Spiritual Awakening After Loss: A Skeptic's Story with Nico Martens | EP 494

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Close your eyes and imagine.
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What if the things in life that caused us the greatest pain, the things that bring us grief, are challenges.
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Challenges designed to help us grow to ultimately become what we were always meant to be.
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We feel like we've been buried, but what if, like a seed, we've been planted?
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And having been planted, we grow to become a mighty tree.
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Now, open your eyes.
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Open your eyes to this way of viewing life.
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Come with me as we explore your true, infinite, eternal nature.
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This is Grief to Growth, and I am your host, Brian Smith.
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Hey there, welcome to Grief to Growth.
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I'm Brian Smith, and I'm glad you're here, whether this is your first episode, or you've been walking on this road with me for a while.
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This show exists because Grief cracked me open, and what I found on the other side actually changed everything.
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Here on Grief to Growth, we talk about loss, we talk about love, consciousness, and what it means to keep living, to keep really living when someone that you love is gone.
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We ask the hard questions, is death really the end?
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Who are we without the people we've lost?
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And what if the breaking apart is actually the beginning of something?
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And I bring on guests who have lived the questions not to study them.
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And Nico Martins is one of those people.
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He's also one of my oldest and dearest friends.
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Now, Nico and I met about 11 years ago, a little bit over 10 years ago, in the most sacred kind of way.
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It was right after my daughter, Shana, transitioned in 2015.
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Our mutual friend Jenny mentioned that she was coming to Shana's service, and Nico told her that Shana had already visited him, and that's how our relationship began.
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So Nico and I started having lunch together, and Nico walked me through some of the darkest, most disorienting days of my life.
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He was a guide before he really ever called himself one, I guess.
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Nico began as a skeptic.
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He's a classically trained electromechanical engineer who had no use for anything that couldn't be measured.
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Then at the age of 36, he sat beside his mother and she took her final breath.
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And that moment didn't just break his heart, it broke his entire framework for reality.
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The identity that he had built, built, the career, the achievements, the carefully constructed life began to fall away.
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And instead of rebuilding the same structure, he walked into the rubble and asked, what's actually here?
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Now, today, Nico is a consciousness educator, a speaker, and a guide in emotional integration and inner transformation.
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His work bridges science, subtle energy, and grounded spiritual practice, helping people move from suppression and survival into something far deeper.
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True integration and embodied presence.
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He created the Mind Body Atlas, a remarkable resource that maps the emotional root patterns behind physical symptoms and everything he does is built on one core belief.
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The life's breaking points aren't detours, they're actually portals.
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So in this conversation, we're going to go to places that don't often get talked about out loud.
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We're going to explore what happens to your identity when grief strips everything familiar away.
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And why rebuilding yourself from scratch might be the most important thing you will ever do.
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We'll talk about why the subconscious mind clings to the pain it knows, rather than finding peace that it doesn't recognize yet.
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And what it actually looks like to work with grief in the body, not just in the mind.
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So if you've been trying to just get through your grief rather than transform it, if you feel like you've been carrying something you can't quite name, something that lives below thought and shows up in your body, in your patterns, in your choices, this conversation's for you.
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So if you want to continue the conversation after the episode, head over to grief2growth.substack.com.
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You'll find an article there about today's discussion, where you can comment and you can connect with me and other listeners.
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And with that, I want to welcome my friend Nico.
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Thank you, Brian.
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Such a pleasure to see you again.
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It's been so long.
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It has been, it's been, it's been a few years when I met you.
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You were, you were living in Cincinnati where I am now, and then you kind of went off and you've been all over the world.
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I have been, yes, I've been on my journey, but I'll never forget those days because they were, they were transforming and, you know, you're talking about grief today, but look how it's often would be perceived to be the worst moments in our lives that we actually find the closest connections.
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Yeah, absolutely.
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And you and I share that.
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So let's tell people that don't know about your, your experience with, with your mother and her passing.
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Yeah.
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So my mother, uh, got, first of all, I moved from Belgium to the United States when I was in 2003, uh, and I really got into alternative health because I went to a doctor here once and quite frankly, coming from Belgium, it wasn't a good experience.
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So I went way deep into health and into alternative health, health, and my friends would jokingly call me Dr. Martens because, uh, you know, I was always having my home look more than a lab, uh, because I was, I was trying new health things and because I'm an engineer at, at heart.
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And then my mother got sick and I was like, you know, I'm going to help you see a breast cancer.
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Right.
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But when it was diagnosed, it was already like pretty far advanced that it couldn't operate all that.
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And she didn't really believe in the traditional, you know, treatments, either the mainstream treatments.
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So I was like, oh, I'm going to help you get better.
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Right.
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And, uh, but she, you know, she got a little better, but then ultimately came to a point where I was for work in Texas and they called me back.
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Like it's time to come home.
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Your mother's is going to pass.
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Right.
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And then I came home and she got better.
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Um, and then she ended up in a hospital again because when she got better, she went outside to cut the flowers and she fell and she broke her femur and another, another bone.
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And I'll never forget that day because she wanted to do, uh, euthanasia, which is, which is legal, uh, in Belgium, because she wanted to be fully conscious when she passed, even though she or me, we didn't believe in anything.
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If I, it seems so silly for me that I'll even speak that today, right?
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That's how much I've changed.
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But we thought you would just fall asleep and never wake up again.
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She wouldn't be fully conscious for that.
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Yeah.
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She wanted to be, and I was the opposite.
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Anything I could get my hands on.
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I was drinking myself to the, I mean, just being honest about it.
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And, uh, because I couldn't deal with like the pain just to thought my mom was my best friend.
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Right.
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And then one day, uh, on a Tuesday, I'll never forget it.
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I walked in and she was all proud because it's a whole process to go through.
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You can't just decide you're going to do this.
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It's a panel of doctors and you know, and she got it approved.
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She had a big smile on her face and partially she got it approved because I had been away from the U S for so long and she brought that up.
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You see, probably it doesn't matter, but my son has been, he's got a life too.
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And it's kind of, yeah, it does matter.
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So Friday, five o'clock and that's kind of a surreal feeling in and off of itself to know when it's like gonna be, and I'll tell you, my mind was playing tricks.
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I couldn't still can believe it until like a minute before my mind was still something was going to happen and this wasn't going to happen.
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It's very interesting.
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You know, and she looked at me and she said, like, I'm really proud of your son, of everything you've achieved and please make something of your life still after I've passed and I felt like a total hypocrite because on paper, I made it the great job, you know, the successful career and all of that, but I was drinking every day because I couldn't cope with what was going on.
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And I just felt when I deeply inside, I was empty.
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Nothing really truly lit me up anymore.
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And that came back later, not to haunt me, but in like a good way, you know, leading to me even quitting like the corporate job.
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But anyway, what started to happen after that, I ended up back in the US and I just fell apart.
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I remember lying curled up in a ball crying on the floor in my house.
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And then I started to meditate, not for anything spiritual, just because I thought it could make me feel better.
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So it started to quiet my mind.
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And then these weird things would start to happen.
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I could feel like somebody touching me on the cheek, like I could smell my mother.
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And when I was deep, I mean, not superficial, but I was getting these like thoughts, so weird, like so out of character for me.
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And one day I asked the question, what if I had this whole thing wrong?
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And this is my mother reaching out to me.
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And that's when the crack kind of happened and then everything went on steroids because when you're like waking up, how did I say the universe conspires for you to go down that path?
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Right.
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And then what happened is it's like, I started to study that.
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I was like, maybe I had this whole thing wrong.
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I've been so arrogant.
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Anything that we can measure and that fits the scientific.
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All this rest is like woowoo, you know, there's no higher power.
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There's none of that.
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There is no, and I was like, holy shit.
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I had this whole thing wrong.
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So I learned how to meditate.
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And then I met my first mentor, Kelly.
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Have you ever met Kelly?
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I've not.
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No.
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And she was born in natural channel and she had never met my mother because my mother has always been in Belgium, Kelly in the US.
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And, um, I met her for the first time and we had this connection and she could channel my mother as she was at the table.
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So Kelly and I became friends and we would have lunch every two weeks.
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Kelly, me and mom and not trivial stuff.
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It was like continuous.
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Ask Nico about when he was 10 years old in school, what he did.
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And I even had to like go back like, what was that?
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You know?
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And then my mother said to her, I think part of Nico thinks that he's going crazy, but I want him to be able to trust this.
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So here are five things from his future.
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He cannot possibly know now when they happen.
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He knows he can fully trust this.
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And sure thing that happened, like his dad's going to have a new girlfriend soon.
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Uh, the new girlfriend is going to be seven years younger than him.
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Her name is also going to be God, a lever like my name, but she's not going to want to be called that.
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She's going to want to be called leave.
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The first time Nico's going to meet her, they're going to eat this special fruitcake from this one bakery in Belgium.
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And mind you, my whole family thought it was going nuts, right?
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Cause my dad called and was like, uh, Hey son, how are you doing?
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I gotta tell you something.
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I was like, what?
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You got a new girlfriend?
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So I can't believe your sister told you.
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I told her clearly not to tell you.
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I was like, no, my sister didn't tell you, tell me.
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Uh, she's like, Oh, who would have told you that?
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She's the only one that knows.
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I was like, mom told me, he's like, Oh, you're talking to your dead mother again.
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I talked to my therapist about that.
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And he pretty much says whatever makes him, you know, makes him feel good.
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Let him, right.
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But you know, too, for me, I had so many experiences.
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I've seen it like with my own eyes because that's the way I am, right?
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I want to experience it, right?
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So it becomes a lived experience and real for me.
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And that's what happened there.
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So that sent me on a whole different path.
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I always say I'm very grateful because I, you know, have an amazing mother because not only did she birth me physically, but she also buried me spiritually for which I am enormously like grateful because quite frankly, before then I was following the playbook.
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That's supposed to make you happy, but it wasn't doing it for me.
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Yeah.
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You know, and it's really interesting to go because grief can, you know, a lot of times when people go through a grief, that's when they fall apart.
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That's when they start drinking and everything.
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But for you, it was kind of the catalyst for your waking up.
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Yes.
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Yeah, absolutely.
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Because I was so far gone in like mainstream science dismissing all of this.
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So I was like really the worst skeptic ever.
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And then I have all these experiences myself.
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And then the last years of my life have been all about, hey, what's the science of this subtle energy?
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Not because it has to prove something to me, but just out of pure curiosity.
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Yes.
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Yeah.
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And I love that's a really good point that you make, because I'm an engineer also by background, chemical engineer.
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And I want to kind of know the science behind it too, but I'm no longer interested in to prove something, but just because just really to understand it and to understand that there is there's an integration, I guess, between the physical world and spiritual world.
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They're not two separate things.
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Mm hmm.
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Yeah, absolutely.
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They're one and the same.
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Yeah, right.
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They're just different wavelengths if you want.
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All right.
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You tune into a different station.
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Yeah, exactly.
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So then when you and I met, because I, of course, I didn't know you and you knew Jenny and a friend who's a mutual friend of ours now.
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And I don't remember the exact story, but I know she told you she was coming to Shayna's service and you had had some visions or dreams of something of Shayna.
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Yeah.
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And I don't remember all the details because, to be honest with you, it will happen to me.
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Yeah.
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That that comes true.
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But it's not even true me.
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It's just like kind of comes out.
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And it's like afterwards, like, oh, my God, what did I just say?
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The people are like, how'd you know that?
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You know, the purple kept coming, like all these different things.
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Right.
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Yeah, exactly.
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I remember that because Jenny said something like you had said something about the color purple, which is Shayna's favorite color.
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And then you had a crystal that you ended up giving me.
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You said Shayna picked out.
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So I was like, who is who is this guy?
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Yes.
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Yeah.
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But I just happens.
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I have to learn to trust that.
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That was quite something.
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Yeah.
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And the thing is, it was, you know, we talked about the universe, you know, conspired because when Shayna passed, I was, of course, lost like anybody would be when they lose their 15 year old daughter.
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And you were gracious enough to start having lunch with me and meeting and talk about the stuff.
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And again, we have that kind of the same perspective.
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You were talking about the experiences that you would have with your mother, which at that time in my life, I had no idea that those things were even possible.
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Mm hmm.
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Yes.
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And that was the same for me.
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And, you know, I'd just been a little bit ahead in the journey.
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And I met amazing people on my path, so I always like to pay it forward.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Share with those that are open, because, I mean, first of all, like grief is totally normal and part of the human experience, but there is kind of like where it just becomes more than natural, where it just keeps pulling you down, you know, for decades and you can't get past it, right?
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And I think it's so different for me now.
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I can't even go back in my mind and I don't know if you have that, but it's just like it feels so foreign to me.
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And I think of a lot of our suffering, at least for me, came from totally accepting what I was taught in university and science about reality.
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And because of having this limited view of reality, right?
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That actually then caused me a lot of like unnecessary suffering because this can sound crazy, right?
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But I learned a lot from my mother and a lot of things that I learned.
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I learned after she no longer had a body.
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Like she could teach me different things.
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And like, do you know Thomas Winlow, the psychic in Cincinnati?
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Oh, I've heard his name.
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Oh, yes, yes, I do.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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So I took his classes and my mom would just love it.
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Right.
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You know, like waking me up, I was like, Mom, it's another two hours before we go to class.
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And then she would be there like, hey, pick me, pick me in the world.
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Yeah.
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And he would even say like, pick me because mom, she's so easy to talk to.
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And she wants to participate.
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And it was like really amazing because he is really good at it.
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Right.
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To tune in.
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He has that natural gift.
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But when you're around people like that, you know, it kind of through osmosis goes to you.
00:19:48.279 --> 00:20:01.859
And I was blown away because not only of my own things, my own abilities to tune in, but also, quote unquote, regular people that came to the class and would relay stuff from my mom that was just like, wow.
00:20:02.500 --> 00:20:02.699
Yeah.
00:20:03.439 --> 00:20:05.639
The way they could have known that, you know, that was really cool.
00:20:05.879 --> 00:20:14.079
Like in the beginning, you know, the developing that's just like we have senses through which we form an image of the world.
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There's much higher ranges.
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Yeah.
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I was I was talking with a client the other day and she was saying something about seeing her her mother.
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She goes, I didn't see her like with my eyes.
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She said, I can't really describe it.
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It was like, you know, she was like off to the side or.
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And that's the thing we we we were taught.
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We have five senses.
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But we even know from from a lot of biologists, we have way more than five even physical senses.
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Yeah, absolutely.
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And it's I mean, it's something we can develop.
00:20:45.759 --> 00:20:51.119
And it's not even so much that we have to, quote unquote, learn something new.
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It's more of an undoing of all our programming.
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We naturally have that when we're in our natural alignment.
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That's the way we are.
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And we interact and we observe a much larger spectrum.
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Yes.
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Of reality.
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And we're born that way.
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But then what happens?
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Like your child can have you looked at a baby when they're first born?
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They're not looking at you physically.
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So as I say, looking at your energy and through you.
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Yeah.
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Right.
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But then what starts to happen, they see your or us color change.
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They're like, your daddy, you look blue.
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Oh, no, daddy doesn't look blue.
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You're just imagining that.
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Right.
00:21:28.039 --> 00:21:30.519
And we form a filter and we start blocking all that out.
00:21:30.719 --> 00:21:32.119
Yeah, that's a really good point.
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I think we've all seen babies.
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The people say some people say they're looking at the angels, you know, you know, kind of not really meaning it literally.
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But we've seen babies looking off into and interacting with someone that doesn't seem like they're there or we've seen our pets do it.
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Right.
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We've seen our cats do it.
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We've seen our dogs do it.
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So we do we have these senses.
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And as you said, we're taught to shut them off.
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But I was listening to a physicist talk in this morning about dark matter and dark energy.
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And he was saying how they're just more subtle things that physics actually predicts or predicts that these things will be so.
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But it was funny.
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He was talking about from a totally materialistic perspective.
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Yeah, absolutely.
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But there's there's been a lot of science done around that now.
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I was amazed how much was actually out there.
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It's just not mainstream.
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Yeah.
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But, you know, we're going through an evolution of consciousness.
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So people are naturally waking up again.
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I think we are.
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I think it's kind of like we're going back to what we had before.
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You know, we in our Western mindset, we said none of this stuff can be true.
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So we basically just shut it down.
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And I think now we're starting to open up to that, you know, and people more and more people are becoming open to it.
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And I think it's because we realize, you know, when we only focus on the material, which is only a small part of what's out there, it doesn't satisfy us.
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You know, we can't have the job.
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We can have the cars.
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We can have all that stuff.
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And then we realize I'm still miserable.
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Yeah, because there's that deeper longing.
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Call it your soul.
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Come what you came here to do.
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And that's also what I realized a few years after my mother has gone through this whole awakening.
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I was like, I can't be in this corporate job anymore.
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I don't know what I'm going to do yet, but I don't know what I'm no longer going to be a part of.
00:23:24.279 --> 00:23:25.500
Yeah, it's up for now.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, because when I met you, you were I think you'd taken you're taking a buyout from from your corporate job.
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And you were just you were still in that transitional phase.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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I was in there for a long time.
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I traveled around and yeah, but then things start to unfold.
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And I learned from a lot of great teachers.
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And I actually was very interested in like superhuman abilities.
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I'd read about it in the Tibetan traditions, rainbow body, all those things.
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I was like, and, you know, I dabbled in the new age that it wasn't my thing.
00:24:04.899 --> 00:24:09.679
You know, I just like that's what I want to see.
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I know that that's possible, but I want to see it with my own eyes.
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And that's where a true Taoist master came on my path.
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And then I had to see that with my own eyes.
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Like, really, I mean, you can't even call it that, like our nature or our full human potential embodied, embodied.
00:24:30.479 --> 00:24:33.699
And that got me really excited because I got to see it with my own eyes.
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It flies in the face of anything science tell you.
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I saw it.
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Right.
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And not only that, but I also learned that, yeah, it's something we all have within us.
00:24:44.939 --> 00:24:47.599
We've just strayed so far from it.
00:24:48.039 --> 00:24:53.699
Yeah, as you said, I remember sitting with you at lunch one day, we were talking about something and I said, you know, that's not possible.
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And you said, isn't it?
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And I will never forget that because, you know, we do.
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We have this mindset that says that's not possible.
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And and so you've gone and tell me about some of the things that you've seen.
00:25:07.179 --> 00:25:11.639
Yeah, I mean, you know, I've seen limbs disappearing.
00:25:13.419 --> 00:25:17.959
My teacher was very telepathic and I always kind of been that way.
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So he would teach the class and I would have a question and it would just be in my mind.
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And then he would look at me and he would give me the answer.
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He did that like four or five times speaking it.
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And he kind of has this nod.
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He would just just get the knowledge.
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You know, it was really it was really wild.
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And then, you know, saw and moved people with barely any effort.
00:25:41.759 --> 00:25:47.339
And I saw hundreds of pictures of people transforming into their life body.
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You know, gold light comes out and a picture of people disappearing.
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I always knew that that was possible.
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But then you get to like, see, I was like, OK, I'm just not turning back now.
00:26:02.279 --> 00:26:03.379
Yeah, yeah.
00:26:04.740 --> 00:26:13.919
So so now you're you're actually helping other people through some of the things or helping other people experience the things that you've experienced.
00:26:14.259 --> 00:26:16.039
So tell me about the work you're doing now.
00:26:17.339 --> 00:26:22.500
Yeah, a lot of actually what happened after I met that I was in 2017.
00:26:23.279 --> 00:26:27.179
And my dad had just passed in in May of that year.
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And I met him in October and like he has such a strong presence.
00:26:34.699 --> 00:26:37.859
Like he's like a true master, even though he would never call himself that.
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He's very humble in that way.
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And I walked out of that room and I couldn't even think about thinking.
00:26:48.059 --> 00:26:51.699
My mind was gone and this went on for the rest of the day.
00:26:52.079 --> 00:27:00.979
It's like the weirdest feeling without that constant stream of thoughts being there was pure presence and that that changed my life.
00:27:01.599 --> 00:27:04.699
Just witnessing I was just experiencing that.
00:27:06.000 --> 00:27:10.659
And what happened then, because when you boil water, the impurities come to the surface.
00:27:11.599 --> 00:27:16.179
So what happened is all my shit that was not processed just started coming out.
00:27:16.799 --> 00:27:29.799
You know, and then also what I didn't realize at the time, it's like anything your parents don't like resolve, that flow of the stream has to go somewhere and you inherit it like energetically.
00:27:30.859 --> 00:27:36.159
So I was dealing with some weird patterns again where I'm like, where's that coming from?
00:27:37.179 --> 00:27:42.799
You know, so that's how I got into because I mean, he's been trained like this since five years old.
00:27:42.799 --> 00:27:48.039
I was like, I have all these thoughts, these emotions, just relax, you know, just let them go.
00:27:48.299 --> 00:27:50.559
I don't know how to just let it go.
00:27:51.139 --> 00:27:51.299
Yeah.
00:27:52.199 --> 00:28:00.359
You know, so I was I had to figure out something without borderline suicide was so dark and it was just like, oh my God.
00:28:01.939 --> 00:28:08.599
And then I found the work of Dr. David Schneider and he was like one of the top hypnosis teachers in the world.
00:28:09.419 --> 00:28:10.699
And I started studying with him.
00:28:11.219 --> 00:28:19.859
And I started to learn how to communicate with your subconscious mind, which is really the part of you running the show like the iceberg.
00:28:20.119 --> 00:28:21.339
It's not our thinking mind.
00:28:21.539 --> 00:28:29.019
It's really or it's, you know, it's everything that's underneath and our subconscious that runs the show and determines right.
00:28:29.219 --> 00:28:30.059
Because also it was easy.
00:28:30.419 --> 00:28:33.039
If your conscious mind runs the show, you say January first.
00:28:33.039 --> 00:28:35.299
First, I'm going to the gym five times a week.
00:28:35.579 --> 00:28:36.599
Yeah, yeah, exactly.
00:28:37.199 --> 00:28:37.319
Right.
00:28:37.500 --> 00:28:40.039
But then these feelings come up and this resistance come.
00:28:40.039 --> 00:28:41.899
But I really needed help with that.
00:28:43.319 --> 00:28:55.159
So not only did I learn to clear it for myself, but learning how to communicate with my subconscious mind, but also how our neurology codes, experiences, and then you can change it.
00:28:55.759 --> 00:29:02.099
It sounds really weird because I worked in tech all my life, but somehow that made sense in my world.
00:29:02.279 --> 00:29:10.399
I just had to understand the new UI, a new user interface and and a new coding language.
00:29:11.359 --> 00:29:16.740
And I could start rewriting that, which what I did, and which I then helped helped other people do.
00:29:17.059 --> 00:29:18.979
And no belief is like required.
00:29:19.019 --> 00:29:21.379
It's just how your nervous system codes things.
00:29:22.079 --> 00:29:31.159
And then I started to see in movies and in our technologies how it actually mimics how our nervous system codes experiences.
00:29:31.779 --> 00:29:33.059
Really, tell me more about that.
00:29:33.619 --> 00:29:34.099
Yeah.
00:29:34.259 --> 00:29:37.759
Have you ever seen like, what's that movie?
00:29:37.919 --> 00:29:40.639
Minority Report where they pull up these windows?
00:29:40.939 --> 00:29:41.119
Yeah.
00:29:42.019 --> 00:29:42.500
Right.
00:29:42.719 --> 00:29:43.619
Like these screens.
00:29:44.179 --> 00:29:53.319
Well, what I learned from my teacher is that if something is like bothering you, if you can point to where you feel it, you can let it go.
00:29:54.479 --> 00:29:54.579
Right.
00:29:54.579 --> 00:29:56.439
There's always a response from the body.
00:29:56.799 --> 00:29:57.279
Right.
00:29:57.779 --> 00:30:04.519
So when you point to where you feel it and then, you know, you learn to access where that information is stored.
00:30:05.219 --> 00:30:10.539
Call it your aura, but call it an information field through which we basically see the world.
00:30:11.259 --> 00:30:11.539
Right.
00:30:11.659 --> 00:30:18.879
So you can really like learn to just communicate with your subconscious and find where that record is in your aura.
00:30:19.079 --> 00:30:20.599
And then you can change it.
00:30:21.819 --> 00:30:24.659
And then you can very quickly clear it.
00:30:24.759 --> 00:30:28.099
I had somebody with a fear of flying for two decades.
00:30:28.099 --> 00:30:33.240
She tried everything and we cleared it in like eight minutes because it's how your neurology codes things.
00:30:33.799 --> 00:30:40.659
And I love that because for me, it was like the spiritual because I started to see auras after I woke up.
00:30:40.839 --> 00:30:43.599
And now I'm like, oh, that's how that works.
00:30:43.959 --> 00:30:52.639
OK, so yeah, it's kind of putting putting together the spiritual with with this understanding of how we interface with our with ourselves.
00:30:52.819 --> 00:30:57.219
As you said, our subconscious are the part of us that that is writing the show.
00:30:58.439 --> 00:30:59.659
Yeah, absolutely.
00:31:00.379 --> 00:31:08.059
And for me, that really worked at that time, because even though I've gone through a lot of spiritual experiences, very much still in a doer mode.
00:31:09.279 --> 00:31:14.759
You know, now it's more like coming back into stillness.
00:31:16.679 --> 00:31:22.740
And just relaxing and just being with with the feeling and feelings just go.
00:31:23.619 --> 00:31:25.539
They come and they go.
00:31:26.079 --> 00:31:33.799
But what happens as human beings is the mind picks up on that and it starts going to work.
00:31:33.979 --> 00:31:37.419
OK, judging it starts creating stories.
00:31:38.179 --> 00:31:38.839
And then what happens?
00:31:39.019 --> 00:31:43.559
The feeling can never go through its natural cycle of where it ramps up.
00:31:43.559 --> 00:31:46.719
It picks out that it goes again, right?
00:31:46.819 --> 00:31:55.359
Because the mind grabs it and keeps retriggering it before the body can complete, you know, its natural process.
00:31:55.539 --> 00:32:02.479
I mean, if you look at animals out in nature, you see a duck getting chased by dog or something, right?
00:32:02.619 --> 00:32:05.759
What happens right after the minute the danger is gone, they shake.
00:32:06.379 --> 00:32:06.859
Yeah.
00:32:07.919 --> 00:32:08.219
Right.
00:32:08.479 --> 00:32:13.779
That's the nervous system's natural way to reset and to let that tension go.
00:32:14.799 --> 00:32:16.339
What does a human being do?
00:32:16.419 --> 00:32:18.659
Probably goes a hundred times for the next hour.
00:32:18.839 --> 00:32:22.139
What if that dog bit my leg off like, like, you know what I mean?
00:32:22.139 --> 00:32:26.459
What if that dog got me or whatever and we keep retriggering it?
00:32:26.819 --> 00:32:26.919
Yeah.
00:32:27.000 --> 00:32:28.679
If we ever release that charge.
00:32:29.740 --> 00:32:32.859
And then the problem is we start suppressing that.
00:32:33.699 --> 00:32:34.240
Right.
00:32:34.639 --> 00:32:37.619
And it's like pushing a ball under water in a pool.
00:32:39.419 --> 00:32:42.039
Every time it wants to come up, you got to push it deeper.
00:32:42.439 --> 00:32:47.279
So you got to exert the same amount of pressure or more pressure to keep it there.
00:32:48.179 --> 00:32:48.619
Right.
00:32:49.099 --> 00:32:52.159
Versus naturally letting it letting it process.
00:32:53.319 --> 00:32:57.339
Yeah, I love that analogy, but that's actually really good.
00:32:57.439 --> 00:33:04.219
I love that because we do we all have these things that come up and and we naturally want to just like suppress them.
00:33:04.259 --> 00:33:05.019
I don't want to feel this.
00:33:05.159 --> 00:33:05.839
This feels uncomfortable.
00:33:06.119 --> 00:33:07.639
So let me just push this back down.
00:33:08.099 --> 00:33:10.159
But that doesn't get rid of it.
00:33:10.179 --> 00:33:10.859
It's still there.
00:33:11.699 --> 00:33:12.579
Yes, exactly.
00:33:12.979 --> 00:33:14.119
And that's how I was raised.
00:33:14.259 --> 00:33:16.519
That's pretty much how we were raised in our society.
00:33:16.519 --> 00:33:16.879
Yeah.
00:33:17.559 --> 00:33:21.119
I mean, especially in Belgium as a male, we were not supposed to show emotion.
00:33:21.799 --> 00:33:23.119
And you know what happens?
00:33:23.319 --> 00:33:32.699
We come in a blank hard drive and we get basically imprinted with the emotions, the patterns of our caretakers or authority figures.
00:33:33.379 --> 00:33:33.819
Right.
00:33:33.839 --> 00:33:36.819
So that's when our operating system is written.
00:33:37.519 --> 00:33:40.199
And we learn to certain coping strategies.
00:33:40.819 --> 00:33:41.379
Right.
00:33:42.139 --> 00:33:45.819
And then what happens is if you never revisit that, that still runs.
00:33:46.240 --> 00:33:52.879
Decades later, and that's what then gets you in the way because it was very beneficial for your nervous system at that time to protect you.
00:33:53.259 --> 00:33:55.099
But now it's getting in the way.
00:33:55.539 --> 00:33:55.939
Yeah.
00:33:56.479 --> 00:33:56.779
Yeah.
00:33:56.879 --> 00:33:58.479
And I think we can all relate to that, right?
00:33:58.559 --> 00:34:00.479
We all have these things that we do.
00:34:00.479 --> 00:34:02.539
And we're like, why do I keep doing this?
00:34:02.759 --> 00:34:05.219
You know, it's not it's not what I want to do.
00:34:05.399 --> 00:34:11.440
It's like you said, you know, if we could all just control things consciously, we would all we would all just we'd go to the gym every day.
00:34:11.440 --> 00:34:13.000
And we would we would eat right.
00:34:13.000 --> 00:34:16.199
And we'd actually, you know, we do all the things that we know that we're supposed to do.
00:34:16.199 --> 00:34:19.019
But that's that's not the part of us is really driving us.
00:34:19.400 --> 00:34:26.579
No, it's a subconscious mind, which is really it runs 90 percent or more of like the show.
00:34:27.380 --> 00:34:27.900
Right.
00:34:28.420 --> 00:34:30.559
And it doesn't communicate through thoughts.
00:34:30.719 --> 00:34:31.920
It communicates through feelings.
00:34:32.480 --> 00:34:32.840
Yeah.
00:34:33.119 --> 00:34:38.380
So for me, also spirituality, it's not about ascension and go in there and leaving the body.
00:34:38.380 --> 00:34:42.440
No, it's not coming more into the body and the body has the wisdom.
00:34:43.340 --> 00:34:43.760
Yeah.
00:34:44.519 --> 00:34:56.039
Your body knows before your mind knows how often have you met somebody and you got a feeling or something came to you, you had a gut feeling and then you rationalized that and you pushed it away.
00:34:56.039 --> 00:34:58.860
And then later something happened or something turned out.
00:34:58.980 --> 00:35:00.460
I see you said, I knew it.
00:35:01.039 --> 00:35:01.460
Yeah.
00:35:01.940 --> 00:35:02.139
Yeah.
00:35:02.280 --> 00:35:03.760
Well, you know, and that's a really good point.
00:35:03.900 --> 00:35:06.940
And the other thing, you know, people like with minds like ours, right?
00:35:07.039 --> 00:35:12.219
Who who because one of the reasons I went into engineering is because I wanted to know how things work.
00:35:12.219 --> 00:35:14.699
And I wanted to know what the right answer was.
00:35:14.800 --> 00:35:14.900
Right.
00:35:14.940 --> 00:35:16.599
So there's always the right answer.
00:35:16.679 --> 00:35:19.000
There's there's always something I can I can figure this out.
00:35:19.000 --> 00:35:22.099
This this is the right thing for me to do in this moment.
00:35:22.619 --> 00:35:30.719
And it's been a huge shift for me to try to get to like to say, I'm going to try to see how I feel about this and trust it.
00:35:30.760 --> 00:35:34.039
That's that's a hard thing to do when you've been raised in the way that I was raised.
00:35:34.260 --> 00:35:35.539
And it sounds like the way that you were raised.
00:35:36.740 --> 00:35:37.139
Absolutely.
00:35:37.400 --> 00:35:40.179
I wholeheartedly agreed with you because what happens?
00:35:40.179 --> 00:35:42.679
Then we start going to school, right?
00:35:42.800 --> 00:35:45.539
You're five or six years old and everything becomes mental.
00:35:45.900 --> 00:35:51.900
You're being taught that all the solutions to your problems are up here, rational thought.
00:35:52.139 --> 00:35:53.840
And what happens on top of that?
00:35:54.219 --> 00:35:56.039
You cannot express these emotions.
00:35:56.719 --> 00:35:56.820
Yeah.
00:35:56.960 --> 00:35:58.300
You have to express these.
00:35:58.579 --> 00:35:58.800
Right.
00:35:59.199 --> 00:36:02.960
So now you start suppressing certain feelings and faking others.
00:36:03.480 --> 00:36:09.619
And and that's where the issue then lies, because then we make the switch into the mental realm.
00:36:09.619 --> 00:36:13.619
And we pretty much most of us start living up here, right?
00:36:13.820 --> 00:36:18.719
But then your traumas are things that happen that are unresolved from a young age.
00:36:18.920 --> 00:36:26.500
You'd be surprised like how often when I request somebody back because they have a particular issue right now that's bothering them in their life.
00:36:26.740 --> 00:36:30.240
I always end up somewhere between age zero to five.
00:36:30.760 --> 00:36:33.640
And when I talk zero, I talk about still being in the womb.
00:36:34.059 --> 00:36:34.280
Oh, wow.
00:36:34.820 --> 00:36:52.720
Like what the like if your mother experiences fear or whatever you as a as a as a consciousness, as as a as a fetus, you experience that I didn't start shaping how you see the world, how you see yourself.
00:36:52.720 --> 00:36:53.400
Yeah.
00:36:54.499 --> 00:36:54.800
Right.
00:36:55.099 --> 00:37:06.840
And then what happens is that you can never solve what's bothering you down there rationally because it was installed before this even came online.
00:37:06.840 --> 00:37:11.059
Yeah, yeah, that's that's such a good point.
00:37:11.180 --> 00:37:11.800
It's interesting.
00:37:11.940 --> 00:37:16.180
I was talking with the guy, I was interviewing guy, he has Chinese zodiac stuff.
00:37:16.740 --> 00:37:18.280
And so he did my chart and everything.
00:37:18.860 --> 00:37:22.300
And he goes, something happened when you were about seven years old.
00:37:22.740 --> 00:37:24.980
And I was like, OK, I don't know.
00:37:25.460 --> 00:37:27.740
And I really hadn't thought about it up until that point.
00:37:27.840 --> 00:37:31.220
My grandfather, who lived with us at the time, passed away suddenly.
00:37:32.240 --> 00:37:35.140
And I was I was seven happened in 1968.
00:37:35.840 --> 00:37:37.640
And I never thought about that.
00:37:37.780 --> 00:37:41.220
But this thing about me, like people leave suddenly.
00:37:41.720 --> 00:37:44.120
And I've had that fear my entire life.
00:37:44.840 --> 00:37:47.980
And until that guy said that, he said, I see this new chart.
00:37:47.980 --> 00:37:49.360
I never put those things together.
00:37:50.740 --> 00:37:51.340
Wow.
00:37:51.900 --> 00:37:52.280
Yeah.
00:37:53.039 --> 00:37:54.820
And you're exactly right.
00:37:54.820 --> 00:37:58.760
And it's all those little things they form like your operating system.
00:37:59.400 --> 00:38:03.900
It forms your perception through through which you you see the world.
00:38:03.900 --> 00:38:11.920
But it also is what really manifests your experiences in life because it is in a way you're broadcasting it out continuously.
00:38:13.599 --> 00:38:14.340
So, yeah.
00:38:15.280 --> 00:38:25.440
So, yeah, let's talk about that, about manifesting your experiences, because that's another thing that, again, for this is it's like you said, it's hard for you to go back, remember what things are like before.
00:38:25.980 --> 00:38:30.700
This is something that I would have never even thought about, you know, manifesting.
00:38:30.920 --> 00:38:33.280
So what does that what does that work like for people?
00:38:34.300 --> 00:38:47.280
Well, in a way that like we shape our experiences in this room, like for simplicity sake, we're all in this one intelligent field and we're all a part of it.
00:38:47.460 --> 00:38:51.079
But yet we're an individual lens, right?
00:38:51.340 --> 00:38:56.400
That sees a different variety of possibilities of how a life could play out.
00:38:57.140 --> 00:38:57.300
Right.
00:38:57.420 --> 00:39:06.740
But ultimately, when you put it all together, it's one consciousness that has a separate illusion of a separate experience through you.
00:39:07.200 --> 00:39:21.800
And then what happens to bring it really down to earth here is that you agree as a soul with your parents and your caretakers, you know, to help shape your life in a certain way.
00:39:22.460 --> 00:39:38.940
And these are the things that were pleasant, but more importantly, also the things that were not so pleasant, but that really set things up for us to have a particular experience or to overcome a particular challenge or grow a particular skill.
00:39:39.760 --> 00:39:39.860
Yeah.
00:39:40.840 --> 00:39:40.960
Right.
00:39:41.120 --> 00:39:43.820
So that's more from like a high level point of view.
00:39:44.200 --> 00:39:49.360
But then there's also, you know, because there's also always this dichotomy.
00:39:49.360 --> 00:39:52.280
So is it then predetermined or is it free will?
00:39:52.820 --> 00:39:53.039
Yes.
00:39:54.099 --> 00:39:54.200
Yeah.
00:39:54.200 --> 00:40:00.660
And it's both for me, which sounds like an illusion, you know, to the rational mind.
00:40:00.840 --> 00:40:13.820
But if you go more in the quantum rooms, if you go more in the reality beyond this linear realm of cause of effect that we most of us consider all of reality, it is very different laws that are at work.
00:40:14.660 --> 00:40:14.900
Right.
00:40:15.160 --> 00:40:22.120
So then it becomes a matter of like, what is the vibrational signature that you're emitting?
00:40:22.840 --> 00:40:27.320
And that's going to determine, you know, what's going to play out.
00:40:27.980 --> 00:40:28.079
Yeah.
00:40:28.320 --> 00:40:36.740
Just like you change the frequency on your radio dial on your radio and you're hearing completely different music is the same for us.
00:40:37.120 --> 00:40:39.140
And it's really basically for what I learned.
00:40:39.260 --> 00:40:42.940
And this is the key thing because most people think, oh, just think positively.
00:40:42.940 --> 00:40:47.460
It doesn't work, you know, because it's not about the thoughts.
00:40:47.840 --> 00:40:51.820
It's really how you're feeling on a day to day basis.
00:40:52.120 --> 00:40:59.420
Which includes all those little suppressed feelings and all of that, that forms in a way, your vibrational signature.
00:41:00.840 --> 00:41:03.760
And that's why things keep playing out in life.
00:41:03.980 --> 00:41:04.360
Yeah.
00:41:05.000 --> 00:41:05.559
Right.
00:41:05.700 --> 00:41:09.720
You have a certain view of relationships that you got from your parents.
00:41:10.539 --> 00:41:17.340
And then people are like, I just keep dating the same person, same problems, different different looks.
00:41:17.840 --> 00:41:18.000
Yeah.
00:41:18.640 --> 00:41:19.000
Yeah.
00:41:19.180 --> 00:41:21.680
Well, you talked to you mentioned the different laws, right?
00:41:21.680 --> 00:41:25.579
So we we do know we have laws of physics in the physical universe.
00:41:25.579 --> 00:41:29.140
And then there are laws that when you go, when you go beyond that.
00:41:29.559 --> 00:41:30.980
And I love what you talked about.
00:41:30.980 --> 00:41:34.240
Like I I I wrestle with this all the time.
00:41:34.680 --> 00:41:36.660
You know, free will versus pre determinism.
00:41:37.180 --> 00:41:40.900
And as you said, the rational mind says it's got to be one or the other.
00:41:41.559 --> 00:41:44.920
And my my conclusion at this point in my life is it's actually a both.
00:41:45.079 --> 00:41:47.099
It's kind of it's kind of a marriage of the two.
00:41:47.800 --> 00:41:54.599
If you ever seen the movie, The Adjustment Bureau, where I really love that movie because I love the way it shows.
00:41:54.780 --> 00:41:57.760
It's like this balance of these these forces.
00:41:57.760 --> 00:41:59.780
But also we do have free will.
00:41:59.880 --> 00:42:02.599
And we do we can determine our paths to some extent.
00:42:03.460 --> 00:42:08.579
Yes, I'm at that same and I don't claim to know everything.
00:42:08.880 --> 00:42:11.019
And that was a great relief for me.
00:42:11.940 --> 00:42:16.820
Once I had so many experiences like, you know, I don't really know.
00:42:16.920 --> 00:42:18.780
And that's OK, because I felt it.
00:42:19.720 --> 00:42:20.980
I've experienced it.
00:42:21.120 --> 00:42:25.140
But now, like you, it's also more profound for me and curiosity.
00:42:26.460 --> 00:42:36.059
Yeah, well, and that is an interesting thing, too, when you finally give up and say, you know, with with this limited brain, this limited mind, I have my limited perspective because I only see so much.
00:42:36.460 --> 00:42:38.079
I can't know everything.
00:42:38.320 --> 00:42:39.800
It's it's not it's not possible.
00:42:40.440 --> 00:42:41.680
And that's that's so freeing.
00:42:42.559 --> 00:42:43.640
It is very freeing.
00:42:44.420 --> 00:42:45.480
I don't know.
00:42:46.860 --> 00:42:47.380
Right.
00:42:47.840 --> 00:42:52.480
And because so much of what we think we know, we don't really know.
00:42:53.559 --> 00:42:54.980
Somebody else told us.
00:42:55.039 --> 00:42:56.059
Yeah, yeah.
00:42:56.760 --> 00:43:02.640
If you really go down the rabbit hole and say, like, where did I like get that from?
00:43:03.140 --> 00:43:07.800
The only thing I can tell you for sure is that I'm having this experience here.
00:43:08.340 --> 00:43:09.660
You're absolutely right.
00:43:09.840 --> 00:43:13.940
You know, and it's funny, I say that all the time and it sounds crazy, but it's true.
00:43:13.940 --> 00:43:19.220
The only thing that we absolutely know is that you're having an experience.
00:43:19.840 --> 00:43:20.599
You don't even know.
00:43:20.660 --> 00:43:24.039
I tell people I could be a brain in a jar in a lab.
00:43:25.360 --> 00:43:32.460
And they're like, well, no, you couldn't be because you can feel and see things, but I can only see and feel what my brain allows me to see and feel.
00:43:32.880 --> 00:43:33.360
Yes.
00:43:34.640 --> 00:43:35.700
Yes, exactly.
00:43:36.700 --> 00:43:38.740
And that's one of the things I also did.
00:43:39.539 --> 00:43:43.519
I went kept coming back to the one thing I was sure of.
00:43:44.440 --> 00:43:46.519
Which is coming in this pure.
00:43:48.440 --> 00:43:57.360
Awareness and just observing and then realizing that awareness had been with me for all of my life, and it had never changed.
00:43:58.180 --> 00:43:58.760
Yeah, yeah.
00:43:59.760 --> 00:44:01.039
Nothing sticks to it.
00:44:01.579 --> 00:44:04.780
Yeah, it's not changed by what happens here.
00:44:05.460 --> 00:44:09.660
So I kept coming back to that because that was the only thing I really knew for sure.
00:44:11.500 --> 00:44:22.039
I think that's a really big revelation when we can get to that point, you know, and and even because people people will think, well, I'm my body, but again, play a little thought experiment.
00:44:22.840 --> 00:44:25.180
You were a seven pound infant at one point.
00:44:25.280 --> 00:44:37.840
Is that the same as as the, you know, whatever we weighed now, you know, but that the thing that stays with us is that awareness, you know, from the time I was from the time I can remember to this time, that's always been the same.
00:44:39.019 --> 00:44:39.620
Yes.
00:44:40.380 --> 00:44:40.480
Yeah.
00:44:41.000 --> 00:44:52.340
And then through my own experience, I realized that that awareness doesn't stop as that, because we think life and death, no birth and that life has no opposite.
00:44:52.920 --> 00:44:53.519
Yes.
00:44:54.000 --> 00:44:54.280
Yeah.
00:44:54.960 --> 00:45:02.099
All this life and the one thing we know about form, because that's part of like why we suffer so much.
00:45:02.260 --> 00:45:06.800
We get so attached to form, even though we know damn well that it's temporary.
00:45:06.800 --> 00:45:07.500
Yeah.
00:45:07.500 --> 00:45:08.840
It's affirmative, right?
00:45:09.500 --> 00:45:09.599
Yeah.
00:45:10.320 --> 00:45:10.780
Yeah.
00:45:10.880 --> 00:45:15.140
That is that is another thing that's really hard, because, you know, we do.
00:45:15.360 --> 00:45:21.300
We want things to say the same, even though we know that nothing physical stays the same.
00:45:21.900 --> 00:45:25.220
And so really understanding, you know, who we are.
00:45:25.500 --> 00:45:41.900
And it's funny you mentioned that because I don't I just wrote an article of Subsac a little while ago, a post on Subsac about I said the exact same thing that birth and death are opposites because one is us coming into the physical body and the other is just leaving the physical body.
00:45:42.400 --> 00:45:45.460
But life doesn't start at birth and it doesn't end at death.
00:45:46.480 --> 00:45:47.680
No, it's all of it.
00:45:48.220 --> 00:45:48.320
Yeah.
00:45:49.380 --> 00:45:49.480
Right.
00:45:49.599 --> 00:45:58.140
I sometimes tell people like if you have a car wheel and you only pay attention to where it touches the ground and you say, this is what the experience is.
00:45:58.160 --> 00:46:04.300
But then it moves through this whole other cycle till it touches the ground again, you know, that part of it.
00:46:05.180 --> 00:46:05.280
Yeah.
00:46:05.840 --> 00:46:13.640
But having said that, we talked about like how you were transformed and I was transformed by these grief events.
00:46:14.059 --> 00:46:20.660
So there is kind of a dissolution of an aspect of ourselves that I guess that structured part of ourselves.
00:46:21.700 --> 00:46:23.820
And that happens every day, Brian.
00:46:24.340 --> 00:46:25.720
Just not as abruptly.
00:46:26.539 --> 00:46:26.720
Yeah.
00:46:27.539 --> 00:46:27.640
Yeah.
00:46:28.740 --> 00:46:29.880
None of us.
00:46:30.300 --> 00:46:35.740
I mean, we're changed since we started on many levels physically.
00:46:35.740 --> 00:46:36.539
We're changed.
00:46:36.920 --> 00:46:37.599
Cells have died.
00:46:37.920 --> 00:46:39.000
New ones have been born.
00:46:39.900 --> 00:46:40.480
Right.
00:46:40.820 --> 00:46:43.820
But also just simply because of our energy connection.
00:46:44.280 --> 00:46:44.460
Yeah.
00:46:44.559 --> 00:46:45.280
There's always red.
00:46:45.360 --> 00:46:46.940
There's resonance between people.
00:46:47.099 --> 00:46:48.599
There's an exchange of information.
00:46:48.700 --> 00:46:49.280
Yeah.
00:46:49.539 --> 00:46:50.440
After that, we're changed.
00:46:50.840 --> 00:46:53.280
It's just that most of our life, it's really gradual.
00:46:53.380 --> 00:46:55.380
So we've never really questioned it.
00:46:55.900 --> 00:46:56.740
I'm Brian.
00:46:56.740 --> 00:46:57.599
I'm this.
00:46:57.880 --> 00:47:02.200
Well, when I met Brian 11, 12 years ago, Brian was something different.
00:47:02.400 --> 00:47:02.760
Exactly.
00:47:03.099 --> 00:47:03.940
So who is Brian?
00:47:04.579 --> 00:47:05.019
Yeah.
00:47:05.720 --> 00:47:05.820
Yeah.
00:47:06.059 --> 00:47:22.460
And that's that, you know, again, that's why we can I love to play these like little thought experiments with people because they'll say like, for example, like people that lost children, like like I have, you know, with my daughter Shana, I'm like, but Shana wasn't the same at 15 as she was when she was two.
00:47:23.260 --> 00:47:25.280
There was always a different Shana.
00:47:25.280 --> 00:47:27.960
And she was constantly changing and evolving and growing.
00:47:28.260 --> 00:47:37.680
And my daughter Kayla Kayla's 29 now, you know, and so I would mourn every like when they were little kids like and I couldn't carry them anymore.
00:47:38.019 --> 00:47:45.079
So we're always as you said, we're always going through this changes the death of the physical body is just it's another one of those changes.
00:47:45.960 --> 00:48:02.380
It is it gets how should I say our our perception gets formed in a certain way because of our beliefs because you go in old other cultures where they believe differently about it and they celebrated and it's completely different.
00:48:02.980 --> 00:48:03.079
Yes.
00:48:03.460 --> 00:48:03.700
Yes.
00:48:04.400 --> 00:48:05.280
Yeah, right.
00:48:05.980 --> 00:48:08.860
Yeah, there was a culture and I'm pretty sure this is true.
00:48:08.980 --> 00:48:15.480
I was never able to verify there's a culture that when people would pass they just they just said they went to live with the ancestors.
00:48:15.740 --> 00:48:16.900
They didn't say they died.
00:48:17.019 --> 00:48:26.200
It was basically like if you moved into a different apartment and they had no shame around suicide or anything because it's like well, they went to live with the ancestors.
00:48:27.519 --> 00:48:34.660
So just a very completely different, you know, perception that we have because we say if you're not in the body, you don't exist.
00:48:36.200 --> 00:48:37.240
Yes, exactly.
00:48:38.000 --> 00:48:47.340
And I think for me, I'm grateful like it's really interesting because our memories are not a fixed thing either, right?
00:48:47.340 --> 00:49:01.320
I can go back now and look at the whole experience with my mother and tell you completely different story of what my experience of it was versus, you know, 12 years ago because we change and we change all our memories change.
00:49:02.800 --> 00:49:09.320
Yeah, and people don't want to believe that we want to believe our memories are fixed and by the way, I sort of believe our memories are perfect, right?
00:49:09.740 --> 00:49:14.099
And if you've ever been in a relationship with somebody like I have been for a long time with my wife.
00:49:14.099 --> 00:49:26.840
It's like we will argue incessantly about like what someone said like five minutes ago, you said this and I finally realized like none of our memories are even close to perfect.
00:49:27.440 --> 00:49:29.260
No, it all runs through a filter.
00:49:29.539 --> 00:49:30.240
Yeah, right.
00:49:30.420 --> 00:49:40.900
The perceptual filter and that filter can be changed and a filter can change and the moment you do that not only do you perceive your reality different, but you're also creating a different reality.
00:49:41.220 --> 00:49:42.920
Yeah, it's not a one-way street.
00:49:43.660 --> 00:50:09.559
Yeah, but that that is an also really good point because again, we just have this idea that everything is so so fixed and the the thing about the grief events is that they they will they can break you open and what I've also found is a lot of times people will say well, I just want to go back to the person that I was before, you know, how do I get back to that that person as we're talking here now everything that happens to you changes you.
00:50:09.720 --> 00:50:10.780
There is no going back.
00:50:11.760 --> 00:50:13.539
No and look at nature.
00:50:13.620 --> 00:50:15.099
Do you see that tree outside?
00:50:15.280 --> 00:50:17.519
I said, I'm going to go back to last year.
00:50:17.780 --> 00:50:22.519
Yeah, yeah, yeah, but I because nature is always my ultimate teacher.
00:50:24.099 --> 00:50:31.640
When I really want to get a feel and nature always models, you know, yeah, I found that to be true.
00:50:31.780 --> 00:50:59.740
Also that I you know, I actually I was listening to Swedenberg a lot, you know, several years ago and Swedenborg calls it correspondences and whether you want to believe in God or whatever source whatever their their models out there for us to show us things that we can learn from just like you said just looking at nature looking at trees looking at birds looking at the way a river flows all these things are there to to give us hints as to what's was ultimately true.
00:51:01.460 --> 00:51:11.120
Absolutely, and ultimately we are nature and we forgotten that as human beings because what I breed out to three breeds in and vice versa.
00:51:11.579 --> 00:51:13.599
Yeah, there is no us without nature.
00:51:13.740 --> 00:51:15.280
We're not separate from it.
00:51:15.320 --> 00:51:20.120
It's not something for us to conquer or to pound into submission or of nature.
00:51:20.120 --> 00:51:21.019
You got it wrong.
00:51:21.039 --> 00:51:23.800
You got to behave this way, right?
00:51:24.140 --> 00:51:26.019
No, we're a part of it.
00:51:27.539 --> 00:51:33.760
Yes, so sides of my mother and then nature's like in my in my one of my greatest teachers.
00:51:34.079 --> 00:51:38.960
Yeah, plus there's just this regenerative quality too when I was like super depressed.
00:51:39.680 --> 00:51:45.200
I would just go walk for two and a half hours just be in nature.
00:51:46.500 --> 00:51:49.960
It was very not only suiting but also transformative.
00:51:51.420 --> 00:51:52.460
Yeah, absolutely.
00:51:52.800 --> 00:52:04.840
And well, there is there is a it's really interesting because there is a biological component to us as you so we are we are part of nature and I love the art you think about the trees too because we like to think we're so independent.
00:52:04.840 --> 00:52:07.620
It's like try living without the trees for a while.
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You know, it's like we breathe out co2.
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We can't create oxygen.
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You know, we're reliant on on those trees to take our co2 and converted into something that we can use.
00:52:18.140 --> 00:52:22.340
So we're we're definitely, you know, we're dependent on each other or interdependent.
00:52:24.440 --> 00:52:40.059
Yep, we're we're nature and the sooner we realize that as species the better the better off we are because to me the urge conscious this whole universe is conscious all the way from the atom all the way through the universe itself, right?
00:52:40.260 --> 00:52:46.519
Which was one of the big gaping holes when I was thought science and that kind of led me on a different path.
00:52:46.660 --> 00:52:54.380
Yeah, you know, because we look as us conscious and it's a hallucination in our head being dropped off here.
00:52:55.620 --> 00:53:02.460
Yeah, one of the most ridiculous things I think I've ever heard is was it that I don't want to get the name wrong.
00:53:02.640 --> 00:53:03.260
There's Dennett.
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I think is his last name is Daniel Dennett that said that consciousness is an illusion and I'm like, it's the only thing that's real.
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You know, it's the only like we were you and I were just talking about the only thing that we know is that we're having experience.
00:53:17.400 --> 00:53:24.039
It's all that we really that we really know all we really know is our consciousness everything that we experience comes through our consciousness.
00:53:24.380 --> 00:53:44.740
And we start to understand like people think when we're looking at something we're seeing the thing we're looking at know our there's light reflecting off of it that our eyes are picking up is being converted to electrical signals that's going into our brain that then somehow makes it into something that we perceive as an image which that nobody knows how that works.
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Yeah, and it gets run against the database and then depending on the type of being you are you experience a different reality a dog senses operate in different ranges.
00:53:57.660 --> 00:54:00.840
So for a cat so they experience a completely different reality.
00:54:01.340 --> 00:54:03.160
Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's well.
00:54:03.280 --> 00:54:04.780
I was again, I was just listening up this morning.
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They were talking about the dogs dog sense of smell which is like 40 or 50 times more than ours and dogs can sense cancer.
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They can they can bring a dog in and it can tell you this person's got prostate cancer.
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This person's got breast cancer or whatever.
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So it's living in a different world and I watch my dog when she goes out in the yard and she's sniffing.
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I'm like, what are you doing?
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You know, I'm yelling at her get back in here and it finally dog them.
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It's like she's having a totally different experience when she walks out in the yard than I have when I walk in the art.
00:54:34.900 --> 00:54:36.840
It'd be like someone seeing spirit.
00:54:36.840 --> 00:54:40.460
You know, you know, you look at someone say a medium said what do you mean?
00:54:40.460 --> 00:54:41.780
You're talking to spirit people.
00:54:41.780 --> 00:54:44.620
There are no spirit people and they're like, oh, yeah, they're right here.
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Yes, sorry my battery.
00:54:53.150 --> 00:54:54.510
So still there.
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Yeah, I'm still here.
00:54:56.910 --> 00:54:57.090
Sorry.
00:54:57.269 --> 00:55:02.670
My power my laptop when the power saving in my life was hooked up to the mirror.
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Yeah, not a problem.
00:55:05.470 --> 00:55:08.670
So I know that you're doing some really exciting stuff.
00:55:08.829 --> 00:55:20.730
Now you're teaching people hypnosis, but you're also working on and I heard you mention another podcast some devices that can help us to create more healthy environments.
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Yeah, so I've been working at the cosmic towers for a few years now and their devices that are produced in Germany and they create a harmonizing energy fields and I studied also an Egyptian professor Dr. Ibrahim Karim because I wanted to be able to measure these subtle energies not have it just be like, oh, I was like, how can we do that more objectively?
00:55:45.610 --> 00:56:01.550
So I started learning of how to measure subtle energies then make changes and then measure it again and then I realized we've had these ways of doing that for thousands of years and also more recent years.
00:56:01.849 --> 00:56:11.110
So then the cosmic tower came on my path, which is a device and it you know how you have sacred power spots in nature like in Sedona.
00:56:11.110 --> 00:56:18.150
Yeah, like for example, what churches are built upon or temples.
00:56:19.390 --> 00:56:37.090
Well, it's persons on that same principle because they're created by underlying underground water lines and and this is special living water that might be tens of thousands of years old and it has a lot of different light frequencies in it.
00:56:37.090 --> 00:56:55.990
So when those underwater underground water lines cross it forms a vortex or a toroidal field and that emits a lot of beneficial qualities into the environment and it also harmonizes detrimental man-made qualities.
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This is why if you look at temples and you dig you find another temple because it's not about the temple.
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It's about the energy that was naturally already there and then they build structures upon it to amplify that energy and to spread it through the entire community to not only uplift the humans but also the animals the plants right to have a lot of life force and to harmonize to harmonize the energies.
00:57:27.730 --> 00:57:48.809
Yeah, it's fascinating and I heard you mentioned that on another podcast and I was thinking about like I haven't been to Egypt but I know Egypt there's there's places like that and I have been to Sedona and for people that go to Sedona they will they will say that they can they can feel these things and then of course science says well it doesn't exist because we can't measure it.
00:57:49.110 --> 00:57:53.530
So but we can we know from experience that these things do exist.
00:57:54.650 --> 00:57:57.710
Absolutely they exist and we've known it for thousands of years.
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And that's why I lived in Egypt for the last four years during the winter and I would go to all the temples and I know a lot of the elders and then I studied this biogeometry which is a way of measuring those energies.
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Okay, right and then a whole new world.
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Yeah, it goes open of course.
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Yeah.
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So with the cosmic tower is that something that people can can experience for themselves or where what's what's the function of it right now?
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Yeah, so people can buy ones for their home which is really like bringing nature into home like the power spot of nature changes your water energetically the energy.
00:58:40.890 --> 00:58:46.930
So it's almost like being in a spot in nature and then we have really really big ones that go for hundreds of miles.
00:58:47.570 --> 00:59:06.690
So we're actually building a grid to help offset all the damage we've done because of our technological choices right like 5g and all like the man-made EMFs that come from that scientific mindset of this much of reality exists, right?
00:59:07.470 --> 00:59:13.910
Right, but it's not because you don't take into account the other levels of reality that is not affected by it.
00:59:14.789 --> 00:59:29.490
So because of that we've created a lot of distortion in our environment through where people not only suffer physically but also mentally and emotionally think of it as this continuous noise in the background.
00:59:29.490 --> 00:59:34.590
You can't quite hear it, but your cells are listening to it 24-7.
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Yeah, right and it saps our life force.
00:59:40.690 --> 00:59:54.090
Yeah, that's really why I brought that project to the United States to help become stewards again of nature versus cannibalizing it and putting solutions out there that harmonize the energies.
00:59:55.230 --> 01:00:11.070
You know, I do the hypnosis and all that for the inner work for people, which I think is really important and comes first in a way, but I'm also putting solutions out there to help harmonize our environment and support nature.
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Well, as we were saying, we're both biological and spiritual creatures.
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We've got to take care of the body as well and we are affected by what's going on around us and I'm really excited to hear there's something that maybe we can do about all the stuff that's going on around us and in that way, as you said, as well as doing the inner work and connecting with our spirit through things like hypnosis.
01:00:38.849 --> 01:00:48.410
Yeah, like when I studied with the Egyptian professor, he talks about one scientific principle that we use in the subtle energy, which is principle of resonance.
01:00:49.710 --> 01:00:58.470
And most people know that if you have a tuning fork and you hit it and there's another one in the room at a similar wavelength, it will also start vibrating, right?
01:00:58.670 --> 01:01:02.230
So there's an exchange of information and energy.
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Well, our awareness also creates resonance.
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So whatever we put our awareness on, whether it's a person, whether it's a plant, whatever it is, we either change it for better or worse.
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Yeah, yeah.
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And when I realized that, yeah, everything shifted for me.
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Yeah, and again, that's a really good point.
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It goes back to the fact that we are not as isolated as we like to believe that we are and that, you know, and again, we talked about the thing of nature, right?
01:01:33.630 --> 01:01:49.030
So if there's resonance in nature between with frequencies, why wouldn't there be with people and our own energy that we're putting out and energy that we're absorbing from other people and learning how to better manage that would be something to be really desirable.
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Yeah, absolutely.
01:01:51.329 --> 01:01:55.329
So that's I do lectures all over the US.
01:01:55.650 --> 01:01:57.110
Maybe should have a stop in Cincinnati.
01:01:57.410 --> 01:02:11.090
We're going to be up in Michigan and I really just talked about the science of subtle energy and how to deal with the challenges that we've created now and now we can can create a better world.
01:02:12.910 --> 01:02:23.950
Yeah, it's one of the things I love to do, especially because I come from that skeptic background for the engineering background and then, you know, have a little bit of a foot in both worlds now.
01:02:24.070 --> 01:02:33.650
Yeah, well, I think it's important that we have, you know, the thing is I don't want to deny the fact that science is science is allowing us to have this conversation today.
01:02:34.030 --> 01:02:36.110
Yeah, you know, we're sitting you're sitting in Belgium.
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I'm sitting in Cincinnati.
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We're using technology to talk.
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You know, the science is a great thing.
01:02:43.230 --> 01:02:58.510
So if we can understand things from both the scientific but also not ignore the other bigger part of who we are and what we are, you know, and you know, when people when I first heard about dark matter and dark energy, they're like, that's like 95% of the universe.
01:02:58.730 --> 01:03:00.510
It's like, well, maybe that's important.
01:03:00.890 --> 01:03:06.650
If it's if it's 90 by whatever it is, maybe it's important if it's a majority of what the universe is.
01:03:07.329 --> 01:03:08.789
Yeah, you're absolutely right.
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And I'm not against technology.
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I've been in technology my entire life and I would have never have been able to learn what I learned if it was for out without technology, but it should not come at the detriment of our life force.
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Yeah, yeah, right.
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And we can design things and we can create technologies that are not harmful to nature and that are not harmful to us.
01:03:35.769 --> 01:03:49.190
And that's what I'm more like advocating for if you want to call it there or let people know about because I know when the when our consciousness shifts, the collective consciousness shifts when that shifts or reality shifts.
01:03:49.630 --> 01:03:51.309
Yeah, just like the plant seeds.
01:03:52.309 --> 01:03:53.130
Yeah, well, exactly.
01:03:53.370 --> 01:04:04.349
And I know a lot of people are talking about a consciousness shift happening and you know, that we are because we are we we are not as we're not individuals.
01:04:04.349 --> 01:04:06.070
We think we're individuals, but we're not.
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We we are part of a larger organism.
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And as we each raise our own consciousness, we raise the consciousness of everyone around us.
01:04:15.769 --> 01:04:16.510
It's true.
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The individual and the collective, you know, it's a two-way street.
01:04:21.269 --> 01:04:25.490
Yeah, we as an individual affect the collective and and and vice versa.
01:04:27.430 --> 01:04:28.450
Yeah, exactly.
01:04:29.050 --> 01:04:30.910
Well, Nico, we're coming to the end of our time.
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It's really great catching up with you.
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I know you have a website where people can check you out.
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So tell people what the website is.
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It's nicomartins.com.
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Yeah, and they can find out what what I'm up to or where I'm going to be.
01:04:46.430 --> 01:04:49.670
Yeah, so yeah, so when you get back to the US, we'll definitely have to get together.
01:04:50.650 --> 01:04:51.130
Yeah, absolutely.
01:04:51.370 --> 01:04:55.809
I will let you know when I'm in the Cincinnati area would be great to see in person again.
01:04:55.950 --> 01:05:07.590
But in the meantime, I'm really happy catching up now and I have to say I'm really proud of everything that you've done because I saw you there just like from the start.
01:05:08.090 --> 01:05:15.510
So I didn't see your entire journey, but I was privileged to witness and then what all came out of it.
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And that that just brings me a lot of joy.
01:05:18.370 --> 01:05:33.250
It's really amazing and it's really great catching up with you because it takes me back to 10 years ago now and remember, you know, meeting you and I am I'm a totally different person and you know, I know people coming to our paths for a reason and you've been a big influence on me.
01:05:33.450 --> 01:05:36.410
So I appreciate you being ahead of me on the path.
01:05:38.750 --> 01:05:39.210
My pleasure.
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So it's my pleasure to share this.
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So thank you so much.
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All right.
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Well, have a good evening.
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It's evening for you, right?
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I will.
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Yes.
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Catch you later.