Your Deepest_ Darkest_ JUICIEST Questions Answered _ Vulnerable Q_A Mystery _ Makeup _ Bailey Sarian

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Hi, friends, how are you today? My name is Bailey
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Sarian and today is Monday, and I wanted to do
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something a little different this week. Ah, so hi, I
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have been doing Murder Mystery makeup for about four years now,
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which I just looked up and I would have bet
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money that it's only been like two years, but I
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guess it's been four, all right. With that being said,
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I kind of assume that everyone knows me because I've
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been uploading content since twenty thirteen, Like I've shared a
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lot of my life and stuff. So I always just
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assume everyone knows who I am and like what I
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do and why I'm doing it and blue blah blue
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what the reality is? Many of you came on found
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my channel during quarantine, Yes quarantine, and you don't. I
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don't got questions who am I? So I thought wouldn't
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it be fun if I do a Q and A.
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So I went on my Instagram and I was like, hey, guys,
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I want to do a Q and A. Ask me
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questions like what do you want to know? I'm an
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open book. I really am am I I think so
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sorry if you don't follow me on Instagram or anything,
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you totally can if you want to, you know, Sapula Syrian,
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and so I got a bunch of questions, and I thought,
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why not do a Q and A. Woond't that be fun?
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I'm not going to do makeup this week because I
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thought this could be a time to be very personal,
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one on one. You don't get to know each other,
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no distractions, right, So I pulled some questions. Actually I
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just took a bunch of screenshots. I was and then
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I was just going to go from there. But I
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saw a lot of repeat questions, a lot of personal
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questions as well. So maybe I'll add the personal questions
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like towards the end or something start with crime related content.
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So I hope you enjoy this little Q and A.
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Let me know in the comment section if this is
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something I should do when every like a couple months.
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I don't know. So one question I get asked the most.
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The most I kept seeing over and over and over again,
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what's the one story you've done that's stuck with you.
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I got a bunch of these questions, all kind of
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worded differently, but asking the same thing. What's that one
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story that really messed you up? And you guys are dark?
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Why do you want to know, but I'll tell you
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I thought about this real hard. I think the one
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that stuck with me the most was the toy box Killer.
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So the toy box Killer is it's an older murder
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mystery and had done in my channel if you haven't
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seen it, but it felt the guy who lived in
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Truth or Consequences. First of all, I could not get
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over that name. Truth or Consequences was this town's name.
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I know this older man. He looks creepy as hell, weathered. Yeah,
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he looks like just tired. Okay. He had this like,
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he had this trailer on his property and he would
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pretty much pick up different women, drug them, take them
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to his toy box aka this trailer, put them in there,
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tie them down to like this. It looked like a
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dentist's chair almost. He would tie them down and inside
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the toy box toy box was all these contraptions and
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tools that he would use to torture and just torture women. Okay.
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And I think this one stuck with me because the
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guy gave me the creeps. The inside of this trailer
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is horrifying. It's just something of your nightmares. The third
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thing is this guy the toy box Killer. He had
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reported himself giving this long message that he would play
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to his victims on like a recorder, and he would
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play these long messages about how he's gonna like torture
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and kill them and how they're bad and it's just
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so creepy and so dark and just so oh. I
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think that one has sat with me for just a
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little too long. And also I could go on and
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on about this because also he like allowed his animals
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to come in on the assault and rape and all that. Yeah, dogs,
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he was like, your turn, come on. And then on
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top of that, they had like a lake nearby called
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Elephant Butte and it's believed that there's like bodies in
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this lake, but no one will start lake and it
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just doesn't make any damn sense. And eventually the Toy
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Box Taylor guy forget his name right now, I apologize,
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but he did get caught and then he died shortly
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like after getting caught, which is so lame. But it's
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just I don't know what it was about that one.
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It was just ill torture. That part like really not yuck.
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So I think that one is definitely one that sits
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with me. Yeah, you win, Toy box Killer you win, Pippycart?
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Is that your name, Pippycart? How many hours would you
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spend preparing an episode? Do you practice beforehand? In the mirror?
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That's a great question, pippycartd so for a Monday episode.
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So usually I find a topic. Sometimes I find the
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topics in like the comment section. I actually, as of
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right now, have a long list of topics that I
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want to for the research on and also potentially do
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stories on. I usually find them in the commet section
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or just browsing the internet. I have a lot of
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different series, real killer, types of books I know, and
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so I just have this list that is never ending,
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first of all. But usually I start with somebody, who
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am I working on right now? I'm working on right now?
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Why don't want to give it away? So like Albert Fish? Okay,
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so then you just start, You just start. You just
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start googling, and you start going. My favorite place is
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to find or look into research, which is another question
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somebody has I'll answer too. In one Hillary Griffy, she asked,
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do you have a favorite or go to source for
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murder mystery, makeup research? Newspapers, dot com, ancestry. Surprising, he
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is pretty good. J Store google different news articles. I'll
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watch interviews if it's if there's interviews available, so I
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kind of get an understanding of the story and the situation.
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Usually that takes a full day because it's like gathering
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all the information, all the stuff I found, kind of
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compiling it into one place, and then next day it's
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like start with the story. So the story will be
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like from start to finish, who this person is that
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I'm talking about. Now, if you know anything about me,
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which you've been watching me for a while, you should
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you probably know. I like to always start with a backstory.
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I feel like a lot of true crime stories and whatnot,
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they kind of just start with the crime itself. But me, personally,
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I've always been more curious about like what it goes
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on in somebody's brain to just wake up one day
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and murder your whole family, Like, what's that about? Got questions?
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So I love a backstory because it can give you
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an understanding of where someone comes from, and in a way,
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at least for me, it kind of puts into perspective,
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like that's why they turned out the way they did.
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There are many stories where they have a perfect upbringing
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and you're like, still no idea. So it's like, Okay,
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day one, what's the story? Getting all the information as
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much info as you can. Day two, now I'm gonna
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write the story. I write a script, and it's pretty
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much start to finish. What's the story I'm going to
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tell on my Monday episode? Right? And then normally I'll
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go through that and I print it out. Did you
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want every little detail? I'm sorry? So then the next
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day it's more like editing. Okay, so I have a
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certain amount of pages that I know, like if it's
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like eight to ten pages, I know it will be
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like a forty five minute video. So it's like, okay,
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can I make cuts? Can I add stuff? Is there
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anything I'm missing? Is there anything more than I want?
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And I'll do extra research and then it's like okay,
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then I should be done by day four. Usually a
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lot of the time, so I'm a liar, it takes
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me sometimes longer, just because I like getting into the
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nitty gritty of the stories. I like finding as much
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information as I possibly can, Like I want to know
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every little detail. It doesn't mean it goes into my story.
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It's just like I personally want to know and that
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I decide Okay, this is how I'm going to tell it.
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And then from there, usually filming, so it takes about
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how many days did I say? Full days? And then
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I sit down and I record. Usually for the makeup looks,
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I just go. I just start going. I don't plan
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my makeup looks because by that point it's like I
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just need to be done with this because it's gonna
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go live in a couple of days. Like I always
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try to get ahead, but it never I fall behind
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every time. So it's like I only have five days
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to make it happen, baby, and I try my best.
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So then I do the makeup, and then I have
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new editors and stuff, so it's like, now, yeah, pass
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it off, get it the edit, upload all that jazz.
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So I would say, honestly, to feel good about one episode,
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I like to spend a solid If it were up
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to me, I would spend five whole days. It's like
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I have to constantly like okay, well next week, okay.
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So it's like I don't know what to do with
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all this information I gather. But you know what, like
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this isn't me complaining at all, because I am fascinated.
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I don't want to say murtyrs and stuff because that sounds.
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But it's the brain that gets me. The why, the wind,
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the how, the why. It's always the why. I'm just
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trying to personally find an answer. I don't know why,
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but I want to know. Did that answer your question?
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This is a good question from Belle Lah. Have you
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ever been contacted by upset or thankful family members of victims?
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I have been contacted by family members before. I would
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say on two different occasions. I have one of them.
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They did not want to be like mentioned anywhere anything,
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you know, because like they're related to somebody bad, so
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they're like, please, don't ever talk about me. But this
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person was like, if you're ever in town, you should
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come over and we could like meet or something like.
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This person was very friendly and actually really had positive
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feedback about the video I did about their family member
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who was really awful and it was very unexpected. But
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I definitely want to take them up on their offer
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of meeting. I think that would be really interesting. I
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would love to do that, but can't say who it is,
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you know, they don't want to. And then there was
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somebody else we need to have to talk. Okay, there
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was somebody else who had reached out to me, who
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was very upset because the comment section was going in
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on somebody on a certain story that I will not mention,
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but the comment section was going in on a person
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who wasn't even involved in the story. It was like
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somebody I had mentioned because they needed to be mentioned
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in the story, but a lot of people focused on
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this person and were just like making fun of them
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in the comment section, and they saw it, and they
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were very upset for I would say, for a good reason.
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But yeah, I mean for good reason. They were upset,
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and I completely understand. I completely understood. I've mentioned a
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handful of times in previous videos that like, hey, you
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never know. I was looking at the comments section because
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you never know, and it's like, sometimes there are victims,
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family members who do read the comment section, and if
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you're saying something that's really rude and inappropriate, you're probably
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gonna hurt some fucking feelings. So that part really bothers
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me because it's only happened that one time, but it
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really bothered me because like, damn, I see the comment
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section sometimes and I'm like, damn, you guys, you're like
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real people that died and stuff, right, so it's like,
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you know, don't make fun of something that they cannot change,
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like a face or hair style or outfit. You know,
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it was just really stupid. But I felt bad for
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them because comment section was getting out of control with
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this person, So I think I did I take it down,
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and I've taken it down that video. Shelby ray Beauty asked,
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are there any cases you'll never cover because they're too much? Probably?
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I mean, I've come across a couple of stories where
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just a lot of kids, you know, I don't really no,
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it's just it, you know, that's all I have to say.
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It's just sad. It's all sad. But yeah, that's all
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I have to say. Ooh, Talia Lantin, God, I can't
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say your name, so sorry, Talia. Does creating MMM make
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you worried on a day to day that these things
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could happen to you? Well? Didn't? Now? I do get
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asked this question a lot, like does doing murder Mystery
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makeup affect my day to day functioning? Am I paranoid?
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Are you okay? Yes? I'm okay, and I think I
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don't let fear control my day, so like, yes, these
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awful things could possibly happen to me. Okay, you know,
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like there are some things that you just can't control.
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I can't control what happens to me. I can protect myself,
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you know, but like you, I can't live in fear
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that these things are going to happen. You can be
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alert and aware of your surroundings and do everything I
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can to protect yourself, right, but like you cannot let
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it control your life. You just can't. Like I really
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just don't think twice about it. There are bad people
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out there. There's always gonna be bad people out there,
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and God, if something ever happened to me, that would suck.
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But like you know, that's life. It's just actually I
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shouldn't say that because I'm not trying to welcome like
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any type of murder or anything. But just don't let
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fear control your life. Really, that's it. Like, No, it
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doesn't make me paranoid When I hear like creaking and
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stuff in my house late at night when like I'm sleeping, Yeah,
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I get a little paranoid. And I don't even think
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like there's an intruder. I think there's a straight up ghost.
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That's my first thought. I'm not worried about getting hacked
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to death. I'm worried about a ghost. That's how opposite
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my brain works. I'm more afraid of a ghost than
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I am a murderer. You know why because I got
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a forty five and a shovel and I never miss
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a shot, So I know I'm okay, Rachel, Caroline eighty eight,
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What inspired you to start murder mystery makeup Monday? That's
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a great question, Caroline. No, sorry, Rachel, that's a great question.
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So if you go back to my very first murder
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mystery makeup, I talked about Chris Watts. Do you remember
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Chris Watts, bitch? So I've been interested in true crime
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for as long as I can remember. I remember being
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a kid and the John Benny Ramsey case was like
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on the TV, and that was the first time I realized,
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like death and tragedy can happen when you were a kid,
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Like it was just such. It had such an impact
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on me. So I had been doing makeup on my
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channel since twenty thirteen, and when the Chris Watts case
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was happening, when was that twenty eighteen, twenty nineteen, when
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the Chris Watts case was happening once again, like always,
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I was just invested. I was like, what what's going
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on because we didn't know anything yet. If you don't know,
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Chris Watts murdered his whole fucking family, point blank period.
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This guy would psycho one day, the kind of freak
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that you don't ever want to marry because they might
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snap on you one day. Like there's no red flax
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with this guy. It was spooky. So I was watching TV.
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He was watching all the interviews with Chris Watts. I
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was staying up until like three or four in the morning,
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just like web sleuthing and trying to solve the mystery.
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And I just had like so much, like useless knowledge
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about this case, but like nobody to talk about it with.
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So I was like, okay, what if, idea, What if
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I like did my makeup and talked about what I learned.
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It's probably gonna backfire in my face because you know,
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I'm doing makeup and talking about people dying, Like, oh
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my god, Bailey, what are you doing? I know, I know,
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I was like, I don't know, but I did it anyways.
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And the main reason I did my makeup was because
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one sitting in front of the camera like this. Just
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staring at a lens can be very intimidating, So to
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keep myself busy, I like to just do my makeup.
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Plus it's like I get ready for my day doing
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my makeup anyways, So I did my makeup so I
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didn't have to sit here awkwardly like I am now
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staring at the lens, and I told a story. I
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was so surprised by the feedback, honestly, Like people, for one,
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were just like me, staying up all night trying to
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solve this mystery. And we all knew. If you're familiar
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with the Chris Watts case, remember when he gave that
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interview on his porch and we all knew in that
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very moment that he was guilty. You know, you know,
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I know, you know, you know, I know. Yeah, we
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all saw that. And it was just like, oh, so
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cool to have like this community in the comments section
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and all of us just like trying to saw it,
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like oh, just going on and on about just our theories,
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our thoughts, like this guy sucks the mistress. And it
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was like, at the time I had gotten like sixty
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thousand views on that video in the first couple of
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days and I was like, holy shit, I think I'm
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ona something. So then I ended up doing it again
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with another true crime story I was I knew, so
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I did it again and I had the same results.
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It was like people were into it, and I was like, Okay,
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I'm gonna try it again. And I swear to you
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here I am four years later trying it again. Okay,
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Like I'm literally still surprised, like it's just crazy. I
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just never imagined that this would lead me to where
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I am today ever in a million years, ever, ever,
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ever or ever ever, And still to this day, I'm like, an,
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I hope they like this, you know, like I hope
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they like this video. I hope they like this topic
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I picked. I I don't know. I just want to
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I don't know so that I guess sadly, Chris Watts
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kind of inspired my Monday episodes, but I don't want
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to give him credit. I'm that nasty man and all
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of his nasty fan girls. You guys still out there
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being a little thirsty, thirsty bitches for this Chris guy.
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Nasties six Bug bandages, Hey, hey, six Bug, what you
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think about the Murdock case? Listen? I was watching the
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trial and all that stuff, and I just Ooh, their
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family's nasty, nasty family. And I'm so glad he was
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found guilty, and I'm so glad he'll be spending the
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rest of his life in prison, but it's so unfortunate
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that it had to be at the cost of so
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many different lives. Like, fuck that family, Fucked that system
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over there who didn't put him in his place, Fucked
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those police officers, Fuck everybody who allowed that to happen
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in the first place. I cannot stand, cannot stand rich
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people who just are like this. They could do whatever
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they want, get away with whatever they want, no rules applied.
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Like I I that keeps me up at night because
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I just can't stand knowing that there's people on this
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planet who exists like that, and there's a ton unfortunately,
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and rarely do they get caught. And it really really
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pisses me off. And now that Buster kid, like he's
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still out right and like his name is ruined, Gola,
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trying to find a job and stuff. I hope he
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doesn't because I think he was involved for sure in
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that's it was Stephensmith. I think he was involved any
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type of death that happened in the and around the
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area where they lived. I think they were probably involved
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with you know, just nasty. People can't believe. I justugh,
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money just is disgusting. I mean, like, you know, money
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just ruins people makes him No, it's not even money.
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This guy was just fucking disgusting. I hated him. Oh
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this is my favorite question ten period Z. Do you
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recognize some subscribers from the beginning, absolutely, one hundred percent.
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Some of you all have not changed your YouTube icons
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and your YouTube names, and you never should because I
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swear to you I recognize them. There's a lot of
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you out there who I recognize the name, and I
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recognize your little picture, and I don't I don't. I
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just know you. So you can't change it. And if
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you do, I won't know who you are. So I'm sorry,
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but you're trapped unless you want to change it. It's
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totally fun. You could change your icon and all that stuff.
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That's fine. But I do notice, and some of you
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have been here for a very long time, and it
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warms my heart, it really does.
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I'm like, oh, I see you, I see you.
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I love that. A m Underscore Brown wants to know
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how did you first get into true crime. That's a
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great question, Am Brown. I mentioned a little bit earlier
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that the Jampanne Rams. He was like as a child,
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first introduction to like like, oh shit, you could die
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when you're a kid, Like that's weird. And then as
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I got a little bit older, like I've always been
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a little curious and a little bit morbid growing up.
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Say what you will, but I was always a little dark.
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But then when I got I don't even know how
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old I was, like early made preteen. My mom was
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a nine one dispatcher and she would sometimes take me
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to work with her, and I would get to like
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put on little headphones and I would listen to nine
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one one calls and I was just a kid, and
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looking back, definitely would not recommend doing that. But now
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I could laugh about it, Like we laughed about it now,
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but like, don't do that to your kids, because no
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one's calling nine one one to say, hey, I hope
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you're having a great day. You know, it's a lot
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of bad. But at the time, I was like, oh,
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like it was wild to me. It was wild that
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these calls were coming in, and like there was so
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much going on in that very hour that none of
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us knew about, you know, it was we It was
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such a weird thing anyway, So I would say that's
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definitely where it started for sure. And I had to say.
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Nine one dispatchers are like the true first responders. They're
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the first one to get phone calls about the situation.
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They usually talk to the victim or sometimes even like
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the person who's doing something bad, the killer. Just all
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of it, the things they do, the things they have
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to go through. Nine one one dispatchers, it's a lot.
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They're very overlooked. Put some respect on it, Taro, Charlie,
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how do you find the energy to create all your content?
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I'm hrding that one. It's funny you say that because
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a lot of the times for me, I feel like
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I'm I could be doing so much more. I never
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feel like I'm doing enough. I always feel like I'm
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falling behind. I'm just constantly not constantly, but I feel
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like like I need to be doing more. Now you
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know what I've been doing more of sleeping, setting boundaries,
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learn want to turn it off, turn it down, as
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far as like my computer, my work mode, which is
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you know, wanting to like stay up all night in
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research and stuff like I can't do that anymore as
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much as I want to. It's like I need to
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make sure to go to bed, to shut down, to stop,
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to like make sure that at seven pm, I'm no,
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it's no more murder for me after seven pm, Like
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I have to go home and watch something else. What
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have I been watching? Judge shooty? I just watched a
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lot of Judge shuty. So it's like making sure that
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you're I'm not spending my energy, wasting my energy, I
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guess when it could be spent. What am I even
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talking about. I don't know. I just like make boundaries.
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You have to shut it down. You have to make sure,
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like okay, I like set hours for myself ten am
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to two pm. It's like murder, research, whatever. And then
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the next half of my day is like, I don't know,
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switching to something else so I don't get burnt out,
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and then at six or seven pm, shutting it down
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and going home. Setting boundaries. And I think, if you
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really want to do something, it's kind of easy. You know.
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I'm a very curious person. I say this all the time,
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but it's very true. And I think I get the
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energy to create all the content because I'm so curious
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and I want to know everything I can, whether it
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be about true crime or whether it be about history.
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I know, I love learning, so I think that's also
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how I find the energy, is the fact that I'm
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researching and finding stories about stuff that I'm really curious about.
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Like it's being excited. I don't know, I'm gonna cry,
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but I'm feeling emotional. It's just history and true crime
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really gets me. Okay, Nico, Nico the Weirdo sad that wrong.
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I know you get help with Dark History, but do
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you get any help with Murder Mystery and makeup Monday? Yes?
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So now I do, Yay. So look, with Dark History,
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I have a lot of help behind me with that
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with that series, because it's a lot. History is a lot,
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It's right, It's so complicated. So it's like, how do
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you take this really complicated history story and make it
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understandable and all that stuff? So I get I have
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writers who helped me. I have researchers who help with
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Dark History. When it comes to Murder Mystery Makeup, it
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was just me, myself and I for a very long time,
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and it was very protective over it because it's mine,
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like it's it's this thing I started and I do
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and I didn't really want anybody else in on it,
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like as far as help goes, because I don't know.
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I was like, I just want to be in control
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of it, Okay, I did, and I was like, it's mine.
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I know what I like, I know my voice. It's
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gary letting other people in control of your voice and
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your image. And because like if the editor wants to
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do me dirty and they could like pieces together and
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make me look real dirty, right, but I know you
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won't hopefully. But what I'm saying is it can be scary.
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But I got to a point, especially last year. I
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remember when I wasn't really uploading Murder Mystery consistently. It
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was because I was going through a hard time. But
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it made me realize that it's okay to ask for
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help and it's okay to get help, like, yes, this
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is my baby and what I really love to cry
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and stuff, you know, like or I'm interested in and
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it's okay to get help with it, Like there's nothing
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wrong with that. So now I have researchers helping move
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with Murder Mystery. I have editors and yeah, so I
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have help now, but for a long time I didn't,
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and that's why murder Mystery was inconsistent and dark history
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was thrived. Well, it was like consistent every week because
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I had so much help, and it made me realize too, like, Okay,
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I need to get help with murder mystery or it's
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just gonna I can't do it all. You know, does
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that make sense? I hope that makes sense. Suicide by
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Suicide girl wants to know thoughts on true crime tourism.
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I don't have any thoughts really true crime tourism. Do
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you mean like going to visit like ooh, Jeffrey Dummer
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used to go to this bar, let's go. Is that
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what you mean? I'm gonna say that's what you probably mean. Look,
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if that's something you want to do, not you personally,
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but like you and as general in general, that's what
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someone wants to do, do it, like, I'm not here
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to judge. Do whatever you want in your life as
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long as doesn't hurt anybody else. For me, personally, I
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find true crime tourism is a gimmicky like usually they
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want to make some money. Okay, I don't blame them,
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but like maybe if I'm in town and they're like, hey,
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that's the bar that one guy murdered everybody. Yet I'd
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be like, oh shit, and then I carry on with
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my day. You know what I'm saying. I just like, yeah,
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it's whatever. If it's there, cool if not whatever, But
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I want to like go out of my way. Well
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that's not true because I kind of want to see
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who's grave ed Gaane. I don't know why I'm so
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infatuated with this guy, but didn't his grave get like
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smooved and shit? Anyways, thoughts on true crime tourism, I
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don't really have any. Sorry, I can't answer that more
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like straightforward. It's just I don't really think about shit
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like that. It's just if you want to do it,
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cool if not cool? Do I want to do it?
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I don't know, cool if not not cool, get it.
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I don't know why I'm feeling emotional right now, but
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this question like really made me think. Mary Morris sixteen,
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what are you most proud of? I think just a lot.
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I sit around and I think about this a lot
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because I try to be a very grateful person and
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I'm just really proud of making the cycle. I'm proud
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of working on myself and I'm proud of the sense
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of community I feel here on YouTube. I feel like
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I've made a lot of friends. That's why I started
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on YouTube. I started on YouTube in twenty thirteen because
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it's like I just wanted a community of friends and stuff,
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like I really just want to talk about makeup and
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anything and everything. And it's like it's cool that I've
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made something. I've made something, and I have this sense
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of community in my comment section from my subscribers for
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I don't even like say from you guys. It's just
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it means a lot, and I'm very proud of that.
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I'm so grateful. You just don't understand. One day, I'm
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going to write a tell all book and then you'll
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understand that sometimes life isn't easy, right, but you can
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like accomplish things. That's my life advice. I'm already I
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should have say this for last. I'm just proud of
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myself or not giving up but myself. Yeah, Okay, now
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I'm done crying. Jazzman, was there a murder you understood
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the reasoning behind? Yes? And no. I do not condemn murder.
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Condemn No. I do not condemn murder. Nobody should murder
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unless you absolutely have to, meaning you're a victim trap somewhere,
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you need to get the fuck away. For example, Gypsy
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Rose Blanchard, is she out yet? I wonder if she's out?
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Oh look I just see he right here. She got
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married in prison. Anyways, if you don't know Gypsy Rose Blanchard, girl,
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what are you doing? First of all? Second of all,
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that one I could kind of look, I can understand,
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and I'm sure we all could. Because her mom was
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straight up abusing her, making her believe that she was sick,
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stuck in a wheelchair, shaved her head, constantly take her
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into the doctor's. You know, poor thing, this girl hasband
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sick all of her life and told that she's a baby,
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when in fact she was like how old was she
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when she was arrested? Like twenty? And everyone was like
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what if you don't know that story? I did do
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a video about it. But she didn't kill her mom.
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She got her boyfriend to kill her mom, but like
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they were both in on it. But like, you know,
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not that. I again not saying she should have died.
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I'm just saying this poor girl couldn't get away from
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her mom. That's all I'm saying. Man, all of these questions. Sorry,
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I'm just looking at They're all like, what was the
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story that kept you up at night? What's the most
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disturbing case that you've researched. I think because I've been
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introduced to true crime or like all that from a
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young age, I feel like I'm really good at disassociating
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myself from these stories because if I did take these
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on emotionally, every single story I've done, there's no way
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I'd be here right now because it would absolutely destroy you. Right.
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So it's like I know how to shut it down
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and see the story for what it is and not
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get emotionally too attached to it. That doesn't mean I
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don't have any emotion, but yeah, And some people say, like,
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well that's inappropriate, like I shouldn't be doing that. But like,
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if you want to work in the true crime field
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or i mean police, like you have to. You have
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to become desensitize these things, and you know, in long term,
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I want to go I want to work in the
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true crime field. I want to work in criminology. Like
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Bunny b Lips wants to know who is one of
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the most interesting slash creative killers you've researched. If you
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know me, you should know my answer. Ed Gean, man,
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he fascinates me that one. You know why, because I
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have yet to come across another person so far. There's
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probably someone else, but I have yet to come across
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another person like ed Gean. Because ed Gean was a
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body snatcher. He was a great digger, so he would
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dig up these people's bodies and then he would cut
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off their skin and then make arts and crafts out
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of the skin. Oh, he made chairs, table lamps, wal art.
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He was trying to make a full on body suit
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out of skin. Allegedly he would wear the bodysuit around
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the house because he actually like did it, like a
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good job. He made gloves all out of skin. His
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whole house was decorated with skin and sewn together. And
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it was just like what the And this interests me
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because what the fuck is that? That's new? You know,
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like I haven't heard that one before. It makes me think, like,
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if you were to put him in the right setting,
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let's say we sent him to fashion design, he probably
602
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could have succeeded, maybe thrived, but instead he was bored.
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And you know what they say, the Devil's got work
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for idle hands, and his hands were available. Unfortunately, just
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because I'm fascinated with ed Gain does not mean like
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I'm hanging up posters of him and stuff in my wall. No,
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it's just again, it's the human brain. What is that?
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What is that? Why? Like there's no internet and stuff
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back then when he's doing this, So it's like, how
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did he think of this? And with that being said,
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let's put him in art school. Let him thrive in
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the fashion industry. He probably could have made some cool pieces.
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Just saying so, ed Gain, for sure, hands down, always
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wins because I've yet to come across anyone like that. Like, again,
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what was that? What was that? Okay, this isn't really
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a question from vil three nine nine nine. Lizzie Borden
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and the whole story behind it. I'd love to see
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your take on it. Love you, love you too, But
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I just wanted to giggle for a minute because for
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the longest time, like I'm talking an embarrassing long time,
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I was getting Helen Keller and Lizzie Borden mixed up.
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For the longest time, I thought Lizzie Borden was Helen
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Keller really, so I was like, dang, she's deaf and
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blind and she killed her real anyways, So when I
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learned that Lizzie Borden was not deaf and blind, wasn't
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as impressive, Not that it should have been, but I'm
627
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just saying I was like, Oh, this makes the story
628
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a little not as interesting. What is it the fascination
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with Lizzie Borden? How come people like why? Why do
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you think it is that one? Lizzie Borden and Jack
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the Ripper I get asked to do all the time.
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I'm working on Jack the Ripper. Don't worry. I can't
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say Lizzie Bordon because I kind of forgot Jack the
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Ripper I'm working on. But it's like, what is the
635
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fascination with that one? Well, Jack the Ripper I could
636
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actually understand. Actually, maybe I don't even know the Lizzy
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Bordon story. Obviously, obviously I thought she was deaf and blind.
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Ante six x' six. Have you ever sympathized with any
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serial killer? Oh? Absolutely, And I don't think there's anything
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wrong with that. There's like hello or human beings. It's
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okay to feel like two things canna be right at
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the same time. A lot of these serial killers have
643
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some fucking horrid upbringings, and it's okay to feel bad
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for them and acknowledge that their upbringing was bad. And
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also it's okay to acknowledge that they grew up to
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be a shitty person who killed a bunch of people.
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You know, like two things can be right at the
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same time, and I hate that. It's kind of like
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pick a side, but really it's like you can kind
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of see where it derails, you know what I'm saying,
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And like, for that that makes me sad because at
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the end of the day, it's like comes down to
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parents and how you're raised, like in some of the stories.
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I'm not a doctor, you know whatever, but it's just sad.
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You just feel bad. I feel bad. I feel bad
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for everybody you're allowed to. But yeah, for sure, it's
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a lot of them are just have horrible lives. And
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there are some people like Chris Watts who it's like
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fool had like a pretty great upbringing and stuff. Not
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saying it was perfect. I don't know him, but like,
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how did that guy go from again zero to fucking
662
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murdering his whole family? Like those people free me out,
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and those people I don't feel bad for because I
664
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don't know what that is. If I don't understand something,
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I try to figure it out, but sometimes you just can't.
666
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You know. Oh my god, it's so funny that you
667
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bring this up. Your makeup is not terrible, says, are
668
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you one hundred percent sure Scott Peterson did it or
669
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didn't do it? Okay, don't come for me at all. Look, listen, ideas,
670
00:37:25.679 --> 00:37:27.400
I don't know if Scott Peterson did it or not.
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I mean, I don't fucking no, I'm not I'm not good,
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like I'm just a girl on YouTube. But like, if
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you kind of look dig a little bit deeper, you'll
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see that Scott Peterson didn't necessarily get a fair trial.
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He was being ripish reds in the media because everyone
676
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was like he did it. But when you look into
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actual physical evidence, there wasn't any. There wasn't any. There
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wasn't any. And at the same time that Lacy Peterson
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was murdered, there was also a serial killer on the
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loose who was murdering others pregnant women. A lot of
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people don't talk about this because I mean, they don't
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know if there's an incorrelation there, but I mean, it
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kind of makes sense. Also, there was a neighbor who
684
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spotted lazy Peterson with her dog. I think it was
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like she was going into the house or something where
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this eyewitness her statement would throw off the entire timeline,
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and for some reason, police didn't want to include her
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statement in any of the documents. So I don't know.
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I think Scott Peterson was shady, cheating on his wife,
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fleed down to Mexico for some damn reason, dyed his hair,
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acted hella suspish, right, But then when you look into
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the physical evidence of adults, like where is it, it's
693
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I don't know. So again, two things could be right
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at the same time, right, Like he might have been
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a really shitty husband and he might be innocent, or
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he could just be a plain murderer. And you know,
697
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I don't know, But I feel like I don't know.
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I just feel like, by now, okay, listen, there's a
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couple of feelings I have about Scott. I feel like,
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by now, if he's in prison at San Quentin, by now,
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he would have said something to somebody in the prison like, yeah,
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I did it. Because they brag. They have to brag.
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It's how you get your status in the in the system.
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00:39:24.440 --> 00:39:26.679
You got to let people know what you did. But
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he hasn't bragged about what he's done. He's always remained
706
00:39:29.440 --> 00:39:32.320
he always uh has said he's innocent. Okay. I just
707
00:39:32.360 --> 00:39:34.320
feel like if you're holding onto a lie that long,
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he would have cracked at some point, we all crack, right,
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I don't know. Don't come for me again. He's in prison.
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00:39:41.880 --> 00:39:44.760
I don't give a fuck. Like his wife was murdered
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00:39:44.760 --> 00:39:48.039
at the end of the day, and I hope the
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00:39:48.119 --> 00:39:51.079
right person was locked up. But when you look into
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00:39:51.400 --> 00:39:55.039
evidence and whatnot, it's kind of like, m did they
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00:39:55.039 --> 00:39:57.559
make the right choice? I don't know. That one upsets
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00:39:57.559 --> 00:39:59.719
people a lot, But I'm like, I don't know. I
716
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don't now, what do I know? I don't know. Maddie
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Fellows ninety eight wants to know what was mentally the
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hardest MMM or dark History episode hardest for you to fill.
719
00:40:13.320 --> 00:40:18.880
There's so many, like I think on Murder Mystery. Oops, sorry,
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I didn't even see I had that on Murder Mystery.
721
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I would say the hardest one to film is not
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because of the reason you're thinking. It's probably it's like
723
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the Charles Manson one, because by the time that I
724
00:40:29.719 --> 00:40:31.880
got to film I had done so much research on
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00:40:31.920 --> 00:40:34.519
this motherfucker. I was so sick of him. I was
726
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so sick of Charles Manson. And that one was hard
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00:40:37.320 --> 00:40:40.800
because it was like, I went in because there's so
728
00:40:41.039 --> 00:40:44.840
much information available about this guy. Sometimes you come across
729
00:40:44.960 --> 00:40:47.360
true crime stories where there's really not a lot of
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00:40:47.360 --> 00:40:50.400
information to go off off of, and it's like, really,
731
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those are difficult. With Charles Manson or with high profile cases.
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Sometimes there's too much information to go off of and
733
00:40:57.639 --> 00:41:00.599
you're like, now what do I do with? Oh? I
734
00:41:00.639 --> 00:41:06.840
had too much Charles Manson in my system, and uh,
735
00:41:06.960 --> 00:41:10.400
that was just Oh. I was just so sick of him.
736
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My time I sat down in film, Oh my God
737
00:41:13.760 --> 00:41:16.360
and blessed, there was still so much that like I
738
00:41:16.480 --> 00:41:20.320
left out because it's like useless knowledge. This doesn't really
739
00:41:20.360 --> 00:41:22.280
add to the story. But it's always stuff that I
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00:41:22.320 --> 00:41:27.000
find interesting. So I don't know, maybe one day I'll
741
00:41:27.000 --> 00:41:30.840
write a book where it's like about maybe true crime
742
00:41:30.880 --> 00:41:34.440
related and I could just share all of the stuff
743
00:41:34.440 --> 00:41:36.400
that I didn't get to put in my videos. I
744
00:41:36.400 --> 00:41:38.679
think that's a goal of mine. That way. I feel
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00:41:38.679 --> 00:41:43.719
like all these hours I've spent learning about these sick freaks,
746
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I could put it into something. Do you know what
747
00:41:46.760 --> 00:41:52.440
I'm saying? Wow, I know. So I don't know. That
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00:41:52.480 --> 00:41:56.000
one was hard because I hate him truly. It just
749
00:41:56.159 --> 00:41:59.119
was like so sick of him as far as emotionally hard,
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00:41:59.199 --> 00:42:03.239
Probably tol Race massacre for a couple of reasons. One
751
00:42:03.679 --> 00:42:05.840
never heard of it. I feel like a fucking idiot,
752
00:42:05.920 --> 00:42:08.280
Sorry for my language, but I did. I was like,
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how come I didn't learn about this in schoolery thing?
754
00:42:11.280 --> 00:42:14.599
And like I just felt I was like, this is
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00:42:15.000 --> 00:42:17.400
horrible and I never heard about it. But in a way,
756
00:42:17.440 --> 00:42:20.679
it was kind of one of those moments where it
757
00:42:20.719 --> 00:42:22.760
made me feel bad, but at the same time, it
758
00:42:22.840 --> 00:42:26.039
made me want to know more. And that's truly what
759
00:42:26.199 --> 00:42:30.760
started dark History was the fact that I felt like,
760
00:42:31.400 --> 00:42:34.719
there's so much I don't know when it comes to history,
761
00:42:35.039 --> 00:42:40.079
there's so much I didn't know, and the Tulsa Race
762
00:42:40.159 --> 00:42:43.920
massacre really showed me that there was a lot to learn,
763
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and I was open to it, like I wanted to know.
764
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I want to know everything. I want to understand. I
765
00:42:48.920 --> 00:42:52.840
want to hear and understand everyone's stories. And yeah, so
766
00:42:52.920 --> 00:42:56.159
that one was hard too because it was like just
767
00:42:56.199 --> 00:43:00.159
such all of it, all of them are hard. We're
768
00:43:00.159 --> 00:43:04.000
all hard because someone dies in the end. Somebody always dies.
769
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We're all hard. Oh my gosh, cute. I like this
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00:43:08.800 --> 00:43:13.199
question and Underscore, Lena, is anyone else in the room
771
00:43:13.199 --> 00:43:15.039
with you when you film murder, mystery and makeup? You're
772
00:43:15.039 --> 00:43:18.760
so natural? No, just me and you. I like to
773
00:43:18.760 --> 00:43:21.000
do it alone. I feel like I could be myself
774
00:43:21.320 --> 00:43:23.559
when there's other people in the room. It makes me
775
00:43:23.639 --> 00:43:26.760
very nervous. I kept. I feel like, I don't know,
776
00:43:27.360 --> 00:43:31.840
I just I feel comfortable. You know. Usually it's always
777
00:43:31.880 --> 00:43:34.599
me dark history, though I have some someone in the
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00:43:34.679 --> 00:43:37.840
room to make sure that I'm staying put because I
779
00:43:37.920 --> 00:43:40.679
like to move around a lot and I tend to
780
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get out of focus. Underscore Kimmy Underscore baby asked, what
781
00:43:44.320 --> 00:43:46.960
are your coping mechanisms for after you learn all this
782
00:43:47.039 --> 00:43:52.119
heavy stuff? Teach me what are your coping mechanisms? Therapy
783
00:43:52.320 --> 00:43:54.920
always helps to do therapy. I've been doing therapy since
784
00:43:54.920 --> 00:43:56.880
I was eighteen, so I feel like I've been preparing
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00:43:56.920 --> 00:43:59.519
for this for a long time. Honestly, again, I kind
786
00:43:59.559 --> 00:44:03.679
of mentioned earlier, but learning to shut things down has
787
00:44:03.719 --> 00:44:08.039
helped me tremendously. Like I don't after a certaintant point,
788
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of the day, I turn it off. I turn it down,
789
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and I make sure to watch like, let's say, a
790
00:44:14.880 --> 00:44:17.880
researcher like Albert Fish was a really heavy story. So
791
00:44:17.960 --> 00:44:20.320
it's like making sure that I watch when I go home,
792
00:44:20.360 --> 00:44:26.000
I'm watching something that is uplifting or I'm just on
793
00:44:26.119 --> 00:44:29.760
my free time finding something positive to do, because yeah,
794
00:44:29.960 --> 00:44:34.039
it can definitely pull you down. There's been a it's
795
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natural to be like, oh my god, everything's bad and
796
00:44:37.360 --> 00:44:41.920
just spiral, but just learning that there are bad people
797
00:44:41.920 --> 00:44:44.400
in the world, but you got to have hope and
798
00:44:44.519 --> 00:44:49.000
faith in yourself and other people. I don't know. I
799
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don't have any answer for you, Kimmy. I just know
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that it can be really hard and learning to shut
801
00:44:55.280 --> 00:44:58.599
it down and shut it off is ideal. Oh you know,
802
00:44:58.639 --> 00:45:00.400
it's another big one that's helped me. Trym to say
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that a lot of people don't like this answer, but
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00:45:02.519 --> 00:45:06.519
I won't tell you Anyways, Here I go, I put
805
00:45:06.559 --> 00:45:12.079
a limit on my screen time. Yeah, I do so
806
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on your iPhone. I don't know if you could do
807
00:45:15.840 --> 00:45:17.800
it on Android and stuff, but on your iPhone you
808
00:45:17.840 --> 00:45:21.079
can actually set limits on your apps. So like on
809
00:45:21.119 --> 00:45:25.000
my social media apps, I only allow myself forty five
810
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minutes a day on social media forty five minutes a day,
811
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and that prevents me from wasting four hours doom scrolling.
812
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It's been a tremendous help, it really has, and I
813
00:45:38.039 --> 00:45:42.360
highly recommend that you do this too. It's I'm not
814
00:45:42.360 --> 00:45:44.199
gonna lie. It's hard because a lot of us don't
815
00:45:44.199 --> 00:45:46.440
want to admit that we're addicted to our phones and
816
00:45:46.480 --> 00:45:48.880
social media and screen time and stuff, right, but we are,
817
00:45:49.239 --> 00:45:51.239
and it's okay to acknowledge that and say, you know what,
818
00:45:51.400 --> 00:45:55.719
I need to cut down and try. That's how I've
819
00:45:55.760 --> 00:45:57.719
been able to read so much. If you follow me
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00:45:57.760 --> 00:45:59.960
on social media, like you know, I was reading book
821
00:46:00.159 --> 00:46:02.239
like crazy, it's because I cut down my screen time
822
00:46:02.719 --> 00:46:04.480
and I was like, now what do I do? I
823
00:46:04.480 --> 00:46:08.920
started reading like crazy? I yeah, I mean just that
824
00:46:09.039 --> 00:46:14.159
alone is like, it's just you have to limit the
825
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screen time and the amount of trauma porn you are receiving.
826
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That's you know, there's a lot out there, so you
827
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have to limit it. You have to. And I say
828
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a lot of people don't like that answer because a
829
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lot of people don't want to limit their's screen time.
830
00:46:29.199 --> 00:46:32.960
You know, I get that, But if you're serious about it.
831
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I highly recommend that you should, and it will help
832
00:46:36.320 --> 00:46:41.079
keep your head clear, your energy up. You're not cluttered
833
00:46:41.119 --> 00:46:44.960
with everyone else's thoughts, opinions, ideas and stuff, which is
834
00:46:45.039 --> 00:46:50.280
good in a limited time. Right, So, Kimmy, I think
835
00:46:50.320 --> 00:46:52.760
that's the answer. Really, Okay, this is an interesting one,
836
00:46:52.920 --> 00:46:57.440
bo botanics, please research the crazy stuff going on in
837
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Oklahoma skinned cats, drowned dogs, and body remains. First of all,
838
00:47:03.000 --> 00:47:05.000
I have no idea what you're talking about. Second of all,
839
00:47:06.679 --> 00:47:11.639
let me google this really quick. What is going on
840
00:47:11.800 --> 00:47:20.559
in a Klahoma skinned cats? I got a lot of
841
00:47:20.639 --> 00:47:24.159
questions asking me why twenty twenty two was such a
842
00:47:24.400 --> 00:47:29.800
rough year. It was a rough year for many reasons. Personally,
843
00:47:30.320 --> 00:47:32.880
when I start, I'm telling you, one day I'm going
844
00:47:32.960 --> 00:47:34.400
to put out a book and I'm going to come
845
00:47:34.400 --> 00:47:38.880
for everyone's throats. I swear to God, point blank, period,
846
00:47:39.280 --> 00:47:42.719
because for now I can't talk about certain things because unfortunately,
847
00:47:43.000 --> 00:47:47.119
sometimes you signed contracts that say you can't talk about
848
00:47:47.119 --> 00:47:50.159
shit for a while, and you really can't, and it's
849
00:47:50.159 --> 00:47:53.559
so stupid it doesn't make sense. Especially I can't talk
850
00:47:53.599 --> 00:47:58.440
about it, so let me shut up. So what's the question. Okay, So,
851
00:47:58.679 --> 00:48:00.920
last year it was kind of like I got taken
852
00:48:00.960 --> 00:48:07.280
advantage of a lot and I had to cut those
853
00:48:07.559 --> 00:48:09.039
was that last year, the year before, it was like
854
00:48:09.079 --> 00:48:11.599
the last couple of years, like this has been happening,
855
00:48:12.119 --> 00:48:14.159
So it wasn't just last year. It was kind of
856
00:48:14.199 --> 00:48:18.800
like the last couple of years, like things were great
857
00:48:18.960 --> 00:48:22.480
on YouTube, but in my personal life, it's just like
858
00:48:22.840 --> 00:48:26.199
sometimes you just have bad people in your life and
859
00:48:26.239 --> 00:48:28.320
you don't see it until you see it one day
860
00:48:28.440 --> 00:48:31.599
and then you're like, and then you gotta get rid
861
00:48:31.679 --> 00:48:36.440
of that. And then many of you know that I
862
00:48:36.559 --> 00:48:39.599
was in a relationship and that relationship came to an end.
863
00:48:39.679 --> 00:48:43.639
We were together for eight eight years, seven years, eight years,
864
00:48:43.800 --> 00:48:48.320
and we broke it off and it was really hard,
865
00:48:49.119 --> 00:48:51.840
and we had a dog together, and he has a
866
00:48:51.880 --> 00:48:55.519
dog right now, Saint. So that's why I see a
867
00:48:55.519 --> 00:48:58.840
lot of you asking about Saint. He has Saint, And
868
00:48:58.920 --> 00:49:01.880
it's okay because at the end of the day, Saints
869
00:49:01.920 --> 00:49:04.400
happy and healthy and doing well, and that's all that
870
00:49:04.480 --> 00:49:07.599
matters to me. Of course, I miss him dearly, Sainty.
871
00:49:07.760 --> 00:49:12.440
Oh I cry ugh. Oh, he's such a good boy.
872
00:49:12.679 --> 00:49:15.079
He's such a good boy. But yeah, you know, breakups
873
00:49:15.079 --> 00:49:18.760
are hard, No matter who you are, right. So it
874
00:49:18.800 --> 00:49:21.320
was like a lot of loss was happening, a lot
875
00:49:21.320 --> 00:49:26.000
of deaths as well. I lost a really really good
876
00:49:26.039 --> 00:49:30.119
friend that I'm not ready to talk about. So damn
877
00:49:30.159 --> 00:49:35.280
you guys got me cry twice. So there's just some
878
00:49:35.400 --> 00:49:40.199
things that were very The Lord was testing me. Oh shit, yeah,
879
00:49:41.480 --> 00:49:44.480
uh oh yeah. And do you want this? That's what
880
00:49:44.760 --> 00:49:46.559
when the Lord was saying do you want this? If so,
881
00:49:46.559 --> 00:49:51.960
you're gonna have to keep going, girl, I kept going
882
00:49:52.039 --> 00:49:57.519
for some reason. Yeah, this should just be me crying
883
00:49:57.559 --> 00:50:00.679
for an hour. Okay, So it was we're rough year
884
00:50:02.519 --> 00:50:07.000
around a couple of years honestly. So I'm single now.
885
00:50:07.119 --> 00:50:10.360
I was never married. We were not married. I don't
886
00:50:10.360 --> 00:50:15.159
have kids nothing. Someone i my uh one of my
887
00:50:15.320 --> 00:50:18.639
friends had googled me. She was like, look on Google.
888
00:50:18.719 --> 00:50:22.760
It says you're divorced, that you have a couple of kids,
889
00:50:22.760 --> 00:50:24.679
and you're like five foot eight. And I was like, wow,
890
00:50:24.719 --> 00:50:27.519
who is she? Huh wow? Who is that? That's not me?
891
00:50:27.800 --> 00:50:31.880
No kids, never been married, five foot two. Sorry. I
892
00:50:31.920 --> 00:50:34.039
know I broke it for you because I give off
893
00:50:34.519 --> 00:50:39.760
tall girl energy. But I'm a fun size Sorry i am,
894
00:50:39.800 --> 00:50:42.360
I'm fun size. I'm just feeling very sensitive today, and
895
00:50:42.360 --> 00:50:46.320
I don't I'm very vulnerable, I think because reading this
896
00:50:46.440 --> 00:50:48.639
has made me giving me a minute to like stop
897
00:50:48.679 --> 00:50:53.400
and reflect, which I haven't done in a while. And yeah,
898
00:50:53.679 --> 00:50:56.840
I just appreciate you guys. What are you reading? That's
899
00:50:56.840 --> 00:50:59.360
a great question. I love reading currently. I am reading.
900
00:50:59.639 --> 00:51:04.039
It's Dark History, though it's related to Stalin. Can do
901
00:51:04.079 --> 00:51:07.880
an episode of Dark History about Stalin and so I
902
00:51:08.039 --> 00:51:12.000
just been reading about him and stuff. It's not very exciting,
903
00:51:12.039 --> 00:51:13.800
but to me, it's kind of exciting because this guy
904
00:51:13.880 --> 00:51:14.199
was like.
905
00:51:15.320 --> 00:51:19.519
Sodweeby and he got into like high power and killed
906
00:51:19.599 --> 00:51:25.400
so many people, and it's always the dweebiest dudes, right, Like, wait,
907
00:51:25.440 --> 00:51:27.280
is that I got that?
908
00:51:28.760 --> 00:51:31.719
What would I ever date a woman? My god? I
909
00:51:31.760 --> 00:51:34.199
don't know. I don't like vagina, so I would say no,
910
00:51:35.320 --> 00:51:38.039
never say never. Shit, this will be the last question.
911
00:51:38.079 --> 00:51:39.880
How about that? I feel like this is long because
912
00:51:39.920 --> 00:51:43.719
this one. Everybody asks you about the theme song, the
913
00:51:43.719 --> 00:51:46.400
theme song bring It Back, Wear it did Good? Why'd
914
00:51:46.400 --> 00:51:48.960
you do that? I'll just give you a brief rundown
915
00:51:49.280 --> 00:51:52.599
about the theme song. When I first started Murder Mystery Makeup,
916
00:51:52.599 --> 00:51:54.159
I didn't know what the hell it was doing okay.
917
00:51:54.199 --> 00:51:58.360
This was a news idea that I had, and I
918
00:51:58.440 --> 00:52:02.280
was feeling a little on comfortable. So when I was
919
00:52:02.320 --> 00:52:04.760
showing up, I was like, in the beginning, if you
920
00:52:04.800 --> 00:52:07.760
watch My Murmisteries from the very beginning, you'll see the
921
00:52:07.760 --> 00:52:11.519
theme song slowly progressed because I told the audience I
922
00:52:11.559 --> 00:52:13.920
was like, this is so awkward. I feel like I
923
00:52:14.000 --> 00:52:17.159
need a theme song or like background music or something
924
00:52:17.159 --> 00:52:20.039
to kind of lighten the mood. So then I just
925
00:52:20.039 --> 00:52:23.880
started making noises with the mouth, eventually getting to Sana San,
926
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which many of you recognize from the Simple Life. Me
927
00:52:27.440 --> 00:52:30.639
and my girlfriend Ooh, we would Snasa all day every day.
928
00:52:30.639 --> 00:52:36.960
It was just like it's just what we would do
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to each other. Love that show growing up too when
930
00:52:38.880 --> 00:52:42.400
I was a preteen. Oh. But then it was kind
931
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of like just making fun of like what me and
932
00:52:45.559 --> 00:52:47.880
when my friends would do, and it just stuck, and
933
00:52:47.920 --> 00:52:49.840
I don't know, I kept doing it. And the reason
934
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I stopped is because at this point, I've I've grown
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so much, right, It's kind of like I didn't need
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the theme song anymore to kind of like ease me
937
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into the app episode because I was feeling awkward. So
938
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I was just like, you know, I don't feel awkward anymore.
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I kind of know what I'm doing now. I come
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in and I'm like, hey, it's Monday, you know, like
941
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I know what I'm doing now. And I felt like
942
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it was kind of a crutch. But also, if you're
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new to my channel, and let's say, let's say i'm
944
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talking about your family, like your family was a victim
945
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of the story I'm talking about, and I'm senator, I
946
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was like, you know, like I'm already doing makeup. I
947
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get like that's kind of it's kind of already pushing
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the line. But the sound effects, I was, I don't know.
949
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I just wasn't feeling like I was feeling bad about it.
950
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And if I'm feeling bad about it, I should stop, right.
951
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Of course a lot of you were like, bring it back,
952
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but it just I'm unsure. I'm unsure, but I noticed
953
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since I stopped doing the theme song, everything just went
954
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down hell in my personal life. I'm just kidding. I
955
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am kidding, but yeah, it was really a buffer that
956
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stayed for a long time. And love the theme song.
957
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If you Sana Sami in public, I will Santa you
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right back. Okay, I just don't know, maybe every once
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in a while, I when I'm feeling awkward, I'll Santa
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Sana because some I still get very nervous when I
961
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sit down a film. I really do like scary Hailey
962
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tutu to Do you enjoy dark history more than murder,
963
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mystery and makeup? Do you feel like murder mystery makeup
964
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is more? But sure, no, not at all. I love
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I hate saying love murder, mystery and makeup because it's
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true crime. But I love what I get to do.
967
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It's so okay. I'm so thankful and I'm so curious
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that this what I'm doing. It feeds that curiosity that
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I have. You know, it's very I don't want to
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see fulfilling. I guess it is fulfilling. I don't know.
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I don't see it as a chore. I don't like that.
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That upsets me. Does it come across as a chore?
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I hope not. There are some days where it's like, yeah,
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I don't feel good and I don't want a film,
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but you know, if I want it, there to be
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a video on Monday. Probably should. So there are a
977
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couple of times where I'm like, look, I got cramps,
978
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deal with it. Right. I feel like I tell you
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guys when I'm having an off day, keep the lines
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of communication open. But no, not a chore. I mean,
981
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I don't know how long I'll be doing this. I
982
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can't believe it's already been four years. I don't know
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what the future holds. I just am thankful for where
984
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I am today and thankful for you guys. I appreciate
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all of you, really, I really do. I hope this
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Q and A. I hope this Q and A gave
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00:55:40.440 --> 00:55:42.440
you a little bit of insight into me and how
988
00:55:42.480 --> 00:55:45.840
I work and all that stuff. But let me know
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down in the comment section. Should I do another Q
990
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and A and maybe every couple of months, I don't know.
991
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Thank you guys so much for hanging out with me today.
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I hope I answered some of your questions. Let me
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know down in the description box who you want not
994
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description box, jeez, in the comments section. If you have
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00:56:02.719 --> 00:56:05.960
any other questions, maybe I'll save them and I could
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do another Q and A sometime soon, depending on if
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this is something we like. Let me know. Next week
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will be a normal murder mystery makeup. But thank you
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for hanging out with me today and getting to know me.
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A little bit. And I also get to know you
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guys a little bit too by seeing what your questions are. Yeah.
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I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day.
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You make good choices. Please be safe out there, okay,
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and I'll be seeing you guys later. Goodbye.