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Chemsex.
00:00:01.760 --> 00:00:09.119
Sexualized drug use among men who have sex with men, typically involving methamphetamine, methadrone, and GHB, among others.
00:00:09.359 --> 00:00:18.399
Chemsex misuse is a worldwide epidemic that needs attention, dialogue, and hope for those lost in it, which is the purpose of the Aftermath Podcast.
00:00:18.559 --> 00:00:28.239
Please note the views expressed by the host and guest on this podcast are not to be taken as medical advice, and the content around sex and drug use can be triggering.
00:00:29.600 --> 00:00:33.679
All right, welcome back to the Aftermath Podcast and this solo episode.
00:00:33.920 --> 00:00:38.240
Don't forget there's a supplemental study guide that goes along with this episode and every episode.
00:00:38.399 --> 00:00:39.759
The link will be in the show notes.
00:00:39.920 --> 00:00:47.280
Please remember to like, subscribe, and rate the podcast so we can get the algorithm to place it in the ears and eyes of those who need it.
00:00:47.520 --> 00:00:51.200
So today we're talking about a phase of recovery that I call glitching.
00:00:51.439 --> 00:00:54.640
Keep listening, and let's start with a story.
00:00:55.039 --> 00:00:59.359
So the last light rail, if you're from Charlotte, you'll know what the light rail is.
00:00:59.439 --> 00:01:02.960
It's just a train pickup was at 2 a.m.
00:01:03.359 --> 00:01:12.640
So I had to be checked out by the manager, the taco place, collect my tips by 1.45 so I could run the four blocks to the stop.
00:01:13.120 --> 00:01:18.000
I learned my lesson after having slept on the bench outside after missing one of these stops.
00:01:18.239 --> 00:01:26.400
So the train would take me all the way across Charlotte, all the way across town to my new home, the Golden Leaf Motel.
00:01:26.879 --> 00:01:35.439
So the door was warped and it left a crack wide enough for passersby to see me, didn't care.
00:01:35.599 --> 00:01:38.799
There was a red stain on the ceiling that I saw and I lay back.
00:01:38.959 --> 00:01:40.959
I chose to believe that was ketchup.
00:01:41.200 --> 00:01:44.799
And the bedding smelled like my chain-smoking great-grandma.
00:01:45.200 --> 00:01:49.760
But it was a step up from being on the streets.
00:01:50.239 --> 00:01:54.959
These were some of the first days of my recovery journey.
00:01:55.120 --> 00:02:00.719
And I remember walking into my room to deafening silence.
00:02:01.680 --> 00:02:15.919
Only a few weeks before hotel rooms that I were in were buzzing with pornography in the background, idle chatter, men coming in and out, sometimes fucking.
00:02:16.960 --> 00:02:20.879
My life had taken a complete 180.
00:02:21.680 --> 00:02:25.439
So I clicked on the TV, the local news was on.
00:02:25.680 --> 00:02:29.840
I hadn't watched the news or any other TV in months.
00:02:31.120 --> 00:02:40.560
Stared down at my phone, no grinder, no fuck buddies, nothing but a foreign phone number on an Android phone.
00:02:41.360 --> 00:02:45.039
And I sat on the bed feeling very disassociated.
00:02:45.759 --> 00:02:57.280
It felt surreal to have been plucked out of my chemsex way of life, which is my full-time life, and placed into this very unfamiliar and boring world.
00:02:58.080 --> 00:03:06.319
That space between my old and new identity felt very scary and it felt discombobulating.
00:03:06.879 --> 00:03:12.960
And now I know, looking back, that that space was necessary.
00:03:13.280 --> 00:03:21.360
So for you, maybe you've cleaned out the drawer, you've deleted your apps, you've muted the guys, you changed your number, maybe you did all that.
00:03:21.520 --> 00:03:28.879
And now you're standing in the middle of your own life, staring at the space where all of that used to live.
00:03:29.199 --> 00:03:33.759
And you're feeling something closer to grief than a relief.
00:03:35.120 --> 00:03:41.439
You've walked into what researchers and contemplatives call liminal space.
00:03:41.840 --> 00:03:47.759
And that is supposed to feel exactly like this uncomfortable.
00:03:48.080 --> 00:03:50.879
It's a threshold to not a failure.
00:03:51.039 --> 00:03:56.000
So this word liminal comes from the Latin limon, which means threshold.
00:03:56.319 --> 00:03:57.840
It's a doorway moment.
00:03:58.479 --> 00:04:03.759
It's that place between the room you left and the one you haven't entered yet.
00:04:04.080 --> 00:04:15.599
This space between the old world behind you and the new one not entered is actually the most teachable space we will ever inhabit.
00:04:16.480 --> 00:04:27.600
I'll add something from within the work that I see in the men I work with, which is liminal space, is also the most honest space we ever inhabit.
00:04:27.920 --> 00:04:30.319
Because there's nothing left to perform.
00:04:30.720 --> 00:04:32.319
Everything's out in the open.
00:04:32.560 --> 00:04:36.720
Chemsex, for a lot of us, was never just about the drugs or the sex.
00:04:36.959 --> 00:04:46.639
It was a structure, a predictable sequence that told you who to be, what role to play, what the next three hours held, right?
00:04:46.800 --> 00:04:52.000
You take all that away, and you're not just managing cravings anymore.
00:04:52.480 --> 00:05:01.519
You're standing in the wreckage of an entire operating system, and you're waiting on a new one to compile.
00:05:02.639 --> 00:05:10.160
There's a reason this disorientation hits so hard for people coming out of complex trauma and addiction.
00:05:10.720 --> 00:05:28.959
When your nervous system spent years organizing itself around chaos, around having to perform a version of yourself just to be safe, just to be wanted, just to be approved of, predictability that becomes the load-bearing place to be.
00:05:29.199 --> 00:05:33.920
Pull it out, and the whole structure falls apart, right?
00:05:34.480 --> 00:05:40.240
This tracks with what the research is starting to show about identity in chemsex recovery.
00:05:40.399 --> 00:05:46.959
There's a recent longitudinal study of MSM, Men Who Have Sex with Men, with chemsex experience.
00:05:47.279 --> 00:05:58.800
It found that men with lower identity continuity and higher internalized shame were more likely to cycle into riskier patterns over time.
00:05:59.360 --> 00:06:08.720
While the men with a more resilient, stable sense of self tended to shift toward grounded, integrated outcomes instead.
00:06:08.879 --> 00:06:14.000
There's a difference in how different men interact with chemsex.
00:06:14.160 --> 00:06:15.839
And it comes down to identity.
00:06:16.000 --> 00:06:21.279
Identity isn't a side effect of recovery, it's the mechanism.
00:06:21.519 --> 00:06:25.920
So there's encouraging news buried in some of this body of research, too.
00:06:26.079 --> 00:06:33.600
There's a pilot study using mindfulness-based interventions with young men who have sex with men in chemsex recovery.
00:06:33.680 --> 00:06:37.920
And they found that men built present moment awareness.
00:06:38.079 --> 00:06:41.439
When they did that, they didn't just use less.
00:06:42.079 --> 00:06:53.120
Underneath that, something quieter showed up: a stronger sense of self-compassion and self-identity when they were mindful in the moment.
00:06:53.439 --> 00:07:00.319
The very thing liminal space tends to strip bare before it builds everything.
00:07:00.800 --> 00:07:04.160
You strip your identity so you can build a new one.
00:07:04.399 --> 00:07:12.639
So when you're standing in that threshold, feeling like the floor gave out, what's happening is more precise than just struggling.
00:07:13.199 --> 00:07:19.519
Your old identity, the one chemsex helped you perform, is dissolving.
00:07:19.839 --> 00:07:22.480
But the new one isn't formed yet.
00:07:22.800 --> 00:07:28.240
That gap is where the actual change happens if you want it to.
00:07:29.199 --> 00:07:32.160
Not before it, not after it, while you're in it.
00:07:32.399 --> 00:07:38.319
Sometimes I call this state glitching, which helps some men connect more with the feeling.
00:07:38.560 --> 00:07:41.360
So I'm sure you might ask, how long will this last?
00:07:41.680 --> 00:07:46.480
Oh, the impatience and the instant gratification of chemsex users.
00:07:46.639 --> 00:07:48.800
This is not going to happen over a weekend.
00:07:49.040 --> 00:07:56.800
The shift from an old, familiar but harmful normal to a new healthy normal usually takes three to six months.
00:07:57.040 --> 00:08:03.279
This is that's just an average, of feeling to some degree like you don't know who you are.
00:08:03.759 --> 00:08:09.600
It's disorientation, it's ambiguity, it's a loneliness that you feel.
00:08:09.759 --> 00:08:12.000
It has nothing to do with being physically alone.
00:08:12.240 --> 00:08:13.920
You don't know who you are.
00:08:14.399 --> 00:08:18.959
Some days a flicker of possibility you don't trust yet either, right?
00:08:20.560 --> 00:08:22.639
All of that belongs here.
00:08:23.360 --> 00:08:26.240
And none of that means go back.
00:08:27.040 --> 00:08:30.079
Going back is the easy move.
00:08:30.560 --> 00:08:39.840
Because that old normal, whatever it costs you, however you remember how horrible it was, was at least known.
00:08:40.000 --> 00:08:41.200
It's predictable.
00:08:41.360 --> 00:08:42.480
You feel safe.
00:08:42.639 --> 00:08:47.200
Your nervous system will reach for known over healthy almost every time.
00:08:47.519 --> 00:08:53.120
Because it's protecting you with the only data it has available.
00:08:53.440 --> 00:09:00.399
This is the moment to meet that reflex with something other than judgment, judging yourself.
00:09:02.399 --> 00:09:05.759
Because you feel like you are constantly oscillating.
00:09:05.840 --> 00:09:07.279
That's that glitching.
00:09:07.600 --> 00:09:09.360
And you will for a while.
00:09:09.679 --> 00:09:16.080
The important part here is not to meet any hint of your old patterns with judgment.
00:09:16.240 --> 00:09:20.399
Anything you do that looks like your old self, don't judge it.
00:09:20.720 --> 00:09:24.080
Just understand that this is a process.
00:09:24.960 --> 00:09:26.960
It's an invitation, right?
00:09:29.039 --> 00:09:39.679
So if you're in this space right now, somewhere in the gap between who you were and who you're becoming, I'm not going to tell you to hurry up or get comfortable.
00:09:39.840 --> 00:09:48.159
I'm going to tell you to create a vision of who you're becoming and allow that to pull you through.
00:09:48.399 --> 00:09:53.759
You have heard me talk about this on the podcast before, but let me finish my opening story.
00:09:54.000 --> 00:10:11.759
So I clicked that TV off that night, and I was noticeably shaking, and I was observing the swirling thoughts about how I could possibly find some Tina or go get access to Grinder, but instead I lay back on the bed and I closed my eyes.
00:10:12.639 --> 00:10:18.639
And suddenly I found myself in my own bedroom, in my own home.
00:10:19.279 --> 00:10:22.720
I could see pictures of me and the kids on the nightstand.
00:10:23.360 --> 00:10:32.799
I could hear my son in his bedroom yelling at his online games, and I heard the sound of my daughter in her bedroom giggling with friends.
00:10:33.360 --> 00:10:36.480
I was overcome with gratitude.
00:10:37.360 --> 00:10:49.919
So I imagined graduating from drug treatment court and driving the three of us home with a valid driver's license, stopping by Dairy Queen for our favorite blizzards.
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Could taste it, I could smell it, I could hear us talking.
00:10:54.320 --> 00:11:01.840
I took myself out of that dingy motel and into the man I was becoming and the life that I was claiming.
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Then I drifted off to sleep peacefully and full of hope.
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The liminal space is where you have a magic wand at your disposal.
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You are in the void where you can create whatever life you want.
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You have the freedom and the time to dream.
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To use the power of your imagination to visualize and manifest life after myth.
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But don't fill this space with fear and regret and shame and guilt and anger and euphoric recall.
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This may be the only opportunity in your entire life where you get to be separated and plucked out of a life and begin with a clean slate and choose the way your life unfolds instead of being at the mercy of the world around you.
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And now all I can say is have fun.
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Because it is fun.
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Alright, I hope this helped.
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If you want to join in the conversation, you can comment on Spotify, you can comment on YouTube, you can DM me on any social media platform.
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I'm anywhere at all times.
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All right.
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Thank you and have a great week.
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Chemsex.
00:00:01.760 --> 00:00:09.119
Sexualized drug use among men who have sex with men, typically involving methamphetamine, methadrone, and GHB, among others.
00:00:09.359 --> 00:00:18.399
Chemsex misuse is a worldwide epidemic that needs attention, dialogue, and hope for those lost in it, which is the purpose of the Aftermath Podcast.
00:00:18.559 --> 00:00:28.239
Please note the views expressed by the host and guest on this podcast are not to be taken as medical advice, and the content around sex and drug use can be triggering.
00:00:29.600 --> 00:00:33.679
All right, welcome back to the Aftermath Podcast and this solo episode.
00:00:33.920 --> 00:00:38.240
Don't forget there's a supplemental study guide that goes along with this episode and every episode.
00:00:38.399 --> 00:00:39.759
The link will be in the show notes.
00:00:39.920 --> 00:00:47.280
Please remember to like, subscribe, and rate the podcast so we can get the algorithm to place it in the ears and eyes of those who need it.
00:00:47.520 --> 00:00:51.200
So today we're talking about a phase of recovery that I call glitching.
00:00:51.439 --> 00:00:54.640
Keep listening, and let's start with a story.
00:00:55.039 --> 00:00:59.359
So the last light rail, if you're from Charlotte, you'll know what the light rail is.
00:00:59.439 --> 00:01:02.960
It's just a train pickup was at 2 a.m.
00:01:03.359 --> 00:01:12.640
So I had to be checked out by the manager, the taco place, collect my tips by 1.45 so I could run the four blocks to the stop.
00:01:13.120 --> 00:01:18.000
I learned my lesson after having slept on the bench outside after missing one of these stops.
00:01:18.239 --> 00:01:26.400
So the train would take me all the way across Charlotte, all the way across town to my new home, the Golden Leaf Motel.
00:01:26.879 --> 00:01:35.439
So the door was warped and it left a crack wide enough for passersby to see me, didn't care.
00:01:35.599 --> 00:01:38.799
There was a red stain on the ceiling that I saw and I lay back.
00:01:38.959 --> 00:01:40.959
I chose to believe that was ketchup.
00:01:41.200 --> 00:01:44.799
And the bedding smelled like my chain-smoking great-grandma.
00:01:45.200 --> 00:01:49.760
But it was a step up from being on the streets.
00:01:50.239 --> 00:01:54.959
These were some of the first days of my recovery journey.
00:01:55.120 --> 00:02:00.719
And I remember walking into my room to deafening silence.
00:02:01.680 --> 00:02:15.919
Only a few weeks before hotel rooms that I were in were buzzing with pornography in the background, idle chatter, men coming in and out, sometimes fucking.
00:02:16.960 --> 00:02:20.879
My life had taken a complete 180.
00:02:21.680 --> 00:02:25.439
So I clicked on the TV, the local news was on.
00:02:25.680 --> 00:02:29.840
I hadn't watched the news or any other TV in months.
00:02:31.120 --> 00:02:40.560
Stared down at my phone, no grinder, no fuck buddies, nothing but a foreign phone number on an Android phone.
00:02:41.360 --> 00:02:45.039
And I sat on the bed feeling very disassociated.
00:02:45.759 --> 00:02:57.280
It felt surreal to have been plucked out of my chemsex way of life, which is my full-time life, and placed into this very unfamiliar and boring world.
00:02:58.080 --> 00:03:06.319
That space between my old and new identity felt very scary and it felt discombobulating.
00:03:06.879 --> 00:03:12.960
And now I know, looking back, that that space was necessary.
00:03:13.280 --> 00:03:21.360
So for you, maybe you've cleaned out the drawer, you've deleted your apps, you've muted the guys, you changed your number, maybe you did all that.
00:03:21.520 --> 00:03:28.879
And now you're standing in the middle of your own life, staring at the space where all of that used to live.
00:03:29.199 --> 00:03:33.759
And you're feeling something closer to grief than a relief.
00:03:35.120 --> 00:03:41.439
You've walked into what researchers and contemplatives call liminal space.
00:03:41.840 --> 00:03:47.759
And that is supposed to feel exactly like this uncomfortable.
00:03:48.080 --> 00:03:50.879
It's a threshold to not a failure.
00:03:51.039 --> 00:03:56.000
So this word liminal comes from the Latin limon, which means threshold.
00:03:56.319 --> 00:03:57.840
It's a doorway moment.
00:03:58.479 --> 00:04:03.759
It's that place between the room you left and the one you haven't entered yet.
00:04:04.080 --> 00:04:15.599
This space between the old world behind you and the new one not entered is actually the most teachable space we will ever inhabit.
00:04:16.480 --> 00:04:27.600
I'll add something from within the work that I see in the men I work with, which is liminal space, is also the most honest space we ever inhabit.
00:04:27.920 --> 00:04:30.319
Because there's nothing left to perform.
00:04:30.720 --> 00:04:32.319
Everything's out in the open.
00:04:32.560 --> 00:04:36.720
Chemsex, for a lot of us, was never just about the drugs or the sex.
00:04:36.959 --> 00:04:46.639
It was a structure, a predictable sequence that told you who to be, what role to play, what the next three hours held, right?
00:04:46.800 --> 00:04:52.000
You take all that away, and you're not just managing cravings anymore.
00:04:52.480 --> 00:05:01.519
You're standing in the wreckage of an entire operating system, and you're waiting on a new one to compile.
00:05:02.639 --> 00:05:10.160
There's a reason this disorientation hits so hard for people coming out of complex trauma and addiction.
00:05:10.720 --> 00:05:28.959
When your nervous system spent years organizing itself around chaos, around having to perform a version of yourself just to be safe, just to be wanted, just to be approved of, predictability that becomes the load-bearing place to be.
00:05:29.199 --> 00:05:33.920
Pull it out, and the whole structure falls apart, right?
00:05:34.480 --> 00:05:40.240
This tracks with what the research is starting to show about identity in chemsex recovery.
00:05:40.399 --> 00:05:46.959
There's a recent longitudinal study of MSM, Men Who Have Sex with Men, with chemsex experience.
00:05:47.279 --> 00:05:58.800
It found that men with lower identity continuity and higher internalized shame were more likely to cycle into riskier patterns over time.
00:05:59.360 --> 00:06:08.720
While the men with a more resilient, stable sense of self tended to shift toward grounded, integrated outcomes instead.
00:06:08.879 --> 00:06:14.000
There's a difference in how different men interact with chemsex.
00:06:14.160 --> 00:06:15.839
And it comes down to identity.
00:06:16.000 --> 00:06:21.279
Identity isn't a side effect of recovery, it's the mechanism.
00:06:21.519 --> 00:06:25.920
So there's encouraging news buried in some of this body of research, too.
00:06:26.079 --> 00:06:33.600
There's a pilot study using mindfulness-based interventions with young men who have sex with men in chemsex recovery.
00:06:33.680 --> 00:06:37.920
And they found that men built present moment awareness.
00:06:38.079 --> 00:06:41.439
When they did that, they didn't just use less.
00:06:42.079 --> 00:06:53.120
Underneath that, something quieter showed up: a stronger sense of self-compassion and self-identity when they were mindful in the moment.
00:06:53.439 --> 00:07:00.319
The very thing liminal space tends to strip bare before it builds everything.
00:07:00.800 --> 00:07:04.160
You strip your identity so you can build a new one.
00:07:04.399 --> 00:07:12.639
So when you're standing in that threshold, feeling like the floor gave out, what's happening is more precise than just struggling.
00:07:13.199 --> 00:07:19.519
Your old identity, the one chemsex helped you perform, is dissolving.
00:07:19.839 --> 00:07:22.480
But the new one isn't formed yet.
00:07:22.800 --> 00:07:28.240
That gap is where the actual change happens if you want it to.
00:07:29.199 --> 00:07:32.160
Not before it, not after it, while you're in it.
00:07:32.399 --> 00:07:38.319
Sometimes I call this state glitching, which helps some men connect more with the feeling.
00:07:38.560 --> 00:07:41.360
So I'm sure you might ask, how long will this last?
00:07:41.680 --> 00:07:46.480
Oh, the impatience and the instant gratification of chemsex users.
00:07:46.639 --> 00:07:48.800
This is not going to happen over a weekend.
00:07:49.040 --> 00:07:56.800
The shift from an old, familiar but harmful normal to a new healthy normal usually takes three to six months.
00:07:57.040 --> 00:08:03.279
This is that's just an average, of feeling to some degree like you don't know who you are.
00:08:03.759 --> 00:08:09.600
It's disorientation, it's ambiguity, it's a loneliness that you feel.
00:08:09.759 --> 00:08:12.000
It has nothing to do with being physically alone.
00:08:12.240 --> 00:08:13.920
You don't know who you are.
00:08:14.399 --> 00:08:18.959
Some days a flicker of possibility you don't trust yet either, right?
00:08:20.560 --> 00:08:22.639
All of that belongs here.
00:08:23.360 --> 00:08:26.240
And none of that means go back.
00:08:27.040 --> 00:08:30.079
Going back is the easy move.
00:08:30.560 --> 00:08:39.840
Because that old normal, whatever it costs you, however you remember how horrible it was, was at least known.
00:08:40.000 --> 00:08:41.200
It's predictable.
00:08:41.360 --> 00:08:42.480
You feel safe.
00:08:42.639 --> 00:08:47.200
Your nervous system will reach for known over healthy almost every time.
00:08:47.519 --> 00:08:53.120
Because it's protecting you with the only data it has available.
00:08:53.440 --> 00:09:00.399
This is the moment to meet that reflex with something other than judgment, judging yourself.
00:09:02.399 --> 00:09:05.759
Because you feel like you are constantly oscillating.
00:09:05.840 --> 00:09:07.279
That's that glitching.
00:09:07.600 --> 00:09:09.360
And you will for a while.
00:09:09.679 --> 00:09:16.080
The important part here is not to meet any hint of your old patterns with judgment.
00:09:16.240 --> 00:09:20.399
Anything you do that looks like your old self, don't judge it.
00:09:20.720 --> 00:09:24.080
Just understand that this is a process.
00:09:24.960 --> 00:09:26.960
It's an invitation, right?
00:09:29.039 --> 00:09:39.679
So if you're in this space right now, somewhere in the gap between who you were and who you're becoming, I'm not going to tell you to hurry up or get comfortable.
00:09:39.840 --> 00:09:48.159
I'm going to tell you to create a vision of who you're becoming and allow that to pull you through.
00:09:48.399 --> 00:09:53.759
You have heard me talk about this on the podcast before, but let me finish my opening story.
00:09:54.000 --> 00:10:11.759
So I clicked that TV off that night, and I was noticeably shaking, and I was observing the swirling thoughts about how I could possibly find some Tina or go get access to Grinder, but instead I lay back on the bed and I closed my eyes.
00:10:12.639 --> 00:10:18.639
And suddenly I found myself in my own bedroom, in my own home.
00:10:19.279 --> 00:10:22.720
I could see pictures of me and the kids on the nightstand.
00:10:23.360 --> 00:10:32.799
I could hear my son in his bedroom yelling at his online games, and I heard the sound of my daughter in her bedroom giggling with friends.
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I was overcome with gratitude.
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So I imagined graduating from drug treatment court and driving the three of us home with a valid driver's license, stopping by Dairy Queen for our favorite blizzards.
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Could taste it, I could smell it, I could hear us talking.
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I took myself out of that dingy motel and into the man I was becoming and the life that I was claiming.
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Then I drifted off to sleep peacefully and full of hope.
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The liminal space is where you have a magic wand at your disposal.
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You are in the void where you can create whatever life you want.
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You have the freedom and the time to dream.
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To use the power of your imagination to visualize and manifest life after myth.
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But don't fill this space with fear and regret and shame and guilt and anger and euphoric recall.
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This may be the only opportunity in your entire life where you get to be separated and plucked out of a life and begin with a clean slate and choose the way your life unfolds instead of being at the mercy of the world around you.
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And now all I can say is have fun.
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Because it is fun.
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Alright, I hope this helped.
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If you want to join in the conversation, you can comment on Spotify, you can comment on YouTube, you can DM me on any social media platform.
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I'm anywhere at all times.
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All right.
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Thank you and have a great week.
