رونوشت کامل God's Math Is Multiplication: How God Uses Loss, Grief & Surrender to Grow Purpose

00:03:59.439 --> 00:04:01.120 But the breaking did not stop there. 00:04:01.280 --> 00:04:03.599 I was thinking, okay, now life is gonna be peaceful. 00:04:03.680 --> 00:04:07.439 I'm gonna have so much more joy, all this blessings, everything that everybody praises about. 00:04:07.520 --> 00:04:08.800 It's what I'm gonna have. 00:04:09.039 --> 00:04:13.840 But what happened is that my life really started to look like subtraction. 00:04:14.879 --> 00:04:21.759 I started to have to lose so many things in this process that has allowed me to become who I am today. 00:04:21.920 --> 00:04:24.639 And this started when I was a little girl. 00:04:24.879 --> 00:04:31.279 All of our journeys, they don't start at our first heartbreak, our first breakup, our first argument with a friend. 00:04:31.360 --> 00:04:32.959 It starts when we're a child. 00:04:33.199 --> 00:04:43.519 And if we don't start to tend to those things or look at those things, and they're gonna carry us, and we're just gonna keep building up with all of this resentment and hurt inside of us until God decides to break us wide open. 00:04:43.759 --> 00:04:48.959 What happens when God allows things to leave your life that you desperately want it to keep? 00:04:49.120 --> 00:04:53.120 So for years I thought I was living through a season of loss. 00:04:53.279 --> 00:04:58.319 At 18 years old, I got pregnant with my first child, and she was everything to me. 00:04:58.399 --> 00:05:01.279 Before that, I was a God knows this, so I'm gonna say it in his house. 00:05:01.360 --> 00:05:02.480 I was a party girl. 00:05:02.720 --> 00:05:04.639 I was living life full of sin. 00:05:04.959 --> 00:05:08.160 I had all gas, no breaks. 00:05:08.560 --> 00:05:11.199 And I ended up getting pregnant. 00:05:11.360 --> 00:05:20.639 And I remember when I told my parents, my mom looked at me and she said, You don't need to have this baby because I'm gonna end up raising it because you are such a mess up in life. 00:05:20.879 --> 00:05:23.519 Some people would say, Wow, that's such a hard thing for a mother to say. 00:05:23.600 --> 00:05:27.680 And I'm so thankful for that tough love that my mom gave me in that moment. 00:05:27.839 --> 00:05:31.279 She also told me that I had till I was seven months pregnant to get out of her house. 00:05:31.519 --> 00:05:32.639 So, what did I do? 00:05:32.800 --> 00:05:34.240 I had to become an adult. 00:05:34.399 --> 00:05:38.319 And I remember in my head, I said, God, I want to love this baby. 00:05:38.480 --> 00:05:39.600 You bless me with this baby. 00:05:39.680 --> 00:05:41.199 I want to love this baby. 00:05:41.519 --> 00:05:43.600 So I'm gonna do this. 00:05:43.759 --> 00:05:44.319 And I did. 00:05:44.399 --> 00:05:45.759 I had this beautiful little girl. 00:05:45.920 --> 00:05:47.360 I was 19 years old. 00:05:47.519 --> 00:05:51.360 Her name was Jalen Christine Dominguez, and she was my entire world. 00:05:51.519 --> 00:05:55.920 She was the first thing in life that I ever felt like I had true purpose for. 00:05:56.240 --> 00:05:59.759 And being a mother honestly came super natural to me. 00:05:59.839 --> 00:06:02.079 It was the only thing I was actually really good at. 00:06:02.319 --> 00:06:08.000 I had been fired and hired at so many jobs, I couldn't get through college, I got pregnant, all these things. 00:06:08.079 --> 00:06:11.279 But being a mom was the thing that I was amazing at. 00:06:11.680 --> 00:06:14.720 And I felt, okay, this is where life starts looking up. 00:06:14.959 --> 00:06:18.879 And I got to enjoy a full year of life with that little girl. 00:06:19.120 --> 00:06:22.959 And I was with her father, who ended up being the father to my other kids. 00:06:23.120 --> 00:06:29.839 And we were going through boyfriend, girlfriend stuff that people do at that age, and we were fit to be parents, we just weren't fit to be together. 00:06:30.079 --> 00:06:31.600 But she was my constant. 00:06:31.680 --> 00:06:33.120 I knew I was a great mom. 00:06:33.519 --> 00:06:35.439 And then one night everything changed. 00:06:35.600 --> 00:06:39.920 My daughter was actually killed in a car accident due to a drunk driver at a year old. 00:06:40.240 --> 00:06:50.800 And out of everyone that was in the car, me, my ex-husband, and my daughter, I was the only one that was alive, conscious, and aware of everything that was going on around me. 00:06:51.199 --> 00:06:55.759 And I remember in that moment, I was just like, this is really happening. 00:06:56.000 --> 00:07:06.800 And I don't want to create a scene for you guys that is sad, but I remember trying to reach back to my daughter, trying to wake her up, trying to wake up my husband, trying to do all these things to try to control. 00:07:06.879 --> 00:07:09.600 And I just kept thinking, like, what is going on here? 00:07:09.839 --> 00:07:17.279 And we went to the hospital, everybody got baylifted, and I knew a mother knows, I knew my daughter was no longer with us. 00:07:17.360 --> 00:07:22.000 And I kept telling everybody, all my family, everyone, you need to just go be with her, go be with her. 00:07:22.160 --> 00:07:24.480 And they were like, no, Nadine, we have to be here for you too. 00:07:24.720 --> 00:07:26.000 I was in intensive care. 00:07:26.160 --> 00:07:27.199 I broke my leg. 00:07:27.279 --> 00:07:28.480 I had all of these things. 00:07:28.720 --> 00:07:33.519 My husband at that time had all internal injuries, but I had already knew. 00:07:33.680 --> 00:07:35.600 And so they sedated me, did all the things. 00:07:35.680 --> 00:07:42.639 I was in ICU, and I remember waking up, and I remember it's like one of those things that you kind of see in a dream. 00:07:42.720 --> 00:07:49.120 You wake up, you go back to sleep, you wake up, you go back to sleep, and I was holding her hand and I told her, Jalen, it's okay that you let go. 00:07:49.360 --> 00:07:51.920 I already know you're not here anymore. 00:07:52.319 --> 00:07:59.040 And what I didn't realize then was

that was a strength that God was giving me that I could never find in myself. 00:07:59.199 --> 00:08:08.560 I I think back of that time of my life as a 20-year-old girl at that time, losing a child, and I could think, oh, it's just something I had to push myself through, right? 00:08:08.639 --> 00:08:10.160 I just had to push myself through. 00:08:10.319 --> 00:08:12.079 And I thought about that for a long time. 00:08:12.240 --> 00:08:15.920 I got through my daughter's death because I decided to be strong, right? 00:08:16.000 --> 00:08:19.279 I got through my daughter's death because I decided to go to the therapy. 00:08:19.439 --> 00:08:21.439 I decided to do all these things. 00:08:21.759 --> 00:08:30.800 And what I've come to find out much later, 15 years almost, is that I survived my daughter's death because God was there in every moment. 00:08:32.000 --> 00:08:35.519 So as life continued to go on, I wanted to find purpose. 00:08:35.679 --> 00:08:36.960 I ended up becoming a mother again. 00:08:37.039 --> 00:08:39.919 I had two more children, another girl and another boy. 00:08:40.000 --> 00:08:42.080 They are now 12 and 15 years old. 00:08:42.240 --> 00:08:51.840 And my total life, I still feel like I am one of the best mothers in the world, and it is truly one of the most fulfilling gifts that God has ever given to me out of all the many things that you'll learn that I do. 00:08:52.080 --> 00:08:54.399 And I thought, okay, life is going, right? 00:08:54.480 --> 00:08:58.159 I opened up businesses, I was impacting women in health and fitness. 00:08:58.320 --> 00:09:04.879 I had an online audience where I was helping people all around the world to get healthy and to do their businesses online. 00:09:05.279 --> 00:09:09.279 I opened up cafes and I'm thinking, okay, life is moving in the right direction. 00:09:09.360 --> 00:09:10.960 I still really wasn't talking to God much. 00:09:11.120 --> 00:09:12.480 My friends were inviting me to church. 00:09:12.559 --> 00:09:13.679 You know, you should really get to know him. 00:09:13.759 --> 00:09:14.559 And I'm like, no, I'm good. 00:09:14.639 --> 00:09:15.519 That guy doesn't really like me. 00:09:15.679 --> 00:09:19.440 I again I was scared because I was scared what that relationship actually looked like. 00:09:19.679 --> 00:09:20.000 Okay. 00:09:20.399 --> 00:09:22.960 But then I started opening up the business in 2019. 00:09:23.039 --> 00:09:29.360 That was my first conversation with God was God, if you want me to open up this business and you're putting me here, then there has to be something here. 00:09:29.519 --> 00:09:30.559 So guide me. 00:09:30.799 --> 00:09:34.559 And then my daily conversations with God started in that time. 00:09:34.960 --> 00:09:37.840 Okay, today this is, and it was always me asking for something. 00:09:38.000 --> 00:09:38.399 Always. 00:09:38.559 --> 00:09:38.799 Always. 00:09:38.879 --> 00:09:40.399 I was never giving thanks for anything. 00:09:40.480 --> 00:09:47.919

I'd probably say thank you in the moment, but my conversations with God did not start with scripture or anything of that nature. 00:09:48.000 --> 00:09:50.320 It said, hey, this is what I need today. 00:09:50.480 --> 00:09:51.919 Please and thank you, Jesus. 00:09:52.159 --> 00:09:52.639 Amen. 00:09:52.879 --> 00:09:53.200 All right. 00:09:53.279 --> 00:10:02.399 I didn't have the perfect prayers, and I share that with you because even though I feel like we are all very faithful, loving women of God, I don't know where you are in your prayer life. 00:10:02.480 --> 00:10:05.840 And I want you to know that if it's not perfect, it's okay. 00:10:06.159 --> 00:10:07.840 God loves your imperfection. 00:10:08.000 --> 00:10:10.480 God has created you for exactly who you are. 00:10:10.639 --> 00:10:19.279 So He wants to take all of what you are right now, your mess, your brokenness, your uncertainty, your unknowing, and He wants to be able to form you. 00:10:19.360 --> 00:10:23.919 And I want to give you the courage to be able to bring all of that to God because He wants it. 00:10:25.039 --> 00:10:30.320 So through this business, I opened up this store and I had the nightmare of every business owner you can think of. 00:10:30.399 --> 00:10:32.960 I opened up a cafe and my rent was crazy. 00:10:33.279 --> 00:10:34.399 I had no idea what I was doing. 00:10:34.480 --> 00:10:36.720 I had no business opening up a business. 00:10:36.879 --> 00:10:40.080 But I opened and I was making$50 days. 00:10:40.240 --> 00:10:42.960 And I was like, how are we gonna pay the bills? 00:10:43.200 --> 00:10:44.240 So I would talk to God. 00:10:44.399 --> 00:10:47.200 God, bring the people inside of this store that are supposed to be here. 00:10:47.440 --> 00:10:49.600 God, I need to make a thousand dollars this week. 00:10:49.759 --> 00:10:52.960 God, I gotta buy more product, but the bank account doesn't, whatever. 00:10:53.120 --> 00:10:57.440 Guys, I ended up having that store for three years, kept it open to the end of my lease. 00:10:57.919 --> 00:10:58.240 Okay. 00:10:58.639 --> 00:11:04.080 That first year in business, I went from making$50 days to six figures in a month. 00:11:04.159 --> 00:11:05.679 Or I'm sorry, in a year, not a month. 00:11:05.759 --> 00:11:06.399 That would have been amazing. 00:11:06.639 --> 00:11:12.480 So just to show you that I was giving him the authority in my business without even knowing that's what I was doing. 00:11:12.639 --> 00:11:14.399 I just thought, I'm just talking to him. 00:11:14.480 --> 00:11:15.039 That's it. 00:11:15.200 --> 00:11:16.159 I'm just talking to him. 00:11:16.240 --> 00:11:18.480 And even through that, he was working. 00:11:18.720 --> 00:11:27.840 But I remember even going to a six-figure business, that wasn't enough to say, oh, I'm making good money to support my house or anything like that, especially when running a cafe. 00:11:28.000 --> 00:11:30.399 And once again, starting when you did not know what you were doing. 00:11:30.480 --> 00:11:32.240 So I did a lot of things upside down. 00:11:32.480 --> 00:11:40.240 And I remember at that time my husband would ask me, How do you come home every single day so excited about not making money? 00:11:41.120 --> 00:11:44.559 And I said, Because of the people that I get to talk to. 00:11:45.200 --> 00:11:50.080 The person that sits at my cafe bar and tells me about what they're going through in life. 00:11:50.320 --> 00:11:59.200 Somebody came in and they lost a child, somebody just lost their job, somebody just got diagnosed with breast cancer, somebody just lost their mother. 00:12:00.240 --> 00:12:06.240 That to me made me way more rich than any dollar amount in my bank account could. 00:12:06.559 --> 00:12:14.320 And the thing is, is what I didn't know at that point that God was showing me what that kind of community involvement in ministry looked like. 00:12:14.480 --> 00:12:16.080 I didn't know that's what he was doing. 00:12:16.240 --> 00:12:18.320 I just thought these people love me because I'm cool. 00:12:18.480 --> 00:12:22.639 Once again, I was I always tell people I'm a recovering egotistical business owner, right? 00:12:22.799 --> 00:12:27.279 So I thought all of these people came to me because they simply just liked me, right? 00:12:27.440 --> 00:12:31.519 But no, God was creating something there that I just couldn't see yet. 00:12:32.080 --> 00:12:35.919 And so while I was in this business, my life shifted again. 00:12:36.000 --> 00:12:41.759 And I remember one of the things that I used to think of constantly was, God, how much are you gonna take from me? 00:12:41.919 --> 00:12:42.720 Like, how much? 00:12:42.879 --> 00:12:45.039 Like, okay, my daughter, nothing else. 00:12:45.200 --> 00:12:47.200 Please, if it's gonna be something, let it be something small. 00:12:47.360 --> 00:12:48.879 I don't know, let me lose a t-shirt. 00:12:48.960 --> 00:12:52.559 I don't want any more big losses in my life anymore. 00:12:52.879 --> 00:13:04.240 And the next thing was coming around, but the thing is when we start getting in alignment with God, then we start knowing that things are about to happen before they even happen, right? 00:13:04.799 --> 00:13:06.720 People's spirits tell on them. 00:13:06.960 --> 00:13:11.840 We start to feel the shifts on how people talk to us and approach us and what's going on in our lives. 00:13:12.000 --> 00:13:16.480 We start to know when that big journey was completely different. 00:13:16.639 --> 00:13:18.000 Don't get me wrong, I was sad. 00:13:18.080 --> 00:13:21.759 There were many nights that I cried, there were many nights I was very angry. 00:13:22.000 --> 00:13:24.240 I could have been a little bit more crazy, but thank you. 00:13:24.399 --> 00:13:30.240 For the love of God, I was able to keep my dignity while I was going through this divorce. 00:13:30.799 --> 00:13:40.879 And I ended up leaving my house with my two kids and living in my parents' house in one bedroom

on a queen size bed for 11 months. 00:13:41.120 --> 00:13:47.919 And I remember that I felt like that 18-year-old girl that had left my parents' house pregnant. 00:13:48.240 --> 00:13:50.159 And I felt so embarrassed. 00:13:50.320 --> 00:13:53.279 And I remember telling my parents, I'm so sorry I'm back here. 00:13:53.360 --> 00:13:54.639 I'm so sorry I'm back here. 00:13:54.720 --> 00:13:56.399 Like I promised I would never come back. 00:13:56.480 --> 00:13:58.639 And I've done so good to this point. 00:13:58.879 --> 00:14:01.279 And my mom and dad just kept saying, Baby, it's okay. 00:14:01.440 --> 00:14:02.399 We're here, we're here. 00:14:02.480 --> 00:14:08.240 And I share that with you because maybe not everybody has that support in parents, but maybe it's somebody else, a friend, somebody you meet at church. 00:14:08.480 --> 00:14:10.320 Embrace those people, love those people. 00:14:10.399 --> 00:14:12.960 They're so special, they're such gifts in our lives. 00:14:13.279 --> 00:14:20.080 And so for 11 months, I lived in this house with my parents, my kids, and my life was a mess. 00:14:20.240 --> 00:14:23.039 There was nothing perfect about my life at all. 00:14:23.200 --> 00:14:28.080 I felt so broken, so useless, so discarded, like I didn't even matter. 00:14:28.320 --> 00:14:30.799 But I had to pick up the pieces of my life. 00:14:30.960 --> 00:14:33.120 And I kept asking God, okay. 00:14:33.440 --> 00:14:36.559 Now I have nothing holding me back between this. 00:14:36.879 --> 00:14:38.960 There's nothing getting in the way now. 00:14:39.120 --> 00:14:43.039 There's no one in between that's telling me, let's not go to church, let's not. 00:14:43.279 --> 00:14:44.639 It's just me and you now, God. 00:14:44.720 --> 00:14:46.399 So I am all yours. 00:14:46.639 --> 00:14:48.399 Do with me what you please. 00:14:48.559 --> 00:14:53.600 It's another very powerful prayer when you pray that I get ready to step into the calling. 00:14:53.919 --> 00:15:00.399 So in this 11 months, God had led me to end up selling, I sold one of my businesses, or actually I closed them all, sold one. 00:15:00.480 --> 00:15:01.919 But the way that I sold it was so crazy. 00:15:02.000 --> 00:15:05.440 And this is one of the first times that I ever experienced a miracle of God. 00:15:06.000 --> 00:15:10.559 And maybe I've experienced a lot more miracles, but this one I can actually say I realized it was Him. 00:15:10.639 --> 00:15:15.519 I was working in my cafe, and this guy came to my cafe and he said, Hey, I want to buy this place. 00:15:15.600 --> 00:15:16.720 How do I get you out? 00:15:16.879 --> 00:15:21.840 He had no idea I was going through a divorce, he had no idea that I was about to close the place, anyways, any of it. 00:15:22.080 --> 00:15:24.480 Long story short, we get to the end of the lease. 00:15:24.639 --> 00:15:31.759 He pays me a very amazing amount, sum of money for me to be able to get out of this place that I was actually ending the lease on, anyways. 00:15:31.919 --> 00:15:35.759 And when I asked him, hey, why didn't how why did you buy this place? 00:15:35.840 --> 00:15:38.080 He goes, just consider it a gift from the sky. 00:15:38.799 --> 00:15:47.840 That money I was able to use, and I was able to get a home for me and my children and figure out who Nadine was gonna be. 00:15:48.080 --> 00:15:52.159 And here I am thinking that my creative brain is gonna give me all of these ideas. 00:15:52.320 --> 00:15:53.840 Maybe I needed to go back to corporate. 00:15:53.919 --> 00:15:56.559 Maybe I needed to find another job or start another business. 00:15:56.720 --> 00:15:58.399 Maybe I needed to open up a cafe again. 00:15:58.559 --> 00:15:59.200 I didn't know. 00:15:59.279 --> 00:16:05.440 What God's plan really was is no hun, you're gonna sit down and sit still, and you're gonna learn to rest in me. 00:16:06.000 --> 00:16:16.320 Rest as a woman, we tend to feel horrible for resting, almost as if we're lazy, as we're useless, as like we're doing something wrong by resting. 00:16:16.559 --> 00:16:22.399 And I want to let you guys know that rest in the Lord is the most peaceful rest you will ever experience. 00:16:22.559 --> 00:16:27.519 When he tells you sit down, sit right down, just pop your butt down and just sit down, right? 00:16:27.840 --> 00:16:35.200 When he tells you to come to him, to lean on him, I urge you to answer to that calling. 00:16:35.440 --> 00:16:40.080 Because through that rest is where I was actually able to find real healing. 00:16:40.320 --> 00:16:42.639 It wasn't trying to rush through my pain. 00:16:42.799 --> 00:16:45.600 Yep, I'm so sad today, but gotta get to work, right? 00:16:45.759 --> 00:16:49.279 I've been crying my eyes out, but hi, Nadine's here, right? 00:16:49.360 --> 00:16:52.879 He didn't want that version of me for where he was taking me. 00:16:53.600 --> 00:16:58.240 So for about a year, a little bit of a year, God sat me silent. 00:16:58.399 --> 00:16:59.279 But it was crazy. 00:16:59.440 --> 00:17:10.720 He still had money coming in from different ways, just like Stephanie was telling, saying before, I'm an entrepreneur, so I there's a lot I've learned a lot of tasks because I've been broke starting many of my businesses, so I've learned how to do a lot. 00:17:10.880 --> 00:17:16.240 And so people started to randomly start to hire me for different services when it comes to starting up your business. 00:17:16.400 --> 00:17:24.720 So I was always earning money, and like I told Stephanie last time we saw each other, hey, maybe my bills aren't always on time, but nothing's getting taken away. 00:17:24.960 --> 00:17:27.680 God always shows up at the stroke of midnight, right? 00:17:27.839 --> 00:17:33.039 So as long as he knows that I'm walking faithful in his steps, then he will provide. 00:17:33.359 --> 00:17:39.920 So he was providing during that time, and during that time, somebody had gifted me a real estate course, and I was like, I am not

doing real estate. 00:17:40.000 --> 00:17:40.960 That is not what I want to do. 00:17:41.119 --> 00:17:48.240 Actually, my husband ended up with a woman in real estate, so I was like, there's no way I am getting into this industry in our town or in our city. 00:17:48.480 --> 00:17:49.119 No way. 00:17:49.359 --> 00:17:51.200 And so one of my clients gifted me that course. 00:17:51.279 --> 00:17:53.839 I took a couple units, I said, nope, not for me. 00:17:54.160 --> 00:18:00.799 Then it circled back around, and one of my another client of mine had said, Hey Nadine, I got a business opportunity. 00:18:00.880 --> 00:18:04.000 I want you to be my co-founder, and it's in real estate. 00:18:04.240 --> 00:18:07.119 And I said, Okay, I can't rid myself of this, right? 00:18:07.200 --> 00:18:08.799 I guess I have to show up to the calling. 00:18:08.960 --> 00:18:19.359 So I went ahead, completed the course, passed it on the first time, hallelujah, and I became a real estate agent, not actively selling in the industry, but helping with marketing and business, right? 00:18:20.240 --> 00:18:23.839 And what I came to find out, I have journaled all my life. 00:18:23.920 --> 00:18:29.279 My book, Lemon Seas, is just a combination of all of the journals throughout my life and the things that I've learned through. 00:18:29.519 --> 00:18:37.200 But in 2008, I bought my first house and I had actually wrote in that journal, and it just opened up one day when I was in the process of moving stuff around. 00:18:37.279 --> 00:18:39.680 And I said, maybe one day I'll become a realtor. 00:18:39.839 --> 00:18:45.039 So it's really important that we are mindful of the things that we're saying that we want right now, right? 00:18:45.279 --> 00:18:50.160 Because once they become in agreement with God and what God has for us, those things will come true. 00:18:50.240 --> 00:19:00.480 And if there's something inside of your heart that you're really wanting to work on, really wanting to do, you're really wanting to write that book, you're really wanting to start that business, start praying over that now. 00:19:00.640 --> 00:19:02.480 Start putting that out there now. 00:19:02.640 --> 00:19:10.880 Because just watch, it may not happen next year, it may not happen in five years, but in 15 years, in 12 years, and in 20 years, who knows who you'll be? 00:19:11.039 --> 00:19:13.039 And you already prophesied that over your life. 00:19:13.119 --> 00:19:15.680 You already demanded and called for that in your life. 00:19:16.079 --> 00:19:17.200 That's how God works. 00:19:17.359 --> 00:19:18.880 So now I'm in real estate. 00:19:19.039 --> 00:19:21.759 I coach people all over the world, or I'm sorry, not over the world. 00:19:21.839 --> 00:19:25.599 I could coach people locally and all over the country, like when it comes to social media. 00:19:25.759 --> 00:19:31.519 But I coach people on how to market themselves in real estate, how to attract clients. 00:19:31.680 --> 00:19:35.519 I

have sold homes, I've done all of the things when it comes to real estate. 00:19:35.680 --> 00:19:40.319 But I told God, I said, God, is this all that we have planned for me to sell real estate? 00:19:40.480 --> 00:19:42.319 Is this what you want for me to do? 00:19:42.480 --> 00:19:46.160 And he said, Oh no, child, this is gonna be so much bigger. 00:19:46.400 --> 00:19:56.000 And so during this time of doing these things, like selling my business, surviving the divorce, finding a place to live, paying my own bills. 00:19:56.160 --> 00:19:58.319 I had been with someone since I was 18 years old. 00:19:58.480 --> 00:20:03.279 Here I am now 32 years old, and I had no idea what life by myself looked like. 00:20:03.440 --> 00:20:08.079 But all of these things, God was building up my confidence in who I was. 00:20:09.200 --> 00:20:15.200 That girl who felt discarded, unworthy, unloved, didn't matter. 00:20:15.519 --> 00:20:24.960 God was working on me with the things that he was putting me through, that he was allowing me to step inside of to build and take off those old identities and step into his. 00:20:25.759 --> 00:20:27.839 And so I started to feel more confident. 00:20:28.000 --> 00:20:30.319 He's okay, now I need to use you to use your voice. 00:20:30.480 --> 00:20:35.519 You've talked on stages, you've done all these things where you talk about how much money you can make somebody. 00:20:35.680 --> 00:20:39.039 Now I need you to tell somebody how amazing it is to find me. 00:20:39.920 --> 00:20:43.119 And so that's where I found myself now. 00:20:43.519 --> 00:20:47.279 And the thing is that it all just started with a seed. 00:20:47.519 --> 00:20:49.519 We always hear about the muster seed of faith, right? 00:20:49.599 --> 00:20:51.279 We just need to have a muster seed of faith. 00:20:51.440 --> 00:20:56.880 And I wrote this last night, and I want to make sure that I don't skip over this part because it's just it's so important. 00:20:57.119 --> 00:21:00.240 And what I said is God's math is different than ours. 00:21:00.400 --> 00:21:03.359 When we see loss, he sees preparation. 00:21:03.680 --> 00:21:07.200 When we see endings, he sees multiplication. 00:21:07.440 --> 00:21:11.039 When we see a seed dying, he sees a harvest coming. 00:21:11.200 --> 00:21:22.720 And today I want to show you how God's math works, not just in finances, but in purpose and healing, in influence and impact in the lives of the people we are called to serve. 00:21:23.039 --> 00:21:29.680 In John 12, 24, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone. 00:21:29.920 --> 00:21:32.319 But if it dies, it bears much fruit. 00:21:32.559 --> 00:21:39.279 This verse is a profound statement that Jesus made to express the importance of sacrifice and transformation. 00:21:39.599 --> 00:21:48.720 So are you willing to step outside of your grave, of your old life, of the things that you no longer want to be doing, so you can be truly transformed. 00:21:48.960 --> 00:21:53.680 Being a Christian and following Christ does not call us to be perfect. 00:21:54.160 --> 00:21:59.119 It is calling us to work on ourselves, to become not to be Christ. 00:21:59.200 --> 00:22:03.839 I remember there was a Big part of time where I wouldn't go to church because I felt nobody's gonna like me there. 00:22:03.920 --> 00:22:06.559 I don't know how to walk, how they walk, or talk like they talk. 00:22:06.720 --> 00:22:07.839 I have no place there. 00:22:08.000 --> 00:22:09.440 I was raised Catholic. 00:22:09.599 --> 00:22:10.720 So I was like, nope. 00:22:11.279 --> 00:22:14.240 Until I was like, wait, this is about me and him. 00:22:14.799 --> 00:22:15.440 Right? 00:22:15.920 --> 00:22:24.559 So what I said here was nobody celebrates the seed, everybody celebrates the harvest, but God does his greatest work in the ground. 00:22:24.720 --> 00:22:29.759 I wrote a book called Lemon Seeds, and one of the things I've learned is that every harvest begins with a seed. 00:22:29.920 --> 00:22:32.079 The problem is that seeds look insignificant. 00:22:32.160 --> 00:22:33.839 A seed doesn't look like a tree. 00:22:34.000 --> 00:22:35.759 A seed doesn't look like a forest. 00:22:35.920 --> 00:22:41.039 A seed doesn't look like abundance, it looks small, buried, hidden, forgotten. 00:22:41.279 --> 00:22:45.440 Many of us are praying for multiplication while complaining about the seed. 00:22:45.680 --> 00:22:50.160 We're asking God for influence while ignoring the people right in front of us. 00:22:50.319 --> 00:22:53.759 We're asking God for purpose while refusing to serve who we are. 00:22:54.000 --> 00:22:58.079 We're asking God for abundance while despising small beginnings. 00:22:58.319 --> 00:23:00.000 But God is a God of seeds. 00:23:00.240 --> 00:23:02.400 David was a shepherd before he was a king. 00:23:02.640 --> 00:23:05.119 Esther was an orphan before she was a queen. 00:23:05.279 --> 00:23:08.079 Joseph was in a pit before he was in the palace. 00:23:08.400 --> 00:23:11.519 Jesus spent 30 years preparing for three years of ministry. 00:23:11.680 --> 00:23:13.359 God starts with C's. 00:23:13.599 --> 00:23:17.039 So I want you guys to think of this. 00:23:17.279 --> 00:23:19.359 And I want you guys to think of your story. 00:23:19.599 --> 00:23:23.519 What seed are you looking at right now and thinking it's not big enough? 00:23:24.079 --> 00:23:26.160 I can't do anything with this. 00:23:26.960 --> 00:23:31.039 What is it that you have in your mind that you feel that cannot become? 00:23:31.440 --> 00:23:35.279 That is just going to devastate you and kill you, and you're just going to be done. 00:23:35.440 --> 00:23:37.920 This is one of my greatest thoughts that I had every single morning. 00:23:38.079 --> 00:23:40.559 If I'm alive, then there's still a purpose in why I'm here. 00:23:40.720 --> 00:23:43.359 So therefore, today I need to make it the best day. 00:23:43.680 --> 00:23:52.720 I cannot walk

around my days feeling bad for my situation, feeling worried or confused about why I am where I am right now. 00:23:52.960 --> 00:23:57.200 You're where you are right now because of what a God is going to do for you later. 00:23:57.279 --> 00:23:58.880 And it is your decision. 00:23:59.039 --> 00:24:05.920 It is your will that is going to keep you either in the wilderness for 40 years or in God's graces for the rest of your life. 00:24:06.240 --> 00:24:09.680 So it is going to be what it is that you're willing to do. 00:24:10.079 --> 00:24:11.839 I looked at my situation. 00:24:12.000 --> 00:24:14.160 I had no business opening up another business. 00:24:14.319 --> 00:24:22.000 I had no place of authority or anything of that nature, no finances behind me in order to do what God was calling me to do. 00:24:22.240 --> 00:24:26.880 When God started to call me into ministry, I said, But God, I don't even know your word that well. 00:24:27.039 --> 00:24:27.839 He's great. 00:24:28.000 --> 00:24:29.039 Get into it. 00:24:29.359 --> 00:24:31.200 Start learning who I am. 00:24:31.440 --> 00:24:33.119 Let me speak to you. 00:24:33.839 --> 00:24:36.000 Get into communion with me. 00:24:36.720 --> 00:24:38.880 So it wasn't that I had to be perfect. 00:24:38.960 --> 00:24:40.720 You don't need perfection. 00:24:41.200 --> 00:24:43.839 I will say that over and over again. 00:24:44.319 --> 00:24:50.960 Today, when I was also driving here, I felt, God, I was like, I feel like there's something that you want me to share, and I'm just not getting it. 00:24:51.039 --> 00:24:53.039 And he made me look at my water jug. 00:24:53.119 --> 00:24:54.960 Can you get me my water jug, Stephanie? 00:24:56.319 --> 00:24:59.440 So I bring this water jug everywhere with me, okay? 00:24:59.599 --> 00:25:02.559 So I'll give you guys a little background on my real estate business. 00:25:02.720 --> 00:25:06.480 I work with developments and custom home builders and things. 00:25:06.640 --> 00:25:08.559 I walk into meetings with this cup all the time. 00:25:08.720 --> 00:25:13.119 So people who have loss of wealth, and they're like, Nadine, do you need us to buy you a cup? 00:25:13.359 --> 00:25:16.319 I said, No, my cup is perfect. 00:25:16.559 --> 00:25:18.160 I know I'll hold it like this. 00:25:18.319 --> 00:25:19.920 I'll hold it, it's perfect. 00:25:20.160 --> 00:25:22.240 And this is the problem with our society. 00:25:22.400 --> 00:25:33.200 This is the problem with us is that we will look at something that just has a little bit of a malfunction, a little bit of an imperfection, and we'll say, throw it away. 00:25:33.680 --> 00:25:44.880 But what we don't realize is this cup still holds my water, I can still drink from it, it is still usable, it is still a good cup, so therefore, it is not trash. 00:25:45.759 --> 00:25:47.200 I don't need to replace it. 00:25:47.359 --> 00:25:47.920 I don't. 00:25:48.079 --> 00:25:52.079 I actually can configure it to work in my favor. 00:25:53.599 --> 00:25:53.920 Okay? 00:25:54.640 --> 00:26:03.440 So how many times do you look at yourself and say, I can't do this because I don't know how to talk this way yet? 00:26:03.839 --> 00:26:08.880 I can't show up to this because I don't have the right clothes. 00:26:09.279 --> 00:26:12.319 I can't do this because I don't know. 00:26:12.480 --> 00:26:13.519 I didn't go to school for that. 00:26:13.599 --> 00:26:14.720 I didn't go to school for anything. 00:26:14.799 --> 00:26:16.240 I Googled my way through college. 00:26:16.319 --> 00:26:18.400 Sorry, Lord, by no I sin for cheating. 00:26:18.480 --> 00:26:21.200 But literally, I was not prepared for anything. 00:26:21.440 --> 00:26:27.599 But I just had to believe that if he was calling me to it and it wasn't from my own ego, and you really got to check yourself, right? 00:26:27.839 --> 00:26:30.559 God, am I asking to speak because I want to glorify my story? 00:26:30.720 --> 00:26:32.000 Do I want to glorify you? 00:26:32.160 --> 00:26:33.200 And how am I doing that? 00:26:33.359 --> 00:26:35.039 How am I bringing people closer to you? 00:26:35.200 --> 00:26:37.039 Because my story is no longer about me. 00:26:37.200 --> 00:26:38.640 I can use the testimony. 00:26:38.799 --> 00:26:41.119 I think that's one of the reasons why we love the Bible so much. 00:26:41.279 --> 00:26:45.039 It's because it's testimonies that show us from start to end. 00:26:45.200 --> 00:26:47.119 Listen, I want to know how things end. 00:26:47.200 --> 00:26:47.440 Okay. 00:26:47.519 --> 00:26:49.440 I want to know, hey, God, where am I going here? 00:26:49.599 --> 00:26:52.240 Are we hitting a brick wall or are we going to a promised land? 00:26:52.480 --> 00:26:56.880 So I can read scripture and see it ends in a promised land. 00:26:57.039 --> 00:26:58.640 We're at the top of the mountain. 00:26:58.799 --> 00:27:00.079 But this is good news. 00:27:00.240 --> 00:27:01.599 I'm going to be okay. 00:27:01.839 --> 00:27:08.960 So when I share my testimony, it's not the fact that I lost a child, went through divorce, started my life over and all this stuff. 00:27:09.039 --> 00:27:11.200 It's about what God bought me through. 00:27:11.519 --> 00:27:16.960 I now can use the story of my daughter passing away and help other parents, right? 00:27:17.119 --> 00:27:20.240 I can help other people who know what that feeling is like. 00:27:20.400 --> 00:27:20.640 Right. 00:27:20.720 --> 00:27:21.599 And that was one thing. 00:27:21.680 --> 00:27:28.079 After my daughter passed away, six months after I was sitting on a couch with a woman who had just lost her child. 00:27:28.319 --> 00:27:30.880 And I knew nothing about ministry at that point. 00:27:31.039 --> 00:27:33.359 There was always hints that there was a bigger purpose here. 00:27:33.440 --> 00:27:36.559 And I always used to say, I cannot let her death be for nothing. 00:27:36.720 --> 00:27:38.160 I have to live in honor of her. 00:27:38.319 --> 00:27:40.640 So it

was not my calling to live in depression. 00:27:40.720 --> 00:27:42.799 It was not my calling to live in anger. 00:27:42.960 --> 00:27:44.799 I was not called to be in that. 00:27:44.960 --> 00:27:48.160 I had to rise above it for it to be worth it to me. 00:27:48.319 --> 00:27:53.680 And just like I told Stephanie, my daughter had to die in order for me to be who I am today. 00:27:53.920 --> 00:27:57.519 I had to get divorced in order for me to be who I am today. 00:27:57.680 --> 00:28:00.640 Because if not, God knew she will not live for me. 00:28:00.720 --> 00:28:09.359 She will not give it all to me unless I, and I don't want to make it, she's not a bad God, but unless I take from her and get her focus on me. 00:28:09.839 --> 00:28:12.799 I need to be able for her to focus on me. 00:28:14.160 --> 00:28:16.640 And sometimes that's the hard punch in the stomach. 00:28:16.799 --> 00:28:20.480 Sometimes God took your job because you were idolizing your job. 00:28:20.799 --> 00:28:24.720 God took the relationship because you were putting your husband before God. 00:28:26.400 --> 00:28:30.400 So now it allows us to get in alignment with him and see him. 00:28:30.720 --> 00:28:32.799 My finances make no sense. 00:28:33.039 --> 00:28:33.920 No sense. 00:28:34.160 --> 00:28:46.079 But in God's in the kingdom, I am rich and amazing and so well fed and so well taken care of that I don't even need to worry about what's going in or out of my bank account anymore. 00:28:46.240 --> 00:28:50.640 All I need to do is walk in purpose, walk and do and serve. 00:28:50.799 --> 00:29:00.640 Every morning I wake up, God, allow me to be your servant, your hands and feet, put the people in front of me, highlight them so I know that is who I'm supposed to serve today. 00:29:01.200 --> 00:29:05.599 I don't care if I end many days making no money, God will find a way. 00:29:05.839 --> 00:29:12.960 Just like you said, you have to be so radical in your obedience that when God says to get up and move, you move. 00:29:13.759 --> 00:29:15.119 And don't be scared. 00:29:15.279 --> 00:29:15.920 And guess what? 00:29:16.079 --> 00:29:22.559 What you don't know right now, don't worry, you'll understand later, as long as you're willing to walk the walk. 00:29:23.440 --> 00:29:36.240 In regards to servings, in 2 Corinthians chapter 1, verse 3 to 4, it says, Praise be to God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble. 00:29:36.559 --> 00:29:39.519 So this is where many people misunderstand blessing. 00:29:39.680 --> 00:29:42.240 God blesses you because he loves you. 00:29:42.799 --> 00:29:46.400 But he multiplies you because he loves others too. 00:29:47.119 --> 00:30:00.640 So understand that when those opportunities that come and say, Hey, I want you to speak, or I want you to come and talk to this woman, or hey, I need you here, it is not your job to stop and say, I'm not ready for that. 00:30:01.200 --> 00:30:07.519 I've talked on sages for the last nine years, only in a kingdom setting, probably like the last year. 00:30:07.759 --> 00:30:24.000 But every time myself, my flesh will say, You can't do that, but I know that it's to help all of you in some kind of way, even if it's one sentence, one word, something I've said today has entered into your heart and is going to create your relationship with God to be a little bit deeper. 00:30:24.240 --> 00:30:26.319 If not, then I didn't do my job. 00:30:26.559 --> 00:30:30.480 Everything God gives us is meant to flow through us, not stop with us. 00:30:30.720 --> 00:30:34.160 So remember that as you're going through things, I love Stephanie's story. 00:30:34.400 --> 00:30:36.160 This all just happened six months ago. 00:30:36.319 --> 00:30:41.759 She's still learning, but she's not allowing that to stop her from giving, right? 00:30:42.160 --> 00:30:51.279 The wisdom you gained, the lessons you learned, the healing you fought for, the business you built, the resource you stewarded, the story you survived, it was never just meant for you. 00:30:51.519 --> 00:30:57.839 One of my favorite realizations is this the oil that blesses others comes from something that was crushed. 00:30:58.079 --> 00:31:03.759 Olives must be crushed for oil, grapes must be crushed for wine, seeds must be buried before harvest. 00:31:03.839 --> 00:31:08.240 And many of us spend years asking God, why am I being crushed? 00:31:08.400 --> 00:31:12.400 When the better question is, God, what are you trying to produce through this? 00:31:12.880 --> 00:31:16.720 So in your hard times, ask God, journal, journal. 00:31:16.880 --> 00:31:20.480 Ladies, if you do not have a journal, I highly suggest you pick one up. 00:31:20.640 --> 00:31:21.839 Start writing. 00:31:22.079 --> 00:31:23.119 Write out everything. 00:31:23.279 --> 00:31:24.799 I don't know how to journal how to journal. 00:31:24.960 --> 00:31:26.240 There's no formula to it. 00:31:26.400 --> 00:31:28.960 It does not need to be a five-point essay. 00:31:29.119 --> 00:31:31.440 It's God, today I am mad. 00:31:32.000 --> 00:31:34.400 God, today I need help, right? 00:31:34.559 --> 00:31:41.599 And then over time, your journal entries become this personable dialogue between you and God, and it's just so beautiful. 00:31:41.839 --> 00:31:43.440 So start journaling. 00:31:43.680 --> 00:31:44.480 Just like for me. 00:31:44.640 --> 00:31:46.559 So helping people to find hope is greater. 00:31:46.640 --> 00:31:49.279 Watching my children know Jesus is greater, right? 00:31:49.359 --> 00:31:50.799 It's one of the reasons why I do this. 00:31:50.960 --> 00:31:55.359 My daughter, I was not raised in a place where we needed to honor the Lord. 00:31:55.599 --> 00:32:00.000 My daughter will come to you and she will straight up ask you in your face, Do you know Lord Jesus? 00:32:00.240 --> 00:32:03.680 And if you say no, then let me get and she will talk the gospel. 00:32:03.839 --> 00:32:08.319 She and I won't lie, my flesh at one time was like, I'm in competition with this girl right here. 00:32:08.480 --> 00:32:09.359 She is on it. 00:32:09.519 --> 00:32:10.559 She's teaching me. 00:32:10.720 --> 00:32:12.799 And now I'm just like, no, girl, go do your thing. 00:32:12.960 --> 00:32:15.519 I planted that seed, let it bloom. 00:32:15.680 --> 00:32:19.279 What will your seed do for somebody else to allow it to bloom? 00:32:19.519 --> 00:32:19.839 Okay. 00:32:20.319 --> 00:32:24.400 The greatest multiplication God has done in my life isn't my income, it's my impact. 00:32:24.559 --> 00:32:31.359 It's the way that I'm able to touch other people's lives, whether it's a room of five women, one woman, twenty women, or a thousand women. 00:32:31.599 --> 00:32:45.119 If I could go back to my younger self and speak to her on the one who lost my daughter, went through divorce or financially drowning, who is sleeping in her parents' house wondering if it would ever make sense, I would tell her, hold on, this story isn't over. 00:32:45.279 --> 00:32:54.240 God is not subtracting for you, He's preparing you for multiplication because every seed has a harvest, every crushing has oil, and every surrender has purpose. 00:32:54.400 --> 00:33:02.000 And every person who places their lives in the hands of Jesus Christ will discover that God's math has always been multiplication. 00:33:02.160 --> 00:33:04.319 And I'm gonna leave that word with all of you ladies today. 00:33:04.400 --> 00:33:08.319 I thank you all so much for your attention and let's go become.