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C0712: Hmm. Just hung up from a call with your manager and your department head, and now you spend the next twenty minutes in your car just trying to breathe. Well, my name is Sean. Welcome back to prayer before work. the story was sent to me and it went something like this You just finished what you thought was a decent conversation with your manager. And a few minutes later, after your shift was over, the department head calls. So your manager's on the line too, and she unloads. You didn't give the exact answer she wanted on an earlier call. A five minute call ran to six minutes. When you tried to troubleshoot, she heard pushback. You've always been the gentle, helpful one so you stay calm and over apologize on every call, and then you fall apart later. So a small company, there's no HR to go to. Leaving isn't simple because your family has plans writing on this job, and there's one question that won't leave you alone. Is it me? Well, David prays in Psalm one thirty nine, verses twenty three and twenty-four. Search me, O God, and know my heart, try me and know my thoughts, and see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. So notice who David asked to do the searching. You know, not his critics and not his own anxious thoughts in the middle of the night. He asks God. And that's actually a relief. You can stop running this mock trial in your head on repeat. Bring the question to the one who sees you clearly and loves you completely. If there is something you need to change, he's kind enough to show you. And if there isn't, you can stop beating yourself up over it. It's worth taking a really an an honest look at this. Ask one or two people that have seen your work and and ask them what they notice. I mean, maybe there is something small to adjust, like asking up front, do you want me to just do this, or would you like me to look at options first? So your problem solving doesn't come across as resistance. But be willing to look at yourself, being willing to look at yourself doesn't mean you have to accept being treated badly. Since there's no HR, keep s keep simple notes, you know, after any kind of difficult conversation or call. Note with the date, what was asked, what you did. follow up on big requests in writing, you know, an email just just to confirm you'd like me to do blank. Now that's not building a case. It's it's It's more like giving yourself something solid when your memory and your emotions start to blur and they will. and that panic attack in the car, that's important. Please talk to someone about how you're doing. whether that be a counselor or a trusted friend, again a pastor, not just about the job, but about you. So let's pray. God, we don't always know if the problem is us or or the people around us. So Lord, search our hearts and show us what's true. Where we need to change. Give us humility. Where we're being treated unfairly. Give us wisdom and courage. And calm our minds when we can't stop replaying these conversations over and over in our mind. Provide for our families and lead us in the way we should go. We trust you And pray in Jesus' name. Amen. And go make today count.