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We're together for another episode of Walking and Talking.
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I'm Josh.
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I'm Zach.
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Great.
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And today I'm just getting to know Zach, interviewing him, and doing a little sketch of his life.
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If you would, Zach, would you pray for us?
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Yeah, absolutely.
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And gracious Father, we thank you for another day that you've given us to live before you.
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We thank you for the gift you've given us through your church.
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By the blood of your son, we've been ransomed, we've been redeemed.
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As we just learn about my life, Father, may you be glorified in understanding how you have brought me through life, and it is by your hand that you have guided and direct every single thing.
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It is your providence, and it is you who deserve all the glory.
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Please, Father, may this be encouraging to whoever is listening that we might spur each other on to run the race set before us.
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We pray these things in Christ's name.
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Amen.
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Amen.
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So Zach, you just came on staff three weeks ago, full-time pastoral assistant.
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Yeah.
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And you've been at the church now for is it your second year?
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Yeah, we joined technically fall of 24.
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So yeah, we're coming up on technically two years.
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Yeah.
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Yep.
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And you're definitely gifted as a social guy.
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So I know that a lot of people probably have already gotten to know you a little bit.
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I'm sure we got new members, people who haven't yet known you.
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So I want to give a little background to your life, talk about your early life.
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So just to start up, where were, excuse me, were you born?
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Where did you grow up?
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Yeah.
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What was your childhood kind of like?
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So my dad was military.
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He was in the Air Force for 10 years.
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And whenever I tell people where I was born, they immediately think that my religious upbringing was completely different.
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I was born in Utah, just outside of Salt Lake City, Utah.
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And my family grew up Mormon.
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Yeah.
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My family was not Mormon.
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No.
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My family was evangelical.
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So my I was born in Utah, but that was the time my dad was getting out of the military of the Air Force.
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He started, we moved back to Plattsmith, lived in town in Plattsmith proper for I think eight years.
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And my dad started a company when he moved back with my grandpa, RS renovations, remodeling, construction.
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Sweet.
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So that's kind of like a lot of the people in church, some of the people in church know that I do construction or I've done construction before.
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So that's like I owe that all to my dad.
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He taught me everything I know for the most part, and very thankful for that.
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Because a lot of guys don't grow up with dads that can teach him just handyman skills.
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Yeah.
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But yeah, so grew up in Plattsmouth.
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After living in Plattsmouth for eight years, we moved out to the country.
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Very thankful for that.
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We lived between Plattsmouth and Louisville, and we attended a church in Bellevue, Twin Valley Church.
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It was an e-free church.
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Sweet.
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So yeah, yeah.
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We we I've been in Nebraska my whole life.
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So I spent a year outside of Nebraska in the military.
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And then when I was going to seminary, but for the most part, Nebraska has been where I've lived.
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Nossa man.
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Yeah.
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So Cornhusker through and through, huh?
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Yeah, I grew up.
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We had Saturday, every single Saturday growing up, was a football party watching the Corn Huskers never win, never go to the national championship.
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Lots of almost, but not yet.
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So that was always, but yeah.
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Because you were what four or five years old when they last won the national championship.
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Yeah, I was born in 95.
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Did they win in 99, maybe?
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Or is it 97?
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Some Husker fans listening to this are gonna be like, you guys don't know anything.
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I'm an underdame fan from Indiana originally, so I get an excuse, but you don't get a pass.
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I do not get a pass.
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No.
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No revoke your cornhusker card.
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I went through a phase where I was adamantly opposed to everything sports, and I've since tamed down from that, and I appreciate sports for what it is.
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Yeah.
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We'd receive every good gift from the Lord.
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Exactly.
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Yeah, and and football is one of those gifts.
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Football is a very, very fun, and I enjoyed playing it.
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So it's a fun, it's a it's a good sport.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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So did you play football in high school then?
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Yeah, I played so I was homeschooled K through 12.
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Maybe start there.
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Yeah.
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So I was never public schooled, K through 12.
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My parents convictionally just wanted to raise us up in the home.
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And so that kind of brought in doing homeschool sports.
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So I played, I think I played t-ball for like one year, and then I did upward basketball.
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Some of the people remember upward.
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Oh yeah.
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I did a wana all the way through, I think it was oh, what was it?
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What is it called?
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The last one.
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Anyways, I did the Sparky, the Cubbies, the Sparkies, whatever.
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I I don't remember what the teenager one is.
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Yeah.
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And then sports.
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I played basketball for the most part, middle school, high school.
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And then I played full tackle football for a league, the screaming Eagles out of South Omaha.
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Great.
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We actually practiced, and I think I might have even played a game at the South Highs Field.
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Cool.
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When I was, yeah, like 12 and 13 or something like that.
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And then I played flag football.
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Awesome.
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In high school.
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Yeah.
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Great.
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So you mentioned your dad had the uh remodeling business.
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Yeah.
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There's a formative experience, just learn how to be handy.
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Or some other kind of formative, memorable experiences that you had growing up as a kid.
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Yeah.
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So we we grew up on two acres, which allowed us to have chickens.
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Yeah.
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And just being growing up, learning to take care of livestock was just something a lot of kids in the area in the Omaha area don't get to do.
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So I would say that was very formative, teaching me how to, you know, shovel the manure, throw it in the garden, just like do the things that do the dirty jobs, like the micro type of thing.
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Where it's like being willy to get your hands dirty, doing that.
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My parents were really good about making us do things like cleaning bathrooms and stuff, even though I was very adamantly opposed to cleaning bathrooms as a kid, very thankful for that skill now as an adult.
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Because you'd be surprised how many people don't know how to clean a toilet.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Or don't want to, I should say.
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Formative experiences.
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Yeah, that's a good question.
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So we I grew up in Twin Valley Church.
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There's an evangelical free church.
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Many people know the E-free denomination.
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Very general evangelical denomination.
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They're conservative, though.
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And I grew up in that.
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My dad was an elder on the board of elders.
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So they didn't view that particular church, didn't view pastors kind of as Emmaus does, where it wasn't like a plurality.
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The past the lead pastor was a lead pastor, and then you had your like your board of elders that kind of handled all of the miscellaneous, like budget and secretary stuff, and I mean teaching too, but mainly Sunday school.
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But you had the pastor being like he was the pastor, he was the shepherd type of thing.
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Yeah.
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But there was some there was some overlays.
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Sometimes there was plurality with like shepherding list and stuff, but mainly that's what I grew up with.
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So my dad served, and I got to see my dad serve there.
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One of the formative experiences, I just texted my dad about this or told him this.
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I think I wrote a card to him actually for Father's Day.
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And I one of the most formative things my dad did ever did for me wasn't anything he ever said.
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It was every morning whenever I would wake up at that time and be able to catch my dad in the office.
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He always had his Bible open and he was always reading.
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Yeah, he
was faithful, he was a faithful reader of God's word through and through.
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And I never doubted that for a second.
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And like you, you un you you don't appreciate those things until you're a father yourself and you recognize like as you're raising your kids and trying to be a good dad, like that's one of the things that's sticking with me is like the best I can do for my kids is pursuing the Lord and allowing them to see me pursue the Lord.
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Not in a prideful way, but like if if as a father I'm pursuing God actively, my kids are gonna see that.
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Yeah, and that was very formative for me growing up.
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Another thing that was very formative is my family did foster care.
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So that started.
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I don't remember how old I was.
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My mom would know if she listens to this, she's gonna be like, you should, you know.
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But anyway, she we did foster care, I think, for like seven or eight years.
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And that was hard.
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It's hard for me.
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Uh it was hard for, I'm sure it was hard for my younger brother William, all my siblings.
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And but out of it, the Lord blessed us with my two bro youngest brothers.
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We ended up adopting.
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God has blessed our our family with them.
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And Devon actually is down at uh Tennessee Tech playing division one football.
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Sweet.
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And my other brother, Sean, he has gotten some division two offers.
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Cool.
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So very cool to see that.
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But as far as like formative, foster care was hard in that it brought I don't know, it just changed the family dynamic.
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And any family that does foster care sees that.
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So I think that was formative as well.
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Just seeing like, oh, there's these other kids in need, other families who wow, their parents are like really mean to them.
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And seeing that as a kid, it's like, wow, I have like really good parents, yeah, type of thing.
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So as far as like formative experiences outside of like my own like relationship with the Lord, I would say like those were the main things.
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Yeah, yeah.
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No, that's great to hear.
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Yeah.
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So as I mentioned earlier, I used to come on staff three weeks back.
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Yeah.
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Before that, you'd start
up your own handyman business.
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Yeah.
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So as a kid, what did you think you were gonna do when you quote, grew up?
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Yeah.
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Was it be a handyman and a pastoral assistant?
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Yes.
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No, my dream was was not to be a pastor, actually.
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Um growing up, I loved the military.
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Yeah.
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I was I was in pursuit of the military.
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And so after I graduated high school, I was unsure of what I wanted to do.
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And I started attending UNO in their criminal justice program.
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Yeah.
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And got into a relationship when I was there at UNO.
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This is 2015 time frame.
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And the relationship just wasn't good because we, even though she was nominally Christian and I was a Christian, I don't know if she was a Christian or not as I look back, but we weren't pointing each other towards the Lord, and we were mainly trying to uh hoist ourselves up to pursue our own careers.
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But the career that I was pursuing was I wanted to be a detective, I wanted to be a police officer.
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Uh specifically, if you ever watch those um Jack Reacher or the Jack Reacher books, I think it's Tom Clancy, he's a criminal detective in C I D, criminal investigation detective.
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So that's what I wanted to do.
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Yeah.
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So when I went to the recruiter office in 2015, I was like, hey, I want to do 31 Bravo.
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Yeah.
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31 Bravo is the military enforcement.
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They're the patrolees of the of the army.
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Yeah.
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And the the recruiter suckered me in to sign up for the 31 Echo for the$20,000 bonus.
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Yeah.
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Or maybe it was$15,000 bonus, which I didn't get all of it.
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I got I I got it in segments throughout the years of my contract.
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That's how they get you.
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They promise you with this big thing.
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It's like actually you can't get it.
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But a little bit of fine print there.
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Yeah.
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So 31 Echo is actually a corrections officer.
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So I went to for very, very different.
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Very different.
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Yes.
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Yeah.
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So already, as I look back, God
was redirecting me in very subtle ways.
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And I I used to share this.
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I don't share this as much anymore, but I I remember when I was going to, because I was walking with the Lord, I remember going to that recruiter's office and just not feeling peace about it.
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But I remember having this idea in my head that like, God, I know what I want to do.
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I'm just gonna, I'm just gonna do this.
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Because tracking back, I got saved when I was 15, or at least that's when I came to a knowledge of repentance and faith in Christ, a a right understanding, or at least when everything clicked.
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And from that point onward, even through high school, I would get through the in these debates and like things that would just invigorate me to study God's word and like what is repentance and and wrestling with these ideas of scripture and like I loved it.
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And I remember just, you know, the typical old lady in your church, I would get these comments like, you know, I think the Lord has something for you, or something to that degree.
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Maybe not like you should be a pastor, but that there was always subtle hints of that.
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I mean, in my graduation class for high school, I was the chaplain for the class.
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Many of the people listening to this will know it's it was the it was the homeschool, high school graduation thing that they do in Omaha, the bigger one.
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Yeah, and so I was a part of that, and I was a chaplain, and that was a cool experience.
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Yeah.
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And I remember just preparing that prayer for that graduating class, and it just like it was it was just fun.
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Like I thoroughly enjoyed it.
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But you know, other you're wrestling through desires, and yeah, so go to the recruiter's office, felt like it wasn't, I wasn't at peace.
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After I get back from my training, I went to basic in Fort Jackson, South Carolina, and then I went to train, I trained at for my AIT school for my job at Fort Leonardwood, Missouri.
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And then came back, and like a month or two later, I get a call from my first sergeant, and he's like, Hey, we're going to Cuba.
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Like basically, you got signed on the roster.
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I was like, Yeah, oh, this is awesome.
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Yeah, but at the same time, I was like, Oh, wow.
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So we went to down to Quatanamo Bay, kind of dealing with the aftermath of like everything that happened post-9-11 and all of the detainees that were gathered from that.
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Like, there's
still detainees down there, there's still court stuff happening, and this is yeah, 25.
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The guy who masterminded 9-11 is still there, correct?
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Yeah, you could call him the chief financial officer of 9-11.
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His his acronym, well, K Khalid something Muhammad.
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Yeah, KSM is for short.
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But yeah, he I I met him, escorted him.
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He just struck striked me as a grumpy old man.
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Like a lot, it's interesting.
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Your elbow might have accidentally lodged into his ribs a couple times in passing.
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No.
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No, that was an interesting thing, is I went down there, Josh, and I expected, I expected to be able to, I expected it to be in a hostile environment.
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Yeah.
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And actually, it was more like a senior living center.
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Well, a lot of these guys, they're docile, they're old, they're grumpy, they've been and you know, there's a there's a lot more than what I'll get into as far as all of that.
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Because you get into yeah, there's so I don't need to get into it right now, but but the point is the thing that impacted me the most from my time in Guantanamo Bay, Cuba, outside of the time I got to spend in the ocean, and me almost drowning too, which was crazy, was my was seeing these men do their whole you know, five pillars of Islam thing where they would pray so many times a day.
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And now granted, this wasn't like father to son to father type prayer that that you know, like Jesus going away to a desolate place and praying to his father.
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This isn't that type of prayer.
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This is a very ritualistic, and I would call it unemotional prayer where it's just this I'm just doing this as a duty, yeah.
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You know, self-righteous duty.
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And but I saw that and I'm like, wow, they they genuinely like there's this almost this mode of like wow, prayer is really important to them.
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Why isn't it important to me?
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That type of thing.
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I remember thinking that in Cuba, but no, Cuba was fun, and then I came back and that's when I met Valerie, and and I'm getting to where I'm I'm I I'm getting to like what I wanted to be because it kind of like meshes itself into marriage.
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Yeah.
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So I met Valerie the second week.
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We were in the same graduation class in high school.
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I hang out so you were her chaplain.
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Yeah, yeah.
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I guess now that you say that, I've never heard of this that way before.
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That's so funny.
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Yeah, I'm gonna go home and tell her that now.
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Like, hey honey, just so you know, I was your chaplain a lot longer before you even rec recognize it.
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Oh, yeah, before we were married.
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Like that probably I've been the shepherd of your heart since we were 18.
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That's a stretch.
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Uh but, anyways, we got married.
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Uh, sorry, we met two weeks after I got back in 2017.
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And I wish it was more of a romantic story, but we ended up breaking up twice.
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And that was not at all on her, that was on me, because I was so uncertain of what I wanted.
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Yeah.
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And it reflected in what I was pursuing.
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Like, obviously, back to the recruiter's office, there was uncertainty there, uncertainty with job, uncertainty with that with that old girlfriend.
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Like, there was just so much uncertainty.
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And, you know, Valerie was very gracious and long-suffering for me.
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So, anyways, we we started dating, broke up, and then we dated again, broke up, and then I was like, she's like, basically, don't text me or anything again.
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I'm not dating you again unless you're gonna marry me.
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Yeah.
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And I remember it was the second day after I broke up with her that last time, I was like, wow, I I messed everything up.
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Like, I I want to marry her, I love her.
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And I was very, I was very reluctant to tell her I ever loved her because I'd done that with a previous relationship, and I just learned you don't use that word carelessly.
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Yeah.
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So got back together.
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I remember I took her November 11th of 2000, I think it was 18, took her to Olive Garden and just told her I loved her.
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And then from there, you know, we I got engaged April 2nd because I decided not to propose April 1st of 2019.
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And then we got married 2000, August 31st of 2019.
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But in marriage, I was still, after we got married, I was still in the Army reserves.
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I was still drilling out in Elkhorn on my unit.
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And I was like, do I go active duty?
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There were so many jobs in the army that was like, oh, I could be a diver, I could be this, I could be
that.
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I was even looking at Coast Guard, I was looking at the Navy.
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My father-in-law was career military, yeah.
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So there was some pressure there that I was like living up to this and also the benefits from it.
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It's very can be very lucrative, and then the opportunities is really cool.
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But at the same time, I felt like I just felt like I was being pulled in a different direction.
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I felt like God was like, no, nobody, like this isn't this isn't what I have for you.
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And I didn't understand it.
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I didn't Yeah.
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So 2019, we get married.
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2000, I am at that time an elder of a church in Bellevue, the same church I grew up in, Twin Valley Church.
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I did not know this.
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You were pre- you were previously an elder.
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I was previously an elder.
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So That's Twin Valley you said in Bellevue.
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In Bellevue, yeah.
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So 2000.
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I'm trying to get my timeline straight.
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So 2000 when I left for my deployment in 2016, there was one pastor.
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Funds dropped.
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He wasn't able to support his family, so he left.
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He was my previous mentor.
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He counseled me a lot through like just you know, sinful things and so forth.
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And then get back, 2017, Ryan, Pastor Ryan is there, and he kind of takes me under his wing.
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So 2017, 2018, 2019, he starts to the end of 2017, he starts to teach me like this is what expositional preaching is.
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This is what, and I'm like, it's just kind of like whoa, like you studying the word, he's like, there's a meaning to the text.
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He was teaching me the observation, interpretation, application method.
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Yeah.
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So very simple.
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And and then he's like, hey, I think you should try to do this yourself.
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You should try to preach.
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I was like, Oh, okay, like let's let's try this out.
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Yeah.
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So I kept meeting with him.
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He was my mentor, he taught me how to expositional preach.
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I ended up preaching at Twin Valley a handful of times.
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Sweet.
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We were a very small church at the time.
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Twin Valley had been through a lot of hard things.
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Yeah.
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And at that time, there was like 25, maybe 30 members.
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Yeah.
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And we were kind of like barely staying afloat financially.
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Yeah.
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And but Ryan was just, he took me under his wing, he was teaching me.
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And so I was I was doing that, and he's actually the pastor who married us.
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Yeah.
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We got married over there at the old community Bible church building.
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Sweet.
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And yeah, so I'm trying to remember what I was saying.
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You're kind of working through what you want to be when you grew up.
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That's right, that's right.
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Okay, and that dovetailed with me and Valerie.
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So, so with that training, exegetical training that he was giving me, it was kind of like growing this desire.
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Should I be a pastor?
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Should I not?
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Like I'm already like there's this from when I was in high school, like the love of scripture and trying to argue for like what repentance truly is and so forth.
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And then I get to Ryan, and then he's teaching me these things, and I'm like, oh, and then I'm teach Sunday school and I'll preach Sunday mornings very occasionally, not nearly as often as I'm doing now.
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And I may ask, so like the eldership that you had at Twin Valley, did that e-free church have a similar view and role for elders as we do at our church?
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Is it a little bit distinct there?
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That's what I was trying to get into earlier.
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So they had like shepherding lists for their elders, but I I don't it was not a robust view of plurality and parody, yeah uh like there is Adamus, and like you would want to see at any, you know, gospel preaching church where the pastors share equal responsibility for shepherding the flock as well as authority.
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Yeah, distinct roles, but yeah, equal in authority.
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There's no hierarchy.
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Yeah, and that's one of the things.
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Things yeah, the longer you're here at Emmaus, you understand, or any church like Emmaus, you'll understand like Pastor Steve and Pastor Luke, like, yeah, Pastor Steve has a full-time job and he does it works outside of the church.
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Yeah.
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And Pastor Luke is dedicated to preaching the word of God and shepherding the saints, and he gets
paid, he praise God, he gets paid to do that.
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Yeah.
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But at the same time, you look at Steve and it's like, wow, he really loves the sheep.
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And you look at Luke, it's like he really loves the sheep.
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Yeah.
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And and elders' meetings, they both get one vote.
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Right.
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Luke does get like, I get 12 votes, you get one Steve.
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It's it's one to one.
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Right.
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And they're also trained, is the distinction I would make.
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I would say the elders at Twin Valley growing up weren't necessarily equipped and trained as efficiently as efficiently as they could have been.
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Yeah.
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To be able to, and that was just a lack, I think, of the lead pastors.
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Because oftentimes what happens is a lead pastor will come in and he'll just take everything.
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And then the the elders are just the elders, they just become a board.
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But what ought to happen, and I know we're getting off track, but I just want to say this real quick is the the lead pastor has a has an opportunity to help train and kind of guide along the laymen who don't have time to think about specific things, yeah, so that the layman can be, the lay pastors can be equipped to do similar things that the lead pastor is doing.
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And the lead pastor will all but benefit.
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Now, if you have a problem with sharing responsibility and authority, then that is going to be a problem.
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Yeah.
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And I did see that at Twin Valley at times with with lead pastors and a problem of like kind of sharing the reins.
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Yeah.
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So he's teaching me, Pastor Ryan's teaching me how to expositional preach, which and and and he's guiding me along, which I'm forever going to be grateful for.
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And we get married, and I'm in the we're after getting married, we're like, we're just struggling.
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Like there's three things that were were, you know, two things.
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When you first get married, you argue about a lot of things, and there's a lot of conflict.
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But there's some things that we were really, really struggling over.
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And that was military and career.
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It's a big thing.
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Yeah, finances is another thing, and then just things that go along with being married when you're first married.
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And so the military thing was just if we're being 100% honest, like it was an idol in my heart.
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Like I was I had this idea in my head for the type of man I wanted to be.
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I've always struggled with growing up, I always struggled with like self-image and trying to please people and wanting to people to perceive me in a specific way.
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Yeah.
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And as you grow, you realize like, you know, that Galatians 1, 10, like, do I seek to please man or am I trying to please God?
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Like what is the point of what I'm doing?
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And it's salt water.
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Like it there's an initial quenching of that thirst, but uh ultimately it just drains you and cripples you and sucks all the life out of you if you're constantly looking to please other people.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, people pleasing is is a is a hard rut to get out of.
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That's often where shame leads, is to people pleasing, amongst other things too.
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There's a lot of things that can lead to it.
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But so I am struggling with that, and I think two things.
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I was I didn't grow up reformed like at all.
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I grew up dispensational, which is fine.
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I grew up Arminian, which is fine.
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Yeah, brothers and scissors in grace.
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Absolutely.
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But I slowly started to come to the conviction of like the doctrines of grace, as we see in the like reformation.
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And I really struggled with it, and I was like, this doesn't make sense.
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I remember sitting in the Chick-fil-A, and I tell this story all the time.
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Chick-fil-A with Chris Hemmelman, who maybe we'll listen to this someday.
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And he's pastoring now in Georgia.
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He he got called to Georgia.
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But I was sitting there and he explained to me the doctrines of grace, the the kind of tulip idea in a way that I never heard just the sovereignty of God, yeah, God's love for his children.
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And I was just like, wow, like I I don't know why, but I think I'm pretty convinced of this idea biblically, philosophically.
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Yeah.
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And so as that started, those wheels started to turn, I was like wrestling with this idea of like, do I go to seminary?
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Because my my one of my mentors, Pastor Ryan, the last mentor before the one who married us, he encouraged me not to go to seminary and encouraged me rather to just go through the EFCA
ordination process, which I initially started to do, but backed out of.
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I don't remember why.
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EFCA would be the evangelical free church of America, their ordination process.
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Yeah, which is a pretty rigorous process.
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Like you have to deal with some just like like going, it's kind of like a short track to go through seminary, but you because you have to really wrestle with a lot of ideas, you have to read some pretty hefty books.
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Yeah.
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At least from what I remember.
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And didn't end up doing that.
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And all this military struggle, I was like, and then Twin Valley ends up closing in 2020, so we're no longer members of that church.
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So we're trying to find a church.
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So we we visit Coromdeo.
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Everyone knows Cormdale in the Omaha area.
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At least if you're from the Omaha area, you know Coramdale, Bob Thune.
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Yeah.
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And Good Sister Church.
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Yep.
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Yep.
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And I disagreed with Reformed theology at the time.
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Oh, yeah.
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So I was like, I was like, no, not doing this.
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And we ended up at Cross Point Bible, which is at 90th and Fort.
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And at the time, the pastor there is why we went there.
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Yeah.
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Josh.
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So I this is the funny thing.
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So I it was always my desire to be like mentored by men.
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Like, I need someone.
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Yeah.
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And and you can find you can have a lot of idolatry in that.
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Because like you attach yourself as a young man to this idea of like, if I just get the right mentor, then I'm set.
00:27:50.640 --> 00:27:51.759
It's like that's the wrong thing.
00:27:51.839 --> 00:27:55.440
Then you get into his network, you get the different platforms you could possibly get through that, yeah.
00:27:55.680 --> 00:28:05.200
Yeah, and that's just the wrong mentality because to grow as a man, first you just need to go to the Lord through his word and prayer.
00:28:05.440 --> 00:28:15.440
And I'm listening through a Paul Washer thing that my wife sent me, and it just reminded me of some of those realities of like men are fallible people.
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And yes, God has set it up that we are to make disciples, yeah, to make and train other disciples, and that just continues on.
00:28:22.640 --> 00:28:26.160
But so singing a
mentor is not a bad thing, but it can can become an idol.
00:28:26.240 --> 00:28:29.279
Anyways, I go to Crosspoint Bible, Isaiah Lewis is there, he's reformed.
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I'm like, dude, this is now we're cooking.
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Like, this is great.
00:28:32.960 --> 00:28:35.920
I am going, I'm going to Spurgeon College online at the time.
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This is 2020 in the summer.
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I'm like, Isaiah, you can you can shepherd me.
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He's like, dude, I'm all in, let's go.
00:28:43.359 --> 00:28:43.599
Yeah.
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And then there's a controversy at Cross Point, and he leaves.
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And I'm like, dude.
00:28:48.240 --> 00:28:48.400
Yeah.
00:28:48.720 --> 00:28:49.839
He was only there for three months.
00:28:49.920 --> 00:28:53.920
And I'm like, Valerie, what what what's going on?
00:28:54.160 --> 00:28:54.640
Yeah.
00:28:54.880 --> 00:28:56.960
So we continue down this.
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I'm taking classes.
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Now I want to take a step back, and we're going to get to early life now and then conversion.
00:29:04.240 --> 00:29:07.680
And I'm going to step back into family life real quick because this is important.
00:29:07.839 --> 00:29:08.160
Yeah.
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I got addicted to pornography when I was like nine or ten years old.
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And that was very formative in an obviously negative way.
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I think that's okay to say.
00:29:17.279 --> 00:29:20.480
I don't know what the opposite of, anyways, it was very negative impact.
00:29:20.640 --> 00:29:23.279
And it was not necessarily negligence from my parents.
00:29:23.359 --> 00:29:27.119
It was just they were unaware and I kept it hid from them for like four years.
00:29:27.200 --> 00:29:27.440
Yeah.
00:29:27.680 --> 00:29:29.359
That just left computers unlocked.
00:29:29.440 --> 00:29:37.359
And and they didn't necessarily because the my older two siblings, that wasn't a perceived issue, at least discovered issue.
00:29:37.599 --> 00:29:46.400
So I was the basically the mouse that set the trap as far as them understanding like this is a big issue.
00:29:46.559 --> 00:29:47.200
Yeah.
00:29:47.599 --> 00:29:52.240
And that set me into a really just dark period from like 10 to 14.
00:29:53.440 --> 00:29:57.599
I remember just yeah, hating life.
00:29:57.759 --> 00:29:59.759
I was awful to my mother.
00:30:00.160 --> 00:30:03.759
I yeah, I was just an awful, awful kid.
00:30:04.000 --> 00:30:09.119
And previous to this, I remember being scared to go go to hell when I was like seven, eight, nine.
00:30:09.519 --> 00:30:13.200
And having my mom lead me in the prayer as Jesus into my heart.
00:30:13.359 --> 00:30:15.359
And my mom remembers more than I do.
00:30:15.519 --> 00:30:24.319
But what I remember is not feeling changed by it, but more or less
just trying to hold on to something, and I just didn't understand.
00:30:24.480 --> 00:30:25.119
Yeah.
00:30:25.519 --> 00:30:28.079
But, anyways, I was struggling with pornography.
00:30:28.160 --> 00:30:29.440
I was in the thralls of it.
00:30:29.599 --> 00:30:31.440
And yeah, I just didn't see any way out.
00:30:31.680 --> 00:30:34.160
There was a point when I became so hopeless.
00:30:34.319 --> 00:30:37.279
I just I became suicidal, didn't really want to live anymore.
00:30:37.440 --> 00:30:37.599
Yeah.
00:30:37.839 --> 00:30:39.519
It was just a hopeless situation.
00:30:39.839 --> 00:30:49.119
And remember even trying to sell myself out to the devil because of some movie I saw like this really dark times.
00:30:49.759 --> 00:30:59.359
Later on in life, understanding like actually our souls are not like Satan is a dog on the Lord's leash, and he has no authority over my soul.
00:30:59.440 --> 00:31:03.440
Actually, it's the Lord and the Lord only who who holds our souls in his hands.
00:31:03.680 --> 00:31:08.799
And that was a huge, I don't remember when I came to that understanding, but that was just that was a process.
00:31:08.880 --> 00:31:10.000
That wasn't a one-time thing.
00:31:10.160 --> 00:31:10.319
Yeah.
00:31:10.480 --> 00:31:13.440
But when I was 15, I went to a Christian camp for the second time.
00:31:13.839 --> 00:31:15.920
So I went for 13 and then 15.
00:31:16.079 --> 00:31:22.400
And it was Ryan, I think, who was preaching, Pastor Ryan, who was preaching the message on repentance at this Christian youth in action thing.
00:31:22.640 --> 00:31:24.559
And I just remember just something clicking.
00:31:24.720 --> 00:31:27.119
I'm like, wow, I haven't repented of my sin.
00:31:27.279 --> 00:31:29.359
Like I'm not turning from it.
00:31:29.920 --> 00:31:32.000
And that changed my trajectory.
00:31:32.079 --> 00:31:32.240
Yeah.
00:31:32.559 --> 00:31:36.480
And began to like see change in my own heart that summer.
00:31:36.640 --> 00:31:39.440
Like really enjoyed preaching the gospel.
00:31:39.599 --> 00:31:49.839
And one thing I'll say is CYIA, Christian Youth in Action, is an organization that has an Omaha chapter that is organized and designed to train kids to teach kids the gospel.
00:31:50.400 --> 00:31:55.599
When I was 13, I tried to do that, and I remember them trying to get me to learn how to teach the gospel.
00:31:55.680 --> 00:31:57.839
And I remember not being able to connect the points.
00:31:58.000 --> 00:32:00.799
Like have you have you heard of the wordless book?
00:32:00.960 --> 00:32:09.039
It's often attributed to Spurgeon, but it's basically like you have your gold page, heaven, and then you have your the wristbands in church camp when I was growing up.
00:32:09.119 --> 00:32:09.200
Yeah.
00:32:09.279 --> 00:32:11.599
There's a different colors that represented different parts of the gospel.
00:32:11.839 --> 00:32:12.160
Exactly.
00:32:12.240 --> 00:32:12.640
That's it.
00:32:12.720 --> 00:32:12.960
That's
it.
00:32:13.039 --> 00:32:15.200
That's the word that comes out of the wordless book idea.
00:32:15.359 --> 00:32:15.759
I see.
00:32:16.000 --> 00:32:20.319
And I think it's attributed with Charles Haddon Spurgeon for who who started that.
00:32:20.559 --> 00:32:24.880
But but anyways, I I wasn't able to teach the gospel when I was 13.
00:32:24.960 --> 00:32:29.200
And it's funny when I look back, I'm like, it's because you didn't understand the gospel in the first place.
00:32:29.440 --> 00:32:32.799
Like, how can you teach the gospel effectively to children if you don't understand it yourself?
00:32:32.960 --> 00:32:33.119
Yeah.
00:32:33.359 --> 00:32:35.759
So 15 blind trying to teach the blind.
00:32:36.000 --> 00:32:36.880
It's a blind guide.
00:32:36.960 --> 00:32:37.119
Yeah.
00:32:37.279 --> 00:32:38.160
It's exactly what it is.
00:32:38.319 --> 00:32:42.400
And so learning how to preach the gospel to kids when I was 15 and then onward to that.
00:32:42.480 --> 00:32:44.559
So that set the trajectory fair.
00:32:45.279 --> 00:32:50.720
When I got married, I'd brought pornography into marriage, and that was a hard time too.
00:32:50.880 --> 00:32:55.519
So so I never really fully got rid of that, that sin.
00:32:56.079 --> 00:32:59.680
And a lot of it was because I wasn't bringing it into the light as I should have been.
00:32:59.839 --> 00:33:04.000
But God used Valerie in a very, very loving and kind way.
00:33:04.880 --> 00:33:10.160
Obviously, I destroyed, you know, I I didn't destroy, but I I really wrecked Valerie.
00:33:10.319 --> 00:33:11.200
Yeah, damaged trust.
00:33:11.599 --> 00:33:13.440
Damaged a lot of trust.
00:33:13.920 --> 00:33:17.599
And yeah, so and some of that trust is still being built back to this day.
00:33:17.839 --> 00:33:22.079
And and I thank God that He's given me His grace.
00:33:22.319 --> 00:33:25.359
And it's only by His grace that I am able to continue to move forward.
00:33:25.440 --> 00:33:30.160
I'm very thankful that God has given me freedom from it.
00:33:30.480 --> 00:33:33.759
But in any case, that was formative.
00:33:34.079 --> 00:33:42.960
And once that stopped, and then we started to go into repair mode in our marriage, more things just started to click.
00:33:43.119 --> 00:33:46.079
And so that was 2020 when I confessed everything.
00:33:46.400 --> 00:33:51.519
In 2021, we we flipped the page, and I'm like, should I go to seminary?
00:33:51.680 --> 00:33:52.480
Should I not?
00:33:52.720 --> 00:33:55.039
I'm like, I'm Pastor Ryan is no longer here.
00:33:55.119 --> 00:33:58.160
I'm at Cross Point Bible, and I'm like helping teach youth group.
00:33:58.240 --> 00:33:59.680
I'm involved in different ways.
00:33:59.920 --> 00:34:03.599
But I'm like, Isaiah Lewis just left and I don't know what to do.
00:34:03.759 --> 00:34:04.799
This is 2020, right?
00:34:04.880 --> 00:34:05.759
And COVID's happening.
00:34:05.839 --> 00:34:07.359
So there's a lot of stuff going on.
00:34:07.519 --> 00:34:08.000
Yeah.
00:34:08.320 --> 00:34:15.599
We go into 2021 and I'm like, Valerie, we might need to consider going to Kansas City.
00:34:15.679 --> 00:34:18.000
So Spurgeon College is where I was taking online classes.
00:34:18.079 --> 00:34:22.239
The Bible college underneath Midwestern, Baptist Theological Seminary.
00:34:22.400 --> 00:34:25.920
And I was like, okay, let's consider this.
00:34:26.000 --> 00:34:27.280
And Valerie's like, I don't know.
00:34:27.360 --> 00:34:28.320
I don't want to move away.
00:34:28.480 --> 00:34:29.599
Our families are here.
00:34:29.760 --> 00:34:30.079
Yeah.
00:34:30.320 --> 00:34:33.199
And at this point, were you still wrestling with the call to ministry?
00:34:33.360 --> 00:34:34.719
Was that more solidified at this point?
00:34:34.880 --> 00:34:42.079
It was becoming more solidified, but I still had doubts because if you remember, like I really struggled with the whole military thing.
00:34:42.239 --> 00:34:42.559
Yeah.
00:34:42.719 --> 00:34:44.639
And that still was residual.
00:34:44.800 --> 00:34:45.119
Yeah.
00:34:45.280 --> 00:34:49.039
Like that was residual even somewhat when I was in seminary too.
00:34:49.519 --> 00:34:51.840
Like the military had a huge grip on my heart.
00:34:52.000 --> 00:35:05.760
Like it did not, it took years of me processing through things biblically to understand like your value and as a man does not revolve around your career.
00:35:05.920 --> 00:35:06.960
Like whatever it is.
00:35:07.199 --> 00:35:11.599
And you may not go do these accolades and these these amazing feats.
00:35:12.079 --> 00:35:13.360
That does not matter.
00:35:13.599 --> 00:35:16.320
But me to actually accept that was a whole nother thing.
00:35:16.400 --> 00:35:22.239
Like I may go through my whole life, Josh, and never be able to do the things that I initially set out to do.
00:35:22.639 --> 00:35:23.760
And that's what was hardest.
00:35:23.840 --> 00:35:33.360
Like go to other countries and and like even in the military, like go through some of that elite soldier training and do the things that, like, oh wow, I really wanted to do that.
00:35:33.440 --> 00:35:36.159
And become Jack Reacher again?
00:35:36.320 --> 00:35:37.039
Yeah, yeah.
00:35:37.199 --> 00:35:38.320
Tom Cruise, no.
00:35:38.639 --> 00:35:40.639
There's the new guy, the new actor, he's jacked.
00:35:40.719 --> 00:35:43.599
I mean, you get you definitely imitate his uh physique in that regard.
00:35:43.840 --> 00:35:44.480
No, I do not.
00:35:44.559 --> 00:35:46.239
That guy, that guy's on steroids.
00:35:46.320 --> 00:35:47.199
I do not take steroids.
00:35:47.599 --> 00:35:48.000
You heard it here.
00:35:48.159 --> 00:35:51.039
Zachary Hall is not on anabolic steroids.
00:35:51.599 --> 00:35:52.320
Can confirm.
00:35:52.480 --> 00:35:53.119
You heard it here.
00:35:53.280 --> 00:35:54.639
He is fully natural.
00:35:56.079 --> 00:35:58.400
And so, yeah.
00:35:58.559 --> 00:36:06.559
So 2021, we didn't make a decision, moved
to seminary, and we find ourselves going to One Old Road Baptist Church.
00:36:06.960 --> 00:36:07.440
Good church.
00:36:07.599 --> 00:36:08.000
Good church.
00:36:08.159 --> 00:36:09.760
And Mark Carrington was the pastor there.
00:36:10.719 --> 00:36:11.519
Beautiful church too.
00:36:11.679 --> 00:36:13.199
Architecture is gorgeous.
00:36:13.360 --> 00:36:13.599
Yeah.
00:36:13.760 --> 00:36:14.159
Yeah.
00:36:14.400 --> 00:36:16.239
It's one of the yeah, it's beautiful.
00:36:16.320 --> 00:36:18.960
And it's always been a Baptist church too, which is really unique about its history.
00:36:19.199 --> 00:36:19.920
Oh, what is that building?
00:36:20.000 --> 00:36:20.800
You would know, right?
00:36:20.960 --> 00:36:21.519
I didn't know.
00:36:21.599 --> 00:36:22.320
It's on their website.
00:36:22.400 --> 00:36:23.039
You can go check it out.
00:36:23.119 --> 00:36:24.079
Warner Road Baptist Church.
00:36:24.320 --> 00:36:26.400
Late 1800s, would that be Probably?
00:36:26.559 --> 00:36:26.719
Yeah.
00:36:26.880 --> 00:36:27.599
Yeah, that sounds right.
00:36:28.320 --> 00:36:28.880
Gorgeous building.
00:36:29.039 --> 00:36:29.599
Oh, it is.
00:36:29.679 --> 00:36:30.719
It's absolutely gorgeous.
00:36:31.199 --> 00:36:31.760
Taking care of it.
00:36:31.920 --> 00:36:32.159
Yes.
00:36:32.320 --> 00:36:37.360
And they have they they have they used to have carpet in their sanctuary, and now they don't.
00:36:37.519 --> 00:36:38.639
And it was a game changer.
00:36:38.880 --> 00:36:45.840
Pastor Ron isn't here, but Pastor Ron, if you're listening to this podcast, just want to double tap on what Zachary might have just said.
00:36:46.239 --> 00:36:47.360
Just a note.
00:36:49.920 --> 00:36:55.760
I heard that Pastor Eric Raymond before he before he left pulled up a corner of the carpet in the sanctuary.
00:36:56.639 --> 00:37:04.000
And underneath those blood-red carpets are beautiful hardwoods awaiting to be restored to their former glory.
00:37:04.239 --> 00:37:05.519
To their former glory.
00:37:05.679 --> 00:37:06.400
May it be so.
00:37:06.719 --> 00:37:07.360
Just kidding.
00:37:07.840 --> 00:37:12.159
So I go to Warner Baptist Church, Mark Carrington, and then Mark Carrington leaves.
00:37:12.320 --> 00:37:13.119
I know, man.
00:37:13.280 --> 00:37:16.239
And there, and granted, there was there was a hard situation there.
00:37:16.320 --> 00:37:16.559
Yeah.
00:37:16.719 --> 00:37:19.119
And Mark and Katie, I love their family.
00:37:19.280 --> 00:37:20.400
They made the right decision.
00:37:20.559 --> 00:37:22.639
I don't know exactly where Mark what Mark is doing now.
00:37:22.719 --> 00:37:23.840
I think he's still pastoring.
00:37:24.000 --> 00:37:26.239
But anyways, they laughed and I'm like, what's going on?
00:37:26.400 --> 00:37:31.760
Like every single place I'm at, like I was at one church and with Pastor Ryan, and then he leaves.
00:37:32.079 --> 00:37:34.000
I go to another church, cross point, Isaiah Lewis leaves.
00:37:34.159 --> 00:37:34.639
I go to another church.
00:37:34.800 --> 00:37:35.760
You're the common denominator.
00:37:35.840 --> 00:37:40.480
So obviously you were like the origin to all these all these pastors.
00:37:40.639 --> 00:37:42.559
They're like, ooh, Zach, let's let's not stay around.
00:37:42.880 --> 00:37:43.360
I've heard of this guy.
00:37:43.440 --> 00:37:44.559
He just dries guys out.
00:37:45.039 --> 00:37:48.079
Yeah, we no that's a no-fly zone.
00:37:48.400 --> 00:37:49.360
Stay away from Zach.
00:37:49.440 --> 00:37:51.360
And then Philip Van Steinberg comes in.
00:37:52.159 --> 00:37:55.280
Pastor Philip, he was pastoring out at Cape Cape Cod.
00:37:55.599 --> 00:37:57.039
Is that Massachusetts?
00:37:57.360 --> 00:37:58.079
It's in New England.
00:37:58.239 --> 00:37:58.880
It's in New England.
00:37:58.960 --> 00:38:00.480
A really hard place to minister.
00:38:00.719 --> 00:38:04.719
And anyways, Philip comes in and then he starts mentoring me.
00:38:04.880 --> 00:38:08.000
And man, Philip was such a blessing in my life.
00:38:08.239 --> 00:38:11.679
Yeah, seminary was very, very formative in a lot of different ways.
00:38:11.920 --> 00:38:22.559
So closing up this part of the story of calling, the calling really began in seminary when I was wrestling with military and not.
00:38:22.719 --> 00:38:27.280
I'm like, I think the Lord's called me to pastoral ministry, but I have no idea what that looks like.
00:38:27.440 --> 00:38:27.599
Yeah.
00:38:27.840 --> 00:38:37.599
And then me starting to be okay with what me saying that, and then when I gave it to the Lord, it's like, I want to be a pastor, but if I have to work a full-time job and be a pastor, then I guess so be it.
00:38:37.679 --> 00:38:37.920
Yeah.
00:38:38.079 --> 00:38:39.519
And like kind of things like that.
00:38:39.679 --> 00:38:45.920
And then long story short, graduated seminary, nothing came up, all the places I applied to.
00:38:46.079 --> 00:38:49.840
And then I ended up moving back here, attending Mayus Bible Church two months later.
00:38:50.000 --> 00:38:53.599
Thomas was like, Hey, you want to Pastor Thomas was like, hey, you want to do the residency?
00:38:53.760 --> 00:38:54.719
I was like, absolutely.
00:38:55.119 --> 00:38:55.360
Yeah.
00:38:56.400 --> 00:38:57.599
Thomas, can you mentor me?
00:38:57.679 --> 00:38:59.039
And then he leaves.
00:39:00.639 --> 00:39:01.199
I know.
00:39:01.280 --> 00:39:03.679
It's so funny to think about that.
00:39:03.760 --> 00:39:05.920
Thomas was like, I am not gonna stay here.
00:39:06.239 --> 00:39:09.440
I could do one year of Zachary, and then I needed to bolt.
00:39:09.599 --> 00:39:13.840
He was like, he was like, I'm gonna stay the manus for my whole life.
00:39:13.920 --> 00:39:19.280
And then I moved here in his first meeting with me, he was like, time to go.
00:39:19.840 --> 00:39:20.960
It is time to move on.
00:39:21.119 --> 00:39:27.920
I always thought Luke and Thomas would get buried in that side lot, just
holding hands, pastoring the other for 50 years.
00:39:28.239 --> 00:39:29.119
60 years.
00:39:29.360 --> 00:39:31.599
But Zachary, the the allergen.
00:39:32.000 --> 00:39:34.320
Yeah, I've come in and I've disrupted everything.
00:39:35.360 --> 00:39:37.119
That's a funny little providence.
00:39:37.360 --> 00:39:37.840
It is.
00:39:38.000 --> 00:39:38.320
It is.
00:39:38.400 --> 00:39:41.199
If you think about it, it's funny how God orchestrates things.
00:39:41.679 --> 00:39:45.920
So I'm thinking about some young guys in our church that might have desires for pastoral ministry.
00:39:46.000 --> 00:39:47.280
I think of like a Patrick Yonkers.
00:39:47.440 --> 00:39:53.039
I'm sure there's other guys either now or in the future who'll be wrestling with uh is the Lord calling me in ministry?
00:39:53.119 --> 00:39:53.519
Yeah.
00:39:53.760 --> 00:39:55.840
How would you counsel through that?
00:39:55.920 --> 00:40:00.880
Is that just I've heard the categories of there's the internal call, is there the desire within the young man?
00:40:01.119 --> 00:40:02.320
There's also the external call.
00:40:02.480 --> 00:40:08.079
Is there the church and the pastors to affirm and say, hey, I actually I see the spirit doing this in you?
00:40:08.239 --> 00:40:08.400
Yeah.
00:40:08.559 --> 00:40:22.639
Because a lot of times you have guys that have that internal call, but then externally the spirit's like using these congregations, churches, and pastors to say, That's not me speaking, that's just you having desires that aren't going to be affirmed here.
00:40:22.960 --> 00:40:23.360
Yeah.
00:40:23.599 --> 00:40:23.920
Yeah.
00:40:24.079 --> 00:40:24.719
That's a good question.
00:40:24.960 --> 00:40:26.000
So how would you navigate that?
00:40:26.239 --> 00:40:28.559
Yeah, I think or encourage young guys to navigate that.
00:40:28.800 --> 00:40:36.880
Yeah, I think one of the things that I was severely lacking in seminary was the ability to navigate that very question.
00:40:37.199 --> 00:40:44.639
Because in seminary, you get this over what I would call as an over-spiritualization of the call to ministry.
00:40:44.800 --> 00:40:45.119
Yeah.
00:40:45.280 --> 00:40:47.199
There does need to be an internal call.
00:40:47.440 --> 00:40:55.119
And simply what that is, if you look at the text, if you aspire to the office of overseer, you you you aspire to a noble task.
00:40:55.599 --> 00:41:00.639
That is a qualification that Paul lists for the office of elder, pastor, overseer.
00:41:00.719 --> 00:41:00.880
Correct.
00:41:01.119 --> 00:41:02.079
Three synonymous terms.
00:41:02.400 --> 00:41:03.360
First Timothy.
00:41:03.599 --> 00:41:25.679
And and the the internal call that I would refer to, without over-spiritualizing it, and maybe guys like Spurgeon or you know Martin Lowe Jones or guys would would discourage me from saying this, but what I will say is this is that the internal call is it accompanies that text one for one.
00:41:26.159 --> 00:41:33.119
The internal call is a desire for the office of overseer to be a pastor, to shepherd the flock.
00:41:33.360 --> 00:41:35.760
And you don't have to understand exactly what that looks like.
00:41:35.920 --> 00:41:38.880
You don't have to understand all the ins and outs because you're not going to.
00:41:39.119 --> 00:41:44.320
As a young man seeking to aspire to the office of overseer, you're not going to know all that.
00:41:44.400 --> 00:41:44.639
Yeah.
00:41:44.800 --> 00:41:50.960
But what is important is to distinguish the desires of your heart and understand what you're thinking and feeling.
00:41:51.119 --> 00:41:51.440
Yeah.
00:41:51.679 --> 00:41:55.679
And the best way to navigate that is I would say three things.
00:41:55.920 --> 00:41:56.400
Two things.
00:41:56.480 --> 00:41:58.719
We'll sum it up to two things: prayer and reading.
00:41:58.880 --> 00:42:01.920
So continue to dive into the word of God and prayer.
00:42:02.000 --> 00:42:02.320
Yeah.
00:42:02.559 --> 00:42:08.960
You're not going to be able to shepherd the flock of God effectively at all or oversee the flock of God without being a man of prayer.
00:42:09.679 --> 00:42:11.599
The second thing is wise counsel.
00:42:11.679 --> 00:42:13.440
And that's where the external call comes in.
00:42:13.519 --> 00:42:14.079
Yeah.
00:42:14.400 --> 00:42:27.679
I in seminary, you have guys, it's like I'm I'm called to be a pastor, and then they go and they apply, and then the the church goes through an affirmation process, and then he gets called by the church, and then and then they he goes.
00:42:27.920 --> 00:42:42.400
The process that I would want to encourage all young men, and I would hope as a as a as in evangelicalism in general, yeah, the trend I hope I want to see is where churches are starting to raise up men from within them.
00:42:42.639 --> 00:42:49.920
So when a man comes to me or comes to a pastor and says, Hey, I think I have a call to ministry, a lot of pastors will be like, okay, great, go to seminary.
00:42:50.000 --> 00:42:50.159
Yeah.
00:42:50.320 --> 00:42:51.920
It's like, you know, get out of my docket.
00:42:52.000 --> 00:42:53.920
I don't just just go to seminary because they're equipped for that.
00:42:54.000 --> 00:42:55.760
I'm not getting a piece of paper and then we'll talk.
00:42:56.000 --> 00:42:56.719
Right, right.
00:42:56.880 --> 00:43:02.480
And it's like that's just that's just reading books and writing papers.
00:43:02.639 --> 00:43:03.119
Yeah.
00:43:03.360 --> 00:43:05.360
Like And there's a need for that.
00:43:05.519 --> 00:43:06.400
But that's 100%.
00:43:06.800 --> 00:43:07.679
That's not the totality.
00:43:07.760 --> 00:43:09.280
That's one piece.
00:43:09.519 --> 00:43:16.639
Yeah, that's and I don't there's a pastor I knew about that's been faithfully past I don't remember who he is.
00:43:17.039 --> 00:43:18.719
I'm blanking right now, but yeah.
00:43:18.960 --> 00:43:22.800
He only has a bachelor's degree and he's been faithfully
shepherding for like a long time.
00:43:22.880 --> 00:43:34.320
And I guarantee you, Josh, that you can find hundreds and thousands of pastors who don't have seminary education who are far more loving, faithful shepherds than some men with seminary or even doctorate degrees.
00:43:34.480 --> 00:43:34.559
Yeah.
00:43:34.880 --> 00:43:44.159
I'm pretty sure Eric Raymond, the funny pastor of Emmaus, who he's in Boston now, but he writes for lighenier, table talk, gospel coalition, desiring God.
00:43:44.639 --> 00:43:46.480
If I remember correctly, he only has a bachelor's.
00:43:46.639 --> 00:43:48.800
He does not have any any seminary education.
00:43:49.119 --> 00:43:51.280
And that was by the God's divine providence.
00:43:51.360 --> 00:43:54.000
And Eric is also uniquely gifted in certain areas, too.
00:43:54.079 --> 00:43:54.239
Yeah.
00:43:54.400 --> 00:43:55.760
So we have to keep those into account as well.
00:43:55.840 --> 00:43:59.280
Like not He's not prescriptive by any means, because he has a very talented.
00:44:00.239 --> 00:44:00.400
Brother.
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He's a very gifted brother.
00:44:01.840 --> 00:44:10.400
And what so what I would say about calling is one of the things that I realized excuse me, I want to back up.
00:44:10.559 --> 00:44:22.239
One of the things that God made me realize was that you need to have a group of men verify you as having the gifting of a pastor, of a preacher.
00:44:22.800 --> 00:44:31.440
And when we talk about external calling, I believe that is a job of the local church to affirm and to verify.
00:44:31.599 --> 00:44:31.920
Yeah.
00:44:32.239 --> 00:44:33.280
So that's redundant.
00:44:33.360 --> 00:44:35.840
So just to verify that the internal call.
00:44:35.920 --> 00:44:36.079
Yeah.
00:44:36.239 --> 00:44:39.119
So what I would say to young man is like, great, you have a desire.
00:44:39.280 --> 00:44:39.519
Yeah.
00:44:39.679 --> 00:44:40.400
That's awesome.
00:44:40.639 --> 00:44:42.320
Like, let's let's talk about that.
00:44:42.480 --> 00:44:43.280
Let's meet about that.
00:44:43.360 --> 00:44:44.480
Let's let's work through this.
00:44:44.559 --> 00:44:45.519
Let's continue to study.
00:44:45.679 --> 00:44:46.480
Let's continue to pray.
00:44:46.559 --> 00:44:47.760
Let's continue to do these things.
00:44:47.920 --> 00:44:54.320
Let's not jump to seminary just yet because let that's a big life change, especially if you have kids, you're gonna move your family down there.
00:44:54.480 --> 00:44:55.679
Like, let's talk about this.
00:44:55.840 --> 00:45:01.039
And then with that, if God continues to reveal like this, I have this call.
00:45:01.119 --> 00:45:03.440
It's like, okay, let's look at next steps.
00:45:03.760 --> 00:45:11.920
And we also want to before we send our men away from seminary or better, yeah, just take online classes and continue to grow within the church.
00:45:12.000 --> 00:45:20.000
Yeah, is you need to be able to, as a young man, submit yourself to the authority of the pastors.
00:45:20.159 --> 00:45:20.400
Yeah.
00:45:20.639 --> 00:45:28.000
And so I told myself when I came to Emmaus, and I told Valerie this, and I think she I think she I'm pretty sure I told Valerie this.
00:45:28.239 --> 00:45:28.639
Yeah.
00:45:28.880 --> 00:45:35.920
Is when I moved to, when we moved to Emmaus, I was like, all right, applied to all these things, nothing's panning out.
00:45:36.880 --> 00:45:38.239
I'm gonna go to Emmaus.
00:45:38.400 --> 00:45:54.000
And if they're not going to verify, like if they're not going to affirm me as being a pastor, yeah, and I I'm missing the word that affirm, meaning like, hey brother, we see God's hand in this, yeah, you're you're godly, you're qualified, and we agree with your internal call that you are called to ministry.
00:45:54.239 --> 00:45:55.119
Thank you for wording it.
00:45:55.199 --> 00:45:56.320
You worded it way better than I did.
00:45:56.400 --> 00:46:04.880
So it I basically was like you could have also said, hey brother, we know that you have this desire, but we want to just humbly, soberly tell you we don't see the qualifications.
00:46:04.960 --> 00:46:05.119
Correct.
00:46:05.360 --> 00:46:06.320
We do not see the gifting.
00:46:06.559 --> 00:46:06.880
Correct.
00:46:07.119 --> 00:46:11.679
You might have this desire, but we don't believe that that desire is legitimate.
00:46:11.920 --> 00:46:12.800
Yeah, exactly.
00:46:13.199 --> 00:46:16.480
It's a personal desire, it's not a desire placed on you from the Lord.
00:46:16.800 --> 00:46:23.039
Or or even say, like, hey, I think the desire is good, but I don't think you're gifted uniquely for full-time vocational ministry.
00:46:23.360 --> 00:46:24.400
It doesn't mean you can't serve the church.
00:46:24.480 --> 00:46:33.440
You can be a deacon, you can be a Sunday school teacher, you can be a small group leader, but in regards to the office of elder, yeah, that would not be a door that would be open for you.
00:46:33.760 --> 00:46:34.079
Correct.
00:46:34.159 --> 00:46:35.280
And that's what I was submitting to.
00:46:35.440 --> 00:46:38.320
So I was like, Emmaus is the church we're going to.
00:46:38.480 --> 00:46:41.920
They aligned with us ecclesiologically, theologically, all those things.
00:46:42.000 --> 00:46:42.480
Yeah.
00:46:42.880 --> 00:47:13.199
And I was like, okay, if the pastors of Emmaus say this or that, and I this all came out like in my residency, six months into my residency, there was stuff going on, and and I was talking to Thomas, and there's stuff I was struggling with, and and and as we do, and I remember Luke and Thomas coming over to our house, our old house, our condo that we were living in at the time, and Thomas and Luke, or Thomas basically said to me, is like, hey brother, I don't, I don't really think you're ready.
00:47:13.280 --> 00:47:17.119
Because I was talking a lot about like next steps after the first year of residency, pastoral ministry.
00:47:17.199 -->
00:47:18.559
I was getting like really amped up.
00:47:18.639 --> 00:47:18.960
Yeah.
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And he was basically like, dude, you gotta slow down.
00:47:22.719 --> 00:47:27.840
And I I I cried, I was a ball in in that meeting because I was staying true.
00:47:27.920 --> 00:47:29.440
I wanted to stay true to what I said before.
00:47:29.519 --> 00:47:34.639
It's like not that the God has given the keys to the local church.
00:47:34.960 --> 00:47:47.599
And we want to think about this biblically and not like just philosophically out there, but biblically, like the keys to the kingdom belong to the church, and like that, we're a congregationally ruled church, yeah, led by faithful men of God.
00:47:47.760 --> 00:47:58.719
Yeah, and and and also it's in Hebrews that we're supposed to submit to the pastors and elders over us for their watching over our souls.
00:47:58.880 --> 00:48:04.719
And it's like, okay, I wanted to submit to that, and that's where those tears, it's like, oh man, like did I screw everything up?
00:48:04.880 --> 00:48:06.000
Am I not doing the right things?
00:48:06.159 --> 00:48:06.800
All this and that.
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And it's like that was a huge humility check for me.
00:48:10.559 --> 00:48:27.760
And I'm gonna commend you for that because I'm sure there's plenty of men who would have the aspiration that you had for ministry, yeah, and they would hear that word from Thomas and just leave and find a weaker church that had a lower standard that would then put them, though they're not qualified to be so, they would put them in the position to be a pastor.
00:48:27.920 --> 00:48:32.480
So for you to actually not only submit, but then actually work to become no.
00:48:32.559 --> 00:48:33.840
I think submission's a good word.
00:48:33.920 --> 00:48:34.239
Yeah.
00:48:34.480 --> 00:48:42.960
And that's by the grace of God, because I had just gone through over three three-ish years of seminary, Bible college, whatever, graduated.
00:48:43.039 --> 00:48:44.239
It was a lot for my family.
00:48:44.719 --> 00:48:45.840
I was working.
00:48:46.079 --> 00:48:49.360
We had Matthias and Ransom when we were down there.
00:48:49.519 --> 00:48:51.039
Valerie was a trooper.
00:48:51.599 --> 00:48:54.000
She was struggling with community down there.
00:48:54.159 --> 00:48:55.519
Like things are just hard.
00:48:55.760 --> 00:48:58.639
We were away from all of our family, which is actually really good for our marriage.
00:48:58.880 --> 00:48:59.760
Things are just hard.
00:49:00.079 --> 00:49:04.239
And then to move back, and I'm really excited, and then to hear someone say, like, you might have to wait a few more years.
00:49:04.400 --> 00:49:07.679
Like, I don't really know what and I'm like, what?
00:49:08.079 --> 00:49:08.320
Yep.
00:49:08.559 --> 00:49:11.760
And I'm already not enjoying the work that I'm doing, which is my own fault.
00:49:11.920 --> 00:49:12.159
Yep.
00:49:12.320 --> 00:49:13.519
It's a
hard place to be.
00:49:13.679 --> 00:49:14.000
Yeah.
00:49:14.639 --> 00:49:23.920
But in that, God just yeah, God is just so kind to me, despite my stupidity.
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It's true.
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Like, I'm a I the dis anyway, so so all that to say, like, I don't remember what the question was.
00:49:32.400 --> 00:49:37.119
Oh, yeah, calling is if there's an internal call, don't ignore it.
00:49:37.199 --> 00:49:37.440
Yeah.
00:49:37.599 --> 00:49:49.119
Pers continue to pursue the holy things, bible, Bible prayer, but then have start to have conversations, but do not jump to the gun of thinking, oh, I have this call, gonna be a pastor.
00:49:49.280 --> 00:49:51.440
It's like, well, you need to three weeks, yeah.
00:49:51.519 --> 00:49:57.280
Yeah, you need to be willing as a man to have humility and submit yourself to the authority of the local church.
00:49:57.440 --> 00:49:57.760
Yes.
00:49:57.920 --> 00:50:03.519
Because it's the authority of the local church that that that like is the pillar and the buttress of the truth.
00:50:03.599 --> 00:50:06.239
What we just finished in Sunday evenings, First Timothy.
00:50:06.559 --> 00:50:08.079
Missionaries don't make themselves missionaries.
00:50:08.239 --> 00:50:11.360
No churches commission and send out missionaries.
00:50:11.679 --> 00:50:13.599
Pastors do not make themselves pastors.
00:50:13.840 --> 00:50:18.559
Churches affirm and vote and raise up a pastor to shepherd them.
00:50:18.800 --> 00:50:21.920
And that's not because that's not because we as a church want to be controlling.
00:50:22.000 --> 00:50:23.199
That's just how God has set it up.
00:50:23.280 --> 00:50:25.760
And we would avoid wolves in the pulpit.
00:50:25.840 --> 00:50:26.000
Correct.
00:50:26.239 --> 00:50:30.559
If you have a man who's not willing to submit to the church, which is Christ's body, he's not going to submit to anything.
00:50:31.039 --> 00:50:34.800
He's going to tyrannize the text and he's going to crush the sheep.
00:50:35.519 --> 00:50:35.840
Yeah.
00:50:36.000 --> 00:50:36.960
He's going to, yeah.
00:50:37.280 --> 00:50:47.199
So it's it is actually better this way that the church, the congregation, is the one electing and raising up officers, missionaries, pastors, deacons, instead of these men elevating themselves.
00:50:47.440 --> 00:50:47.840
Correct.
00:50:47.920 --> 00:50:48.320
Yeah.
00:50:48.559 --> 00:50:49.119
Correct.
00:50:49.360 --> 00:50:54.000
So that's what I would say for men who are aspiring is praise God.
00:50:54.159 --> 00:50:55.599
We need more faithful men.
00:50:55.679 --> 00:50:56.320
Yeah.
00:50:56.559 --> 00:50:59.920
Let's let's walk that path together and let's like be serious about it.
00:51:00.000 --> 00:51:01.199
Let's not be nonchalant about it.
00:51:01.280 --> 00:51:01.440
Yeah.
00:51:01.599 --> 00:51:05.679
Because that's not every man, like a lot of men don't have that calling at all.
00:51:06.000 --> 00:51:09.599
And like I've even faithful men in our church, they're like, you know, do you aspire?
00:51:09.679 --> 00:51:10.639
And they're like, nope.
00:51:10.800 --> 00:51:13.519
And it's like, all right, praise God, you're a faithful brother.
00:51:13.679 --> 00:51:19.440
It kind of surprises me sometimes, but God, yeah, He He God chooses whom He wills.
00:51:19.599 --> 00:51:23.280
And like the spirit goes where it wills.
00:51:23.360 --> 00:51:23.679
Yeah.
00:51:23.840 --> 00:51:26.880
So He He directs and guides us accordingly.
00:51:26.960 --> 00:51:38.800
So I think one conclusion, if there's a young guy listening who wants to, who has thoughts or questions of ooh, I I might be interested in pursuing ministry, maybe if there's one takeaway from this conversation, it's never a clear path.
00:51:39.039 --> 00:51:39.360
No.
00:51:39.599 --> 00:51:43.039
There's lots of turns, twists, it is a fog in the moment.
00:51:43.199 --> 00:51:44.800
It's unclear in the moment.
00:51:44.960 --> 00:51:48.880
And then you get to the end, and you're like, oh, it actually makes a lot of sense now.
00:51:48.960 --> 00:51:52.480
I see why the Lord made it hard and challenging.
00:51:52.639 --> 00:51:52.800
Yeah.
00:51:53.039 --> 00:51:56.000
Because if you actually are called to ministry, that's what ministry is.
00:51:56.159 --> 00:51:56.400
Yeah.
00:51:56.559 --> 00:52:07.760
I I don't know about you when you were at Spurgeon College, when I was at Indian Wesley doing Bible college, there's just kind of this young and naive idea that ministry is just going to be going from victory to victory, success to success, salvation to salvation, great sermon to great sermon.
00:52:08.000 --> 00:52:09.519
There's definitely a honeymoon phase.
00:52:09.679 --> 00:52:09.920
Yeah.
00:52:10.159 --> 00:52:11.440
And I think I can say this.
00:52:11.599 --> 00:52:15.199
I remember like when I came, Thomas was a brand new pastor.
00:52:15.679 --> 00:52:29.360
And three years in, I just had this thought of I can see like the it's it's had a physical kind of like you see like the pictures of Obama before he became president after he became president.
00:52:29.679 --> 00:52:33.760
I'm not saying Thomas that you looked horrendous three years into ministry if you're listening to this.
00:52:34.000 --> 00:52:40.480
I'm just saying I remember telling him and Luke, like, I can see like it had there's you've been weathered in a good way.
00:52:41.280 --> 00:52:48.239
To to explain that more, like in Lord of the Rings, it describes Aragorn as a man who had seen many winters.
00:52:48.559 --> 00:52:55.360
And I think that's just a great line from Tolkien, regardless, but I could see how that line to some extent pastorally applied to Thomas.
00:52:55.519 --> 00:52:55.840
Yeah.
00:52:56.079 --> 00:53:04.000
There was Thomas before he had seen some winters in ministry, then there was Thomas after he had seen some winters, some cold frosts in ministry.
00:53:04.159 --> 00:53:04.320
Yeah.
00:53:04.480 -->
00:53:09.519
When he had been with the sheep in their sorrows, in their hurts, in their pains, in their trials.
00:53:09.679 --> 00:53:09.920
Yes.
00:53:10.159 --> 00:53:13.039
Yes, there are joys, there are awesome parts of ministry.
00:53:13.280 --> 00:53:17.920
A lot of ministry, though, is you slowly suffering with the sheep.
00:53:18.079 --> 00:53:18.639
Yeah.
00:53:18.960 --> 00:53:23.840
Well, it's smelling like the sheep is going to take a toll and and in some extent.
00:53:23.920 --> 00:53:29.920
And I think this on a on a lighthearted note, it's one of the things I thought about, like, huh?
00:53:30.000 --> 00:53:32.559
Valerie's already mentioned how I'm thinning out in the back.
00:53:32.960 --> 00:53:37.760
I wonder, man, if the Lord calls I know functionally bald is funny.
00:53:37.920 --> 00:53:44.800
I wonder if the Lord ever puts me into a pastoral role that I go bald very quickly.
00:53:45.039 --> 00:53:45.519
Oh, yeah.
00:53:45.679 --> 00:53:46.159
We'll see.
00:53:46.320 --> 00:53:46.559
Yeah.
00:53:46.719 --> 00:53:49.280
But Thomas, you still look handsome if you're still listening to this.
00:53:49.519 --> 00:53:50.159
Yeah.
00:53:50.480 --> 00:53:51.119
Yeah.
00:53:52.559 --> 00:53:53.440
Wonderful.
00:53:54.000 --> 00:54:17.119
But the other thing I would add to the calling thing, just piggyback off what you said real quick, is is with men who are pursuing, like, one of the things that I think that I wish I would have been told more forcefully, especially like coming out of high school and coming out of the military, and like when I would talk about desire of ministry and stuff, is like personal holiness.
00:54:18.079 --> 00:54:20.079
Like how crucial that actually is.
00:54:20.239 --> 00:54:20.719
Yes.
00:54:21.039 --> 00:54:23.119
Not just for ministers, but for men.
00:54:23.360 --> 00:54:37.119
Like if you're a man and you want to lead your family well, you want to get married, you want to even if you're not married and you want to just lead well in your workplace and in your church, your holiness matters.
00:54:37.760 --> 00:54:42.400
And we can't minimize that.
00:54:42.559 --> 00:54:48.639
We also need to walk in grace that the Lord has set before us because of what he's done for us.
00:54:48.719 --> 00:54:48.960
Yeah.
00:54:49.119 --> 00:54:53.840
But we can't minimize personal holiness in every single aspect of our lives.
00:54:54.000 --> 00:54:56.320
So last November we had that Simeon Trust workshop.
00:54:56.400 --> 00:55:10.000
Kevin McKay given his lecture on the holiness of the man, the preacher, and just this incredible succinct quote where he said, as a pastor, the best thing that you can offer your church is not actually your preaching or your prayer.
00:55:10.159 --> 00:55:13.119
The best thing you can offer your church is your personal holiness.
00:55:13.440 --> 00:55:15.679
And guess who told me that yesterday?
00:55:16.159 --> 00:55:17.440
Pastor Luke.
00:55:17.920 --> 00:55:18.400
So yeah.
00:55:18.639 --> 00:55:18.800
Yeah.
00:55:18.960 --> 00:55:23.039
I just want to commend the pastors at our church, uh, Luke, Ron, Thomas before he left.
00:55:23.199 --> 00:55:26.239
These are these are men who just embody personal holiness.
00:55:26.400 --> 00:55:30.239
By no means are they perfect, but you look at them and they just man.
00:55:31.119 --> 00:55:34.639
Men who understand the high standard.
00:55:35.119 --> 00:55:44.000
And they don't hold that standard in a way that prides them or makes them haughty, fills them with pride or arrogance, makes them think they're better than other people.
00:55:44.239 --> 00:55:48.079
But just this incredible humility and holiness.
00:55:48.239 --> 00:55:55.440
So and to yeah, and to close out your question on call to ministry, I'll just say this for me so I can kind of wrap everything up.
00:55:55.599 --> 00:55:55.760
Yeah.
00:55:56.079 --> 00:56:06.079
Is my call to ministry was a series of events where God was continuing to humble me before him and understand that his ways are better than my ways.
00:56:06.480 --> 00:56:10.480
And the desires I had to do ministry were good.
00:56:10.960 --> 00:56:13.199
To do pastoral ministry were good.
00:56:13.440 --> 00:56:16.960
But the way I was trying to get there wasn't necessarily good all the time.
00:56:17.119 --> 00:56:26.000
Like I desired to teach, I desired to preach the word of God, I desired to disciple, to lead men and all of those things to shepherd the flock of God.
00:56:26.079 --> 00:56:27.440
I desire to do those things.
00:56:28.079 --> 00:56:33.599
And the call to ministry for me wasn't like some guys, it's a clear, shining moment.
00:56:33.760 --> 00:56:39.679
For me, it was just been a process of God just working and really humbling me before him.
00:56:39.920 --> 00:56:43.360
And he still is humbling me and will be till the day that I die.
00:56:43.519 --> 00:56:45.119
So that's great.
00:56:45.280 --> 00:56:45.920
Yeah.
00:56:47.920 --> 00:56:48.239
All right.
00:56:48.320 --> 00:56:50.719
So you mentioned some influential people in your life a little bit earlier.
00:56:50.880 --> 00:56:58.079
I heard Pastor Ryan, I heard Mark Harrington, and then the brother at Ornal Road now, I forget his name.
00:56:58.320 --> 00:56:58.800
Pastor Phillip.
00:56:58.880 --> 00:56:58.960
Yeah.
00:56:59.119 --> 00:56:59.280
Philip.
00:56:59.519 --> 00:57:01.360
So I didn't really get much time with Pastor Mark.
00:57:01.440 --> 00:57:02.400
It was Pastor Philip.
00:57:02.480 --> 00:57:04.719
So Philip Van Steenberg, he was very influential.
00:57:04.800 --> 00:57:05.039
Yeah.
00:57:05.199 --> 00:57:05.519
Yeah.
00:57:05.760 --> 00:57:10.159
So for some influential people in your lives, were there any influential books or experiences that you've had?
00:57:10.480 --> 00:57:13.840
And I also Paul Washer was very influential in high school for me.
00:57:13.920 --> 00:57:14.079
Yeah.
00:57:14.239 --> 00:57:16.559
Like I mentioned that as a as a thing.
00:57:18.239 --> 00:57:21.440
And then I will I will say also like Pastor Thomas before he left.
00:57:21.519 --> 00:57:22.880
He he really poured into me.
00:57:22.960 --> 00:57:25.119
So I'm very thankful for my time with him.
00:57:25.440 --> 00:57:26.960
For influential books, you said?
00:57:27.199 --> 00:57:27.360
Yeah.
00:57:27.519 --> 00:57:28.719
Influential books, experiences.
00:57:29.039 --> 00:57:32.159
One of the best books that I've ever read that not many people know about.
00:57:32.239 --> 00:57:34.079
And it's for people who just come to know the Lord.
00:57:34.239 --> 00:57:37.599
But it was influential for me after having been a Christian for a long time.
00:57:37.760 --> 00:57:41.039
For like maybe I read it when I was like a Christian for like 10 years.
00:57:41.360 --> 00:57:44.079
It's called Follow the Lamb by Horatius Bonar.
00:57:44.239 --> 00:57:45.519
And it's that Scottish minister.
00:57:45.760 --> 00:57:46.000
Okay.
00:57:46.079 --> 00:57:48.559
Give me that title and name one more time slowly.
00:57:48.800 --> 00:57:52.400
So Follow the Lamb by Horatius Bonar.
00:57:52.480 --> 00:57:53.119
Horatius Minister.
00:57:53.280 --> 00:57:55.840
So the last name is B-O-N-A-R.
00:57:56.239 --> 00:57:56.400
Okay.
00:57:56.559 --> 00:57:58.559
And the Scottish minister.
00:57:58.639 --> 00:58:05.679
He is the brother of the Andrew Bonar, I believe, who is more popular.
00:58:06.079 --> 00:58:14.719
But, anyways, his book, Follow the Lamb, it's like one of those, it's a short book, really easy to get through, and it's riddled with scriptural references.
00:58:14.880 --> 00:58:20.639
Like if you want to understand how to be a Christian when you just become a Christian, follow the Lamb, read that book.
00:58:20.960 --> 00:58:21.199
Great.
00:58:21.440 --> 00:58:25.280
Another book, Gospel Primer by Milton Vincent, was really good.
00:58:25.360 --> 00:58:26.000
I read that.
00:58:26.079 --> 00:58:27.519
I think I listened to it first and read that.
00:58:28.079 --> 00:58:28.880
That was really good.
00:58:29.039 --> 00:58:35.280
As far as like theologically influential, I studied underneath Barrett, who is now an Anglican.
00:58:35.599 --> 00:58:40.559
But when he was when we were at Midwestern, when I was at Midwestern, Anglicans are also brothers in Christ.
00:58:40.639 --> 00:58:46.719
Just to clarify, you weren't saying that they're like, you know, no, I'm not saying they're heretics, but but we definitely have disagreements with Anglicans.
00:58:46.800 --> 00:58:47.360
Yes.
00:58:47.679 --> 00:58:50.880
And and it depends on what kind of like sect of Anglicanism that you're into.
00:58:51.360 --> 00:58:53.360
So with with Dr.
00:58:53.599 --> 00:58:56.719
Matthew Barrett, I learned classical theism.
00:58:56.880 --> 00:58:58.639
And he has a book called Simply Trinity.
00:58:58.719 --> 00:58:59.039
Yeah.
00:58:59.280 --> 00:59:01.440
And it's funny how I took the order of classes.
00:59:01.519 --> 00:59:08.079
So he has these like master level classes that are designed to be taken after his theology classes.
00:59:08.639 --> 00:59:09.920
He has theology one and two.
00:59:10.239 --> 00:59:13.519
And I and then he has it, then he has like a class called Doctrine of God.
00:59:13.679 --> 00:59:14.000
Yeah.
00:59:14.159 --> 00:59:16.719
I took the doctrine of God class first.
00:59:16.800 --> 00:59:23.119
And and Josh, like and church listening, like I had no prior background to classical theism.
00:59:23.280 --> 00:59:25.920
Like I knew For those who don't know, what is classical theism?
00:59:26.320 --> 00:59:38.639
Classical theism is really just so so theology, the study of God, classical theology, classical theism, who God is, a classical understanding of who God is.
00:59:38.800 --> 00:59:43.280
So we have a more modern understanding today in general, evangelicalism.
00:59:43.679 --> 00:59:44.239
Post-Elightenment.
00:59:44.400 --> 00:59:53.199
Post-Enlightenment phase, where I mean you have Wayne Grudom's systematic theology, but when you get into the classical theology, you're you're actually reading like the patristics.
00:59:53.360 --> 00:59:55.519
So that involves like early church fathers.
00:59:55.679 --> 01:00:01.199
We're talking way before the Reformation, Augustine, the first 500 years of the church.
01:00:01.360 --> 01:00:15.039
You have a lot of these early, what we call early church fathers who like so Athanasius, he wrote on the incarnation, and it was just still to this day, yeah.
01:00:15.360 --> 01:00:22.000
A very, very just great book on Christ becoming flesh, like John 1 14.
01:00:22.239 --> 01:00:22.320
Yeah.
01:00:22.400 --> 01:00:25.199
He has a line what is not assumed is not healed.
01:00:25.360 --> 01:00:26.559
So it says that in the book.
01:00:26.800 --> 01:00:26.880
Yes.
01:00:26.960 --> 01:00:28.320
So in Christmas incarnation.
01:00:28.639 --> 01:00:30.159
That's just the one-liner I know.
01:00:30.400 --> 01:00:31.920
It's not photographic by any means.
01:00:32.159 --> 01:00:32.880
Got it, got it.
01:00:33.039 --> 01:00:38.719
So so I would say classical theism and learning that was so I took anyways.
01:00:38.880 --> 01:00:39.840
I took doctrine of God.
01:00:39.920 --> 01:00:41.039
That's what classical theism is.
01:00:41.119 --> 01:00:41.280
Yeah.
01:00:41.440 --> 01:00:43.199
Doctrine of God was the class I took.
01:00:43.280 --> 01:00:45.599
And you're supposed to have taken theology one and two before that.
01:00:45.679 --> 01:00:51.679
And and and with Doctrine of God, they have this book by Edward Faser.
01:00:52.000 --> 01:00:55.440
It's called Five Proofs for the Existence of God.
01:00:55.599 --> 01:00:57.119
It's a very heavy.
01:00:57.519 --> 01:01:02.400
So this class is like you're like at this point theologically, you're you're kind of still like an infant.
01:01:02.559 --> 01:01:07.760
And then instead of doing like the crawling and walking class, you just went to like Olympic gymnastics.
01:01:07.920 -->
01:01:13.280
I went straight to doing a full-length Iron Man without no previous training.
01:01:13.440 --> 01:01:13.599
Yeah.
01:01:13.760 --> 01:01:25.360
And I was soaking, I mean I was learning about stuff like simplicity and the assayity of God, stuff that Pastor Fudge was talking about, Pastor Matt was talking about in Sunday school Sunday.
01:01:25.679 --> 01:01:30.320
And yeah, man, it was it was really it was really formative for me.
01:01:30.400 --> 01:01:36.639
So simply Trinity, None Greater, Five Fruits for the Existence of God, some of those patristic books.
01:01:36.960 --> 01:01:37.760
Those are influential.
01:01:37.920 --> 01:01:51.280
And then I mean, I've read a lot of books, and I'm working on like a style of reading where I'm able to retain more specifically from books, but like there's books I definitely recommend that were influential at the time, but yeah.
01:01:51.519 --> 01:01:51.760
Yeah.
01:01:52.000 --> 01:01:58.400
If I give kind of a closing loop to the classical theism topic, for those who are still maybe what is classical theism?
01:01:58.639 --> 01:02:04.079
Classical theism preserves that God is distinct and different from us.
01:02:04.320 --> 01:02:21.360
A lot of theology today about God, the newer theism, the newer theology, the way to think about God, attempts to not that it always leads to heresy, but it it does lead to issues, and that is they try to understand God in a way that he is much more like us.
01:02:22.079 --> 01:02:30.000
And the issue is there is a creator creation distinction where yes, we're made in God's image, but God is very different from us.
01:02:30.480 --> 01:02:46.079
And so classical theism preserves to a better degree that creator creation distinction, that creator creature distinction, and says, yes, Romaina's image, but he is in many ways, has attributes that are just distinct, different, infinitely different from us.
01:02:46.559 --> 01:02:53.440
Whereas a lot of the post-Elightenment theology about God tries to take God and conform him more into the image of man, if you will.
01:02:53.760 --> 01:02:54.639
To be like us.
01:02:54.880 --> 01:02:55.280
Yes.
01:02:55.840 --> 01:02:57.360
Yeah, that's a great way to say it.
01:02:57.440 --> 01:02:58.159
That's perfect.
01:02:58.480 --> 01:02:58.880
Great.
01:02:59.039 --> 01:02:59.679
Yeah.
01:03:00.000 --> 01:03:03.760
Well, we're about an hour in, so I was thinking we could do some rapid-fire questions.
01:03:03.920 --> 01:03:04.159
Okay.
01:03:04.480 --> 01:03:06.320
So these must be fun questions.
01:03:06.559 --> 01:03:09.119
I've never shown you these, so it'll be really fun to get your reactions.
01:03:09.280 --> 01:03:09.840
Yeah, no kidding.
01:03:11.519 --> 01:03:11.920
All right.
01:03:12.159 --> 01:03:14.159
You you can't belabor these points, brother.
01:03:14.320 --> 01:03:15.599
You just gotta bam.
01:03:15.920 --> 01:03:16.800
I want quick answers.
01:03:17.039 --> 01:03:17.360
Oh man.
01:03:17.440 --> 01:03:17.599
All right.
01:03:17.760 --> 01:03:18.960
Off the top, off the cuff.
01:03:19.199 --> 01:03:22.079
I don't know any of these questions that he's about to ask me, just so you guys.
01:03:22.400 --> 01:03:25.280
I'll start off with some easy ones, and we'll get get a little spicy.
01:03:25.440 --> 01:03:25.760
Okay.
01:03:26.079 --> 01:03:27.440
In a good way, not in a bad way.
01:03:27.599 --> 01:03:27.920
Okay.
01:03:28.159 --> 01:03:28.480
All right.
01:03:28.639 --> 01:03:29.679
Easy one, here we go.
01:03:29.920 --> 01:03:31.360
Mountains or beach?
01:03:32.079 --> 01:03:32.639
Beach.
01:03:32.800 --> 01:03:33.199
Alright.
01:03:33.360 --> 01:03:34.400
A little harder one.
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Any run-ins with the law.
01:03:37.599 --> 01:03:39.199
Run-ins with the law, yes.
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Do you care to elaborate?
01:03:40.960 --> 01:03:44.480
Yeah, when I was I was being I was going to a men's Bible study in Platsmouth.
01:03:44.639 --> 01:03:45.440
This is funny how this starts.
01:03:45.599 --> 01:03:46.639
Platzmith Bible Church.
01:03:46.800 --> 01:03:48.960
Platmith Bible Church, Pastor Mike Wolf.
01:03:49.119 --> 01:03:56.639
And the guy there, and his name was Nick something, and he's now, I think, a police officer, OPD, but he was at Platsmouth Department, police department at the time.
01:03:56.880 --> 01:04:00.400
And I'm driving down the hill where I usually drive down by Buccaneer Bay.
01:04:00.480 --> 01:04:02.159
Many of our Buccaneer Bay folks know what I'm talking about.
01:04:02.960 --> 01:04:05.119
McQueens and Vromans and stuff.
01:04:05.280 --> 01:04:08.159
And I was driving down the hill and he pulled me over and he knew me.
01:04:08.239 --> 01:04:12.880
And I looked up to him and he wrote me an over a hundred dollar ticket because it was a speed trap.
01:04:12.960 --> 01:04:14.400
And that was very difficult.
01:04:14.800 --> 01:04:19.760
John McQueen, when I I moved in with him for two months when I first moved here, and that was the first thing he told me.
01:04:19.840 --> 01:04:25.039
He's like, hey, brother, when you come down this road, you gotta watch those speed signs because they will trap you.
01:04:25.280 --> 01:04:26.079
They trap you.
01:04:26.239 --> 01:04:26.960
So you get trapped.
01:04:27.280 --> 01:04:28.239
I I got trapped.
01:04:28.400 --> 01:04:30.719
I got got as far as like run-ins with the law.
01:04:30.800 --> 01:04:31.920
I never got arrested or anything.
01:04:32.159 --> 01:04:32.400
Good.
01:04:32.559 --> 01:04:35.039
But I did very foolish, stupid things in high school.
01:04:35.119 --> 01:04:35.679
But yeah, anyways.
01:04:35.920 --> 01:04:36.960
I could have got you arrested.
01:04:37.119 --> 01:04:37.440
Yeah.
01:04:38.239 --> 01:04:39.039
As we all did.
01:04:39.280 --> 01:04:39.679
Probably.
01:04:39.760 --> 01:04:40.239
Yeah.
01:04:40.480 --> 01:04:40.880
All right.
01:04:41.039 --> 01:04:42.960
What is your dream concert lineup?
01:04:43.039 --> 01:04:45.039
I'm
thinking two openers and a headliner.
01:04:45.199 --> 01:04:47.679
Oh, like a like a like artists singing?
01:04:48.000 --> 01:04:48.400
All the time.
01:04:48.480 --> 01:04:50.880
I could be dead, alive, dream concert.
01:04:51.360 --> 01:04:55.920
See, I I feel like I'm getting old because I'm not a huge fan of concerts anymore because they get too loud.
01:04:56.239 --> 01:04:57.440
Um I know.
01:04:57.760 --> 01:04:58.639
You're 30?
01:04:58.800 --> 01:04:59.599
I'm 30 years old.
01:04:59.760 --> 01:05:00.559
Oh, boomer.
01:05:00.639 --> 01:05:01.199
Yeah, boomer.
01:05:01.519 --> 01:05:01.920
Sorry, hey.
01:05:02.239 --> 01:05:03.440
For all boomers, we love you.
01:05:04.559 --> 01:05:04.800
Yes.
01:05:04.960 --> 01:05:05.199
Yeah.
01:05:05.280 --> 01:05:10.880
Last time I went to Winter Jam, if you're familiar with that, I was just kind of like, wow, this is really loud.
01:05:12.480 --> 01:05:13.920
Had to turn your hearing aids down.
01:05:14.159 --> 01:05:14.400
Yeah.
01:05:14.480 --> 01:05:15.840
Yeah, something like that.
01:05:16.480 --> 01:05:19.360
If I had to, if I had to say So a quiet concert.
01:05:19.440 --> 01:05:21.119
What's your dream quiet concert?
01:05:21.920 --> 01:05:23.280
I'm just gonna say concert.
01:05:23.440 --> 01:05:26.719
Well, there's this is across the board because I like lots of different types of music.
01:05:27.199 --> 01:05:30.480
I'll say Han Zimmer Orchestra.
01:05:30.800 --> 01:05:31.840
He's my favorite composer.
01:05:32.079 --> 01:05:32.239
Yeah.
01:05:32.639 --> 01:05:33.920
Interstellar soundtrack.
01:05:34.079 --> 01:05:34.320
Yeah.
01:05:34.400 --> 01:05:38.159
All of those Christopher Nolan movies where those soundtracks, they're all they're all really good.
01:05:38.239 --> 01:05:38.400
Yeah.
01:05:38.559 --> 01:05:40.480
Uh Hans Zimmer is a gifted composer.
01:05:40.559 --> 01:05:40.880
Yeah.
01:05:41.039 --> 01:05:42.559
I like listening to his stuff.
01:05:42.719 --> 01:05:49.199
And then I really like oh the Tommy Prophets.
01:05:49.440 --> 01:05:51.840
He has this thing called the Resurrection of the King.
01:05:52.480 --> 01:05:54.239
And it's actually brand new.
01:05:54.320 --> 01:06:01.679
He also had The Birth of the King, but he has several artists come and he composes all these old songs and makes Renditions of them, and they're beautiful.
01:06:01.760 --> 01:06:02.480
They're works of art.
01:06:02.639 --> 01:06:02.960
Yeah.
01:06:03.199 --> 01:06:08.159
And then last one I'll choose is The Rap Artist KB.
01:06:08.400 --> 01:06:08.960
There we go.
01:06:09.039 --> 01:06:09.360
Yeah.
01:06:09.599 --> 01:06:10.239
There we go.
01:06:10.480 --> 01:06:12.320
Alright, favorite book.
01:06:12.719 --> 01:06:14.239
Can't be the Bible.
01:06:14.960 --> 01:06:15.440
Wow.
01:06:15.679 --> 01:06:16.960
Favorite book.
01:06:18.239 --> 01:06:24.239
That's so hard for me to choose, mainly because I overpopulate my mind with books.
01:06:24.800 --> 01:06:32.719
But I will say, based off what
I just said previously, I think as of now, my favorite.
01:06:33.119 --> 01:06:34.239
Oh, I don't want to say that.
01:06:34.480 --> 01:06:34.960
Never mind.
01:06:35.280 --> 01:06:35.679
I don't know.
01:06:36.159 --> 01:06:37.039
Rapid fire, rapid fire.
01:06:37.199 --> 01:06:39.760
I know, but this is like, I'm just gonna say.
01:06:40.480 --> 01:06:41.440
Gun to your head.
01:06:41.599 --> 01:06:43.119
Three, two, one.
01:06:43.599 --> 01:06:47.039
JC Ryle, he has this thing on being a man.
01:06:47.119 --> 01:06:48.159
I can't remember what it's called.
01:06:48.320 --> 01:06:49.039
Thoughts for young men?
01:06:49.199 --> 01:06:49.360
Yeah.
01:06:49.519 --> 01:06:50.159
I'll say that one.
01:06:50.400 --> 01:06:50.559
Great.
01:06:50.639 --> 01:06:50.800
Alright.
01:06:50.880 --> 01:06:51.840
This is probably the most serious question.
01:06:52.079 --> 01:06:53.440
That one is fire, by the way.
01:06:53.599 --> 01:06:54.000
Yeah.
01:06:54.239 --> 01:06:54.639
Alright.
01:06:54.800 --> 01:06:55.840
Just be prepared.
01:06:56.000 --> 01:06:57.440
This is a very serious question.
01:06:57.679 --> 01:06:58.800
I don't think it is.
01:07:00.079 --> 01:07:08.079
Would you rather fight a horse-sized duck or 100 duck-sized horses?
01:07:08.400 --> 01:07:10.000
100 duck-sized horses.
01:07:10.239 --> 01:07:11.679
That is the correct answer.
01:07:12.159 --> 01:07:15.760
Dude, a horse-sized duck is gonna murder you scary fast.
01:07:16.000 --> 01:07:16.960
He's gonna, yeah.
01:07:17.039 --> 01:07:18.480
He's gonna peck me to death.
01:07:18.639 --> 01:07:19.039
All right.
01:07:20.559 --> 01:07:23.840
I was gonna ask, what is your most recent I'm getting old moment?
01:07:23.920 --> 01:07:26.239
But I think we just had that with your thoughts on concerts.
01:07:26.559 --> 01:07:27.280
So we'll move on.
01:07:27.440 --> 01:07:29.039
Those are my thoughts on concerts.
01:07:29.360 --> 01:07:32.000
This has been your thoughts with on concerts with Zach.
01:07:32.159 --> 01:07:32.639
Yes.
01:07:32.880 --> 01:07:35.519
What is your favorite family tradition?
01:07:37.039 --> 01:07:38.800
Favorite family tradition.
01:07:39.039 --> 01:07:40.159
I don't think I have one.
01:07:40.320 --> 01:07:40.480
Okay.
01:07:41.679 --> 01:07:45.519
If you were a piece of furniture, what would you be?
01:07:51.039 --> 01:07:53.519
You like how I asked that with a straight face?
01:07:55.679 --> 01:08:00.159
I thought it was gonna be a serious question, and then that was the furthest thing from a serious question.
01:08:00.639 --> 01:08:03.920
I do let's go the next one's serious conference table, I guess.
01:08:04.000 --> 01:08:04.239
I don't know.
01:08:04.639 --> 01:08:05.679
Conference table.
01:08:06.880 --> 01:08:08.719
I identify as a conference table.
01:08:08.880 --> 01:08:09.760
Wait, I take that back.
01:08:09.840 --> 01:08:11.360
I want to be a lounge chair.
01:08:11.599 --> 01:08:12.320
Okay, a lounge chair.
01:08:12.719 --> 01:08:13.920
You want to be sat on.
01:08:15.440 --> 01:08:16.079
Yeah.
01:08:16.479 --> 01:08:17.199
Definitely not.
01:08:17.279 --> 01:08:18.319
Maybe cut that part out.
01:08:18.960 --> 01:08:20.800
Getting back to a little bit more serious.
01:08:21.119 --> 01:08:24.640
What hymn do you want sung at your funeral?
01:08:26.079 --> 01:08:26.880
A lot more serious.
01:08:27.039 --> 01:08:28.640
Yeah, I've thought about this before.
01:08:31.119 --> 01:08:35.039
I want people weeping at my funeral, so I want the sands of time are sinking.
01:08:35.359 --> 01:08:38.000
I want there to be a little pond on the floor.
01:08:39.680 --> 01:08:44.800
As far as classic hymns are concerned, one of my all-time favorites is Be Thou My Vision.
01:08:47.439 --> 01:08:54.159
I there was one that I had picked out, and I don't I haven't thought about this question for a long time.
01:08:54.960 --> 01:08:56.640
There's a lot of good ones.
01:08:56.880 --> 01:09:01.760
Like in that hymns of grace that we sing, the hymnals we use, there's a lot of different ones that could be used.
01:09:02.000 --> 01:09:06.399
So I'll probably go with like that or like in Christ alone.
01:09:06.720 --> 01:09:07.119
Probably.
01:09:07.520 --> 01:09:07.840
Perfect.
01:09:08.000 --> 01:09:08.319
Yeah.
01:09:08.560 --> 01:09:13.680
Then last one, what are you most encouraged by at Emmaus right now?
01:09:14.960 --> 01:09:17.920
I'm most encouraged by members loving each other.
01:09:18.720 --> 01:09:27.119
I think people who come from different churches who maybe don't, the community, it's harder to have community.
01:09:27.279 --> 01:09:30.239
They'll come to Emmaus and that's the first thing that they say.
01:09:30.319 --> 01:09:30.640
Yeah.
01:09:30.880 --> 01:09:36.079
And it's the thing about Emmaus is like we're not trying to be artificial about it.
01:09:36.159 --> 01:09:38.319
We're not trying to like, oh, this is what we're about.
01:09:38.399 --> 01:09:49.600
So we're just gonna hyper focus on this, and then we lack in theology or teaching or preaching or or in our small groups or in our the stuff that like we do with like men's discipleship groups or this or that or evangelism.
01:09:49.680 --> 01:10:04.159
It's like, no, like community and genuinely desiring to see and meet people where they're at and just understand them, love them, and reciprocate that back and forth.
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Like that's the thing that I love about Emmaus is the community and how much it just feels like people just love one another in Christ and desire not only love, but desire to see like continued growth and aspiration to like holy things.
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Yeah.
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So that's what I love most about Emmaus.