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Narrator: The following series
addresses sensitive topics
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including self harm and suicide.
Listener discretion is advised.
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Tiger Opening: Uneasy Tiger.
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Sherry: Well, hello, Babalu.
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Baby Luisa: [baby cries]
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Sherry: Did mama wake you? I'm
so sorry. Mama was just gonna
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record
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herself real quick. Is that
okay?
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No? Oh, well, I'll be quick. I
promise. You can go back to
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sleep if you want. You are so
tired.
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You fell asleep right in mama's
arms. Yeah. You did. Mama's
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gonna bring you to Auntie
Patti's in a bit. Mama's gotta
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work tonight.
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Okay? Yeah. I know. Working is
silly. To think we're these
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complex creatures who spend most
of our lives waking up, going to
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work, and then going back to
sleep with some random
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activities in between.
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If we're lucky, it's lunatic. I
was able to grab another shift
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from Angela. She's a thorn in my
ass sometimes, but she's good
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doobie. Oh, Angela, poor thing.
She keeps trying to get me to
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hang out with her after work,
but I just keep blowing her off.
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I don't know why. She's nice and
all. But also, why does she
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wanna hang out with me? She does
seem to always laugh at my
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sarcastic remarks. I guess she
thinks I'm funny or something.
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I mean, it's easy to be a
wisecrack where we work. Every
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asshole that comes into our bar
is a joke. Or maybe she's
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laughing at me. No. I'm funny.
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Oh, yeah. You think mama's
funny, Yeah. You do. Angela's
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got her shit together, though.
She's 20, working at this shitty
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bar so she can pay her way
through college, wants to be a
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doctor, an obstetrician.
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God, 20 years old and she
already knows what she wants, To
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go to medical school and become
a doctor and spend the rest of
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her life waking up, inspecting
vaginas and delivering babies,
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then going to sleep. Meanwhile,
I'm over here going on 30, no
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clue what I'm doing.
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I do really
like the psychology class. Maybe
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I could do that, become a
psychologist, wake up,
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psychoanalyze some folks, go to
sleep. Don't worry.
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Mom will make time for you too.
What else other than spinning my
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wheels? Oh, I have a job
interview on Thursday with some
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bank. Bank of bank of bank of
money, cash of the world, known
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universe. I I don't know.
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Some big wig bank. Patti knew
someone who knew someone, and I
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guess they felt bad enough about
Patti's sad little sister that
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they decided to give me an
interview. Imagine me, Babalu,
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wearing a pantsuit, making
recommendations for personal
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lines of credits and
certificates of deposits. I
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guess it's not that far fetched.
Grandpa taught me a thing or two
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about business.
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So, yeah, I guess I'll put on my
best face, do the song and
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dance. I doubt anything will
come from it. Never does.
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Companies don't want someone
with just a high school diploma.
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Yeah.
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God forbid, you have actual work
experience. I guess it would be
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nice to have a job where I
didn't have to pander to idiots
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or at least drunk idiots. And
it'd be nice to have a pension
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or something. Could be a good
opportunity. Who knows?
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Maybe they'll take pity on
little me.
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What was that?
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Babalu, did you hear that? Or is
mama losing her marbles? Yeah.
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What was I talking about? Oh, I
don't know.
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Sometimes I feel like I'm just
settling for what's in front of
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me. Just letting life happen to
me. Goddamn Angela. 20 years
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old, brat. Maybe that's why I
don't wanna hang out with her.
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That's not true. I don't really
wanna hang out with anyone
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except
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my Babalu.
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And Deb. I like hanging with
Deb. It's not easy to coerce me
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into friendship, so I must like
her. Why am I such a bitch?
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Uh-oh.
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Mommy said a bad word. Yeah.
Mommy said a bad word. Mama's a
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little bad sometimes. Is that
okay, Babalu?
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Can you ever forgive mama? God,
you're so stinking smart. You
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know that? It's okay. I'll
remind you.
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Do you like hanging out with
your mama? No? Well, you're
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stuck with me. That's not so
bad. Right?
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Yeah. I'm not so bad.
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Luisa: [humming] That I'm in
love with you... You-uuu, soft
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and lonely. You-uuu , lost and
lonely...
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Dylan: And seeing the Earth from
that vantage point is pretty
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sick. There really is nothing
else like it. You you ever went
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skydiving?
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Luisa: No.
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Dylan: Do you want to?
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Luisa: No. I'm scared of heights
and falling to my death.
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Dylan: I get it. It's not for
everyone, but I promise if we
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went skydiving, you'd be in good
hands.
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Luisa: I would hope so.
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Dylan: What are your thoughts on
crypto?
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Luisa: Cryptocurrency?
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Dylan: Yeah.
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Luisa: People still do
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that?
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Dylan: Oh, yeah.
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Luisa: I can't say I know much
about it.
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Dylan: I'll teach you if you
wanna learn.
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Luisa: Oh, I don't know. That
seems like one of those things
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that I'd be more interested in
if I, like, had disposable
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income.
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Dylan: I mean, you could start
with just a few bucks.
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Luisa: Oh, just a few bucks? I'm
not sure I can swing that. I'm
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kidding, mostly.
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Dylan: I got you. What hobbies
do you have?
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Luisa: I do enjoy indoor
bouldering, emphasis on indoor
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because as you know, I'm scared
of heights and dying.
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Dylan: That's cool.
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Luisa: Yep. Do you have any
guilty pleasures?
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Dylan: No such thing. If it
gives me pleasure, what's there
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to feel guilty about?
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Luisa: Not sure I agree with
that logic. Well, my guilty
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pleasure is this paranormal
romance series. It's like way
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over the top, like werewolves
and
vampires and like witches.
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But it's like the right amount
of insanity, but also like kind
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of raunchy, but not too raunchy.
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Dylan: So it's like you're
reading porn?
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Luisa: I guess if you look at it
that way.
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Dylan: Oh, you're reading about
people having sex? So yeah.
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Luisa: Sure. Hence, the guilt
and guilty pleasure. But I'm not
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a total perv. I do very much
appreciate the romance aspect of
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romance novels. I mean, I love
reading in general.
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I'm actually a pursuing
novelist, not of dirty
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pornographic books,
unfortunately.
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Dylan: What do you write?
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Luisa: Creative non fiction.
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Dylan: Nice. Like what?
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Luisa: Well, I just finished a
manuscript about this Chinese
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immigrant who basically turned
the San Gabriel Valley into
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this, like, Asian American
haven.
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Dylan: Oh, you should write a
book about CZ.
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Luisa: CZ?
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Dylan: Changpeng Zhao, founder
of Binance. He's huge in the
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world of crypto. In fact, he's
in deep shit with the feds.
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I'm surprised you don't know
him.
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Luisa: I'd be surprised if I
did.
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Dylan: Now that's a book I'd
read.
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Luisa: I'm sure someone's
writing it.
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Dylan: Shit I hope so. Or
someone should turn his story
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into a movie. You write movies?
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Luisa: No.
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Dylan: Oh, maybe you should.
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Luisa: Maybe.
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Leon: Hey, Luisa. It's Leon. I
have another assignment if you
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want it. I'm looking for a
piece. Something along the lines
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of 'top 10 signs your man is a
real ally' or something.
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Of course, we'll need you to
pepper in some call to actions
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that point to an online t shirt
company. They make really dope
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woke themed shirts for men.
Anyway, should be a fun piece if
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you want it. Let me know by
Friday. Bye.
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Reina: Okay. This is my take on
shrimp etouffee. Oh. Part Cajun,
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part Latin. There's a butter
garlic roux with a hint of
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Luisa: Reina, stop selling. I'm
sold.
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Reina: Be honest.
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Luisa: It's amazing.
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Reina: You really think so?
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Luisa: Yes.
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Reina: I'm presenting this dish
to the chef tomorrow, and if you
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let me make a fool of myself, I
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Luisa: You do that all by
yourself.
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Reina: It's true.
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Luisa: But seriously, girl, you
got this on lock.
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Reina: Yeah?
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Luisa: Yes.
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Yes. A thousand times. Yes. Now
I don't suppose that there's a
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good wine that this dish could
be paired with.
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Reina: Are you now asking me for
free booze?
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Luisa: I feel like a thoughtful
chef would have planned a
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perfectly paired glass of wine
to
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go with this dish. Just saying.
Also, you're drinking.
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Reina: I'm working. That's for
table 10.
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Luisa: No.
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Reina: What?
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Luisa: Nothing. Just this guy.
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Reina: Oh, a date?
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Luisa: Yeah. But don't get
excited.
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Reina: What's his name?
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Luisa: Doesn't matter.
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Reina: That bad?
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Luisa: No.
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It wasn't bad. It was just
alright.
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Reina: So you're not gonna see
him again?
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Nope.
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Lu, when was the last time you
went on a second date?
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Luisa: Give me a glass of wine,
and I'll tell you. Listen. He's
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a nice guy,
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but it would never work.
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Reina: How do you know that?
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Luisa: Because there wasn't any
fun back and forth.
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Reina: Back and forth?
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Luisa: You know, a banter. I
need banter. Also, he didn't
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laugh once at a single thing I
had
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Reina: to say.
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Maybe what you had to say wasn't
funny.
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Luisa: Girl, I'm funny.
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Reina: Yeah. You are.
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That needs dressing.
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Luisa: He didn't even crack a
smile. And to make matters
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worse, he didn't make me laugh.
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Reina: Oh, that's no good.
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Ronnie has to make me belly
laugh at least once a day or
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it's over.
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Luisa: Exactly.
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So no. I'm not gonna see him
again.
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Reina: Lu, sometimes first dates
suck. People get nervous.
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Luisa: Rei,
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I know you don't want me to die
alone, and I don't want that
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either. But I already spent many
years in a relationship where I
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was settling for what was in
front of me, and I don't wanna
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do that again. I know. You know,
I see you and Ronnie together,
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and I think, damn. What they
have is so right.
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You two are so right for each
other. I want my right person.
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Reina: I want that for you too.
I'm just saying, could it be you
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cut things off before you even
have a chance to--
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Luisa: No.
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Reina: Get to know the guy.
Okay?
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Luisa: Please, can we talk about
something more interesting?
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Reina: Like?
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Luisa: Like, I started listening
to my mom's tapes.
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Reina: Oh my god. Yes. And?
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Luisa: It's surreal.
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In a good way. It's, I don't
know. It's hard to believe that
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I'm listening to my mother. You
know?
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Reina: What's she like?
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Luisa: She's thoughtful,
observant, funny, like, dry,
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sarcastic funny.
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Reina: Oh, now I know where you
got that from.
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Luisa: Yeah. She's really cool.
And this is crazy, but you can
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hear me as a baby on these
tapes.
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Reina: Oh, right. Babalu...
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Luisa: She really did call me
that.
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Reina: So are you, like, binging
all of the tapes?
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Luisa: No. No. Not quite. I
mean, I could easily see myself
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doing that, but the tapes are
kind of a mess. None of them are
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labeled.
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Some are empty. Sometimes she
just forgets to stop recording,
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so a lot of the audio is just
her wandering off and doing
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stuff around the house, which I
also like listening to.
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Reina: It's like you're seeing
into the past.
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Luisa: Yeah.
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Yeah. I just wanna cherish this
because I know it won't last.
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Reina: Oh, does she sound, you
you know, like Mhmm. You know
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what? No.
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I'm sorry.
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Luisa: Yeah. No. I, um she
sounds okay.
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Reina: Mhmm.
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Luisa: For the most part,
it's... look. I know it's not
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that simple. Right?
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Reina: Yeah.
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Do you know when these tapes
were recorded? Like,
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how close to...?
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Luisa: No. I mean, she died that
October '89, I know she met
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Debra in that psychology class
earlier that year. So it's,
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like, all around that time.
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Reina: Right.
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Luisa: Which is another reason
why I'm trying to take things
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slow.
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You know?
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Reina: Right.
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Luisa: I just like hearing her
talk, hearing her think out
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loud. It's wild. I spent all
these years imagining what she
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was like.
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You know that one picture I have
of her and I, where I'm in that,
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like, polka dot outfit?
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Reina: Aw. And she looks like
she's whispering into your cute
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little baby ear?
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Luisa: Yeah. That photo was all
I had of her. Because, you know,
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my aunt and uncle could never
bring themselves to talk about
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her. So that was it. That photo.
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Nothing else. I still don't know
if my mom left a note.
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Reina: What does Patti think
about all this?
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Luisa: I haven't told her.
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Reina: Oh.
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Luisa: I just wanna experience
this on my own for now.
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Reina: Yeah. That's probably for
the best.
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Luisa: You know what's weird? My
aunt claims that she doesn't
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remember Debra.
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Reina: I don't remember people I
met last week. So...
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Luisa: I know. Yeah.
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I I get that. But it it was
thirty years ago, but you'd
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think she'd kinda remember
Debra. Right? They cleaned up my
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mom's apartment together.
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Reina: Well, that's what Debra
told you.
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Luisa: You think she's lying?
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Reina: Not necessarily. I'm just
saying you don't know her.
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Luisa: Yeah.
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True.
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Reina: Oh, did you hear about
that woman who got killed by
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this nut job lady who claimed to
be her long lost mother?
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Luisa: The hell?
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Reina: Yeah. It's like Netflix's
biggest true crime series right
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now.
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Luisa: You know I don't watch
that shit.
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Reina: I'm just saying people
are psycho, so be on guard. I
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don't need my best friend
winding up as a subject of a
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true crime series.
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Luisa: You know that is my
literal nightmare.
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Reina: Mine too.
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Luisa: Great.
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We're on the same page. So
you're gonna get me a glass of
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wine or what?
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Reina: Red, orange, or white?
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Luisa: I don't know. You're the
chef. Shouldn't you tell me?
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Reina: Technically, I'm the sous
chef.
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Luisa: With that attitude,
you're going to stay the sous
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chef.
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Reina: Well, you are absolutely
getting that true crime series
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because I'm going to kill you.
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Luisa: Damn. That's a good plot
twist.
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Reina: Oh, how's your September
looking?
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Luisa: So you can plan when
you're gonna kill me?
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Reina: Ronnie and I are finally
getting around to the
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housewarming party Oh. And I
need you there.
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Luisa: Oh, don't murder me in
your new home.
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Reina: It's the perfect place to
hide your body. No one would
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ever suspect me.
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Luisa: You watch too much true
crime.
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Reina: It's educational
programming.
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Luisa: Apparently.
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Reina: I'm getting you a sav
blanc.
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Luisa: It better not be
poisoned.
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Reina: No promises.
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Luisa: Fair.
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Greg Voicemail Message: Hi. This
is Greg Steiner with Laurie
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Publishing. I'm currently away
from my desk, but please leave
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your name and number, and I'll
get back to you as soon as I
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can.
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Luisa: Hey, Greg. This is Luisa
Zhang Hillman. I'm following up
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to see if you had a chance to
read my manuscript, the one
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about Frederic Hsieh. If so, I'd
love to chat with you and get
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your thoughts. Otherwise, I hope
you're having a great week.
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Thanks.
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Sherry: I had my interview
today, and I don't know. I think
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I actually feel good about it.
So good that I think I may
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actually have a shot. I
interviewed with the branch
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manager, Gary.
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Gary. Terrible name. Anyway, I
interviewed with Gary and, you
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know, he's your run of the mill
business banking professional
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man. Whatever. He seems fine
enough, but he was throwing
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these questions at me, and I was
just hitting them out of the
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park.
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Every single one. At one point,
it felt like I was having an out
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of body experience. I suddenly
became conscious of how well the
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interview was going. It's as if
I was watching myself be this
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confident, competent, and dare I
say, charming person. Someone I
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don't recognize and she was in
control.
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She was me. Must have been a
fluke. Debra said that I have to
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start being kinder to myself
because I'm an incredible human
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or some shit. And that I have to
start celebrating my wins no
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matter how small I think they
are. I don't know.
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It's hard to celebrate wins when
you constantly feel like a
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loser. Good old Gary said, sky's
the limit here at Bankers West.
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Work hard, and you'll be moving
up the ladder in no time. No.
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It's not exactly what I had in
mind.
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But fuck. Have I ever had
anything in mind? This job could
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be a good opportunity. Who
knows? Maybe that confident,
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competent, charming woman really
is me.
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A new me who's finally gonna
take control once and for all.
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Trey: Excuse me? Oh. Sorry. I
think you left this behind when
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you were checking out, maybe?
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Luisa: Oh, shoot. My mangoes.
Thank you.
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Trey: The yellow kind too.
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Luisa: The best kind.
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Trey: Not gonna lie. I was
pretty tempted to steal them.
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Luisa: Oh, or you could have
just, you know, purchased some
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at this very Sprouts we stand
before?
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Trey: Oh, I did.
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Luisa: Greed knows no bounds.
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Trey: I I want to be better.
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Luisa: Well, thank you for not
stealing my mangoes because that
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would have made me very sad. And
And you, a criminal.
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Trey: Yeah. And I do not need
another mango larceny on my
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record.
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Luisa: Repeat offender, I see.
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Trey: Nah. I'm not about that
life anymore.
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Trey: And
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Trey: after much reflection, I
realized I was just hurting
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other mango lovers, if that's
what they're called.
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Luisa: I'm glad you're on the
straight and narrow.
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Trey: Oh, thank you for your
support.
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Luisa: You know, if only the
world was made up of more mango
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lovers, not mango fighters.
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Trey: Wow. I hope I live long
enough to see the day.
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Luisa: Yeah.
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Trey: Okay. Yeah. This has been
this
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Trey: has been
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Trey: fun, unusually fun for a
for a Sprouts
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Trey: parking lot.
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Luisa: It it sure has.
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Trey: Oh, sorry. It was nice
meeting you. What what sorry.
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What was your name?
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Luisa: Luisa.
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Trey:
Okay. Nice meeting you,
Luisa. I'm Trey, by
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Trey: the way.
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Luisa: Well, nice meeting you,
"by the way, Trey."
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Trey: Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Have a
good night.
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Luisa: You too. Hey, by the way,
Trey.
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Trey: Yeah.
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Luisa: There's a tiki bar that
does this really good fiery
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mango pina colada if you ever
wanna check it out.
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Trey: Yeah?
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Luisa: Maybe we could have a
mango lovers meetup there?
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Trey: Yeah?
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Luisa: Yeah.
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Trey: Yeah. Yep. Mhmm.
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Luisa: Okay.
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Younger Debra: Yes. It's
recording.
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Sherry: What should I say?
Anything. Just talk. About what?
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Anything.
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Your day, what you did, what
you're thinking, anything.
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Younger Debra: Alright. Let's
see. My mind's gone blank. Sher,
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help me out.
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Sherry: Well, you went to pick
us up some burgers. Yeah?
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Younger Debra: Yes. Yes. I went
to pick us up some burgers.
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Sherry: From In N Out.
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Younger Debra: From In N Out
because Sher had a craving.
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Sherry: Massive craving. You
know, sometimes you just need a
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goddamn burger.
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Younger Debra: And fries. And a
shake.
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Sherry: We're not having In N
Out without fries and a shake.
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Younger Debra: It's fuel for our
long study session.
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Sherry: Kill me.
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Younger Debra: What are you
worried about? You always ace
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your tests.
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Sherry: Ace is an exaggeration.
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It's not if you keep getting
A's.
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I don't always get A's.
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Younger Debra:
[whispering] Sherry Zhang is a
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brainiac.
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Sherry: Did you say something?
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Younger Debra: Nope. Just
looking through my notes. Okay.
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According to Freud's personality
theory, the psyche is structured
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into three parts...?
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Sherry: The id...
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Younger Debra: Mhmm.
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Sherry: Ego, and superego.
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Younger Debra: Correct.
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Sherry: Give me something
harder.
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Younger Debra: Alrighty. Freud
theorized that the id operates
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on the blank, that every
unconscious wishful impulse
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should be satisfied immediately
regardless of the consequences.
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Sherry: Could it be...
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[singing] the pleasure
principle... Oh, oh, ohhh!
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Younger Debra: Correct.
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Brainiac.
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Sherry: You're the brainiac.
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Younger Debra: Oh, sure.
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Sherry: Speaking of pleasure,
coffee's ready.
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Yikes.
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Younger Debra: What?
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Sherry: Coffee might be too
strong.
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Younger Debra: No such thing.
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Sherry: Black. Yeah?
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Younger Debra: Please.
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Sherry: Tell me if it's too
strong.
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Younger Debra: Don't be silly.
Yes. Just what the doctor
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ordered. Ordered.
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Sherry: Your doctor must be a
quack.
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Younger Debra: Sher, the coffee
is great.
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Sherry: It's fine at best.
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Younger Debra: Does this coffee
have caffeine in it?
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Sherry: It sure as hell ain't
decaf, Deb.
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Younger Debra: And that's what I
call a great cup of coffee.
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Sherry: Can't argue with that
logic.
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Younger Debra: Alright. Let's
get studying, wise ass.
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Sherry: Right on.
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Younger Debra: Oh, should I turn
this thing off?
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Sherry: Ugh. Yes. I always
forget. Say goodnight, Deb.
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Younger Debra: Goodnight, Deb.
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Sherry: Now who's the wise ass?
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Debra's Automated Voicemail:
This is Debra. Please leave a
470
00:26:24,030 --> 00:26:27,150
message after the beep, and I'll
get back to you as soon as
471
00:26:27,150 --> 00:26:27,630
possible.
472
00:26:29,485 --> 00:26:32,765
Luisa: Hey, Debra. It's Luisa.
I'm just calling to let you know
473
00:26:32,765 --> 00:26:35,485
that your insurance has reached
out, and they've been really
474
00:26:35,485 --> 00:26:43,005
helpful. So thank
you for that.
Also, I started listening to the
475
00:26:43,005 --> 00:26:47,810
tapes, and, well, thank you.
476
00:26:48,770 --> 00:26:53,970
Thank you for keeping them this
whole time. Anyway, sorry for
477
00:26:53,970 --> 00:26:56,210
the long voicemail. Do people
even listen to voicemail
478
00:26:56,210 --> 00:27:00,605
anymore? Well, I guess I hope
you do. And I hope that you're
479
00:27:00,605 --> 00:27:03,965
doing well and that we can stay
in touch.
480
00:27:04,365 --> 00:27:05,325
Thanks again.
481
00:27:06,445 --> 00:27:09,005
Greg Voicemail Message: Hey,
Luisa. Greg here. Finally
482
00:27:09,005 --> 00:27:13,290
circling back. I did read your
manuscript, and honestly, I
483
00:27:13,290 --> 00:27:17,530
thought it was pretty great.
Unfortunately, I don't think
484
00:27:17,530 --> 00:27:21,370
it's a fit for Laurie Publishing
at the moment, but I encourage
485
00:27:21,370 --> 00:27:24,490
you to reach out in the future
with any new work.
486
00:27:24,810 --> 00:27:27,025
I'd be happy to read it.
487
00:27:27,425 --> 00:27:29,025
Luisa: Why...
488
00:27:34,145 --> 00:27:39,825
Why the hell is there always a
line? Is this the line for the
489
00:27:39,825 --> 00:27:40,065
drive
490
00:27:40,065 --> 00:27:42,570
thru? Oh, come.
491
00:27:43,850 --> 00:27:49,610
Yes. Okay. You know what? Fuck
this. I'm going inside.
492
00:27:49,610 --> 00:27:50,250
In N Out Employee: And
493
00:27:52,250 --> 00:27:56,170
your order number is 54. Thank
you. Have a nice day. Hi, miss.
494
00:27:56,205 --> 00:27:56,845
I can help you.
495
00:27:56,845 --> 00:27:58,285
Luisa: Hi. Yes. Can I do a
number
496
00:27:58,445 --> 00:27:59,165
Angry Customer: Excuse me?
497
00:27:59,245 --> 00:28:00,045
Where's my order?
498
00:28:00,045 --> 00:28:01,645
Luisa: Okay. Sure. Just cut in
front
499
00:28:01,645 --> 00:28:01,805
of me.
500
00:28:01,805 --> 00:28:03,005
Angry Customer: I've been
waiting forever.
501
00:28:03,405 --> 00:28:04,925
In N Out Employee: What what's
your order number, sir?
502
00:28:04,925 --> 00:28:05,645
Angry Customer: 43.
503
00:28:05,645 --> 00:28:06,125
Another Employee: That's number
504
00:28:06,125 --> 00:28:06,525
48.
505
00:28:06,525 --> 00:28:08,045
In N Out Employee: Do you have
your receipt?
506
00:28:08,045 --> 00:28:09,645
Angry Customer: Why? I gave you
my number.
507
00:28:10,200 --> 00:28:10,440
Another Employee: 48!
508
00:28:10,440 --> 00:28:11,960
In N Out Employee: I just wanted
to check the order number on
509
00:28:11,960 --> 00:28:12,840
your receipt, sir.
510
00:28:12,840 --> 00:28:13,960
Angry Customer: Why the fuck?
511
00:28:13,960 --> 00:28:15,240
Shit!
512
00:28:15,880 --> 00:28:17,160
Another Employee: Guest number
51.
513
00:28:17,160 --> 00:28:21,000
Angry Customer: I told you. It's
43. See? Look. See?
514
00:28:21,000 --> 00:28:24,680
Here's your goddamn receipt.
They're calling 48 now, so
515
00:28:24,680 --> 00:28:25,640
where's my shit?
516
00:28:25,965 --> 00:28:29,885
In N Out Employee: Sir, your
receipt says 48.
517
00:28:29,885 --> 00:28:30,845
Angry Customer: Yeah.
518
00:28:31,965 --> 00:28:33,245
Another Employee: Number 48!!
519
00:28:33,325 --> 00:28:35,645
Angry Customer: That's me. 48.
520
00:28:36,125 --> 00:28:38,045
In N Out Employee: Sorry, miss.
How can I help you?
521
00:28:38,045 --> 00:28:43,350
Luisa: More like how can I help
you? Alright? Anyway, I'll get a
522
00:28:43,350 --> 00:28:45,590
number one, animal style,
please.
523
00:28:45,590 --> 00:28:47,830
In N Out Employee: Number one,
animal style.
524
00:28:48,150 --> 00:28:49,270
Luisa: And a vanilla shake.
525
00:28:49,270 --> 00:28:49,990
In N Out Employee: Vanilla
shake.
526
00:28:49,990 --> 00:28:51,110
Will that be everything?
527
00:28:51,110 --> 00:28:53,030
Luisa: Yes. Thank
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00:28:53,030 --> 00:28:53,350
you.
529
00:28:53,350 --> 00:28:54,790
In N Out Employee: That'll be
$13.79.
530
00:28:56,465 --> 00:28:59,345
Luisa: Sorry that you have to
deal with shitheads.
531
00:28:59,585 --> 00:29:01,505
In N Out Employee: It's fine.
532
00:29:01,505 --> 00:29:02,545
Luisa: It's not.
533
00:29:03,105 --> 00:29:03,745
In N Out Employee: Yeah.
534
00:29:04,305 --> 00:29:05,985
Your order number is 59.
535
00:29:05,985 --> 00:29:06,545
Luisa: Thank you.
536
00:29:14,650 --> 00:29:15,850
Simone: This is Simone.
537
00:29:15,850 --> 00:29:18,650
Luisa: Hey, Simone. It's Luisa
Zhang Hillman.
538
00:29:18,650 --> 00:29:21,815
Simone: Yes. Luisa, what what
can I do for you?
539
00:29:21,895 --> 00:29:24,535
Luisa: I've been thinking about
that ghostwriting assignment you
540
00:29:24,535 --> 00:29:25,175
mentioned.
541
00:29:25,255 --> 00:29:26,055
Simone: Yes.
542
00:29:26,055 --> 00:29:28,535
Luisa: And I was wondering if
the offer was still on the
543
00:29:28,535 --> 00:29:29,015
table.
544
00:29:29,095 --> 00:29:30,295
Simone: Yes, actually.
545
00:29:30,375 --> 00:29:35,160
Luisa: Great. Because I'd love
to take it if you'd still have
546
00:29:35,160 --> 00:29:35,640
me.
547
00:29:35,640 --> 00:29:36,360
Simone: Yeah.
548
00:29:36,520 --> 00:29:37,240
Luisa: Yeah?
549
00:29:38,280 --> 00:29:44,200
Simone: I'll have to check with
the team. JK, I call the shots.
550
00:29:44,200 --> 00:29:48,040
And, yes, Luisa, Hunter House
would love to have you.
551
00:29:48,040 --> 00:29:48,760
Luisa: Oh my god.
552
00:29:48,760 --> 00:29:50,175
You got me for a second.
553
00:29:50,175 --> 00:29:51,455
Simone: I know. I heard it in
your voice.
554
00:29:51,455 --> 00:29:53,855
Luisa: Seriously, I'm grateful,
Simone.
555
00:29:53,855 --> 00:29:55,375
Simone: What made you change
your mind?
556
00:29:55,695 --> 00:29:59,055
Luisa: I realized it was an
opportunity, an incredible
557
00:29:59,055 --> 00:29:59,855
opportunity.
558
00:29:59,855 --> 00:30:02,830
Simone: It is, Luisa, and I'm
excited to bring you aboard. In
559
00:30:02,830 --> 00:30:06,190
fact, this is superb timing
because I just
got off the phone
560
00:30:06,190 --> 00:30:10,350
with actually, let me back up
for a sec. So this ghostwriting
561
00:30:10,350 --> 00:30:14,430
project is a memoir for an
extraordinary woman. And, of
562
00:30:14,430 --> 00:30:16,705
course, the memoir needs an
extraordinary extraordinary
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00:30:16,705 --> 00:30:17,665
writer.
564
00:30:17,825 --> 00:30:19,185
Luisa: Yes. Amazing.
565
00:30:19,345 --> 00:30:23,345
Simone: Which obviously you are.
But listen, the writer for this
566
00:30:23,345 --> 00:30:30,065
project also needs to be open
minded understanding because the
567
00:30:30,065 --> 00:30:35,200
subject, she's quite the force
to be reckoned with. Know what I
568
00:30:35,200 --> 00:30:35,600
mean?
569
00:30:35,600 --> 00:30:36,960
Luisa: I I yeah. Sure.
570
00:30:36,960 --> 00:30:40,320
Simone: And I think you, your
writing style, and your
571
00:30:40,320 --> 00:30:46,560
personality is frankly so
perfect for this. Great. And her
572
00:30:46,560 --> 00:30:48,865
backstory. Wow. I mean, wow.
573
00:30:49,825 --> 00:30:52,465
It's gonna be a best seller,
Luisa.
574
00:30:52,465 --> 00:30:52,625
I
575
00:30:52,625 --> 00:30:56,545
can't disclose too much before
we have you sign an NDA. Uh-huh.
576
00:30:56,545 --> 00:31:00,945
But let's just say that she was
part of the hottest true crime
577
00:31:00,945 --> 00:31:05,080
story of the eighties. True
crime. When I say eighties, the
578
00:31:05,080 --> 00:31:07,240
the crime took place in 1989.
579
00:31:07,240 --> 00:31:07,880
Luisa: '89?
580
00:31:07,880 --> 00:31:11,480
Simone: Yes. Great year, right?
Let me tell you that late
581
00:31:11,480 --> 00:31:15,240
eighties, early nineties
nostalgia is so hot right now.
582
00:31:15,240 --> 00:31:18,735
Anyway, spoiler alert, she
survived and ended up living the
583
00:31:18,735 --> 00:31:24,095
most ridiculously interesting
life. Luisa, her story is very
584
00:31:24,095 --> 00:31:27,055
heavy, very sad, very gruesome.
585
00:31:27,055 --> 00:31:27,535
Luisa: Oh, I
586
00:31:27,535 --> 00:31:28,175
I see.
587
00:31:28,175 --> 00:31:33,720
Simone: Like, so tragic. Oh. But
it's also an incredible survivor
588
00:31:33,720 --> 00:31:36,440
story, like, ball your eyes out
incredible.
589
00:31:36,440 --> 00:31:38,440
Wow. Because, like, some really
590
00:31:38,440 --> 00:31:42,200
fucked up shit happened. Excuse
my French. It's it practically
591
00:31:42,200 --> 00:31:46,040
writes itself. But, obviously, I
can't wait to see how you bring
592
00:31:46,040 --> 00:31:50,285
our story to life, and it's true
crime. What a dream.
593
00:31:50,285 --> 00:31:52,685
So tell me, you excited or what?
594
00:31:53,885 --> 00:31:57,405
Luisa: Yes. I'm very excited.
595
00:31:57,965 --> 00:31:59,325
Simone: I can hear it in your
voice.
596
00:32:04,220 --> 00:32:08,220
Sherry: Everything is such
bullshit. You could do
597
00:32:08,220 --> 00:32:13,495
everything right and still not
get ahead or even caught up. I
598
00:32:13,495 --> 00:32:17,255
think the worst part about doing
everything right is the hope it
599
00:32:17,255 --> 00:32:19,095
gives you. False hope.
600
00:32:19,255 --> 00:32:22,535
Makes you think that you somehow
deserve better, that you'll be
601
00:32:22,535 --> 00:32:26,740
rewarded. Rewarded with things
you didn't even want to begin
602
00:32:26,740 --> 00:32:31,300
with. "I'm so sorry, Sherry. I
loved meeting with you, and I
603
00:32:31,300 --> 00:32:34,100
think you're very talented. But
I'm looking for someone with a
604
00:32:34,100 --> 00:32:35,940
just a bit more experience."
605
00:32:37,380 --> 00:32:42,115
More experience for an entry
level bank associate? What kind
606
00:32:42,115 --> 00:32:48,435
of stupid fucking logic is that?
Patti is always riding my ass.
607
00:32:48,435 --> 00:32:51,635
"You gotta get a better job. You
have a kid to take care of."
608
00:32:51,635 --> 00:33:03,470
Yeah. No shit, sis. Shit. Did I
wake...? Seriously, how do I get
609
00:33:03,470 --> 00:33:05,630
an opportunity if no one ever
gives me one?
610
00:33:06,285 --> 00:33:10,845
I just feel so behind. Like,
everyone else is just passing
611
00:33:10,845 --> 00:33:15,805
me. This twerp in class asked me
how old I was today. So I told
612
00:33:15,805 --> 00:33:19,645
him, and he was like, you're 29
years old and just now in
613
00:33:19,645 --> 00:33:21,565
college? What have you been
doing this whole time?
614
00:33:25,100 --> 00:33:32,380
What have I been doing? Would
have been nice though to finally
615
00:33:32,380 --> 00:33:37,375
be able to brag about something
in my life. I fantasized what it
616
00:33:37,375 --> 00:33:41,295
would be like getting this job.
The nice clothes I would wear to
617
00:33:41,295 --> 00:33:46,415
work, the house I'd save up for,
the way people would look at me,
618
00:33:47,615 --> 00:33:56,770
treat me. God, When Patti finds
out... I'm trying my best to do
619
00:33:56,770 --> 00:33:57,810
the right thing.
620
00:33:58,370 --> 00:34:06,515
I really am. Does it even make a
fucking difference? I wonder
621
00:34:06,515 --> 00:34:09,315
what would happen if I started
doing the wrong thing.
622
00:34:20,290 --> 00:34:21,490
Patti: Hello, Lulu.
623
00:34:21,490 --> 00:34:23,410
Luisa: Hey, auntie. How are
doing?
624
00:34:23,490 --> 00:34:24,450
Patti: I'm okay.
625
00:34:24,930 --> 00:34:25,890
Luisa: Are you sure?
626
00:34:25,890 --> 00:34:29,170
Patti: Yes. I'm okay. I'm
walking up to the pagoda.
627
00:34:29,705 --> 00:34:32,105
Luisa: I didn't know you were
going to the pagoda. I would
628
00:34:32,105 --> 00:34:32,985
have joined you.
629
00:34:33,145 --> 00:34:36,665
Patti: I'm late. I was supposed
to come for grandpa's death
630
00:34:36,665 --> 00:34:38,345
anniversary last week.
631
00:34:38,425 --> 00:34:40,905
Luisa: Oh, now I really wish you
would have told me.
632
00:34:41,145 --> 00:34:46,345
Patti: It's okay. I will say a
prayer on your behalf for
633
00:34:45,360 --> 00:34:50,160
grandpa and grandma Zhang and
for your mom.
634
00:34:50,160 --> 00:34:51,600
Luisa: Yes. Please do.
635
00:34:52,240 --> 00:34:53,840
Patti: Hi. Good to see you.
636
00:34:54,720 --> 00:34:57,360
Luisa: I I know you are busy.
You have to go, so I'll just
637
00:34:57,360 --> 00:35:02,145
make this quick. I have some
good news. I accepted the
638
00:35:02,145 --> 00:35:03,345
ghostwriting job.
639
00:35:04,305 --> 00:35:05,745
Patti: Oh, that's good.
640
00:35:06,545 --> 00:35:11,025
Luisa: Yeah. It it is. I'm
finally getting paid to write a
641
00:35:11,025 --> 00:35:18,850
novel. It's a memoir, which is
amazing. It's true crime though,
642
00:35:18,850 --> 00:35:20,690
so that's not ideal.
643
00:35:20,690 --> 00:35:23,250
But hopefully, this leads to me
getting my own work
644
00:35:23,250 --> 00:35:24,050
published.
645
00:35:25,250 --> 00:35:27,170
Patti: Okay.
646
00:35:27,730 --> 00:35:28,690
Luisa: I should let you go.
647
00:35:29,445 --> 00:35:30,085
Patti: Why?
648
00:35:30,245 --> 00:35:32,405
Luisa: Because you're at the
pagoda, and you're not even
649
00:35:32,805 --> 00:35:33,365
listening and
650
00:35:33,365 --> 00:35:34,885
Patti: I I'm still walking.
651
00:35:36,005 --> 00:35:39,925
Luisa: Well, now that I'm gonna
be a rich published author,
652
00:35:39,925 --> 00:35:44,100
kinda, I'm gonna bring you and
uncle out for dinner. My treat.
653
00:35:44,100 --> 00:35:47,220
Patti: No. No. You don't have to
pay. Save your money.
654
00:35:47,220 --> 00:35:48,100
Luisa: No. I'm I'm paying.
655
00:35:48,100 --> 00:35:49,220
Patti: No. No. No. Save money.
656
00:35:49,220 --> 00:35:49,700
Luisa: Auntie.
657
00:35:49,700 --> 00:35:51,060
Patti: Luisa, don't be silly.
658
00:35:51,060 --> 00:35:51,620
Luisa: Auntie.
659
00:35:51,620 --> 00:35:52,580
Patti: Save money.
660
00:35:52,580 --> 00:35:53,140
Luisa: Auntie.
661
00:35:53,140 --> 00:35:55,460
Patti: Luisa, don't be silly.
Young.
662
00:35:55,460 --> 00:35:56,685
You need to keep your
663
00:35:56,685 --> 00:35:57,325
mind on
664
00:35:57,325 --> 00:35:57,725
calling on
665
00:35:57,725 --> 00:35:58,365
your family.
666
00:35:58,365 --> 00:35:58,845
Luisa: Stop it.
667
00:35:58,845 --> 00:35:59,165
Auntie
668
00:35:59,165 --> 00:35:59,485
Patti: Me and
669
00:35:59,485 --> 00:36:02,125
uncle are old. Yes. But you have
kids.
670
00:36:02,125 --> 00:36:03,245
They'll need money.
671
00:36:03,245 --> 00:36:03,965
Luisa: Auntie, no.
672
00:36:03,965 --> 00:36:05,085
Patti: Or braces, piano
673
00:36:05,085 --> 00:36:05,725
Luisa: lessons
674
00:36:05,165 --> 00:36:09,965
Auntie, stop. It's okay. I love
you. Okay? Stop.
675
00:36:10,310 --> 00:36:13,670
I want to buy you and uncle a
nice dinner. That's all. End of
676
00:36:13,670 --> 00:36:17,430
story. Just let me have this.
Okay?
677
00:36:20,150 --> 00:36:20,870
Patti: Okay.
678
00:36:21,590 --> 00:36:22,470
Luisa: Thank you.
679
00:36:23,190 --> 00:36:27,815
Patti: So what else is going on?
Haven't been calling as much?
680
00:36:28,695 --> 00:36:33,815
Luisa: Oh, nothing. Just been
busy?
681
00:36:33,895 --> 00:36:38,310
Patti: Busy? Because there's
something happening in your life
682
00:36:38,310 --> 00:36:40,230
that you're not telling me
about?
683
00:36:40,950 --> 00:36:41,830
Luisa: Like what?
684
00:36:41,990 --> 00:36:46,310
Patti: I don't know. Maybe a new
man?
685
00:36:46,470 --> 00:36:47,110
Luisa: [laughs] Oh.
686
00:36:47,910 --> 00:36:51,590
No. I've just been busy.
687
00:36:53,525 --> 00:36:54,245
Patti: Kay...
688
00:36:54,805 --> 00:36:59,525
Luisa: Auntie, trust me. I'll
let you know when there's a man
689
00:36:59,525 --> 00:37:01,685
in my life worth talking about.
690
00:37:02,005 --> 00:37:06,005
Patti: Lulu, you should be
dating. You're not getting any
691
00:37:05,580 --> 00:37:06,380
younger. Okay.
692
00:37:07,020 --> 00:37:09,980
Luisa: I'm gonna let you go. Let
me know when you and uncle wanna
693
00:37:09,980 --> 00:37:11,820
do dinner, which I'm paying for.
694
00:37:11,820 --> 00:37:12,700
Patti: We'll see.
695
00:37:12,700 --> 00:37:13,500
Luisa: Love you.
696
00:37:13,660 --> 00:37:14,940
Patti: Love you too.
697
00:37:16,700 --> 00:37:19,660
Luisa: New voicemail. Oh.
698
00:37:19,900 --> 00:37:22,835
Trey: Hey. It's By the Way,
Trey. Just getting back to you
699
00:37:22,835 --> 00:37:26,435
about hitting up that tiki bar.
I'm wide open on Saturday, so
700
00:37:26,435 --> 00:37:30,835
let's do it. Is it weird that I
called you instead of just
701
00:37:30,835 --> 00:37:31,875
texting you back?
702
00:37:31,875 --> 00:37:35,475
I think I think I'm, like, one
of the few people who still uses
703
00:37:35,120 --> 00:37:39,840
a phone to call people. So
that's a fun fact about me.
704
00:37:40,480 --> 00:37:46,960
Welp. I hope you're having a
nice day. Bye.
705
00:37:55,605 --> 00:37:57,045
Trey Automated Voicemail: You've
reached the voicemail of
706
00:37:57,285 --> 00:37:58,245
Trey: Oh, Trey.
707
00:37:58,245 --> 00:38:00,260
Trey Automated Voicemail: Please
leave a message after the tone.
708
00:38:01,220 --> 00:38:05,300
Luisa: Hey, Trey. It's Luisa. I
don't know why I just told you
709
00:38:05,300 --> 00:38:09,700
who I was. I I assume you have
my number in your phone. Anyway,
710
00:38:10,100 --> 00:38:14,180
now we're playing phone tag, and
I feel like I'm back in 2002,
711
00:38:14,945 --> 00:38:16,945
which honestly, I'm not mad
about.
712
00:38:17,505 --> 00:38:23,505
Anyway, I don't mind you calling
instead of texting. I too enjoy
713
00:38:23,505 --> 00:38:29,265
making the occasional call using
my telephone. But, yeah,
714
00:38:29,760 --> 00:38:34,240
Saturday it is. I'm looking
forward to it. Shall we say
715
00:38:34,320 --> 00:38:35,440
six o'clock?
716
00:38:35,680 --> 00:38:43,535
Hope you're doing well and not
thieving any mangoes. Bye.
717
00:38:48,815 --> 00:38:52,175
Sherry: I was at Debra's
place
earlier, and she played this old
718
00:38:52,175 --> 00:38:56,830
song that I immediately
recognized. It was a song my mom
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00:38:56,830 --> 00:39:00,670
used to play, but I never
understood the lyrics because
720
00:39:00,670 --> 00:39:06,590
the song was in French. Anyway,
I haven't heard it in years
721
00:39:06,590 --> 00:39:19,505
until today. Deb told me it was
by Edith Piaf, which translates
722
00:39:19,505 --> 00:39:25,610
to, "no, I regret nothing." Deb
says the song is about letting
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00:39:25,610 --> 00:39:26,650
go of the past.
724
00:39:27,370 --> 00:39:35,945
Good, bad, everything, and
letting life begin anew. That's
725
00:39:35,945 --> 00:39:42,345
exactly how my mom lived... with
no regret. I don't know. A life
726
00:39:42,345 --> 00:39:50,160
without any regret must be nice.
I wish I could just let go and
727
00:39:50,160 --> 00:39:54,080
forget all the bad stuff.
728
00:39:59,680 --> 00:40:03,365
Funny. I think Patti lives that
way too... without a single
729
00:40:03,365 --> 00:40:07,285
regret. She has this uncanny
ability to charge forward
730
00:40:07,525 --> 00:40:13,605
without ever looking back. Patti
would strangle the wife out of
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00:40:13,605 --> 00:40:19,270
me if she heard this. Sometimes
when I drop off Babalu at Patti
732
00:40:19,270 --> 00:40:24,230
and Jim's, I start to worry that
she'll forget about me, that
733
00:40:24,230 --> 00:40:26,790
she'll think Patti's her mother.
734
00:40:27,910 --> 00:40:32,725
But today, when I picked her up,
Patti was holding her and the
735
00:40:32,725 --> 00:40:37,045
moment I walked into the shop,
she looked over at me and the
736
00:40:37,045 --> 00:40:43,045
look on her face when she saw
me, she knew who I was. I was
737
00:40:43,045 --> 00:40:48,460
her mama. She reached out her
little chunky arms for me, and I
738
00:40:48,460 --> 00:41:00,555
swear, I nearly burst into
tears. My sweet Babalu. No
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00:41:00,555 --> 00:41:06,955
regrets? I regret that I'm not
in a place to give her the life
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00:41:06,955 --> 00:41:11,275
that she deserves, that I may
never be able to give her a life
741
00:41:11,275 --> 00:41:12,320
that she deserves.
742
00:41:12,400 --> 00:41:20,000
I regret not going to NYU when I
had the chance. I regret not
743
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:23,920
advocating for my dad when he
couldn't advocate for himself. I
744
00:41:23,920 --> 00:41:31,885
regret putting myself in
situations that allowed people
745
00:41:31,885 --> 00:41:38,980
to take advantage of me. I won't
sit here and say that I think
746
00:41:38,980 --> 00:41:45,380
I'm cut out for this whole mom
business, but Babalu's the most
747
00:41:45,380 --> 00:41:49,700
excellent thing that's ever
happened to me. And to think,
748
00:41:50,180 --> 00:41:53,395
before she even came into this
world, I already managed to
749
00:41:53,395 --> 00:41:54,835
screw things up for her.
750
00:41:57,235 --> 00:42:00,915
But that's what happens when you
get entangled with a married
751
00:42:00,915 --> 00:42:01,315
man.
752
00:42:01,315 --> 00:42:03,715
Luisa: Oh, shit...
753
00:42:04,195 --> 00:42:12,090
Sherry: More regret. Maybe
that's the underlying meaning of
754
00:42:12,090 --> 00:42:19,450
that song, that everything, no
matter how awful, has to happen
755
00:42:19,455 --> 00:42:26,735
so you can be right where you're
at now. I'm the mother to a
756
00:42:26,735 --> 00:42:29,215
spunky, brilliant baby girl.
757
00:42:30,495 --> 00:42:31,775
How could I regret that?
758
00:42:37,350 --> 00:42:40,950
Narrator: Babalu was created,
written, and produced by me,
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00:42:40,950 --> 00:42:45,830
Kimberly Truong. Directed by
Katherine Chen Lerner. Sound
760
00:42:45,830 --> 00:42:50,055
design, editing, and mixing by
Charles Moody. With performances
761
00:42:50,055 --> 00:42:56,695
by Christine Liao, Ruby Marez,
Chriselle Almeida, Lee Chen,
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00:42:57,015 --> 00:43:01,655
Diogo Hausen, Greg Smith,
Heather Woodward, Varda
763
00:43:01,655 --> 00:43:07,670
Appleton, PJ McCormick, James
Donahower, Kiera Nusbaum, Mark
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00:43:07,670 --> 00:43:13,030
Morante, Julianne Kolb, and
Kimberly Truong. Theme music by
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00:43:13,030 --> 00:43:14,150
Edith Mudge.
766
00:43:14,230 --> 00:43:18,555
Additional music by Manish
Ayachit. Studio recording by
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00:43:18,555 --> 00:43:24,395
Parker Silzer and David Stern.
Artwork by Gabi Hawkins. Logo by
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00:43:24,395 --> 00:43:29,035
Alex Bruno. A very special thank
you to Liesl Lafferty and the
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00:43:29,035 --> 00:43:29,995
Firecracker Department.
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00:43:30,500 --> 00:43:35,140
Mari Meyer, Peter Byrnes,
Victoria LaVilla, Brandon
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00:43:35,140 --> 00:43:39,860
Beardsley, Hillary and the boys,
Katie McCuen, and our incredible
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00:43:39,860 --> 00:43:45,175
Kickstarter backers. Babalu is a
production of Uneasy Tiger. For
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00:43:45,175 --> 00:43:49,415
more info or to support this
series, follow at Uneasy Tiger
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00:43:49,415 --> 00:43:54,775
on Instagram or TikTok or visit
uneasytiger.com. If you or
775
00:43:54,775 --> 00:43:57,979
someone you know is struggling
with suicidal thoughts, please
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00:43:57,979 --> 00:44:03,979
dial 988 or visit
988lifeline.org for resources
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00:44:03,979 --> 00:44:04,698
and support.