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Well, there's a start to the podcast I've never done before, she says sarcastically.
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Hey everybody, and welcome back to my podcast.
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If you are new here, what a welcome.
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Uh, welcome to spirits, witches, and demons.
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Well, today, my friends, my friends, my friends, my friends.
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Have you ever heard me rant before?
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Well, we're going to do a little chatty chat to today.
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And I possibly may rant on a few tangents.
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I don't know.
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I'm just literally feeling like the feels today.
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Is that cringy?
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Is that like two like 2010s?
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Anyway, the point is I have some feelings.
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And first and foremost, I want to have a drink of my energy drink.
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And it is a monster, I forget which one, you know, the white can.
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Anyway, zero sugar.
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Blah blah blah.
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Really boring.
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But it's tasty and keeps me awake.
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So there's that.
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And then I want to get into it.
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Oh, let's get it.
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My moon.
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Okay, so where do I be?
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I'm disappointed.
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I am so fucking disappointed.
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If you don't like cursing, why are you listening to this podcast?
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Number one.
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Um, because I don't think I can get through a fucking episode without F-bombs here and there and everywhere.
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Um, number two, let's shit on AI.
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Wait, okay.
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That's that's a bold statement.
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That's a good statement.
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I mean, considering how much energy, blah, blah, blah.
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We I've talked about this.
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I do use AI.
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I like using for minimal purposes.
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Like to ask a few questions to uh well, I've used it on an image of myself that was taken in night vision, and let me tell you, was not flattering at all in any aspect of anybody's reality.
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So I used AI to see what it would look like if I actually worked out.
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It's quite motivating.
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Let's just say that.
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It was quite motivating.
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I took a snapshot of that picture.
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I hold it in my phone, and every now and then when I want to divulge or um divulge, no, I'm divulging to you my secrets.
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Uh, when I want to binge on like some sweets or bad food for me, I remember, you know what?
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I have a gym membership and I should use it because oh my god, I don't feel like I I don't feel like I look the way I think I look in my brain.
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Just oh my god, does that make sense to anybody?
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This is not about weight, this whole like podcast.
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I do not talk about appearance and weight and all that stuff.
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That that I'll leave that for the health people, but let's face it, it's an every person's kind of thing, right?
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And it's a me thing, honestly, and I've struggled with it my whole life.
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It's one of my hugest insecurities.
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Um, I have a lot of them, a lot of insecurities.
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And um, wait, how my body looks is a big one.
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It's not what I'm here to talk about today.
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That's not the focus.
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I'm not gonna go on and on and on about this topic.
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I'm not.
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But I do want to just put it out there because it's just on my brain.
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This is what this episode is.
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I'm just literally going to vomit, word vomit, just all my feels right now.
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Because this is why I made this podcast.
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I made it to document my past experiences so I would never forget them.
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I am 50 years old, good, getting to 51.
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So my memory may start to go, you know, as I get older, and I want to remember this shit, man.
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I really want to remember it.
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So that's what made this podcast.
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It wasn't so I can gain followers and gain notoriety and gain famous, whatever status.
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I really, I mean, if that comes, fucking cool.
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But that's not why I'm doing it.
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I'm doing it because this is my outlet.
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This is how I like release what's inside me.
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Oh, that sounded weird, but release my my feelings, my thoughts, my my spiritual journey, like just talk about it because although I do have friends, I have joked before that I have no friends, but I do, I have a social life, I have friends.
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Um, but sometimes you can't talk like this to your friends, right?
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You can't there's
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certain things you just you not only keep to yourself, it's not that you bottle it up in a negative way, but sometimes your friends are going through their own shit.
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And it's not that you want to like burden them with things, but sometimes somebody just doesn't get exactly how you feel and why you feel it.
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And that's cool.
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I mean, that's okay, that's human.
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Like, let's not belittle somebody else's understanding or or how they how they comprehend what we're feeling.
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Because not everybody can understand how we feel because they're not us.
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Full stop.
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They're not us.
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They don't get it.
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But where was I going?
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See, this is gonna be a ch this is gonna be a fucking ride, guys.
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This is gonna be a fucking ride.
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Because, like I said at the beginning, I got my feels.
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Where the fuck is the moon today?
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I have to I have to look.
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This is currently 6 45 p.m.
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on Saturday, uh October.
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No, we're not in October yet.
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I am totally skipping ahead a month.
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Uh September uh 12th.
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So what is moon phase right now?
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That's exactly what I want to know.
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What are we doing right now?
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We are in a waxing crescent, uh about 1% to 3% illumination, so it's pretty dark outside tonight, I would guess, if we have any actual clear skies.
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I don't know if we will.
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I haven't really looked.
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Uh it's going okay, so it's growing towards a first quarter.
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The next major phase is first quarter on May uh May.
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Oh my goodness! I do not want to be in September, obviously.
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What the fuck is going on, guys?
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First October, now May?
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Hmm.
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I wonder what that's about.
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I guess we'll discover it together as I continue to tangent and and just release all this, right?
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This might be a very interesting episode, let me tell you.
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Get your drink now.
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Pause.
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Pause, go get a snack, go get a drink.
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You may want something a little spicy today, um, because I have no fucking idea where this train is going.
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Cheers.
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Okay.
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So the moon sign is in Libra.
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Alright.
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Good to know, good to know.
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Uh, it's not a full moon tonight if I just looked up the phone.
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Okay, Google.
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Whatever.
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Um, when no.
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Oh, see, I said that word, and then my phone went and pinged for the AI to for me to ask a question.
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Oh blah blah blah.
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I am having some troubles with my words.
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My tongue?
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Sheepy tied.
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Okay, when Virgo in Scorpio.
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Because I heard Virgo's going in Scorpio, and boy, that does not sound good.
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Virgo's very particular, you know, like they like things neat and clean and tidy and almost OCD-like.
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And Scorpios, uh myself, we're a little chaotic and a little fiery, and a little fucking we'll stab you in the back once we're done with ya.
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We don't fucking care.
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We'll walk away.
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Okay, so let's see.
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What is it?
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What's it say?
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Since Virgo and Scorpio are two completely different zodiac signs, one sign cannot physically Oh, that's not what I'm saying.
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You don't get it.
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Okay, Venus is in Scorpio right now.
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That's probably what I was and Mercury will be in Scorpio on September 30th.
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Oh, this is why I am not liking September.
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Number one, my uh to have Venus and Scorpio, my Venus is actually in Libra, which I like a balanced relationship.
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I do not have a relationship right now because nobody can suit and equal me in any way.
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So, and Libras are pretty like they're passionate people.
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Any Libras out there, like that sign, I thought Scorpios were passionate, but no fuck, man.
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I am glad my Libra is in Venus, or my Venus is in Libra, however you want to say that, uh, because it's a little fiery in in the passion department.
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Like when I get in a relationship, it's like it's good.
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It's good, it's good.
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But I can't find that fucking relationship because nobody will meet that expectation I have.
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And that's an internal anyway.
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That's not well that's not why we're here.
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Oh my god.
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This is gonna be a ride, like I said.
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I uh I don't know.
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Should I laugh or should I cry?
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Okay, yeah, that's totally not what I was looking at.
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Uh spirit, but and Google.
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I didn't want to say that too loud.
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My phone might hear me again.
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Okay, so what do I want to talk about, guys?
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Well, there is one thing I want to bring to light right now.
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Oh, and I'm so disappointed.
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I'm so disappointed, and I know you guys are gonna be so disappointed too.
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If you've already seen it, you know what I'm gonna say.
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Oh my god.
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I can't believe I was bamboozled.
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I was bamboozled.
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That story last week that totally creeped the fuck out of me.
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Apparently, apparently was AI generated.
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The user was uh suspended off Reddit and the story was taken down.
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I am in shock.
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I went back to look to see what other comments were there, to see if there was any updates, you know, to give you guys an update on it.
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I found that it was taken down and the user was suspended, and I was like, what the fuck?
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And then I see a comment under mine, the only other comment there.
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My comments there, where I said I was like, I loved it, blah blah blah.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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I won't be commenting anymore, I'll tell you that.
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I look like a fucking fool.
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And anyway, the only comment under it is AI slop.
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And I'm like, oh fuck, I was fooled.
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I was fooled, and I feel such a fool.
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Such a fool.
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But AI is so good, right?
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The videos, the pictures, the content, it's like, how can you tell when something is real?
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Now, I think maybe I'm alone in this.
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Maybe I'm alone in this, maybe I'm just naive, maybe I just live under a rock.
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I don't know, guys.
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I don't know.
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But here's here's my take on it.
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This is gonna be a hot take.
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If you have to put enough trust in other people to trust that they're not putting out nefarious bullshit, and
I know, okay, don't come for me.
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I know that that trust doesn't exist because those people out there are glad to put that shit out there, okay?
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I get it.
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I get it, but my heart, my heart just wants to believe that there's truth behind people just putting out good content.
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That's true.
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And uh I I can't apologize for wanting to believe that people can be truthful.
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And I feel like shit for believing that story.
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Okay, so that story was fucking amazing.
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No wonder it was amazing.
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Some robot wrote it.
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I mean, my retelling of it was pretty cool, I have to say.
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It was pretty cool.
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But but it wasn't written by a human, and that destroyed me today.
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It destroyed me, and it made me think, what else is out there that is destroying people and destroying your heart or making you not want to leave comments, not want to do um involvement, not want to have involvement in things.
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And so I thought about that deeply all throughout today.
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I was at I had to take my dogs to the groomer today.
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This it's been a busy day.
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No wonder I'm having more caffeine.
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But I had to take the dogs to the groomer, and while they were at the groomer, I went to a market, I set up, I sat there for I don't know, 9 30 till 1 30.
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So that's what four hours, tore down, went back, picked my dogs up, came home.
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By the time I got home, I'm yawning just thinking about it.
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Hold on, I have a drink.
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I wish this drink was a drink, if you know what I mean.
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Anyway, by the time I got home, I hadn't eaten besides a scone my uh good friend brought me, which was such a lovely treat.
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Thank you if you're listening.
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I don't know if you listen, but thank you.
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It was a lovely treat and delicious.
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Anyway, I had a scone at the market, but then that was all I ate today.
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I had coffee.
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Oh, I had coffee, but I hadn't eaten.
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So when I got home, I was ravenous and I needed protein.
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So I had some bacon, I had some leftover sausage from dinner like two nights ago, and then I had put on some eggs and some protein toast, and I was like, protein overload, I need protein, and my dogs helped me consume what I could not eat, and we vegged in front of the YouTube's for like um two hours maybe, and then I was like, oh, I gotta go to Walmart.
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I don't want to go to Walmart.
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But I had to go because you know Walmart's the fucking one-stop shop, and I didn't feel like going to 15 stores, and I had to get like multiple different things, something for my car, something for my body, something as a gift for a child, something else.
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So with all those things needing to be sought, I thought, fuck, I gotta go to Walmart.
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Ugh.
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So I got myself up, put my shoes back on, went back out.
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Walmart's 15 minutes from my house, so it's not too bad.
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I went to Walmart, got the shit, and I took my time through Walmart because freaking renovating the store like sh like crazy renovating, and everything is switched out.
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What is it with is it like the year of the uh the interior store renovation switch out?
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Because Michael's our Michael's store here, Michaels Canada, they did the same thing.
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The whole store got like flipped around and shit.
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Anyway, I guess it it does refresh the look of the interior.
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The Walmart's getting an exterior look too, but it does refresh it and kind of make it feel like you're in a new store.
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Anyway.
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Long story short, I went to Walmart.
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And now I'm yawning, sitting here, ranting with y'all.
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Y'all?
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Is that how you use that?
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I don't know.
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You can clearly tell.
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I, me, do not know.
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I don't know a lot of things.
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But here's what I do know.
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Is anyone else out there sick and tired?
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Like, I mean, truly, truly deep in your soul, sick and fucking tired, of opening up your Facebook feed and seeing a post that generally, genuinely, not generally, genuinely, um, you're interested in seeing what honest or truthful or helpful comments might be on that topic.
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It could be anything like, okay, there's something bad that happened here.
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There was a home invasion and some shooting.
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Okay.
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And yeah, I live in a small place, and yes, that shit happens.
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Not often, but it does.
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Anyway, so there was heavy police presence presence in the area.
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Um, and I was at the market, I was
bored as fuck because it was dead as hell.
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And not the dead, I kind of like.
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I like the spiritual dead, not the no customers dead, right?
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And anyway, so I'm scrolling on my phone, I'm looking at Facebook, and I see a post about this shooting.
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And then um we had gotten, I think, two emergency alerts, one for the morning shooting, and then one for an afternoon shooting, you know, just to spice it up.
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It's been a day here, it's been a day.
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Anyway, I'm looking at the first uh uh uh what was I saying?
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A post.
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Post about the first, and there were fucking comments on there that I'm telling you are not helpful, not productive, complete troll bullshit that really make me so pissed off.
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Like, am I alone in this?
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Am I alone here when I see okay.
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Oh my goodness, I'm getting into it now, and I'm sorry if any of my friends are out there that actually listen to my podcast, and I don't think there are, although, no, I shouldn't say that.
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I know there's at least one friend, maybe two, that do listen.
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This is not about you guys.
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I do have friends that I know that I really adore and think highly of that post shit on Facebook that I think, what the fuck goes through your head?
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Like, honestly, like what is wrong with you?
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It's not because okay, it's not because there's something wrong with them.
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It's not because they have an ill view of the world, it's not because of anything.
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It's they are passionately upset about XYZ, could be the shootings, could be some dirt bag on on the side of the road, could be a homeless guy.
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I don't know.
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I don't know.
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Um I'm not being specific to the post here.
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They are passionately upset about whatever it is, and they use that passion and they have a voice and they put their voice out there.
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Now, lo and behold, you can put your voice out there.
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It's a free world.
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Go ahead.
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Go ahead.
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But I'm talking about my feelings on it.
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I personally, when I look at it, I'm like, oh my god.
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Like, it doesn't affect how I think of that person.
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Like if I were to see them, I would still want to be their friend, but it does affect how I feel about them.
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And in the moment, I'm not feeling great.
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You know?
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I'm thinking, you are so deeply wounded.
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Deeply.
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Like, not okay.
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Oh my god, I'm not getting this across.
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Um this isn't not going the way I wanted it to.
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Oh.
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Okay.
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What I mean is that when I look at a post like that, I'm not thinking in a judgmental way on that person.
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I could know them or not know them.
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Let's take the fringe out of it.
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I can know them or not know them.
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I'm not judging them on their words.
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I'm judging their words and how they're using it and how I feel about it.
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It's not about them, it's about me.
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Does that make sense?
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Like, it's how I feel about it.
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So then I ask myself why I feel that way.
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Because you can't change the other person.
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That's on them.
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That's not on me.
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And I completely support and agree that everybody has the right to say whatever they want.
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If I don't like it, I don't have to look at it.
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And that's the truth.
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So I don't.
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For the most part, I don't.
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I literally, for example, today when I got upset and just a little peeved actually, looking at those reactions to a post, I actually just turned it off.
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Like I literally scrolled off of it because I don't need that energy.
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And that's, I think, where I'm going with this.
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Because for the most part, the energy behind the post is negative.
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The words are hurtful, or the words are spiteful, vengeful.
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They can sometimes maybe not the right sentiment that I know that the person maybe wants to share.
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And there have been times that for certain people I've actually called it out.
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And I'm not perfect.
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Oh my god, I am not perfect.
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Nine times out of ten, I will not comment on anything because I know I will go off.
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I know I I will say something, I will post something in the heat of the moment through the passion, the energy, the the feelings, because being a water sign, I and a fiery redhead, hello, I can be a little tactless.
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And I know that.
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So I keep my fingers off the keyboard because there are certain situations that I really don't agree with, but I'm not going to put my energy into the supporting the other negative energy that's out there.
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That's not what I'm meant to do.
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I'm meant to build up the positive energy.
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So when I've been talking to people who Js they are not the source of the negative energy, but they thrive on it.
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Or they they add to it in a way that I think not that they enjoy it, but I think it gives them a boost in some way.
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And I don't understand what way.
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I can't get into that right now because I don't understand it.
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But I will ask them to clarify what they mean.
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I'm not going to judge them for it.
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Never.
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That that's their opinion, and they're simply entitled to it.
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But I'm going to ask them to clarify.
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What did you mean by that?
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Or I might ask them uh a more direct question to see exactly how they feel about the true situation.
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If I don't understand the situation, what if I'd never heard of it before?
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And I don't have an opinion because I've never heard of it.
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Like I had a friend ask me before I was actually like fully aware of what was going on in the Middle East, for example, between Israel and I don't know.
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You know what I mean.
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Iran, I think.
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Anyway, uh they asked me my opinion on one of the countries.
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I can't even remember which one.
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And this was months and months and months and months and months ago.
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And my answer was, what do you mean?
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I have no opinion on that country.
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I don't live there.
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I don't have people there.
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It's not that I don't care, but I don't have an opinion on support or no no support yet because I don't know anything.
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And I can't just have an opinion because my friend has an opinion.
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That's not how I work.
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I want to understand what's going on and I want to formulate my own opinion.
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Um, and I think that's healthy, but what I don't think is healthy is jumping on bandwagons and joining in on the heat of the moment when it's posted on a social media platform, regardless of what platform
that is.
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So that was a long-winded fucking thing about why I don't post on social media.
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But it's the truth.
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It is the truth.
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Um, further to social media though, let's let's pivot a little bit.
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Pivot?
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Does anybody know that reference?
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I hope you do.
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I hope I'm not that old, and I hope it's not that old.
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You should know that reference.
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Comment if you knew that reference where it was from.
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Okay, so pivoting to other areas of social media that I'm just not a fan.
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I'm not not not a fan.
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And that is the overwhelming amount of information that is what is the word I want to use?
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Um, not informative.
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It's n there I mean there are pieces that are.
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That's that's just gonna confuse this the point I'm trying to make.
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But there are pieces uh and content on social media that not that it's oh my god, what's the word on I don't know.
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Let's let's talk it through.
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Okay, so let me give you an example.
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Maybe I'll come up with the actual true words and the analogy.
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Um, so I saw a Facebook post on not Facebook, maybe it was TikTok, Instagram, anyway.
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I saw a social media post and it was about witchcraft, paganism, I think.
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But anyway, it was about witchcraft.
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And I was watching the the reel.
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It was a short, like a reel, and it was pretty good.
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I I I was enjoying it.
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To me, personally, if I feel like something resonates with me, like I feel a connection with it, and I'm using intuition here a lot, guys.
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A lot.
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It's not that I'm like researching right then and there, is this true?
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Is this person being factual and relevant and blah blah blah blah blah?
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Do they cross their T's, dot their I's, did they get everything correct?
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No, I'll do that later if I actually apply what they're saying.
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I'll do my research.
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But if something feels like I feel a connection with it, if it feels good to me, like it.
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Regardless of what source it came from.
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If I feel good about it, like, and I I've been said, it's been said many, many, many times, and not just not by me, by other people, that my intuition is like really fucking good.
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Just gut intuition.
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Gut intuition.
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Like to meet somebody and know immediately, I like you or I don't.
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Period.
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Full stop.
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Period.
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Actually, let me go there for a second.
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See, I told you I was gonna be jumping around.
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This was gonna be a fucking ride, so I hope you're holding on.
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So I know this person, this there's one person I know that when I oh my heart hurt for a second.
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I hope none of you are having any chest problems or heart problems out there.
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Heartache.
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Did you break up with somebody?
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Oh.
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Anyway, I hope not.
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But if so, I'm feeling it.
00:27:08.799 --> 00:27:19.359
Anyway, um saying, yes, I I I started in this organization and I meet this person that's leading the organization, okay?
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And the only association that they would have with me is to tell me when this organization was meeting and what the payment is to be there.
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Okay, okay, no problem.
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Very minimal dealings as far as like face-to-face interactions or like long conversations or anything, very minimal with that, and I was okay with that because the energy from this person was extremely, extremely negative.
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Like there were moments of hostility almost, and not towards me, just in general, just a general energy, and I'm not about that energy at all.
00:28:03.680 --> 00:28:07.920
So, first initial instinct was I don't like you.
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I don't there's something about you I don't like, and I trust my gut.
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I trust my gut.
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So I kept going to this organization, to the meetups and stuff, and I interacting and pleasantries and everything, but every time, oh, see the heart maybe it's that person.
00:28:30.079 --> 00:28:43.680
Um every time this person would um we would interact and we would have a longer conversation, and they would talk about like negative things, like how's a good what's a good example?
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They would uh say something like, Well, this is not um oh my god, what's a good example?
00:28:52.160 --> 00:28:58.640
This organization, this meeting is not going well because other people are also having meetings at the same time.
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Excuse me, how how how does that work?
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I don't understand.
00:29:03.440 --> 00:29:06.720
There's
plenty of people in our society to go to all the meetings.
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Like there's a hundred and some thousand people that live in our area.
00:29:12.000 --> 00:29:20.480
So if there was ten meetings happening at the same time and they were open to all people, then people would have choices, right?
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And they would go to the ones they want to go to.
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So I didn't understand why other people having meetings was a problem for us having them.
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Does that make sense to anybody?
00:29:33.440 --> 00:29:36.400
Is my explanation like totally fucked up?
00:29:36.640 --> 00:29:44.319
Anyway, they were like, yeah, but I was the first one to be holding meetings, so and this conversation actually happened today.
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So it's very fresh in my mind.
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It's probably why it's come into my mind.
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And I said, Yeah, but you're not the only one that can hold meetings.
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You're not entitled to be the only one that holds me.
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We need to share.
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Like anybody can anybody can do that, and that's okay.
00:30:00.640 --> 00:30:08.720
Like, we don't need to be, you know, the only one and entitled to that space, right?
00:30:08.960 --> 00:30:20.640
So they were they were very like, yeah, yeah, but but but so there was a very not a host not hostile today, but very like blocked off energy, not willing to see that.
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And I don't know if it's narcissism, entitlement, or what, but I'm not there for it.
00:30:26.960 --> 00:30:28.559
It's just not the energy for me.
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It might be the energy for them, but that's that's on them.
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It's not my energy.
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And to be frank, I don't think I'll be revisiting that energy anymore.
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And it's not just for that.
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Oh my god.
00:30:40.400 --> 00:30:44.880
That sip, pardon me, that sip got stuck in my throat.
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I'm sorry if you guys heard that.
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I'll try to take it out.
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I will take it out if I can.
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I'll do my whole magic thing.
00:30:52.480 --> 00:30:56.480
Anyway, the blue blue thing, that's the technical term for editing, guys.
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That's the technical term.
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Okay, so the next thing I've I've briefly talked about this, I think, in a previous episode, and that was anything to do with pagan witchcraft, the alternative to Christianity, lifestyle.
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What the fuck is wrong with people out there?
00:31:18.160 --> 00:31:24.640
Like, honestly, and I oh, I know I've talked about this before because it really does fucking drive me baddie.
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I mean really baddy.
00:31:26.400 --> 00:31:42.640
Because I never felt this way about anybody in this, like, before I was even before I embraced my Celtic heritage, before I returned and started to understand my the pagan uh lifestyle, I never judged it.
00:31:42.880 --> 00:31:43.839
Never once.
00:31:44.079 --> 00:31:49.839
I don't judge Christians, I judge the actual church.
00:31:50.079 --> 00:31:52.480
I don't judge the people who worship it.
00:31:52.640 --> 00:31:54.160
They can do whatever they want.
00:31:54.319 --> 00:31:59.440
They can worship God, they can worship multiple gods, they can worship Jesus, they can worship Satan.
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I really don't care.
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As long as they are good fucking people who do right by those around them.
00:32:08.559 --> 00:32:20.240
They as long as they are not harming people, harming animals, as long as they are good, good humans, by all means do whatever the fuck you want.
00:32:20.559 --> 00:32:24.319
Worship in all the different religions if you want.
00:32:24.480 --> 00:32:31.759
At the same time, have like deities and have a god and have a Buddha and have all the things.
00:32:31.920 --> 00:32:34.559
I don't know what all the things are, that's why I stopped at that.
00:32:34.880 --> 00:32:37.440
But you can do whatever.
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That is the glorious thing about being a human being, living a spiritual nope, that's that's that's wrong, that's the wrong way of saying that.
00:32:48.559 --> 00:32:49.440
Let's go back.
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Okay.
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That's the joy and the honor of being a spiritual being, living a human experience.
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That's just it.
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We get to have these choices, we get to do these things, and we should never feel bad about it.
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We should never be judged for it.
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But still, always to this day.
00:33:12.720 --> 00:33:15.680
Currently, there is a witch trial happening.
00:33:15.839 --> 00:33:16.960
Do you guys know about this?
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Do you know about the witch trial happening in I think it's in Pennsylvania?
00:33:22.240 --> 00:33:23.680
Let me just double check on that.
00:33:23.920 --> 00:33:25.759
Oh, where's my you know what?
00:33:25.920 --> 00:33:28.880
I I hate to say the word out loud, it's like the A word.
00:33:29.279 --> 00:33:29.599
Okay.
00:33:30.079 --> 00:33:34.480
Google uh witch trial, Pennsylvania.
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Oh yeah, 2026.
00:33:36.319 --> 00:33:36.960
Here it is.
00:33:37.200 --> 00:33:45.920
Okay, so there is a current witch trial going on um in Pennsylvania.
00:33:46.240 --> 00:33:48.000
It is a lawsuit.
00:33:48.559 --> 00:33:54.559
Um, I've been following the girl on TikTok or or Instagram, one of them.
00:33:54.799 --> 00:33:56.400
I think it's Instagram actually.
00:33:56.480 --> 00:33:57.759
I've been seeing her.
00:33:58.079 --> 00:34:12.559
And it started because there is from 1684, still in Pennsylvania and I think some other states as well, that fortune telling is illegal.
00:34:12.800 --> 00:34:22.639
To gain um uh like to to have somebody pay for having their cards read, having a fortune told, is illegal.
00:34:22.960 --> 00:34:28.239
And yeah, that that to me is absolutely ludicrous.
00:34:28.480 --> 00:34:29.760
Like, where are we?
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Are we back in the 1600s?
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Are we back in the 1400s?
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Are I know that there's still witch trials, witch hunts in um Africa?
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I think there are today.
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Witch hunts and witchcraft accusations remain a serious human rights crisis in parts of modern sub um Saran Sar I think I said that right.
00:34:56.480 --> 00:34:57.599
Saharan?
00:34:57.760 --> 00:34:58.719
Saharan.
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Um so the target is vulnerable groups of elderly, widows, single women, children, and people with disabil disabilities.
00:35:08.000 --> 00:35:12.239
The scapegoating acquisitions acquis accusations.
00:35:12.400 --> 00:35:13.920
Oh my god, acquisitions.
00:35:14.079 --> 00:35:14.960
What the fuck?
00:35:15.119 --> 00:35:18.400
Yeah, we're gonna acquire a witch today.
00:35:18.639 --> 00:35:26.159
I'm telling you, some days, some days, my tongue can tie around a fucking tree.
00:35:26.320 --> 00:35:28.320
Oh my goodness, the way it gets tied.
00:35:28.559 --> 00:35:28.880
Okay.
00:35:29.519 --> 00:35:37.840
Accusations spike during personal or communal hardships, like illnesses, financial problems, crop failures, or deaths.
00:35:38.079 --> 00:35:45.760
In other words, the same fucking shit they've used for thousands of a thousand years or more.
00:35:46.079 --> 00:35:52.000
Mob attacks, which refugee camps in Ghana and Tanzania.
00:35:52.320 --> 00:35:53.119
My god.
00:35:53.679 --> 00:35:55.599
Trial by ordeal.
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So I won't be traveling to Africa.
00:35:59.519 --> 00:36:02.320
No, I knew I didn't want to go to Africa for a reason.
00:36:02.559 --> 00:36:03.599
What the fuck?
00:36:03.840 --> 00:36:04.960
Okay, prevalence.
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High prevalence is reported in nations like Nigeria, South Africa, Tanzania, the Dem Democratic Republic of Congo, and Malawai.
00:36:16.639 --> 00:36:18.480
I think I said that country, right?
00:36:18.719 --> 00:36:36.400
Uh, cultural and religious factors deeply rooted in traditional beliefs interact with messaging from some fringe or prosperity, gospel religions, of course, of course it does, that reinforce reinforce occult fears.
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Activism, human rights defenders such as Dr.
00:36:39.920 --> 00:36:45.119
Leo Igwi, Igwi, I think is how you pronounce that.
00:36:45.360 --> 00:36:59.599
And groups like advocacy for alleged witches, well, there's a thing, work to intervene in active mobs, educate local populations, and push for stricter legal enforcement.
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Oh my god, I can't believe it's still a thing, guys.
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They're still hunting witches in this world.
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Like it's we're not past it, okay?
00:37:08.239 --> 00:37:12.320
This Salem trial 1692, that wasn't the end of it.
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That wasn't the end of it.
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People are still even though being a witch, being spiritual, doing spooky shit is cool these days, you can totally tell when somebody is faking.
00:37:24.880 --> 00:37:27.360
That's why I really go for my intuition.
00:37:27.440 --> 00:37:29.840
When somebody says, okay, here's something.
00:37:30.000 --> 00:37:48.559
When somebody says you have to do X, Y, Z absolutely perfectly in order to qualify to be a witch, or in order to be uh to prove that you are pagan, or to prove that you are worthy of a deity?
00:37:48.800 --> 00:37:49.679
Fuck you.
00:37:49.920 --> 00:37:50.960
Who are you?
00:37:51.280 --> 00:38:01.280
I live my life as true to me as I can be, and I live it as true to being a pagan witch as I can be.
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Does that mean I make mistakes?
00:38:03.360 --> 00:38:05.199
Fuck yeah! I'm learning.
00:38:05.360 --> 00:38:06.719
Of course I make mistakes.
00:38:06.960 --> 00:38:08.239
Does that mean I know it all?
00:38:08.400 --> 00:38:09.920
Hell no I don't.
00:38:10.079 --> 00:38:10.960
Oh my god.
00:38:11.119 --> 00:38:15.519
If I knew it all, I'd be fucking dead already because that's how long I think it's gonna take me.
00:38:15.679 --> 00:38:18.639
I think it's gonna take me multiple lifetimes to know it all.
00:38:18.800 --> 00:38:21.920
I've been a witch every lifetime and I still don't know it all, guys.
00:38:22.159 --> 00:38:22.880
Totally don't.
00:38:23.039 --> 00:38:24.239
But am I powerful?
00:38:24.400 --> 00:38:24.800
Yes.
00:38:25.039 --> 00:38:26.159
Oh fuck yes.
00:38:26.400 --> 00:38:27.280
My spells?
00:38:27.440 --> 00:38:28.320
I had a spell.
00:38:28.480 --> 00:38:39.840
I don't know if I told you this before, but I had I carry a protection spell be it well, I deal with a lot of things, so I carry protection with me at all times.
00:38:40.000 --> 00:38:42.320
And not in the fun form, how I wish.
00:38:42.480 --> 00:38:44.079
Anyway, that's a side note.
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I need a drink.
00:38:45.360 --> 00:38:49.840
Okay, but I carry a spell jar protection with me.
00:38:49.920 --> 00:38:54.639
And I had one on my keychain forever, like months and months and months.
00:38:54.960 --> 00:38:59.360
And I drop my cell phone every fucking day multiple times a day.
00:38:59.519 --> 00:39:02.000
Is there a big case on it?
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Uh like uh an auto case or whatever it's called, otter box or whatever.
00:39:06.880 --> 00:39:11.840
No, no, it's just a
regular flimsy Amazon case or Timu case.
00:39:12.000 --> 00:39:14.559
Still drop it multiple times a day.
00:39:14.800 --> 00:39:16.639
Hasn't broken yet, knock on wood.
00:39:16.800 --> 00:39:19.360
I don't have any wood, but oh, here's wood.
00:39:19.519 --> 00:39:20.559
There we go.
00:39:20.800 --> 00:39:23.599
Um luckily hasn't broken.
00:39:23.760 --> 00:39:31.840
Drop my keys with the spell jar, glass spell jar on it on it with my cell phone multiple times a day.
00:39:32.079 --> 00:39:32.880
Constantly.
00:39:33.039 --> 00:39:35.039
I am a clumsy fuck, okay?
00:39:35.280 --> 00:39:36.159
Clumsy.
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And my hands, I probably this would never come up because why would it?
00:39:42.559 --> 00:39:56.800
But I used to make beat at jewelry when I like when I was in my 30s, and now my hands have like dots of arthritis on them, and sometimes I get really crampy, and anyway, medical shit.
00:39:56.960 --> 00:40:01.679
I know we're not here for that, but with carpal tunnel too, sometimes I get numb.
00:40:01.920 --> 00:40:03.840
So sometimes I'm droppy, okay?
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Sometimes I'm droppy.
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Forgive me.
00:40:05.920 --> 00:40:07.119
Don't judge me, okay?
00:40:07.280 --> 00:40:07.920
Don't judge me.
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We're not here to judge anybody, right?
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But I dropped the shit.
00:40:11.679 --> 00:40:13.599
Anyway, anyway, anyway.
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I I did say last week I was gonna stop using that word, right?
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I gotta find another word.
00:40:18.639 --> 00:40:20.079
I do gotta find another word.
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I don't know what that word's gonna be.
00:40:21.599 --> 00:40:22.639
Olive oil.
00:40:23.199 --> 00:40:26.159
I'm looking at olive oil, so that's what it's gonna be right now.
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Olive oil.
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Um, I swear I am not crazy.
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I am not.
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Um, my mother had me test it.
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Okay.
00:40:34.639 --> 00:40:36.800
Make a note if you know what that reference is from.
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Olive oil.
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I don't know what I was talking about.
00:40:38.960 --> 00:40:40.800
I totally ADHD'd there.
00:40:40.960 --> 00:40:43.519
Did anybody else see me go like totally off the rails?
00:40:43.599 --> 00:40:47.519
This train went shoot right off the rails.
00:40:47.840 --> 00:40:50.800
Oh my god, what was I talking about?
00:40:51.039 --> 00:40:53.360
You guys are all screaming at the top of your lungs.
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I can hear you.
00:40:54.400 --> 00:40:58.719
You were talking about this! Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god.
00:40:58.960 --> 00:41:00.320
I wish I could hear you.
00:41:00.559 --> 00:41:06.960
Um, okay, so I was talking about something I never told you about.
00:41:07.199 --> 00:41:09.840
My
hands, the drop- Oh, the spell jar.
00:41:10.079 --> 00:41:11.280
I get back there.
00:41:11.519 --> 00:41:12.719
Spirit led me back.
00:41:12.800 --> 00:41:14.079
Thank you, spirit.
00:41:14.400 --> 00:41:17.599
Okay, so I dropped olive jar.
00:41:17.679 --> 00:41:19.039
I olive oil.
00:41:19.360 --> 00:41:27.840
I dropped the spirit the spell jar bit quite a bit, quite a bit, quite a bit, um, over the course of its lifetime, right?
00:41:28.559 --> 00:41:42.480
And I one day was had some people in my vehicle, and we were driving to uh a museum, local museum, and I always put my keys in the center console.
00:41:42.719 --> 00:41:49.119
So I have a vehicle that has like a little resting spot for like sunglasses or a cell phone or keys.
00:41:49.360 --> 00:41:53.280
So I put my keys there all the time, and I just set them down.
00:41:53.360 --> 00:41:55.760
I don't plop them down, I set them down there.
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They're all good.
00:41:56.800 --> 00:41:59.679
They sit there, they don't move, blah, blah, blah.
00:42:00.000 --> 00:42:03.679
And we drive the hour to this museum.
00:42:03.920 --> 00:42:05.199
Beautiful museum, by the way.
00:42:05.280 --> 00:42:06.960
If you're ever in the area, lovely.
00:42:07.199 --> 00:42:09.360
You'll have to just contact me to know which one.
00:42:09.840 --> 00:42:11.360
I hold secrets.
00:42:11.599 --> 00:42:20.320
Um, so we get to this museum, and I tell them, okay, the bathrooms are over here, and I'm gonna go inside and get you all set up and blah, blah, blah.
00:42:20.559 --> 00:42:38.400
And I go to get my keys, reach down to get my keys, and the spell jar, which was fully intact when I laid the keys there, was now completely broken in half, severed in the middle of the jar, not at the bottom, not at the top, severed in the middle, and all the contents were spilled out in the holder.
00:42:38.639 --> 00:42:40.320
How the fuck did that happen?
00:42:40.480 --> 00:42:40.880
How?
00:42:41.119 --> 00:42:42.079
How did it happen?
00:42:42.239 --> 00:42:46.239
None of there was five of us, four or five of us in the vehicle.
00:42:46.400 --> 00:42:48.239
None of us heard a jar break.
00:42:48.400 --> 00:42:52.320
We all were sitting there going, how the heck did that happen?
00:42:52.559 --> 00:43:00.400
Now, I will tell you that on our way to this museum, we do have to drive a windy, like rural highway.
00:43:00.559 --> 00:43:07.760
And it's for all you Americans out there that are listening, because I know the majority of my audience are from the US.
00:43:08.159 --> 00:43:09.920
Let me just get a conversion for you.
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Okay, kilometers to miles.
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So the speed limit on this road is 50 miles an hour.
00:43:17.920 --> 00:43:18.880
It's not too bad.
00:43:18.960 --> 00:43:26.800
It's not too bad, and it is fairly windy, but I am absolutely 100% used to these roads, especially this one.
00:43:26.880 --> 00:43:30.000
I've traveled it a lot
in my career.
00:43:30.239 --> 00:43:33.519
And I'm traveling, do do do, do, do, no problem.
00:43:33.679 --> 00:43:39.599
And I always keep an eye on the sides of the roads, and I probably wasn't even going 80 because I have passengers with me, right?
00:43:39.679 --> 00:43:49.119
And we're talking, and anyway, at one point on this road, I had to slam on the brakes because a white-tailed deer came from my right and went across the road.
00:43:49.360 --> 00:43:54.880
I had plenty of time to stop, but I still instinctively saw the deer put on my brakes.
00:43:55.119 --> 00:43:59.760
Stopped, the deer crossed the road, no harm, no foul, everybody stopped.
00:44:00.159 --> 00:44:00.559
Safe.
00:44:00.719 --> 00:44:03.760
We stopped with like we didn't slam on the brakes.
00:44:03.840 --> 00:44:05.920
Nobody moved in their seats.
00:44:06.159 --> 00:44:07.039
We're all good.
00:44:07.199 --> 00:44:19.039
That's the only thing that happened on the drive that was out of the ordinary, besides a normal like stop at a stop sign, stop at a red light, uh passing vehicles on the highway, that kind of thing.
00:44:19.280 --> 00:44:21.840
Nothing else out of the ordinary happened.
00:44:21.920 --> 00:44:27.360
So the only thing is when we got to the museum, my spell jar was broken.
00:44:27.679 --> 00:44:32.880
So I deciphered from that that my spell jar did its job.
00:44:33.039 --> 00:44:36.320
It was a protection spell jar and it did its job.
00:44:36.559 --> 00:44:39.280
It protected me from hitting that deer.
00:44:39.360 --> 00:44:41.679
And when it was done, it broke in half.
00:44:41.840 --> 00:44:55.840
And then I've since added a brand new spell jar of protection, of course, to my purse instead of my keys, because I have other keychains now because it was time anyway.
00:44:56.079 --> 00:45:00.159
There was time between spelljar one and spell jar two, so I had other keychains.
00:45:00.320 --> 00:45:06.159
And I don't know if you know this, but you shouldn't have a bunch of keychains on a key that goes in the ignition.
00:45:06.480 --> 00:45:10.800
Mine doesn't, but that's a habit, old habit, that I've never broken.
00:45:10.960 --> 00:45:14.000
I only usually have one or two sets on my actual key.
00:45:14.159 --> 00:45:16.239
And so I put this one on my purse.
00:45:16.480 --> 00:45:17.599
It just sits there.
00:45:17.760 --> 00:45:19.519
It's been there for months now.
00:45:19.840 --> 00:45:24.639
Cause this jar broke l a year ago, June.
00:45:24.800 --> 00:45:31.679
So yeah, it's been a long time that I've had this one, like it's been over a year that it's been on my purse.
00:45:31.760 --> 00:45:33.119
And I'm not gentle with it.
00:45:33.280 --> 00:45:35.199
I'll tell you that, I'm not gentle.
00:45:35.440 --> 00:45:38.880
So I know when it breaks, it's protecting me from something.
00:45:38.960 --> 00:45:39.679
And that's okay.
00:45:39.840 --> 00:45:41.039
That's what it's meant to do.
00:45:41.360 --> 00:45:42.960
It's not the only time it
happened.
00:45:43.039 --> 00:45:57.199
I had people who have purchased, I do sell these, who have purchased my spell jars and have told me that there's one guy, he purchased a protection one, and it broke before he could ever use it.
00:45:57.440 --> 00:46:00.639
It literally broke like in half as well.
00:46:00.800 --> 00:46:02.000
Like it just snapped.
00:46:02.159 --> 00:46:05.360
These are not like bad jars or anything either.
00:46:05.519 --> 00:46:06.960
Like, let's not go there.
00:46:07.199 --> 00:46:13.039
These are good glass jars with uh little corks, and yeah.
00:46:13.360 --> 00:46:15.199
Anyway, I drop a ton of them.
00:46:15.280 --> 00:46:19.039
Trust me, they're not all like just flimsy glass jars.
00:46:19.199 --> 00:46:24.159
But the point is, that's not the only spell that goes like crazy good.
00:46:24.719 --> 00:46:29.440
I've done uh spells for people and they happen.
00:46:29.599 --> 00:46:33.840
I can't tell you what spells and for whom, but they happen.
00:46:34.159 --> 00:46:39.360
Um, and they sell candle spells, and this is a funny story.
00:46:39.519 --> 00:46:50.719
And uh one of my friends we bartered, she gave me a gift from her table at uh Pagan market, and I gave her a candle spell.
00:46:50.880 --> 00:46:59.360
And her and her husband did my candle spell one day, and the flame almost reached the ceiling, and these candle spells are chime candles.
00:46:59.440 --> 00:47:07.519
If you're not familiar, they're only about four inches tall, the candle itself, and about uh half an inch in diameter.
00:47:07.679 --> 00:47:13.199
They're tiny, they're small candles, yet the flame almost reached her ceiling.
00:47:14.000 --> 00:47:26.719
She came to me a few days later, and she just took me aside and she's like, Oh my fucking god, I knew you had something in you, but I didn't expect it to be that powerful.
00:47:26.880 --> 00:47:31.920
That was coming from a priestess, and I thought, I didn't know I was that powerful.
00:47:32.239 --> 00:47:34.000
So, uh, there's that.
00:47:34.320 --> 00:47:36.159
And I'm saying this today.
00:47:36.320 --> 00:47:41.199
I think I'm talking about this today because I've been struggling.
00:47:41.360 --> 00:47:50.719
I've been struggling a lot with self-doubt, limiting beliefs, and not truly understanding or or believing in myself.
00:47:50.880 --> 00:47:57.440
And I know there's others out there like that that go through this from time to time, regardless of what journey you're on.
00:47:57.679 --> 00:48:01.840
My spiritual journey, my witchy journey, it's up and down.
00:48:02.000 --> 00:48:03.760
It's honestly up and down.
00:48:03.920 --> 00:48:11.039
And when I was shuffling my cards today, my tarot cards, two no two sets of cards.
00:48:11.199 --> 00:48:14.000
So two tens and two eights came out.
00:48:14.159 --> 00:48:23.760
The ten of wands with the ten of cups, the eight of swords with the eight of pentacles, and I said to my spirit family, okay, I understand.
00:48:24.239 --> 00:48:26.400
I I see what you're saying to me.
00:48:26.559 --> 00:48:37.360
The ten of wands, I've gone through quite the journey, and I've I've come over the hill, survived this journey, pushed through, persevered.
00:48:37.840 --> 00:48:48.320
And if I accept that and believe in that, I believe in the power of the strength I had to do that, then I will find love again.
00:48:48.480 --> 00:48:49.360
The ten of cups.
00:48:49.519 --> 00:48:50.800
I will find my happiness.
00:48:50.960 --> 00:48:55.360
Um, and that is hard for me to believe and understand.
00:48:55.679 --> 00:48:57.199
So that's why that came out.
00:48:57.360 --> 00:49:03.840
Then the second one was the eight of swords with the eight of pentacles, and what I had just mentioned.
00:49:04.000 --> 00:49:09.920
I have limiting belief about my own abilities and about am I a medium?
00:49:10.159 --> 00:49:22.639
Well, that medium can talk to dead people much better than I can, and that witch is more powerful than I am, and this person gets money for doing their stuff, but I'm like poor as shit.
00:49:22.800 --> 00:49:28.480
Like it's a almost like a limiting beliefslash comparison theor comparison problem.
00:49:28.880 --> 00:50:01.440
And those cards, when they came out, what my spirit family was telling me is if I stop with my limiting beliefs, with the ravens around my head holding me captive in my own head, and I release them and just believe in myself, believe in my power, believe that I do have my own my own path, that I am where exactly I'm meant to be, then my pentacles, my coins will come.
00:50:01.760 --> 00:50:08.559
Because of course, like any other human out there in this economy, I worry about my coins, right?
00:50:08.960 --> 00:50:10.239
Where are they coming from?
00:50:10.559 --> 00:50:26.000
I'm so thankful that I have a full-time government job that pays my bills, but I still I would I not be human if I didn't want to get paid for doing what I love, and what I love is working in the spiritual realm of anything.
00:50:26.239 --> 00:50:43.599
So whether that's my own spiritual journey and guiding others, or it it's investigations on spiritual energy, it's researching, it's whatever it is in the realm, in the in that whole area of work, that's where I want to be.
00:50:43.840 --> 00:50:48.960
Doing magic, um being who I am at my core.
00:50:49.199 --> 00:50:53.599
And to get there, I need to believe that I'm meant to be there.
00:50:53.840 --> 00:50:59.440
And it's taken me, oh my god, you guys have been on this journey with me.
00:50:59.599 --> 00:51:11.840
You know how I've struggled back and forth and back and forth and back and forth, and that's why I usually don't talk about this shit, and I don't rant and I don't actually divulge my true feelings behind what I'm talking about.
00:51:12.480 --> 00:51:20.400
And I just stick to like, here's what I found on XYZ, or here's a Reddit story, or here's a blah blah blah blah blah.
00:51:20.559 --> 00:51:37.679
Um, I
don't talk about how I feel about things because it it reveals the fact that I'm human and I'm vulnerable, and I'm I need to take ownership from the fact that I am just exactly who I am, and that is okay.
00:51:37.840 --> 00:51:42.639
I don't know who needed to hear this whole bullshit today, but you're welcome.
00:51:42.880 --> 00:51:44.079
I needed to hear it.
00:51:44.239 --> 00:51:45.760
I know I needed to hear it.
00:51:45.840 --> 00:51:54.159
I needed myself to say it because Lord knows I've been struggling with this imposter syndrome, um, limiting beliefs.
00:51:54.320 --> 00:51:55.679
That is my struggle.
00:51:55.840 --> 00:52:00.800
That is and it goes it goes really deep because we're human.
00:52:01.039 --> 00:52:07.519
We compare ourselves to Jane Doe, John Doe on the interwebs, right?
00:52:07.920 --> 00:52:17.119
So if Jane or John are making bang on TikTok doing the same thing that you're passionate about doing, aren't you jealous?
00:52:17.519 --> 00:52:18.159
Jealous.
00:52:18.320 --> 00:52:20.559
Like, I'm gonna be honest with myself.
00:52:20.639 --> 00:52:21.760
I'm jealous about that.
00:52:22.000 --> 00:52:23.519
Do I have a right to be jealous?
00:52:24.159 --> 00:52:25.199
Fuck yeah.
00:52:25.519 --> 00:52:27.119
Jealousy is okay.
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Am I envious?
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Yeah.
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I'm envious that they can get it and I can't.
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Have I tried what they tr have done?
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No.
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Does that mean that I could possibly get what they have?
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Sure.
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Sure.
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If I tried it.
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But I don't believe in myself yet enough to actually put myself out there vulnerable and just say, here, world, this is how I am.
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Please be kind.
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Because people on the internet, as I said from the very beginning of this episode, are fucking idiots when it comes to being online.
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These there are so many trolls out there that I am sure 90% of them are sitting in their mommy's basement in their underwear, scratching their balls, and typing with the other hand.
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Like, what else are you doing?
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Because you're obviously not a productive human being.
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Obvious.
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You have no actual gifts to give the world if you're sitting there being an asshole or an asshole online.
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Um, yeah, so I guess that's my rant today, guys.
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I don't know where we got there.
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I don't know what we actually talked about, but eh, there you go.
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Um, that was me unhinged.
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I think that's what I might call this episode.
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Burb unhinged.
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Anyway, if you like this episode, please like it.
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Uh, I don't know how you like it on whatever platform, but show me your love.
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You can even go directly to the website and send me a fan mail, which, by the way, could be a voicemail to me so that I can hear you and we can interact.
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So I don't know if I've ever said that before, but it's out there.
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So if you want to, you just go to the website.
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The the link is in the show notes, and you can send me a fan mail, and I would love that.
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I would love to hear from all of you.
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All like, I don't know, I think there's 20 of you that listen now on a weekly basis and love you for that.
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Um, by the way, uh, is Mountain View, California back?
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Um, I know you were missing for a few weeks, but if you're back, I one of my last tours, because I'm a tour guy too, um, I met a guy from Mountain View, California.
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Small world.
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Small world.
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Anyway, uh, oh, I don't mean anyway, I mean olive oil.
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I will uh be back with you guys next week.
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Although next week is a ghost investigation night.
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There are still tickets available, so if anybody local is out there listening, I know there's like one and I love you for it.
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Thank you.
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Um, but I think I know you, so I think you're a little too scared to go on my ghost hunts.
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But if you know anybody that wants to do it, please share it.
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And um, yeah, until next week, guys.
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You know what you should do?
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You should definitely be kinder on the internet if you're not already.
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I'm sure you guys are though.
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And you should never take anything anybody else says personally because it's their problem, not yours.
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And you should have a great day.
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Take care.