James Burnham Returns!

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Hello and welcome to the latest episode of Inside Out.
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My name is Ian Wilkes and I am flying solo.
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Normally I'm here with Jim Bennett, but Jim decided to take himself and his family to Mexico.
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And right now, or maybe not right now, but Jim has been swimming in the warm waters around Mexico, being chased by, I don't think he's been chased by whales, maybe dolphins, but he's seen some, I think he saw a whale shark.
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He posted a picture of a whale shark.
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So Jim, if you're listening to this, I hope you're safe.
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And I hope you were able to get away from the whale shark.
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I think you did.
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But I'm here with an extraordinary individual, a good friend of mine, James Burnham, who's from British Columbia.
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James, welcome.
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Oh, thank you.
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I'm so glad to be back.
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You know, I had a really great time talking to you guys last time.
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So I'm good with just you and me too, because we are good friends.
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So I'm excited, obviously, where this conversation takes us.
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Absolutely.
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And I'm really excited to have you on, James.
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And you mentioned earlier, we did have you on earlier a few, I don't know, was it two months ago?
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You came on and you shared just a profound experience about your life, your journey, spirituality, and your relationship with music.
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And so if you haven't heard that podcast with James Burnham that came out, it'll be about eight 10 weeks ago, go back into the Lister podcast and listen to it.
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It's an amazing conversation and it helps so many.
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We had wonderful comments, wonderful comments about that conversation with James.
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So James, it's a real honor and a privilege to have you on and Merry Christmas.
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And I hope you're having, feeling some peace and enjoyment over this Christmas time.
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Absolutely.
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When we're talking about how we're going to structure this conversation, I suggested that perhaps you could play us into the podcast with one of your songs.
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For the benefit of our listeners, James is an extraordinary musician.
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He writes his own music.
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I go listen to him at times at different places, different clubs up and down around the Okanagan.
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He's extremely talented.
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And James looks like he's got a song prepared for us as we go into this podcast.
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James, over to you.
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So I wrote the song for my youngest daughter.
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I gave it to her for Christmas, so it's the newest song that I've played for people, and I hope you like it.
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My voice is a little bit rough because I've been sick, so I hope I can hit the notes.
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It's got some high parts.
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Okay, bear with me.
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All right.
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It's called Rain Your Sun On Me.
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darling are you okay I know I had to go we don't talk much anymore I want
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you to know see you
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in the mountains
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I feel you in the breeze see you scare.
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Please reign your son of me.
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darling are you okay you know i had to go miss you every single day i want you to know still can see you swimming at the bottom of the pool
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that carry you to school see you in the mountains feel you in the breeze see
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Darling, are you okay?
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You know I had to go.
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Let's find ourselves a brand new place where I can let you know.
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Still senior Danny boy, just like I used to do.
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Hold you where you're feeling I've been sick the whole night through
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See you in
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the
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mountains
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Feel
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me See
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that's it james that was amazing thank you so much and you you wrote that song yeah yeah i wrote i've written a song for each of my kids yes i wrote an album so i have 10 songs and four of them are for my kids and three of them are for my ex and uh And one of them was the one I think I wrote before called Do They Reach the Sky, which is kind of the part of the whole album.
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It's kind of the beginning of it all.
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So, yeah.
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And what's the name of that song?
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That song's called Rain Your Sun on Me.
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And how long did it take you to write?
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Oh, that's a good question.
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You know, I don't.
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It doesn't take me too long to write a song if I focus on it.
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I've realized that it's tiring work.
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I'm not like Ed Sheeran where I crank out a song in five minutes.
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I can just crank, crank, crank.
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I'm like a more traditional songwriter, and that song probably has 30 revisions of it.
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So what it originally was and what it is now, In fact, the song originally was a song I was writing for my father.
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He asked me to sing at his funeral.
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And so I thought I'd try to write a song for him.
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And it was memories with him and me and things like that.
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But it wasn't sitting right with me.
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A song should sit.
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When it's done, for me at least, it sits.
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And it wasn't.
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And I was just thinking about it.
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And one day, as I was hiking, you know, because...
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I do see my daughter in the mountains.
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Sorry.
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And I see her everywhere, right?
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And I was out in the mountains walking and I was feeling the breeze.
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I was thinking of her and I thought, that song's for my girl.
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It's not for my dad.
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And so I changed the lyrics and then it just all fell into place.
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But it was like 30 revisions for me to get it.
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Yeah.
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It's a beautiful song, and I want to thank you for sharing it and playing that for our listeners and myself.
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Thank you so much.
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James, would you just provide, for the benefit of our listeners, just provide a little bit of background and history, a reminder, if you will, in regards to your growing up, your background in the church.
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Yeah.
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We went into some detail last time on the first podcast with you.
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It was a bit of a whistle-stop tour, if you like, of your background.
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And then if you can, if you lead us into where you are in your life journey, because you are in a very interesting place right now.
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I won't tell our listeners where you are.
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I think it's quite extraordinary where you are.
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But if you could lead us into that adventure, that journey that you're embarking on right now and what's behind that.
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But give us a bit of a reminder in terms of your background in church and then take us beyond that to where you are now.
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Yeah, I grew up in a very devout family.
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My family from both sides are already stock pioneers.
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My great direct descendant, I don't know what to call him, grandpa or whatever, John Protinus Green converted Brigham Young.
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He married my aunt Rhoda.
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And so we We are old stock family and then my dad's side, same thing.
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And so I grew up really steeped in the traditions of the church.
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I went on a mission, loved it and came back.
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And, but you know, due to a number of reasons, I never truly felt like I belonged in the church.
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And eventually I left.
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And I think we both had the same, incident where the church's stance on blacks in the priesthood, they released a document.
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It is no longer available online, but what they released at the time when I read it was confirmation for me enough to say, you know what?
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This is not the place for me.
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And I think what I came to realize, I really wanted to learn how to lead gracefully because my family are devout members, and I respect them immensely, and I respect what the church has done for them immensely, and the happiness and kindness that they find within the church, I don't deny.
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But I think when explaining it to my mom, I think I realized she has within the church a community that sustains and supports her and makes her feel safe and accepted and capable of doing the things she wishes she could do, and I don't.
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That is not my community.
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It is not a community that makes me feel that way.
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And that doesn't mean it's a bad community.
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It's just not mine.
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You know, I've walked into spaces before I've been in at companies that people thought were awesome.
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And I didn't.
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And I left.
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I didn't sit there and complain, right?
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I attended BYU.
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I went Two years as BYU Provo, I went for two years and I found my second year there after my mission, I hated it.
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And I remember encountering so many students that hated it there and thinking, why do you stay if you hate it so much?
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And that's what I would say.
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Why do you stay if you hate it so much?
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Because it's a good place.
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It's a good school.
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It's a great people.
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Why be that person sitting there and complaining all the time?
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And that's how I felt.
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And so I stepped away.
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And I feel like the benefits and beauty that the church offers to my family are still there for them.
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And I am finding my own way to have the same benefits that I feel they get.
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Wonderful.
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Thank you for that reminder.
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And so you served a mission, a full-time mission.
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Where did you serve?
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So I served in Japan, I went to Tokyo North.
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And it was a profound experience for me as a 19 year old boy to go from a society that is highly individualistic, that places the individual above all in North America, that's what we do.
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And the success and the entrepreneurship and the creativity and all the things that come with that, I think are beautiful.
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And there are some real drawbacks to an individual mentality.
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that I also see.
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And Japan opened me to the benefits of a community-focused concept and all of the beauty that comes with that.
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And it was a profound change for me to see that there could be such a high level of society that works so completely differently than the one I had been exposed to and raised in as a child.
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And in fact, I met a Buddhist monk on my mission And he changed my life on my mission.
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I often say I was converted on my mission to Buddhism when I was attempting to convert a monk to my religion.
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And that's kind of what happened for me is this idea that we have our own paths that we take.
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And I don't need to make you take my path.
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If you are on a good path, I celebrate your path.
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But it doesn't mean I'm walking your path.
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You gained a great deal, I can tell, from your mission, culturally, spiritually.
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You had a number of profound experiences.
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And you're Canadian.
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You've lived in America.
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You're from Canada.
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You lived in the States.
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You've obviously traveled.
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But you're not in Canada or the United States right now, are you?
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No.
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Tell our listeners where you are right now and why are you where you are right now.
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Well, You know, I, like many people who went through divorce, you know, I went through a divorce five years ago, and I don't believe anybody goes through divorce easily.
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It is hard for everyone, and it is a unique and painful experience for everyone involved on both sides.
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And for me, it came also because I left the church, There was a lot of fear.
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My family was living in Utah, and I would say that it created a lot of fear around who I was and how I might try to steal my children away from the church, which I've never had any intention of doing.
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And so my children wouldn't see me.
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And it caused me a lot of heartache.
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I would say that my most significant challenge in my life, and I've had several, like everyone, has been the loss of that contact with my kids.
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It cut me to the core in a way that I don't even quite know how to get words to.
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So to deal with it, I started writing music and I wrote an album last year.
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I wrote 10 songs.
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And when I finished, honestly, Ian, you know how when you're pursuing something in business or in your life and you finish it and you look at it, you think you have that satisfaction.
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that deep abiding satisfaction of I've accomplished something.
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And in the five years I've been trying to find that, and I cannot find it.
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But writing that album gave me a peace to my heart and soul that I have been craving, craving.
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And I decided I would pursue it more.
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Along the way, as I was playing these songs at bars, like you were saying, I was able to secure gigs at vocal bars and wineries and just kind of doing stuff.
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It was just fun for me.
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I wasn't trying to do anything with it.
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But I had other musicians come up to me and ask me where they could hear my music.
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And I haven't recorded anything.
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And they're like, this guy says, well, I'm a producer.
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I'll produce your songs.
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So he's produced five of my songs and he's getting ready to get them released coming shortly.
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So they'll be available for people to listen to, which is kind of, it's very exciting.
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But it was such a gratifying thing to have a musician.
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I had several musicians of high caliber come to me and say, hey, we want to play with you.
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And so they've helped me produce this music.
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And so I wanted to write a new album.
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And I wrote an album about my loss.
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This first album is about my loss, about the things that I...
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have struggled with.
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One is my loss of my belief in God.
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That was a Mormon belief.
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That was a deeply difficult thing to process.
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The loss of my children, the loss of my relationship with my ex and the loss of the life of I knew it.
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There's a few things, right?
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I also recovered the memories of my childhood abuse and they were severe.
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And that was a loss of innocence for me and the loss of who I thought I was.
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All of that was encapsulated in that first album.
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So now I'm writing an album of rebuilding and I'm living in Hiroshima, Japan to write this album because I think that Hiroshima is a place that was utterly destroyed, flattened by a nuclear weapon.
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140,000 people, these are modest estimates, died in the first year from that bomb.
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And when we think about this in terms, I remember where I stood in 9-11.
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I was playing tennis with a friend at 5 a.m.
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in the morning.
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I was in California, living in California.
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I was playing tennis before work.
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And all of a sudden, our phones started lighting up.
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Went home.
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And the devastation that I felt, I personally took that toll in my heart for the 6,000 people that died in the fall.
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the felling of those two towers, will have an impact on the rest of my life.
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And that was 6,000 people.
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And when you begin to witness the beautiful area that this is, it is unbelievable to think that it was once flattened, destroyed, entirely burned down place.
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It is completely rebuilt.
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It is thriving.
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It is kind.
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There's no hostility to foreigners here.
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It's amazing.
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I can walk down the streets here without any concern that I was participating in that bombing in some way.
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I wasn't, I'm Canadian, but it would be easy to look at me and say, hey, there's an American guy that had a father that might've been killing Japanese people in the war, right?
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That is not the mentality of this place.
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And so I wanted to write an album of rebuilding that is full of forgiveness and full of hope and full of opportunity.
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And I think what better place than on the shores of the banks of the rivers that were filled with bodies from the death and destruction that was happened here.
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And it's now filled, the streets are filled with thriving, happy people.
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And so it's an inspiration to me to be here And to be a part of this community while I write these songs.
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It's an extraordinary connection you make in between your own experiences.
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You know, you've gone through the dark night of the soul, so to speak.
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Yeah.
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A lot of pain, a lot of suffering, a lot of anguish.
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You know, the only you can really understand and appreciate, you know, those kinds of experiences and losses, which are distinct and unique to you.
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You're...
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Hiroshima.
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Hiroshima, is that how you pronounce it?
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Hiroshima.
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It's the proper, Hiroshima is the proper Japanese term.
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And it's hard for me to kind of speak it in English and not, you know, so I mess it up, but yeah.
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Thank you.
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Hiroshima.
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Hiroshima.
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And so the relationship between the people of Hiroshima who have, I mean, have they, when you're there and you talk to people and if this comes up, I mean, It's such an extraordinary history with that city.
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The event shaped so many minds and hearts around the world, not just in Japan.
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Yeah.
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Do you get a sense of forgiveness with the people living there or do they still, or do they hold on to the past?
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And I'm asking that also to highlight the personal experience that you've gone through and that we we all go through at some point where someone does something to us, we're hurt, or some event happens and we, you know, some other human action, a decision, and it causes immense hurt and pain and loss.
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And the difficulty we can have in forgiving those who offended us or trespassed or hurt us.
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You know, the Lord's Prayer talks about to give those that trespass against us, right?
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And how difficult that can be, you know, when people have hurt us and offended us and caused us immense loss and pain.
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Do you get a sense of the people in Hiroshima who have been forgiven, maybe not forgotten, but in the sense of forgiveness?
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And do you draw on that experience?
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You know, you served a mission there.
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You're there right now, right in this Albert.
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You're there on this extraordinary adventure and quest to At this stage, if you like.
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I have the people there forgiven what happened.
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They haven't forgot.
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And is that the kind of inspiration that you draw upon to help you forgive those who've caused you hurt and harm?
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You know, what lessons, I guess, can we learn from, you know, what happened over there in Japan?
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And, you know, in regards to forgiving people those who hurt us or trespass against us.
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You've made the connection, and I'm just interested in exploring that connection a little bit further, how it relates to you.
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And again, have the people of that extraordinary city, have they come to some sense of forgiveness and acceptance or not?
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I mean, I can't speak for everyone, but the general feeling in this city is a feeling a feeling of a city at peace and an open to the world forgiveness of what happened to them.
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And they stand as a beacon of what can be if you choose to forgive.
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Because it is a happy, kind, welcoming city.
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It is not one that is fearful of foreigners, which by every right it could be.
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It could be one that is hostile and closed off and unfriendly, but that is not what I experience.
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And to me, that is the very essence of what Christ teaches, right?
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It is at play, and the power of it, to me, is palpable.
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And it's the balm I need in my soul, because I have struggled— with forgiveness myself.
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Not having my children in my life, I often lay blame at people's feet for it.
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Myself included, blame myself as well.
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But there's lots of blame to cast, right?
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And blame demands retribution and justice.
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And these are tropes that I see everywhere in our world, justice, retribution.
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I want that.
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And that is not something that brings peace.
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That is not something that brings healing.
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That is not something that brings happiness.
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There is nothing required for peace and forgiveness other than you to allow your heart to let it in.
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And when you do, everything is healed.
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The scars on the land, the only physical scar left of the time of that bomb is this one dome that somehow remarkably remains standing in the midst of the the it very near the epicenter of the bomb it's this kind of steel framework of a building and they've left it in the state that it was it's astonishing that it's standing at all and it's a reminder of what happened not so much for us to hold on to this idea that We need to hate those that did it, but to remember that it was done.
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And I think there is great wisdom in that, to know, hey, I've walked this road.
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I have suffered this pain, but look at me now.
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And that's what Hiroshi says, look at me now.
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And this is what I was and look at what we are now.
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And it is beautiful, this city amongst these rivers on the banks of the ocean.
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And it's such a beautiful city.
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And so it makes me look at the shattered framework of my own heart and say, I can rebuild.
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Every tree, if you walk into the Peace Park Memorial, every tree that's there, had to be planted after the bomb was dropped because it was utterly flattened.
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And so Japan donated trees.
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And there's these beautiful, beautiful acreages of trees full of birds singing.
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And they're all different kinds of trees.
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And you would never believe that they were only planted sometime after 1946.
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You would believe that they've been there forever.
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And they haven't.
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But that is what I want to make my heart, is that peaceful, beautiful place that you would think has never been scarred, though it has been, as everyone's has been.
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And that only comes from forgiveness.
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It only comes from that.
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And peace, you know, the Lord's prayer is real.
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You know, Father, forgive them.
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Or like it says, I used to know that prayer.
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It goes...
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I can't access it right now.
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But, yeah.
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Father, forgive.
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Anyway, you know the lyric.
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Can you say it for me?
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I can't remember all the words.
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I used to know it off by heart.
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Yeah, our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name.
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Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.
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Give us this day our daily bread.
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Anyway.
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You're doing well.
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You're doing well.
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Give us this day our daily bread.
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I should look it up.
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Yeah, anyway.
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I'm wasting time talking about it, but the idea of forgiving, of us, it is required to forgive.
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God says, of you, it is required to forgive all, and I will forgive who I choose to forgive.
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The reality is, is God's going to forgive you.
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I believe that.
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And you must forgive, and you must forgive yourself.
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Start with yourself.
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Forgive first for yourself.
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And I truly believe the depths of, to which you want to receive forgiveness, you must offer first.
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And only in the offering of that forgiveness can you find the depths of that forgiveness that you need.
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And I need great depths of forgiveness for the things that I've done, because I've done things that are so wrong, and I am craving that forgiveness, right?
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And so I offer it as best I can.
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And that's what I see here.
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Sorry.
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I see it.
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I was thinking I went to the memorial.
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I was at Pearl Harbor.
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I lived in Hawaii.
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I did my undergrad in Hawaii.
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And Pearl Harbor Memorial is beautiful and well done.
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And there's anger there.
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They are angry still at the Japanese for bombing them, right?
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And understandably, I get it.
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It was an unprovoked attack.
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They didn't deserve it.
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It was a peaceful, beautiful day, and they got attacked and started a war.
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And the retribution for that was two nuclear weapons that destroyed not army bases, but civilians.
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In every other war, if America had lost, this would be called a war atrocity.
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No question.
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There is absolutely no...
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No excuse for destroying that many civilians in the way that they were destroyed.
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It is horrific.
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And the portrayal of it in Japan, there's no anger.
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There's no blame.
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They acknowledge they started the war.
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They talk about the inhumanity of the bomb.
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They do not talk about the inhumanity of people, ever.
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There's no inhumanity of people because humans cannot be inhumane in...
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in and of themselves.
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They can act in a way that seems inhumane, but we are human.
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And so we are always going to have humanity between us.
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That's how God sees us.
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No matter how far you fall, you are human and loved and worthy and valuable.
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And so that starting point gives you such a place of healing.
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And they show these individual stories and then you see the tattered clothing of what the children were wearing and the burnt tattered clothing and remains of you know artifacts and they tell the stories of pulling bodies out of the river that were just packing the river with dead because they fled into the rivers to get away from the fires that were remaining and honestly I just wept I wept this memorial and I wept because um There was no anger there.
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It moved past the anger, went right to the core issue, which is it was a sad, tragic, horrifying experience that humans would do this to other humans.
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Just utterly tragic.
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And to me, that correlation is so profound in my own healing because it is the essence of forgiveness.
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It is the essence of what Christ offers in his atonement.
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And it is the one and only way to peace.
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And our one blessing from the Holy Ghost that we're offered, the one guarantee that we're offered is peace.
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Peace, nothing else.
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You're not promised to be protected, but you are promised peace.
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And that is what I want.
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I want peace.
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I can't begin to imagine what those nuclear events were like in Japan.
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Nagasaki, if I pronounced it right, Hiroshima.
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Yeah.
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I can't imagine what those individuals went through or experienced.
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The horror of war.
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We're seeing that play out on our TVs.
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We're not on the front line in Ukraine or Russia.
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We're not on the front lines in Syria or Iran or Israel or Yemen.
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We're seeing significant conflict unfold, escalate around the world.
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Lives are destroyed and ruined.
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I cannot imagine.
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I've not lived through a war.
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I can't imagine, begin to imagine what that was like.
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I know my family growing up in England, you know, my mother and, you know, my uncles and their family lived through the war, had extraordinary stories.
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You know, a family who lost their life in the Second World War and in the First World War, you know, in England.
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So I just can't begin to imagine what that is like.
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And You know, as I listen to you, I'm reminded of the extraordinary and awful inhumanity that man, you know, the capacity and the depth, the breadth of inhuman behavior towards another, you know, to take a life and to destroy a life.
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And not just on an individual level, but on a whole scale level, like the events that you're describing there in Japan.
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You know, thousands of thousands, tens of thousands of lives.
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I can't, again, begin to understand or imagine the inhumanity that exists between humans.
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And at the same, you know, in the same breath, I'm astonished And in awe at the capacity of the human spirit to love and to forgive, we do terrible things to each other for all different so-called causes and reasons, etc.
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Some perhaps justified, others perhaps not.
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That's another conversation.
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And then there are people out there who have got this extraordinary capacity to love and to forgive no matter what.
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And that's the other end of the spectrum.
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I can't imagine what that is like, that Christlike forgiveness and love, which I'm not there.
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I'm probably somewhere in the middle.
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you know, hopefully towards the, you know, the better side of that, maybe not in the middle, but towards the better side of that.
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I can't imagine taking anyone's life or wanting to take anyone's life, you know, to cause hurt or pain.
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I know, you know, we have to defend ourselves, defend, you know, the Book of Mormon talks about defending our liberty and our freedom of families.
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And I would do that if push comes to shove and I felt that my safety, my family and I was at risk.
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Of course, we would fight for those freedoms which we value.
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And at the same time, I can't imagine what that experience is, having to go to war and to fight and all that death and destruction.
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But you've, in all of your experience, your journey, you have figured out a way, which some do, maybe not many, of how to forgive.
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And, you know, you represent that percentage of humans who are able to forgive because you've learned that we only experience peace and completeness and I guess find ourselves, are the true measure of ourselves when we demonstrate that extraordinary capacity to forgive.
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And there's not one soul on the planet that hasn't been hurt or injured in some way.
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And we all react and respond in different ways.
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I think the challenge in life is when bad things happen to us, either from our own choices that we make, probably sometimes we might bring that on ourselves and often we don't.
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People's decisions impact us in profound ways and can cause a lot of pain and hurt.
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I guess the challenge is how do we react to that?
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How do we respond to that?
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We can respond with anger and hate and bitterness sometimes.
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And I've seen people, James, where their loathing and their anger is so strong, it's diminished their countenance.
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They are consumed by this hate.
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I've met people, sadly, who allow hate and anger and bitterness to consume and take over their lives.
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And they're very unhappy people, very sad and miserable people.
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And then there are those who have gone through similar times, even worse experiences at times, and they've got this capacity to love and to forgive.
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And I think, you know, it sounds like you've gone through this journey then, this experience yourself, where you've learned through your trials and tribulations, this extraordinary capacity to maybe not forget.
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I think it's harder to forget, but to forgive yourself.
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And what's the secret behind that, do you think?
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How do you get to that point, that strength where you're just able to forgive?
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I don't fully understand it.
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I'm not there, I think.
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And I've got my own journey to travel, as we all do.
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But what's the secret, if there's any secret?
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What's the answer?
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How do you get to that state of mind where you're able to forgive and move on?
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And then re, you know, like you're doing right now, you're rediscovering yourself and you use the word, um, rebuilding, you know, your albums around rebuilding yourself.
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What's that, you know, what are those, um, uh, methods, those ideas that get you to where you are in your, in your heart and in your mind, if they exist?
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I think that, uh, well, I know that there are specific methods cause I, so I researched it.
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I spent the last, uh, So I spent, as you know, the last year with my father.
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He still has not passed, but he is at this point awake maybe 10, 15 minutes a day and just doesn't know how to die.
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But he's in a care facility now.
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I was home taking care of him while we could bring him home and interacting with him.
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And we talked a lot about forgiveness and the importance of it.
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And I began to look into it because he kept telling me, forgive, son, forgive.
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And ironically, he looked at me and he said that he had forgiven me for everything that I had done.
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And I was like, thank you.
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I'm grateful for that.
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I'm grateful to receive forgiveness.
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Now, you could choose to be offended.
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Well, why do you have to forgive me?
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That's one tactic to go.
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But for me...
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I am someone seeking forgiveness.
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And so if you say you want to forgive me, I openly accept it.
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Thank you, please.
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Right?
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And so learning to accept forgiveness, I think first comes with resolving within yourself and loving yourself.
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You will never, until you truly love and accept who you are and forgive yourself all your shortcomings, you're not going to be able to offer that to someone else.
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You may claim you want to, but I remember my young son, he's so much like me, my boy.
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And he would do these things that just would irritate the crap out of me because they were the very things that I didn't like about myself.
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I truly did not like these things about myself.
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And so I wanted to shame them out of him.
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Right.
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That was the way my instinct was geared.
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And I learned very quickly that's not how I want to treat my boy.
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I want him to feel loved.
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And I had to turn into myself and accept my shortcomings, my capacity to forget a schedule, my ability to leave a house six times, forget my keys, forget my, you know, all these things.
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ADHD things that I have within my brain that are the limitations, the limiting side of my brain.
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I had to learn to love and accept.
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And in doing that, I found great humor in my son.
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No longer did I find him irritating, right?
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And so learning to balance the scales, there are things, right?
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I mean, my abuse and my abuser, um, I have been able to balance that.
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I don't carry hatred or anger toward that man.
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He was a 16-year-old boy when he was abusing me.
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And he clearly had been treated worse by his own parents.
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You know, I was so fortunate.
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I did not have parents do the things to me that he did to me.
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My parents loved me.
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And this boy, his father did things that he did had done to me.
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And I can imagine my own father doing that to me.
00:43:29.034 --> 00:43:34.380
It's staggering to think that a man would treat his child in that way, right?
00:43:35.240 --> 00:43:43.349
And now if I just fall in forgiveness for this boy, well, that neglects the fact that he also made a choice.
00:43:43.931 --> 00:43:47.094
I never did any of that stuff to anyone else, you know?
00:43:49.556 --> 00:43:55.380
And so, that negates his own power to have chosen a different path.
00:43:56.041 --> 00:44:00.068
So I have to also say these things were bad.
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I accept that they were bad.
00:44:02.570 --> 00:44:06.036
I know the balance and the register of what was bad.
00:44:06.597 --> 00:44:10.422
I also know the balancer and the register of what was good with this guy.
00:44:10.943 --> 00:44:15.710
There was a piece of me that loved him because of the things that we did together.
00:44:16.190 --> 00:44:18.153
As a young boy, I admired him, right?
00:44:18.945 --> 00:44:29.001
And balancing that scale and recognizing the good and the bad together opens the path to forgiveness.
00:44:29.121 --> 00:44:33.206
But we often fall into either bedevilment or enshrinement.
00:44:33.688 --> 00:44:37.534
We turn that person into an absolute horrible person, right?
00:44:37.954 --> 00:44:43.141
Say if you're in a divorce, everything about your spouse, all you can ever remember now is the bad.
00:44:44.324 --> 00:44:45.945
You have not balanced your scale.
00:44:46.706 --> 00:44:48.530
You must remember the good.
00:44:49.090 --> 00:44:50.130
There was good there.
00:44:50.911 --> 00:45:00.023
And only upon remembering the good and recognizing the bad can you then say, I offer my forgiveness and truly give it and find it.
00:45:00.043 --> 00:45:03.367
And otherwise, you're out of balance.
00:45:03.949 --> 00:45:09.155
You're either looking for retribution or ignoring the need for it or something like that.
00:45:09.275 --> 00:45:12.000
And there's actually books you can get.
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I've read several of them.
00:45:14.146 --> 00:45:20.831
And they'll take you through a process that will allow you to ferret out all the things that you need to.
00:45:21.172 --> 00:45:22.153
It takes work.
00:45:23.235 --> 00:45:28.059
And I would say much of forgiveness heals grief.
00:45:28.579 --> 00:45:32.684
So if you've lost something you love, look to forgive.
00:45:33.844 --> 00:45:35.827
That is their path to getting over it.
00:45:36.027 --> 00:45:39.550
And it's profound.
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It'll free you.
00:45:40.472 --> 00:45:42.853
It'll free you up so you can do something new.
00:45:45.793 --> 00:45:50.018
The value of what you're saying is significant.
00:45:50.038 --> 00:45:50.918
We can learn that.
00:45:50.958 --> 00:46:00.108
You talk about capacity to forgive others, and then you talked about the ability or the need to forgive oneself.
00:46:00.188 --> 00:46:04.371
And sometimes the second one can be harder than the other.
00:46:07.635 --> 00:46:08.476
And I have no answers.
00:46:08.516 --> 00:46:12.440
You've certainly got more insights in that than I have, being able to forgive oneself.
00:46:13.199 --> 00:46:17.873
And I think that's one of the challenges that we face We all experience at times, how do we forgive oneself?
00:46:18.574 --> 00:46:27.244
Because I think that affects our self-esteem, our self-worth, how we see ourselves, affects our countenance, our spirits.
00:46:27.605 --> 00:46:31.369
It affects us in profound ways if we can't forgive oneself.
00:46:31.570 --> 00:46:35.655
And I don't have any answers or solutions how we can do that.
00:46:37.097 --> 00:46:40.521
You've moved to Hiroshima.
00:46:41.583 --> 00:46:44.126
You're on this extraordinary journey.
00:46:44.545 --> 00:46:47.088
adventure, this quest.
00:46:47.429 --> 00:46:49.751
You're writing, producing an album.
00:46:50.692 --> 00:46:56.036
You've gone to Hiroshima, Japan to reconnect with yourself, renew, restore yourself.
00:46:56.637 --> 00:47:01.742
Japan has profound experience, a spiritual experience and history for you.
00:47:02.322 --> 00:47:03.543
You connect with the culture.
00:47:04.644 --> 00:47:13.594
What are you, you know, the next, this next chapter in your life while you're over there, what are you hoping to get from it?
00:47:14.818 --> 00:47:19.623
Aside from the album and writing, what are you hoping to get from it?
00:47:19.764 --> 00:47:25.550
And also, could you speak to your relationship, your spiritual relationship with the music?
00:47:28.514 --> 00:47:44.233
Yeah, I think, honestly, I think that that is really what I'm trying to reconnect with is the way through which I can appreciate and love the God that I was raised to believe in.
00:47:44.610 --> 00:48:02.775
I, you know, there's that parable where a man are given talents and one goes out, you know, he's given four talents and he goes out and he works really hard and multiplies those four talents, gets eight.
00:48:03.155 --> 00:48:08.724
Another one is given two talents, goes out, multiplies, comes back with four talents.
00:48:09.764 --> 00:48:10.405
One's given one.
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Out of fear of losing that one, That person buries that talent and hides.
00:48:16.489 --> 00:48:19.434
And when they come to the Lord, they show their talents.
00:48:20.295 --> 00:48:21.597
The Lord says, what did you do with yours?
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I buried it.
00:48:22.659 --> 00:48:24.280
And the Lord takes that talent away.
00:48:26.123 --> 00:48:26.284
Right?
00:48:26.985 --> 00:48:29.989
And I don't think that God's going to take any of your talents away.
00:48:30.230 --> 00:48:31.070
I don't believe that.
00:48:31.371 --> 00:48:35.157
But the idea is that if you don't use your talent, you will lose it.
00:48:35.197 --> 00:48:38.302
It's just the nature of not using it.
00:48:39.182 --> 00:48:40.764
You're going to lose that talent.
00:48:41.907 --> 00:48:43.829
And there's a tragedy in that.
00:48:44.385 --> 00:48:52.315
And we often feel like our talents, I know for me, I compare my capacity.
00:48:52.335 --> 00:48:54.177
I have a very musical family.
00:48:54.197 --> 00:48:58.141
I have sisters, two of my sisters that are living in Vernon.
00:48:58.782 --> 00:49:09.393
When they adjudicated for the Royal Conservatory professional music performance degrees that they got, they both received the highest score in Canada, right?
00:49:10.494 --> 00:49:12.858
They're incredible singers, incredible.
00:49:13.121 --> 00:49:14.623
They're trained.
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They have knowledge.
00:49:15.565 --> 00:49:17.447
I don't read any musical notes.
00:49:18.108 --> 00:49:19.190
I can't read a note.
00:49:20.411 --> 00:49:21.914
I have no training.
00:49:23.275 --> 00:49:27.300
I play guitar really like a hack.
00:49:27.742 --> 00:49:28.603
I know some chords.
00:49:28.782 --> 00:49:31.045
I'm not a good guitar player.
00:49:31.427 --> 00:49:40.259
So when I start in the comparison world, I compare myself to the professionals that I know and the people out there that I admire.
00:49:40.278 --> 00:49:42.342
I am an utter hack.
00:49:42.722 --> 00:49:46.786
But I love music.
00:49:47.806 --> 00:49:48.288
I love it.
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And it heals me.
00:49:51.030 --> 00:49:53.853
And writing is something that I really love.
00:49:54.393 --> 00:49:57.076
But I struggle to write because I have dyslexia.
00:49:57.436 --> 00:50:01.840
And so it's hard for me to get what's in here on a paper.
00:50:02.621 --> 00:50:04.023
It never seems to match for me.
00:50:04.103 --> 00:50:10.610
So I do multiple revisions of a song before it actually is some semblance of what is in my head.
00:50:10.849 --> 00:50:13.052
down to the paper because it don't transfer well.
00:50:15.476 --> 00:50:16.398
It's a lot of work.
00:50:17.760 --> 00:50:25.331
And when it's all said and done, it's not even close to as good as what I think the people I admire could produce.
00:50:26.373 --> 00:50:27.373
But it's what I got.
00:50:27.393 --> 00:50:29.797
It's the very best that I have.
00:50:31.000 --> 00:50:38.530
And the doing of it, it makes me feel like God sees me.
00:50:40.353 --> 00:50:40.574
Right?
00:50:41.570 --> 00:50:46.195
Because I remember practicing my songs as I spent the summer.
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I would go every Friday at about 2 o'clock and sit at the beach.
00:50:50.181 --> 00:50:52.003
I'd find an isolated spot somewhere.
00:50:52.023 --> 00:50:53.286
It's so busy now.
00:50:53.465 --> 00:50:54.547
It's not like when I was a kid.
00:50:54.568 --> 00:50:57.592
No matter where I went, there was going to be some people who would pass.
00:50:58.452 --> 00:51:01.998
And I had so many people come up to me and thank me for singing.
00:51:03.420 --> 00:51:05.643
I had people stop on the lake.
00:51:06.324 --> 00:51:10.469
I had boats that would line up and stop and then applaud.
00:51:10.722 --> 00:51:15.768
When I left, and I would be like, oh, there's people appreciating what I'm doing.
00:51:16.148 --> 00:51:23.097
And I could be embarrassed because of my lack of skill, because I can't read a note, because I'm untrained.
00:51:24.179 --> 00:51:25.581
And I could hide.
00:51:26.523 --> 00:51:37.036
Or I could do what I'm doing and just go for it and have fun with it and see where it takes me and let God fill in the rest, right?
00:51:37.657 --> 00:51:38.237
And that...
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That is the adventure of life.
00:51:41.784 --> 00:51:43.987
And I am seeking life.
00:51:45.070 --> 00:51:54.240
And life is not a place lived in hiding and duty and retribution and drudgery.
00:51:54.601 --> 00:51:56.344
Life is a risk.
00:51:56.923 --> 00:51:59.387
It is a risk with every breath you take.
00:51:59.427 --> 00:52:01.570
You have no idea if this is your last.
00:52:02.010 --> 00:52:02.632
You just don't.
00:52:03.972 --> 00:52:07.498
So when we start to live with...
00:52:07.777 --> 00:52:37.976
this idea of i have some stuff i want to do it um i'm gonna just i wrote this i wrote the song today it's been brewing in my mind and uh uh the lyrics i say uh i've been waiting here for five long years having things hoping things could be the same.
00:52:38.016 --> 00:52:43.742
And these five long years have made it clear it's time for me to change.
00:52:44.643 --> 00:52:49.309
I've been hiding from some dreams that have been thundering in my mind.
00:52:51.672 --> 00:52:56.157
And that is what's been going on my whole life.
00:52:56.518 --> 00:53:01.764
I've had dreams of writing music and doing what I'm doing.
00:53:01.804 --> 00:53:03.286
I'm actually writing a book, too.
00:53:03.938 --> 00:53:06.800
that I've had that I've been putting on the back burner forever.
00:53:06.840 --> 00:53:11.346
And it thunders in my mind all the time.
00:53:11.545 --> 00:53:12.706
And you know why I don't do it?
00:53:12.726 --> 00:53:14.048
There's no money in it.
00:53:14.809 --> 00:53:15.710
There's no money in it, Ian.
00:53:17.032 --> 00:53:17.913
I have to make money.
00:53:18.434 --> 00:53:19.534
That's what everybody tells me.
00:53:19.574 --> 00:53:20.376
I have to make money.
00:53:22.018 --> 00:53:26.141
Well, I don't actually have to make money.
00:53:26.641 --> 00:53:28.824
I mean, I have to make enough to live, right?
00:53:29.585 --> 00:53:32.445
But You and I know what I'm talking about when I'm saying money.
00:53:32.927 --> 00:53:34.528
I've been in business.
00:53:34.548 --> 00:53:35.630
I got my MBA.
00:53:35.891 --> 00:53:37.012
I have made good money.
00:53:37.114 --> 00:53:47.070
I've worked as a leadership development coach in private equity and in oil and gas, and I have made good money, what people call good money.
00:53:48.793 --> 00:53:54.842
And as much as I enjoyed it, it was not what I wanted the most.
00:53:55.804 --> 00:53:56.786
I'm doing that now.
00:53:57.505 --> 00:54:01.351
And I have no idea whether it'll bring me a penny at all.
00:54:01.992 --> 00:54:02.753
And I don't care.
00:54:02.773 --> 00:54:04.253
I truly don't care.
00:54:05.235 --> 00:54:13.045
Because what it brings me is this sense of satisfaction that is peace, is the essence of peace.
00:54:13.606 --> 00:54:14.867
I'm pursuing in a dream.
00:54:15.268 --> 00:54:16.630
It's terrifying.
00:54:17.070 --> 00:54:17.911
It's adventurous.
00:54:18.592 --> 00:54:21.376
It's crazy, right?
00:54:21.416 --> 00:54:22.496
People think it's crazy.
00:54:22.677 --> 00:54:23.599
They say it to me.
00:54:23.998 --> 00:54:27.815
If you're not telling me that I'm crazy, I'm not doing anything worthwhile.
00:54:28.016 --> 00:54:28.797
That's how I see it.
00:54:29.878 --> 00:54:33.804
And so, yeah, what I'm doing, it's crazy.
00:54:34.206 --> 00:54:35.007
It's on the edge.
00:54:35.807 --> 00:54:37.349
I don't care what you call it.
00:54:37.389 --> 00:54:40.914
There's going to be people that tell me I'm irresponsible, right?
00:54:41.315 --> 00:54:44.760
But you look at anybody that has done anything of value.
00:54:45.322 --> 00:54:47.545
There are naysayers that tell you don't do it.
00:54:47.724 --> 00:54:50.148
There are people that tell you you're crazy.
00:54:50.548 --> 00:54:52.771
There are people that tell you you shouldn't be doing this.
00:54:52.811 --> 00:54:53.713
You should be doing that.
00:54:54.498 --> 00:54:56.460
You've got to cut past all that noise.
00:54:57.041 --> 00:55:02.688
Go to the rumbling in your brain that's screaming at you to do the thing that you want.
00:55:03.489 --> 00:55:04.869
Some people do that naturally.
00:55:05.490 --> 00:55:06.371
Many of us don't.
00:55:06.972 --> 00:55:07.873
Many of us do not.
00:55:08.353 --> 00:55:13.219
And so I am trying to hone in on that because I think that's where God speaks.
00:55:14.161 --> 00:55:16.543
God speaks in those rumblings in your mind.
00:55:18.947 --> 00:55:21.550
As I listen to you, I feel...
00:55:22.786 --> 00:55:33.300
and I'm not just saying this as a fabricated response, but I feel inspired.
00:55:33.681 --> 00:55:38.487
When I listen to you and your story, your experience, your message is powerful.
00:55:39.007 --> 00:55:40.789
We get this one life, right?
00:55:42.753 --> 00:55:46.277
Hopefully we can live with, we could be authentic.
00:55:46.617 --> 00:55:47.418
We could be ourselves.
00:55:48.199 --> 00:55:49.461
We have a spirit within us.
00:55:50.369 --> 00:56:00.943
We have a level of agency, some level of freedom, hopefully some level of income where we can live and do some of the basic things that we want to do.
00:56:01.423 --> 00:56:09.233
You know, so many of us are stuck in the rut or not being the person that we feel we want to be or need to be inside.
00:56:09.313 --> 00:56:16.603
We're following some of this journey or some of the path or being dictated to or told to live a certain way.
00:56:16.983 --> 00:56:28.675
And I can understand there are certain things Obviously, there's some important responsibilities to follow, you know, children and bills and, you know, you can't escape the need to, you know, they need to earn an income.
00:56:28.715 --> 00:56:32.519
You know, we have to live and eat and live in accommodation, et cetera.
00:56:32.559 --> 00:56:46.907
And it's so easy to, I've seen so many friends that I know who have allowed work or that completely take over the lives of And they're not happy.
00:56:46.947 --> 00:56:48.130
They're not being themselves.
00:56:48.710 --> 00:56:50.032
They're not following the dreams.
00:56:50.434 --> 00:57:00.230
And before they know it, I mean, people my age, I'm in my 50s, people I grew up with who sadly are not with us anymore.
00:57:00.309 --> 00:57:02.132
And there are people getting older.
00:57:03.014 --> 00:57:41.884
And are we putting off those dreams, those adventures, those journeys that we need to, you know, our spirit, cries out for and it's extraordinary that you're able to you see that you understand that and you're responding to that that call of the spirit to go on this extraordinary adventure to find yourself rediscover yourself yes you've got to work and pay your bills and you're obviously able to do that and you're trying to be the best self to be authentic and to follow that spirit because you know like you say at the end of the day you know We can just go like that.
00:57:41.923 --> 00:57:43.586
We've got a limited amount of time in it.
00:57:43.626 --> 00:57:47.172
And have we fulfilled our dreams and our goals?
00:57:47.793 --> 00:57:51.378
And I know so many friends of mine who haven't.
00:57:51.398 --> 00:57:57.829
They still long for that opportunity to explore themselves and go on an adventure.
00:57:58.090 --> 00:58:00.434
It won't happen unless you make it happen.
00:58:01.313 --> 00:58:02.815
You've got to make it happen.
00:58:02.856 --> 00:58:08.141
And if you get friends and family around to support you and say, hey, you know, I want to do this.
00:58:08.521 --> 00:58:09.461
And will you do it with me?
00:58:09.541 --> 00:58:11.184
Or, you know, I need some time to do this.
00:58:11.724 --> 00:58:12.485
Go find myself.
00:58:12.545 --> 00:58:12.985
Go discover.
00:58:13.005 --> 00:58:13.806
Maybe it's in a place.
00:58:13.907 --> 00:58:18.670
Maybe it's some other experience that we need to rediscover ourselves.
00:58:19.251 --> 00:58:21.574
And I think so many of us are lost, James.
00:58:21.653 --> 00:58:23.476
We haven't found ourselves.
00:58:23.596 --> 00:58:27.000
We haven't, we're not being ourselves.
00:58:27.099 --> 00:58:31.027
We're not following that, you know, that adventure.
00:58:31.407 --> 00:58:35.532
And I'm not just talking about getting up and moving to a different country.
00:58:36.153 --> 00:58:36.735
We've done that.
00:58:36.815 --> 00:58:38.076
We came from the UK to Canada.
00:58:38.135 --> 00:58:39.177
That was an adventure and stuff.
00:58:39.197 --> 00:58:41.280
That was scary as heck, but we did it.
00:58:41.440 --> 00:58:42.922
I mean, you're now in Japan.
00:58:42.942 --> 00:58:46.106
I mean, you know Japan because you served a mission there, so that makes it a little bit easier.
00:58:46.146 --> 00:58:47.827
You know the culture there, et cetera.
00:58:48.449 --> 00:58:51.253
But I've learned so much from you.
00:58:51.273 --> 00:58:59.025
Your message is so powerful around forgiveness, forgiving oneself, rediscovering, rebuilding those relationships.
00:58:59.565 --> 00:59:18.768
And I have no doubt that this journey that you're on will in some way, at some time, help you restore your personal relationships with your kids and be able to reconnect and restore those new times, new memories.
00:59:19.362 --> 00:59:31.842
And a new period of happiness and peace and joy, I think, will unfold before you as you're able to reforce those relationships.
00:59:32.485 --> 00:59:33.065
I believe that.
00:59:33.505 --> 00:59:34.327
I really believe that.
00:59:34.527 --> 00:59:40.338
And I think the journey that you're on right now will connect those two points, those relationships.
00:59:40.438 --> 00:59:41.519
I really believe that, James.
00:59:42.722 --> 00:59:47.447
When you're on and you're sharing your thoughts, I learned so much, and I know our listeners do as well.
00:59:47.487 --> 00:59:49.489
We're coming to a close here.
00:59:49.530 --> 00:59:56.338
And so I want to thank you again so much for coming on and being so courageous.
00:59:57.380 --> 01:00:01.344
There's great strength in making ourselves vulnerable.
01:00:01.385 --> 01:00:04.068
I'm not there.
01:00:04.088 --> 01:00:04.929
I'm not strong
01:00:05.409 --> 01:00:05.710
enough
01:00:06.331 --> 01:00:06.891
to do that.
01:00:07.012 --> 01:00:15.646
And I always amaze how people can open up and talk about their experiences strengths and weaknesses and successes and failures.
01:00:16.568 --> 01:00:20.833
And there is extraordinary strength and power when we make ourselves vulnerable.
01:00:20.893 --> 01:00:32.952
I think most people, maybe not everyone, but I'd say the vast majority of people, people like me and so many people that feel like I do are in awe when someone like you just talks about openly their vulnerability.
01:00:34.012 --> 01:00:37.153
It's It's refreshing and it's strength.
01:00:37.233 --> 01:00:42.724
There's a big part of society that sees kindness and vulnerability as a weakness.
01:00:43.806 --> 01:01:09.431
But I think most of us in society, in the world, most of us, not everyone, I think most of us, hopefully, does see extraordinary strength and power when we open ourselves up, when we share our stories, experience, or when we make ourselves vulnerable, because we learn so much about ourselves and about our humanity and about the capacity that I think is inherent in most of us, maybe not all of us, to forgive and to love.
01:01:10.052 --> 01:01:12.797
You know, there are those that the scriptures talk about who are past feeling.
01:01:13.922 --> 01:01:15.824
And those people exist.
01:01:15.884 --> 01:01:19.248
The past feel if they don't care, they may never care, James, right?
01:01:19.309 --> 01:01:25.797
They may never get to that point where they can forgive or love in the way that they could or should.
01:01:26.338 --> 01:01:28.880
But I think most people are not past feeling.
01:01:28.920 --> 01:01:29.722
Most people care.
01:01:29.762 --> 01:01:38.228
And I think most people are in awe of others who follow their journey, follow the Spirit, and and have found themselves.
01:01:38.550 --> 01:01:39.871
And I think they long for that.
01:01:40.253 --> 01:01:41.494
I think a lot of people long for that.
01:01:41.815 --> 01:01:44.440
So I think people will really connect with your experience.
01:01:44.460 --> 01:01:48.088
And I can't thank you enough for coming on and sharing that.
01:01:48.487 --> 01:01:50.753
In closing, I'm wondering if...
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There's a couple of things I'd like to do if you're okay.
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I do want to, I did find the Lord's Prayer because I think that was really, really relevant.
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We kind of quoted most of it, but I just want to share it with you in full because I think it's very relevant here.
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You know, at Christmas time, you know, different stages of our life.
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You know, we're trying to, you know, figure life out, learn more about ourselves, find ourselves, some of us, forgive, you know, forgive ourselves, forgive others.
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And I think the Lord's Prayer, especially at Christmas time, is quite unique and timely.
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And it goes like this.
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It says this,"'Is our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name.
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Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven.'" Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.
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And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
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For thine is the kingdom, the power, and the glory, forever and ever.
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Amen.
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And mind this, thank goodness, there's some incredible messages in there.
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I've got one last question for you for me, and then a request.
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And the request is, would you please out...
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at the end of the podcast with another one of your amazing songs, if you're okay with that.
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Sure.
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Your choice.
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But one question I've got before we get to that stage, and we talked about this earlier, bringing this back to the church.
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You know, we're living in extraordinary times.
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I guess you could say that at any point in time, but I think we're living in an interesting geopolitically world full of conflict.
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The church has and continues to make a an extraordinary claim by any standards.
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And that is the church claims to be the only true church upon the face of the earth.
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The only true church.
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And that the prophet, President Nelson, is the mouthpiece, the only one authorized and permitted to speak to God and speak to the world on behalf of God in Jesus Christ.
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That's an extraordinary claim by any standards.
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From your perspective, where you are in your journey, where you are in your life and where you are physically in Japan right now, and your experience and perspective in the church and of the church, what do you see as what the role of the church is or should be or could be in 2025, given all the events that are happening in the world and given what I said earlier, that the prophet, Prince Nelson, speaks to the world, not just to the members, on behalf of God and Jesus Christ as the only true church of Jesus Christ, what do you think the message should be or the direction should be from the church?
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And what's the role of the church in improving the world in 2025 and beyond?
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If you could provide any perspective on that, we'll be great.
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Yeah, I mean, I think...
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I think...
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If the church...
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wants to pursue a christ-like message there is one and true only message from christ which is when he was asked what the most important commandment of god was he said to love the lord thy god with all thy heart might mind and strength and the second is like unto it to love thy neighbor as thyself and that is the essence of all of it and what is embedded within that If you're going to love God with all your heart and love your neighbor like you do yourself, start to forgive yourself, start to forgive your neighbor.
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Forgiveness is so essential.
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These wars I look at, right?
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I understand that the Palestinians and the Jews have been fighting each other for generations.
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I get it.
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The Middle East and the Jewish people, they have a history of hatred.
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I understand that.
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I am not a part of that history.
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It is easy for me to look on them and say, forgive each other.
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But I don't have generations of pain and suffering and killing that have gone on.
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But I do know there is no justice or retribution that will cover the pain that they want to cover.
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The only thing that will cover it is forgiveness.
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The only thing that will cover it is love.
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And if you will take that as well into your own personal life and you look into the spaces in your soul that are the most tormented and troubled, love and forgiveness are the one things.
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I don't care about any of the other doctor.
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All of it hangs on this.
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All of it.
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love and forgiveness of each other that is it what a wonderful wonderful response and uh what a wonderful feeling that we've we've had you and i talking uh this evening um on this wonderful boxing day james you're a wonderful man you you you you're the best of Any man out there, you're not perfect.
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I'm not saying you're perfect.
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None of us are.
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I'm not saying that.
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But you have a spiritual depth to you, which is extraordinary.
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And I'm so grateful because it will help so many.
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You won't know.
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We don't know to the extent of our lives and how the impact and influence of this are what you say.
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But I know that this conversation will help so many at this time.
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feel hopefully more love and hopefully a sense of and a desire to forgive.
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So thank you so much.
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Could we close and would you kindly sing us one of your wonderful songs as we close our conversation this evening?
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I'll sing this song.
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I wrote it in 1999 at Christmas time.
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I was honestly on the verge.
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I was turning 30.
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Fresh out of grad school, everybody thought my life was perfect and I was ready to end it all because I was so depressed.
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And this song is called Do They Reach the Sky?
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And I think about it every year.
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I just was thinking about it the other day.
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I think about it every year at this time of year because I reflect on the fact of where I am and where I was.
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And, you know, By all accounts, if you were to compare my life at age of 30 with what I had and where I was living, what I was doing to where I sit right now in my tiny little place in Japan, making no money, you know, just trying to get through the day, you would say, man, this guy should be depressed.
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And I'm not depressed.
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I'm happy.
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And I like that reflection.
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I like to look.
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at the difference between those two.
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But if you are someone that is struggling and wondering if your prayers reach the sky, I would say to you, they do, and find a friend that can remind you that God is here.
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Because God meets us through people like you, Ian, through our friends, right?
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That's how we get to see God.
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And so that's, this song is to me.
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Stare in the mirror and the face that appears makes you feel real low.
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The
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day has begun.
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There's a lot to be done.
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Gonna take it slow.
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Smile on the job and affirm and shake people.
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Say you're great.
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Sit on the lawn.
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Watching the fall until it gets real late When you say your prayers do they reach the sky Or
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do they just sink to the ground
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When you're lying in bed, do you dream about life?
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Does dreaming about life just bring you down?
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Fork out the door to see a brand new show.
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You buy that big popcorn.
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Eat it alone.
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Then you go home and rent a video.
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There's a knock at the door, but you stay way high.
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You know your
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rent is late.
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Landlord says one more day in your ears, you'll be on the street.
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When you say your prayers, do they reach the sky?
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Or
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do they just sink to the
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ground?
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When you lie in bed, do you dream about life?
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Is dreamin' bout life just bringin' you down
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When you were young You set big goals and they sounded great Now you holdin' with none of them down It's a bit too late You talk of the past Sounds like a blast, but where's your future gone?
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You forgot who you are, chasing for stars, now you've come undone.
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When you say your prayers, do they reach the sky?
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Or do they just sink?
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to the ground when you're lying in bed do you dream about life dreaming about life just bring you down that's it James that was wonderful thank you so much Thanks for having me on.
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You're just a delightful individual.
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And on behalf of my family, I want to extend our love to you.
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You're such a wonderful individual.
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And I'm so grateful because, say, your message will strengthen so many in so many ways.
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So thank you so much.
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Folks, we are at the end of this extraordinary podcast with James here.
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James, thank you again for taking time to be with us.
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We hope our listeners have enjoyed this week's podcast and will get as much from it as I will.
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And until we reconnect and meet with you again when Jim Bennett is back in a few days, we'll continue our recordings and we look forward to being with Jim again.
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in the next week or so.
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But again, James, thank you for taking the time to be with us.
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We love you and appreciate you and wish you the best of Christmas and the very best for 2025 in your life.
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Thank you so much.
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Goodbye.