Tammy Mitchell - "Grace on the Streets" with Righteous Trouble Maker の全文書き起こし

literally um out in the streets every Monday and Thursday night providing a hot meal to not only our homeless community, but the low-income. 00:04:35.920 --> 00:04:42.319 We have a lot of seniors who come out or people who are on Social Security. 00:04:42.639 --> 00:04:46.079 So you're actually okay, because I didn't know this about Greenville. 00:04:46.560 --> 00:04:51.199 I didn't know you actually had a street ministry that you were actually going out and feeding people on the street. 00:04:51.439 --> 00:04:56.160 Yes, you have that many homeless and seniors and stuff that are we do. 00:04:56.560 --> 00:04:57.120 Wow. 00:04:57.360 --> 00:05:03.040 We do so we're serving about 50 every Monday and Thursday night. 00:05:03.279 --> 00:05:04.240 And there's more. 00:05:04.399 --> 00:05:05.600 That's we're not touching. 00:05:06.560 --> 00:05:08.000 That's we're not touching everybody. 00:05:08.560 --> 00:05:09.439 We're really not. 00:05:09.680 --> 00:05:19.439 So we're serving we our volunteers are at home cooking on Mondays and Thursdays or prepping before to get a meal ready and heating things up ready. 00:05:19.600 --> 00:05:22.800 And we serve in the dumpster area behind Renaissance. 00:05:26.160 --> 00:05:32.800 I mean, if you tell me when you say God can show up anywhere, I'm telling you, God can show up anywhere. 00:05:32.959 --> 00:05:33.199 Yeah. 00:05:36.160 --> 00:05:38.639 He can he can show up anywhere. 00:05:38.879 --> 00:05:41.759 And so we do that every Monday and Thursday night. 00:05:41.839 --> 00:05:51.279 We also serve the fat first Saturday of every month, and then the second Wednesday of every month, we are serving with authentic life and the united way. 00:05:52.079 --> 00:05:58.000 And those, I mean, we're there, we're probably some some days we're serving 65 there. 00:05:58.959 --> 00:06:04.399 And and then they also on those Wednesdays, they provide showers and laundry. 00:06:04.560 --> 00:06:05.199 Oh, I love it. 00:06:05.439 --> 00:06:11.279 So we'll either with Wesley United, we'll do the showers on first, third, and fifth Wednesday of every month. 00:06:11.439 --> 00:06:14.079 So I hop on a bus at Wesley United. 00:06:14.160 --> 00:06:23.279 We go pick them up at Authentic Life, truck them back to the church, we get them showered, clothes, all of those things, and then run them back. 00:06:23.439 --> 00:06:27.519 And then and the Christian Motorcycle Association, they do laundry. 00:06:27.680 --> 00:06:31.360 So they they put a washer and dryer on the back of the trailer. 00:06:31.519 --> 00:06:31.680 Okay. 00:06:32.240 --> 00:06:40.399 And they haul it up to the church, hook up the water connection, the drainage, and they're getting clean clothes every Wednesday. 00:06:40.720 --> 00:06:47.839 So it's super cool because I mean, just having clean clothes alone makes them feel girl. 00:06:47.920 --> 00:06:48.959 Let me just say a little bit. 00:06:49.360 --> 00:06:52.000 You've never been in the summer in Texas. 00:06:52.240 --> 00:06:52.879 Come on. 00:06:59.600 --> 00:07:02.560 Just walking to your car can make you have to come back in. 00:07:06.240 --> 00:07:09.680 At the end of a day, you know, you you want to. 00:07:09.759 --> 00:07:14.160 I mean, it doesn't matter your your sleeping situation or if you have a home. 00:07:14.639 --> 00:07:18.560 Just humans want to just be human. 00:07:18.800 --> 00:07:25.040 And sometimes you can't feel that if you don't have a place to have some clean clothes and have a shower. 00:07:25.120 --> 00:07:25.279 Yeah. 00:07:25.519 --> 00:07:26.959 I mean, that's such a blessing. 00:07:27.040 --> 00:07:27.199 Yeah. 00:07:27.279 --> 00:07:27.439 Okay. 00:07:27.680 --> 00:07:29.120 What else y'all got going on? 00:07:29.839 --> 00:07:33.120 So we do, we do. 00:07:33.439 --> 00:07:39.600 So when we're out um when I out in the battlefield, literally. 00:07:39.920 --> 00:07:51.279 Um, we are, I mean, on our Monday and Thursday nights and Saturdays, it's the first Saturdays, those are the our opportunity where before they eat, they get fed the word. 00:07:51.519 --> 00:07:51.920 Wow. 00:07:52.240 --> 00:08:00.160 So we'll have a I I share a two-minute something with them or one of our another one of our volunteers. 00:08:00.399 --> 00:08:02.240 There's they'll share something. 00:08:02.480 --> 00:08:09.920 But one of the things that we've tried to incorporate is sharing our real life testimonies and struggles. 00:08:10.000 --> 00:08:10.319 Yeah. 00:08:10.639 --> 00:08:17.199 Because right now they see us as someone who's serving them and they have it all together. 00:08:17.600 --> 00:08:25.120 Um, so yeah, they get pretty amazed when they go, Yeah, what? 00:08:25.759 --> 00:08:26.639 Exactly. 00:08:26.879 --> 00:08:27.519 Yes. 00:08:27.920 --> 00:08:33.200 I accidentally said a cuss word one time in front of them and Daws jobbed. 00:08:33.279 --> 00:08:39.279 And I'm like, get me off that pedestal because I am going to disappoint you in a heartbeat. 00:08:39.759 --> 00:08:44.320 But that's one of the things, like we try to let them know, like we've been there. 00:08:44.480 --> 00:08:49.120 Not everyone has been there, there where they are, but a lot of us have. 00:08:49.279 --> 00:08:53.440 And so we try to, you know, let them know, like, we've been there. 00:08:53.840 --> 00:08:56.320 God can do it for us, he can do it for you too. 00:08:56.480 --> 00:08:58.480 And he's still doing it for us. 00:08:58.639 --> 00:08:58.960 Yeah. 00:08:59.279 --> 00:09:02.000 So it's, you know, those we do those things. 00:09:02.080 --> 00:09:15.519 And then um, once once we get them loved enough to where they feel like, you know, okay, I want to get a job, or I really want to get help, or I want to get clean and stuff like that, then we're all hands on deck. 00:09:15.600 --> 00:09:17.679 Let's let's go get your driver's license. 00:09:17.759 --> 00:09:23.600 What's you know, so we okay, you need a driver's license, but we don't have birth

certificates and all of these different things. 00:09:23.679 --> 00:09:28.240 So we're doing all of those things, helping them get all of those things to help them get those things. 00:09:28.399 --> 00:09:28.559 Yeah. 00:09:28.720 --> 00:09:32.000 My husband and I own a general contracting business. 00:09:32.240 --> 00:09:40.960 And so when we started, when we started our business, God said it was going to be a kingdom business. 00:09:41.120 --> 00:09:43.919 At that time, I didn't know what that looked like. 00:09:44.240 --> 00:09:46.240 Um, but I do now. 00:09:48.080 --> 00:10:00.240 Um, but he we were um we we are able to employ some of those that we know that we can take out on the job sites with us and get them, you know, a little extra money. 00:10:00.320 --> 00:10:17.039 It's not consistent work for them because it's not consistent work for us, but when we do have those opportunities available, like they can go out and they can work with us and we can help employ them and get them plugged in with different employers and things like that. 00:10:17.360 --> 00:10:20.240 So it's not just feeding them. 00:10:20.399 --> 00:10:25.279 It's you know, it's definitely helping them to get back up on their feet. 00:10:25.440 --> 00:10:29.679 I don't we want a building one day, a resource building, not a shelter. 00:10:29.840 --> 00:10:31.519 I don't want a homeless shelter. 00:10:31.759 --> 00:10:37.279 I want a resource center where we can get them counseling where they can be healed. 00:10:39.360 --> 00:10:40.559 We can look at that to you. 00:10:40.799 --> 00:10:40.960 Yes. 00:10:41.120 --> 00:10:44.559 I mean, yeah, we can do all the outside and get all that in order. 00:10:44.639 --> 00:10:50.720 But if they don't get the freedom and it's gonna continue to be the same thing. 00:10:50.879 --> 00:10:53.440 I was having the conversation with my husband the other day. 00:10:53.600 --> 00:11:05.840 Like for me, back long before I didn't own my own business and I didn't have to get up and go when I did have to get up and go to work every single day, there was a part of me that didn't get I didn't get up and go to work every day. 00:11:05.919 --> 00:11:10.960 I was calling in once or twice a week because I was sick, something this or that. 00:11:11.200 --> 00:11:17.200 But now there's a part of me that's in knows I there was something that wasn't healed completely. 00:11:17.440 --> 00:11:21.120 Yeah, and I'm just like, and so now it helps me to work with them. 00:11:21.200 --> 00:11:22.879 Okay, you don't want to get up and go to work. 00:11:22.960 --> 00:11:23.759 What's going on? 00:11:23.840 --> 00:11:26.720 Yeah, like what there's something here, there's something more. 00:11:27.360 --> 00:11:28.639 So I've learned to give grace. 00:11:28.879 --> 00:11:29.360 Come on. 00:11:31.200 --> 00:11:41.759 And that's one of the things, like, not only am I trying to teach them, but I'm trying to help our city leaders learn because that's a battle all in itself.

00:11:44.159 --> 00:11:51.759 And so, you know, so like our goal is to just get them help, let them become productive members of this of society. 00:11:51.840 --> 00:12:08.559 But not only that, all of these people that I'm working with today, I know that God is going to have them out on the battlefield with me when I'm 80 years old, sharing their testimony and out there saying, if God can do it for me, he can do it for you too. 00:12:10.000 --> 00:12:11.840 Wow, that's awesome. 00:12:12.080 --> 00:12:19.519 And like I said, when I met you, when I read about your before I even met you, when I read your background, I thought, there's something about that. 00:12:19.759 --> 00:12:25.279 There's something about what you do, something about what you know, I told you in my 14, God give me this vision. 00:12:25.519 --> 00:12:31.440 And part of that is having a place for people to come to get the additional things. 00:12:31.679 --> 00:12:37.679 They need a G D or they need, like you say, a driver license or whatever, just to have a place to come to. 00:12:37.840 --> 00:12:50.240 But of course, on on our property, which maybe we'll share the property over here, but uh but in the back of it, we do have housing for like women and children that are just displaced for whatever reason and stuff. 00:12:50.399 --> 00:12:57.840 But but anyway, I you do this because you've been through some things, right? 00:12:58.159 --> 00:13:01.440 So what would you what is something you want to share with everybody? 00:13:01.519 --> 00:13:12.240 I don't I know some things are private, but what are some things that you share in your testimony that shows what God brought you through that you that you don't mind sharing? 00:13:12.559 --> 00:13:14.399 Oh, my life is an open book. 00:13:14.639 --> 00:13:15.039 Me too. 00:13:16.399 --> 00:13:18.080 Everybody knows it. 00:13:18.720 --> 00:13:20.559 Sometimes it gets me in trouble. 00:13:22.960 --> 00:13:23.279 Yeah. 00:13:25.759 --> 00:13:26.240 Been there. 00:13:28.480 --> 00:13:31.840 Yeah, like we told you, Cesar Audias had to have a disclaimer. 00:13:42.240 --> 00:13:42.799 All right. 00:13:44.240 --> 00:13:48.240 So it it's funny that you mention I I I don't know. 00:13:48.320 --> 00:14:07.120 I've looked back, like God has like really over the last year, really, like, really been showing me like from childhood all the way up to where we are today, about how the different things that he's plugged into my life to make things happen to where they're at today. 00:14:07.519 --> 00:14:12.240 And as a child, I went to church at Souls Harbor. 00:14:12.720 --> 00:14:13.120 Oh yes. 00:14:13.440 --> 00:14:13.600 Okay. 00:14:13.840 --> 00:14:14.960 I went to Souls Harbor. 00:14:15.279 --> 00:14:20.000 Did you do like the little on Sunday night you got to wear the robes and sing in the choir? 00:14:20.159 --> 00:14:21.360 Like that was bigger. 00:14:22.480 --> 00:14:22.799 No. 00:14:23.039 --> 00:14:29.440 So the Cobbs were my my my mom was

working all the time. 00:14:29.600 --> 00:14:32.080 Um, and so the Cobbs were my babysitter. 00:14:32.320 --> 00:14:33.679 They were our second family. 00:14:34.240 --> 00:14:35.679 So were you there when Senior was there? 00:14:36.399 --> 00:14:37.679 Yes, yes, when Senior was there. 00:14:38.000 --> 00:14:42.320 Oh, so we're scoped. 00:14:42.799 --> 00:14:50.879 But I remember then homeless ministry coming out of that. 00:14:51.679 --> 00:15:00.480 And I I remember having a heart back then as a child, but not after and then years of trauma kind of, you know. 00:15:02.080 --> 00:15:10.080 But I remember having a heart back then as a child, but then I went through as you know, molestation as a child. 00:15:10.559 --> 00:15:18.159 I went through uh physical abuse when I became an adult with in relationships. 00:15:18.320 --> 00:15:45.919 I've been beaten with baseball bats, I've been beaten with vacuum cleaners, I've so all of those things, like I say that God like really uses those moments because when I in 2005, that was I was with my son's dad, and that was my the physical part that I had never experienced before in my life, and I stayed in that. 00:15:46.240 --> 00:15:54.480 But when I got out of that, I knew immediately that at some point in time I was because I went into rehab. 00:15:54.559 --> 00:16:17.519 I was strung out on meth when I the last time when I went into the hospital the last time with him, and I knew immediately that I was going to be in some kind of rehab center with women and children because like I could just like I was in that place and I was different than everybody else. 00:16:18.080 --> 00:16:24.320 All of these moms were yelling and screaming at their kids, like addiction really showed in them. 00:16:24.480 --> 00:16:25.840 I wasn't that mom. 00:16:26.080 --> 00:16:27.840 I didn't yell and scream at my kids. 00:16:28.000 --> 00:16:41.600 As a matter of fact, we were all strung out one time at my house for Thanksgiving, and my sisters and my brothers was there, and my sister was screaming and yelling at the kids, and my daughter looked at her and she said, Who are you yelling at? 00:16:41.919 --> 00:16:45.279 She was like, My mama don't yell at me, and you're not gonna yell at me either. 00:16:45.440 --> 00:16:48.480 Like that wasn't that's not what my kids got from me. 00:16:49.360 --> 00:16:55.840 And so when I got into rehab, I set the I set the tone different. 00:16:56.000 --> 00:16:58.879 Yeah, like we can't, Mamas, we can't be like this. 00:16:58.960 --> 00:16:59.840 I know that I'm broke. 00:16:59.919 --> 00:17:06.319 I called my sister to come get my kids because I couldn't take care of myself much less take care of my kit my kids. 00:17:06.720 --> 00:17:10.400 But when then I walked into this place, I was like, oh no, we're not doing this. 00:17:10.480 --> 00:17:12.160 We're gonna, we're gonna set the tone differently. 00:17:12.559 --> 00:17:14.799 We've got to make it, we've got to do that. 00:17:14.960 --> 00:17:22.559 So when I got out of there, I moved to Houston and I that that dream, that desire just started, just it was there. 00:17:22.880 --> 00:17:28.079 And for 11 years, I stayed clean, I got remarried, and I still married the wrong one. 00:17:30.000 --> 00:17:31.200 You know, wow. 00:17:31.359 --> 00:17:35.680 Wait, we we are from a different mother. 00:17:36.880 --> 00:17:38.240 That's a whole nother episode. 00:17:38.640 --> 00:17:40.079 It is, it is. 00:17:42.079 --> 00:17:42.559 Go ahead. 00:17:42.799 --> 00:17:47.440 But when I was down there, um, that desire was still in my heart. 00:17:47.680 --> 00:17:49.200 So I started serving. 00:17:49.359 --> 00:17:53.920 I went I started volunteering at the East Texas Dream Center that was in Houston. 00:17:54.160 --> 00:18:02.400 And like I was starting to get my feet wet there and being able to love on the women that were there and to minister to them. 00:18:02.880 --> 00:18:07.680 And then homeless ministry came up, and I was just like, oh, okay, okay. 00:18:08.559 --> 00:18:13.440 And it was, it was like we had it was family time for us. 00:18:13.599 --> 00:18:14.559 That's what we called it. 00:18:14.720 --> 00:18:15.759 It was family time. 00:18:15.920 --> 00:18:20.720 Every Sunday we went to the park and we had family time at the park. 00:18:21.519 --> 00:18:27.039 And um, when they needed showers back then, I was bringing them home and letting them come take showers at my house. 00:18:27.200 --> 00:18:31.200 Like that was just, you know, I didn't have any boundaries back then. 00:18:33.359 --> 00:18:34.720 You were new with you in the show. 00:18:35.599 --> 00:18:36.000 I was new. 00:18:36.079 --> 00:18:37.519 It was all it was all new. 00:18:40.559 --> 00:18:44.480 But and so, and then I moved back up to Houston. 00:18:44.640 --> 00:19:08.799 I relapsed and had, you know, I lost my dad, and I got in a relationship with somebody that was just like my dad, and it was another sexual abusive relationship, and so it was all just kind of everything God used now, it's because now because I can go back in and can say because I've been there, you know, I've been there. 00:19:08.880 --> 00:19:16.000 I I feel your pain, I get it, I understand, and now I can, you know, let me help you, let me walk you through. 00:19:16.240 --> 00:19:22.559 But not only that, it helps me to love people like God loves people. 00:19:22.880 --> 00:19:29.759 Genuine, yeah, yeah, because you know, some people are really hard to love, and I st my flesh still struggles sometimes. 00:19:32.880 --> 00:19:33.359 Yeah. 00:19:33.599 --> 00:19:35.599 So, oh my gosh. 00:19:35.920 --> 00:19:37.119 You've been through some stuff. 00:19:37.359 --> 00:19:38.079 Yes, ma'am. 00:19:38.640 --> 00:19:47.039 So when you're when you're with a group of people in in there, they're still in the middle of what they're going through. 00:19:47.359 --> 00:19:51.440 Cause that's where people kind of get difficult because they say, Well, just

stop. 00:19:52.480 --> 00:19:55.200 You know, just stop what you're doing, don't do that no more, you know. 00:19:55.359 --> 00:19:58.319 And that's easy to say for a person that's never dealt with addiction. 00:19:58.480 --> 00:19:58.720 Right. 00:19:59.279 --> 00:20:10.960 But how do you, when you when somebody approaches you and you're trying to love on them and give them some food and give them some help and they're still struggling in the addiction, what what is it that you say to them? 00:20:13.119 --> 00:20:16.160 Sometimes I go a little mama mode on them. 00:20:18.720 --> 00:20:20.000 They're my kids. 00:20:20.160 --> 00:20:21.839 Um, like I was telling them last night. 00:20:24.640 --> 00:20:24.799 Yeah. 00:20:25.119 --> 00:20:29.759 Like I was telling them last night, we've been in Greenball for almost a year now. 00:20:30.640 --> 00:20:35.839 And I've been seeing serving the same faces for a whole year. 00:20:36.079 --> 00:20:43.359 I've also gotten some of them off the streets, helped them find housing, do better, help them get adjusted. 00:20:43.599 --> 00:20:45.680 But then I still see the same ones. 00:20:45.759 --> 00:20:48.079 I still get the same phone calls for money. 00:20:48.240 --> 00:20:51.599 I'm still, I still need this, I still want that. 00:20:51.839 --> 00:21:00.480 And I let them know I'm still going to be here, I'm still going to love you, and I'm still going to give you 110%. 00:21:01.440 --> 00:21:02.960 But I need you to give me. 00:21:03.119 --> 00:21:05.839 And last line, I I only asked for 10%. 00:21:06.960 --> 00:21:09.119 I don't know why God told me to 10%. 00:21:09.599 --> 00:21:10.480 I know why. 00:21:11.039 --> 00:21:15.039 But you know, like he he's just asking for 10%. 00:21:16.319 --> 00:21:29.359 And I was just like, ooh, okay, you know, and so that's they know that I'm here, they know that I'm not going away, and they know that when I get silent with them, it's because they know that I'm disappointed. 00:21:29.440 --> 00:21:29.839 Yes. 00:21:30.000 --> 00:21:36.880 I, you know, I you you asked me, you begged me, begged me, begged me for gas money last night. 00:21:37.119 --> 00:21:42.559 And then Monday morning I see you on your mugshots for possession. 00:21:43.039 --> 00:21:50.559 So I I I do I hit them with hard love. 00:21:51.359 --> 00:21:57.279 Like, because I I I I hit my own kid with hard love. 00:21:57.519 --> 00:21:57.839 Yeah. 00:21:58.079 --> 00:21:59.759 If you can't walk this. 00:22:00.079 --> 00:22:10.319 Like, I mean, God's not gonna keep letting us do stupid stuff over and over and over again and us expect that we're gonna continue to get away with it, right? 00:22:10.480 --> 00:22:14.160 Like at some point in time, we're gonna get punished. 00:22:14.240 --> 00:22:16.240 Like that's what our father does to us. 00:22:16.400 --> 00:22:18.240 And so I'm their mom. 00:22:18.400 --> 00:22:26.640 And so I, you know, I'm gonna, I'm gonna walk this out with you just like I would my own children, but you're gonna have to just give me just a little bit. 00:22:26.799 --> 00:22:27.039 Yeah. 00:22:27.440 --> 00:22:32.079 Because I I love that with that you say that at a certain point they have to take a responsibility. 00:22:32.240 --> 00:22:32.640 Yes. 00:22:32.880 --> 00:22:38.160 And they have to take an action and they have to they have to do a certain part at a certain point. 00:22:38.319 --> 00:22:38.640 Yes. 00:22:38.799 --> 00:22:42.799 When they come to you, they're like, they're just messed up, right? 00:22:42.960 --> 00:22:53.039 But then if you're offering them nourishment and nourishment, right, then then at a certain point they have to make a decision that I don't want to live my life like this. 00:22:53.279 --> 00:22:56.960 And I want to to do better, help me do better. 00:22:57.359 --> 00:23:01.279 And those are the people that you really like, come on, we can help you, you know. 00:23:02.160 --> 00:23:14.799 Once you're ready to be helped, but now there's gonna be people, and this is the part that don't you find is the hardest, yes, is that they they just want the lows and the fishes, but they don't want to do the work. 00:23:14.880 --> 00:23:15.119 Yep. 00:23:15.359 --> 00:23:17.440 They don't want to do the discipline. 00:23:17.599 --> 00:23:17.920 Yep. 00:23:18.079 --> 00:23:19.119 They want to keep both. 00:23:19.359 --> 00:23:19.599 Yep. 00:23:19.680 --> 00:23:19.839 Right. 00:23:20.079 --> 00:23:20.319 Absolutely. 00:23:20.720 --> 00:23:21.359 That's the hard part. 00:23:21.680 --> 00:23:23.119 How do you deal with that? 00:23:26.799 --> 00:23:28.400 That's when Big Jeff comes in. 00:23:28.559 --> 00:23:31.680 He's like, he's not lying. 00:23:32.000 --> 00:23:42.880 I sometimes I ignore it and I allow my board to handle some things. 00:23:43.039 --> 00:23:43.200 Yeah. 00:23:43.519 --> 00:23:46.240 Cause we we get a lot of requests. 00:23:46.319 --> 00:23:51.119 Um, their their number one role is to try to make me not look like the bad guy. 00:23:51.920 --> 00:23:55.680 It's because, you know, that's I am the loving one. 00:23:55.839 --> 00:24:04.160 I am and I and they know me, they know that there is a side of me that is going to let you have it. 00:24:04.319 --> 00:24:08.160 Like, no, it's time to get your stuff together, get up and let's go. 00:24:08.319 --> 00:24:08.559 Yeah. 00:24:09.119 --> 00:24:16.880 Um, but there's there's that all of our people are really good about reaching out to all of us. 00:24:17.920 --> 00:24:28.880 So um I let our others handle those things just because I I I do have a tendency to go real mom mode on them. 00:24:29.039 --> 00:24:35.119 And I am going to not say it in the right way. 00:24:36.960 --> 00:24:39.519 But I I like last night I really did. 00:24:39.599 --> 00:24:40.720 I have talks with them. 00:24:40.880 --> 00:24:44.240 I let them know with tears in my eyes. 00:24:44.640 --> 00:24:48.000 Like, you want to keep coming back to me. 00:24:48.079 --> 00:24:49.519 I have

one in particular. 00:24:49.680 --> 00:24:54.000 I have a house ready for her to move into. 00:24:54.799 --> 00:24:56.640 It's been four months. 00:24:58.559 --> 00:25:00.240 Why why are we not? 00:25:00.319 --> 00:25:01.119 I don't have the money. 00:25:01.279 --> 00:25:03.279 Well, no, you get money on da da da da. 00:25:03.920 --> 00:25:04.640 Come on. 00:25:04.880 --> 00:25:07.680 She's her heart is only functioning at 30%. 00:25:08.720 --> 00:25:09.359 Oh wow. 00:25:09.519 --> 00:25:16.000 Um, she just got kicked out of the spot that she where she got trespassing, what spot that she was living in in the woods. 00:25:16.240 --> 00:25:18.240 So now she's living in a dope house. 00:25:19.039 --> 00:25:20.240 Dope is her problem. 00:25:20.400 --> 00:25:20.799 Yeah. 00:25:21.039 --> 00:25:24.400 So, and I told her that's not probably the best place to go. 00:25:24.640 --> 00:25:25.680 No, not at all. 00:25:26.000 --> 00:25:26.880 Not at all. 00:25:27.200 --> 00:25:38.160 But a lot of it is that the mentality, yeah, that that mindset of one of my babies and her to, I don't deserve anything better. 00:25:39.359 --> 00:25:40.160 That's so true. 00:25:40.319 --> 00:25:42.079 And that's that's what they have. 00:25:42.240 --> 00:25:43.039 And I get that. 00:25:43.119 --> 00:25:48.319 Yeah, I get that because that's where your heart aches so bad because I've been there. 00:25:48.480 --> 00:25:49.119 Yes. 00:25:50.240 --> 00:25:50.880 Yes. 00:25:51.359 --> 00:25:57.359 Because there was a point in time when God told me that he was going to be my future husband. 00:25:57.680 --> 00:26:00.160 I laughed for a couple of reasons. 00:26:00.400 --> 00:26:02.880 It's like, I need to see that written in the sky. 00:26:05.839 --> 00:26:07.680 I need a confirmation. 00:26:09.200 --> 00:26:09.839 I did. 00:26:10.240 --> 00:26:10.880 I did. 00:26:11.599 --> 00:26:13.920 But for two reasons, though. 00:26:14.160 --> 00:26:17.519 I one, I was not ready to be in a relationship. 00:26:17.680 --> 00:26:25.279 Well, I'd have been only been clean for a little bit, and then I was in a bad relationship, and I was not ready for all of that. 00:26:25.519 --> 00:26:29.200 But two, I didn't feel like feel like I deserved that. 00:26:30.000 --> 00:26:35.119 And then anytime something good that happened to me, I didn't feel like I deserved that. 00:26:36.160 --> 00:26:37.519 And so I get it. 00:26:37.680 --> 00:26:40.400 Their mindset is I don't deserve that. 00:26:41.119 --> 00:26:53.519 And I I I just I we we have a little thing that we repeat every single time we're together to help them to be reminded that like you do deserve this. 00:26:53.680 --> 00:26:55.279 Like, this is what you get. 00:26:55.519 --> 00:26:56.960 And I don't know. 00:26:57.039 --> 00:27:07.440 It's like I really the Lord has really been just been working on me on just pouring into them a little bit more and just reminding them of how much they do deserve and how worthy they are. 00:27:08.000 --> 00:27:12.720 And we're planning a foot washing, we're gonna do foot washing on Monday night. 00:27:12.880 --> 00:27:13.200 Uh-huh. 00:27:13.680 --> 00:27:16.559 It's it's really just something that the Lord has. 00:27:16.720 --> 00:27:20.319 We lost, we've lost three of our babies in the last month. 00:27:20.960 --> 00:27:29.279 And I went, we went to a funeral on Saturday, and the Lord had before that funeral had really just been washed their feet. 00:27:29.440 --> 00:27:30.880 And I hate feet. 00:27:31.039 --> 00:27:31.680 Yeah. 00:27:33.279 --> 00:27:33.920 So personal. 00:27:34.559 --> 00:27:35.599 It is, yeah. 00:27:35.759 --> 00:27:36.640 Especially in the summer. 00:27:36.720 --> 00:27:40.559 I'm just every time we were gonna do something like that. 00:27:40.640 --> 00:27:41.119 I don't know. 00:27:41.200 --> 00:27:42.400 I gotta go get a pedicure. 00:27:47.200 --> 00:27:47.519 Yeah. 00:27:47.920 --> 00:27:50.240 Okay, my husband took that for us. 00:27:50.559 --> 00:28:00.000 So every um Monday and Thursday night, we repeat, God loves me, Jesus saved me, my past does not define me. 00:28:00.160 --> 00:28:01.680 I am a child of God. 00:28:01.920 --> 00:28:04.160 I have purpose, I have hope. 00:28:04.319 --> 00:28:07.680 And with Jesus, my best days are still still ahead of me. 00:28:07.839 --> 00:28:09.680 Yeah, powerful. 00:28:09.920 --> 00:28:11.599 It's a great powerful. 00:28:12.000 --> 00:28:15.440 So we just, I mean, I know it's working with some of them. 00:28:15.519 --> 00:28:27.279 Like I said, we have some of them that are in houses and we're getting them moved in, and then we have some of them that are taking steps forward and a few steps back, but I understand all of that. 00:28:27.359 --> 00:28:32.880 So it's just like, come on, if you're just gonna give me that 10%, you just still just give me just a little bit more. 00:28:33.279 --> 00:28:38.000 Not gonna keep putting forth my 110% if you're not gonna give me 10. 00:28:38.319 --> 00:28:44.640 But so uh I and the Lord shows me who they are and what he's called them. 00:28:44.799 --> 00:28:51.680 He doesn't show me the broken, dirty part of them, the drug addicts, the the hurt and broken. 00:28:51.839 --> 00:28:56.960 He shows me what he's who he's called them to be and what he created them to be. 00:28:57.200 --> 00:29:03.359 So I can look at them that way and know, like, get up, come on, let's go. 00:29:05.039 --> 00:29:06.400 Sure leads one more time. 00:29:06.720 --> 00:29:06.960 Yes. 00:29:08.559 --> 00:29:08.960 Yes. 00:29:09.519 --> 00:29:16.000 Yeah, you when you do have someone who comes and says, I want to get clean, I don't want this. 00:29:16.319 --> 00:29:18.480 What is your first step with them? 00:29:18.960 --> 00:29:21.759 Um I call this person or this person. 00:29:21.920 --> 00:29:24.400 If it's a guy, I've got one person on speed dial. 00:29:24.559 --> 00:29:27.119 If it's a girl, I got another person on speed dial. 00:29:27.279 --> 00:29:31.200 And if it's

not either one of those places, I have another place on speed dial. 00:29:32.480 --> 00:29:33.039 So you have a home. 00:29:33.200 --> 00:29:35.920 Yeah, we do, we do. 00:29:36.079 --> 00:29:46.400 We have we have different part, not partnerships, but different people that are resources for us that they come out and serve with us occasionally. 00:29:47.119 --> 00:29:49.920 So it helps them to already get to know them. 00:29:50.000 --> 00:29:57.279 So that way when they are ready, all I have to do is pick up the phone and say, Hey, they're ready, you know, you want to come get them. 00:30:02.240 --> 00:30:02.480 Yeah. 00:30:03.279 --> 00:30:09.359 We can we have different people that have different places that they can go to to try to talk to. 00:30:09.759 --> 00:30:10.240 Deal with that. 00:30:10.319 --> 00:30:11.200 Yeah, deal with that. 00:30:12.079 --> 00:30:16.480 The physical aspect is you know, yeah, it's a little bit easier than the psychological. 00:30:16.960 --> 00:30:18.000 Yeah, yeah. 00:30:18.319 --> 00:30:20.960 So it's like let's deal with this and then we'll move to this. 00:30:21.440 --> 00:30:22.079 Yes, yeah. 00:30:22.720 --> 00:30:23.039 Yes. 00:30:23.359 --> 00:30:25.920 We know we know the spiritual side is the bad. 00:30:26.240 --> 00:30:27.039 Right, yes. 00:30:27.200 --> 00:30:37.119 Yeah, and I think one of our biggest things that we're dealing with is society is telling them to go get a job right now. 00:30:37.920 --> 00:30:39.119 Um, I believe that. 00:30:39.279 --> 00:30:53.920 I believe get a job, but I also know that we have so many that are so mentally broken that going to get a job right now is not the answer. 00:30:55.359 --> 00:30:56.559 It's just not it. 00:30:56.720 --> 00:31:02.880 And that's one of the things that I do see where we're lacking is our mental health care system. 00:31:03.200 --> 00:31:03.599 Yeah. 00:31:04.240 --> 00:31:04.559 Yeah. 00:31:04.799 --> 00:31:09.039 It is, it's it's I I don't know. 00:31:12.240 --> 00:31:12.880 It is. 00:31:13.039 --> 00:31:16.640 It's it's a very, it's very, it's very much broken. 00:31:16.880 --> 00:31:17.119 Yeah. 00:31:17.359 --> 00:31:27.200 Well, when when they decided that these people needed to be mean mainstream rather than set apart to heal. 00:31:28.640 --> 00:31:30.079 That's where it brought down. 00:31:30.240 --> 00:31:30.640 Yes. 00:31:30.960 --> 00:31:32.160 Yes, absolutely. 00:31:32.559 --> 00:31:33.279 Absolutely. 00:31:33.519 --> 00:31:33.920 Absolutely. 00:31:34.240 --> 00:31:37.599 Yeah, because you know, some things are one-on-one. 00:31:38.079 --> 00:31:38.319 Yes. 00:31:38.720 --> 00:31:43.359 Sometimes you have to get to be with the person one-on-one to understand where they're at. 00:31:43.599 --> 00:31:51.519 Because Yeah, I mean, you just have to because it's it's it it it is an internal thing. 00:31:51.599 --> 00:31:56.880 It's something that, you know, and and we when we were learning deliverance years ago, Dr. 00:31:56.960 --> 00:32:00.319 Brown would say some things happened in the womb. 00:32:01.680 --> 00:32:08.079 And some things carried over from then on from that on the rest of their whole life. 00:32:08.319 --> 00:32:17.759 And so you go back and start dealing with those emotions and those images and and strongholds and we could get into all of that. 00:32:18.000 --> 00:32:26.480 But but the point is then once you get there, then they when they get healed there, yes, then they can move into. 00:32:26.880 --> 00:32:27.200 Yes. 00:32:27.359 --> 00:32:28.720 Now I can hold a job, you know. 00:32:28.880 --> 00:32:29.279 Yeah, exactly. 00:32:29.519 --> 00:32:35.359 Now I can be normal because before I'm just I'm still uh bound by this stronghold and I can't get out of that. 00:32:35.519 --> 00:32:36.240 Yes, you know, yes. 00:32:36.559 --> 00:32:42.240 That's where the resource center that we have been hoping and praying, and we know it's gonna happen. 00:32:42.319 --> 00:32:43.039 We just don't know when. 00:32:43.279 --> 00:32:45.759 It's gonna happen because it's part of our ministry. 00:32:45.920 --> 00:32:49.119 That's our big thing, is the re is the spiritual side resource center. 00:32:50.079 --> 00:32:54.400 We could come, get fed, get fixed up, and go out in the world. 00:32:54.720 --> 00:32:55.039 That's right. 00:32:55.440 --> 00:32:55.759 That's right. 00:32:55.920 --> 00:32:57.200 Because it's the whole package. 00:32:57.359 --> 00:33:04.240 I love that a lot of uh, you know, I grew up, my mother was really big about giving, doing homeless ministry downtown. 00:33:04.319 --> 00:33:07.759 We did Souls Harbor downtown, feeding the homeless out there. 00:33:07.920 --> 00:33:18.319 We did, what was it, uh, Big Hearts or something years ago that you used to go out there and we would serve with them at New Year's Eve and do the big all stuff. 00:33:18.559 --> 00:33:22.720 And so you would see the same people, and I'm I'm just a kid. 00:33:22.799 --> 00:33:37.920 I mean, maybe just a young up until you know teenager or stuff, but you would see the same people for years still living on the streets, still living that life, and you were thinking, and I remember just thinking as a kid is why don't they want to go to their mama's or something? 00:33:38.079 --> 00:33:38.240 Right. 00:33:38.400 --> 00:33:55.039 You know, why don't they go to like some family or whatever, not understanding how all of that operated, not understanding addiction, of course not, but but all of that, and but I remember just feeling like there has to be something better than this for them. 00:33:55.200 --> 00:33:55.680 Yes. 00:33:55.920 --> 00:34:01.920 Because if you're just gonna give them a bowl of soup and some cornbread, which is good, and you know, I'm about fellowship. 00:34:02.079 --> 00:34:02.319 Right. 00:34:02.559 --> 00:34:17.119 But but they need something, and and that's where I've I felt like our ministry is is gonna is big into is that we want to meet the other side of it

too. 00:34:17.280 --> 00:34:17.679 Yes. 00:34:17.920 --> 00:34:26.400 And so that's why I get think I feel such a connection with you guys because I don't think we gotta keep reinventing the wheel as ministries. 00:34:26.480 --> 00:34:29.360 I think we need to start, you know, rolling together. 00:34:29.679 --> 00:34:30.639 I I agree. 00:34:30.880 --> 00:34:37.679 And doing these things, you know, and and sister Audio can tell you when we have prayer, we do prayer every night at nine o'clock. 00:34:37.920 --> 00:34:55.840 The prayer just last night was would you bring people that are like-minded, yeah, that have the same vision that we can work with without all of this animosity and fear of taking people away because we're on the same team, Jesus, right? 00:34:56.079 --> 00:34:56.639 Yes, yes. 00:34:56.880 --> 00:35:00.880 So that's really who our heart is, and I love that that's your heart too. 00:35:01.119 --> 00:35:02.159 Yes, we are that's y'all's. 00:35:04.960 --> 00:35:08.239 We met with another business owner who did a meat market thing. 00:35:08.320 --> 00:35:11.840 Yeah, and he is just I mean, he let's go. 00:35:12.000 --> 00:35:25.280 Let's go to get multiple pastors, multiple churches together, and kind of get a conglomerate of them saying, Oh, from the pulpit, let's do this, let's do it. 00:35:25.360 --> 00:35:33.360 And yes, that way the sea, yeah, the politics and all them, yeah, they can see that it's actually what we're trying to do. 00:35:33.760 --> 00:35:34.320 That's right. 00:35:34.800 --> 00:35:42.079 Well, we're not doing a handout, you know. 00:35:42.239 --> 00:35:43.920 We're we're we're actually trying to change. 00:35:44.480 --> 00:35:47.440 If he gets that, I want to talk to him. 00:35:47.599 --> 00:36:00.880 Yeah because that is my biggest stumbling block in my ministry is getting pastors to work together and work with me to unite this. 00:36:01.599 --> 00:36:15.599 He this guy I don't I don't know, I remember his name, but I don't know if he wants to say it anyway, but he is really, I mean, he he has been in big business, he's been in politics, he so he kind of has a little Yeah. 00:36:16.079 --> 00:36:16.719 Yeah. 00:36:17.199 --> 00:36:18.000 You need that. 00:36:18.159 --> 00:36:19.920 But that's how that's what we need, though. 00:36:20.320 --> 00:36:21.039 Yes, exactly. 00:36:21.199 --> 00:36:26.719 That's you might have a need, you might have a, you know, you you can do go out and do feed people. 00:36:26.880 --> 00:36:34.960 You've got people that'll come bring washers, you got people that have the showers, you've got, you know, this is all going, but then there's that next step on the spiritual side. 00:36:35.119 --> 00:36:35.280 Yeah. 00:36:35.519 --> 00:36:36.320 That's what I love to do. 00:36:37.440 --> 00:36:41.360 So then, but then you've got to have somebody that's in the end, right? 00:36:41.440 --> 00:36:42.079 On the inside. 00:36:43.119 --> 00:36:43.360 Yeah. 00:36:43.519 --> 00:36:44.400 And that's the point. 00:36:44.480 --> 00:36:49.920 That's what God is doing in this moment because we can't just keep our visions written on paper. 00:36:50.000 --> 00:36:51.519 It's time that the Habakkuk too. 00:36:51.760 --> 00:36:52.480 Come to Yes. 00:36:52.719 --> 00:36:53.840 Yep, yep, yep, yep. 00:36:54.719 --> 00:36:55.599 Yes, you know? 00:36:55.840 --> 00:36:56.159 Yes. 00:36:57.360 --> 00:36:57.920 I felt that. 00:36:58.880 --> 00:36:59.039 Okay. 00:36:59.360 --> 00:37:00.159 So, all right. 00:37:00.320 --> 00:37:02.079 So, man, I could sit here and talk to you. 00:37:05.599 --> 00:37:06.480 Hey, I'm hungry. 00:37:06.639 --> 00:37:07.519 I am down. 00:37:08.719 --> 00:37:15.199 So when we end our podcast, and I told him we're gonna, we're gonna do our little slogan up here on the wall. 00:37:15.360 --> 00:37:26.719 The Lord gave us this when we first started doing this, but this is what we're sent out to do, and so I'm gonna start it, and y'all say the love, the compassion, the mercy, and then we all say go be Jesus today. 00:37:26.800 --> 00:37:27.199 All right. 00:37:27.360 --> 00:37:27.599 Okay. 00:37:27.840 --> 00:37:28.159 All right. 00:37:28.239 --> 00:37:39.199 So our goal is to go show some love, show some compassion, give mercy, go be Jesus today. 00:37:40.880 --> 00:37:42.480 Hey SDU family. 00:37:42.639 --> 00:37:48.880 If you have enjoyed this podcast today, would you please like, follow, and share our podcast link? 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