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makes a difference. To make a donation, please visit tarabrach.com. Namaste. Welcome, friends.
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I am back recently from holiday with family, including my grandchildren,
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my two granddaughters, who happen to both believe in fairies.
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And it reminded me of the story of a woman
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who describes her seven-year-old saying to her, are you the
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tooth fairy? And it was after another tooth had fallen out.
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And the woman says, you know, I wasn't sure whether
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or not to end this magical part of childhood, but
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since she asked, I thought, yeah, this is time. So
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I let her know she was right, and she seemed
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to handle the information in a mature way. Several hours later,
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she took my hands in hers and said, Mama, so
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what I want to know is, how do you get
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into the other kids' houses? And I love that because,
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you know, I found for myself and many find this
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one of the gifts of being with children and for me,
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my grands, it's just so much easier to see spirit,
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you know, see the wonder, the light, the aliveness that
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really lives through them. I mean, their egos and personalities
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are totally there, but they're just not so solid, that
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inner purity. shines through. So of course when that happens,
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when we really see so directly this basic goodness, the
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loving flows so strong, so deep, so true. So I
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returned and I wanted to share this talk from the archives.
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I did it a few years back. It's called Namaste,
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which is namaste, seeing each other's light. And if we're
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honest with ourselves in daily life, we see each other
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more through this kind of egoic lens. We see the coverings,
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the things about them that draws or that we don't like.
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We see personality and intelligence or failures or successes, body,
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level of attractiveness. To perceive really essence, the light or
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spirit of a being, it takes deepening presence in a
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very intentional way. It takes on purpose looking towards what's
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behind the coverings, what's more, that which is more formless
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or subtle or essential. So this talk explores how we
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do this. We look at how our habitual ways of
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perceiving each other really do limit intimacy, connection, awakening. And
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then we look at the power and beauty of what
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happens when we see more deeply what's been hidden or
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invisible to us in the past. You know, seeing through
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to the buried innocence, the aliveness, the light. So it
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feels like a time, a practice that's really crucial to
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how our world is right now, deepening attention in this way,
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it serves our world and it's a real gift to
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our own hearts. Okay friends, a bow of love to
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each of you. You know, I've been putting my palms
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together and bowing now for about, I think about 45 years.
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ever since I first started teaching yoga. And namaste, it's
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derived from Sanskrit, it's an expression of reverence. And it's
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often translated that the light in me bows to the
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light in you. And I love this. I often think
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about how in the West, we have a handshake and
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some say it came from showing that we weren't carrying
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a weapon. And then in the East, I see the
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divine in you, I see the sacred in you. It's
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a tad of a different flavor. Now as you know
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there's a growing number of meditation cartoons and one I
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saw just a day or two ago, a woman's meditating
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and she's got a really angry expression and her thought
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bubble is saying, the light in me acknowledges the darkness
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in you. Many, many ways our psyche can tweak things,
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I know. Now, of course, the ritual of the namaste greeting,
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which is done all over the East, it can be
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done in a very perfunctory, mechanical way, and many in
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Asia describe it as really being a casual hello or goodbye.
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But consider for a moment the power of this ritual
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of encounter if we really do it with presence and heart.
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You know, if here we are and Let's say there's
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two of us and we're really, you know, feeling ourselves
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right here and facing each other and very sincerely, you know,
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putting our hands together, this gesture of honoring, bowing our head,
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you know, sensing the purity, the light, the goodness that's
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living through each other, sensing that we're being received in
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that way. Wow. I mean, it's... Just imagine. And if
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we think of it that if more and more of
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us took to heart this ritual, the essence of this ritual,
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if we actually practiced in encounters pausing and really honoring
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the spirit shining through each other, how that would wake
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up our own hearts and each other's, it's really, I
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think of it in terms of the consciousness of the planet.
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Especially now, because I think Namaste is spreading in a
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certain way. Millions are taking yoga classes or meditation gatherings,
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it's happening. I mean, imagine if it really started spreading
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more collectively, this seeing past the mask or the affiliations,
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remembering our shared being. And it may sound idealistic, given
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how divided our world is, But if we start where
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it flows most easily, we can find our way to
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a more inclusive heart. This talk right now and the
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reflections we'll do really are about the potential of namaste.
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It's the essence of namaste, really learning to see the
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truth of who we are. Learning to feel a sense
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of reverence for the spirit that lives through all of life.
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And I often think about the most radical and profound
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teachings of Buddhism and all the spiritual paths, you know,
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the ground of it is that the light of awareness
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and its expression as love or compassion, that light of
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awareness is our shared essence. It's like the sun, it's
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always here even when clouds of emotion block it. It's
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always here. And these same paths describe the suffering when
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we live in a way that is totally cut off
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from that, from that sense of our essence, when we're
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in that kind of a trance and we're more living
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in a very limited sense of a self. And when
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we're in that, that's the lens we see others through.
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So really, it's the suffering of moving through our days
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cut off from a sense of the sacred. This is
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how Rumi puts it. He says, whatever comes into being
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gets lost in being, drunkenly forgetting its way home. I
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really love that. Whatever comes into being gets lost in being,
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drunkenly forgetting its way home. One of my favorite illustrative stories,
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which if you've been with me you might have heard,
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it came from when my son was in elementary school, actually,
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and there were these art classes and the children would
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divide up into groups of, be divided into tables where,
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you know, groups of four, and the teacher would just
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move around and look at what the energetically into it.
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And the teacher was watching from behind her and she
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asked her what she was drawing and the little girl said,
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I'm drawing God. And the teacher kind of chuckled and said, well, hon,
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no one knows what God looks like. Without skipping a beat,
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without even looking up, she said, they will in a moment.
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And I've always loved that. You know, Jono many of
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you know as a wonderful philosopher, poet, he says, what
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have we done with our wildness? He talks about the
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wildness of spirit of God. He says, we're so busy
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managing our life that we forget this great mystery we're
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involved with. So we do forget, you know, I think
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of spiritual life as forgetting and remembering. And we remember
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because there is very deep within each of us something
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that keeps calling us, some yearning, to reconnect with the
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sacredness that's here, to reconnect with a pure heart, reconnect
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with being awake. And it dwells within all of us.
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One of my friends and beloved colleagues, Sylvia Borstein, describes
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a man, his name's Phil, he's a Buddhist practitioner in
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New York, and he was being mugged at gunpoint And
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he had been working with the loving-kindness practice for a year,
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you know, kind of namaste, seeing the goodness. So one
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evening on a small side street in Soho, a really
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disheveled man with a scraggly beard, dirty hair, costed Phil
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demanding money. And Phil gave him $ 600 he had carried
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in his wallet. And the mugger shook his gun and
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demanded more. And stalling for time, Phil handed him credit cards,
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his whole wallet. Looking dazed, maybe high on some drug,
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the mugger said, I'm going to shoot you. And Phil said, no, no, no, wait.
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Here's my watch. It's a really good one. So disoriented,
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the mugger took the watch and waved the gun again
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and said, I'm going to shoot you. And somehow Phil
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managed to look at him with genuine care and say,
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you don't have to shoot me. You did really good. Look,
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You got nearly $ 700. You got credit cards, expensive watch.
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You don't have to shoot me. You did good. The
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mugger's confused. He lowers the gun slowly. I did good?
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He half-assed. You did really good. Go and tell your
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friends you did good. Dazed, the mugger wandered off, saying
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softly to himself, I did good. I did good. That
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story always touched me. Each of us, we get trapped
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by our conditioning, act in ways that are driven by
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anxiety or fear, grasping or confusion, drunkenly forgetting our way home.
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And there's a longing to trust that basic goodness, to
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live from who we intuit we really are. Okay, so
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how does the forgetting happen? And I often imagine that
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we incarnate and we're incarnating into a challenging environment, all
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of us, you know, and it's part of our natural development,
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it's part of evolution to put on a spacesuit to
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help us navigate. And our survival brain uses a spacesuit
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to detect danger and to protect and aggress where we
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need to, and our egos, you
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will nourish and enhance and meet needs. And, you know,
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the more threats, the more unmet needs, the more active
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our spacesuit. But here's what's important about this metaphor. In
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the moments when you are identified with the space suit,
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with the defending and the judging and the getting something
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and the performing, whatever it is. You're forgetting the awareness
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and the love, the aliveness, the basic spirit looking through.
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You're forgetting your own true beingness and of course you'll
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be forgetting others as well. It is natural to get
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identified and to forget. That happens to all of us.
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And we have the capacity to wake up, to cultivate mindfulness,
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to see it's happening, to see, oh, okay, I was
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caught in that limbic hijack. I was in trance. Here's
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how I can notice it next time. Here's how I
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can be more present. I think one of the most
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powerful places to witness going into trance is and to
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explore waking up is in relating with each other and
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just really sense, well, how does our spacesuit self filter
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our experience of each other? And if we're witnessing, if
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we're paying attention, we'll start noticing that when we first meet,
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what's going on is that our survival brain instantly is
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scanning for difference and assessing how dangerous or safe the
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other is. That's the first scanning that goes on. It
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goes on like a flash. We notice the other's appearance
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because we are through the eons looking for difference, you know, color,
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how they dress, their face, their body, you know, how
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they speak, what they do, because we're very quickly placing
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them in a hierarchy, in a socioeconomic caste system, and
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sensing who's higher and who's lower. if it's safe enough
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and we get closer, then there's another level of witnessingness
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to notice that we often don't get much closer if
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the other is from a different part of the caste system.
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We don't
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which is of course sad and something to change. But
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if we get closer, then the spacesuit self, the egoic
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spacesuit self, starts filtering other things like what we're attracted
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to or moving towards, for instance, drawn to those that
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are affirming us or those that have something to offer us,
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those that are stimulating, exciting. And we start noticing where
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we defend and move away from those who You know,
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we don't want to be around the grasping or the neediness.
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Maybe it's pulling away because of the other's judgments or
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anger or aversions, the way their insecurities express, pulling away
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because of a power differential. So we have these stories
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that we develop through our spacesuit self about who we
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are and who they are and who we are relationally.
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They're behind a lot of the ways we behave. And
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they're behind the way that we continue to look at
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each other because when we're living inside the spacesuit identities,
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we don't see so deeply. We don't keep wondering about
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who the person is. Okay, an illustration of this. Two
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priests decide to go to Hawaii on vacation and they're
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going to make it a real vacation by not weren't
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anything that would identify them as clergy. So as soon
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as they land, they head out and get some outrageous
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shirts and sandals and sunglasses, you know, the whole beach get-up.
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Next morning, they're on the beach dressed in their tourist
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garb and sitting on beach chairs enjoying the sunshine and
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seeing everyone a lovely-looking young woman in a bikini comes
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walking straight towards them and they couldn't help but stare
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and notice. And the woman passes them, she smiles and
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nods at each of them saying, good morning father, good
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morning father. They're stunned, how in the world did she
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know we're priests? So next day they go back to
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the stores, they buy even more outrageous garb, you know,
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and again they're sitting there in their disguise on the
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beach in the chairs enjoying the day. The next day
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after a while the same young woman taking her sweet time,
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comes walking right towards them, greets them individually. Good morning, father.
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Starts to walk away, but the priest couldn't stand any longer.
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And one of them says, just a moment, young woman. Yes,
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she replies. And he says, you know, we're priests and
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we're proud of it, but I have to know how
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in the world did you know we're priests? And she replies, father,
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it's me, sister Angela. So I know it's a bit
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of a stretch as an illustration, forgive me, but there
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is a point which is once we've locked into our
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stories about the other, especially when they fit in a
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hierarchy in our mind, which they usually do, we don't
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keep looking and attending. So I've mentioned that the first
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thing that happens when we meet each other, the brain
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scans for safety or danger, And then when we start
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getting to know each other, the ego is scanning for
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what we like, what we don't like, the roles. If
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we're mindful and we start with those that are closer
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and start asking, well, who's really here? You know, what's
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life like for you right now? What matters to you?
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you know, what's making you laugh, what makes you cry,
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the trance starts thinning. We're no longer living from our
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spacesuit self. There's some deeper presence that is emerging. And
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we start becoming aware that, well, just like me, you're
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experiencing human vulnerability. Just like me, you feel the pain
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of separation. Just like me, you have longings for loving connection, understanding,
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being peaceful, being happy, we get to a deeper dimension
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than the spacesuit self. And then when we really start
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living in that presence with each other, that's where the
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true sense of namaste unfolds. Because we sense even under
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the waves of vulnerability and longing, we start sensing
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innocence or purity, a kind of a light, a spirit
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that's shining through this being. We start to be able
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to see that and sense that. So let me slow
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down here, pause and invite you to reflect. It's interesting
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to scan and perhaps bring to mind someone you know,
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a friend or a colleague bringing someone to mind. And
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notice what you attend to when they come to mind,
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whether you're seeing a visual image and you're kind of
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remembering what they look like, or maybe it's the story
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of their work, what they do, or maybe you're noticing
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things about their personality, what what makes them appealing or
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things that are irritating. So just to notice, you know,
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how much filtering from the spacesuit, the story about who
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they are, that you always carry in your mind. And
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how much do you sense as you bring them to
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mind that there's that kind of inquiry and interest and
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openness to, well, who's really here? To sense their vulnerabilities,
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their yearnings, what matters to this person, and to sense
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their heart, their spirit, the consciousness or awareness that looks
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through those eyes. Just as we attend to others, in
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either a habitual way or perhaps with more mindful attention.
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It's the same in how we're relating to our inner life.
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You know, often we go around in a kind of
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habitual way, identified as a small self who's doing something,
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who's got to get something done, who's either doing it
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well or not well, who's fearing something. You know, a
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familiar sense of the role that you're playing. And that's
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the who you're identified with. And it can require pausing
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and deepening presence to sense beyond that spacesuit self, who's
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really here? That formless presence and love that's way beyond
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any story we could ever tell ourselves. So this is
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our inquiry, you know, this pathway of how do we
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deepen attention so we can learn to truly inhabit namaste,
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that sense of seeing the sacred in ourselves and each other,
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and having some reverence, some true honoring towards what's beyond
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the spacesuit. And this will be for the rest of
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this reflection together, we'll be looking at two completely related
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pathways that wake us up to this. And one is
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we start right where we are and we notice the
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pain of trance, the suffering of identifying as a spacesuit, yourself,
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you know, smaller than what we really are. And the
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second pathway is intentionally looking towards spirit, towards the good,
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towards what's beautiful, towards what we cherish. Okay, so we'll
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start with the first. And you see the first one,
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this pathway towards namaste by paying attention to, well, here's
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where I'm suffering. Here's where I'm actually blocked from sensing
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who I am. And you sense this process. If you
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think of a chick breaking out of an egg or
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a fetus coming out of the womb or a butterfly
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emerging from a chrysalis, that there's pressure. there's pain of
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too tight a container, that we have to respond to
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that tension, that tightness, that pressure in order to grow
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and wake up. This is that first approach, responding to
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the suffering. And if you think of all the adaptations
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through evolution, all the evolving that we do it arises
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from stress, it arises from pressure, from pain, from something
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out of balance or not working. So this also goes
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to the process of evolving human consciousness, that the way
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we evolve is we're alerted by stress or pain that
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we're living in too small a container, we're identified with
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limiting thoughts and beliefs, we're identified with spacesuit self and
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forgetting the larger sense of who we can be. So
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what that means is if you're suffering, you're pressing against
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the chrysalis, there's a pressure of living in too small
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an identity. And the primary expression of this, I find,
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is really the limiting beliefs that
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failing self, we're a threatened self, we're an unlovable self.
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And these block or obscure the realization of who we
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really are. They block namaste. So if we don't pay attention,
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if we just go on believing the beliefs, we stay
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in prison and the squeeze is very painful. And it
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only gets more painful because there's something in us that
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really wants to grow and be who we are. So
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we sometimes act in ways to find comfort and soothe
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that through addictive behaviors or dominating others or trying to
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control or defend, but that just plays into the suffering,
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that actually builds it. The prison that we all find
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that we're in when we're identified as a small self
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is created by society and by our caregivers that give
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us messages about who we are, basically that the self
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you are is not okay, And in a caste system,
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which we all live in, it's inevitable. It doesn't matter
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where you are in the caste system. We all have
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intersecting identities. Still, it's an identity that keeps us separate.
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stuck having to defend the position because there's insecurity in
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maintaining it. through dominating, through violence, through grasping, through greed.
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And you can see that right now with white supremacy
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in so much of the world that as there's some
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waking up to the cruelty and ignorance of racism, white supremacy,
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and I wish it were true that it's a final
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throes of grasping on, but you can sense how intense
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it's getting. any struggle with feeling like we have to
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defend our position and we tighten. Or for those that
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are lower on the hierarchy, there's the pain of oppression,
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of fear, shame, anger, addiction. And of course this is
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all deepened by caregivers who send the messages through family
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systems and raising us. So there's trauma, there's especially when
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lower on the hierarchy there's that
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a dangerous world and you are less than. Again I
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want to just say for all of us the society
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reinforces a spacesuit self. It gives us standards we're supposed
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to meet, like success, like looking a certain way, having
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a certain body, achieving. It keeps us striving and monitoring
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and afraid of falling short or feeling like we are
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falling short. it stops us from seeing who we really are.
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So the waking up, bringing mindfulness to the place of suffering.
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Let me share, we'll look at this, but I'll share
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a story of one man's prison which was created both
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by our society's racial caste system and also through caregiving
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and his caregivers. And this was a friend from college.
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he contacted me some years ago. You know, we both
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were practicing meditation and he needed some support in a
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life situation and I was active as a clinical psychologist then.
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So this man is African-American, he's a photojournalist, and he
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married a Caucasian woman. And as it turned out, her
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mother was outwardly hostile. They'd visit and she'd she'd be rude,
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she'd ignore him, and her view was basically, this is
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a man of a different race, it's going to mean
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trouble and unhappiness for both of them. He was hurt,
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he felt angry, his wife was outraged, didn't want to
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visit anymore, said, this is it, let's just sever. But
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his path, his spiritual path, basically had taught him that to...
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open to whatever circumstances are arising, and basically have the prayer,
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and this is called the Bodhisattva prayer, it's the prayer
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of an awakening being, may whatever arises awaken this heart
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and mind, no matter what it is. So that was
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his kind of approach to life. He also had a
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Tibetan teacher who sent the message, he gave out the teaching,
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never give up on anybody. Okay, so these combined, basically
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he wanted to stay in the game, but he needed
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some support on how to do it. So we met
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and we did some processes of him getting in touch
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with where, you know, behind the anger that he was
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feeling and hurt now, how that had lived in his
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body and in his system for his whole life. He
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had a single mom and He felt like to be
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an okay person, he had to live up to who
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his father might have been if he was home. In
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other words, replace his father. And he always felt like
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he was falling short, felt not seen, not valued, not enough,
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not belonging. And that intensified. He went to a white,
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primarily white college. He was in a professionally white world.
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So he was always trying to prove his worth. and
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feeling a sense of not belonging. And of course this
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situation with his new mother-in-law was just brought right up
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to the surface. So that's what we practice with. And
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he brought a lot of presence to it, a lot
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of kindness to it, you know, really, really holding with
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tenderness that old feeling of shame and not belonging and pain.
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And After some weeks of really being with himself in
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this way, he felt stronger. It wasn't healed, but he
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felt stronger. And he wanted to do the next visit
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with his wife, it was Thanksgiving, and she was his
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ally and he also brought his camera as kind of
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a resource so he could stay behind his camera and
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have something he could do that would give him a
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way to engage, interact and be there, but still take
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care of himself. Well, they went. The mother-in-law was still rude,
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wouldn't respond to questions. He was trying to bring her
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out some. Refused to go out to dinner one night
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because she didn't want to be seen in public, the
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mixed family. He had his camera. He stayed present with himself.
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When he emailed me about it, he said, you know,
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I was able to see her more. It didn't feel
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quite as personal. and she's a really frightened woman, a
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very controlling, frightened person, real tight heart. Next holiday, Christmas,
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and he increasingly was feeling more strength as he did
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a practice with himself that was really staying right at
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the edge of that place of suffering and bringing kindness
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and coming home as he did it. Each time he'd
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bring care to the place of hurt and shame, he
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felt like he shifted and became that caring presence. He
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could feel his own light. He could feel who he
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was beyond the spacesuit. Okay. Christmas holidays, they go, there's
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a gift exchange and the mother-in-law and family, they gave
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him socks that didn't fit and a box of candy
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and he's a health nut. He gave her gifts and
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she was sitting across the room opening them, and there
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were two framed pictures. It was from Thanksgiving. And in
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one of the pictures, well, before I tell you the pictures,
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when she was looking at them, she started weeping. So
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others came around back to see what they were. Well,
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one was her playing with her new granddaughter. The wife
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of this man, her sister brought the daughter. So there's
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the mother playing with her new granddaughter. And the other,
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she's in her husband's lap and they're being playful. He
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had caught her goodness during that past holiday. He had
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caught her goodness. So I'm going to fast forward a
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bit and say that the relationship did not do an
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immediate thaw. There was not a kind of magic like that.
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But over the next few years, there was the grounds
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of a growing respect. He had found an inner refuge.
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In other words, he was in touch with who he
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was beyond that spacesuit self, the small self. And he
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had seen her in a way that, and let her
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know that, put her more in touch with her better self,
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who she was a little bit beyond her spacesuit. So
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there was a movement towards healing connection. These are the
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seeds of Namaste, of what's possible. And it's important to
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know that when we're suffering, no matter what it is,
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when we're suffering, it's not bad. It's a wake up
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that something needs attention. There's something we're not remembering. And
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if it's a societal suffering, it's the racial caste system
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that's forgotten the intrinsic value of all beings. And on
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an individual level, when we've internalized messages that we're not okay,
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we're failing, we should be more. In other words, when
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we're living inside beliefs that are not true, it's going
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to feel like suffering. If you're suffering, you're believing something
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that's not true. And the suffering is a wake-up to
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challenge that, to open to something more. It's a portal
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to freedom. And you might just take a moment to
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pause here. And you might let your attention go inward.
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Take a few full breaths. You might bring to mind
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a situation where, as you witness right now, you're aware
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you are living in a spacesuit self, where you're living
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and reacting and caught in beliefs and feelings that make
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you insecure and reactive, where you do feel stuck, small, separate.
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It might be a situation at work or something to
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do with a relationship. and addictive behavior. So bringing to
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mind the situation and just sensing the signs of the
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spacesuit self where you're believing you're failing, unworthy, not loved,
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that something's gonna go wrong, so you're living in that
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defensive mode or maybe judgment. And since you are the
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witness right now, you're noticing this. This is what happens
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when there's an identification with a small self. the pain
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of that. And just feel your prayer. You can perhaps
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try the words of the Bodhisattva prayer. May this suffering
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serve to awaken my heart and mind. May I realize
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who I am beyond the small self. It helps to
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remember that the spacesuit self, when we identify with it,
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it feels very real, but it's not the truth of
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who you are. You can find your way to namaste,
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that sense of honoring a spirit, a formless awareness, a
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love that's beyond the spacesuit self, that's living through you.
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Okay friends, if your eyes are closed and you want
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to open them, please do. So I mentioned two pathways
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for cultivating the spirit of Namaste and one is, as
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I just mentioned, seeing where we're cut off from it
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and bringing presence to that. The second is to intentionally
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turn towards the light, towards goodness. we're not only alerted
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by suffering, we're also called by that goodness, called by
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a wisdom that knows we're more. You wouldn't be here
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right now, you wouldn't be listening if there wasn't something
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in you that sensed a more mysterious and sacred dimension
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to what you are, to what we are. That intuition's
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in us. So take a moment, we'll go back to
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the caterpillar and the chrysalis, okay? And science is so
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fascinating on this one. I mentioned how, you know, when
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the butterfly is ready to fly, it feels the pressure
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of the chrysalis and that lets it know to break loose. Well,
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before that, when the butterfly is a caterpillar within the chrysalis,
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the structure of the caterpillar dissolves into this soupy organic mush.
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You know, all the organs, everything dissolves. And these dormant
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imaginal cells start to cluster and develop into the new
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structure of the butterfly. In other words, a totally new
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being emerges. And it's pretty amazing that scientists name these
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imaginal cells because they're cells that have the potential to
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manifest what we really are. in this case the butterfly,
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and that that's intrinsic, it's already there. And just to think,
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I mean, here we are as humans, we wake up
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to evolve our consciousness, we don't have to dissolve all
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our organs, we just have to release the grip of
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those pesky negative beliefs, you know, to get that as
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much as the spacesuit and those beliefs feel real, they're
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not the truth of who we are You are
not
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who you think you are. And then to turn towards
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the goodness that's already here. And it takes intention. It
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takes intention to do that. But I do think of
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learning to turn towards the goodness, towards beauty, to feel
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our gratitude, to feel our love, to cultivate that. It's
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a superpower. And the reason it's a superpower is because
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The goodness is already here but when we turn towards it,
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when we bring the light of awareness to it, it
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calls it forward, it brings it forth. Okay, another story.
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And this was shared by a man from my area,
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from DC, who runs a rehab program for juvenile offenders.
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And most of the young people he works with were
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gang members and most had committed homicide Okay, so one
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of these is a 14-year-old boy in the program had
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shot and killed an innocent teenager to prove himself to
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his gang. And at his trial, the victim's mother sat
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there impassively silent until the end. And then when the
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youth was convicted of the killing, after the verdict was announced,
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she stood up slowly and stared at him and said,
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I'm going to kill you. then the youth was taken
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away to serve several years in a juvenile facility. Now,
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after the first half a year, the mother of the
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slain child began to visit him. And, you know, he
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had been living on the streets, didn't have other visitors,
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so for a time they'd talk, and she gave him money,
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came back several more times, and each time she'd bring
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some food, some small gifts. Near the end of his
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three-year sentence. She asked him what he'd be doing when
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he got out and he was uncertain, confused. So she
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offered to set him up with a job with a
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friend's company. And then she asked where he was going
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to live and since he didn't have a family to
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return to she offered him temporary use of a spare
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room in her home. So for eight months he lived
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there and he ate her food and worked at the job.
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Then one evening she called him in to living room
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to talk and sat down opposite him, just kind of
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waited a bit. And then she said, do you remember
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in the courtroom when I said I was going to
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kill you? I sure do, he replied. Well, I did,
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she went on. I did not want the boy who
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could kill my son for no reason to remain alive
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on this earth. I wanted him to die. So that's
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why I started to visit you and bring you things.
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And that's why I got you the job and let
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you live in my house. And that's how I set
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about changing you. And that old boy, he's gone. So
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what I want to ask you, since my son is
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gone and that killer is gone, if you'll stay here.
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I've got a room and I'd like to adopt you
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if you'll let me. And she became the mother of
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her son's killer, the mother he had never had. Each
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time I share this. I'm humbled because it's rare to
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see deeply to the soul of one who's caused us
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such horrific suffering and that takes a real deep, deep capacity.
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She changed him by having confidence in who he really was.
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what she really did, what she killed was his identification
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with the spacesuit self that was so violent so it's
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inspiring to know this is possible and we each can
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train our capacity to see goodness in ourselves and others
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to feel our love, to feel our gratitude where it
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comes most easily and naturally and build from there You know,
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we can trust what we practice gets stronger. The capacity
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for seeing the sacred really does wake up in us.
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So I emphasize that it needs to be an intentional practice. That,
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I mean, if you consider our evolutionary negativity bias, you know,
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the survival brain's habit of fixating on what's wrong, even
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with those closest to us, you know, And when we're
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not even in a strong reaction, still there's this habit
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of
wanting others and ourselves to be different. We keep
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having that inclination. And at any moment that there's an
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undercurrent that you're not enough or you need to change,
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it blocks the capacity for namaste where we are really
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remembering their spirit, their goodness. I often think of parenting
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in this. I've always been entertained by Florida Maxwell who writes,
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no matter how old a mother is, she watches her
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middle-aged children for signs of improvement. I think of that
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because my son's now 35 and I watch myself watching him.
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Most stages while he was growing up, there was really
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some problem I was focused on that I thought needed
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attention and should be different. You know, he needs to
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be more disciplined at school and less computer games and,
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you know, more responsible around the house. You know, the
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common list that probably most every parent knows. And I
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realized looking back that in the moments when I locked
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into judging where my spacesuit self was judging his spacesuit self,
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I wasn't feeling connected. My heart wasn't open. And I
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realized looking back that the greatest gift I offered him
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were the moments that I was just beholding and trusting
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his innate goodness. When on some level, you know, my
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heart was, namaste. Last week, a parent was worried about
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her son. And I asked her, you know, what do
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you really love about him? What do you most trust
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or honor? And she started naming things, you know, as humor,
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as kindness. And I said, reflect on that. Really do
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this namaste practice where you honor that. It helps them
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to trust who they are. We become a mirror of goodness. Okay,
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this is a poem from Santatukaram. He says, I could
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not lie anymore, so I started to call my dog God.
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First he looked confused. Then he started smiling. Then he
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even danced. I kept at it. Now he doesn't even bite.
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I'm wondering if this might work on people. Well, it does.
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It
is a superpower and it's really an intentional practice.
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And there are some steps that the first thing we
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do if we want to look towards goodness, cultivate that capacity,
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is intentionally pause and reflect and see what we love,
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see what we're grateful for. The second step is to
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actually take the time to feel and savor the appreciation
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so that we're not just bowing, so to speak, and
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saying namaste, but our body and heart is feeling that
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sense of love, gratitude, devotion, reverence, whatever word we want
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to call it. And then the third is to express it.
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in some way. So this is intuitive that we would
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need to do these things, but it's also neuroscience that
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painful experiences, the sense of what's wrong and the pain
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around that, very sticky. In fact, that's what's saved in
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the implicit memory when something bad happens, when something goes wrong,
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that we do something wrong or somebody else misbehaves. And
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that's what shapes our ongoing experience of our self and others.
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Positive experiences, you know, the ones that deepen our trust
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in who we are beyond the spacesuit self, positive experiences
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require staying with. And they say 15 to 30 seconds
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where we're actually experiencing our sense of ourselves or each
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other in a deep way. That's what leaves the imprint.
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And each round that we do that. Each round that
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we sense the sacredness, sense the beauty and stay with it,
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it nourishes those imaginal cells and there's really a transmission
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to the other person when we're seeing their goodness. As
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I mentioned, it works because the sacredness is there but
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we're calling it forward. You know, it's like that man
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in the story where he was saying, I did good.
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Even when it's covered over, by the spacesuit self, even
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when it's covered over by your confusion or self-aversion, you
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still have a longing to live from a pure heart.
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You still want to live from that goodness. You intuit
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00:53:19.469
that goodness. It comes alive when we attend to it.
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So I started with that image of more and more
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of us practicing, and we can customize and sense our
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way of practicing, but in some way we're taking the
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time to pause, to see the goodness, see the beauty,
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and honor it, to cultivate that spirit of namaste. And
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if we're in reactivity, then clearly we're not going to
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bypass that. We start there. Let the suffering be our
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portal back into presence and tenderness. And if we aren't
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suffering and we look towards the goodness, that namaste becomes
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more and more of a pathway to living from an
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awake heart. So I'd like to close with a brief reflection.
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You might take some moments to let the attention go inward.
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Take a few moments to let the breath help to
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collect your attention, perhaps a long deep breath. And then
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letting the breath be in its natural rhythm, feeling the
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breath at the heart. And you might sense a slight
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smile at the mouth and smile into the heart. So
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you can start to feel heart space. And bring to
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mind someone you love where the loving's fairly uncomplicated, where
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it's easy to feel your love for that person. And
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let that person be close in, in your mind, in
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your imagination. Feel them right here. Perhaps seeing what their
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eyes look like when they're smiling, when they're experiencing love
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for you, when they're happy. And sensing what you love
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about them, what their goodness is, how it expresses, whether
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it's through their humor, their bright mind, their generosity. Sense
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the awareness in that being, spirit. And you might mentally
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whisper or whisper out loud, thank you and I love you.
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And you might whisper it again. Just feeling the sincerity
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in your heart deepen. And you might even explore putting
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your palms together and imagining you and that person offering
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each other the blessing of Namaste. You know, I see
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the sacred. I see
the divine in you. and letting
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your attention go to the experience of your own being
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right now, perhaps a sense of tenderness or warmth, the
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heart space that's here. And sense a namaste, a bow,
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just honoring the goodness of what's living through you, who
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you are beyond any story of self. And you might
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bring to mind someone who you care about but where
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there's more challenge, more difficulty, more edges. Perhaps someone who
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brings up irritation or guilt or anxiety or judgment. And
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let yourself feel what gets brought up, whatever gets triggered,
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and just breathe with it and offer a gesture of
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kindness inwardly, acknowledging the spacesuit conditioning that's here. and looking
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more deeply. sensing you could look right into their eyes,
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sensing this person when they're happy, when they're feeling safe,
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when they're feeling love. Just to see past the spacesuit
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to the goodness that's there. And in the same way
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as before, you might imagine you and this person with
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your palms together, slight bow of the head, namaste, seeing,
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honoring the goodness, the basic goodness, the spirit that's here.
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And finally, you might bring to mind a non-human animal.
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Or it could be a tree, plant. And sensing the
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form of this being. and also the intrinsic aliveness, consciousness,
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spirit that lives through. And with tenderness, as you did before,
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that namaste, that honoring of the sacred, from Thomas Merton,
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it was as if I suddenly saw the secret beauty
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of their hearts, the depth of their hearts where neither
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sin nor knowledge could reach, the core of reality, the
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person that each one is in the eyes of the divine.
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If only they could see themselves as they really are,
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if only we could see each other that way all
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the time, there would be no more need for war,
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for hatred, for greed, for cruelty. I suppose the big
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problem would be that we would fall down and worship
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each other. As a way of closing, you might sense
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in the near future someone you might offer namaste to
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when you're together Just sense how pausing and seeing the
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goodness can wake up the hearts that are here, that
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can begin to bring freedom to us in our relationships
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with each other and healing to our world. Okay, my friends,
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if your eyes are closed, please feel free to open them.
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I want to thank you for your kind attention and
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wish you all the blessings of this path. A deep
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bow of namaste to each. Thank you.