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desperate act to distract myself from this overwhelming anxiety. 00:03:47.599 --> 00:03:59.120 Then, when I would gain weight and did not like what I saw in the mirror, I would turn into a control freak over every calorie I ate. 00:03:59.919 --> 00:04:06.479 And of course, because of it, I would gain and lose weight almost all my life. 00:04:06.879 --> 00:04:09.680 Never had it stable for a longer time. 00:04:10.080 --> 00:04:17.839 I have clothes in my wardrobe that are stretchy enough so I can wear them no matter the size. 00:04:19.439 --> 00:04:23.360 I was also lousy in control of my time. 00:04:24.079 --> 00:04:30.000 I somehow would always imagine that something can take less than it actually does. 00:04:30.319 --> 00:04:52.160 So, for example, doing homework as a student or when I was working as a stylist and costume maker, I had to use a lot of this adrenaline rush you feel when you procrastinated on something for a long time, and then you have to run in panic to finish things in the last moment. 00:04:53.120 --> 00:05:06.240 I was tripping over my own mess, looking for materials that were all over my apartment, and drinking yet another can of Red Bull to keep me through the night. 00:05:06.720 --> 00:05:19.199 Then, when the hassle was over and I have delivered what I promised, I just crashed, sleeping on the messy bed in my clothes on. 00:05:20.079 --> 00:05:24.879 After some time, I needed, of course, to organize and clean everything. 00:05:25.199 --> 00:05:29.279 So I would do it again to the obscure level. 00:05:29.439 --> 00:05:36.000 For example, when I was hanging my laundry, it had to be according to the right color. 00:05:36.160 --> 00:05:42.959 So I would be in total control of every single detail of my environment. 00:05:44.240 --> 00:05:47.199 What the hell is wrong with me? 00:05:47.439 --> 00:05:54.959 That I'm not able to be in control, or I am a total nut job control freak. 00:05:55.680 --> 00:06:00.800 I asked myself this question more times than you can ever imagine. 00:06:01.600 --> 00:06:10.000 And avoidance patterns and then the obsessive compulsiveness were basically my bread and butter. 00:06:10.959 --> 00:06:16.959 Part of it is still my reality, but nowadays to a much lesser degree. 00:06:17.199 --> 00:06:29.839 So, for example, I'm able to pay my bills on time, serve my clients with finished projects, but for example, I still have a very complicated relationship with food. 00:06:30.639 --> 00:06:56.000 And when I came to human design a few years ago and I learned that I have the channel of money 2145, and that according to the description, I am designed to be in control of my own resources, like money, time, food, etc., and possibly also be responsible of the resources of my people. 00:06:56.399 --> 00:06:59.120 When I saw it, I I laughed. 00:07:00.079 --> 00:07:03.199 That was not my reality at all. 00:07:04.079 --> 00:07:12.959 And since it is an unconscious part of my chart, I had an open mind to experiment and learn more about it. 00:07:14.000 --> 00:07:17.759 So over time, I have learned quite a lot. 00:07:30.160 --> 00:07:40.800 And depending on the planets and the lines of gates that are involved, you may experience it in so many different ways. 00:07:42.000 --> 00:07:59.680 Let me give you today an explanation on how it can show up in real life and why possibly having the money line, so the channel 2145, does not always mean that you have money. 00:08:00.160 --> 00:08:06.800 Also, why having gate 21 may mean you can be completely out of control. 00:08:08.240 --> 00:08:22.639 And I am also going to cover how you relate to the topic of control of your material life based on your chart, even if you do not have gate 21 consistently defined. 00:08:23.279 --> 00:08:33.600 On top of that, I will talk about the planet that brings the immature energy to your life, no matter what activations you have. 00:08:34.559 --> 00:08:43.039 Oh wow, that's quite a lot, but it's all juicy information, so I hope you can stay tuned till the end. 00:08:44.399 --> 00:08:48.240 Now, let's look at a real life example. 00:08:48.480 --> 00:08:59.200 So my own lovely Gate 21 sits there with the planet Mars in line one on the unconscious design side. 00:08:59.519 --> 00:09:10.799 As you may know or not know yet, Mars represents a maturing energy dynamic that can actually stay immature for a long time. 00:09:11.519 --> 00:09:22.960 And it is an energy of teenager, you know, full of stamina, but it's a little bit like a bull or elephant in a china shop. 00:09:23.440 --> 00:09:27.679 Means well, but things get messy fast. 00:09:29.039 --> 00:09:38.960 So when you go back to my story of being all over the place with control, it may start to make sense what why I have those patterns. 00:09:39.600 --> 00:09:49.279 And of course, there is more to it, other aspects of my nature, uh, and also the not-self that are playing into these behaviors. 00:09:49.679 --> 00:09:56.240 But this specific position in Mars is making it in general immature. 00:09:57.360 --> 00:10:06.720 Mars also represents the biggest mutation and fiery energy and change in your life. 00:10:07.039 --> 00:10:14.480 Mars is where you have the energy or not, if you are not operating correctly according to your nature. 00:10:15.039 --> 00:10:29.759 So, for example, if you have gate 21, again, depending on the planet that rules this gate, you may sense how this theme of control will show up in your life in many different ways. 00:10:30.080 --> 00:10:33.919 So, in my case, it is an immature expression. 00:10:35.120 --> 00:10:46.960 Or, for example, you can check the gate your conscious and unconscious Mars sits in and notice how this energy of this gate plays out for you personally. 00:10:47.679 --> 00:10:52.320 And I would love to hear your stories about that if you want to share them. 00:10:52.799 --> 00:11:07.519 So, in my case, we already know that the theme of control is ruled by Mars, a planet that brings a flavor of

all over the place immature energy that it's unconscious. 00:11:08.000 --> 00:11:15.600 You already got a vivid picture that I tend to be a control freak or I do not have control at all. 00:11:15.919 --> 00:11:27.600 Literally, it felt like I did not know what I was doing, and still sometimes feel like a teenager trying to hide from the consequences. 00:11:28.240 --> 00:11:32.159 And the maturing of Mars takes time. 00:11:32.799 --> 00:11:39.679 When we live according to our nature, it possibly can be less severe over 40. 00:11:40.000 --> 00:11:45.519 And actually, this is when we are becoming adults according to human design. 00:11:46.000 --> 00:11:54.080 So I have already noticed that these control patterns are getting less and less dramatic over time. 00:11:55.360 --> 00:12:07.279 And one important thing to remember when we talk about the control of the gate 21, we talk about the tribal resources that impact our lives. 00:12:07.519 --> 00:12:21.919 It is control over our lives in areas of money, where we live, what we eat, our work, our time, and everything connected to making it on the material plane. 00:12:22.639 --> 00:12:26.879 And I do not talk about controlling others from your mind. 00:12:27.200 --> 00:12:31.039 It is always a not-self-action if it comes from your mind. 00:12:31.840 --> 00:12:39.919 For example, taking control of others' people's resources can only happen according to your strategy and authority. 00:12:40.159 --> 00:12:48.240 So being asked if you are a generator or manifesting generator if you want to be in control of someone's resources. 00:12:48.720 --> 00:12:52.639 Being recognized and invited if you are a projector. 00:12:53.039 --> 00:12:58.879 Being initiated and waiting for at least a lunar cycle if you are a reflector. 00:12:59.200 --> 00:13:07.360 And for a manifester, this is the place when they are really where they really need to ask others. 00:13:07.840 --> 00:13:13.759 They cannot just inform that they are taking control of somebody's material situation. 00:13:15.039 --> 00:13:20.960 Okay, so you know what means control in this space and what it doesn't. 00:13:21.360 --> 00:13:24.639 Um, you also know what Mars represents. 00:13:25.759 --> 00:13:29.519 Now, let's look at line one in gate 21. 00:13:29.759 --> 00:13:31.600 This is my line. 00:13:32.000 --> 00:13:38.000 I'm not going to analyze the details of line value described in the rave I Ching here. 00:13:38.480 --> 00:13:47.919 Um, this aspect is actually also really interesting in my life and in my chart because I have a very fixed, exalted expression of this energy. 00:13:48.159 --> 00:13:56.480 But for the sake of this episode and in general, sometimes it is better to look at simple line structure. 00:13:56.720 --> 00:14:00.879 It may be more practical and down-to-earth. 00:14:01.039 --> 00:14:06.080 So when you look at your own chart, I want you to observe the surface first. 00:14:06.960 --> 00:14:10.000 Surface coming from lines and gates. 00:14:10.559 --> 00:14:32.080 So the first line always represents investigation, foundation, details, introspection, studying, insecurity, and the need to know and dive deep to find safety because there is lack of safety without those foundations. 00:14:33.600 --> 00:14:45.600 That means that in my own life, the theme of control of my resources, my eating, my time, my finances might make me insecure. 00:14:46.159 --> 00:14:53.679 So I would need to study and get to the foundation and details of these areas of my life. 00:14:54.320 --> 00:14:57.519 Well, actually, my body did it many times. 00:14:57.600 --> 00:15:07.360 It is unconscious, so I would not be always aware that this is what is happening for me, but over time I would see a pattern. 00:15:07.759 --> 00:15:24.799 The pattern, as I have mentioned, was that, for example, I would do a very detailed budget to be aware of what is going on, and it felt great, and yet the teacher of control for me in this lifetime is Mars. 00:15:25.440 --> 00:15:31.600 So I would not stick to my control budget for a very long time, you know, like teenagers. 00:15:31.840 --> 00:15:36.080 They are not always in charge, they're just living the life, right? 00:15:36.720 --> 00:15:42.240 It was very immature all over the place, dynamic in my life. 00:15:42.480 --> 00:15:51.279 Not only with money, but as you know, with my time, food, work, and everything connected to the material plane. 00:15:51.759 --> 00:16:02.879 That is why when you read a generic description of the channels or gates, the context and detail are extremely important. 00:16:03.840 --> 00:16:09.279 It takes time to actually be able to look at your chart in a very holistic way. 00:16:09.600 --> 00:16:20.559 Because we are full of paradoxes, and this is one that helps me to feel less shameful and guilty about my own experience. 00:16:22.000 --> 00:16:34.720 On top of that, as my design son position is in the gate 45 in line 6, so it's another part of the channel of money. 00:16:35.279 --> 00:16:47.200 And I am designed to be a tribal queen who is in control of material resources, and I was it was not something I really embodied. 00:16:47.679 --> 00:17:04.079 Those times when I would have no control of no control over it at all, and had this crippling anxiety about even looking at my bank account were total opposite of what that energy can do. 00:17:06.079 --> 00:17:11.759 And these patterns were the most disturbing in my 20s. 00:17:12.400 --> 00:17:14.079 Why then exactly? 00:17:14.880 --> 00:17:26.960 So I have a force profile, and it means that I have three phases of my life, especially connected to my material resources. 00:17:27.920 --> 00:17:45.920 So the first phase between being born to the age of 29, it is the third-line trial and error phase, and it is connected to having what I have, what I don't have, as this is a theme of the Gate 45. 00:17:47.039 --> 00:17:52.880 So I had a lot of trouble with my generosity and giving. 00:17:53.279 -->

00:17:58.480 For example, I would lend money to people and not get it back. 00:17:59.680 --> 00:18:13.680 I would take a big loan from the bank for my boyfriend who could not do it in his own name, and because he was in trouble, I wanted to help him. 00:18:14.240 --> 00:18:23.440 Then shortly after we broke up, I saw the message from him: I don't have the money to pay you back, I will stop doing the transfer. 00:18:23.599 --> 00:18:24.799 I'm sorry. 00:18:26.079 --> 00:18:31.599 I remember feeling dizzy and completely terrified. 00:18:31.839 --> 00:18:34.640 I could not breathe when I was reading that. 00:18:35.440 --> 00:18:38.640 I was hoping it was just a bad dream. 00:18:39.440 --> 00:18:49.920 So at the age of 20, I was left with the debt that was quite big and wasn't even mine. 00:18:52.079 --> 00:18:56.079 Now lesson is learned, but the cost was very high. 00:18:56.960 --> 00:19:09.920 I managed to get through it biting through and working hard and paid it off by myself after some years, but it was not easy. 00:19:10.240 --> 00:19:17.839 It was a very traumatic experience that to this day has an effect on my nervous system. 00:19:19.519 --> 00:19:35.599 Add to that the immature Mars sitting on the other side in the gate 21, and this energy who can be out of control, and you have the recipe for some big, big worries. 00:19:36.240 --> 00:19:42.079 So the money would come to me, but then it would slip away from my fingers. 00:19:42.799 --> 00:19:49.599 There was always something unexpected to pay, so much drama. 00:19:49.839 --> 00:19:53.359 I don't have time even to tell you all of those stories in this episode. 00:19:53.599 --> 00:20:04.400 Maybe I will do it in the future, but I also, for example, have a completely open splenic center and undefined Ajna Center. 00:20:04.799 --> 00:20:27.200 So not having a sense of security and certainty about surviving was a big factor in being traumatized about this material plane and the reason of me crying for many nights, wondering if I can ever catch a break and have some peace and safety. 00:20:28.079 --> 00:20:31.680 For a few years now, I am on the roof. 00:20:32.079 --> 00:20:36.079 Meaning it's the second phase of my six-line life. 00:20:36.400 --> 00:20:40.720 So the age between 29 and around 50. 00:20:41.680 --> 00:20:44.400 And it is time to heal. 00:20:45.039 --> 00:20:58.559 This is a phase for every six-line being to heal, and you know, it's the phase where you feel more protected from the struggle you met when you were younger. 00:20:59.519 --> 00:21:07.119 It is time to finally have a break, and in my case, to be protected in the themes of the Gate 45. 00:21:07.599 --> 00:21:10.000 So the resources I have. 00:21:10.960 --> 00:21:14.480 And I have to tell you to give you some hope. 00:21:14.799 --> 00:21:19.119 Um, yes, it feels so much calmer. 00:21:19.839 --> 00:21:23.839 I have less drama, actually, almost no drama. 00:21:24.160 --> 00:21:36.559 And of course, I am still a work in progress, but thankfully, I met Human Design exactly a few years ago when I went on the roof during my Saturn return. 00:21:37.039 --> 00:21:47.440 And I found out that it was just a phase for me to grow, learn, and prepare for being a role model for my tribe in the future. 00:21:48.079 --> 00:21:52.559 About the money and all types of material possibilities. 00:21:53.759 --> 00:21:59.759 Making these mistakes was necessary, and I am grateful for the experience. 00:22:00.480 --> 00:22:07.039 Although my nervous system is shutting me down quite often when it comes to money. 00:22:07.279 --> 00:22:15.119 So I'm slowly showing it more safety so I can feel even more relaxed and open to receive. 00:22:15.599 --> 00:22:19.839 And this is a process, it's not an overnight thing. 00:22:20.480 --> 00:22:23.519 And I have learned so many lessons. 00:22:24.160 --> 00:22:25.599 I'm still learning. 00:22:25.839 --> 00:22:44.559 So for me, being a human design analyst is an incredible skill that helps me to deepen my lessons and course correct following my body and looking at this signpost for me if I'm going into the right direction. 00:22:46.079 --> 00:22:49.680 So, what are the lessons I have learned? 00:22:50.799 --> 00:22:53.039 There are three big ones. 00:22:53.279 --> 00:22:58.799 There's many more, but uh, for the sake of this episode, I wanted to offer you three. 00:22:59.599 --> 00:23:05.519 Um they are useful for my life, but they can be also useful for yours. 00:23:07.119 --> 00:23:22.480 The first lesson is the realization that being in control of my resources, my time, and everything connected to the material plane is not easy for me because it's Mars. 00:23:23.759 --> 00:23:27.759 But it is necessary to experience peace. 00:23:28.640 --> 00:23:35.920 Line one needs to know the foundation, do the research and check the details. 00:23:36.240 --> 00:23:52.319 So when I was avoiding that living, spending, or consuming without having an overview of what was going on, I felt immense anxiety and anger towards myself. 00:23:52.799 --> 00:24:08.319 When I had control, there was peace, especially if the control did not come from the place of fear and actually overcompensation, but from healthy need to be in charge of my own life. 00:24:08.799 --> 00:24:11.680 And those signposts are amazing for me. 00:24:11.920 --> 00:24:19.039 So peace versus anger and anxiety, especially when we talk about unconscious definition. 00:24:20.880 --> 00:24:27.279 So if you have this gate defined in your chart, gate 21, what is the line value? 00:24:27.759 --> 00:24:37.279 And if you do not have this gate defined, you are still going to resonate to it through your profile lines. 00:24:38.319 --> 00:24:40.559 And this is true for each gate. 00:24:40.720 --> 00:24:43.519 And now I quote, you do not have. 00:24:44.079 --> 00:24:48.240 This is what is called in human design the genetic continuity. 00:24:49.039 --> 00:24:55.440 And based on that, you need to know that you have

every gate. 00:24:56.240 --> 00:25:02.319 Some of them are consistent, meaning defined, and some of them are inconsistent. 00:25:02.880 --> 00:25:13.440 And you resonate to the lines that are part of your profile, even if you do not have them in your chart, as you do not have planet there. 00:25:14.240 --> 00:25:30.799 So the themes of control, for example, if you have the 2.5 profile, will show up for you as a second line of the 21st gate consciously, and the fifth line of the gate 21 unconsciously. 00:25:31.039 --> 00:25:34.319 And it goes the same pattern for each profile. 00:25:35.440 --> 00:25:44.799 So lines 1, 2, and 3 are not interested in the other, they are interested in their own process. 00:25:45.200 --> 00:25:53.440 Lines 4, 5, and 6 are transpersonal, so the topic of control will also involve other people. 00:25:54.799 --> 00:26:05.119 You already know that first line needs security, solid foundations, and details about controlling the material aspects of your life. 00:26:05.519 --> 00:26:15.680 The first line does a lot of studying and they can become experts about what it means to be in control of the material plane. 00:26:16.480 --> 00:26:25.599 If you have a second line, you may have no idea if you are or you are not in control. 00:26:26.240 --> 00:26:37.039 So, for example, you may be naturally doing so, being in control and projecting outwards, you do, but you actually have no idea how you do it. 00:26:37.359 --> 00:26:39.519 It can come without effort. 00:26:40.240 --> 00:26:45.359 And very often you need to be called out to take control. 00:26:45.759 --> 00:26:52.000 And if you do not feel the call, you just want to be left alone doing your own thing. 00:26:53.599 --> 00:27:25.599 If you are a third line, you make mistakes, potentially letting others control your material life and feeling powerless, hating to have a boss or breaking bonds with your business partners, but at the same time, you can be very resilient to persevere and to be really successful on the material plane, especially when you learn from your so-called mistakes. 00:27:26.720 --> 00:27:52.240 If you have a fourth line, you may externalize the control and be very fixed in the way you need things to be in order to feel secure and safe, and you actually have the predisposition to become a leader of material resources of your tribe if you act according to your strategy and authority, and this is your path. 00:27:53.279 --> 00:28:11.039 If you have a fifth line, people may project onto you that you should be in control of the material resources, and they might often expect you to take this control if there is any crisis, for example. 00:28:11.359 --> 00:28:20.559 So you are here to bring some heretical message and universalize what it means to be in control. 00:28:21.759 --> 00:28:32.799 It needs to be very practical because otherwise your message won't be heard, and people may have a tendency to blame you if anything went wrong. 00:28:33.119 --> 00:28:37.759 So it is very important for you to set clear expectations. 00:28:38.400 --> 00:28:44.799 Um, you know what you can do, what you cannot do, just to avoid having your reputation ruined. 00:28:44.880 --> 00:28:50.559 And if you have nothing practical to give, to say it's better not to do it at all. 00:28:51.759 --> 00:29:04.000 If you have a six line in the first 30 years of your life, you might have experienced chaos and many mistakes, regardless of the topic of being in control. 00:29:04.640 --> 00:29:22.640 And when you are on the roof face between the age of 30 and 50, you may be very aloof, not involved, and just observing others and learning what it means to be in control of one's own material world. 00:29:22.960 --> 00:29:28.319 And it is your time to be objective and wise about the topic. 00:29:28.799 --> 00:29:38.480 So people, for example, may come to you for advice, and it may be hard to live yourself what you teach others. 00:29:38.720 --> 00:29:41.200 That's what six lines are doing. 00:29:41.519 --> 00:29:49.440 But with your wisdom and objectivity, you can be a big support to those people who seek advice from you. 00:29:49.680 --> 00:29:52.400 And it takes some time to become a role model. 00:29:52.559 --> 00:30:05.759 But after the age of 50, if you follow your strategy and authority, you have a chance and potential to truly embody the wisdom to authentically live what you preach. 00:30:07.440 --> 00:30:14.319 The second lesson shows me that Mars is a great teacher. 00:30:16.240 --> 00:30:24.079 The tendency to be immature in this area is a big possibility, and that is important for me to know. 00:30:24.880 --> 00:30:32.640 When I become aware of my blind spots, I can get clear on what to do about them. 00:30:33.519 --> 00:30:40.960 And Mars as a planet of energy dynamic can easily show me if I am in alignment or not. 00:30:41.279 --> 00:30:52.160 So I have experienced a lack of energy, being sluggish, frozen, anxious, and angry when I was not in control over my material life. 00:30:52.480 --> 00:30:57.359 And this state took away all the life force I had. 00:30:59.039 --> 00:31:02.240 So Mars also teaches you courage. 00:31:02.559 --> 00:31:16.559 So the moment I had the boss to take control and look at unpleasant aspects of my material life, I have experienced peace after I did that. 00:31:18.480 --> 00:31:26.720 Mars teaches you also to become the vigilant parent of your inner teenager. 00:31:27.440 --> 00:31:33.920 I know my tendencies, and I made a clear decision to not escape anymore. 00:31:34.240 --> 00:31:40.480 But I do know that this part of my chart is immature, so I need to be careful. 00:31:41.119 --> 00:31:43.839 How do you parent teenagers? 00:31:44.240 --> 00:31:55.440 You set boundaries and rules, but also allow for mistakes and show love when they made mistakes, asking what they have learned. 00:31:55.920 --> 00:32:02.000 And they will learn, they will finally become adults, but it takes time. 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00:32:06.240 So this is how I decided to work with this energy. 00:32:06.480 --> 00:32:16.480 I need rules for myself, I need boundaries, but I also need kindness, love, and support when I fail, because I'm going to fail. 00:32:16.640 --> 00:32:21.759 I am a teenager here, on the way to become an adult. 00:32:22.400 --> 00:32:27.119 That is really what I was missing for all of these years. 00:32:27.680 --> 00:32:40.799 If you are ready for that, I want you to look at your conscious and unconscious Mars and contemplate where you might experience immature energy dynamics in your life. 00:32:41.200 --> 00:32:48.480 Um, do you notice if in this area you need to learn how to parent your inner teenager? 00:32:49.279 --> 00:32:58.640 Mars can also bring the energy of enthusiasm and courage, you know, aliveness in whatever it planets sits in. 00:32:58.799 --> 00:33:05.200 So I wonder if you notice something like this regarding the gates you have in your Mars. 00:33:05.599 --> 00:33:09.920 Now the third lesson is all about willpower. 00:33:10.480 --> 00:33:17.519 If you have your heart center colored in, you have something to prove. 00:33:18.079 --> 00:33:23.119 And it is important to keep promises to yourself and others. 00:33:24.000 --> 00:33:28.880 Willpower, when it's defined, it is like a muscle. 00:33:29.599 --> 00:33:31.839 It needs to be trained. 00:33:32.240 --> 00:33:44.240 If you do not train it, if you do not challenge yourself, it may atrophy and you might not have easy access to it when it's necessary. 00:33:44.960 --> 00:33:48.079 And I'm not talking here about pushing it from the mind. 00:33:48.319 --> 00:34:00.960 We know that you need to follow your strategy and your inner authority, but it is important to be aware that being in control of your material resources needs training. 00:34:01.279 --> 00:34:06.319 The same goes for every other gate located in the heart center. 00:34:06.960 --> 00:34:10.320 So I did not train my willpower at all. 00:34:10.559 --> 00:34:19.599 It is unconscious, and up until not so long ago, I knew that something was wrong, but I didn't know what. 00:34:20.639 --> 00:34:31.920 And I am very clear now that it is time to exercise my beautifully defined motor and also give myself rest and reward afterwards. 00:34:32.719 --> 00:34:36.960 This is a very big part of having a defined heart center. 00:34:37.280 --> 00:34:40.719 Before I was just rewarding myself for nothing. 00:34:41.840 --> 00:34:48.320 I was promising myself to stay in control, but I would break this promise over and over again. 00:34:49.199 --> 00:34:56.079 And if you do that, and if you have a defined ego center, you literally can break your own heart. 00:34:56.480 --> 00:35:02.639 So promise only if it is in alignment with your strategy and authority. 00:35:03.039 --> 00:35:07.280 If it is your authority, then better keep these promises. 00:35:08.159 --> 00:35:10.800 Otherwise, it may hurt you a lot. 00:35:12.159 --> 00:35:17.440 And the situation

changes when you do not have a defined heart center. 00:35:17.760 --> 00:35:29.599 It means that you can become very wise about the themes of the material plane and you are not limited to experiencing fixed energy, like, for example, me. 00:35:31.280 --> 00:35:41.280 You may still have a planet that teaches you a lesson, but you are more open to a different aspects of how this energy would show up. 00:35:41.519 --> 00:35:51.039 For example, if you have gate 21 in an undefined heart center, you're here to learn about control, learn a lot. 00:35:51.519 --> 00:35:57.519 And your mind will try to trick you into proving something to yourself or others. 00:35:57.760 --> 00:36:09.280 You may overextend yourself with promises you cannot keep, and afterward, you base your own value on the fact that your willpower is not consistent. 00:36:10.239 --> 00:36:16.800 Remember, you are not here to promise anything or to prove anything. 00:36:17.679 --> 00:36:27.760 You can still work with willpower if it is aligned with your strategy and authority, but it is not something you have to train. 00:36:28.159 --> 00:36:38.719 It comes and goes depending on the people and transits, and it can always bring some other nuances that can expand your own experience. 00:36:39.519 --> 00:36:41.679 The less you promise, the better. 00:36:41.920 --> 00:36:52.000 And be kind to yourself, and with your openness, you can become a teacher about the themes connected to the material plane. 00:36:52.880 --> 00:37:05.440 These three lessons have really changed now how I embody the design of a materialist, the essence of the channel 2145. 00:37:06.559 --> 00:37:25.920 As I said, it takes time and also a lot of details and holistic analysis to look at a human being in a way that is practical and also takes into consideration all aspects of our body graph. 00:37:26.400 --> 00:37:34.159 Even those aspects you think are wrong or shameful, like I thought about the control topic in my life. 00:37:34.960 --> 00:37:46.880 I have so much more understanding and compassion towards myself now, even if it's not always easy to have that experience. 00:37:47.599 --> 00:37:56.239 We all have traits that are more difficult than the other, or at least that's how we perceive them as difficult. 00:37:57.199 --> 00:38:10.719 And they can be a great asset on our path, but we need to learn how to embody them in congruence with our nature and our own values. 00:38:11.039 --> 00:38:16.079 My friend, let me invite you into a little fun experiment. 00:38:16.960 --> 00:38:25.280 This podcast is still a wee one, and I so deeply desire to spread my work as far as I can. 00:38:25.599 --> 00:38:31.360 If you love this show, please rate it and review it on Apple Podcast. 00:38:31.840 --> 00:38:39.119 Or if you are listening on Spotify, simply rate it and leave a comment under your favorite episode. 00:38:39.599 --> 00:38:45.840 As a thank you, I will send you my living your design self-study program. 00:38:46.400 --> 00:38:56.159 All you need to do is email me a screenshot at contact at karinaapolloniatrip.com with the subject line podcast. 00:38:56.320 --> 00:38:59.199 You will find the email in the show notes. 00:38:59.599 --> 00:39:09.360 And once you do, you will get access to Google Drive with 10 modules covering the foundations of the human design system. 00:39:09.920 --> 00:39:16.719 About 15 hours of content to support your deconditioning and awakening journey. 00:39:16.960 --> 00:39:24.079 Inside, I cover all the types, strategies, authorities, and also the nine centers in depth. 00:39:24.239 --> 00:39:34.719 As you know, I work with business owners through the BG5 system, but I'm also officially certified as a living your design guide. 00:39:35.280 --> 00:39:43.599 And this program is the most important step if you truly desire to make decisions from your authentic truth. 00:39:44.000 --> 00:39:55.760 This gift may shift or change in the future, but for now, I want to make this work available to as many of you as possible and to support my community. 00:39:56.000 --> 00:40:01.840 So if you want to support me as well and you truly enjoy this show, let's do it.