A Mother's Love Beyond Death LIVE CHANNELING Episode

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Hey everybody, this is Brian, back with another episode of Reef to Growth, and today I've got with me a very special guest.
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Now I would say all my guests are special, but Claudia Milligan is a very special guest.
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I've known Claudia for I don't even know how many years now five, six years.
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I guess.
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We've been working together since 2019, so we've been working together for about four years.
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Claudia is a fellow shining light parent.
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She has her son, david, in spirit and she's spent a lot of her life trying to keep things safe and, according to Claudia, she got really good at it through her career in accounting and keeping everything under control.
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There was no room for surprises, no time for spirit, no inclination for imagination.
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Then she became a mother to her only child, and that's David, as I mentioned before, and David is and was a spirit of boy, full of surprises and imagination.
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When David was nine, claudia started doing some writing that was beyond any explanation that she had for it, and it took more than 25 years before she connected that writing to a near-death experience that she had before the writing started.
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So when David passed at the age of 29, claudia refused to say goodbye and she found out she didn't have to.
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We're going to talk today about her new book, which I'm really excited about.
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It's coming out in a couple of weeks for a court in November 30th of 2023.
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The book is called Letters to David, following my Son and the Spirit, and that chronicles relationship that she and her son found after David's passing.
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So with that, I'm going to welcome to Grief, to Growth, my good friend, claudia Milligan.
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Hey Brian, this is great.
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Thank you so much for having me.
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Yeah, it's really cool to have you on here.
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As I was saying in the introduction, you and I are old friends.
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We've been working together professionally for about four years.
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I like to say that I had access to the book before the book became the book because you shared some of the letters with David with me and I could honestly say it's really fantastic.
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I can't wait to for everybody to see it.
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But in the introduction I asked you about what your background is and you say you had no spiritual inclination before.
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You were trying to keep everything under control.
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So what was that like?
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Well, I was very religious, but today for me, I don't think of that as spiritual.
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For me, what I learned was that I had been operating based on what everybody told me was true and it just stopped working Thank goodness Right and I had to look for my own answers, and I've taken that not only from religion to spirituality, but in all areas of my life.
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I've quit hearing this is the truth and finding out my own truth.
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I also want to point out that just recently I said hey, we've been working together for four years and I'm still not fixed.
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And I want to yesterday actually, and I requested a refund and you would not give me one because you said you would beg to differ, that I was now a working medium.
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I'm going to be a published author, and that wasn't exactly the person that met you the first time.
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That's all very true and you've done a lot of work over the years and I'm really proud of what you've accomplished in the time that we've known you, and I know this goes back even further.
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So when you started having this writing and it started when David was a child right, david was like nine years old, maybe around that age.
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So what was that like and what did you?
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How did that make you feel?
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Well, I loved it and I've learned that I pay attention more today most days, good days to how I feel than to what I'm thinking, because my feelings are more give me more true information.
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But I'll give you one example.
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It's in the book.
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If you want the whole story, you have to buy the book.
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But I was writing I would go into the meadow, and it wasn't that I would make up stuff about what might happen in the meadow.
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It was that I had experiences and I simply wrote them down so I would remember them.
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And at one point it was Mother's Day or my birthday and the kids in the meadow were celebrating me and they brought in breakfast with a glass bud vase with a single red rose Isn't that cool.
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And I closed my journal and I went back to bed and David knocked on the door and he came in with a tray with my breakfast on the tray with a single red rose in a glass vase.
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He had never brought me breakfast before.
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He had never brought me a rose in a vase before, so I was starting to suspect that there was something more to this.
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Yeah, so you mentioned the meadow, so tell people what the meadow is and what your experiences of the meadow.
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The meadow began in a therapy appointment, the first time I was ever hypnotized and I found out I'm very easy to hypnotize and I saw a cesspool and the therapist like backed up a little bit A cesspool, but that's what I saw.
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But that cesspool changed into a meadow with the pond and as the year because I'm still going to the meadow and it keeps expanding.
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And today I recognize it's like our consciousness.
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We start out with a cesspool.
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But, with a little work and paying attention.
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There's no limits.
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So the meadow is the place you've been going to for how many years now?
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I would guess since about 1989, maybe before.
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Well unfortunately, I took a box of journals and threw them out, so we'll never know.
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But this is a place that, as you said, it started off in a meditation session, a hypnosis session, and I know, as I've known you over the years.
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You said the meadow has expanded and grown and changed.
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Yeah, I mean, at first it was just what I could see physically in my imagination Meadow and then a pond, and then the pond had a pier and the pier had a bench, and behind the meadow there was a forest, and out over this way there was a playground for all the kids and ocean, over here, a townway down that road, and I got a feeling that it will continue to grow the more I continue just to pay attention.
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Wow, wow, that's really interesting.
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You mentioned something earlier.
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I do want to get into your story and I want to ask you about David, but I want to cover something you said.
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You said that you're learning to trust your feelings more than your thoughts and I know, you know, I've known you for not that long, relatively speaking, and you said you used to be this like, I guess, really left brain, really buttoned down person, but you learned to trust your feelings and to let go so much of your thoughts, and what people tell you must be true.
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I think I'm sounding like a broken record, but actually paying attention, there's a book that I love by somebody, and it's called the Untethered Soul, michael Singer.
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Michael Singer.
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He describes an experience he had where his girlfriend was a couple minutes late and he just knew that it was over.
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She was breaking up with him.
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His mind told him.
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The phone rang and he knew this was it.
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She said oh, I want to celebrate us.
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Let's celebrate tonight.
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I'm in the liquor store.
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I can't remember that wine that you like so much, he tells her.
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He says in the book.
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Now, if that voice in my head was my roommate, after it led me astray 100, 200, 300 times, I would quit listening.
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But still my head leads me astray and it says, hey for me.
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Hey, claudia, I think you're really in trouble at work and I go.
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Oh, my feelings might be wrong, but they always give me information and the information is right.
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Oh, I'm upset about something.
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I didn't even think that was a big deal, but something kicked in.
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Yeah, awesome.
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Tell me about David.
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I know David came into your life and really changed everything.
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Tell me about David.
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Well, I was 31 years old, so I was pretty obsessed with the lady in the mirror, right, that's all I really had to worry about.
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And I had had a long string of poor choices in terms of boyfriends and with my last mistake I thought I found myself single and pregnant and I had spent my whole life trying to be who you wanted me to be.
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There's a song by Carly Simon, the girl you think you see.
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Tell me who you long for in your wildest dreams.
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Go on and tell me who you wish I was instead of me, and that really struck me when it came out, when I was two.
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Anyway, it really struck me, but I didn't know why, and I realized later.
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That's how I lived my life for a long, long time.
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And I didn't also realize that, while I was trying to be the person you wanted me to be, I was also trying to make you the person that you really should be.
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You would be much better if you were taller, more sober, funnier, quieter, whatever.
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And all of a sudden I was holding this baby boy, my baby boy, and he was perfect and I was perfect.
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He was looking at me.
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I knew I was perfect.
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I had never had that feeling before, and I had never looked at someone else and seen them as perfect.
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That was magic.
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Yeah, wow, wow.
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So tell me about David as a child.
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Which month?
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The first, I'd say a year, 18 months.
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I was just enamored.
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I remember my roommate in the hospital saying this is your first kid, You're really into this and I was.
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But David was and is a live wire and he went through daycare after daycare and you might remember I can have a strong personality, I don't know.
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A little bit, Okay, and so did David.
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So there was a lot of this, but there was also so much love and with so many of the moms, especially that I work with their kids, in spirit there's a bond that's like this and it seems to happen so often, and I know that that bond is true with you and Shayna.
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You know that connection that's not going to be broken by anything as paltry as death.
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Right, right.
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So David was a pretty strong will child, as we would say right.
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It's smarter than me and funnier than me and I really resent that.
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And that continues now.
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Yeah Well, I think David got a lot of his personality from you in one way or the other, whether it's for DNA or living with you for as long as he did.
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Yeah, I think you're right.
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You're a lot, a lot alike.
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So the first little bit was marvelous.
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No matter what he did, he could do nothing wrong, he was bright, he was funny, and I couldn't believe that I had this new purpose in my life, other than debits on the left, credits on the right, right.
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Right.
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And he brought me all those things you listed in the biography.
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He brought me imagination, excitement, fun.
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David would disappear for five hours and the police would be called, not by me because I just knew he was doing David's stuff, but by the neighbor whose kid he was with and he'd come back.
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Oh, we were just hunting frogs, like what's the big deal?
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Yeah.
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Yeah, so David, but he did have some trouble later on in his life.
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I know you had some issues with David.
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Well, I tend at least today I tend to believe in soul planning and I think he went for a really, really tough life.
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As far as I can understand, he was dealing with some mental illness.
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It was diagnosed ADHD.
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It could have been bipolar, it could have been something else.
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There was alcoholism.
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There was a phone call hey, I wanted to from a friend of his.
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I want to let you know that David did some oxy cot codeine last night and we couldn't make him up.
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He was unresponsive.
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So just a lot of stuff.
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You know it wasn't?
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he came in second place for the senior prom right.
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Yeah.
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So you said you believe in soul planning.
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Now, Did you believe in soul planning at the time?
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I wouldn't have had any idea what it was.
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Right, yeah, that's the interesting thing about you know, but you and I both been through, you know.
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I don't think either one of us knew what soul planning was as we're going through it, and so it presents a whole lot differently when you think of it as soul planning looking back as it does when we're going through that moment in time.
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Yeah, and as a parent with a child in spirit, soul planning sort of gets me an out, because I know so many parents, including me, went through the oh why didn't I?
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If only I had, why couldn't I?
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And with the idea of soul planning, there are reasons why things happen and it's funny because there's an old saying nothing happens by mistake.
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I never believed that saying until David died and people look at me like I have three heads, but now in retrospect it makes sense.
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You know, that's a really interesting irony that I've noticed myself.
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I've been told that things happen for a reason.
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I never believed it until Shayna passed and then I felt like, okay, and I started examining this and looking at things that happened.
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And it does make sense more in retrospect now, now that we have, I think, expanded our view of life and the world.
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So what was your?
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Because I know where you are now in your spirituality and your belief what was your belief at the time when David did actually pass?
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Wow no-transcript.
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I couldn't tell you.
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I know it's like before and after.
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During is fuzzy, as you probably can relate with, but I know that before it just didn't make sense to me that at the time God would go through all this trouble to create a human being and then they would disappear after 29 or 50 or 90 years.
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That just seemed like a waste of energy, you know, but I was too busy.
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When I have some time I'll sit down and think about it.
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Yeah, I mean, I understand exactly what you're saying.
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It's that that and David passed by suicides for for I don't think we've touched on that yet when someone is here today and gone tomorrow, but, as you said, you know why would God waste all this energy and put all this into a being that then is now just gone?
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Yeah, it just seemed silly to me, you know, and maybe that's part of the accounting experience, you know, doesn't make sense, doesn't make sense.
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Right, so you've been, you've been writing, though you've been doing writing for years, years before David passed, and I guess maybe you hadn't really thought about where this was all coming from.
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So David's passing, how did that?
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How did that?
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How did you go from there to?
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Oh, he's still around and I can contact him.
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Well, because it was David.
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For me it took 96 hours, give or take.
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I was used to talking to David like, I think, every parent with a child in spirit talks to their kid all the time, or at least a lot of us.
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And one day I said outlawed, four days after he passed, I just said I love you, david, because he's up here, you know, yeah.
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And and I heard a thought, heard a thought sounds weird, but but I thought love you too, mom.
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That's not my voice and even though it was a thought, it sounded like David's voice and so I knew I was losing it.
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But you know what?
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What is Sherlock Holmes say when you take away everything, that's not possible.
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What's possible is the truth.
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And when I took away everything that wasn't possible, what was left over was you're crazy.
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The nuns had told me that, the teachers you know everybody had told me this can happen, this can't happen.
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And I lived a lot of my life like that and even still, I still do that.
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There was one time I was writing my doing my morning writing, and I was complaining about a medium who has this black and white thinking and this is true and I was complaining, how could she say that?
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And my guy kind of pointed out that I was doing exactly the same thing.
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So and I really like this guy, so I didn't want to get another guide.
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Yeah, yeah.
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So so you said, 96 hours or so after David's passing, you just like, okay, well, he's still here and I can connect with him, and so I'm just establishing for people the way this kind of evolved.
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So you've been doing this writing, you've been going to the meadow and then.
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But the book is called Letters from David.
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So when did the letters from David start?
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May 17 of 2017, david passed in March.
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On March 20 of that year, david kept talking to me and I loved it.
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You know how moms will say well, is it a sign from my kid?
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And how'd you feel?
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You know, because our hearts tell us, and my heart was telling me, that there's a possibility.
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This was David, and he kept talking and kept talking, and I had this goofy woo woo friend sorry, shirley, but she believed in all those things that just didn't make any sense.
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They didn't fit into any boxes that I knew of, and so, of course, I called her up.
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We said on the patio, I told her what was going on and she said you need to see a Reiki medium.
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A Reiki medium.
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Okay.
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That's what I said.
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I called her Reiki medium, right, and she told me and I still didn't understand, but I was in, as you know, a whole lot of pain and so, shortly after that, I was sitting on the couch in front of a Reiki medium.
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Whatever, that is Okay.
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How did that go?
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It was unbelievable.
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Well, first of all, even though I had, I had heard from David through the thoughts and as I was sitting in this chair with Tracy over there, over here there was like a snowball of energy, like three circles of energy that I knew was David.
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I don't know how I knew it was David, but I knew it was oh Jesus and she talked and she was calm.
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She didn't think I was crazy.
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Now I don't know about you, but when I meet somebody and they think I'm saying, that's very attractive to me.
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That's a good thing.
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Yeah, that's definitely a good thing.
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And she just put things together and made sense of things for me.
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Oh, that makes absolute sense that he would be talking to you.
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Why wouldn't he be?
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That was kind of hard to argue with.
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And I went in.
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I laid on this table.
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There was, there were candles and there was incense.
00:25:43.703 --> 00:25:59.229
But when I laid down it was peaceful and it just felt like in that room it felt like people who had passed from this world could still be around us.
00:25:59.229 --> 00:26:01.352
It almost made sense.
00:26:02.354 --> 00:26:08.964
And so I came back every month for two years because I wanted that to make sense.
00:26:08.964 --> 00:26:11.730
I needed it to make sense, yeah.
00:26:12.151 --> 00:26:17.667
Yeah, so she was bringing David through for you in some sense while you were in the sessions.
00:26:17.667 --> 00:26:18.229
Is that correct?
00:26:19.091 --> 00:26:29.959
Yeah, that's how it started, but really pretty quickly David would show up for me and it was almost like hey, Brian, you want to have coffee?
00:26:29.959 --> 00:26:34.250
I'm going to be at Tracy's at eight, whatever.
00:26:34.250 --> 00:26:36.777
Show up and we'll have coffee.
00:26:36.777 --> 00:26:40.209
And that was the sort of arrangement that I had with David.
00:26:41.211 --> 00:26:52.636
And it was just so easy to have conversations with him there and Tracy would do Reiki, which was very healing, very relaxing.
00:26:52.636 --> 00:27:02.932
I've got a Reiki master certificate on the wall just because somebody said that'll help you connect with David.
00:27:02.932 --> 00:27:12.005
I think if somebody said having an elephant in your backyard will help you connect with David, I would have an elephant.
00:27:12.610 --> 00:27:21.250
Yeah Well, I do know someone that teaches Reiki as a way of connecting with their loved ones, so I definitely believe that whatever told you that is true.
00:27:21.250 --> 00:27:23.655
I've never heard the term Reiki medium before.
00:27:23.655 --> 00:27:26.001
I think that's a really interesting term, but it makes sense.
00:27:27.130 --> 00:27:30.676
It does make sense, and I had never heard the term medium.
00:27:30.676 --> 00:27:34.341
Well, I think I heard the term medium, but never Reiki medium.
00:27:34.341 --> 00:27:37.952
I had never Reiki, but Reiki.
00:27:37.952 --> 00:27:45.964
I know you've heard that when we connect with those in spirit, it's like we raise our vibrations.
00:27:45.964 --> 00:27:49.229
They dame to lean down right.
00:27:49.229 --> 00:27:50.150
And.
00:27:50.150 --> 00:27:53.115
Reiki is what raises our vibrations.
00:27:53.115 --> 00:27:54.538
So it's so easy.
00:27:54.538 --> 00:28:02.915
It's almost like stepping into a world where magic is possible Not only possible, but real.
00:28:04.217 --> 00:28:05.238
Yeah, yeah.
00:28:05.238 --> 00:28:12.250
So you're working with Tracy and David's coming to you, and so how did the letters actually start?
00:28:12.250 --> 00:28:17.241
I mean, did you inspire to write to David, or how did they start?
00:28:18.150 --> 00:28:23.038
You know I probably should ask Tracy someday.
00:28:23.038 --> 00:28:29.265
She's in Ireland now so we've been out of touch, except she's thrilled about you finally writing.
00:28:29.265 --> 00:28:30.692
Yeah.
00:28:30.692 --> 00:28:36.237
Yeah, but it just made sense.
00:28:36.237 --> 00:28:48.157
I could write to the meadow, I could write to my higher power and I could write back from my higher power and sense that it's not something I've ever thought or known, you know.
00:28:48.157 --> 00:28:51.250
So why wouldn't I be able to write to David?
00:28:51.250 --> 00:28:52.931
Okay, all right.
00:28:52.931 --> 00:29:00.800
And it took a full year of writing because you also know I can be slightly obsessive.
00:29:04.224 --> 00:29:04.505
Yeah.
00:29:04.505 --> 00:29:04.965
Yeah.
00:29:05.689 --> 00:29:09.492
And so I wrote almost every morning.
00:29:09.492 --> 00:29:28.424
I mean probably 360 mornings in a year, and it took me a full year before I remember sitting at not this desk, an old desk, and saying oh my gosh, that is you, isn't it?
00:29:32.289 --> 00:29:39.241
Yeah, I'm glad we're going through this because I think it's important for people to understand that there's a process that you've been through.
00:29:39.241 --> 00:29:40.823
This didn't happen overnight.
00:29:40.823 --> 00:29:49.543
You know, this started decades ago with your writing and going to the meadow and then writing to your higher power, writing back.
00:29:49.543 --> 00:30:03.033
So I love this unfolding of how you know it came around to the point where it's like oh, I can actually connect with David and realizing that you are it doesn't have to be this way.
00:30:04.195 --> 00:30:09.090
I'm more stubborn than the average bear For me.
00:30:09.090 --> 00:30:11.755
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
00:30:11.755 --> 00:30:15.802
You should have done this.
00:30:17.349 --> 00:30:21.815
Yeah, well, I think we all everything works out in the right time for each of us.
00:30:21.815 --> 00:30:29.850
Now, the one of the great things about this book and there's a lot of great things about this book is it can help short circuit this process for people you know.
00:30:29.850 --> 00:30:35.137
First of all, understanding that it's possible to connect to your child, because a lot of us don't realize that.
00:30:35.137 --> 00:30:48.322
And understanding, and you do go through some, some things that people can do, some techniques that they can use, and so, but just that understanding, that belief, could cut, you know, years off of the process.
00:30:49.510 --> 00:31:04.181
I have a bookmark that just says believing is seeing and I had so much baggage I was carrying into this game about I can't.
00:31:04.181 --> 00:31:05.784
This can't happen.
00:31:05.784 --> 00:31:07.112
This is possible.
00:31:07.112 --> 00:31:08.497
This is not possible.
00:31:08.497 --> 00:31:15.221
So a lot of things had to be unlearned and unremembered.
00:31:15.221 --> 00:31:44.381
Sorry that you know Some of the I work, I volunteer, in a Facebook group called Moms who Lusted Child and it's heavily geared towards discussion on the afterlife, but they also do free, free, free mediumship readings and when I run out of gas in a reading, we'll do a question and answer.
00:31:44.381 --> 00:31:48.861
Last Sunday, one mom said well, this is happening.
00:31:48.861 --> 00:31:50.734
Could this be my son?
00:31:50.734 --> 00:32:01.262
And I said I don't ever tell anybody what could be a sign from their kid or their loved one.
00:32:01.262 --> 00:32:03.133
How did you feel?
00:32:03.133 --> 00:32:08.333
Oh, I felt really good Because our heart knows.
00:32:08.333 --> 00:32:13.719
I think your wife said at one point you know, my heart jumps.
00:32:14.969 --> 00:32:15.894
Yeah, yeah.
00:32:16.490 --> 00:32:25.702
Actually she told me that happened just yesterday For her one of the signs that when Shayna is around our daughter who passed is that she sees.
00:32:25.702 --> 00:32:29.439
She closes her eyes and she's meditating what she was yesterday.
00:32:29.439 --> 00:32:34.121
She sees the color purple in her imagination and she feels her heart speed up.
00:32:34.121 --> 00:32:41.761
So we all have different signs we get from our loved ones and I don't think that we mentioned in your bio and everything that you are a medium.
00:32:41.761 --> 00:32:43.436
So you talked about volunteering in that group.
00:32:43.436 --> 00:32:48.081
That's one of the many things that you've done since David passed.
00:32:48.081 --> 00:32:52.552
And again, I've known you for several years now and so I've watched you go through.
00:32:52.552 --> 00:33:04.817
You know many, many, not go through, but be taught by many mentors, many mediums all over the world, some very famous mediums even, and you've become quite a medium in your own right.
00:33:06.069 --> 00:33:06.430
Thanks.
00:33:06.430 --> 00:33:10.000
I have worked really hard.
00:33:10.000 --> 00:33:12.317
It was that important to me.
00:33:12.317 --> 00:33:20.923
But you know, I think that snowball of energy when I was sitting next to Tracy was one of my first clues.
00:33:20.923 --> 00:33:26.539
And Tracy said, over and over, you're medium.
00:33:29.231 --> 00:33:36.920
I didn't say that out loud but, that's how I felt and, looking back, I can't believe that I could even deny it.
00:33:36.920 --> 00:34:03.270
But to sit in front of somebody who's grieving the loss air quotes of somebody in spirit, and to be able to watch that face go from devastation to hope to, oh my God, my whole world is changing there.
00:34:03.270 --> 00:34:14.177
You know, I don't know if you've ever been a fisherman, but the first time I caught a trout there was that oh my gosh, it's a rig.
00:34:14.177 --> 00:34:17.384
You know, oh my gosh, this is more exciting than anything.
00:34:17.384 --> 00:34:22.420
I was proven wrong, but mediumship is up there.
00:34:22.420 --> 00:34:23.402
Now it's my trout.
00:34:24.429 --> 00:34:25.231
Yeah, yeah.
00:34:25.231 --> 00:34:30.503
And so you've, and I've seen you, as I said, you know train and I've seen you set the goal.
00:34:30.503 --> 00:34:47.840
It's like I want to become a medium and you set a year-long plan for transitioning out of what you were doing and getting the mediumship training to the point where you put up your own shingle and you have a website now, which we should go ahead and mention now, so it's hellofromhomecom, hello dash.
00:34:48.050 --> 00:34:53.880
Yeah, don't forget the dashes yeah hello, dash, from dash homecom and your medium there.
00:34:53.880 --> 00:35:04.641
Now, as you said, you volunteer, you read for a lot of mainly mothers who have lost children, which is, you know, a very special, I think, kind of loss, all losses is lost.
00:35:04.641 --> 00:35:10.900
But I think a mother losing a child is up there with as bad, as bad as things that we can go through.
00:35:10.900 --> 00:35:14.255
So let's talk about the book.
00:35:14.255 --> 00:35:17.969
So it's letters from David, so it does have letters in it.
00:35:17.990 --> 00:35:19.086
Letters to David.
00:35:19.791 --> 00:35:20.614
Letters to David.
00:35:20.614 --> 00:35:22.059
Okay, Sorry, got that wrong.
00:35:22.059 --> 00:35:24.614
Yeah, it is letters to David.
00:35:24.614 --> 00:35:28.181
I always think it was letters from David, but they're both ways right.
00:35:28.181 --> 00:35:31.958
So because you're writing to David, David's writing back to you.
00:35:31.958 --> 00:35:36.036
So the book is more than just letters, though.
00:35:36.036 --> 00:35:37.539
So tell us what else is in the book.
00:35:41.871 --> 00:35:55.197
It's just my experience finding out that so many of the things I believed about David's passing were, can we say, bull hockey on this show.
00:35:55.750 --> 00:35:56.557
We can yeah.
00:35:57.711 --> 00:35:58.994
Okay, that's what it was.
00:35:58.994 --> 00:36:02.021
I believed that there would be no new pictures.
00:36:02.021 --> 00:36:05.239
I believed that there would be no new memories.
00:36:05.239 --> 00:36:08.376
I believed I'd never hear his voice again.
00:36:08.376 --> 00:36:10.701
I'd never hear him feel his touch.
00:36:10.701 --> 00:36:15.860
Every one of those have proved incorrect.
00:36:15.860 --> 00:36:19.695
Now I don't have pictures of me and David.
00:36:19.695 --> 00:36:23.664
I mean a good picture with both of us having our eyes open.
00:36:23.664 --> 00:36:26.795
I don't have any new ones like that.
00:36:27.235 --> 00:36:32.644
But I have pictures other people have sent me showing pieces of David's life.
00:36:32.644 --> 00:36:59.117
But I also have pictures like me and my lab, wilson, would go to the forest a lot because that's where I feel closest to my arborist son, david, and when I looked at the pictures on my phone or my iPad, so often there'd be a big wash of color and those are my new pictures from David.
00:36:59.117 --> 00:37:02.954
At first it was the little blue warbs and I went it's real, it's real.
00:37:02.954 --> 00:37:05.980
And I got argued with enough, so he upped his game.
00:37:08.050 --> 00:37:10.876
I love what you said about and I think it's really important.
00:37:10.876 --> 00:37:41.332
You know, no new memories with David, because I remember when Shayna passed and I was going through pictures to put together for her celebration of life, and that feeling, as you know, going through the pictures, you know in order, and getting to a picture just a few weeks before she passed and feeling like, ok, this is it, this is just, this is the end, you know, and so we feel that way when someone, when someone passes and you say no, no new memories, but you do.
00:37:41.332 --> 00:37:44.000
You've got lots of new memories with David since he passed.
00:37:44.690 --> 00:37:53.972
Yeah, first I just want to point out I don't know if you saw it, but my zoom, the zoom box, just lit up bright and then went down.
00:37:53.972 --> 00:37:55.157
The light went down again.
00:37:55.157 --> 00:37:56.621
That happens a lot.
00:37:56.621 --> 00:38:00.961
David just shows up and says hi, and he likes to freak out my friends.
00:38:00.961 --> 00:38:04.300
I want to give you an example.
00:38:05.847 --> 00:38:11.657
David did his shirt, did go to the UK with me last year.
00:38:11.657 --> 00:38:25.577
He insisted and I was irritated, but I brought the dang shirt and he showed up almost every day and there's a story in, of course, in the book about that.
00:38:25.577 --> 00:38:27.340
But I'll tell you one that's not.
00:38:27.340 --> 00:38:35.919
We were in Bath, a group of us, and there was a really cute guy playing saxophone.
00:38:35.919 --> 00:38:49.005
So I went in and I threw a couple pound coins in his case and I went on and David said Ma, give him a five, give him five bucks.
00:38:49.005 --> 00:38:50.690
And I said they're poems.
00:38:50.690 --> 00:38:56.977
But you can't really, I can't really argue with David successfully.
00:38:56.977 --> 00:39:06.065
So I went back and I gave the guy five pounds and he saw it and he flashes this David's smile at me.
00:39:06.065 --> 00:39:17.048
David's got a smile like this the Cheshire Cat Grit, and I turn around feeling really good about myself and about David and I see right in front of me.
00:39:17.048 --> 00:39:24.660
David fairs ice cream and David likes to show his name to say, hey, I'm here.
00:39:25.327 --> 00:39:27.025
Yeah, yeah, that's awesome.
00:39:27.025 --> 00:39:29.065
So, yeah, another, another new memory with David.
00:39:29.065 --> 00:39:33.893
So, as people are having that feeling, you know I want people to keep in mind.
00:39:33.893 --> 00:39:37.960
Yes, we can still form new memories with our, with our loved ones that are in spirit.
00:39:37.960 --> 00:39:42.896
So that's, that's a good lesson to take away from it.
00:39:42.896 --> 00:39:45.871
But I know in the book also, you help with.
00:39:45.871 --> 00:39:49.239
You've got some resources listed in the book you talk about.
00:39:50.961 --> 00:39:52.045
Yeah, just a few right.
00:39:52.628 --> 00:39:55.903
Yeah, well, no, let's talk about the other elements of the book.
00:39:55.903 --> 00:40:01.195
I mean, the letters are really, really important, but there's, there's, there's more in the book.
00:40:02.706 --> 00:40:12.679
Well, first of all, I had an afterlife expert beta reader and I sent now Brian Smith have you ever heard of him?
00:40:12.679 --> 00:40:23.559
Yeah, but I sent him the book and he came back you know, first draft and he came back with some phenomenal ideas.
00:40:23.559 --> 00:40:28.735
The letters were kind of hard to get through all at once.
00:40:28.735 --> 00:40:31.509
Can you put some explanations in there?
00:40:31.509 --> 00:40:38.179
Which is why there's all these sides to the reader about this is what's going on right here.
00:40:39.626 --> 00:40:47.739
When I did a resource page, it pretty much said oh, you make up your mind because I'm not going to tell you what to do.
00:40:47.739 --> 00:40:58.312
And and you said well, first you made a face at me and I wrote that down so I would remember.
00:40:58.312 --> 00:41:07.259
And and then you said, if they like the book, they might want to know what you did, what helped you.
00:41:07.259 --> 00:41:21.733
And so the resource page became, became I don't remember three or four pages Every book that has ever really touched me or changed me in some, some podcasts, some websites.
00:41:21.733 --> 00:41:35.931
You know, for a long time I was enamored with every dead medium, so I read everything I could on all the greats, and that was such an experience.
00:41:35.931 --> 00:41:38.718
Yeah, oh, go ahead.
00:41:39.325 --> 00:41:56.065
No, I was going to say, and I'm glad that you you decided to share that because you know you have this collection of wisdom that you've gathered over the years as you've gone through different teachers and listen to different podcasts and read different books, and you've you've assimilated that.
00:41:56.065 --> 00:42:05.045
And it goes back to what you were saying earlier about and there's a there's a there's a difference between someone telling us what to be true and people reminding us of what is true.
00:42:05.045 --> 00:42:16.273
So I remember hearing something about like everything we need is inside of us, which I think is true in a sense, but we also need to rely on each other.
00:42:16.273 --> 00:42:32.753
You know, other people have experiences that they can share with us, and I've, and I've watched you and it's been really fascinating, as you've gone to one teacher who says this it's black and white, and then you realize no, that's, that's not true, and you take what you need from that.
00:42:32.753 --> 00:42:41.758
And then you move to the next one and you take what you need from them and you've become this beautiful conglomeration that you put together yourself.
00:42:42.726 --> 00:42:48.617
I've never thought of conglomeration as a compliment, but that's how I'm taking it, thank you.
00:42:48.617 --> 00:42:51.228
Yeah, it's true.
00:42:51.228 --> 00:42:53.430
And what?
00:42:53.430 --> 00:43:01.140
I'll tell the moms a lot, because a lot of the moms with kids in spirit are very intuitive.
00:43:01.140 --> 00:43:03.668
Well, I saw my.
00:43:03.668 --> 00:43:07.054
I saw my son in front of the refrigerator.
00:43:07.054 --> 00:43:09.338
Does that mean I might be a medium?
00:43:09.338 --> 00:43:15.753
So so I'll bring up Miriam Webster on my share screen.
00:43:15.753 --> 00:43:21.861
And the definition of a medium is somebody who communicates with people in spirit.
00:43:21.861 --> 00:43:24.651
So pretty black and white.
00:43:25.353 --> 00:43:25.594
Yeah.
00:43:26.035 --> 00:43:38.469
Yeah, but an example of what some of these things have meant to me the books that came out of nowhere.
00:43:38.469 --> 00:43:40.251
So I'll ask the moms again.
00:43:40.251 --> 00:44:02.591
Ask your kid, hey, I would really like to know about Show me this, and I would do that with David, and then I would hear about this medium I was thinking was interesting is offering a free demonstration or a class that's cheap, a good price or really good price or whatever.
00:44:05.105 --> 00:44:10.998
Yeah, well, I, yeah, you've done that and you've and you've invested in yourself, you invested in your, in your craft.
00:44:10.998 --> 00:44:20.680
And it's interesting about mediumship this is kind of an aside, because I hear a lot of people pushing back against mediums, charging money for what they do, for example.
00:44:20.680 --> 00:44:31.497
And I have, and I have a lot of friends or medium, including you, and I've seen how much you've invested in both time and money to develop your craft, to get to where you are.
00:44:31.497 --> 00:44:38.965
Because you've got this, you've got a natural gift, but it's also a gift that you've developed and you've also trained to get where you are.
00:44:38.965 --> 00:44:55.201
And I've and I've watched you you know improve as as you've gone through you know or learn from various teachers and you've done the practice, you know with the readings and stuff, and now you're at a you know a level that you know and you're and you're continuing to improve as you go forward.
00:44:56.586 --> 00:45:11.701
Yeah, and I just saw something very recently, in June of 2020, you posted a Facebook post about this reading that you had had, where Shayna spoke to you directly.
00:45:11.701 --> 00:45:14.651
You remember that.
00:45:14.651 --> 00:45:32.961
And early on in my medium show I was getting a spirit, spirit communicator not always, but a lot who would say I want to talk and I'd be like, yeah, the same Holocaust.
00:45:33.001 --> 00:45:33.740
Yeah, yes.
00:45:34.445 --> 00:45:40.471
And I would bring it back to teachers and a lot of the teachers would say, no, we don't do that here.
00:45:40.471 --> 00:45:51.760
And I did learn if, if Niki has a quote, every child should have many teachers so they can learn to think for themselves.
00:45:51.760 --> 00:45:52.582
Isn't that great.
00:45:53.085 --> 00:45:53.949
I love that yes.
00:45:55.144 --> 00:46:01.556
And now I have had many teachers and for a while I thought everything that came out of their mouth was gold.
00:46:01.556 --> 00:46:10.255
I'm beginning to learn that not only everything might not be gold for me, it might be gold for them.
00:46:11.758 --> 00:46:12.199
Exactly.
00:46:13.065 --> 00:46:25.500
And just because somebody says something that I now believe is incorrect doesn't mean that 95% of everything they taught me wasn't great.
00:46:26.226 --> 00:46:26.506
Right.
00:46:26.506 --> 00:46:27.269
Right.
00:46:27.289 --> 00:46:27.450
Right.
00:46:29.065 --> 00:46:38.057
Yeah, that's, that's a really interesting process and I know you and I would talk and you'd have these conversations and they'd say, no, you can't do this or are no, you know.
00:46:38.057 --> 00:46:42.709
One would say, well, channeling is impossible, we can't channel.
00:46:42.709 --> 00:46:46.718
And then you're like, well, but they're saying they want to, they want to speak through me.
00:46:46.718 --> 00:46:50.094
And you you've learned the trust, that inner voice.
00:46:51.164 --> 00:47:02.902
Yeah, yeah, I finally figured that it shouldn't have taken so long maybe, but I finally found out that spirit knows more about mediumship than mediumship teachers.
00:47:04.524 --> 00:47:07.887
Who knew yeah, yeah, yeah, and what you also said.
00:47:07.887 --> 00:47:12.113
I think it's true also, sometimes things are true for us to be true for everybody.
00:47:12.113 --> 00:47:25.472
I've seen people say just an example, I know, I know several people that channel and something that can drop into channeling like that and I've heard people say, well, no, no, it takes half an hour to get into the state where you can channel.
00:47:25.472 --> 00:47:29.619
Well, maybe it takes you half an hour, but maybe some other people it doesn't take that long.
00:47:31.224 --> 00:47:37.193
And I when, when I heard things like that oh, it takes me.
00:47:37.193 --> 00:47:39.997
I've been doing this for 25 years.
00:47:39.997 --> 00:47:42.480
It takes me about half an hour.
00:47:42.480 --> 00:47:44.871
Oh, I must be doing it wrong.
00:47:44.871 --> 00:48:00.798
And one time I was in a trance class and we did breakout sessions and came back and my partner said to the teacher I want to learn to do trance with my eyes open, like Claudia.
00:48:00.798 --> 00:48:04.362
And the teacher said that's not trance if your eyes are.
00:48:05.365 --> 00:48:05.687
Yeah.
00:48:07.164 --> 00:48:10.392
So that saved me on a lot of expensive classes from that.
00:48:13.164 --> 00:48:13.885
Yeah, it's really.
00:48:13.885 --> 00:48:18.512
It's really interesting how people shut their minds up, even though they're open to spirit.
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Right, they're open to all kinds of possibilities but they'll say, well, no, but that's impossible.
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You can't do trance with your eyes open or no spirit can't speak directly through you.
00:48:28.586 --> 00:48:38.070
You know, because I've seen you do that with with people that you're doing readings for, and it's very powerful when you allow someone to speak directly through you.
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For me it's a dream.
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I do not want to cry, but for me it's a dream because I can't imagine anything more precious than hearing the words of my child, the inflections, the choices Sometimes.
00:49:02.231 --> 00:49:20.679
The other day I said and it feels like he's telling you to quit fudzing around, and I don't use the word fudzing and she said oh, that was his favorite word, but when I do, the whatever it is.
00:49:20.778 --> 00:49:26.278
You know I have trouble with the words too, because I don't want to put a label on it, right?
00:49:26.278 --> 00:49:48.445
But I just tell the mom that, if it's okay, I just kind of back up and it's like I'm standing behind the chair and your kid will drop in, and when they come back close, a lot of times I'll feel something physical, real strong physical sensation.
00:49:48.445 --> 00:49:54.358
So with one mom I said did your kid have a really hairy chest?
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Because I felt like I did, and she gasped, which I love gasping.
00:50:00.929 --> 00:50:04.434
And yeah, he did, and he used to shave it.
00:50:04.434 --> 00:50:06.055
So you know, whatever.
00:50:06.055 --> 00:50:13.503
But then to speak and I'm conscious, and so that can't be trans either, right?
00:50:13.930 --> 00:50:14.573
Exactly yeah.
00:50:15.430 --> 00:50:26.677
But it makes sense, because the moms want to talk about what happens, or the dads and I love working with the couples or the dads too, they want to talk about it.
00:50:26.677 --> 00:50:33.816
And if I were to say, oh, I'm sorry, but I don't remember any of that, you can't remember when you're in trends.
00:50:35.199 --> 00:50:39.419
Yeah, yeah Again, those things that people tell us are impossible, that you know.
00:50:39.419 --> 00:50:41.756
We find out that they're definitely not impossible.
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So I know, as you've been, I've been working together.
00:50:45.461 --> 00:50:51.200
You know it was somewhere along the line you met this entity that you call she.
00:50:51.200 --> 00:50:55.278
So she to me is fascinating.
00:50:55.278 --> 00:51:00.019
It reminds me a lot of the entity that Bashar.
00:51:00.019 --> 00:51:01.563
Is it Bashar that Darrell?
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I love it it's.
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Bashar is the alien intelligence and he's channeled by Darrell Anka.
00:51:10.822 --> 00:51:12.483
Brilliant, yeah.
00:51:13.250 --> 00:51:15.842
And you know, so she reminds me of that, or Seth.
00:51:15.842 --> 00:51:20.659
I'm just trying to give some people examples of other entities that channel.
00:51:20.659 --> 00:51:22.829
So tell me about your first one.
00:51:22.829 --> 00:51:27.280
Tell people why you call she she and what she does with you.
00:51:28.230 --> 00:51:39.800
Well, first I'll tell you that, as you know, I tried a lot of trans teachers and some worked for a while and some some said you can't do trans with your eyes open.
00:51:39.800 --> 00:51:57.398
So but Andrej Djordjevic is a favorite of mine and he taught us just how to let go of all our rules and to connect.
00:51:57.398 --> 00:52:11.981
He connects with an entity called Michael, like a higher consciousness, and I'm sitting there at first going huh, but I started connecting and I'm following the rules.
00:52:11.981 --> 00:52:20.711
So I would say I'm now connecting with the highest possible healing entity and I don't know.
00:52:20.711 --> 00:52:26.282
You know when, when I connect with spirit, with my guides, I had one guide.
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I used to tell him all the time okay, this is what we're going to learn today.
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Until he told me I write the syllabus.
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I mean, when you get people's personnel, I call them people.
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They're not, but when, when personalities come through like that, I fall in love.
00:52:47.001 --> 00:52:54.693
So I fell in love and I'm still saying I'm connecting with the highest possible healing entity.
00:52:54.693 --> 00:52:59.840
And I said one day you know, it's just stupid for me to call you that.
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Can we do something about that?
00:53:02.735 --> 00:53:08.981
And she said, yeah, why don't you just refer to me as the supreme healing energy?
00:53:08.981 --> 00:53:18.943
You can call me she, and so I love when she gave me a name for me to call.
00:53:18.943 --> 00:53:24.008
I've heard often it doesn't matter what the name is, but to have a name it's.
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It's so important to me.
00:53:25.918 --> 00:53:27.970
I'm a name person, I'm a word person.
00:53:29.653 --> 00:53:31.780
But I think that's just a human thing.
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We name everything we have.
00:53:34.217 --> 00:53:45.201
We have a name for everything, and so it's interesting to say well, you know they don't need names, or maybe they don't, but it's just, it's awkward to refer to her.
00:53:45.201 --> 00:53:52.657
You know she, as the highest possible entity that I can connect to, she's just kind of rolls off the tongue more easily.
00:53:53.238 --> 00:53:56.097
Yeah, can you imagine being in the cocktail party?
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Hello, this is the highest possible healing.
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This is red right.
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It wouldn't work.
00:54:02.335 --> 00:54:10.079
Yeah, so what's your experience been with she and what types of things that she told you, and does she have anything to say to us today?
00:54:11.026 --> 00:54:11.650
Oh, okay.
00:54:11.650 --> 00:54:20.343
Well, first of all, I just really got serious with sitting with she.
00:54:20.343 --> 00:54:53.439
Who's who's coming but January 17th, and, except for the time when I had COVID, I was sitting with she for an hour a day and just, I can't even begin to tell you what she says, but it's a wisdom that's beyond mine and that's I've heard that that's kind of a signal that you're dealing with a higher consciousness is when it's better than you could do on your own.
00:54:54.829 --> 00:54:56.874
So I'm going to.
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It'll take me I don't know, but not very long at all, and I'll connect with she.
00:55:04.137 --> 00:55:10.233
And she's great because I've asked you know, will you be able to talk to so and so?
00:55:10.233 --> 00:55:18.622
And she, and she doesn't have a face, she's an energy, but I can just imagine she looks at me like I've got three heads.
00:55:18.622 --> 00:55:19.794
You know why wouldn't I?
00:55:19.794 --> 00:55:24.617
I always have something to say, so just to be quiet.
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My wisdom is your wisdom, but it is wisdom you have not yet learned to say yes to.
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It is beyond you only for today.
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All of you have the ability to reach so far, beyond what is likely, what is possible, what is probable.
00:55:59.489 --> 00:56:14.032
All of you have the right and the responsibility to expand beyond what you know, into the darkness and then again into the light.
00:56:14.032 --> 00:56:16.809
Don't ever give up learning.
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So that's my she.
00:56:21.849 --> 00:56:23.030
Awesome, awesome.
00:56:23.030 --> 00:56:23.853
Thank you very much.
00:56:23.853 --> 00:56:24.914
Thank you, claudia.
00:56:24.914 --> 00:56:25.576
Thank you she.
00:56:25.576 --> 00:56:26.878
Claudia.
00:56:26.878 --> 00:56:36.134
I know there's so much in your book, but you had chosen an excerpt today that we were going to go over just to give people a little taste.
00:56:36.134 --> 00:56:39.273
I don't want to tell people there's wisdom from she in the book.
00:56:39.273 --> 00:56:47.775
There's wisdom from David, because David's operating from a higher perspective now, but I'd like for you to now to share the excerpt you have with us.
00:56:48.265 --> 00:57:04.079
Yeah, and I would like to just preface it by saying that there's a line in the book actually that names you and David said to me listen, mom, we don't all become Shaktis right after we transition.
00:57:04.079 --> 00:57:15.294
Tell Brian that he'll laugh, but it's true and he changed a little bit at a time and he got wiser a little bit at a time.
00:57:15.294 --> 00:57:23.929
I was very grateful when he quit giving me advice so many times, which was very much like David.
00:57:23.929 --> 00:57:54.548
So this is probably from about a year or two into the letters, and it was a New Year's Day letter and part of it just said please remember to pay attention, to watch for gifts, not just feathers, but every gift God and I and your guides and the people, events and experiences have to offer.
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I will be close to you this year, but you may not always know it.
00:57:59.555 --> 00:58:02.130
Believe it anyway.
00:58:02.130 --> 00:58:07.856
You will always be okay, but sometimes it may not seem like it.
00:58:07.856 --> 00:58:09.788
Believe it anyway.
00:58:09.788 --> 00:58:15.375
You will always be loved, but sometimes you may not feel it.
00:58:15.375 --> 00:58:16.577
Believe it anyway.
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No, I love you and that I am as near as your breath.
00:58:21.356 --> 00:58:24.952
May my name often call me to you.
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I'm here.
00:58:25.655 --> 00:58:28.211
I love you so very much, David.
00:58:29.153 --> 00:58:31.870
Wow, wow, that, just that gave me goosebumps.
00:58:31.870 --> 00:58:41.568
Thanks for sharing that, claudia, and that's just a little example of some of the correspondence between you and David as we wrap up today.
00:58:41.568 --> 00:58:47.873
Anything that you that I didn't ask you, that you wish I'd asked you, or anything you'd like to share with the people that are listening.
00:58:48.746 --> 00:58:54.207
Well, first I want to tell you that it's been just such a pleasure, so I haven't.
00:58:54.207 --> 00:58:57.276
I've heard that there's three speeches.
00:58:57.276 --> 00:59:02.731
There's this speech you gave, the one you wish you would have given and the one you should have given, something like that.
00:59:02.731 --> 00:59:09.730
I'm good with our conversation here, which is pretty miraculous, that's high praise.
00:59:10.585 --> 00:59:15.596
I just want to speak to anybody with someone they love in spirit.
00:59:15.596 --> 00:59:22.012
That death is just so paltry compared to love.
00:59:22.012 --> 00:59:39.099
David has said the only agenda is love, and actually other kids have told other moms that and so if you have love for somebody, you can always connect with them.
00:59:39.099 --> 00:59:48.036
You've heard of oh, I was just thinking of you when you called that doesn't end because somebody gets hit by a bus or whatever.
00:59:48.036 --> 00:59:53.701
Right, and we all have this ability, even past accountants.
00:59:53.701 --> 00:59:57.413
Yeah, that's all I got today.
00:59:58.085 --> 01:00:00.312
So remind people of the name of the book.
01:00:00.932 --> 01:00:02.650
Okay, the name of the book.
01:00:02.650 --> 01:00:05.875
And I want to tell you that David named the book.
01:00:05.875 --> 01:00:10.756
I gave him the titles I was thinking of and he said, well, I've got some more.
01:00:10.756 --> 01:00:21.175
And he gave me a list and in this list was the eventual title, that is to David, following my son in the spirit.
01:00:22.345 --> 01:00:23.750
And people can reach out to you where.
01:00:25.144 --> 01:00:35.378
They can go to my website, which is hellofromhomecom, and that's hello, dash from dash.
01:00:35.378 --> 01:00:36.900
Yeah, yeah.
01:00:45.434 --> 01:00:48.919
And you are available for readings if people want to do readings with you.
01:00:49.780 --> 01:00:50.441
Absolutely.
01:00:50.441 --> 01:00:52.412
I'm available for readings.
01:00:52.412 --> 01:01:05.874
I love doing this work, so I don't have a lot of availability right now, but I've heard that you write the book and then comes the work, and I didn't really believe that, but it's true.
01:01:07.257 --> 01:01:08.730
Yes, yes, it is true.
01:01:08.730 --> 01:01:09.829
So I want to thank you.
01:01:09.829 --> 01:01:12.351
I think that was your first podcast, right?
01:01:12.351 --> 01:01:23.887
Yeah, so I'm honored to be your first podcast as you launch this next phase of your growth your first book.
01:01:23.887 --> 01:01:28.535
So congratulations on that and have a great rest of your afternoon, claudia.
01:01:29.066 --> 01:01:29.887
I just want to.
01:01:29.887 --> 01:01:47.510
I do want to say that a lot of the work that I've done with you, Brian, has been about breaking down the I can'ts and I shouldn'ts and there's no ways, and so thank you very much.
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You're a gift.
01:01:50.846 --> 01:01:52.369
Thanks, claudia, have a good one.
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You too, thank you.