, I'm not testing you.
00:32:23.759 --> 00:32:24.559
She goes, This was amazing.
00:32:24.640 --> 00:32:25.680
She goes, Thank you so much for this.
00:32:25.759 --> 00:32:28.400
She goes, but my dad used to sign everything with a number.
00:32:28.559 --> 00:32:29.759
Can you tell me what that number is?
00:32:29.839 --> 00:32:33.839
And I went, No, because now I have 47 numbers like floating through my head.
00:32:33.920 --> 00:32:34.880
I know.
00:32:35.440 --> 00:32:42.000
And at that moment, he took all the golf symbols and he like played it like a movie in my mind really, really fast, and he added one more.
00:32:42.240 --> 00:32:43.519
He went like this.
00:32:43.839 --> 00:32:45.440
And I was like, four.
00:32:45.599 --> 00:32:48.720
Now he's doing the golf thing again and he's ending it with like, whatever is that?
00:32:48.799 --> 00:32:50.079
What do they yell when they play golf?
00:32:50.160 --> 00:32:50.319
Yeah.
00:32:50.720 --> 00:32:52.559
And I was like, four.
00:32:52.720 --> 00:32:54.880
And then it hit me and I went, four.
00:32:55.119 --> 00:32:56.799
And she was bawling her eyes out.
00:32:57.440 --> 00:33:07.680
Now this man was brilliant because if he would have said to me, four, I would have turned around and said, either April the fourth month has a meaning or the fourth of a month is significant birthday or anniversary.
00:33:07.839 --> 00:33:10.240
And she would have said, No, that was one of my dad's favorite numbers.
00:33:10.319 --> 00:33:11.200
He signed everything with it.
00:33:11.279 --> 00:33:14.480
And I would have said, No, I don't get information like that.
00:33:14.640 --> 00:33:15.200
Right.
00:33:15.519 --> 00:33:17.519
Because I would have stuck to my symbols.
00:33:17.759 --> 00:33:18.640
He was brilliant.
00:33:18.799 --> 00:33:23.359
He took me down a whole path to get to the place that she was going to ask me at the end.
00:33:24.960 --> 00:33:28.720
That's got to be such a beautiful experience.
00:33:29.440 --> 00:33:36.079
Do you feel like you're giving people a reconnection or a I feel like I'm giving people an education?
00:33:36.240 --> 00:33:36.559
Okay.
00:33:36.720 --> 00:33:38.400
I want to give them a tool set.
00:33:38.559 --> 00:33:47.839
When I was a kid and people, when I say a kid, when I was a teenager, you know, late, late teens, early 20s, when my grandmother would hear me telling my clients when they would say, When can I come back?
00:33:47.920 --> 00:33:49.440
And I would say, you know what, you've seen me.
00:33:49.599 --> 00:33:53.839
Like maybe if you want to do this again, go, go, go see somebody else to get a different perspective.
00:33:54.079 --> 00:33:54.640
They would leave.
00:33:54.720 --> 00:33:56.799
My grandma would be like, What is wrong with you?
00:33:56.880 --> 00:33:57.599
And I'd be like, What?
00:33:57.680 --> 00:34:00.640
She's like, Why, what why are you telling people not to come back?
00:34:00.720 --> 00:34:01.759
You're gonna have no business.
00:34:01.920 --> 00:34:03.200
I'm like, I'm good.
00:34:03.440 --> 00:34:08.320
I'm just not wanting people to foster a dependency on me or the subject matter.
00:34:08.480 --> 00:34:11.360
And then it got to a point where people couldn't get back in front of me, so it was kind of easy.
00:34:11.440 --> 00:34:15.039
I could tell people, like, you can't, you couldn't get to see me sometimes for like over a year.
00:34:15.119 --> 00:34:15.360
Right.
00:34:15.599 --> 00:34:19.119
But I still didn't want people to foster an external connection.
00:34:19.360 --> 00:34:21.679
I still don't want people to foster an external connection.
00:34:21.840 --> 00:34:23.679
I want people to actually go direct.
00:34:23.760 --> 00:34:30.000
There's no greater gift than we can give them than ourselves and our ability to be open to how they communicate directly.
00:34:30.159 --> 00:34:31.039
Is it nice to be read?
00:34:31.199 --> 00:34:31.599
Absolutely.
00:34:31.679 --> 00:34:32.880
Is it nice to get the validations?
00:34:33.039 --> 00:34:33.679
Of course it is.
00:34:33.840 --> 00:34:36.719
Do I like it when a colleague of mine will turn to me and give me something?
00:34:36.880 --> 00:34:37.360
Of course.
00:34:37.599 --> 00:34:42.400
But that doesn't usurp my own direct connection with my family and friends that are in spirit.
00:34:42.639 --> 00:34:43.679
That to me is the gift.
00:34:44.000 --> 00:34:50.639
So is part of this, you want people to see the signs, the feel the energy, have their own connection and build their own muscle.
00:34:50.880 --> 00:34:55.519
I want them to live with the knowing that they have their own relationship still.
00:34:56.239 --> 00:35:04.000
Like I don't think there's any greater gift we can give the people who have passed than ourselves, giving them and being 50% of that equation.
00:35:04.400 --> 00:35:10.239
And sometimes we we are seeking and seeking is good because that leads to exploration and discovery.
00:35:10.480 --> 00:35:13.280
When you have discovery, it raises your awareness, and then you can put things into action.
00:35:13.360 --> 00:35:14.480
That's how we actually evolve.
00:35:14.800 --> 00:35:19.119
But if we're only seeking the things that we want to hear, we might miss all the other stuff.
00:35:19.679 --> 00:35:20.639
Interesting.
00:35:21.519 --> 00:35:23.519
Let's talk about for a minute, chasing evil.
00:35:23.760 --> 00:35:24.079
Sure.
00:35:24.320 --> 00:35:27.840
So you worked kind of secretly, right?
00:35:28.079 --> 00:35:29.119
With an FBI agent.
00:35:29.360 --> 00:35:30.000
Always secretly.
00:35:30.159 --> 00:35:30.400
Yeah.
00:35:30.559 --> 00:35:30.960
Yes.
00:35:31.280 -->
00:35:32.639
How did that start?
00:35:32.880 --> 00:35:38.639
And then, like, and what did it feel like to begin this process?
00:35:38.880 --> 00:35:40.719
So he heard me on the radio.
00:35:40.880 --> 00:35:43.360
I had been a staple on morning radio across America.
00:35:43.519 --> 00:35:43.679
Right.
00:35:43.840 --> 00:35:49.519
Where I was like one of the top guests on a lot of the top morning shows when radio stations were like in their heyday.
00:35:49.599 --> 00:35:49.920
Yeah.
00:35:50.239 --> 00:35:54.320
And he heard me on the Scott and Todd morning show in New York City, WPLJ.
00:35:54.639 --> 00:35:55.920
And I was on there a lot.
00:35:56.079 --> 00:35:57.599
And he did not like that.
00:35:58.079 --> 00:36:04.719
He did not like the fact that they were putting this guy on to give false hope to people thinking that they could talk to their dead relatives.
00:36:04.960 --> 00:36:10.000
So he took me on as an assignment to expose me as a fraud, but he brought me a real case.
00:36:10.719 --> 00:36:13.599
And that's how we met under that arrangement.
00:36:13.760 --> 00:36:19.679
Now, the funny part is, I was told by my assistant that he had called multiple times and I had to get him in.
00:36:19.840 --> 00:36:20.400
Nope.
00:36:20.639 --> 00:36:20.800
Right.
00:36:20.960 --> 00:36:24.000
I found out on book tour while telling that story.
00:36:24.159 --> 00:36:29.280
And he's a very, very black and white, really black and white communicator.
00:36:29.440 --> 00:36:32.880
And he was like in the middle of an interview, he was like, I called you once.
00:36:33.119 --> 00:36:34.000
I was like, what?
00:36:34.320 --> 00:36:36.079
He's like, I only called you once.
00:36:36.320 --> 00:36:37.440
I was like, I didn't know that.
00:36:37.519 --> 00:36:39.199
I found that that like on book tour.
00:36:39.280 --> 00:36:39.599
Right.
00:36:39.760 --> 00:36:42.960
So he called once, my office got him in front of me.
00:36:43.039 --> 00:36:44.559
He brought a New Jersey cop with him.
00:36:44.719 --> 00:36:49.519
So the two of them sat opposite me and he brought me a real case of a missing woman from New Jersey.
00:36:49.679 --> 00:36:56.960
And throughout that reading, getting information about that specific woman in case, I wound up connecting with him.
00:36:57.440 --> 00:37:02.000
And I brought through information about his mom and dad's family that he did not know.
00:37:02.239 --> 00:37:11.039
That when he went home and basically gave them the information, one of his family had a little bit of an emotional reaction to it and then validated the information.
00:37:11.280 --> 00:37:18.159
So for him, he was a little bit like mind-blown from the reality because he also works in evidence.
00:37:18.239 --> 00:37:20.000
He works with like data.
00:37:20.159 --> 00:37:24.079
And his data was now, there's no, he knew that there was no way that I would know anything about his family.
00:37:24.239 --> 00:37:25.119
That was how we met.
00:37:25.280 -->
00:37:32.000
And then as a result of that, he called me back and was like, Can can you help me in any other way moving on?
00:37:32.239 --> 00:37:34.159
And my dad was a New York City police officer.
00:37:34.239 --> 00:37:35.440
He was not a fan of the subject matter.
00:37:35.599 --> 00:37:36.960
Matter of fact, he had said two things to me.
00:37:37.119 --> 00:37:40.880
One, do not besmirch my name and don't ever let me find out that you're working with the police.
00:37:40.960 --> 00:37:43.840
So I jokingly say I jumped over the police and went right to the FBI.
00:37:44.079 --> 00:37:46.320
But um I only worked, I only worked for one guy.
00:37:46.480 --> 00:37:47.119
It was Bob.
00:37:47.199 --> 00:37:50.159
Um so I jokingly say, I didn't work for the FBI, I worked for the BOB.
00:37:50.239 --> 00:37:50.400
Right.
00:37:50.559 --> 00:37:51.840
And I really didn't have an interest in crime.
00:37:52.000 --> 00:37:53.119
I still don't have an interest in crime.
00:37:53.199 --> 00:37:55.039
Like that's not where my passion lies.
00:37:55.280 --> 00:37:56.960
And it seems to work with him.
00:37:57.119 --> 00:38:01.920
It seems to like, I don't know, our connection universally, he's like a brother to me.
00:38:02.079 --> 00:38:06.639
It was a three-decade journey where he would, you know, come to me with some of the cases he was working on.
00:38:06.719 --> 00:38:07.440
And he'll say it.
00:38:07.519 --> 00:38:09.599
He goes, I didn't set out to prove him right.
00:38:09.760 --> 00:38:10.800
I didn't have a bias.
00:38:10.880 --> 00:38:12.639
I just used the insights.
00:38:12.719 --> 00:38:14.400
And I say, I solve nothing.
00:38:14.719 --> 00:38:17.920
He used those insights in his work.
00:38:18.159 --> 00:38:19.599
And it's kind of what I do with my clients.
00:38:19.679 --> 00:38:20.800
I can't fix their grief.
00:38:20.880 --> 00:38:21.039
Right.
00:38:21.199 --> 00:38:22.000
I give them insights.
00:38:22.159 --> 00:38:23.679
What they do with that, it's up to them.
00:38:25.039 --> 00:38:29.280
It's very interesting because I think it's a teamwork thing, right?
00:38:29.760 --> 00:38:32.639
I I love that you're like, I didn't solve any of these things.
00:38:33.119 --> 00:38:41.199
Talk about at least one or two examples of like, here's an example of something that maybe he was running into either a dead end or something that didn't match up.
00:38:41.360 --> 00:38:43.519
Because I don't think people realize from the outside.
00:38:43.679 --> 00:38:43.920
Right.
00:38:44.159 --> 00:38:49.599
Um I used to work for you Jav Recovery for a while, and then I consulted with with some government agencies.
00:38:50.639 --> 00:38:56.239
People don't realize how few crimes really get solved until there really needs a piece.
00:38:56.400 --> 00:38:58.159
And it's all puzzles, right?
00:38:58.719 --> 00:39:04.559
Because you're you're trying to put together pieces where people can't tell you the details.
00:39:05.760 --> 00:39:09.440
So I would think this is a perfect example of the unknown, right?
00:39:10.320 --> 00:39:21.039
Where you're giving a piece of the information, then you guys kind of have to figure out where that piece fits in the puzzle, but then you still have to solve the puzzle and then you have to prove it.
00:39:21.280 --> 00:39:22.159
That's a him thing.
00:39:22.239 --> 00:39:22.320
Yeah.
00:39:22.480 --> 00:39:23.199
That's not a me thing.
00:39:23.280 --> 00:39:24.000
Yeah, that's what I'm saying.
00:39:24.159 --> 00:39:28.320
So, like that, it's great teamwork because it's like I'm receiving this kind of information.
00:39:28.639 --> 00:39:31.760
You have to decide what that means and then decide what you do with it.
00:39:32.000 --> 00:39:35.199
I kind of feel like I was the seasoning to what he was already doing.
00:39:35.599 --> 00:39:43.119
Like I gave him a, I gave what he was cooking a certain type of flavor or the ability to look at things through a different capacity or a lens.
00:39:43.280 --> 00:39:43.440
All right.
00:39:43.599 --> 00:39:46.639
So there's one of the cases there was a woman that was missing from Yale.
00:39:46.719 --> 00:39:47.840
Her name was Annie Lee.
00:39:47.920 --> 00:39:51.679
I was on tour in Ireland and he got called in on that.
00:39:51.760 --> 00:39:54.960
And he called me as he was walking through, and I worked in a hospital.
00:39:55.199 --> 00:40:02.639
So I literally had a frame of reference of walking through a lab, and there were certain things that they were able to show me to help guide kind of guide him.
00:40:02.800 --> 00:40:05.920
So I was able to say, okay, look for this.
00:40:06.159 --> 00:40:08.000
Once you go through that door, look for this.
00:40:08.239 --> 00:40:13.280
Once you go through that, and then he got to a certain area where I was like, She's right there.
00:40:13.519 --> 00:40:14.719
And he's like, She's not here.
00:40:14.800 --> 00:40:16.320
I'm like, she's right there.
00:40:16.480 --> 00:40:23.440
I was giving the description of what it was that I was seeing, whether it be like, you know, a footprint that was on the ceiling or the mini fridge that was there.
00:40:23.679 --> 00:40:27.119
All of these things were like landmarks that he was seeing while he was there.
00:40:27.280 --> 00:40:34.079
And that was an example of like how he was able to kind of tell the people what and where to look.
00:40:34.800 --> 00:40:35.679
Fascinating.
00:40:35.920 --> 00:40:38.559
And I believe that they found her after he had left.
00:40:38.880 --> 00:40:42.480
So that was an example of information getting validated after the fact, not while he was present.
00:40:42.639 --> 00:40:43.280
Right.
00:40:44.800 --> 00:40:47.920
Do you love that part when a piece comes?
00:40:48.320 --> 00:40:53.920
Yeah, like when it doesn't seem like it came together, or because it's an ability, right?
00:40:54.159 --> 00:40:56.239
You talk about using this muscle, right?
00:40:57.039 --> 00:41:00.320
Doesn't always work or
doesn't always work at the speed we want it to.
00:41:00.559 --> 00:41:03.920
It must feel amazing when somebody realizes later.
00:41:04.239 --> 00:41:04.639
It does.
00:41:05.119 --> 00:41:11.199
But it feels equally not amazing when someone's sitting in front of you and they're grieving and you want to help them and you don't feel like you can.
00:41:11.280 --> 00:41:11.440
Yeah.
00:41:11.599 --> 00:41:13.280
Like when you can't break through that.
00:41:13.519 --> 00:41:18.320
So like there are these moments where all you hear back is no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
00:41:18.559 --> 00:41:23.199
And then you push as much as you can to get them to at least remember what's coming through.
00:41:23.280 --> 00:41:24.880
And hopefully they'll make that connection.
00:41:24.960 --> 00:41:27.039
But I think a lot of times they they might not.
00:41:27.199 --> 00:41:34.400
I think one of the best, and I will say the word, one of the best gifts I was given came from a woman that I studied with, her name is Sandy Anastasi.
00:41:34.880 --> 00:41:38.079
And she said to me, You know, you don't have to be 100% right.
00:41:38.639 --> 00:41:40.480
And I looked at it and I was like, What?
00:41:40.719 --> 00:41:44.239
She goes, When you do what you do, you don't have to be a hundred percent right.
00:41:44.639 --> 00:41:45.599
And she paused.
00:41:45.840 --> 00:41:49.920
She goes, But you have to strive to be a hundred percent accurate.
00:41:51.039 --> 00:41:51.360
Yes.
00:41:51.760 --> 00:41:52.079
Okay.
00:41:52.800 --> 00:42:01.840
And it became very, very, very clear to me that as a medium, I could be a hundred percent right almost all the time.
00:42:02.159 --> 00:42:06.400
Because people want a certain person, they want to hear a certain thing.
00:42:06.559 --> 00:42:06.719
Right.
00:42:06.880 --> 00:42:13.679
And anybody who's been doing readings for less than a year will know exactly what those things are, and they'll know exactly what to say to the person.
00:42:13.920 --> 00:42:20.480
So in my events, in my private sessions, I will tell people up front, hey, I'm taking all of these things off the table.
00:42:20.719 --> 00:42:27.119
We're not gonna be talking about your butterflies and your cardinals and your dragonflies and finding feathers and seeing 1111 and your pennies, dimes, and quarters.
00:42:27.199 --> 00:42:37.360
And I go down like a listing of all the top things that people are gonna definitely see because those are the symbols that their loved ones and friends are gonna use in a pattern to get them to see that.
00:42:37.519 --> 00:42:38.559
So every medium knows that.
00:42:38.639 --> 00:42:40.320
So I'm like, every medium knows this.
00:42:40.400 --> 00:42:41.440
These aren't allowed to come through.
00:42:41.519 --> 00:42:48.960
Oh, and by the way, I'm also not gonna talk about your jewelry and I don't want to talk about your photographs unless they give me a story that's gonna be connected to it and your tattoos.
00:42:49.119 --> 00:42:49.280
Okay.
00:42:49.440 --> 00:42:53.039
Because these are all the things that people will do to honor and connect with their loved ones and friends.
00:42:53.119 --> 00:42:56.639
So I take that off the table because I know that that's happening.
00:42:56.800 --> 00:43:00.960
But if I want it to be right, 100% of the time, I would leave all those things on the table.
00:43:01.039 --> 00:43:06.079
And I'd be like, oh, there's something that happens, and you see cardinals, and that's your son.
00:43:06.400 --> 00:43:08.719
It's off the table because I want to be accurate.
00:43:08.880 --> 00:43:09.199
Right.
00:43:09.360 --> 00:43:26.480
And sometimes that wanting to be accurate, getting as close to us 100% as possible, which is not never gonna happen, but to strive for that means that you have to say no to people in a group that are saying, yes, that's for me, and go to the person who's going, no, I don't know what that is, when you know it's for that person.
00:43:26.639 --> 00:43:27.280
Right.
00:43:28.159 --> 00:43:30.000
It must be an interesting dynamic.
00:43:30.079 --> 00:43:37.039
That must be a fascinating thing because you're like, my message is coming this way, right?
00:43:37.119 --> 00:43:42.239
I feel and this is the one person in the group who isn't saying, me, me, me, pick me.
00:43:43.039 --> 00:43:44.320
But you kind of know.
00:43:45.199 --> 00:43:46.079
I get a pull.
00:43:46.159 --> 00:43:47.360
I literally feel pulled.
00:43:47.519 --> 00:43:50.880
So, like, if I was reading for you, I would feel a pull towards you.
00:43:50.960 --> 00:43:56.480
But if I was reading for the producer, I would get a pull towards the producer and I would be like, oh no, no, no, I'm I'm over there, right?
00:43:56.719 --> 00:43:57.360
Not over here.
00:43:57.519 --> 00:43:59.440
And that happens when I'm standing in front of an audience.
00:43:59.519 --> 00:44:03.679
Like I'm In front of a group of people, whether it's 10 people or 10,000, I'm gonna get a pull to the section.
00:44:03.840 --> 00:44:08.400
And many, many, many, many times the people in that section look at me like, I don't have that.
00:44:08.559 --> 00:44:11.679
And then you have like 17 other hands that are like, Oh no, that's for me.
00:44:11.920 --> 00:44:20.639
So I either look to be right in front of people, or I go, No, no, no, I'm over here and wait for more information to come through to validate that I am with that person.
00:44:20.719 --> 00:44:22.320
And then eventually there's a breakthrough moment.
00:44:22.480 --> 00:44:26.880
And I think that to me is what's the most, I don't know, fascinating part for me all these years later.
00:44:26.960 --> 00:44:28.239
This is 41 years I'm doing this.
00:44:28.960 --> 00:44:31.599
I am mesmerized by the process.
00:44:31.840 --> 00:44:34.719
I love watching it, whether I'm doing it or somebody else is doing it.
00:44:34.800 --> 00:44:36.800
I just love watching the connections happen.
00:44:37.039 --> 00:44:39.760
And
somebody said to me, like, you're still like amazed by this.
00:44:39.920 --> 00:44:42.880
I go, the day that I'm not amazed by this, I shouldn't be allowed to do it.
00:44:43.119 --> 00:44:43.760
Right.
00:44:44.000 --> 00:44:54.880
Yeah, because I if there's no, but I see the same thing about acting or when I'm coaching or any, like, if it doesn't stir something in you, then you've lost your magic for it.
00:44:54.960 --> 00:44:59.039
And you probably shouldn't be doing it because you're you're not doing it for the right reason at that point.
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.559
What's the question that you wish people asked you?
00:45:02.800 --> 00:45:05.280
What's the thing that people don't ask you that they should do?
00:45:05.679 --> 00:45:07.119
This is the second time this week this has come up.
00:45:07.199 --> 00:45:10.400
Somebody asked me on uh I have an online community called Evolve Plus.
00:45:10.639 --> 00:45:10.800
Okay.
00:45:10.960 --> 00:45:15.440
And somebody, Tristan, um, asked me, like, like, what is that?
00:45:15.599 --> 00:45:18.800
What is the what is a question that that people would want to ask me?
00:45:18.960 --> 00:45:19.679
Um, I don't know.
00:45:19.840 --> 00:45:21.119
I'm I've been thinking about that.
00:45:21.280 --> 00:45:22.239
I don't know what that is.
00:45:22.480 --> 00:45:28.239
Okay, what's something that the rest of the world thinks is normal that you think is kind of crazy?
00:45:28.480 --> 00:45:36.079
Because you're a very logical person, but you exist in a world that feels illogical to others.
00:45:36.320 --> 00:45:36.800
Correct.
00:45:37.039 --> 00:45:39.440
Which I think is actually, I think, one of your strengths.
00:45:39.679 --> 00:45:41.599
Because I think it gives you a groundedness.
00:45:41.760 --> 00:45:47.599
And I think you you face people who don't agree with you well because you're like, I get that, right?
00:45:48.320 --> 00:45:51.599
But what are the things in this world where you're like, I just don't understand that?
00:45:51.840 --> 00:45:54.079
Uh people's lack of belief in science right now.
00:45:54.159 --> 00:45:54.480
Yeah.
00:45:54.639 --> 00:46:00.639
The fact that people think that they could be a keyboard warrior and know better than scientists regarding vaccines.
00:46:00.960 --> 00:46:03.519
Like, that makes me want to like slap people.
00:46:03.679 --> 00:46:03.840
Yeah.
00:46:04.000 --> 00:46:08.000
Like I lose my spirituality and I would be like, like, are you out of your fucking mind?
00:46:08.159 --> 00:46:08.880
Like, seriously.
00:46:09.039 --> 00:46:09.199
Yeah.
00:46:09.440 --> 00:46:11.039
Like, we should not be dealing with measles.
00:46:11.199 --> 00:46:12.159
My background's in healthcare.
00:46:12.239 --> 00:46:12.400
Yeah.
00:46:12.639 --> 00:46:27.119
So when I look at like healthcare and public administrations, like that through that lens, it's like, it's kind of silly to have to have conversations about things that we shouldn't be having to have conversations because somebody it's it that that that right there.
00:46:27.280 --> 00:46:28.079
Oh, I agree with you.
00:46:28.159 --> 00:46:42.800
I I used to volunteer in the NICU, and they would have debates over whether they should if you can have the debate about some vaccines, but certain vaccines have been universally beneficial for really long.
00:46:42.880 --> 00:46:46.239
Like the data is my mom was a nurse, so I come from a medical background.
00:46:46.320 --> 00:46:48.480
And I'm like, that's not one, right?
00:46:48.559 --> 00:46:53.119
Like our data is overwhelmingly, the science is very clear.
00:46:53.360 --> 00:47:00.079
And I'd be like, oh, please, because like measles is one, like, there's no reason somebody should have to deal with measles now.
00:47:00.159 --> 00:47:00.480
Right.
00:47:00.639 --> 00:47:08.400
And so it's horrifying to me to watch outbreaks because I also know what it looks like when someone has one and how horrible it is.
00:47:08.639 --> 00:47:18.159
And I feel like if you're gonna be that person and you're gonna say, I'm gonna be anti-vax on this point, then they should be forced to actually understand the ramifications of that.
00:47:18.239 --> 00:47:21.039
That goes beyond, well, I feel not about you.
00:47:21.199 --> 00:47:21.360
Right.
00:47:21.440 --> 00:47:22.480
You'll you don't live in a bubble.
00:47:22.559 --> 00:47:26.800
You live in a you live in a world where your feelings are gonna get in the way of other people's health.
00:47:26.960 --> 00:47:34.159
So for everybody that's out there that has autoimmune issues or like all of that, it's like it's an irresponsible stand.
00:47:34.880 --> 00:47:35.119
Yeah.
00:47:35.280 --> 00:47:36.320
In my opinion.
00:47:36.639 --> 00:47:38.960
What is it that lights you up at this point, John?
00:47:39.119 --> 00:47:44.639
Like, what is the thing that like, or something that people wouldn't expect from you that the world doesn't really know?
00:47:44.880 --> 00:47:45.199
I don't know.
00:47:45.280 --> 00:47:47.760
I'm pretty I'm I pretty much talk about everything.
00:47:48.159 --> 00:47:50.079
You know, and I I don't shy away from stuff.
00:47:50.159 --> 00:47:52.480
Like if I have an opinion about something, I'll I'll say it.
00:47:52.639 --> 00:47:55.519
I don't stand on uh like, oh, I have to protect my brand.
00:47:55.679 --> 00:47:55.920
Yeah.
00:47:56.079 --> 00:47:57.119
I'm like, I don't care.
00:47:57.280 --> 00:47:57.519
Yeah.
00:47:57.760 --> 00:47:58.480
I'm just me.
00:47:58.639 --> 00:47:58.800
Yeah.
00:47:58.880 --> 00:48:03.519
I like it's one of the things I love about you is you've been in this so long.
00:48:03.679 --> 00:48:14.480
And I think one of the reasons that you've lasted so long in a public sphere, the same for me, is like because when you create a persona, then you have to try and keep it up, and that's exhausting because that's not who you are.
00:48:14.639 --> 00:48:18.320
I gotta be honest, every time people would say to
me, Oh my god, you're just like you are on TV.
00:48:18.480 --> 00:48:19.920
You're like, well, who else would I be?
00:48:20.079 --> 00:48:21.119
I don't know how to be anybody else.
00:48:21.360 --> 00:48:24.159
Like I if that wasn't a character, that's like that, that's me.
00:48:24.320 --> 00:48:25.840
Like that, that was me then.
00:48:25.920 --> 00:48:28.559
That's this is me now, older, but still me.
00:48:28.800 --> 00:48:29.440
Right.
00:48:30.320 --> 00:48:32.639
For family members, like mine?
00:48:32.800 --> 00:48:33.039
Yeah.
00:48:33.199 --> 00:48:33.519
Okay.
00:48:35.039 --> 00:48:38.559
Do you find yourself sharing or not sharing?
00:48:38.639 --> 00:48:40.800
Because I know you can turn this off and turn it on, right?
00:48:40.880 --> 00:48:46.639
Do you do you try hard to be like Yeah, I don't want to ever overstep, right?
00:48:46.800 --> 00:48:51.760
And sometimes if I see stuff over people that I know, like I know outcomes, right?
00:48:51.920 --> 00:48:54.480
If I get in the way of those outcomes, then they're not gonna learn their lessons.
00:48:54.559 --> 00:49:05.119
So sometimes I have to be like aware of what I can say, aware of what I'm not what I shouldn't say, because if I stop them from a learning lesson here, they're gonna learn it someplace else.
00:49:05.199 --> 00:49:06.960
So like let me not get in the way of that.
00:49:07.119 --> 00:49:12.239
Sometimes there are moments where I know I could share and be like, hey, you may wanna, you may want to watch out for that.
00:49:12.480 --> 00:49:21.920
Or take a but I I do it in an hopefully I do it with intention in an empowered way, not in a fear-based way.
00:49:22.559 --> 00:49:23.360
Interesting.
00:49:23.599 --> 00:49:26.559
That must be such a responsibility.
00:49:26.880 --> 00:49:27.760
It's all about delivery.
00:49:27.840 --> 00:49:30.000
Like as a fellow Libra, you know how to communicate, right?
00:49:30.079 --> 00:49:30.159
Yeah.
00:49:30.320 --> 00:49:31.199
You know how to keep the balance.
00:49:31.440 --> 00:49:34.400
I try to be very conscious of like how I deliver this message.
00:49:34.800 --> 00:49:41.440
And I think that as a Libra, we play a game of energetic chess when we're saying certain things because people will say that Libras are indecisive.
00:49:41.599 --> 00:49:42.960
I say we're not indecisive.
00:49:43.119 --> 00:49:50.639
I say that we just openly communicate about our options and then we switch to communicate about what the other option is.
00:49:50.800 --> 00:49:50.960
Right.
00:49:51.119 --> 00:49:54.559
But somebody who's on the receiving end of that may look like we're flip-flopping.
00:49:54.719 --> 00:49:55.039
We're not.
00:49:55.119 --> 00:49:58.239
We're just kind of like, you know, when a bat flies, they send out their little, you know, pings.
00:49:58.320 --> 00:49:58.480
Yeah.
00:49:58.639 --> 00:49:59.119
That's what we're doing.
00:49:59.199 --> 00:50:03.360
We're sending out our energy to see what it feels like to
go in this direction and then to go in this direction.
00:50:03.519 --> 00:50:05.199
Or maybe I'm gonna go back to this direction.
00:50:05.280 --> 00:50:05.360
Right.
00:50:05.519 --> 00:50:08.000
And people might look at that as being indecisive.
00:50:08.159 --> 00:50:08.480
I don't.
00:50:08.559 --> 00:50:11.119
I think we're playing an out loud verbal game of chess.
00:50:11.280 --> 00:50:14.239
And like you get like a Taurus who's like, you know, oh, they're so stubborn.
00:50:14.480 --> 00:50:15.679
No, I don't think they're stubborn.
00:50:16.159 --> 00:50:19.280
I think they just need a lot of information to make an informed decision.
00:50:19.519 --> 00:50:24.880
So I like to reframe some of the stereotypes around like like signs or or things of that nature.
00:50:25.039 --> 00:50:27.760
But when I'm communicating, I'm I'm an intentional communicator.
00:50:27.840 --> 00:50:29.760
I don't, I don't say things that I don't mean.
00:50:29.840 --> 00:50:30.639
I mean what I say.
00:50:30.719 --> 00:50:31.039
Yeah.
00:50:31.280 --> 00:50:42.320
And when we're talking about giving insights or information, if I'm talking to my son, if I'm talking to my daughter, you know, or if I'm talking with my wife, sometimes there'll be moments like, you know, you're in a partnership.
00:50:42.400 --> 00:50:44.239
So there'll be a moment of like not agreeing with something.
00:50:44.400 --> 00:50:47.440
I'll be like, hey, here's the reason why I'm saying this.
00:50:47.599 --> 00:50:51.119
So let's not listen this way, listen this way, because I'm looking for this outcome.
00:50:51.280 --> 00:50:54.880
Like I want to, like, I'm gonna avoid this and make sure we we hit that.
00:50:55.039 --> 00:50:56.559
And I'll do that with my kids too.
00:50:56.719 --> 00:50:59.679
I think anything like anything that comes to this work, right?
00:50:59.760 --> 00:51:08.239
It comes to getting information, should be open, objective, and to help people learn and evolve through what their lessons are.
00:51:08.400 --> 00:51:09.440
That's what my goal is.
00:51:09.599 --> 00:51:13.199
Whether it's my son or my client, same, same person.
00:51:15.440 --> 00:51:17.280
Talk to me about being a parent for a minute.
00:51:17.440 --> 00:51:17.840
Love it.
00:51:18.000 --> 00:51:19.679
Because it's the most it's amazing.
00:51:19.920 --> 00:51:23.119
I tell people all the time of all the roles I will ever have, the best type.
00:51:23.360 --> 00:51:27.119
It's the best, it's the only one where I'm truly irreplaceable.
00:51:27.280 --> 00:51:29.199
And it is the one that matters the most.
00:51:29.440 --> 00:51:29.760
Same.
00:51:29.920 --> 00:51:37.039
Because everything I do has ramifications and and and stakes that no one else can replace.
00:51:37.360 --> 00:51:39.920
So for me, I always want to leave people better than I find them.
00:51:40.000 --> 00:51:40.159
Right.
00:51:40.320 --> 00:51:46.559
And I feel like from a very, very young age, I wanted to put my voice into their
heads when I wasn't around.
00:51:46.719 --> 00:51:47.039
Yeah.
00:51:47.199 --> 00:51:50.079
And it was a very intentional thing because I lost my mom young.
00:51:50.480 --> 00:51:51.679
And I was like, you know what?
00:51:51.840 --> 00:51:52.960
I don't come from great stock.
00:51:53.039 --> 00:51:54.159
I don't know how long I'm here.
00:51:54.320 --> 00:52:03.840
I want to make sure that I'm downloading to them everything that I want them to know so that if I was abducted by aliens tomorrow, they can miss me, but they would miss me differently.
00:52:03.920 --> 00:52:04.079
Yeah.
00:52:04.239 --> 00:52:05.440
Because they would know I'm still with them.
00:52:05.519 --> 00:52:07.920
Because there's no way I'm leaving them, not leaving my kids.
00:52:08.000 --> 00:52:13.280
Like I'm gonna make sure that for the rest of their lives and my grandkids' lives, I would always be present.
00:52:13.440 --> 00:52:15.280
And I would be, and I will be.
00:52:15.440 --> 00:52:16.320
Like that I know.
00:52:16.400 --> 00:52:16.559
Yeah.
00:52:16.639 --> 00:52:18.800
Um, whether I'm in the physical world or not.
00:52:19.440 --> 00:52:29.360
So for me, communicating with them is about raising the awareness to look at life through energetic glasses so that they have that edge moving forward in whatever they do.
00:52:29.599 --> 00:52:31.119
Both of my kids studied astrology.
00:52:31.280 --> 00:52:34.960
My son's a doctor, and my daughter is an actress, singer, dancer, writer.
00:52:35.119 --> 00:52:36.639
Like she like does that.
00:52:36.800 --> 00:52:43.039
But they both look at life through the energetic lens of metaphysics that I help to inspire them with.
00:52:43.199 --> 00:52:45.519
And I think we'll continue, whether I'm here or not.
00:52:45.760 --> 00:52:50.000
But that that's that's that was my job as a parent, I felt, to download that to them.
00:52:50.239 --> 00:52:54.639
Yeah, I'm a firm believer in I don't know what time I get.
00:52:54.880 --> 00:52:57.599
I raise my kids that way where it's like, look, I we don't know.
00:52:57.679 --> 00:53:02.159
So it's why it's so important that we both celebrate the time and make the most of it.
00:53:02.320 --> 00:53:02.559
Yep.
00:53:02.719 --> 00:53:03.039
Right.
00:53:03.199 --> 00:53:12.000
And then, like you, I want you to learn certain lessons or have certain messages that are not designed for me to keep a hold on you.
00:53:12.079 --> 00:53:18.719
They're designed for you to take them into the world and test them and evaluate them and change them and grow them in your own way.
00:53:19.039 --> 00:53:24.559
But I want that voice to be present and I want it to be a bit of a compass, right?
00:53:24.800 --> 00:53:32.239
You don't always know, you can do the science of why the compass works, but basically you know where it points and what direction it's always going to point in.
00:53:32.400 --> 00:53:33.840
That's dad's opinion, right?
00:53:34.000 --> 00:53:36.960
You know, I'm consistent enough, you know where I'm pointing.
00:53:37.119 --> 00:53:38.880
Now you get to make your own path.
00:53:39.199 --> 00:53:43.679
And there are moments where you have to sometimes, with people that you love, like say to them, like, oh, I'm not really sure.
00:53:44.159 --> 00:53:45.039
Could you give them an answer?
00:53:45.199 --> 00:53:45.519
Of course.
00:53:45.679 --> 00:53:49.840
But you have to let them kind of like, you know, evolve in their in their own way.
00:53:50.079 --> 00:53:52.880
My aunt said to me one day, she goes, You're so close to your kids.
00:53:52.960 --> 00:53:53.760
She goes, you know.
00:53:53.920 --> 00:53:55.280
She's like, they're getting older.
00:53:55.440 --> 00:53:57.360
She's like, You're gonna have to let them go.
00:53:57.440 --> 00:53:57.599
Yeah.
00:53:57.760 --> 00:54:00.159
And I said very openly, I said, I will never let them go.
00:54:00.239 --> 00:54:00.400
Right.
00:54:00.559 --> 00:54:01.920
But I will always help them grow.
00:54:02.079 --> 00:54:02.480
Yeah.
00:54:02.800 --> 00:54:06.960
I I had this belief that my kids are supposed to go out into the world.
00:54:07.199 --> 00:54:12.159
And I used to tell people all the time, I'll know if I did a good job because they will come back and they will spend time with me.
00:54:12.320 --> 00:54:12.719
Right.
00:54:12.960 --> 00:54:17.360
And that I think is what it is, is right, is like, I'm not holding on to them forever.
00:54:17.440 --> 00:54:23.119
But I will always, in one form or another, be here, be loving you, and be present for you.
00:54:23.360 --> 00:54:30.079
I feel so blessed with the relationships that I have with my kids because they like genuinely want to hang out with me.
00:54:30.159 --> 00:54:30.400
Yeah.
00:54:30.559 --> 00:54:35.360
Like if I'm traveling, like I'm getting ready to go somewhere if I'm gonna travel, like my daughter will be like, you know, I'm coming right.
00:54:35.599 --> 00:54:37.199
Like, just like, you know, I'm on the trip.
00:54:37.280 --> 00:54:38.480
I was like, great, awesome.
00:54:38.639 --> 00:54:41.840
Or my son will be like, I wish I could be on this trip with you.
00:54:41.920 --> 00:54:43.199
Like, I wish I could go here.
00:54:43.280 --> 00:54:44.079
I wish I could do that.
00:54:44.239 --> 00:54:46.480
Or let's find time where we can do this.
00:54:46.639 --> 00:54:46.800
Right.
00:54:46.960 --> 00:54:50.719
And I think there's no greater gift than when your kids want to actually hang out with you.
00:54:50.880 --> 00:54:52.400
Yeah, it it's magic.
00:54:52.480 --> 00:54:57.599
It's it's of all the things I've ever done, it is the best and the most important.
00:54:57.840 --> 00:54:58.159
Same.
00:54:58.320 --> 00:55:01.199
And I'm like, I'm like, that all the achievements, right?
00:55:01.360 --> 00:55:03.760
All the things you've done over all these years.
00:55:04.320 --> 00:55:07.519
It's beautiful to watch you shine in that way.
00:55:07.679 --> 00:55:10.800
Because you're also super lit up
when you started talking about them.
00:55:11.039 --> 00:55:13.360
What do you feel like at this stage, right?
00:55:13.440 --> 00:55:15.360
What does success look like to you, John?
00:55:15.599 --> 00:55:19.599
Success for me is what you have right there is being a lighthouse.
00:55:19.920 --> 00:55:25.360
Success for me is to um legitimately help people alleviate that darkness.
00:55:25.440 --> 00:55:26.320
And that's what grief is.
00:55:26.400 --> 00:55:30.079
If I could raise awareness on a grand scale, like that's what I do with crossing over.
00:55:30.159 --> 00:55:31.920
That was an amazing opportunity.
00:55:32.079 --> 00:55:33.519
Now I'm doing it online digitally.
00:55:33.599 --> 00:55:38.639
So it's like I have this online community, it's Evolve Plus, and it's not just me.
00:55:38.719 --> 00:55:38.880
Right.
00:55:39.039 --> 00:55:44.000
So it's like I kind of do the mediumship thing there, but it's also like the world that I raise my kids in.
00:55:44.159 --> 00:55:53.920
So there's astrologers on there, there's numerologists on there, there's grief therapists that are on there, there's mindful coaches, there are hypnotherapists, like we have past life aggression, everything that's connected to metaphysics.
00:55:54.079 --> 00:56:02.639
I brought together in this one community everything that I use in my life and the people that I use, like the people that I utilize, they are they're they're on there to show people different perspectives.
00:56:02.719 --> 00:56:11.760
And somebody said to me, it's not normal that someone would take their platform and like their celebrity and shine a light on other practitioners.
00:56:12.000 --> 00:56:27.280
I was like, well, maybe when you look at it that way, but if you look at it from the perspective of healthcare, right, if I'm a general practitioner and I don't do cardiology, then I have to send somebody to the cardiologist or to the optimologist, right?
00:56:27.519 --> 00:56:30.559
So it's like these are specialties that they're not mine.
00:56:30.880 --> 00:56:31.760
Do I understand it?
00:56:31.840 --> 00:56:34.559
I do understand a lot about astrology, but I can't read your chart.
00:56:34.639 --> 00:56:35.440
So why would I try?
00:56:35.599 --> 00:56:37.039
So have the astrologer available.
00:56:37.199 --> 00:56:39.440
So I want people to live an energetic life.
00:56:39.599 --> 00:56:42.400
So now in the Evolve Plus community, I have that.
00:56:42.559 --> 00:56:43.519
And that's what we do there.
00:56:43.599 --> 00:56:45.280
And then I go live there and I read for people.
00:56:45.440 --> 00:56:46.960
So that's how I'm I'm doing that.
00:56:47.039 --> 00:56:48.480
And the lighthouse has been very something.
00:56:48.639 --> 00:56:52.960
If you go on there, you'll see that one of the one of the groups says guide.
00:56:53.360 --> 00:56:54.320
And it's the lighthouse.
00:56:54.480 --> 00:56:56.719
So when I saw your studio, I was like, I'm in the right spot.
00:56:56.960 --> 00:56:57.679
Yeah, 100%.
00:56:58.079 --> 00:57:08.480
And I I also feel, and I do this in the entertainment portion of things, is and even this, this is not designed for me to like say, oh, I know everything.
00:57:08.639 --> 00:57:12.719
If anything, it's for me to learn and share amazing, wonderful people.
00:57:12.880 --> 00:57:17.519
It's to shine a light and let people realize one, you're not alone.
00:57:18.400 --> 00:57:23.440
Two, there's way more information and positive people in the world than sometimes it feels like.
00:57:24.000 --> 00:57:26.480
And three, you can find the light.
00:57:26.559 --> 00:57:31.440
And when you can't find it, keep shining because people will find you if you go about it the right way.
00:57:31.599 --> 00:57:35.199
And I think that's when you don't come from a scarcity standpoint.
00:57:35.280 --> 00:57:39.519
It's like you're not worried that you won't be valid or that you can't share your thing.
00:57:39.599 --> 00:57:40.400
You know who you are.
00:57:40.480 --> 00:57:40.960
Yep.
00:57:41.280 --> 00:57:43.840
So highlight other people who do great things.
00:57:44.079 --> 00:57:46.800
And also, I'm a big fan of like, I wish more people.
00:57:46.960 --> 00:57:49.440
This actually kind of goes back to the science thing for me a little bit.
00:57:49.519 --> 00:57:56.480
It was like, we're in this world where all of a sudden everybody wants to be the sole wise person or the self-source.
00:57:56.719 --> 00:57:56.880
Yeah.
00:57:57.039 --> 00:57:57.840
It's legitimately.
00:57:57.920 --> 00:58:00.400
I I listen, I love electronics and I love technology.
00:58:00.559 --> 00:58:06.159
But the moment the iPhone came out, it made everybody the ability to be everything.
00:58:06.400 --> 00:58:11.519
So now you can be a cook and chef, and you can have the best home recipes possible.
00:58:11.679 --> 00:58:12.880
It doesn't mean you can run a restaurant.
00:58:12.960 --> 00:58:13.199
Right.
00:58:13.360 --> 00:58:14.480
You can have the greatest home.
00:58:14.719 --> 00:58:29.679
My mother-in-law is Portuguese and she's got some like ridiculous home remedies for healthcare things that I would normally scoff at, but then I see them and I go, right, okay, you stick your finger in a microwave potato and it's gonna like take out the infection.
00:58:29.760 --> 00:58:32.079
And then, you know, like whatever those things are, like they work.
00:58:32.239 --> 00:58:34.000
But now everybody's a journalist, right?
00:58:34.159 --> 00:58:38.960
Everybody's a public health official, everybody's uh, you know, an epidemiologist, everybody is the journalist.
00:58:39.199 --> 00:58:44.719
And some people are good at what they do, some people are not, and that's misinformation or disinformation.
00:58:44.880 --> 00:58:52.880
So with the advent of people having access to everybody, I think it dilutes people who actually have the letters before and after their name when it comes to science.
00:58:53.119 --> 00:58:56.480
Yeah, I
think there is such a thing as being an expert.
00:58:56.719 --> 00:59:04.559
And some people have spent their whole lives obtaining not just the information in an area, but the information around it.
00:59:04.719 --> 00:59:09.840
I mean, very much like in your community, you didn't just say, hey, I know this, so therefore I know everything.
00:59:10.000 --> 00:59:10.239
Right.
00:59:10.480 --> 00:59:14.000
You went, hey, I want to go get the best of all of these other things.
00:59:14.159 --> 00:59:16.239
And like you said, and the people who are ethical.
00:59:16.320 --> 00:59:16.559
Yeah.
00:59:16.719 --> 00:59:16.960
Right?
00:59:17.039 --> 00:59:20.880
Because you can have people who are really good at what they do who are not, but their egos are in the wrong place.
00:59:20.960 --> 00:59:21.119
Yeah.
00:59:21.280 --> 00:59:23.039
Or it's like too much about them.
00:59:23.280 --> 00:59:25.840
And I kind of feel like when you're doing this type of work, it can't be about you.
00:59:25.920 --> 00:59:27.039
No, it's gotta be about the client.
00:59:27.199 --> 00:59:27.519
Yeah.
00:59:27.840 --> 00:59:34.239
Well, it's too much of a vulnerable space because it could go wrong way too easily.
00:59:34.480 --> 00:59:38.400
Because it you're you're dealing with going back to grief, right?
00:59:38.880 --> 00:59:42.480
You can sway people with grief because it's such a powerful emotion.
00:59:42.639 --> 00:59:49.280
So if you're not treading carefully and having some empathy in how you do it, you talked about delivering the message properly, right?
00:59:49.360 --> 00:59:51.599
Like you can do a lot of damage.
00:59:51.840 --> 00:59:52.559
Absolutely.
00:59:52.960 --> 00:59:54.880
Sometimes a reading is not what people need.
00:59:55.679 --> 01:00:02.000
But when some when somebody thinks that they need a reading, right, I say, no, you want a reading.
01:00:02.480 --> 01:00:03.679
You need an understanding.
01:00:03.840 --> 01:00:09.920
When I say you need an understanding, you need to understand that there's a survival of consciousness, that your loved ones and friends are still with you.
01:00:10.159 --> 01:00:17.599
You need the understanding, like you need oxygen, but you want a reading because you you think you need that to validate that.
01:00:17.679 --> 01:00:31.199
And sometimes a client will actually get on the phone with me and I immediately know in the reading they don't need a mediumship reading, they need an astrology reading and a specific type.
01:00:31.679 --> 01:00:35.760
So I'll say, Listen, you trusted me enough to make this appointment.
01:00:35.920 --> 01:00:36.639
And they say yes.
01:00:36.719 --> 01:00:38.880
And I go, okay, I need you to trust me now.
01:00:39.519 --> 01:00:43.440
I'm gonna talk to you for the entire time that we have because I got nowhere else to be, and we're gonna chat.
01:00:43.519 --> 01:00:45.039
I'm not gonna charge you for this session.
01:00:45.280 --> 01:00:49.599
I want you to use this money towards an astrology reading, and I think it should be this person.
01:00:49.679 --> 01:00:50.800
And here's the reason why.
01:00:50.960 --> 01:00:53.760
And usually they'll call me back and say, thank you.
01:00:54.000 --> 01:00:55.199
I did need that.
01:00:55.440 --> 01:00:59.599
So I can answer their questions and still point them in the direction that they need to be in.
01:00:59.679 --> 01:01:02.639
And I I kind of feel like, well, the universe put them in front of me for a reason.
01:01:02.719 --> 01:01:02.960
Right.
01:01:03.119 --> 01:01:04.880
What's the reason if I can't read them, right?
01:01:04.960 --> 01:01:07.519
Or if the information's not flowing, why?
01:01:07.679 --> 01:01:10.559
That means I know somebody that I need to get them to.
01:01:10.800 --> 01:01:15.199
Sometimes it's the counselors or therapists, a lot of times it's an astrologer, believe it or not.
01:01:15.519 --> 01:01:16.239
Interesting.
01:01:16.559 --> 01:01:26.000
It's a beautiful thing to make space for someone, but also to understand that like I don't have to be the everything because nobody is.
01:01:26.239 --> 01:01:27.360
No, you can't be.
01:01:28.000 --> 01:01:30.880
When you look at all of this journey, right?
01:01:31.280 --> 01:01:36.400
Because I mean, you are 40, 41 years, something like 41 years this year.
01:01:36.639 --> 01:01:37.760
Started 1985.
01:01:38.000 --> 01:01:38.639
Yeah.
01:01:39.440 --> 01:01:40.800
I imagine take none.
01:01:41.440 --> 01:01:43.199
No, you're not that old.
01:01:43.679 --> 01:01:48.000
I'm almost I'm 30, almost nine years into this process.
01:01:48.159 --> 01:01:50.880
So, like, we both started early.
01:01:51.199 --> 01:01:55.599
So with that comes also the understanding of time, right?
01:01:55.840 --> 01:01:57.599
And how things have shifted.
01:01:58.000 --> 01:02:02.639
What's the thing you wish you knew when you started that you know now?
01:02:03.760 --> 01:02:11.840
I don't know if I can answer that question with an actual answer because I think that would be like teaching trigonometry to a third grader.
01:02:12.239 --> 01:02:17.599
I think before you can get to trigonometry, you have to go through the math of each year.
01:02:18.000 --> 01:02:21.920
If I had to go back, there's one thing I think I would say.
01:02:22.159 --> 01:02:29.920
And that is that I would tell the me in 1999 and 2000 that was about ready to do crossing over to enjoy it.
01:02:30.639 --> 01:02:32.960
I would, I would say, like, it's gonna be difficult.
01:02:33.119 --> 01:02:36.880
There's gonna be a lot of attacks, there's gonna be a lot of just a lot.
01:02:37.440 --> 01:02:40.400
But the outcome is gonna be really healing for a lot of people.
01:02:40.559 --> 01:02:46.880
And and do everything you're gonna do, be as difficult and challenging and temperamental to the network as you're gonna be.
01:02:46.960 --> 01:02:49.199
Like, don't change a thing, but just try to have fun.
01:02:49.360 --> 01:02:50.480
Because I didn't have
fun.
01:02:50.639 --> 01:02:52.079
I didn't have fun doing the show.
01:02:52.320 --> 01:02:54.000
It's such a powerful show.
01:02:54.159 --> 01:02:57.440
And it was so unique because it was so different than everything else that had been.
01:02:57.599 --> 01:03:02.000
I mean, you really kind of made this space acceptable.
01:03:02.559 --> 01:03:05.679
Because, like you said, before it was kind of called the occult, right?
01:03:06.320 --> 01:03:09.679
Now there's still pushback, but it I think it has shifted quite a bit.
01:03:10.000 --> 01:03:14.320
God, there's like nearly no pushback compared to like now, all over online, yeah.
01:03:14.559 --> 01:03:16.400
People are looking for it and think it's normal.
01:03:16.639 --> 01:03:21.760
Let me tell you, I remember Michael Logan from TV Guide Magazine and Soap Opera Digest magazine.
01:03:21.920 --> 01:03:31.119
He and I are friends, and he said to me, Um, he calls me Psychic Boy, he was like, Psychic Boy, he's like, How does it feel to know you created a genre of television?
01:03:31.280 --> 01:03:32.079
And I laughed.
01:03:32.159 --> 01:03:32.320
Right.
01:03:32.480 --> 01:03:32.880
I laughed.
01:03:32.960 --> 01:03:36.079
I was like, Michael, I was like, it's a show.
01:03:36.320 --> 01:03:37.599
And he goes, Nope.
01:03:37.840 --> 01:03:39.519
He goes, You created a genre.
01:03:39.679 --> 01:03:40.639
Watch what happens next.
01:03:40.800 --> 01:03:41.280
He was right.
01:03:41.440 --> 01:03:42.719
He was he was definitely right.
01:03:42.880 --> 01:03:43.519
I think it's cool.
01:03:43.679 --> 01:03:47.920
I think it's cool that I was able to open the door for other people and that they could actually do their do their work.
01:03:48.079 --> 01:04:01.519
It was a kind, it was a nice, it was a nice moment when Alison Dubois, who was the star of like the medium show, when she like said to me over the phone, she goes, I s my first conversation with ever over the phone was I want to say thank you to you, because if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have been able to do what I do in that way.
01:04:01.599 --> 01:04:02.480
And she didn't have to say that.
01:04:02.559 --> 01:04:04.800
Yeah, she had great success, but she took the opportunity.
01:04:04.880 --> 01:04:09.039
So I always think it's cool when somebody pays like respect to who came before them.
01:04:09.199 --> 01:04:09.599
I do.
01:04:09.679 --> 01:04:14.000
You know, I say there wouldn't have been a me if there wasn't a Char Morgolus or Suzanne Northrop or George Anderson.
01:04:14.320 --> 01:04:16.880
It takes nothing away from me to acknowledge the people who came before you.
01:04:16.960 --> 01:04:17.119
Yeah.
01:04:17.280 --> 01:04:18.159
So I think that's important.
01:04:18.400 --> 01:04:21.599
I want to ask this question, and it's partially selfish.
01:04:21.840 --> 01:04:22.239
Sure.
01:04:22.400 --> 01:04:25.599
Um when you say I wish I enjoyed it more.
01:04:25.760 --> 01:04:26.000
Yes.
01:04:26.239 --> 01:04:27.679
Because
I'm building projects, right?
01:04:27.840 --> 01:04:28.159
Okay.
01:04:29.199 --> 01:04:31.760
What are the things you wish you took the moment?
01:04:31.920 --> 01:04:36.400
Because I think it's a universal, like like you wish you paused more and celebrated.
01:04:36.639 --> 01:04:42.480
I really, really wish I I really wish I took the time to like breathe.
01:04:42.719 --> 01:04:44.559
Like I felt like I held my breath for four years.
01:04:44.639 --> 01:04:44.960
Yeah.
01:04:45.199 --> 01:04:46.800
Because there were there was a lot of attacks.
01:04:46.880 --> 01:04:47.039
Yeah.
01:04:47.199 --> 01:04:48.480
There was a lot of attacks.
01:04:48.639 --> 01:04:49.840
I mean, a lot of attacks.
01:04:50.159 --> 01:04:50.960
I can only imagine.
01:04:51.440 --> 01:04:54.400
And stuff that people don't know about behind the scenes, death threats.
01:04:54.480 --> 01:05:04.000
Like you, I mean, the fact that there was a Robert Hilland FBI agent in my world was probably also universally sent in to help me during that period of time.
01:05:04.239 --> 01:05:06.880
Because of those attacks, we actually had great cover.
01:05:07.039 --> 01:05:15.920
One of the one of the uh producers, hey Christine, uh one of the producers after she read the book, she was like, dude, we thought he was there because of like the death threats you were getting.
01:05:16.000 --> 01:05:18.559
We didn't realize that that you were working with him simultaneously.
01:05:18.639 --> 01:05:19.519
I was like, I know, right?
01:05:19.599 --> 01:05:20.320
Perfect cover.
01:05:20.559 --> 01:05:39.440
I think just to just to look back on the filming of the show, what it was gonna create for people, like what it did, like what it did for me professionally, like all of that, just to appreciate it in a have fun kind of way, not just like waiting for the other shoe to drop, you're gonna get shot in public, kind of like moment.
01:05:39.599 --> 01:05:40.960
It's a lot, a lot of pressure.
01:05:41.199 --> 01:05:43.760
Yeah, I mean, I I grew up with a lot of that.
01:05:44.079 --> 01:05:45.760
And we've kind of talked about it.
01:05:46.000 --> 01:05:48.079
The world doesn't really see most of that.
01:05:48.320 --> 01:05:48.480
No.
01:05:48.719 --> 01:05:56.960
Because the threats come veiled and and hidden, and there's pressure from networks, and there's the political portion of it.
01:05:57.119 --> 01:05:59.760
And I don't mean like in a politics way, but I mean the political within it.
01:06:00.320 --> 01:06:04.800
Structure of both the business and then all of the connecting pieces.
01:06:05.119 --> 01:06:10.480
People don't understand what that weight is like to be the leader and the face of a show.
01:06:10.719 --> 01:06:13.280
I also didn't have time for like nonsense.
01:06:13.519 --> 01:06:19.840
Like you know, like you come out of the television world, so you understand how like network communications can be and notes.
01:06:20.000 --> 01:06:20.320
Yes.
01:06:20.559 --> 01:06:27.039
And there was just some really ridiculous moments that I just I like I deal with grieving people.
01:06:27.119 --> 01:06:35.920
Like I'm not I'm not dealing with like this woman's reading can't air because her reaction to her son's death was not emotional enough.
01:06:36.079 --> 01:06:36.159
Right.
01:06:36.320 --> 01:06:38.159
Like that was like that was like a legitimate note.
01:06:38.239 --> 01:06:40.880
I was like, yeah, no, that reading will air.
01:06:40.960 --> 01:06:46.320
So there was a lot of like fighting back on what they wanted the show to be in syndication.
01:06:46.400 --> 01:06:47.519
Not the sci-fi version.
01:06:47.760 --> 01:06:52.000
Bonnie Hammer was an angel who was overlooking that at sci-fi, and she was just a gift.
01:06:52.079 --> 01:06:52.639
She was a gift.
01:06:52.719 --> 01:06:57.920
But when it went into like syndication and it became like, you know, globally syndicated and like a really big deal.
01:06:58.079 --> 01:06:59.360
Now the pressure was on.
01:06:59.519 --> 01:07:05.920
And um it was just a different, just a different level of stupid that I felt like I had to navigate.
01:07:06.159 --> 01:07:11.360
And I remember saying to one of the executives there, like, you clearly must not think I can do this.
01:07:11.599 --> 01:07:12.960
And they were like, Why would you say that?
01:07:13.039 --> 01:07:14.960
I go, Because you're lying to my face.
01:07:15.440 --> 01:07:18.000
Like it was a lot of those moments that kind of came in.
01:07:18.239 --> 01:07:25.920
We were on a celebrity shoot, which I did not really enjoy having to do the celebrity readings, but you know, that was part of something I had to contractually do.
01:07:26.400 --> 01:07:30.800
My disdain for that only came from I knew how many people wanted to be read on the show.
01:07:30.960 --> 01:07:36.320
I knew this because I already got the emails and the letters in the office, my office, you know, that celebrities got the stuff for free.
01:07:36.480 --> 01:07:38.000
And it's like, why are they getting that?
01:07:38.079 --> 01:07:38.559
Like, why?
01:07:38.719 --> 01:07:41.920
And it's like, am I gonna explain to like all the people writing to me saying that?
01:07:42.159 --> 01:07:46.079
Well, people are gonna watch the show because the celebrity they like is on it.
01:07:46.239 --> 01:07:49.039
So it's actually helping the show, or so they tell me.
01:07:49.199 --> 01:07:52.400
Um, I don't know if that was true or not, but they were like those types of moments.
01:07:52.559 --> 01:08:01.599
Um I remember being on a celebrity shoot where something had happened and I had gotten a phone call from the head of the network.
01:08:01.840 --> 01:08:04.559
And it was just like, what's going on?
01:08:04.719 --> 01:08:05.679
type of moment.
01:08:05.840 --> 01:08:06.000
Yeah.
01:08:06.159 --> 01:08:08.800
And I'm like, I have to go do a reading, and this person's called me.
01:08:08.880 --> 01:08:10.159
And I was like, Are you in your
office?
01:08:10.239 --> 01:08:12.159
And they're like, Yeah, are you at your desk?
01:08:12.239 --> 01:08:12.800
And they go, Yeah.
01:08:13.199 --> 01:08:14.719
Do you have business cards at your desk?
01:08:15.039 --> 01:08:15.360
Yeah.
01:08:15.519 --> 01:08:17.279
I go, Do you see your title?
01:08:17.439 --> 01:08:20.800
Yeah, are you gonna tell me the person with that title doesn't already know why you're calling me?
01:08:20.960 --> 01:08:21.119
Right.
01:08:21.279 --> 01:08:22.800
I go, call me back with a solution.
01:08:22.880 --> 01:08:23.760
And I hung up on him.
01:08:23.920 --> 01:08:27.920
And my executive producer like went into like anaphylactic shock in the moment, right?
01:08:28.239 --> 01:08:30.640
He was like, Nobody talks to the network like that.
01:08:30.800 --> 01:08:32.880
And I'm like, and then you met me.
01:08:33.039 --> 01:08:33.439
Right.
01:08:33.600 --> 01:08:35.439
So I had a little bit of reputation.
01:08:36.880 --> 01:08:39.600
Do you do you look back at that time?
01:08:39.920 --> 01:08:41.760
Do you wish you had done some of that different?
01:08:41.920 --> 01:08:43.279
Or do you feel like you had yeah?
01:08:43.359 --> 01:08:45.439
Because I feel like you have to fight for the pieces.
01:08:45.920 --> 01:08:46.560
One thing.
01:08:46.720 --> 01:08:46.960
Right.
01:08:47.119 --> 01:08:48.800
Um, some of the stories are legendary.
01:08:48.960 --> 01:08:49.359
Yeah.
01:08:49.600 --> 01:08:54.720
And sometimes you have to really fight to do it the right way or to do it the way that you know it needs to be done.
01:08:54.960 --> 01:08:58.239
We had a day where we had to do 40 um wraps and throws.
01:08:58.319 --> 01:08:59.039
Like, okay.
01:08:59.119 --> 01:08:59.439
So you know.
01:08:59.600 --> 01:09:00.000
Yeah, I know.
01:09:00.079 --> 01:09:05.920
I yeah, maybe we should explain it for people because I mean, wraps and throws are just like, and it's exhausting, right?
01:09:06.079 --> 01:09:07.199
Because it's all over 40.
01:09:07.359 --> 01:09:08.000
So 40 shows.
01:09:08.159 --> 01:09:24.640
Yeah, for 40 is a crazy number, too, because you you're wrapping them all, you're sending them, and they have to be perfect, and everybody has an idea or a note or a And it's basically just talking to the camera, introducing segments for you know, opening and closes and changing your wardrobe.
01:09:24.720 --> 01:09:30.720
And they needed that in order to actually um get the show delivered for syndication.
01:09:30.960 --> 01:09:36.479
And our supervisor, supervising producer, if Liz is watching this, she's probably like freaking out right now.
01:09:36.720 --> 01:09:43.920
Liz knew that something had come down the pike that she knew what my reaction was gonna be to what it was.
01:09:44.079 --> 01:09:51.279
And she said to them, Do not, under any circumstances, have this conversation with him until he's done.
01:09:51.520 --> 01:09:52.159
Till the end of the day.
01:09:52.239 --> 01:09:58.399
She's like, I am gonna throw myself in front of his door to make sure nobody says this to him.
01:09:58.560 --> 01:09:58.720
Right.
01:09:58.960 --> 01:10:00.079
Well, they didn't listen to her.
01:10:00.239 --> 01:10:00.960
Of course not.
01:10:01.119 --> 01:10:02.159
So I left.
01:10:02.800 --> 01:10:04.399
I left the building in the middle?
01:10:04.560 --> 01:10:05.520
Before it even started.
01:10:05.600 --> 01:10:06.079
Oh my goodness.
01:10:06.239 --> 01:10:06.560
I just left.
01:10:06.720 --> 01:10:08.000
I'm sure people were panicked.
01:10:08.159 --> 01:10:10.479
Oh, I got a phone call from my attorney in the car.
01:10:10.800 --> 01:10:17.119
He was like, first, I got a phone call from the liaison to the network, and she said, Hey, and I'm like, hi, Val.
01:10:17.279 --> 01:10:17.439
Yeah.
01:10:17.520 --> 01:10:18.800
She's like, What are you doing?
01:10:18.960 --> 01:10:20.239
I'm like, I'm driving home.
01:10:20.319 --> 01:10:21.920
And she's like, No, really, like, what are you doing?
01:10:22.000 --> 01:10:23.119
She's like, You need to come back.
01:10:23.279 --> 01:10:24.159
I was like, no.
01:10:24.239 --> 01:10:25.119
She's like, What are you doing?
01:10:25.279 --> 01:10:27.279
I go, I'm actually showing you who's in charge.
01:10:27.439 --> 01:10:28.319
Have a great day.
01:10:28.479 --> 01:10:28.800
Yeah.
01:10:29.039 --> 01:10:30.640
You know, it was like a lot of that.
01:10:30.800 --> 01:10:31.920
And then my attorney called me.
01:10:32.000 --> 01:10:33.760
He was like, Are you insane?
01:10:33.920 --> 01:10:35.840
I'm like, no, I'm not insane.
01:10:36.000 --> 01:10:37.439
I'm just not playing this game.
01:10:37.600 --> 01:10:37.840
Yeah.
01:10:38.079 --> 01:10:40.640
So and some things are bigger.
01:10:40.800 --> 01:10:43.039
And it was never me from an ego standpoint, just to be really clear.
01:10:43.359 --> 01:10:43.760
It was me.
01:10:43.920 --> 01:10:46.560
It was me fighting for what was the right thing for the show, right?
01:10:46.720 --> 01:10:47.439
For the process.
01:10:47.600 --> 01:10:48.560
That's why it wasn't fun.
01:10:48.800 --> 01:10:51.359
And that's why I'm saying some of these things are bigger, right?
01:10:51.439 --> 01:10:55.680
Than people understand, is in order for the show, because you have to look at the person.
01:10:55.840 --> 01:11:02.880
That's the other part that people forget is as the person doing the actual thing, you're the person that someone has the interaction with.
01:11:02.960 --> 01:11:05.119
You're the person who had to share their grief.
01:11:05.199 --> 01:11:07.039
You're the person that they interacted with.
01:11:07.279 --> 01:11:08.880
You know the impact of this.
01:11:09.119 --> 01:11:09.359
Right.
01:11:09.439 --> 01:11:11.920
But I was also like that for the people that I worked on the show.
01:11:12.159 --> 01:11:16.720
Like I wouldn't sign my contract until they guaranteed me the uh producers and everybody on the show had healthcare.
01:11:16.800 --> 01:11:17.119
Yeah.
01:11:17.359 --> 01:11:20.159
Seven or eight people came up to me and said, nobody does that.
01:11:20.399 --> 01:11:22.239
I'm like, well, that's my background.
01:11:22.399 --> 01:11:23.760
I need to make sure people have healthcare.
01:11:24.159 --> 01:11:27.760
So I did, there was a lot of bumps in the road in various different ways.
01:11:28.000 --> 01:11:31.920
I enjoyed the show and I enjoyed the results of the show and I enjoyed the message and what it did.
01:11:32.079 --> 01:11:39.680
But if I can go back and if I can literally say to myself, like, hey, I'm you 20 years from now, have fun.
01:11:39.920 --> 01:11:40.319
Have fun.
01:11:40.479 --> 01:11:41.039
Just have fun.
01:11:41.279 --> 01:11:47.760
To people listening to this right now, there's people who have all kinds of different religious beliefs, spiritual beliefs.
01:11:48.159 --> 01:11:50.960
What's the universal thing that you want people to take?
01:11:51.279 --> 01:11:58.960
Right now, the big driving message that I keep getting is that we have to put the unity, humanity, and community back into our everyday lives.
01:11:59.119 --> 01:11:59.439
Yes.
01:11:59.600 --> 01:12:10.319
That we have to not be as segregated in these echo chambers of division, which is just tearing at the fabric of humanity right now.
01:12:10.479 --> 01:12:18.239
And I don't like the fact that so many people like the smaller amounts of people are in control of the masses.
01:12:18.319 --> 01:12:18.640
Right.
01:12:18.880 --> 01:12:20.960
And that people surrender their free will to that.
01:12:21.199 --> 01:12:29.680
So I'm I'm a I'm a I'm a rebel and a rogue when it comes to I'll I'll follow the rules as long as I respect who's making them.
01:12:29.840 --> 01:12:29.920
Yeah.
01:12:30.079 --> 01:12:34.319
But if I don't respect who's making them, I want to follow your rules because why would I do that?
01:12:34.640 --> 01:12:38.479
Yeah, and I believe that rules should benefit humanity and collection.
01:12:38.800 --> 01:12:45.760
Like there's a very simple, like some of these things right now, there's a small group of people making big decisions for other people that do not benefit them.
01:12:45.920 --> 01:12:50.800
And I think it's really unfair to say, yeah, you don't really need a lot more of that.
01:12:50.880 --> 01:12:51.840
It's like, no, no.
01:12:52.079 --> 01:12:53.520
We should be lifting people.
01:12:53.600 --> 01:12:54.880
We should be lifting community.
01:12:54.960 --> 01:12:56.319
I miss the community aspect.
01:12:56.399 --> 01:12:57.359
We've we've isolated it.
01:12:57.760 --> 01:13:00.239
We have to not come from a place of ego.
01:13:00.399 --> 01:13:00.640
Right.
01:13:00.800 --> 01:13:00.960
Right.
01:13:01.119 --> 01:13:10.640
So when someone says, you can't take my guns, my guns, well, okay, you can have your guns and you can shoot your guns and you can do whatever you want with your guns, but it shouldn't be available to people.
01:13:10.720 --> 01:13:15.840
We should
have, we should have some type of control over little kids not getting shot in school.
01:13:15.920 --> 01:13:16.079
Yeah.
01:13:16.239 --> 01:13:18.880
We should have a semblance of kids should be safe in school.
01:13:19.039 --> 01:13:22.239
As a parent, you shouldn't have to worry that your kids are in school.
01:13:22.560 --> 01:13:26.880
Like that's ridiculous in international countries.
01:13:26.960 --> 01:13:27.119
Yeah.
01:13:27.279 --> 01:13:29.439
Like it's a silly, silly thing.
01:13:29.600 --> 01:13:34.880
Like when I go to Australia, there's a certain guard that gets dropped for me.
01:13:35.119 --> 01:13:38.399
Because I don't have in the back of my head where the exits are.
01:13:38.640 --> 01:13:39.760
How am I getting out of here?
01:13:39.920 --> 01:13:45.439
But I have that when I'm in the States, no matter where I am, no matter what place I'm in, because my dad was a cop.
01:13:45.520 --> 01:13:45.680
Right.
01:13:45.840 --> 01:13:46.880
So that's how I was trained.
01:13:46.960 --> 01:13:47.920
Like, how you get out?
01:13:48.079 --> 01:13:51.840
I mean, I do that everywhere, but I'm I'm gonna legitimately think about it a little bit more.
01:13:51.920 --> 01:13:59.680
Because the moment I come back into the States after being gone for a few weeks, I have that moment of like, we have such an amazing country with such stupidity sometimes.
01:13:59.760 --> 01:14:01.600
It's like really, really silly.
01:14:02.000 --> 01:14:05.680
How do you manage that being so connected to things, right?
01:14:05.840 --> 01:14:07.359
And getting messages frequently.
01:14:07.520 --> 01:14:12.800
How do you manage the weight of the overall struggle that's happening?
01:14:12.880 --> 01:14:18.399
And all of that, the loss, all of the really horrible news that kind of invades all of us.
01:14:18.479 --> 01:14:19.920
How do you manage that?
01:14:20.239 --> 01:14:22.079
I I look at the bigger picture.
01:14:22.239 --> 01:14:22.560
Okay.
01:14:22.720 --> 01:14:24.239
And I have hope for humanity.
01:14:24.399 --> 01:14:24.720
Yeah.
01:14:24.880 --> 01:14:26.239
That's how I do it.
01:14:26.560 --> 01:14:27.680
Or I'm delusional.
01:14:27.760 --> 01:14:28.079
I don't know.
01:14:28.239 --> 01:14:29.359
Take your pick, take your picture.
01:14:29.680 --> 01:14:31.680
Yeah, you and I both are big believers in hope.
01:14:31.920 --> 01:14:32.159
I do.
01:14:32.239 --> 01:14:33.279
I really, I really do.
01:14:33.439 --> 01:14:42.720
Like I feel like sometimes you have to go through the ridiculousness of what takes place for people to see stuff.
01:14:42.880 --> 01:14:43.199
Yeah.
01:14:43.520 --> 01:14:46.399
Um, and it's not not a cool thing.
01:14:46.560 --> 01:14:52.800
But I've been doing this long enough to recognize that people are gonna learn lessons, whether they want to or not.
01:14:52.960 --> 01:14:53.359
Right.
01:14:53.600 --> 01:14:57.680
I was people, you know, some sometimes there were moments where I was like, no, I'm gonna outrun this.
01:14:57.760 --> 01:14:59.520
I'm like, I'm gonna, I'm gonna do this differently.
01:14:59.760 --> 01:15:00.319
No, you're not.
01:15:00.399 --> 01:15:02.239
You know, you don't you don't outrun your lessons.
01:15:02.319 --> 01:15:03.520
You don't outrun the universe.
01:15:03.680 --> 01:15:05.199
Like you're here to learn lessons.
01:15:05.279 --> 01:15:06.000
You're gonna learn them.
01:15:06.079 --> 01:15:06.159
Right.
01:15:06.399 --> 01:15:15.039
And either you're gonna learn them willingly and kind of go with it, or you're gonna learn them in a way that the universe goes, How about now?
01:15:15.199 --> 01:15:16.640
Just like we talked about with grief.
01:15:16.720 --> 01:15:16.880
Yeah.
01:15:17.039 --> 01:15:17.760
How about now?
01:15:17.920 --> 01:15:22.239
So I think it's always good to be a willing participant and trying to figure out what those lessons are.
01:15:22.399 --> 01:15:25.199
Hence, why on Evolve Plus, I have the astrologers.
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And every week there's an Astrology Plus podcast that gives us the astrology just for the week.
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So people could just have to take it in just a little bit, a little bit at a time, slowly kind of learning their math so that they can get to sometimes they become the trigonometry expert where they're doing the charts, right?
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But you have to learn the language.
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So I'm all about where's the lesson?
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So if somebody is listening to this right now and they're feeling like I can't do it, I am so stuck, I am so stagnant, something's not right.
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They may go, oh, I want a mediumship reading so my dad can tell me what to do.
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No, you don't need a mediumship reading.
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Have your chart done.
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And if there's like a turning point moment, like if you had a day where you know like that day it all changed, have the astrologer look at that day and specifically say, what exactly is the lesson that I was supposed to learn from that?
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Because sometimes learning the lesson or understanding what the lesson is helps you to kind of make a plan.
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It's like getting diagnosed.
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Once you have a diagnosis, it's no longer just symptoms.
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Right.
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Now you can create a healthcare plan for it.
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Right.
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Yeah.
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Thank you for shining your light in this way, John.
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Thank you for coming back to the video.
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Thanks for having me with us.
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I really appreciate you.
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Same.
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Thank you.