ABOUT THIS EPISODE
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In this powerful episode of The AfterMeth Podcast, Dallas welcomes Amanita Calderón-Cifuentes — a Colombian trans woman, PhD in molecular biomedicine, and HIV research and advocacy officer with Trans Europe Central Asia — as the podcast's first transgender guest. The two met at the International Chemsex Conference in Antwerp, and their conversation picks up with the same warmth and intellectual depth that marked their connection there.
Amanita brings a perspective that challenges the conventional recovery narrative: as someone who has navigated 11 years of drug use, including periods of psychosis and problematic methamphetamine use, she speaks from lived experience rather than abstinence-based ideology. Drawing on the foundational framework of drug, set, and setting, she offers a nuanced account of why people use, how biological versus psychological addiction operate differently, and why a one-size-fits-all approach to recovery often sets people up to fail.
What makes this conversation particularly resonant for Dallas's audience is Amanita's unflinching exploration of the deeper drivers of drug dependency — internalized shame, minority stress, and disconnection from self and community. She reframes recovery not as the act of stopping, but as the ongoing practice of compassion, curiosity, and radical self-love.
For trans people, sex workers, and all those carrying compounded layers of stigma, she argues that the first act of healing is simply accepting that you are in pain — and letting yourself feel it. Dallas reflects on how this mirrors his own work with gay men trapped in cycles of self-hatred and relapse, affirming that true integration requires welcoming the wounded self rather than warring against it. Together, they land on a shared truth: what most people are searching for beneath their drug use is connection — to others, and to themselves.
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