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Hello, I'm Joy, and I'm Gretchen.
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We both love Jesus, we both love learning, and we needed a place to talk about it.
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Join us twice a month as we discuss our top two.
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Each of us will bring something we've recently heard, or learning, or a mulling over about our faith or a walk with Jesus.
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And then we'll talk about it.
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Come along as we grow in our walks with God.
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Hello.
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Oh, hello.
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Welcome to As We Grow.
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We have begun.
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I surprise started on joy.
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It's one of my new favorite things to do.
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The hello has kicked in, so it's official.
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Yes.
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How are you doing, my friend?
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You know, I am doing well.
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We are officially, I think for like the first time in three months on schedule that like this, like we are in real time.
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Oh right.
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It is the holidays.
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We just finished Christmas.
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We're headed into the new year.
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So this will come out right after the new year.
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Mm-hmm.
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And we actually spent Christmas together.
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We did.
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It was so lovely.
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Yes.
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It was the highlight of my day.
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Oh, yay! Yeah.
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I keep telling the listeners, but I'll just say it again.
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Gretchen is an incredible hostess.
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Like it's thank you.
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She's got a gift and she loves a theme.
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And Christmas is a great theme.
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So the decorations were on point.
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The food was amazing.
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The atmosphere.
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I got figgy pudding for the first time.
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Yes.
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I've never had figgy pudding before.
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I've never made it before.
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Didn't know what it was.
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Me neither.
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Kind of figured it out together.
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I was just feeling like, you know, one of my favorite albums to listen to when we're like decorating the tree and in Christmas time is Bill Crosby's Christmas album.
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Bing Crosby?
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Bing, sorry, Bing Crosby.
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Yes.
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That's a good one.
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And he, my favorite song on there is Bring Us Some Figgy Pudding.
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You know?
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And I sing it every year, and I'm like, what actually is Figgy Pudding?
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So I decided to look up a recipe and try it out.
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Spoiler alert, it was delicious.
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Yeah.
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And the answer is it involved a lot of butter, and so I'm always on board for that.
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A lot of butter and chocolate.
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A little bit of chocolate, a lot of dates, and a lot of figs.
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Oh yeah.
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Hence figgy pudding.
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Correct.
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It was great.
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It was it remind it it reminded me, but it did not taste like there's a difference.
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It reminded me of Trace Le J's cake, which is the go-to cake on my husband's side of the family.
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Like all the all the birthdays, it's Trace Leche's.
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And I never really I don't I probably had tried it before we started dating, but I I wasn't super familiar with it.
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But that like oozy quality where like the sauce is kind of like oozing out of it and makes it extra moist.
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It was it was yummy.
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That's what figgy pudding has.
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Yeah, it's it reminded me a lot of sticky toffee pudding, not so much in the flavor, but in the baking process.
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Oh, okay.
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Because it's like the same same type of thing.
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Poke holes in it and then pour yeah, and it's dates in that one, not figs, but dates as well.
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Yeah.
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So yeah, but I, you know, I thought it was good.
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You are there is a version where you put I think brandy in it.
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That sounds great too.
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Yeah.
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So next year.
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Next year, maybe we do the brandy.
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We decided we're doing this every year.
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Yes.
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She's making figgy pudding every year.
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Yes.
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Yes, correct.
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Yes.
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And she got my teenagers to sign up for that.
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Yes.
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Which is a huge feat in itself.
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I know.
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I was like, you guys, I think that we should just make this a because this is our second time doing Christmas dinner together.
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Yes.
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And I was like, I think that we should just make this a tradition.
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And everyone was like, yes.
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And I was like, okay, great.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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It was so good.
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I actually I had a also there was a delicious cheesecake that she sent me home with part of, and I forgot about it, and I just rediscovered it today.
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Yes.
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And Autumn was like, there's cheesecake.
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It's like, yes.
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This is why we don't wrap things in foil because I can't see it.
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I don't remember it.
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Yes.
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Yeah.
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So so yeah, so still enjoying, enjoying that.
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So if you ever get invited to a dinner party or something food related with Gretchen, go.
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I don't care what is on your schedule.
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You clear your schedule and you go.
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Wouldn't it be fun if like at some point when we grow as a podcast and we get really big.
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Yep.
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Go on.
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We have like some kind of event.
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Oh, yeah.
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Where like I like, you know, we can invite everyone, and I wouldn't cook for like 500 people, but I could help plan a menu.
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I love it.
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Yeah.
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I love it.
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Yeah.
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But it was it was a lovely Christmas.
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My mom came out, which is so much fun.
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And we were very blessed for her that we didn't have any snow.
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Uh it was a real pain point on my face.
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I know.
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It's it's nice to have a white Christmas, but I was grateful because she just really struggles in like the snow and the ice.
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So I was grateful not to have her be nervous the entire time she was here.
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And guys, it rained on Christmas Eve.
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Christmas Day, we had record high temperatures, yeah.
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Close to 50.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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So that that was our Christmas.
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And then we had snow the next day.
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Yeah, we got snow the day after.
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It was beautiful after that.
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Yeah.
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I was driving through and there is, I mean, if you're gonna come and visit, I think July is my favorite month of the year to come and visit.
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But if you're gonna pick a winter month, it is so magical on a bluebird day with snow covered mountains and like ice crystals on all the ground and the trees.
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It was beautiful.
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I was driving home and I was like, oh yeah, I forgot how magical this is.
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And this is about the time, so I'm hitting my one year when we moved into our house that we're calling.
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And so at this point, we were unofficially moving some stuff in, and then January 1st, we were able to like start working on the house.
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And that drive is there's like one road that leads to where I live, and that road is where all of the wildlife migrate over.
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And so from January on, the amount of actually no, from November, the amount of moose is just out of this world.
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So many moose.
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There was a moose jam on my way here today, and then the elk and then the bison, my favorite.
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And there's just hundreds and hundreds, and it's so fun.
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Yeah.
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That road is also well, not the road, that one road, but the road going to that road, which is also just one road, was also an ice skating rink.
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Oh, I know.
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I so my mom wound up getting her flight canceled the first day that she tried to get out.
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And then she did get a lot of snow and ice for her time here.
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Yes.
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And I wound up having to go to the airport three times.
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In one day.
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In one day.
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And it's what, 20, 25 minutes each way?
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Which for you.
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Any New Yorker is listening and laughing because it's any other, any airport is an hour.
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But yes, it's 25 minutes and it's but it was just pure ice and and I skated out real bad at one point.
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Did you?
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Yeah.
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Oh no.
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I was just my car just started rocking back and forth, and I was like, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay, okay.
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I just said that over and over until I got control.
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I'd be yelling, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus.
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Here we go.
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Take the wheel.
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Yep.
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Literally.
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Oh.
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But but other fun things is I had to do another blow-up outfit because that's right.
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We need to put that on Instagram.
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I know.
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Making a note now.
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Yes.
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Jacob was working again.
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And so I got a giant inflatable gingerbread costume.
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And I went to As one does.
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Yep.
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And I went to the police department.
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A good friend of ours who wound up spending all of Christmas with us as well drove me around.
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And that in and of itself is hilarious.
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That picture's actually my favorite.
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Yeah, you in the passenger seat.
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Oh my gosh.
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It is so funny.
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We'll post that one.
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And then and then I went to two other friends' homes and surprised them at their homes.
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And then I was like, I didn't want to post anything all day because I knew that you were coming over with the girls and I wanted to surprise you.
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And then, and then I was being so weird because like when people came in, like like when Jacob and some of the cops came in, like they were like, oh, like asking about it.
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Like starting to ask about it.
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I was like, and then I was like, I'm gonna do it later for the kids.
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And and I'm which I totally saw and I was like, what is she hiding?
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I know I was like so obvious that I'm like hiding something, but it's such a good surprise.
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I don't want to ruin it.
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And then I did, I did come out.
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Your one daughter's face in the video when I come out was so funny.
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She was just like, What is going on?
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Oh, that's so fun.
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Yeah, it was a good time though.
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I need to get your mom's video.
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We need to get your mom's video of it.
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Oh, okay.
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Yeah, I'll send it to you.
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And the picture, we took a picture for you guys.
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I have them.
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I have them.
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And then we didn't post it.
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Which reminds me, we see it later.
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This is this we are today.
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We're gonna get into wrapping up 2025.
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What are any takeaways we have, anything that we want to share, and then getting into like looking forward.
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I do think that one of our New Year's resolutions as a podcast should be that we take a picture of every single time we record.
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Oh, that's a good idea.
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And then we could use that as the picture for like when the episode drops.
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Yep.
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But I do think because we're just so bad at it.
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Like when we do things together, we're so in, which is a good thing.
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We're so in what we're doing, we're not thinking about taking pictures.
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But I think if we like created a habit around like we set up our mics and then we instantly take a picture or something, then that would be good.
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I think that's a great idea.
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Yeah, yeah.
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We just of all of my friends, like for the years that we've known each other, I have the least amount of pictures with Gretchen for some reason.
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And it's such a weird thing because like we do a lot together.
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It doesn't really make a lot of sense.
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So we'll get better, and I I think it's more fun to tease out like for some behind the scenes photos or whatever to have it for you guys.
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So I'm sorry that we haven't, but we'll we'll get better.
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We're working on it.
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We're working on it.
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I wrote down, I wrote it down, so now it's gonna happen.
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Yes, we're not gonna call them goals.
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I don't want to call them goals.
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What shall we call them?
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I don't know, because I was gonna call them goals.
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What?
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How about habits?
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Okay.
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Okay.
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Do some habit adjustment.
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Okay.
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So I just have a I have a as I am growing in my letting go of all or nothing mentality.
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I have a lot of all or nothing with goals.
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Yeah.
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And so if I like make a goal and I'll like, it's either all or nothing.
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And the all is really consuming and not balanced, and then the nothing just completely throws it out, and that's not balanced, and then it gets real discouraging in my head
because then Trixie takes over and yeah, just reminds me of how much of a failure I am.
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So I will I will continue to heal in my relationship with the word goals, but until then, yes.
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What about these habits?
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Things I want to do.
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Things I want to do, intentions I'm aiming for.
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Yeah, things, yeah.
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Just just little as Jenna would say, little bits of better.
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Yes.
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Yeah.
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Yes.
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I'm trying to think of what else we did for Christmas with my family or in this break.
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It okay, Christmas and New Year's on a Thursday is both wonderful and a little disorienting at the same time.
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Listen, I have a lot of thoughts.
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Oh, okay.
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I have a lot of thoughts.
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As someone who is in a traditional job.
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Yeah.
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If a holiday falls on a Thursday, you have to give people off on the Friday.
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Which obviously you're not getting.
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I'm not getting.
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But like, if you don't do that, you're stupid.
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You heard it first here, folks.
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Like it, because then it could be, and I will say, like, when I was a teacher, teachers did that.
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It was like if it was on a Thursday, yeah, you know, you got off on Friday, and then you I mean, teachers for this, you know, you had off Christmas Eve, Christmas, and then until New Year's after New Year's Day.
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But like, no, if traditional jobs need to do that too.
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Like, if you if you have, I actually think that most traditional jobs should follow that same rule that it should be from Christmas Eve until the day after Christmas Day, or I think it's I think it's a really mixed bag, and that's why it's so hard.
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It's because I don't know like what to expect in other people's worlds.
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Yeah.
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Because some of them are working and some of them are not.
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Yeah.
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And and so like some of them who are not are like, man, this feels like a really long holiday because I'm getting these two really long weekends.
00:14:23.679 --> 00:14:24.080
Yes.
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And then the people that are working, it's not that way.
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And like, let's be honest, employers out there listening.
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Yeah.
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No one is getting anything
done anyway.
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And if they show up, they're gonna leave early.
00:14:36.799 --> 00:14:38.320
Like, what is checked out?
00:14:38.879 --> 00:14:49.120
I was talking to some people at work today, and I was just like, I I cannot get my brain oriented in like I just know that in two more days I'm going to have off again.
00:14:49.279 --> 00:14:49.440
Yeah.
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And it's like, I I cannot get into it.
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So I'm I'm just doing the things that I have to do right now.
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That's okay.
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And then I am not thinking about it.
00:15:02.559 --> 00:15:07.519
That's better than all or nothing and just like giving up or just going all in and being miserable.
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Yes.
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It's been it's been for for me that the tricky part is oh, as a parent with your kids home, you're like, okay, two whole weeks of them being home and then looking forward to that and that feeling like a ton of free time.
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But then also like the Christmas Eve stuff and then the New Year's or the Christmas Day things, and then we did another Christmas the day after Christmas with friends, like a tradition we started like 10 years ago, and then like other you know, and then like the New Year's Eve and then the New Year's Day, and like actually we're like a lot of your week gets shot, you know, so it just doesn't feel like I'm like, ah, my kids are eight, nine days into their break, and we haven't done anything because we spent all that time like getting ready for Christmas, doing Christmas, and now we're like, yeah, and now New Year's.
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Yeah, what do we do?
00:16:01.440 --> 00:16:01.919
Yeah.
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All right.
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Well, should we jump in with reflections?
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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I was thinking about this before, and I was thinking it originally I was thinking about it because with my own kids around Thanksgiving time, we had stopped for a second to just kind of like, what are we thankful for from this last year?
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And then as we were listing things off, we were like, whoa, this has been a big year.
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There's a lot to be thankful for.
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I think that might always be the case if you take the time to stop and think about it.
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And so I was like, oh, let's let's do that with this, with as we grow as well.
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Yeah.
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And just really appreciate where we've come from.
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I think some some fun numbers.
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I was thinking about this before to mention.
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We started in actually, I should have looked this
up.
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I was gonna say June, but maybe it was July.
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Do you remember?
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We can look it up.
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Anyways, so we started in the middle of the year.
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Uh-huh.
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We committed to every other week, and we did every week.
00:17:04.480 --> 00:17:04.880
Yep.
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Consistently until December.
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And then we gave you such a huge episode at the end of December that you still got four solid hours of us just in different increments than what the other months had been.
00:17:21.440 --> 00:17:22.160
Yep.
00:17:22.160 --> 00:17:25.519
And so we are now twenty.
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Do you remember two?
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Twenty-three?
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I see I should have looked this up ahead of time.
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We're over 20 episodes in.
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And I was reflecting today on how my family, like, we have an evening established that I come over and record this at Gretchen's place, and my family has come to like expect it as their natural rhythm.
00:17:56.400 --> 00:18:06.720
And it's been such a beautiful, like, not I don't know, there's other things that I do that my kids every once in a while are like, oh, you're leaving again.
00:18:06.720 --> 00:18:11.119
You know, like it feels like I'm depriving them of something.
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But this has become like regular rhythm that everybody I feel like makes space for, has space for, and it doesn't take away.
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And I'm super thankful for that.
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Yeah.
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Monday's a great night.
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I think it's like a great night to start the week, like, or a way to start the week, you know.
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I because I really do enjoy this time.
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And I feel like usually I head into Mondays and I'm like, go, go, go, go, go, because like work is catching up from everything from the weekend and it's you know, it can be a little stressful, but then like I know I have this time that I'm gonna like come.
00:18:48.960 --> 00:19:06.640
We pray first, we like zone in, and then we're just I mean, I I think people underestimate the way talking about Jesus resets your nervous system.
00:19:06.640 --> 00:19:14.720
Like it's not just, you know, because I don't think I think that I would still enjoy it if we just hung out every Monday.
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But I think it's that like what we were talking about last time, we're in a conversation where we're going deep, so we're getting that hit.
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We're spending time with each other, so we're getting that hit, and we're incorporating Jesus in every single conversation.
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And so I think those that combination is so like healing.
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And then I feel like the rest of my week, I'm like, here we go.
00:19:38.000 --> 00:19:39.519
This is great, you know?
00:19:39.519 --> 00:19:40.240
Yeah.
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I just got this like picture of like I feel like we both if our nervous systems were able to emote colors like an infrared, like an infrared scanner does, yeah.
00:19:54.880 --> 00:20:03.440
We both generally come in on Mondays with a rainbow of Craziness going on inside of our nervous systems.
00:20:03.440 --> 00:20:07.759
And by the time we leave, we're both like cool blue.
00:20:08.000 --> 00:20:08.319
Yes.
00:20:08.319 --> 00:20:09.039
Every time.
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Your pyramid.
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Your aura is purple.
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It's purple.
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It's purple.
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I love her so much.
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Are you gonna go see her new movie?
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Yes, it looks so cute.
00:20:22.240 --> 00:20:23.039
It looks so cute.
00:20:23.039 --> 00:20:24.079
She's so cute.
00:20:24.319 --> 00:20:24.640
I know.
00:20:24.640 --> 00:20:25.039
I know.
00:20:25.039 --> 00:20:26.319
We're talking about Kate Hudson.
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If anyone didn't get that almost famous reference, such a such a fun movie.
00:20:31.839 --> 00:20:32.160
Yeah.
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We don't technically endorse it because it's got stuff in it, but yeah.
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That was actually one of my one of my go-to movies when I lived in Japan.
00:20:44.240 --> 00:20:44.720
Oh.
00:20:44.720 --> 00:20:45.279
Yeah.
00:20:45.279 --> 00:20:48.960
I discovered it around at it must have come out around that time.
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And I would back when you rented DVDs from a store, I would rent it often.
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And fun fact, Japan does not have the same code of modesty for their movie covers that America has.
00:21:06.000 --> 00:21:10.720
Oh, that's actually pretty surprising to me.
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Normal videos.
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It's not to me knowing the culture.
00:21:14.079 --> 00:21:14.960
Huh.
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Okay.
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There's not a lot of things.
00:21:17.440 --> 00:21:23.279
I guess I'll just have to go to Japan, seeing as how my husband is Japanese and hasn't taken me yet.
00:21:23.599 --> 00:21:25.759
I mean, my husband can say the same thing.
00:21:25.759 --> 00:21:26.480
I know.
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We should go together.
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We should.
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The four of us.
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Yeah.
00:21:30.319 --> 00:21:31.599
That would be fun.
00:21:31.599 --> 00:21:34.960
We wanted to go for spring break, and I don't think it's gonna happen.
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So let's do it the four of us.
00:21:36.400 --> 00:21:40.559
Although I think my kids will want to come.
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I don't know.
00:21:41.119 --> 00:21:43.519
I kind of get mixed reviews from them.
00:21:43.519 --> 00:21:45.200
Okay, yeah.
00:21:45.200 --> 00:21:46.640
I mean the kids can come.
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That's fine.
00:21:48.240 --> 00:21:49.599
The food that we will eat.
00:21:49.599 --> 00:21:51.039
I know, I'm excited.
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You will love it.
00:21:52.000 --> 00:21:52.640
I'm ready.
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Let's go.
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Let's go.
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I'm gonna eat gluten, even though I'm not sure if I can.
00:21:56.640 --> 00:21:58.559
Great there, because I love it.
00:21:58.960 --> 00:21:59.279
Okay.
00:21:59.279 --> 00:22:01.039
How many episodes did you get that?
00:22:01.039 --> 00:22:04.640
So the the last week was our this is our 23rd episode.
00:22:04.640 --> 00:22:05.839
So we've done.
00:22:05.839 --> 00:22:20.480
And I think I mentioned this on a podcast before, but I had it in my head that we had to make it to 21 because there's some stat that I heard that like 90% of the like podcasts that start don't make it to 21 episodes.
00:22:20.480 --> 00:22:21.599
And so we hit that.
00:22:21.599 --> 00:22:23.359
So I feel like we accomplished that.
00:22:23.359 --> 00:22:26.160
We also I looked up, we started on July 8th.
00:22:26.160 --> 00:22:26.799
We released our first.
00:22:26.799 --> 00:22:27.759
It was July.
00:22:27.759 --> 00:22:28.559
Yeah, great.
00:22:28.559 --> 00:22:29.279
Yep.
00:22:29.519 --> 00:22:30.000
Yeah.
00:22:30.000 --> 00:22:32.720
So and very consistent.
00:22:32.720 --> 00:22:36.960
Very consistent.
00:22:36.960 --> 00:22:39.920
And I really like the long form.
00:22:39.920 --> 00:22:40.799
I really like the dialogue.
00:22:40.799 --> 00:22:41.839
Yeah, me too.
00:22:41.839 --> 00:22:50.640
I don't talk about it too much, but I do have my own podcast, and it's such a different vibe than it is.
00:22:50.799 --> 00:22:54.160
Okay, I just recently listened to one of your other episodes.
00:22:54.400 --> 00:22:55.279
Oh, thanks.
00:22:55.599 --> 00:22:58.480
You it is so like you are so different.
00:22:58.480 --> 00:23:00.319
Like here, you're just like talking.
00:23:00.319 --> 00:23:04.559
On your other one, it's like you're you're entering into this space.
00:23:04.559 --> 00:23:08.319
Like I was listening and I was like, oh, I can't listen while I'm driving.
00:23:08.319 --> 00:23:13.759
I'm gonna like this is putting me in a in a headspace that I I can't function.
00:23:13.759 --> 00:23:16.960
Like I need to go home and lay on the couch and listen to this.
00:23:16.960 --> 00:23:18.960
Maybe in my sauna blanket.
00:23:18.960 --> 00:23:20.079
You have a sauna.
00:23:20.400 --> 00:23:22.319
Oh, I wanted to try your vibrator plate too.
00:23:22.319 --> 00:23:23.200
Oh, we can do that.
00:23:23.200 --> 00:23:24.000
We need to do that.
00:23:24.000 --> 00:23:25.359
Yeah, yeah.
00:23:25.359 --> 00:23:31.599
My husband actually said something like, you know, like your tone is different on the two.
00:23:31.599 --> 00:23:36.480
Like maybe you should be more like conversational, like what you are on as we grow.
00:23:36.480 --> 00:23:38.319
And I was like, but it's a different.
00:23:38.319 --> 00:23:39.839
It's a different vibe.
00:23:39.839 --> 00:23:44.720
I was like, I'm in full-on teacher mode on the mentor's table, my other one.
00:23:44.720 --> 00:23:50.960
And so that is a fully different, like I I show up in a different headspace completely.
00:23:50.960 --> 00:24:06.000
And so originally I had pitched this to Gretchen because I I was wanting to play around with the idea of a conversation, just kind of build my own conversations slash interview, but it's not really an interview, but just conversation skills.
00:24:06.000 --> 00:24:14.240
And and this is just really bloomed into something much more beautiful and centering than I imagined.
00:24:14.240 --> 00:24:15.359
Oh yay.
00:24:15.359 --> 00:24:17.119
Yes, it's been great.
00:24:17.119 --> 00:24:29.279
She does a lot of the work, and I really appreciate that because I could easily drown trying to manage both of these podcasts at the same time.
00:24:29.279 --> 00:24:34.640
And and there's and you're not guaranteed that in a friend or a co-host.
00:24:34.880 --> 00:24:42.720
I have to I one of my I mean I'm jumping ahead, but another intention is I have to figure out.
00:24:42.720 --> 00:24:44.480
Jenna, help.
00:24:44.480 --> 00:24:48.559
I have to figure out a habit for posting.
00:24:48.559 --> 00:24:49.599
Oh yeah.
00:24:49.599 --> 00:24:51.839
Because it's so easy for me to forget.
00:24:51.839 --> 00:24:53.359
And sometimes it's like 10 p.m.
00:24:53.359 --> 00:24:55.519
and I'm like, oh, I didn't post today.
00:24:55.519 --> 00:24:59.200
And then I'm like trying to like do it really fast, you know?
00:24:59.200 --> 00:25:11.359
So I have to figure out some kind of habit to, I don't know, maybe it's an alarm on my phone or something, and it's like at the same time every day, or yeah.
00:25:11.599 --> 00:25:15.279
For me, it's I'm gonna need I need to do that as well.
00:25:15.279 --> 00:25:17.039
And I need to anchor it.
00:25:17.039 --> 00:25:21.279
Like that's the big part for me is anchoring it to the end of something I'm already doing.
00:25:21.279 --> 00:25:30.000
And I'm not sure what that is because the creating a post takes a very a very various different amounts of time.
00:25:30.000 --> 00:25:30.559
Yeah.
00:25:30.559 --> 00:25:32.079
So I'm not really sure.
00:25:32.079 --> 00:25:42.799
Like I'm not sure that there's a slot in my day that can consistently I can show up for 15 to potentially 40 minutes to get this rocked out, you know?
00:25:43.039 --> 00:25:51.200
I'm almost wondering if what would be easiest is like um hire a social media manager.
00:25:51.359 --> 00:25:52.160
Yes, yeah.
00:25:52.400
--> 00:25:55.599
But no, but yeah, who wants to do it for free?
00:25:55.599 --> 00:26:23.119
But like, if I'm just spitballing for me, I don't know if this would work for you, but like on a day where I finish editing the podcast or something, I just create all all the posts for the week, and then I have an alarm go off on my phone each day and just then post it immediately, but it's like the work is already done.
00:26:23.119 --> 00:26:23.839
That's great.
00:26:23.839 --> 00:26:24.640
Yeah, yeah.
00:26:24.640 --> 00:26:25.759
I like that.
00:26:26.000 --> 00:26:30.640
Yeah, anchoring it to doing it right after is a good yeah, a good place.
00:26:30.960 --> 00:26:36.000
But if anyone has any anyone that's really great on social media, if you have any suggestions for us, yeah.
00:26:36.000 --> 00:26:41.440
Because like that's not really my forte, if I'm being honest.
00:26:41.599 --> 00:26:53.359
I'm like and I've just noticed with my own social media that the more personal or pictures, the more interaction that we get.
00:26:53.359 --> 00:27:02.720
And so I love your like let's take more pictures and let's get that up because that that definitely I I can see that there's more traction there for sure.
00:27:02.720 --> 00:27:04.799
Yeah, and then go from there.
00:27:05.759 --> 00:27:14.640
Okay, we I will just say that I I thought we were also gonna be talking about just personal reflection.
00:27:14.640 --> 00:27:16.559
Is that is that the intention or we okay, okay.
00:27:16.559 --> 00:27:19.839
I was like, are we only talking about as we grow or because I have stuff?
00:27:20.079 --> 00:27:21.279
Yeah, okay, let's talk about it.
00:27:21.279 --> 00:27:21.680
Okay.
00:27:21.680 --> 00:27:23.759
Let's talk real quick before you get into your thing.
00:27:23.759 --> 00:27:29.279
I was just thinking, like, because we also talk about our book club too.
00:27:29.279 --> 00:27:33.839
Another thing I should have looked up ahead of time, we've done 12 books as well.
00:27:34.079 --> 00:27:35.440
Yes, that's one of my reflections.
00:27:35.680 --> 00:27:36.799
Okay, yeah.
00:27:36.799 --> 00:27:42.160
Um, I it would be fun, maybe we can put it in the show notes to list off what they were.
00:27:42.160 --> 00:27:42.960
Yes.
00:27:42.960 --> 00:27:48.240
Because those were real formative and and like let's pat ourselves on the back.
00:27:48.240 --> 00:27:50.559
We got through 12 books as well.
00:27:50.559 --> 00:27:51.680
Totally.
00:27:51.680 --> 00:27:53.920
Okay, I'm writing that down.
00:27:55.119 --> 00:28:08.880
Well, okay, so I will say one of my one of my reflections is that I had aimed to, I think my goal was to read 20 or 25 books this year.
00:28:08.880 --> 00:28:11.359
And any genre.
00:28:11.359 --> 00:28:12.720
And re any genre.
00:28:12.720 --> 00:28:14.480
I just wanted to have.
00:28:14.480 --> 00:28:14.960
Yeah.
00:28:14.960 --> 00:28:15.759
Yeah.
00:28:15.759 --> 00:28:24.559
And I have by the time this podcast is released, I will have finished 34.
00:28:25.519 --> 00:28:26.720
Good for you.
00:28:26.720 --> 00:28:27.599
Yes.
00:28:27.599 --> 00:28:28.720
That's awesome.
00:28:28.720 --> 00:28:29.119
I know.
00:28:29.200 --> 00:28:31.839
I went through my goodreads and I was like, oh, look at me.
00:28:31.839 --> 00:28:34.400
Yeah, brag about that.
00:28:34.559 --> 00:28:35.440
That's awesome.
00:28:35.759 --> 00:28:36.240
Yeah.
00:28:36.240 --> 00:28:41.680
So that's definitely something that I've accomplished this year.
00:28:41.680 --> 00:28:42.160
Yeah.
00:28:42.160 --> 00:28:42.480
Yeah.
00:28:42.720 --> 00:28:43.519
What do you think?
00:28:43.519 --> 00:28:47.279
What will that what are you taking from that into next year?
00:28:47.599 --> 00:28:47.920
Okay.
00:28:47.920 --> 00:28:52.240
So I think I'm gonna keep it at 34 for next year.
00:28:52.240 --> 00:28:52.559
Okay.
00:28:52.559 --> 00:28:54.240
I'm gonna try and hit the same goal.
00:28:54.240 --> 00:28:56.799
And then if I outdo myself again, great.
00:28:56.799 --> 00:29:01.440
But I think having the book club makes it easy.
00:29:01.440 --> 00:29:02.000
Okay.
00:29:02.000 --> 00:29:04.000
Er, because it's 12.
00:29:04.000 --> 00:29:05.519
Yes, and it's there's accountability.
00:29:05.519 --> 00:29:06.559
So I'm a person.
00:29:06.559 --> 00:29:09.119
If there is accountability, I'm a show up.
00:29:09.119 --> 00:29:09.599
Uh-huh.
00:29:09.599 --> 00:29:11.920
I do really well with accountability.
00:29:11.920 --> 00:29:15.279
I'm not an internal motivation type person.
00:29:15.279 --> 00:29:16.720
I'm external.
00:29:16.720 --> 00:29:26.319
But so then the second thing with some things, there are some things that I'm internally motivated with, but so there is another.
00:29:26.319 --> 00:29:27.920
I'm cheating on you now.
00:29:27.920 --> 00:29:28.559
Go.
00:29:28.559 --> 00:29:29.119
Oh.
00:29:29.119 --> 00:29:32.720
There is another.
00:29:32.720 --> 00:29:37.279
I just signed up to do another book club all online.
00:29:37.279 --> 00:29:39.920
Oh, I I'm already in another book club.
00:29:39.920 --> 00:29:40.400
Oh, okay.
00:29:40.400 --> 00:29:41.440
I cheated for you.
00:29:41.440 --> 00:29:42.160
Yes, you're good.
00:29:42.160 --> 00:29:50.799
But so and that is if anyone wants to do it, it'll still be the be able to do it.
00:29:50.799 --> 00:29:54.400
But it's with the Instagram handle Simply Bible.
00:29:55.039 --> 00:29:56.079
I'll have to look this up.
00:29:56.400 --> 00:29:59.920
And she has released a 12-month curriculum.
00:29:59.920 --> 00:30:00.480
Okay.
00:30:00.480 --> 00:30:10.400
And she did, she paired one book, one Christian book, with a book of the Bible.
00:30:10.400 --> 00:30:10.880
Oh.
00:30:10.880 --> 00:30:13.519
Which I really liked for each month.
00:30:13.519 --> 00:30:14.079
Okay.
00:30:14.079 --> 00:30:23.440
So the first the first month is Philippians with see if I can find it real fast.
00:30:23.759 --> 00:30:27.359
This is what I like about like our book club.
00:30:27.359 --> 00:30:31.440
I because I can usually pair our book with in my quiet time.
00:30:31.440 --> 00:30:41.119
Like I'll be I can read my Bible and I can read this, and it's both like spiritually motivating is not the right word, but anyways, enhancing.
00:30:41.119 --> 00:30:43.680
And then this sounds like you could also do the same.
00:30:43.680 --> 00:30:44.160
Yes.
00:30:44.319 --> 00:30:44.720
Which I love.
00:30:44.720 --> 00:30:45.599
Yes, totally.
00:30:45.599 --> 00:30:48.720
So it's no more boring Bible study is the first book.
00:30:48.960 --> 00:30:50.160
Oh, I've never heard of that one.
00:30:50.400 --> 00:30:51.839
Pairing it with Philippians.
00:30:51.839 --> 00:30:52.799
Sorry.
00:30:52.799 --> 00:30:53.599
It's okay.
00:30:53.599 --> 00:30:56.079
It is by Faith Womack.
00:30:56.079 --> 00:30:57.440
Oh.
00:30:57.440 --> 00:30:58.640
Interesting.
00:30:58.640 --> 00:31:03.759
And and she also includes a song.
00:31:03.759 --> 00:31:04.400
Okay.
00:31:04.400 --> 00:31:06.160
Oh, that's right up your alley.
00:31:06.160 --> 00:31:07.359
A poem.
00:31:07.680 --> 00:31:08.160
Nice.
00:31:08.400 --> 00:31:17.599
And like a uh something else, like more like artistic that you that goes along with it that you can like use to meditate on and stuff like that.
00:31:17.759 --> 00:31:18.000
Okay.
00:31:18.160 --> 00:31:19.759
So I was like, I love this.
00:31:19.759 --> 00:31:20.880
This is so me.
00:31:20.880 --> 00:31:25.599
So I think that right there is then between the two book clubs is 24 books.
00:31:25.839 --> 00:31:27.039
Oh right, yeah.
00:31:27.519 --> 00:31:39.359
And then what I've also taken away from this past year is I've discovered how much I love fiction audiobooks.
00:31:40.160 --> 00:31:41.599
Oh, okay.
00:31:41.759 --> 00:31:47.839
And so I think that I might then get the rest of them in by listening to fiction.
00:31:48.079 --> 00:31:48.640
Oh, yeah.
00:31:48.799 --> 00:31:49.039
Yeah.
00:31:49.279 --> 00:31:52.559
How many of your 34 this year were audio?
00:31:52.559 --> 00:31:53.680
Do you remember?
00:31:53.680 --> 00:31:56.480
Oh, I would have oh, let's see.
00:31:56.480 --> 00:31:59.680
Probably just a handful or like a good chunk of them.
00:32:00.480 --> 00:32:06.640
Well, I think a good chunk of them because I got real into audiobooks when I was hiking the grand.
00:32:06.640 --> 00:32:07.440
Oh, right.
00:32:07.440 --> 00:32:07.920
That's right.
00:32:07.920 --> 00:32:09.920
Which is another one of my accomplishments.
00:32:09.920 --> 00:32:10.400
Oh, yeah.
00:32:10.400 --> 00:32:12.960
I freaking hiked the grand this year.
00:32:13.359 --> 00:32:14.240
A huge year.
00:32:14.240 --> 00:32:14.799
Yes.
00:32:14.799 --> 00:32:15.680
Yes.
00:32:15.680 --> 00:32:16.559
Yeah.
00:32:16.559 --> 00:32:21.359
What what are you taking from that into 2023?
00:32:21.359 --> 00:32:21.920
Okay.
00:32:22.079 --> 00:32:22.720
I don't know.
00:32:22.720 --> 00:32:26.079
Ex I I'm toying around with an idea.
00:32:26.079 --> 00:32:27.119
I want to know.
00:32:27.119 --> 00:32:29.200
To run a half marathon.
00:32:29.200 --> 00:32:29.839
Okay.
00:32:29.839 --> 00:32:33.839
But I really don't know because historically I have hated running.
00:32:33.839 --> 00:32:44.160
However, I got into running after I hiked the grand because I had all of this stamina that I had never had before and like cardio capacity that I had never had before.
00:32:44.160 --> 00:32:49.039
And so the first time that I went for a run was with my husband, and he was like, Why don't you come for a run with me?
00:32:49.039 --> 00:32:50.400
And I was like, I'm not a good runner.
00:32:50.400 --> 00:32:51.839
And then he was like, just try.
00:32:51.839 --> 00:32:53.680
And then all of a sudden I ran two miles.
00:32:53.680 --> 00:32:56.720
And I was like, oh, hold on, I can run.
00:32:56.720 --> 00:32:58.240
And then I got into it.
00:32:58.240 --> 00:32:59.680
And then I did a 5K.
00:32:59.680 --> 00:33:03.680
And then when I was down south, I ran four miles with my sister-in-law.
00:33:03.680 --> 00:33:06.400
Like, so I'm like, wait, hold on.
00:33:06.400 --> 00:33:07.279
Am I a runner?
00:33:07.519 --> 00:33:08.960
Yes, you're a runner.
00:33:08.960 --> 00:33:12.319
I mean, that's just part of that is just you saying.
00:33:12.319 --> 00:33:12.799
Yeah.
00:33:12.799 --> 00:33:14.480
Or choosing that that's your identity.
00:33:14.640 --> 00:33:14.880
Yeah.
00:33:14.880 --> 00:33:19.119
It's just a matter of like, do I actually want to run 13 miles?
00:33:19.359 --> 00:33:22.960
It's a lot of time to prep.
00:33:22.960 --> 00:33:23.599
Yes.
00:33:23.599 --> 00:33:29.680
But climbing the grand, though you were doing hours of training each hike.
00:33:29.680 --> 00:33:31.200
So you totally could.
00:33:31.200 --> 00:33:34.480
It would actually probably be less time consuming.
00:33:34.720 --> 00:33:36.319
This is my big pitfall.
00:33:36.319 --> 00:33:37.359
Okay, go.
00:33:37.359 --> 00:33:42.880
Is I'm not a good like this is just something about me.
00:33:42.880 --> 00:33:50.400
If I have to go somewhere, like a gym to work out, I don't do well with that.
00:33:50.400 --> 00:33:54.160
If I can just leave from my house and go for a run, great.
00:33:54.160 --> 00:33:58.799
That Snow King, the mountain that I was practicing on, was right out my back door.
00:33:58.799 --> 00:34:02.000
Like, like easy to practice for the grand.
00:34:02.000 --> 00:34:06.400
You know, I have a ton of equipment that I do at home to work out.
00:34:06.400 --> 00:34:07.920
If I can do that, great.
00:34:07.920 --> 00:34:13.599
However, in the winter, running outside is that's a no-go for me.
00:34:13.599 --> 00:34:14.400
I'm not doing it.
00:34:14.400 --> 00:34:14.719
Right.
00:34:14.719 --> 00:34:16.559
I don't want to run in the ice.
00:34:16.559 --> 00:34:20.639
So I would have to go to the cop gym because I get free.
00:34:20.639 --> 00:34:25.280
But I just know myself and I'm not most likely not
gonna do it.
00:34:26.000 --> 00:34:28.960
But could you wait till April?
00:34:28.960 --> 00:34:31.039
Because the half marathons in September, right?
00:34:31.039 --> 00:34:32.400
Yes, I could.
00:34:32.639 --> 00:34:33.119
I could.
00:34:33.119 --> 00:34:36.559
I just am afraid that I'm gonna lose uh lose it by then.
00:34:37.119 --> 00:34:38.400
Oh no no no.
00:34:39.440 --> 00:34:40.159
No no no.
00:34:41.840 --> 00:34:42.559
Okay, well we'll see.
00:34:42.559 --> 00:34:43.039
We'll see.
00:34:43.039 --> 00:34:43.360
Okay.
00:34:43.360 --> 00:34:44.480
So maybe we'll see.
00:34:44.480 --> 00:34:46.000
Maybe we'll put a maybe on that one.
00:34:46.079 --> 00:34:46.320
Yeah.
00:34:46.320 --> 00:34:52.960
What are some of your 2025 takeaways or accomplishments?
00:34:53.280 --> 00:35:14.320
I I did a lot, or we had a big year, and I my big like takeaway is I could give myself I could stand to give myself more grace because like I can't go 100 miles an hour two years solid.
00:35:14.320 --> 00:35:26.800
And I feel like we've been going 100 miles an hour in 2025, and the type A and doer in me is like, great, let's do it again, because that wasn't enough.
00:35:26.800 --> 00:35:53.119
And so I think part of my thought process is I don't want to stack too much up, I guess like goal-wise and physically, and not I was just talking to Jenna about this today, but like not take time to really like take care of my heart and some of the other things that kind of get lost in the shuffle when I'm busy, you know.
00:35:53.119 --> 00:36:02.960
So, like I said, we moved a year ago, we did a bunch of renovations on the house, and I absolutely love it.
00:36:02.960 --> 00:36:06.719
This was our first Christmas in the house.
00:36:06.719 --> 00:36:11.679
I got to decorate it, like a whole new decorating, you know, scheme and everything.
00:36:11.679 --> 00:36:18.159
I really enjoyed that, and and so I think it's a little bit more of that.
00:36:18.159 --> 00:36:24.239
Like, I strove so hard to get the house to a good spot in 2025.
00:36:24.239 --> 00:36:27.599
Now in 2026, I really want to enjoy the house.
00:36:27.599 --> 00:36:32.000
You know, I we did a lot of traveling in 2025.
00:36:32.000 --> 00:36:35.920
I'm not sure that 2026 is gonna look the same.
00:36:35.920 --> 00:36:39.519
Maybe 2026 is enjoying being here again.
00:36:39.519 --> 00:36:40.000
Right.
00:36:40.000 --> 00:36:45.519
Because one pain point that I had for them from the summer is we only went camping one time.
00:36:45.760 --> 00:36:46.079
Yeah.
00:36:46.320 --> 00:36:49.920
And I I feel really sad about that.
00:36:49.920 --> 00:37:05.760
But we also went to Portugal and we went to Italy and we did a lot of wonderful things as well, but you just can't do and we hosted we hosted actually a lot of people over the summer, and that was a wonderful give and take.
00:37:05.760 --> 00:37:10.079
Like I didn't camp as much, but I got to see a bunch of wonderful people.
00:37:10.079 --> 00:37:18.400
So really kind of settling into that and like okay, maybe 2026 is being more about being home.
00:37:18.400 --> 00:37:35.679
We're gonna, you know, I have my our oldest daughter is graduating, and so there's a lot coming around people coming for graduation and getting her to figure out a college and sending her off to a college.
00:37:35.679 --> 00:37:43.280
Like it's gonna be a different rhythm, especially traveling wise and people-wise, that I need to make space for.
00:37:43.280 --> 00:37:50.239
Because if I don't anticipate that, I will regret it or I will be sad in the midst of it.
00:37:50.239 --> 00:37:52.079
I won't be able to enjoy it in the midst of it.
00:37:52.079 --> 00:37:54.480
I'll be like holding out for all this other stuff.
00:37:54.639 --> 00:37:55.119
Yeah.
00:37:55.119 --> 00:37:56.559
Yeah, that's good though.
00:37:56.559 --> 00:37:58.079
That's a good realization to have.
00:37:58.320 --> 00:38:00.159
Yeah, it's good for me to name it now.
00:38:00.159 --> 00:38:01.519
This is why this is so important.
00:38:01.519 --> 00:38:04.800
I would highly recommend for anyone who's listening.
00:38:04.800 --> 00:38:16.320
Like, you can do so much in your head, yeah, but but I don't think you're gonna hit like the real like fruit of what you need unless you talk this through with somebody else and start talking it out.
00:38:16.320 --> 00:38:19.039
Because this is the first time I've articulated that specifically.
00:38:19.039 --> 00:38:19.519
Yeah.
00:38:19.519 --> 00:38:26.079
I had written down a bunch of stuff and that wasn't in there, and that was just you know, stuff out of my head.
00:38:26.400 --> 00:38:33.199
I will say that I also completed 330 crossword puzzles.
00:38:33.199 --> 00:38:36.000
You keep track, is it an app?
00:38:36.000 --> 00:38:36.800
I have an app.
00:38:36.800 --> 00:38:38.800
I use the Apple News app.
00:38:38.800 --> 00:38:40.079
They have a crossword every day.
00:38:40.079 --> 00:38:50.400
Okay, and so my goal was to do one a day, but then I seriously fell behind when I was training for the ground.
00:38:50.639 --> 00:38:51.199
That's okay.
00:38:51.199 --> 00:38:51.519
Yep.
00:38:51.519 --> 00:38:53.199
But you still did a ton.
00:38:53.360 --> 00:38:53.599
I know.
00:38:53.599 --> 00:38:56.639
I still I I mean, I'm just one month behind, pretty much.
00:38:56.639 --> 00:38:57.440
I caught up.
00:38:57.440 --> 00:38:58.800
I was in the mustard, but I caught up.
00:38:58.800 --> 00:39:01.599
I catched up, I catch, catch up, catch up.
00:39:02.000 --> 00:39:03.440
It doesn't work in past tense.
00:39:03.440 --> 00:39:06.400
It's still funny, it's still funny.
00:39:06.400 --> 00:39:09.280
Just saying I was in the mustard.
00:39:09.280 --> 00:39:13.119
That like catches if you weren't paying attention, you're back.
00:39:13.119 --> 00:39:15.760
Because they're like, wait, what did she just say?
00:39:15.760 --> 00:39:17.599
That's the best part about it.
00:39:17.599 --> 00:39:20.320
Yeah, okay.
00:39:20.320 --> 00:39:21.360
Confession.
00:39:21.360 --> 00:39:22.239
Yes.
00:39:22.239 --> 00:39:25.760
Crossword puzzles make me feel dumb.
00:39:25.760 --> 00:39:27.360
Oh, same.
00:39:27.360 --> 00:39:29.440
No, because you have finished.
00:39:29.440 --> 00:39:32.639
Like, I can't even get close to finishing.
00:39:32.639 --> 00:39:36.320
No, you do if you keep at it.
00:39:36.480 --> 00:39:47.280
Like you start to get the like the way to think the way that the per yeah, the way that the people are doing it kind of and the way that they're like giving the hints, and you're like, oh, okay.
00:39:47.280 --> 00:39:53.519
And there are some that I have to like look up, you know, like who is the actor from this thing that I've never heard?
00:39:53.519 --> 00:40:03.760
You know, like I'll save that to the end and see if I can like guess, but I'm not gonna like I'm not gonna not complete it if I don't know this, you know what I mean?
00:40:03.760 --> 00:40:06.239
Like, I'm like, okay, I'm just gonna look that up.
00:40:06.239 --> 00:40:07.599
Some people might say that's cheating.
00:40:07.599 --> 00:40:08.400
I don't.
00:40:08.719 --> 00:40:09.840
Oh no, I don't.
00:40:09.840 --> 00:40:10.639
Yeah.
00:40:10.639 --> 00:40:15.519
I'm just realizing like this could be my invitation to ditch all or nothing.
00:40:15.519 --> 00:40:15.920
Yes.
00:40:15.920 --> 00:40:18.559
Because I've definitely all or nothing crossword puzzles.
00:40:18.559 --> 00:40:18.960
Yes.
00:40:18.960 --> 00:40:20.239
Since I was like 10.
00:40:20.239 --> 00:40:22.400
Because it's so good for your brain health.
00:40:22.400 --> 00:40:23.280
Yeah.
00:40:23.280 --> 00:40:24.719
Yeah, I need that.
00:40:24.880 --> 00:40:26.320
Like I don't want to get dementia.
00:40:26.320 --> 00:40:26.800
You know?
00:40:26.800 --> 00:40:28.320
Yeah, that's a good plan.
00:40:28.320 --> 00:40:30.320
I'm okay with that plan.
00:40:30.320 --> 00:40:34.320
And I just look at it as like I'm getting smarter every time.
00:40:34.320 --> 00:40:41.440
Like now I know that like the little sword that they use in fencing is like an MP or something like that.
00:40:41.440 --> 00:40:42.239
It's called Oh.
00:40:42.239 --> 00:40:43.280
Yeah, okay.
00:40:43.280 --> 00:40:43.519
Yeah.
00:40:43.519 --> 00:40:49.280
I actually probably just got it wrong again, but I would know it if I saw it on the page, you know.
00:40:49.280 --> 00:40:52.320
It's like E M P-E-E or something like that, or E M E.
00:40:52.320 --> 00:40:53.440
Yeah, something like that.
00:40:53.599 --> 00:40:54.159
Oh, interesting.
00:40:54.320 --> 00:40:54.559
Yeah.
00:40:54.639 --> 00:40:57.199
So like it's you I'm like, okay, I'm getting smarter.
00:40:57.199 --> 00:40:57.760
Okay.
00:40:57.760 --> 00:40:59.440
Okay, interesting.
00:40:59.440 --> 00:41:00.000
Yeah.
00:41:00.000 --> 00:41:03.760
Okay, so I'm gonna take like a real hard turn.
00:41:03.760 --> 00:41:04.320
Okay.
00:41:04.320 --> 00:41:21.840
I was listening, nope,
I wasn't listening to I was reading Devotion during Advent, and it was talking about waiting, and I just got this really strong sense that that was a word for as we grow for 2026.
00:41:21.840 --> 00:41:24.000
Oh isn't that interesting?
00:41:24.000 --> 00:41:25.519
Because I don't really know.
00:41:25.519 --> 00:41:40.000
I've had that was a word for me a few years ago that I had kind of focused on, but it was one of those all or nothing years, and by February I was at nothing, so I didn't get the fullness out of it.
00:41:40.000 --> 00:41:47.039
But let me read for you some of the things that I wrote down from that devotional.
00:41:47.039 --> 00:41:47.519
Okay.
00:41:47.519 --> 00:41:55.280
They were talking about Anna and Simeon, the two people who were promised to see God, or Jesus before when he was born.
00:41:55.280 --> 00:42:00.960
Simeon waited with God's word, and therefore he waited with a sense of promise.
00:42:00.960 --> 00:42:12.960
And I think that's a bigger part of it for us, is that there is a sense we're not just like waiting, like taking a nap, and like uh whatever happens, happens.
00:42:12.960 --> 00:42:38.000
But like, you know, we talked a lot this last year about shifting atmospheres and knowing the promises and knowing our identity, and so I think that there is like there's this transition now of like once we're solid on that or we know our promises, we're gonna wait with that expectancy and not just and not just forget about it.
00:42:38.000 --> 00:42:40.239
Maybe is the opposite of it.
00:42:41.039 --> 00:42:50.000
I love that, and I do and I like man, how Anna and Simeon have been coming up so much lately.
00:42:50.000 --> 00:42:54.480
I've heard like 17 things in like the past three weeks on them.
00:42:54.480 --> 00:43:03.039
But like they yeah, like they weren't inactive either, like both of them were praying continuously every day.
00:43:03.039 --> 00:43:14.239
Yes, yeah, and so like if we're continuously like working on this, but like waiting for because listen, I went back and I looked at that prophetic word from that guy, Tom at Bethel.
00:43:14.239 --> 00:43:21.199
Yeah, and he said that I would be recording things, and this was in March.
00:43:21.199 --> 00:43:23.760
He said I would be recording things.
00:43:24.000 --> 00:43:25.039
Oh, I don't remember that.
00:43:25.039 --> 00:43:26.800
Yes, that was part of it, yeah.
00:43:26.960 --> 00:43:31.840
And there's now this is the so this is now the second thing that that prophecy has gotten correct.
00:43:32.079 --> 00:43:32.480
Very good.
00:43:32.639 --> 00:43:40.239
And he said that like the videos and the recordings would would impact many people.
00:43:40.239 --> 00:43:44.159
Oh, and so that's a promise that we have.
00:43:44.559 --> 00:43:47.360
Okay, yeah, interesting, yeah.
00:43:47.360 --> 00:43:49.599
Yeah, I want to read a little bit more.
00:43:49.599 --> 00:43:54.000
Okay, Simeon wasn't waiting wishfully, he was waiting hopefully.
00:43:54.000 --> 00:44:01.119
Hope is the foundation of our waiting, and our hope is based on the goodness and faithfulness of God.
00:44:01.119 --> 00:44:08.320
And again, I know we we just talked about hope a couple episodes ago, but that's that hope is a foundation.
00:44:08.320 --> 00:44:18.880
Like there's again, it's so much more purposeful as opposed purposeful waiting as opposed to just well, I don't know when it's gonna happen.
00:44:18.880 --> 00:44:22.159
Yeah, yeah, you know, hopefully it does.
00:44:22.159 --> 00:44:26.400
Yeah, but like, oh no, no, I I've got a promise, I'm expectant.
00:44:26.639 --> 00:44:30.400
I am hopeful, like the word right out of my mouth.
00:44:30.400 --> 00:44:33.280
I was gonna say there's like an expectancy to hope.
00:44:33.519 --> 00:44:34.960
And you said expectant, yeah.
00:44:34.960 --> 00:44:35.519
Yep.
00:44:35.519 --> 00:44:38.719
So I think I think there's something there for us.
00:44:38.719 --> 00:44:45.760
Oh, another thing I just saw that I wrote down from it said everything in us wants to resist waiting.
00:44:45.760 --> 00:44:50.320
And yet waiting is actually the very thing that transforms us.
00:44:50.320 --> 00:44:51.360
Mmm.
00:44:51.360 --> 00:44:54.960
So it's not just again, it's not just sitting around.
00:44:54.960 --> 00:44:56.800
Yeah, it's transformation.
00:44:56.800 --> 00:45:10.239
I think by saying that waiting is our is is a word for us for this next year, it's also saying transformation is a word for us for this next year.
00:45:10.239 --> 00:45:10.960
Yes.
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And I'm excited, like I'm looking forward to December 2026 when we can look back and go, oh, that's what that meant.
00:45:19.679 --> 00:45:20.239
Yeah.
00:45:20.239 --> 00:45:20.960
You know?
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And I think like, because I'm like, okay, how does that translate?
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Like, what does that mean?
00:45:25.360 --> 00:45:35.199
And I think it's like looking for expectantly looking, because they were looking for the Messiah all the time.
00:45:35.199 --> 00:45:39.039
They were praying for him, they were waiting for him, but they were looking for him.
00:45:39.199 --> 00:45:39.599
Yeah.
00:45:39.920 --> 00:45:47.440
Like it's not like oh, when is he gonna come, but like this could be the day, you know, like where are the signs?
00:45:47.440 --> 00:46:08.480
And so I think it's like looking at the numbers, you know, and being like, oh my gosh, we got one more down, like that's a that's movement towards that thing, you know, like oh we got one more comment, like that's movement towards that thing, you know, and and celebrating those as well.
00:46:08.480 --> 00:46:09.679
Yeah, yeah.
00:46:11.360 --> 00:46:28.800
Yeah, I think that um I think that all the pieces for transformation, there was so much of it that we were like kind of collecting in 2025 from the books that we were reading and then the podcasts and the different things that were going on in our
life.
00:46:28.800 --> 00:46:49.679
And now it's I feel like it there's a shift in a different way that like now we have all the pieces, and like okay, I think that it's kind of like we put the puzzle together right at the beginning of the year so that we can be expectant, like, oh, that's the picture, like that's hope, that's the that's what we're aiming for.
00:46:49.679 --> 00:46:59.280
Yeah, and then we yeah, ex I keep going back to expectant, we are expecting and looking, actively looking for it.
00:46:59.280 --> 00:47:04.000
Our pastor talks about I just went blank on the words that he uses.
00:47:04.000 --> 00:47:06.159
It's like active waiting.
00:47:06.159 --> 00:47:16.159
I can't remember the other he uses a different phrase, but anyways, talking about our attitude towards waiting for Jesus to return.
00:47:16.159 --> 00:47:23.760
There is a verse that I will look up and find for you guys that talks about how we can in our waiting we can hasten his return.
00:47:23.760 --> 00:47:36.559
And I feel like there's like a there's more movement to the word waiting in 2026 for us that is hastening things as opposed to again passively waiting, yeah.
00:47:36.559 --> 00:47:39.360
Yes, so and letting time pass.
00:47:39.360 --> 00:47:40.079
So yeah.
00:47:40.079 --> 00:47:43.679
I'll look that verse up for you guys and put it in the show notes.
00:47:43.679 --> 00:47:52.559
Anyways, yeah, there's other things that I kind of aiming for next year, but I don't know that it I need to list them off right now.
00:47:52.559 --> 00:47:55.360
So we can we can move on.
00:47:55.360 --> 00:48:01.599
Yeah, there's a whole plethora of uh future podcasts where we can keep on talking about all this stuff.
00:48:01.599 --> 00:48:02.159
Yeah.
00:48:02.159 --> 00:48:30.559
Okay, so the the confession that I was holding on to is I'm really starting to realize that New Year's Eve specifically, but holidays in general, I have a really hard time with if I'm not invited to something, I way overthink initiating my own thing.
00:48:30.559 --> 00:48:31.119
Yeah.
00:48:31.119 --> 00:48:56.079
And so like we have we're recording this before New Year's, so we have New Year's Eve coming up, and I am paralyzing myself by trying to overthink what to do with my husband and probably just our youngest, because the other two girls will have, you know, friends and parties or whatever to go to.
00:48:56.079 --> 00:49:38.559
And it's just brought a lot of loneliness because it's hard to yeah, it's hard to like, I want to like create the perfect thing for our young daughter, but also I'm like, wow, it's hard to find you know, there's another like family where all three of us are close and in the same season of life and don't already have something going on, and and and and I just that that's just I've just been fighting a lot of loneliness in this holiday season.
00:49:38.559 --> 00:49:39.760
That's my confession.
00:49:42.400 --> 00:49:44.960
That one's so hard to laugh at.
00:49:44.960 --> 00:49:45.840
It feels cruel.
00:49:45.840 --> 00:49:48.400
I'm like that you feel lonely.
00:49:48.400 --> 00:49:49.679
I'm laughing at you.
00:49:49.840 --> 00:49:50.960
I hate it.
00:49:50.960 --> 00:49:57.199
Well, I think the the the laughing at the lie that I am alone.
00:49:57.199 --> 00:49:59.199
Yes, because that's not true, right?
00:49:59.199 --> 00:49:59.519
Right.
00:49:59.519 --> 00:50:07.280
There are plenty of people, and I my expectations are too high for any normal human to meet.
00:50:07.440 --> 00:50:07.840
Yeah.
00:50:08.159 --> 00:50:17.519
So I I don't have to, or like I we can laugh at the lie that I have been believing that there's no answer and then I'm just all alone.
00:50:17.519 --> 00:50:18.000
Yeah.
00:50:18.000 --> 00:50:25.440
I'm still having trouble.
00:50:30.320 --> 00:50:39.519
Okay, I think that my confession is similarly but like wrestling with that same lie of like, I'm not enough.
00:50:39.519 --> 00:50:50.639
Like, I think I like, you know, because you started off the podcast by saying, like, if you Gretchen ever invites you to a dinner party or anything like that, go.
00:50:50.639 --> 00:50:52.000
She's such a good host.
00:50:52.000 --> 00:50:56.400
That whole time I was like, I failed so miserably.
00:50:56.400 --> 00:50:58.639
I wasn't ready when everyone got there.
00:50:58.639 --> 00:51:05.760
Like I didn't finish everything and like I wasn't just like sitting with people, like, you know what I mean?
00:51:05.760 --> 00:51:08.320
I just was so in my head about it.
00:51:08.320 --> 00:51:15.199
And then like my mom was here, and I'm like constantly like, could I have spent more time doing this with her?
00:51:15.199 --> 00:51:27.280
Could I have, you know, like I took a three-hour nap one day on the last day when she was supposed to have gone, but I was like, I had, I just wiped out and I took like a three-hour nap.
00:51:27.280 --> 00:51:32.960
And I woke up and I was like, oh, like I could have, you know, been talking to her.
00:51:32.960 --> 00:51:35.519
We could have gone out to dinner, we could, you know what I mean?
00:51:35.519 --> 00:51:37.760
Like it now, she was seated an extra day.
00:51:37.760 --> 00:51:39.039
I should have taken advantage of that.
00:51:39.039 --> 00:51:46.800
Like I just deal with a lot of like, I could have done better, which traces back to like I'm not good enough, you know.
00:51:46.800 --> 00:51:52.480
So this feels cruel too.
00:51:52.480 --> 00:51:55.039
It is a lie.
00:51:55.039 --> 00:51:56.239
Yeah, I get it.
00:51:56.400 --> 00:51:57.280
Yeah, I get it.
00:51:57.440 --> 00:51:58.800
Yeah, yeah.
00:51:58.800 --> 00:52:10.320
And it is a lie, and in some ways, it's like okay, but there's always ways that we can improve.
00:52:10.320 --> 00:52:16.559
Like, I I don't have to, it doesn't have to come from a place of like I am never, I'm not good enough.
00:52:16.639 --> 00:52:16.880
Yeah.
00:52:17.039 --> 00:52:24.880
But like if I get rid of that part, I don't mind that like I look at things and want to do better.
00:52:24.880 --> 00:52:25.360
Right.
00:52:25.360 --> 00:52:25.679
Yeah.
00:52:25.679 --> 00:52:26.559
No, that's a good.
00:52:26.559 --> 00:52:27.039
You know?
00:52:27.039 --> 00:52:27.360
Yeah.
00:52:27.360 --> 00:52:30.320
So like I can reframe that a little bit.
00:52:30.320 --> 00:52:32.559
Yes, I feel that.
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All right.
00:52:33.199 --> 00:52:34.400
Well, all right.
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Bye.
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