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I don't know, daycare.
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It's um it's nice.
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It's a nice bur I know it sounds bad.
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It's a nice break though.
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Yeah.
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I mean, my favorite time, not my favorite, I love seeing her and picking her up when she's all smiley.
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And but I get an hour between when I get home and have to get her.
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It's really nice.
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I can take a shower, wipe my own ass, and I don't have to worry about someone crying.
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Someone crying.
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Someone being fussy.
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Someone asking for dinner.
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You know, I'm just completely alone.
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Is that a dig to me?
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Someone asking for dinner?
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Are you shitting me?
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Look, let's get into that.
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Let's get into the breath.
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First up, I never ask for dinner.
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I don't come home.
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No, but you expect dinner.
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And that's because I have set it up that way.
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Because I typically have dinner ready when you get home.
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I try to time it perfectly.
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But I'm also understanding when you're like, dude, I'm I'm fucking tired.
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Gassed.
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Yeah.
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I don't, I'm like, yeah, you're fine.
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No one asked you to be superwoman.
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I know, but then it's like, if I don't make dinner, then we're like, there's nothing to eat.
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And then we'll order food.
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I know.
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So I have to make dinner.
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Oh my god.
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I tried to make dinner, you guys.
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Oh man.
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I just do you know what?
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I I can confidently say I am I'm good at a lot of things.
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Yeah.
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I I do my part at the house.
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Yeah.
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But cooking ain't one of them.
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If if it's like if it's you you need an assist on cooking steak, cooking chicken, I'm the chicken master.
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I'm getting better at chicken, actually.
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You are.
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You are.
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Yeah.
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You're finally trusting.
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Yeah.
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And you know when to pull that.
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You pull it 10 degrees before.
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Right.
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And you let it sit.
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And then it let it sit.
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It cooks.
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Yes.
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Because you and God bless your mother.
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Y'all fucking cook that chicken until it is dry.
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There's no juice left.
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It's like jerky.
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It's like all jerky.
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I'm just chicken jerky.
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It's like that scene in uh every time I'm like Christmas vacation.
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When they cut the turkey.
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It's like I know we put it in the phone.
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Dude, there are multiple times where I'm like, damn, baby, you you gotta, you're like, whoa, there's a little pink in there.
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I'm like a tiny pink, like a tiny shade of pink.
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I'm like, it's not supposed to be like I just get freaked out with chicken.
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It just freaks me out.
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But I've gotten so much better.
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Yeah, yeah.
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But I tried, I tried to make something, and it was so and again, you know, we were, you know, you were saying we don't really we we don't have something in the house, or it and I'm like, try to do what you do.
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Yeah, you make things out of nothing.
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I'm like, there's nothing in the house, and you just make like buttered noodles and whatever is left there, and it's awesome and it's amazing.
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I tried that.
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Uh fucking horrible.
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I tried to make something very simple in my mind.
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Now I wish you would have told me what your thought process was because I would have told you like that kind of that type of space.
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Well, let's tell them what I made.
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It was a chicken Alfredo.
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Yeah, but you use spaghetti noodles, chicken, and then you put this like lemon alfredo sauce from Trader Joe's.
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I understand.
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I wish you would have told me though, because we could have made a sauce.
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We could have made our own cheese sauce, and you wouldn't, you don't do spaghetti noodles.
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That's all we had.
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No, we had penne up up at the top.
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Yes, we did.
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And penne would have been better with the chicken.
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Spaghetti and chicken.
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Penne is spaghetti and chicken.
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It's those two things that they just unless you're having a full like chicken parmesan, you can put spaghetti noodles under.
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Yeah.
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That makes sense.
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But like chunks of chicken, you can't do a spaghetti.
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You guys can't see me, but my head is like, I'm like sinking in this tear.
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I'm like, I just I just wish you would have told me that it's I will I didn't tell you because I didn't want you to have to get up and do something.
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I was trying to be nice.
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I know.
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It was and I would have eaten it.
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It's just that no, I couldn't do it either.
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Like I was like, and so I ate a can of it.
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I can see why we never used it.
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Yeah.
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I'll never I even looked at it, I'm like, well, that sounds weird, but okay.
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I had some tin fish and a cracker.
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I had one, like two bites of that.
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And I'm like, I had like a scone, muffin, chipotle, but you know that thing goes right through you.
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Yeah, chipotle goes right through you.
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A yogurt.
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So you had breakfast, lunch, and snack.
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Yeah.
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Not my shrine.
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No.
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No.
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That's okay, because it's mine.
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I know.
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But it but I feel bad.
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I do feel bad when you like come home.
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You work too.
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Yeah.
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And then you gotta like do that, and I'm gassed from being like outside all day.
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I'm like, can I just get a minute?
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And you're like, Well, I gotta make dinner.
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I'm like, oh god, I feel bad.
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I feel bad, but you're so much better.
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It is what it is.
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But if it's just craft mac and cheese, I'll fuck it up.
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Yeah, let's go.
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Yeah.
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I enjoy cooking though, for the most part.
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I I do like it.
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It's different now.
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I used to have like my music on and candle lit and a glass
of wine, and it was like a whole thing for me, and it was very calming.
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I like doing that.
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Now it's not feeling like that.
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Fucking process.
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But I did have Ireland up on the counter with me watching me chop up the stuff, and that was cute.
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She was very interested in cooking.
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So yeah, when I do the uh when like I clean the kitchen or do the dishes or something, and I'm like, I I can't hold you right now.
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I have like washing those bottles is like a two thing.
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Fucking god.
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We can get into that in a minute, but um no, she does great in that little uh chair.
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I don't know what what are they called?
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Bumbo bum bumbos.
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Yeah, she loves it.
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She loves it, she's like part of it, and she likes that, and I like that, and I can't wait until she's old enough to cook with me.
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That'll be cool.
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Or like when she starts like baking.
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Baking and yeah, I'm very excited about that.
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That'll be cute.
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See, I mean, we'll get back to all that kind of stuff.
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Oh yeah, it's the first year.
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It's fucking and I know maybe we're just we'll go back and listen to this and go, how naive were we?
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But it's actually fucking worse.
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No, I don't know.
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No, I mean a lot of people say it's like, oh yeah, I mean, like, it gets more crazy because now they can tell you they can talk.
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I think that when people are like, oh my god, like they start talking and walking and fucking terrible.
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I'm like, I just don't think that maybe you like being a parent that much.
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I don't know.
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I I I think people that complain about their kids all the time, like this stage sucks, that stage sucked, that was shit.
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I'm like, maybe you just don't like being a parent because you're not embracing, yes, it's fucking hard.
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We all know that there are shitty parts.
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Literally, she just shit up her back the other day.
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That was disgusting.
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That was horrible.
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We all know that there are parts and there there are times where you're like, fuck, this is really hard.
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Yeah.
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But you love it, right?
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I mean, at the end of the day, you love being a parent.
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I love watching her grow and learn.
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Do I get fucking irritated?
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Yeah.
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Am I gonna get fucking irritated when she's older?
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Yeah.
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But I'm gonna love it because I love being a mom.
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I love being a parent.
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And I feel like people that complain all the time and they're like, oh my god, it's just way worse.
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Like, buckle up, it gets worse.
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I'm like, I just feel like you don't love this.
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I feel like you don't like the journey of that.
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Yeah.
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Because you're not finding anything good about any of it.
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Maybe you just don't like it.
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I think all of the stages are probably gonna have their, you know, there's always gonna be pros and cons.
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I know what's gonna irritate me already, but I'm I'm already anticipating.
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She's gonna get into fucking everything we have.
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All my all my like speaker wires and shit.
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I'm like already looking at the house.
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There's stages of fucking my 20s that were terrible.
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I mean, like what's real?
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There's a stage of everything.
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Your parents weren't having to be par Yeah.
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My parents were still in my I was still living there when I was in college.
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In my twenties, still being an asshole.
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Yeah.
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I'd actually like my dad to be on this podcast so I could ask him who was the hardest to raise out of us?
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Who do who does he think would be I would imagine he would say Sid.
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Yeah.
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And not even like just because she was the first.
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Yeah.
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She was the first to go through everything.
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She was more rebellious.
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Well, and he had to learn everything with her.
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Just like I feel like the first one is probably always not always the hardest.
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You always have your own.
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No, I think you're you're you were harder than Kelsey.
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I feel like your parents would say, Bring your dad in here.
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Let me ask him.
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Bring your mom bring your mom
in here.
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Okay.
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Okay.
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My question was we were talking about who who is harder to raise.
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And we were talking about the first kids usually the hardest.
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And I said, No, I think you were harder to raise than Kelsey.
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And so I said, Bring your mom down here because I'd like to know who is harder.
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Well, they both were challenging for different reasons, right?
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So I think it was harder for us to dress to Kelsey when she was an infant because obviously it was the first one, right?
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Right.
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But yeah, he takes a cake.
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So I mean, he was harder.
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Oh, please, don't even don't even question that.
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Yeah.
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You were harder from the time you started school.
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So I would say from third or fourth grade you were hard.
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Yeah.
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I knew it.
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I knew she that you were gonna be harder than Kelsey.
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Yeah.
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You were harder.
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I mean, you know, you you struggled with attention issues and, you know, getting things done and that and that was just a struggle for all of us.
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We lost all of that struggle.
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Yeah.
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So in that way it was harder.
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Um, but then, you know, it kind of flip-flop because as Kelsey got into high school, there were different issue, girl issues there and friend issues and and bad girl and mean girl kind of stuff.
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And that that was hard to deal with.
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And and what was that website?
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Um it wasn't Facebook, but what MySpace.
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My space.
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Oh my god.
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We had to learn how to get techie.
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Yeah.
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When we had no clue.
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Yeah.
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So that was really hard for us to adjust to and try to stay ahead of the technology.
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It was impossible.
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Yeah.
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So you know, so there were there were hard points along the way.
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Yeah.
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But I think he probably overall took more of our energy than anyone.
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Oh yeah.
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Definitely.
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But we're so pleased with the outcome.
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Yeah, look at you now.
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You know?
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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See?
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Great.
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Wow.
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I was harder to raise.
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Yeah.
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You just had different, I mean, you didn't respond to anything, Pate.
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You know that.
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You remember that.
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Oh, I remember.
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I mean, I taped freaking$50 bills on your bedroom wall to get you to take your homework in on time, and that just didn't even affect you.
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You had seriously.
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No, I didn't care.
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There was a 50 tape to his bedroom wall.
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If you can just return your homework on time, the homework was done.
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But it was gathering mold in his backpack.
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Oh my gosh.
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And those are the reasons that you know, those those were the things that were challenging.
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We just didn't know how to motivate him.
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Yeah.
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I just was it was rough.
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$50 bills, and he said no.
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I didn't care.
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It wasn't no.
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It wasn't even like a no defiant.
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It was just I can't hear you.
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It wasn't even uh It wasn't that I I said no to it.
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I wasn't defiant.
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I just didn't I had no motivation.
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I mean zero.
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I just didn't care.
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I truly did not care.
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Interesting.
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Yeah.
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Maybe I'll try it now.
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Tape a fifty to the back of our how and how do you I mean how do you get it?
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Hold on.
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Hold on.
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What do you think I I don't do that you need to motivate me to?
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I don't know, the deck or the or the storage unit.
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And I'll put a fifty bucks and if you can clean it out, I'll give it to you.
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You're so wrong.
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You know.
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You know about the storage unit.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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I'm gonna try it.
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I'll do a hundred.
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Maybe
that'll be better.
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This was a fun segment.
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Uh apparently I was the hardest.
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Great.
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You set yourself up for that.
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You knew that.
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Yeah.
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No, I really do.
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I'm like, I think Kelsey was a little He's like, no, the first one I'm like, no, not everything I've heard.
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It would be you.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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You were the hardest.
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I mean, again, with Kelsey, I had to we had to adapt.
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And I I mean it it took away I say this negatively, but it really wasn't.
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But it takes away your freedom and your flexibility.
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Yeah.
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And you know, and that's that's a hard lesson to learn, even though you are you feel like you are so ready to be a parent.
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Oh yeah.
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You so want this baby so much.
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I mean and then you get them and and it's still wonderful, you know, all the beautiful things.
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But but you're not free anymore, and you don't have any money anymore.
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And you know, and you just you you're sleep deprived for days on end.
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And yeah, you know, and there's all kinds of other problems to figure out when the kids are sick, and who's gonna watch them when you have to go to work and yeah.
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So it was just, you know, a constant flow of problem solving.
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But you know, it doesn't make what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
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I mean you you rise up and you figure it out and you know it kind of prepares you for the for the tougher years to come.
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Yeah.
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You seem surprised, you seem shocked.
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I'm a little surprised.
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I don't know.
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I just think I was just the sweet baby boy.
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I knew I had my issues, but okay.
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Sweet baby boy.
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Well, this was fun.
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Um, I guess we'll get back to I still think Sydney was probably the hardest.
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Oh yeah, 100%.
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I I would love to that's because I was like a recluse.
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I stayed in my room.
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I was like, I don't want anything to do with anything.
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So it was way harder for her because she was very rebellious and was doing all the stuff.
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And I was like, nah, I don't want any part of that.
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So good girl.
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Good girl.
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Yeah.
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All right.
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Uh yeah, wow, okay.
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I really want you to learn sign language with me.
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I'm doing so well.
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I I will hype myself up.
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I am I love it.
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It is so fun to learn.
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But I need you to learn so that we can sign when we're at things and we can talk to each other from across the room.
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I'm down.
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Honestly, when you told me at first, I felt like I was just like, what?
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Yeah, yeah, like didn't give a fuck.
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I was like, okay.
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In that moment, I I didn't.
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I'm like, I don't, I'm so tired.
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I was so tired.
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I was kind of sick, still feel a little sick.
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And now, but now I got like decent sleep last night.
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I'm like, yeah, yeah, I've always wanted to do that.
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We've always wanted to do that with each other.
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I'm in.
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That sounds fun as hell.
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It's pretty fun.
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Yeah.
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I love it.
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I I love it too.
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I I love that you're doing it.
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Yeah.
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But yeah, when you first brought it, I'm like, what?
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No, I want to learn a language right now.
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Like, I'm so tired.
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I'm so done.
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I am curious.
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So I can set it up where we can Bluetooth your phone to this and we can hear uh call.
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You should call your dad and ask.
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Who is harder to raise?
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Yep.
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So our guess is I think he'll say Sid.
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I think he'll say Sydney as well.
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Or he'll do the thing where he'll say Cam as well.
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In your own ways.
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No, he won't say Cam because I'm asking him specifically between me and Sydney.
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Well, you should say out of all the kids, I already know it's gonna be Cameron because he's older and they're dealing with it.
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Yeah, but I already know.
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I want to know between Sydney and I.
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Okay.
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Well, it's gonna be Sydney.
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Anyway.
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Um, yeah, I just all all the um stages are different.
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I know most like people are like, well, you know, gear up and I know your opinion on that, but uh it it does.
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There are going to be moments where I'm I fully anticipate just like the talking back, the getting through everything, like you gotta lock everything up, all the cabinets, they're walking around, they're fucking grabbing dog food.
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It's like I know, but I can I'm ready for that.
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I know it's gonna be first.
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I'm excited for it.
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I'm worried about when she's in high school and middle school and there's mean girls.
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I how do you not cuss out a child?
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That's gonna be my hardest thing.
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How do you not go to those girls and be like, hey, what's up?
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You know, yeah, you're fucking ugly as shit.
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Look at your acne, and you're talking about my kid.
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Like, I'm gonna have a hard time.
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Because it's a 13-year-old child.
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Right.
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But I'm gonna have a hard time if they're harping on my girl, it's gonna be really hard for me to be mature, especially if their parents are dicks too.
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Like I go to their mom and I'm like, hey, your kid's being a fucking asshole.
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And they're like, Yeah, well, that's just and their mom's a mean girl.
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Oh, I'm getting in fights as a grown woman in front of the school.
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I mean, you're already getting hyped up.
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I'm just getting hyped thinking about it.
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Because I know girls are so nasty.
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I wasn't the nicest person.
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So what is it gonna it's gonna break my heart if she's actually a bully?
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Yeah.
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Either one sucks.
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Yeah, but I can I can go, hey, you are you're an asshole.
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Why are you being a dick?
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Yeah.
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In a nice way.
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But yeah, no, you're being an asshole.
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Why are you bullying?
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You think you're better than these people?
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You're not.
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Yeah.
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Like I can humble her real quick, but it's other kids that I'm like, ooh, I want to call you a Yeah.
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Yeah.
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All kinds of you can't.
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But you can't, because they're children.
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Well, I can, but you have to do it strategically.
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I'll make my own fake profile.
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Oh my.
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Like that one mom.
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Like that one mom.
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But she bullied her own kid.
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That was fucking crazy.
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That was so weird.
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And then she was like, What what documentary was that?
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What was that called?
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Ugh, I don't know.
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But she was like talking to her boyfriend, he loves hooking up with me.
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I'm like, you're you're her mom.
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But she how long did she she went to jail for Yeah.
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She was doing it for years.
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She was literally bullying her child over the phone for years.
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She's out though.
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She might be out, yeah.
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No, no, she's not.
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Because she was like staying in contact with their daughter evil.
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We would I would never talk to my mom again.
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That'd be hard because No, pretty simple.
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No, I it's I think it's simple if she's a kid.
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So it's simple as us being adults, and we go rationally, we go, You're you're you're evil, dude.
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Yeah, you're weird.
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And that's insane.
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You were talking to children in a sexual way.
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Yeah.
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Like wild weird that they didn't ask for.
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Right.
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Yeah, we're adults, we can think that way, but a child who like this is mom, you're like, Well, this is that was terrible, but it's still my mom.
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Like, I still I don't want to lose my mom.
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Yeah, it's a mind fuck for a child that's horrible.
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And watch out for that kid because that was now like she her brain is telling her, like, well, I guess that's kind of like normal.
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I know it's not normal, but it's normal to me.
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It's just bizarre, just bizarre.
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Yeah.
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So I don't know.
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That's what I'm worried about.
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I'm worried about 13 because they hate dads.
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They hate their dads.
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Yeah.
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But you're gonna be I'm gonna be the one that she hates more.
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Because I'm gonna be the one that has to lay the hammer down.
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You're not gonna do that.
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You're gonna be the sweet dad.
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I'm the one that's gonna be the asshole that's like, you're grounded, give me your fucking phone for a month.
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Yeah, but I'm gonna but I'm always gonna back you.
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I always have to back you.
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No, I know, but it's gonna be my decision.
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Even if I don't agree with you, I still have to back.
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She's gonna hate me for a little bit there.
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She's gonna hate us both.
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Yeah.
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Because if you take her phone away, and rightly so, or the world, you're ruining my life.
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I can't wait.
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I cannot wait for the line you're ruining my life in a door slam.
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I you can't wait.
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I can wait.
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I cannot I hope it never happens.
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I'm taking the door off the hinges.
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It's gonna suck.
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Oh, you want to slam the door?
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All right.
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Or the classic.
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I wish I was never born.
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I know.
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I didn't actually be here.
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Shut the fuck up.
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Hilarious.
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Absolutely hilarious.
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She's gonna listen to this one day and be like, fuck you guys.
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Be like, yeah, well, you did do that, actually.
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You did.
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Oh god.
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God.
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13.
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They got the bear in the big blue house on.
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Yep.
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I heard you.
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Did you heard my dad do it?
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Thank you, bear.
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Thank you, bear.
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Yeah, I know he doesn't he can't hit that high now.
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I know.
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It's so like, what is that?
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Thank you, bear.
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Yeah, it's so funny.
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It's cute though.
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It is cute.
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She still laughs.
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She still gets a smile.
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Yeah.
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She loves it.
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The sun is out.
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Oh my god.
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Can I just say I was driving home maybe a couple of weeks ago.
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It was like eight o'clock.
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Maybe 7 30 or 8, and the sun's setting, and the song Champagne Supernova comes on, and I felt rejuvenated.
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I was like, wow, the sun, beautiful.
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Like everything was so beautiful and not so much.
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I know it's one of my favorite songs.
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I know.
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And the song comes on, and I've cried to that song a few times.
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How can you not?
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So good.
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But I'm driving home and I'm like, wow, and I felt like it was like 2016 again.
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Windows down.
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Really?
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It puts you in 2016.
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Yeah.
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Wow.
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I mean, that's not the first time I heard it, but it just gave me a nostalgia.
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Like I was feeling nostalgic about like 2016 or 2015.
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No, it's 2016 summer.
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Just peak summer for me.
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I had such a great time.
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Yeah.
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It's the um screaming.
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Um Champagne Supernova.
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Wow.
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So six 2016 vibes.
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Um, yeah, I'm driving home Champagne Supernova.
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And I was like, I just felt, I don't know, free.
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I just felt free, man.
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I don't know how to explain.
00:23:08.000 --> 00:23:08.640
So good.
00:23:08.799 --> 00:23:19.279
The the fucking it however that producer, like the it there's certain songs that I feel like need to be studied on how they even just the the production, right?
00:23:19.440 --> 00:23:19.759
Yeah.
00:23:19.920 --> 00:23:20.960
It's a beautiful song.
00:23:21.119 --> 00:23:22.079
The lyrics are perfect.
00:23:22.319 --> 00:23:24.720
But the wave sounds in the beginning, the water.
00:23:25.359 --> 00:23:28.319
And then like the guitar is tuned in a certain way.
00:23:29.519 --> 00:23:31.200
Oh, yeah, you have it all connected.
00:23:31.440 --> 00:23:35.039
Just that play that beginning, because then it's just it's so good.
00:23:36.000 --> 00:23:38.319
And it's not trying to be too much.
00:23:38.480 --> 00:23:39.359
It's not trying to be anything.
00:23:39.680 --> 00:23:40.960
But it's not too simple.
00:23:41.039 --> 00:23:42.319
It's right in the pocket.
00:23:42.480 --> 00:23:44.880
It's a different it's such a unique sound.
00:23:45.119 --> 00:23:46.799
God, they were so good.
00:23:52.720 --> 00:23:53.759
That fucking.
00:23:58.160 --> 00:24:00.000
Oh man, the acoustic.
00:24:00.319 --> 00:24:01.039
Everything about it.
00:24:01.200 --> 00:24:04.079
The acoustic with the electric guitar slightly in the back.
00:24:10.960 --> 00:24:12.079
So good.
00:24:12.559 --> 00:24:13.359
So good.
00:24:14.079 --> 00:24:16.880
This is like one of those songs that's like almost perfect to me.
00:24:17.440 --> 00:24:18.000
I agree.
00:24:23.759 --> 00:24:26.799
When we would die.
00:24:27.680 --> 00:24:29.119
What a perfect lyric.
00:24:31.359 --> 00:24:33.519
I just, I just want everyone that's a good one.
00:24:34.319 --> 00:24:36.160
You've listened to that whole album, right?
00:24:36.400 --> 00:24:36.720
No.
00:24:37.119 --> 00:24:37.920
You really should.
00:24:38.079 --> 00:24:38.400
I should.
00:24:39.119 --> 00:24:43.759
What I was gonna say is I advise everyone when the sun is setting, go on a drive alone.
00:24:44.000 --> 00:24:48.319
Put your windows down or with someone you love or your best friend.
00:24:48.559 --> 00:24:51.519
Go, don't talk, put that song on, blast it.
00:24:51.759 --> 00:24:55.359
Sun is setting, windows down, or sun is rising, either one.
00:24:55.920 --> 00:24:56.559
And just drive.
00:24:57.440 --> 00:25:01.359
Yeah, and just drive down the highway with that song.
00:25:01.599 --> 00:25:06.319
I'm telling you, it's gonna put you in this like head space.
00:25:07.440 --> 00:25:10.559
It's like you're like, wow, it's gonna make everything okay.
00:25:11.039 --> 00:25:11.680
Life is good.
00:25:12.000 --> 00:25:14.640
Give me that, give me a fucking hot dog with mustard.
00:25:14.720 --> 00:25:17.440
And my I feel like I'm gonna make it.
00:25:17.519 --> 00:25:18.400
I'm gonna do all right.
00:25:18.559 --> 00:25:26.559
I've had so many, not well, not so many, but like I I have had a lot of those moments with Zach.
00:25:26.640 --> 00:25:34.480
He used to have this um this Ford truck, but he had an insane his sound system was worth more than the truck.
00:25:34.559 --> 00:25:34.799
Yeah.
00:25:34.960 --> 00:25:42.400
And he got so into like the sound and like all the dude, it was one of the best sounding sis sound systems I've ever heard.
00:25:42.640 --> 00:25:44.720
And he would probably still agree.
00:25:45.759 --> 00:25:52.160
But we had so many moments just around Clackamas, one in particular in Clackamas, we're driving around.
00:25:52.240 --> 00:25:53.839
It's a fucking gorgeous day.
00:25:54.000 --> 00:25:57.119
Yeah, we lit up a fucking J, which is wild.
00:25:57.279 --> 00:26:02.079
We're like smoking a joint in the truck, driving around, just asking to get fucking pulled over.
00:26:02.240 --> 00:26:03.839
But and playing loud music.
00:26:04.000 --> 00:26:09.759
We were
playing, um damn, the no doubt, uh, underneath it all.
00:26:09.920 --> 00:26:18.480
Oh dude, dude, what a and and his bass in that fucking what a perfect, another perfect song.
00:26:18.640 --> 00:26:22.079
That's a beautiful that's a fucking great perfect fucking song.
00:26:22.160 --> 00:26:23.440
That's another one of my favorites.
00:26:23.599 --> 00:26:23.759
Yeah.
00:26:23.920 --> 00:26:29.519
So it was like that, and I just still I remember where we used to live in the um Caldera.
00:26:29.759 --> 00:26:31.039
Yeah, down that road.
00:26:31.759 --> 00:26:32.240
What is that road?
00:26:32.319 --> 00:26:33.039
Whatever, it doesn't matter.
00:26:33.920 --> 00:26:34.640
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:26:34.799 --> 00:26:50.480
So we're driving down there and we're playing that, and it's a like a perfect 80-degree day, everything's down, and I'm like, this is one of those moments where and you're in real time and you go, This is one of the best moments right now.
00:26:50.559 --> 00:26:53.759
Yeah, this like I'm in a this is a good era, yeah.
00:26:54.079 --> 00:26:58.079
And you just it's one of those things I think we all it's so intoxicating.
00:26:58.240 --> 00:27:04.000
Dude, you want to you want to bottle that, you want to just like bottle that up and I wish I could feel it.
00:27:04.079 --> 00:27:05.759
And you almost it's like chasing the dragon.
00:27:05.839 --> 00:27:06.880
You I want to have it.
00:27:06.960 --> 00:27:08.960
But you can't, it's so organic.
00:27:09.279 --> 00:27:10.079
You can't recreate it.
00:27:10.799 --> 00:27:17.920
I know you could put the song on and be like, I love this song, it's a good day, but it's not gonna give you that that feeling, and everyone knows that feeling.
00:27:18.000 --> 00:27:19.039
It's hard to describe that feeling.
00:27:19.119 --> 00:27:20.079
I'm sure there's some crazy words.
00:27:20.400 --> 00:27:25.279
It's euphoria, but it's just like this is a good fucking day.
00:27:25.440 --> 00:27:26.240
This is a good moment.
00:27:27.039 --> 00:27:27.920
Yeah, perfect moment.
00:27:28.079 --> 00:27:29.200
It's a perfect moment.
00:27:29.359 --> 00:27:30.960
We had no worries in life.
00:27:31.119 --> 00:27:39.519
Yeah, we were old enough to have you know people, you know, your parents trusted you know like you know, but no real responsibility.
00:27:39.599 --> 00:27:41.200
It was the perfect time.
00:27:41.279 --> 00:27:42.880
Yeah, and it was just one of those moments.
00:27:42.960 --> 00:27:45.440
You're like, man, there's no bullshit in my life right now.
00:27:45.599 --> 00:27:47.440
Or if there is, I don't even care.
00:27:47.599 --> 00:27:54.720
Yeah, I mean, there's a lot of stuff going on in my life, but that's during that moment, I was like, That's the beauty of that's the beauty of music.
00:27:54.799 --> 00:27:55.119
That's it.
00:27:55.359 --> 00:27:56.799
When's the last time you went on a late night?
00:27:57.200 --> 00:28:01.920
Like, I love like a late night drive.
00:28:02.240 --> 00:28:04.640
The windows down in the summer, music.
00:28:04.799 --> 00:28:06.160
Like, I could do that all the time.
00:28:06.319 --> 00:28:06.880
I love that.
00:28:07.119 --> 00:28:08.559
I like just driving around in music.
00:28:08.640 --> 00:28:13.359
Sometimes I take the long way home and I'll loop twice because I'm like, I want to put a song on.
00:28:13.680 --> 00:28:19.920
And um, our daughter's gonna have fucking fantastic music taste, I think, between between the two of us.
00:28:20.079 --> 00:28:21.279
Yeah, she'll be all over.
00:28:21.680 --> 00:28:24.079
She's gonna be playing these songs and people are like, What's this?
00:28:24.400 --> 00:28:25.279
I'm like, what?
00:28:25.680 --> 00:28:27.039
So we all know this.
00:28:27.200 --> 00:28:28.240
No, it was amazing.
00:28:28.400 --> 00:28:28.880
It's funny.
00:28:28.960 --> 00:28:31.119
We only mentioned like two top 40 songs.
00:28:31.359 --> 00:28:31.599
I know.
00:28:31.680 --> 00:28:32.640
I'm like, she's gonna be.
00:28:32.880 --> 00:28:37.359
She's gonna be so in-depth with all these top 100 billboard songs.
00:28:37.680 --> 00:28:38.319
No, dude.
00:28:38.400 --> 00:28:39.279
We have some deep cuts.
00:28:39.519 --> 00:28:41.200
We have some fucking deep cuts.
00:28:41.440 --> 00:28:54.240
We do, but there is like that moment, and then I had another, I don't even remember the song, but yeah, it's those drives, like, um, do you know the the the the lookout point, the Vista?
00:28:54.400 --> 00:28:54.640
Yeah.
00:28:54.799 --> 00:28:55.119
What is it?
00:28:55.359 --> 00:28:55.839
Vista House.
00:28:56.000 --> 00:28:56.480
Vista house.
00:28:56.559 --> 00:28:56.720
Yeah.
00:28:56.799 --> 00:28:57.119
Okay.
00:28:57.359 --> 00:28:59.680
Dude, you want to talk about a good drive?
00:28:59.839 --> 00:29:15.359
If you ever want to just have a day and you're like, I need to just go, dude, get out in that area, take off from my parents' house and drive to Vista from here, and you get into that Gresham and you're in the back road area, one of the best.
00:29:15.519 --> 00:29:16.880
What is she losing her mind?
00:29:17.119 --> 00:29:17.680
Yeah.
00:29:18.960 --> 00:29:23.200
Do you want to try and rescue or uh oh, I hear her freaking out.
00:29:24.480 --> 00:29:25.680
This is good though.
00:29:26.079 --> 00:29:27.920
We have this and all the stuff we talked about.
00:29:28.240 --> 00:29:30.880
Well, let's let's go a little bit, let's go a little bit more.
00:29:31.039 --> 00:29:31.359
Yeah.
00:29:31.519 --> 00:29:41.119
I mean and I think that that's kind of ties into you always asked me, like, you know, we never got around to talking about why I want to do ayahuasca and all that.
00:29:41.279 --> 00:29:44.480
And you're always like, How do you why do you what are you trying to find?
00:29:44.559 --> 00:29:46.319
Like, what do you that okay?
00:29:46.400 --> 00:29:47.440
I don't say it like that.
00:29:47.680 --> 00:29:49.599
I'm genuinely curious.
00:29:49.920 --> 00:29:50.960
Okay, she's fine.
00:29:51.119 --> 00:29:51.759
She's fine.
00:29:52.000 --> 00:29:55.200
I was genuinely curious because you always you always talked about it.
00:29:55.359 --> 00:29:55.680
Yeah.
00:29:55.920 --> 00:30:03.440
And I I've always heard about it, but I never really like asked you, well, what are you searching for?
00:30:03.839 --> 00:30:05.839
Nobody is searching for man.
00:30:06.559 --> 00:30:19.279
It's like when I was doing shrooms one time and um I was having a really good time, and then the guy I was with, my buddy, we're literally literally giggling, and he looks at me and he goes, Why don't you ever let people in?
00:30:19.440 --> 00:30:21.039
And I'm like, Oh, come on.
00:30:21.359 --> 00:30:25.359
And I literally started like melting into the wall.
00:30:25.519 --> 00:30:27.119
Like I was like, holy fuck.
00:30:27.279 --> 00:30:30.240
And it just like completely changed my trip.
00:30:30.400 --> 00:30:31.759
I was like, this is terrible.
00:30:31.920 --> 00:30:32.880
I'm having a terrible time.
00:30:32.960 --> 00:30:33.759
I gotta go home.
00:30:33.920 --> 00:30:36.160
Because it was just like so funny, giggly.
00:30:36.480 --> 00:30:37.759
Why don't you let people in?
00:30:38.000 --> 00:30:38.720
I'm like, what?
00:30:39.119 --> 00:30:42.559
And I'm like fading into the wall.
00:30:42.799 --> 00:30:50.319
Anyway, the reason I want to do it, it's not like I'm I think I'm searching and like I've we've talked about this before.
00:30:50.559 --> 00:30:57.599
There, I think there's a part of everyone that they can't actually tap into because our brains can't comprehend it.
00:30:57.680 --> 00:31:05.440
It our brains can't, we we we just can't get there, um, unfortunately, without some kind of drug.
00:31:06.559 --> 00:31:22.319
And you can search for yourself and all these things and blah blah blah and find a lot, but I feel like there's this part of my soul that I need to really tap into and I can't comprehend it with my own brain.
00:31:22.559 --> 00:31:23.279
Does that make sense?
00:31:23.519 --> 00:31:24.799
Like a sober brain.
00:31:25.039 --> 00:31:31.119
Like I can't I can't search that deep because I don't want to, because I think my brain's like it.
00:31:31.200 --> 00:31:32.799
Okay, I I understand that.
00:31:32.880 --> 00:31:37.359
So I guess your answer is I don't know what I'm searching for, but I am searching.
00:31:37.680 --> 00:31:40.720
There's something you're not looking for something specific.
00:31:40.960 --> 00:31:46.000
No, but I just feel like there's something in me that I need to explore.
00:31:46.400 --> 00:31:46.799
Yes.
00:31:46.960 --> 00:31:47.119
Yeah.
00:31:47.440 --> 00:31:50.799
There's like a deeper part of my soul that I need to explore.
00:31:50.960 --> 00:32:02.640
And I think that when you go to like these retreats where you do a guided um shroom trip and things like that, like you see things that you wouldn't normally see because you're sober.
00:32:02.799 --> 00:32:02.960
Yeah.
00:32:03.200 --> 00:32:05.119
And I know people are gonna be like, well, you're on drugs.
00:32:05.279 --> 00:32:07.119
So and it's like, okay, yeah.
00:32:07.680 --> 00:32:25.440
But there is a potential and there's a part of our souls and our bodies that we need to tap into to reach a certain energy level that we can't tap into soberly because well, it's clouded with everything our daily.
00:32:28.240 --> 00:32:50.319
And so I don't think we're maximizing our potential and really finding that like happiness because we can't get there because there's always something blocking, and I think those things and those guided things, I'm not saying like doing drugs on the fucking street, I'm talking about a guided shroom trip with a shaman or an ayahuasca trip.
00:32:50.480 --> 00:33:00.400
Well, ayahuasca would be the ayahuasca's what I want to do, and that's just to purge your body, and I that's always been very enticing to me.
00:33:00.559 --> 00:33:00.960
Yeah.
00:33:01.119 --> 00:33:06.079
And so I just support you.
00:33:06.160 --> 00:33:09.680
I mean, I've heard a lot of good things.
00:33:09.839 --> 00:33:14.240
I mean, you see people go like, oh, it was uh fucking insane, yeah.
00:33:14.480 --> 00:33:18.319
And I saw things that I didn't I didn't like, I didn't want to see.
00:33:18.400 --> 00:33:24.079
I my brain wouldn't allow me to realize this is the person I am, and it was very eye-opening.
00:33:24.240 --> 00:33:24.559
Right.
00:33:24.799 --> 00:33:30.960
And um, you know, and it's it's not a glamorous thing from everything I've heard.
00:33:31.359 --> 00:33:52.799
You're like shitting yourself, growing up, you're throwing up, like, and then and then you get to a point of like people have been said, you know, yeah, I it was terrifying and it was yeah, all this stuff, but I was able to see kind of who I was as a person, like what what what I represent and who I am to other people.
00:33:52.880 --> 00:33:57.759
You almost you're almost able to stand away outside of yourself, outside of your own body.
00:33:57.920 --> 00:34:13.840
And I think that when you're trying to heal, like, and I'm always trying to heal, I think you need to, especially I think that you need to kind of step outside of yourself because you need to really tap into.
00:34:14.000 --> 00:34:16.639
I could sit here and go, why did I make that decision?
00:34:16.719 --> 00:34:18.159
Why did I do XYZ?
00:34:18.480 --> 00:34:23.360
Oh, well, because I was feeling this way, but there's something deeper of it.
00:34:24.880 --> 00:34:30.880
I want to know I want to see that and go, okay, this is the ugly side of me.
00:34:31.199 --> 00:34:33.840
I'd like to purge that.
00:34:34.400 --> 00:34:39.519
Or I want to figure out without a block what is that?
00:34:40.079 --> 00:34:42.159
What am I actually seeking?
00:34:42.400 --> 00:34:43.440
What am I actually feeling?
00:34:43.519 --> 00:34:48.400
And maybe I'll find that, maybe I won't, but I that's my main motivation.
00:34:48.480
--> 00:34:50.239
And it's not all negative things either.
00:34:50.320 --> 00:34:51.519
It's like, what makes me happy?
00:34:51.760 --> 00:34:56.079
Where's my peak radiation or or radiating happiness, not radiation?
00:34:56.400 --> 00:34:57.679
What where's my peak?
00:34:57.840 --> 00:35:00.400
Like, I'm radiating that happiness doing what?
00:35:00.559 --> 00:35:01.199
Like, I don't know.
00:35:01.360 --> 00:35:08.480
And maybe I maybe I'm making it out to be something that it's not actually gonna be, but that's you.
00:35:08.639 --> 00:35:11.519
You are the type of person goes, but I won't know until I find out.
00:35:11.760 --> 00:35:13.280
So you know, and I don't want to live a life.
00:35:14.159 --> 00:35:14.960
I don't want to live a life.
00:35:15.039 --> 00:35:17.039
I never have God bless you for that.
00:35:17.199 --> 00:35:18.639
I don't just go in for it.
00:35:18.800 --> 00:35:19.440
I always do.
00:35:19.679 --> 00:35:28.000
I just I never want to die and go, man, what it what would have happened if I would have just done it or said it or whatever.
00:35:28.320 --> 00:35:31.199
Well, I mean, we're all gonna have those thoughts.
00:35:31.360 --> 00:35:31.840
Yeah.
00:35:32.079 --> 00:35:36.400
We all imagine other, you know, alternative endings.
00:35:36.719 --> 00:35:40.639
Right, but we think of things that we want to do and we're like, man, I wonder what that'd be like.
00:35:40.800 --> 00:35:42.000
And I'd like just do it.
00:35:42.159 --> 00:35:44.079
If you want to do an ayahuasca trip, do it.
00:35:44.159 --> 00:35:49.119
If you want to go skydiving, don't live your life going, that's really scary, but it could have been fun.
00:35:49.280 --> 00:35:49.920
Just try it.
00:35:50.000 --> 00:35:51.599
Maybe you hate it, but maybe you don't.
00:35:51.679 --> 00:35:54.159
Maybe you do it and you're like, and it is fun, by the way.
00:35:54.400 --> 00:35:55.199
It's very fun.
00:35:55.440 --> 00:36:10.800
It's I was gonna say it's funny though, if someone were to judge, like, hey, who who here does like the shrooms and the tripping and the you know, I won't say just drugs, but yeah, but like that kind of stuff.
00:36:10.960 --> 00:36:14.400
I feel like people would honestly go, definitely Peyton.
00:36:14.880 --> 00:36:16.320
Definitely not the case.
00:36:16.480 --> 00:36:23.920
I don't do I I just I'm not I have no I I just do not.
00:36:24.079 --> 00:36:26.159
Yeah, isn't it is not my thing.
00:36:26.719 --> 00:36:28.639
Maybe I shouldn't even say it's not my thing.
00:36:29.199 --> 00:36:32.800
I I really haven't done any hallucinogens.
00:36:32.880 --> 00:36:33.679
I I just haven't.
00:36:33.840 --> 00:36:40.639
I it used to be because and it still is like the core is like I'm fucking scared to do it.
00:36:40.800 --> 00:36:41.519
Yeah truly.
00:36:41.599 --> 00:37:00.079
I I'm like I I don't even like not that I've done this recently, but when I was on Molly, yeah, I did I liked taking a tiny bit because you get kind of that, but you know, people would take enough and they were like rolling, right?
00:37:00.320 --> 00:37:03.760
Yeah, and dude, everyone, everyone's like, dude, it's the best.
00:37:03.840 --> 00:37:04.559
It's the best.
00:37:04.800 --> 00:37:11.760
Well, dude, I took that amount that other everyone else was doing, I was so uncomfortable.
00:37:11.920 --> 00:37:13.199
I was having anxiety.
00:37:13.280 --> 00:37:16.239
I'm like, I don't like, I don't like body highs.
00:37:16.400 --> 00:37:17.760
Yeah, I don't like that.
00:37:17.920 --> 00:37:20.480
I just it's different from everybody.
00:37:20.960 --> 00:37:24.159
Everyone's got their own everybody's got their own journey.
00:37:24.480 --> 00:37:26.480
Yeah, I'm you know that's okay.
00:37:26.719 --> 00:37:31.760
And people have said, like, yeah, you should do some shrooms, and you know, like you, you're like, you should.
00:37:32.000 --> 00:37:36.000
Okay, I'm not and I'm not doing shrooms all the time, by the way.
00:37:36.480 --> 00:37:41.440
No, no one's I don't think anyone thinks so saying I did it, I have done it.
00:37:41.599 --> 00:37:42.079
Yes.
00:37:42.320 --> 00:37:49.840
Yeah, I've had like what like a microdose with you, but that was basically just being high.
00:37:50.239 --> 00:37:50.559
Yeah.
00:37:51.840 --> 00:37:55.280
I mean, it wasn't anything like I was fucking tripping, dude.
00:37:55.440 --> 00:37:58.559
And then we had that music that music.
00:37:58.880 --> 00:38:03.920
Remember I put the Native American Oh, and yeah.
00:38:04.079 --> 00:38:05.039
That was a great time.
00:38:05.360 --> 00:38:06.639
Oh, yeah.
00:38:07.039 --> 00:38:11.360
That was a really like that was I started la sorry, all right guys.
00:38:11.440 --> 00:38:15.039
Well, we hooked up, but she played this like spiritual music.
00:38:15.199 --> 00:38:24.719
I wanted to take him on a spiritual journey through sex because I think that there you to be truly connected to someone, right?
00:38:25.519 --> 00:38:27.599
You know, and there's a way to do it.
00:38:28.159 --> 00:38:33.039
I'm gonna let her do her side and then you guys then you hear it it's gonna end the same.
00:38:33.440 --> 00:38:34.400
It's gonna end the same.
00:38:34.559 --> 00:38:42.880
So for me, spiritual guided sex is the difference, and it it's better.
00:38:43.360 --> 00:38:57.360
You're so connected with that person, and yes, it it entailed things where you have a blindfold because it's just about touch, and then you have your eyes were covered, mine were not.
00:38:58.400 --> 00:38:59.119
Oh yeah.
00:38:59.440 --> 00:39:07.039
Mine were not, because it's about just the sensation of touch, and then yes, there is like some Native American music.
00:39:07.760 --> 00:39:30.320
So that's playing, and it was like the music was like it was it was like a Native American, but it was almost like synth, like it's like chanting, but there's also like an animal noises, and there's well there was that, but it was but it was like that lo-fi
synth, like I don't know, like just a vibe.
00:39:30.480 --> 00:39:30.800
Yeah.
00:39:31.679 --> 00:39:32.000
Okay.
00:39:32.719 --> 00:39:35.440
So were we both?
00:39:35.599 --> 00:39:38.480
I guess I did like yeah, alright.
00:39:39.199 --> 00:39:46.480
Um she didn't you didn't like present it to me like that.
00:39:46.639 --> 00:39:47.679
It was just kind of a thing.
00:39:47.760 --> 00:39:49.840
You're like, I wanna let's do this.
00:39:50.079 --> 00:39:52.079
I'm like, okay, I'm like, you know, typical guy.
00:39:52.159 --> 00:39:54.000
I'm like, well, I guess I'm getting it later.
00:39:54.559 --> 00:39:57.280
So I guess I'll take what I can get.
00:39:57.519 --> 00:39:58.000
Yeah.
00:39:58.320 --> 00:40:09.280
But you know, at first you hear this like Native American fucking stuff, and I typical me, and you do it too.
00:40:09.440 --> 00:40:12.000
I think you even kind of giggled a little bit.
00:40:12.159 --> 00:40:15.199
You were definitely more spiritually into it.
00:40:15.519 --> 00:40:19.599
Um but let me tell you, I don't know what that me.
00:40:19.920 --> 00:40:23.760
The music was I will never fucking dog that shit ever again.
00:40:23.920 --> 00:40:29.599
There is something about the Native American music, not just for sex, but just in general.
00:40:29.679 --> 00:40:33.199
It it's a very spiritual sound thing.
00:40:33.280 --> 00:40:39.760
It was just it it was I I felt like I was at a spa retreat at one moment.
00:40:39.920 --> 00:40:46.719
And then yeah, I think it was like one of the top best like sexual experiences between you and I.
00:40:46.880 --> 00:40:48.880
I mean, it was like whoa.
00:40:49.039 --> 00:40:51.760
I mean, we've I've never have felt that connected.
00:40:51.920 --> 00:40:52.320
Yeah.
00:40:52.639 --> 00:40:54.480
It was it was something else.
00:40:54.639 --> 00:40:54.800
Yeah.
00:40:54.960 --> 00:40:55.119
Yeah.
00:40:55.199 --> 00:41:08.800
And like, you know, the first uh what like 10 minutes is like it's like kind of like I'm like, okay, like not not not trying to like make fun of it, because yeah, I wasn't, but I wasn't in it.
00:41:08.960 --> 00:41:09.280
Yeah.
00:41:09.440 --> 00:41:16.960
And then all of a sudden you're just like you're in this moment, and it was uh I know it sounds corny, but it it was beautiful.
00:41:17.039 --> 00:41:18.559
It was like, whoa, dude.
00:41:18.880 --> 00:41:19.360
Yeah.
00:41:19.599 --> 00:41:24.800
Because there's an art to it, and it's your intention starting to swell up over here.
00:41:24.960 --> 00:41:25.599
No, I'm kidding.
00:41:27.679 --> 00:41:32.559
Just just like thinking about like, you know, and we'll be right back.
00:41:33.440 --> 00:41:35.199
Come back, we're both out of breath.
00:41:35.360 --> 00:41:36.800
Hey, how are you guys doing?
00:41:37.039 --> 00:41:37.760
That's it.
00:41:37.920 --> 00:41:41.039
It wasn't the same, but still pretty good.
00:41:42.639 --> 00:41:44.000
Fat out of breath.
00:41:44.320 --> 00:41:44.800
Stop.
00:41:45.039 --> 00:41:46.559
I'm bringing that up again.
00:41:46.800 --> 00:41:54.000
Um, yeah, I think no one would peg you to be the the spiritual true I you're spiritual.
00:41:54.159 --> 00:41:57.920
I know they would think that, but they I think they'd be like, definitely put.
00:41:58.159 --> 00:42:00.719
It's like, no, I'm a fucking I'm a I'm a bitch.
00:42:00.800 --> 00:42:01.760
I I get scared.
00:42:01.920 --> 00:42:05.039
I have no I don't not that I'm not searching for anything.
00:42:05.280 --> 00:42:05.599
Yeah.
00:42:05.760 --> 00:42:06.800
I think I'm always searching for something.
00:42:06.960 --> 00:42:08.159
I think everybody's searching for something.
00:42:08.320 --> 00:42:08.639
Always.
00:42:08.719 --> 00:42:12.960
I I am always internally searching, like, why is this make me this way?
00:42:13.039 --> 00:42:19.119
Why but I I as of right now, I I feel like I don't need something.
00:42:19.280 --> 00:42:34.480
I need to I for the most part I I know what brought this on, or if I don't, I can really sit down and think about it, or and and sometimes I'm not that curious.
00:42:34.880 --> 00:42:36.880
Um I don't know.
00:42:37.039 --> 00:42:47.440
I I'm not like sometimes I'm just not that curious, but I just I I also don't really want to know some of the things.
00:42:48.400 --> 00:42:56.639
You know, which I just I already get so uncomfortable having that body high, and I don't like not having dare I say control.
00:42:58.079 --> 00:43:00.079
Dare you say dare I say control.
00:43:00.559 --> 00:43:04.079
Um yeah, it's like with fucking let's go back to Molly.
00:43:04.159 --> 00:43:15.599
I didn't like that because I was it was like so like whoa, I don't this is so much, and I can't just like sober up or and it's when you're in it, you're fucking in it.
00:43:15.840 --> 00:43:16.400
Yeah.
00:43:16.639 --> 00:43:20.719
Meanwhile, I'm like, I love everybody here, I love you, I love you.
00:43:21.199 --> 00:43:23.039
I like the 20-minute drugs.
00:43:23.199 --> 00:43:23.760
Yeah.
00:43:24.559 --> 00:43:26.239
We won't get into what those are.
00:43:26.320 --> 00:43:26.639
No.
00:43:26.800 --> 00:43:35.039
Yeah, um, even like I like you know, smoking pots fine, but even there, I'm like, uh just a little bit, just a puff or two.
00:43:35.840 --> 00:43:39.280
I cannot get fucking blasted anymore.
00:43:39.440 --> 00:43:40.960
I don't know how we used to do that.
00:43:41.119 --> 00:43:41.440
I don't know.
00:43:41.840 --> 00:43:44.800
We would get so fucking not even because we have a child.
00:43:44.880 --> 00:43:45.039
No.
00:43:45.360 --> 00:43:47.679
Before that, we were like, dude, it's just so much.
00:43:47.920 --> 00:43:51.360
It's just not no and then you just sit there and you're so fucked up.
00:43:51.599 --> 00:43:52.400
It used to be fun.
00:43:52.559 --> 00:43:53.760
When you were younger, it was fun.
00:43:53.920 --> 00:43:59.440
You'd get giggly and you're like I remember one time my friend Because you know you're doing
00:44:00.079 --> 00:44:01.360
Like a bad alright, I'm here.
00:44:01.519 --> 00:44:02.960
Let's talk about some pot stories.
00:44:03.039 --> 00:44:03.840
This is fun.
00:44:04.559 --> 00:44:08.320
Well, I remember one time it's like stupid now, but it's not stupid.
00:44:08.639 --> 00:44:17.519
We were we were high in she was doing she had a blanket and pretended it was a cape and she was singing on my stairs like the phantom of the opera.
00:44:18.000 --> 00:44:18.320
Hilarious.
00:44:18.639 --> 00:44:19.920
We were literally cackling.
00:44:20.159 --> 00:44:23.440
Like we thought it was the funniest thing we've ever seen in our lives.
00:44:23.760 --> 00:44:34.320
One time, you know, one of my good friends and I, we were waiting for the pizza guy, and we had hotboxed my car, and we were sitting in the car waiting for him.
00:44:34.400 --> 00:44:39.920
And then when he pulled up on the driveway, we opened the door, the smoke's like bellowing out, like, hey, thanks, man.
00:44:40.079 --> 00:44:40.960
He's like, Oh my god.
00:44:44.000 --> 00:44:54.079
And we just thought it was so just and then one time when I was working at the movie theater in high school, I took an edible from someone that we worked with, and they were like, Hey, this is really potent.
00:44:54.239 --> 00:44:55.519
And I was like, Oh, it's fine.
00:44:55.760 --> 00:44:59.519
So I ate it at work, and then I was on the cash register.
00:44:59.599 --> 00:45:03.280
I was working in the when back when the movie theater had the um god, what a gamble.
00:45:03.519 --> 00:45:07.519
The cafe, they don't have it anymore, but back when they did, oh my god.
00:45:07.679 --> 00:45:09.920
And I remember this guy was like, Can I get a milkshake?
00:45:10.000 --> 00:45:10.800
And I was like, Yep.
00:45:11.360 --> 00:45:14.559
And I could not get the consistency of like the liquid.
00:45:14.800 --> 00:45:16.559
It's like too soupy or too hot, too much.
00:45:16.880 --> 00:45:20.239
And I felt like no matter how much ice cream I put in it, it was still soupy.
00:45:20.400 --> 00:45:22.000
And finally I was like, it's fine.
00:45:22.159 --> 00:45:26.320
And I was like, okay, and then he paid me and I had to count his catch out.
00:45:26.559 --> 00:45:27.119
Oh my god.
00:45:27.280 --> 00:45:28.800
Dude, I fucking forgot how to count.
00:45:29.039 --> 00:45:29.599
I couldn't count.
00:45:29.679 --> 00:45:31.039
I was like, Oh, you were fucked.
00:45:31.519 --> 00:45:32.000
Fucked up.
00:45:32.159 --> 00:45:34.880
And I'm looking at this and I'm like, I have to give them change.
00:45:35.119 --> 00:45:39.599
And I was like, the dollars made sense, but as soon as I got to the coins, I was like, what?
00:45:39.920 --> 00:45:44.239
Like all the coins equal the same, but they're different sizes.
00:45:44.400 --> 00:45:49.920
So I was like, I know that they mean different numbers, but I was so fucking blasted I couldn't even like remember.
00:45:50.079 --> 00:45:52.079
I don't I probably gave him like
way too much money.
00:45:52.400 --> 00:45:53.599
Our till was probably off.
00:45:53.760 --> 00:45:55.599
So I was just like, I don't fucking know, man.
00:45:56.000 --> 00:45:56.320
Go ahead.
00:45:59.519 --> 00:46:05.760
What a fucking wild up until like what when was pot legalized here?
00:46:05.920 --> 00:46:08.719
Like 2015 or some shit.
00:46:09.199 --> 00:46:09.840
Yeah, something like that.
00:46:10.079 --> 00:46:11.360
Yeah, it's it's been like that.
00:46:11.760 --> 00:46:18.400
When we were buying pot and eating brownies that someone fucking what a gamble.
00:46:18.559 --> 00:46:18.800
Yeah.
00:46:18.960 --> 00:46:22.480
Do you ever think like how Yeah, but it wasn't like it is today.
00:46:22.960 --> 00:46:23.760
It w it wasn't.
00:46:24.000 --> 00:46:26.400
Like you're you'd be weed from like a buddy, you know.
00:46:26.800 --> 00:46:33.920
No, what I'm saying is like you would get one from your buddy, yeah, and and he would go, you know, it's a trusted person.
00:46:34.000 --> 00:46:34.159
Right.
00:46:34.320 --> 00:46:35.840
And they go, hey man, this shit's strong.
00:46:35.920 --> 00:46:40.400
Just but you don't know what that does is like one corner gonna fucking annihilate you.
00:46:40.639 --> 00:46:41.920
Oh yeah, you just had to just go for it.
00:46:42.320 --> 00:46:42.960
Just go for it.
00:46:43.039 --> 00:46:44.639
Yeah, holy shit.
00:46:44.800 --> 00:46:45.679
Yeah, and we did.
00:46:45.840 --> 00:46:47.199
I I always did.
00:46:47.360 --> 00:46:48.000
Yeah.
00:46:48.719 --> 00:46:56.960
Even even fucking buying weed, we'd have to go in some guy's fucking apartment, or he'd be driving up to you in a fucking hatchback.
00:46:57.440 --> 00:47:03.119
It's a civic, always a civic hatchbag, and they always had a shitty, rattly fucking bass.
00:47:03.280 --> 00:47:03.519
Yep.
00:47:03.679 --> 00:47:12.239
They were always and they always and I know someone's done done like the a comedy bit on this, but it is the truth.
00:47:12.480 --> 00:47:18.559
Every time you buy fucking weed from one of these guys, you'd be like down to your last$20, and you're like, I'm gonna buy a dub.
00:47:18.719 --> 00:47:18.880
Yeah.
00:47:19.119 --> 00:47:20.559
Then you had to like smoke them out.
00:47:20.719 --> 00:47:22.239
He's like, You want to smoke?
00:47:22.320 --> 00:47:28.559
It's like, you're the one with all the pot, and you're like, load up your bowl, yeah, with your own weed, and you're like, come on, man.
00:47:28.639 --> 00:47:30.800
Yeah, you're not even like my fucking friend.
00:47:30.880 --> 00:47:32.559
I'm you're my drug dealer.
00:47:32.639 --> 00:47:33.760
Yeah, barely knew you.
00:47:34.000 --> 00:47:35.039
Barely fucking.
00:47:35.440 --> 00:47:37.840
It was what a weird fucking time.
00:47:38.159 --> 00:47:39.360
But it's so fun.
00:47:39.519 --> 00:47:39.840
Oh, yeah.
00:47:40.000 --> 00:47:40.320
Check out.
00:47:40.559 --> 00:47:41.360
How dangerous.
00:47:41.519 --> 00:47:41.760
Yeah.
00:47:41.920 --> 00:47:46.079
How fucking you're it's it goes against everything your parents always told you.
00:47:46.239 --> 00:47:48.800
Don't get in fucking cars with strangers and buy drugs.
00:47:49.599 --> 00:47:51.440
Um, we're gonna do fucking both of them.
00:47:51.760 --> 00:47:53.440
We're gonna say fuck you guys on that.
00:47:53.760 --> 00:47:56.079
This guy's not a stranger, he's a drug dealer.
00:47:56.239 --> 00:47:56.559
Yeah.
00:47:56.880 --> 00:47:58.880
My buddy who knows his brother, who knows his.
00:48:02.480 --> 00:48:03.280
Fucking weird.
00:48:03.599 --> 00:48:04.559
My brother's best friends.
00:48:04.960 --> 00:48:06.239
How irritating too.
00:48:06.400 --> 00:48:10.480
You would wait, I'd wake up, be like nine o'clock in the morning.
00:48:10.639 --> 00:48:13.039
You're like, man, we should get some fucking pot right now.
00:48:13.119 --> 00:48:13.440
Yeah.
00:48:13.599 --> 00:48:16.960
None of them ever woke up until fucking, they couldn't get back to you until one.
00:48:17.199 --> 00:48:17.360
Yeah.
00:48:17.760 --> 00:48:19.119
Like, oh my god, dude.
00:48:19.199 --> 00:48:22.480
Please, or they wouldn't answer you back, yeah, leave you hanging.
00:48:22.719 --> 00:48:25.360
You're like, oh my god, this is the worst.
00:48:25.519 --> 00:48:25.920
Yeah.
00:48:26.079 --> 00:48:27.440
This is the worst.
00:48:27.599 --> 00:48:29.599
It's built a generation.
00:48:29.840 --> 00:48:30.400
Damn it.
00:48:30.800 --> 00:48:32.719
Not just a generation, a whole, but multiple generations.
00:48:32.880 --> 00:48:33.679
It used to be fun.
00:48:34.000 --> 00:48:39.440
Like your sister's generation, your younger sister, she's like, she they never did that.
00:48:39.519 --> 00:48:41.119
They they always had fucking pots in it.
00:48:41.360 --> 00:48:43.360
They don't have to do that because it's legal.
00:48:43.440 --> 00:48:46.000
They can just get their older sibling to get it for them.
00:48:46.639 --> 00:48:47.840
Not that you do.
00:48:48.000 --> 00:48:50.239
I wasn't saying me, I'm saying in general.
00:48:50.480 --> 00:48:52.159
Whereas us, we had to get creative.
00:48:52.239 --> 00:48:56.480
We had to, you know, meet someone in a frickin' park abandoned parking lot.
00:48:56.960 --> 00:48:59.760
Meet them at Safeway Parking Lot by the sherries.
00:49:00.000 --> 00:49:03.920
Or outside their fucking apartment complex because they didn't want you in their apartment.
00:49:04.159 --> 00:49:04.960
Because they didn't fucking know.
00:49:05.280 --> 00:49:08.159
Or in their apartment and they're just fucking disgusting in there.
00:49:08.320 --> 00:49:08.480
Yeah.
00:49:08.719 --> 00:49:09.760
You want to sit down and smoke?
00:49:09.840 --> 00:49:11.280
You're like, nope, I'm not gonna sit down.
00:49:11.519 --> 00:49:13.440
But you almost feel like you're obligated to do it.
00:49:13.679 --> 00:49:14.159
Not me.
00:49:14.239 --> 00:49:14.719
I'm out.
00:49:14.880 --> 00:49:15.360
See ya.
00:49:15.679 --> 00:49:16.239
Thanks.
00:49:16.480 --> 00:49:16.639
Yeah.
00:49:16.880 --> 00:49:16.960
Yeah.
00:49:17.119 --> 00:49:18.239
Now no one has fun.
00:49:18.320 --> 00:49:22.639
Now we have cameras on every fucking door, and there's no house parties anymore.
00:49:22.800 --> 00:49:23.519
There's nothing.
00:49:23.760 --> 00:49:26.159
Well, it's also the Gen Z.
00:49:26.400 --> 00:49:26.960
No, I know.
00:49:27.039 --> 00:49:34.719
Their generation just Well Actually, I think it now isn't there a study out that people are drinking less.
00:49:34.880 --> 00:49:35.199
Uh-huh.
00:49:35.440 --> 00:49:38.239
Like we are the the millennial generation.
00:49:38.639 --> 00:49:43.360
We set the fucking record for the most like we were the heaviest drinking fucking generation.
00:49:43.679 --> 00:49:54.719
You would think that that would be like in the s the 80s or the fucking 60s or whatever, because everyone was like we were the hardest fucking partying generation.
00:49:54.880 --> 00:49:58.800
Well, and of course we are, because Molly fucking exploded.
00:49:58.960 --> 00:49:59.360
Yeah.
00:49:59.519 --> 00:50:01.360
What get what was one of the big songs?
00:50:01.519 --> 00:50:04.719
It was like Asheras college fucking songs.
00:50:05.360 --> 00:50:07.280
The whole fucking drink.
00:50:08.400 --> 00:50:09.119
Everything.
00:50:09.360 --> 00:50:12.320
Everything was like, it's a fucking party.
00:50:12.480 --> 00:50:14.159
And dude, what a time to be alive.
00:50:14.320 --> 00:50:14.480
Yeah.
00:50:14.639 --> 00:50:16.960
We threw fucking house parties every weekend.
00:50:17.039 --> 00:50:17.440
Yeah.
00:50:17.679 --> 00:50:19.199
There were no ring cameras.
00:50:19.360 --> 00:50:19.760
Nope.
00:50:20.000 --> 00:50:20.880
As a parent.
00:50:21.360 --> 00:50:24.800
I mean, sorry, kiddo, but you're not going to be throwing it.
00:50:24.960 --> 00:50:32.239
And it's like we don't want to encourage partying, but also like it's a fucking missing out.
00:50:32.480 --> 00:50:35.119
Because it was so great to network and meet people.
00:50:35.280 --> 00:50:37.199
Like outside of fucking high school.
00:50:37.440 --> 00:50:40.639
Outside of school, it was like, yo, we're all gonna be here.
00:50:40.719 --> 00:50:43.039
We're all gonna be standing in some random person's kitchen.
00:50:43.199 --> 00:50:44.239
We're gonna make friends.
00:50:44.400 --> 00:50:45.119
We're gonna do this.
00:50:45.199 --> 00:50:46.159
We're gonna make connections.
00:50:46.320 --> 00:50:47.760
Now kids don't have that.
00:50:47.920 --> 00:50:49.039
They don't have connections.
00:50:49.119 --> 00:50:54.639
It's like, I guess if you play sports, but if you're not a sports person, good luck making connections.
00:50:54.719 --> 00:50:54.960
Yeah.
00:50:55.119 --> 00:51:00.239
It's all over the internet, and that's why people are so fucking weird and they can't speak and they're not independent anymore.
00:51:00.400 --> 00:51:03.920
I'm not saying it all relates to partying, but that's a a big chunk.
00:51:04.159 -->
00:51:05.679
It was fucking fun.
00:51:05.920 --> 00:51:06.159
Yeah.
00:51:06.400 --> 00:51:08.880
You blasting music, you're and you make some memories.
00:51:09.039 --> 00:51:10.239
Now there's no fucking memories.
00:51:10.400 --> 00:51:12.079
These kids aren't making any memories.
00:51:12.880 --> 00:51:14.159
They're just doing it for the gram.
00:51:14.480 --> 00:51:15.119
It sucks.
00:51:15.280 --> 00:51:16.079
It just sucks.
00:51:16.239 --> 00:51:17.119
I'm so happy.
00:51:17.199 --> 00:51:20.079
I dude, some of the shit that we did.
00:51:20.239 --> 00:51:22.960
And it's not like we there wasn't Instagram when we were doing this.
00:51:23.199 --> 00:51:28.639
Yeah, we had Snap, but it wasn't like it is today where people aren't filming you constantly the whole day getting fucked up.
00:51:28.960 --> 00:51:29.440
Constantly.
00:51:29.599 --> 00:51:29.920
Yeah.
00:51:30.480 --> 00:51:31.119
There was a lot of moments.
00:51:31.760 --> 00:51:33.679
Photos, but it's like you kept it to yourself.
00:51:33.840 --> 00:51:38.960
You didn't have to worry about someone like posting it of you, or and then you're also just living in the moment.
00:51:39.039 --> 00:51:42.000
You're not doing things and then being like, oh, is someone's phone out?
00:51:42.159 --> 00:51:42.800
You're just having fun.
00:51:43.119 --> 00:51:44.239
Still one of my favorite pictures.
00:51:44.320 --> 00:51:45.760
I think Shaley took it.
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It was me with a blow-up doll, and we were at a party.
00:51:50.079 --> 00:51:52.000
But that was like one of those moments.
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It's like take a shot of like, oh, he's got a fucking I'm like, or I would like grab the blow-up doll and probably I probably was like, take a photo of this.
00:51:59.360 --> 00:51:59.519
Yeah.
00:51:59.679 --> 00:52:09.519
But it wasn't like I'm gonna fucking record everything you did all night, and there's phones everywhere, and it's yeah, everyone's just sitting on their phone, like people were talking and having fun.
00:52:09.679 --> 00:52:14.800
No one was like sitting in the corner on their phone the whole time, like snap, like I don't know.
00:52:14.960 --> 00:52:17.199
It just was different, it's just a lot different than that.
00:52:17.360 --> 00:52:20.159
And everyone was trying to get fucked up.
00:52:20.320 --> 00:52:23.679
Yeah, everyone's taking Jaeger shots, and fireball shots.
00:52:24.000 --> 00:52:27.119
At least my friends, we all kind of like looked out for each other too.
00:52:27.280 --> 00:52:30.480
So it was like, you're gonna get drunk, but I'm I'm here with you.
00:52:30.559 --> 00:52:31.599
I'm not gonna leave you.
00:52:31.760 --> 00:52:35.679
You're not gonna like I always if my if I had to drive, I wasn't drinking and driving.
00:52:35.760 --> 00:52:38.000
Oh, I was taking my friends that wasn't my friend group.
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Oh, I was taking my friends home if they needed no, it was always me.
00:52:42.719 -->
00:52:49.360
Like I would drink when I got there, I'd take a couple shots, and then by the end of the night, I'd be sobered up and I could take everyone home.
00:52:49.440 --> 00:52:50.239
And I didn't mind doing that.
00:52:51.840 --> 00:52:53.119
No, I was responsible.
00:52:53.360 --> 00:52:55.599
I would say I was responsible.
00:52:55.840 --> 00:52:57.360
Yeah, I never drilled drunk.
00:52:59.599 --> 00:53:02.000
For the most part, what a fucking fun time.
00:53:02.079 --> 00:53:03.119
Yeah, it was so fun.
00:53:03.280 --> 00:53:05.199
The music was fun, the music was fun.
00:53:05.360 --> 00:53:09.920
And the music and the and just like pop culture was about partying.
00:53:10.239 --> 00:53:11.920
Yeah, Project X came out.
00:53:12.159 --> 00:53:12.880
Like that came out.
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EDM fucking popped off hard.
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Raves.
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We're going to rave hookah lounges.
00:53:18.320 --> 00:53:19.039
Oh, I never did.
00:53:19.280 --> 00:53:20.559
Well, I did like that once or twice.
00:53:21.119 --> 00:53:23.679
We had a light up, we had a down downstairs.
00:53:23.840 --> 00:53:27.599
My dad set up like a hookah place, and it was all black light.
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And so we had all these tapestries up in our basement.
00:53:30.320 --> 00:53:30.719
That was cool.
00:53:30.880 --> 00:53:34.159
And it was black light, and so everyone came over and we'd all smoke hookah.
00:53:34.559 --> 00:53:35.360
That's fun, man.
00:53:35.920 --> 00:53:37.840
You're like, ah, you guys are all fucking.
00:53:38.159 --> 00:53:39.360
I remember Zach had a hookah.
00:53:39.440 --> 00:53:42.159
It was no setup like that, but no, it was a whole thing.
00:53:42.239 --> 00:53:45.679
Like it was the play, it was the spot to go when Cindy was in high school.
00:53:45.760 --> 00:53:47.760
And then little me, I'm like eighth grade.
00:53:47.920 --> 00:53:48.320
Oh, God.
00:53:48.400 --> 00:53:49.840
I'm like, me too, you guys.
00:53:50.079 --> 00:53:51.119
I'm gonna smoke down.
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And I did.
00:53:53.679 --> 00:53:54.239
Hookah was fun.
00:53:54.400 --> 00:53:55.519
Hookah was fun.
00:53:55.840 --> 00:53:58.320
I was I never really liked the hookah lounges.
00:53:58.400 --> 00:54:00.159
The only one I went to was in Gresham.
00:54:00.400 --> 00:54:00.639
Yeah.
00:54:00.880 --> 00:54:02.400
I think that was like the only one.
00:54:02.639 --> 00:54:02.880
Yeah.
00:54:03.440 --> 00:54:04.000
It's still there.
00:54:04.159 --> 00:54:05.199
Yeah, it's I hated it.
00:54:05.599 --> 00:54:06.239
It's not gonna be.
00:54:06.400 --> 00:54:08.320
It fucking back then.
00:54:08.400 --> 00:54:10.000
I'm like, this place is fucking gross.
00:54:10.159 --> 00:54:10.320
Yeah.
00:54:11.360 --> 00:54:15.920
It's like I feel like this is where you buy fucking meth too.
00:54:16.079 --> 00:54:16.239
Yeah.
00:54:16.400 --> 00:54:18.079
It's like wipe the seat before you sit down.
00:54:18.159 --> 00:54:18.719
You know, dude.
00:54:18.960 --> 00:54:21.199
Yeah, it was always that kind of joint is fucking grimy.
00:54:21.920 --> 00:54:22.559
But it was fun.
00:54:22.719 --> 00:54:23.199
It was fun.
00:54:23.440 --> 00:54:24.320
It was good times.
00:54:24.559 --> 00:54:28.239
Um oh, I well, this is what I was playing.
00:54:28.480 --> 00:54:35.360
I wasn't planning on ending it on this, but you were saying that so Champagne Supernova, we'll go back to that real quick.
00:54:35.519 --> 00:54:38.000
You thought that took you back to 2016?
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Or or that energy.
00:54:40.639 --> 00:54:41.360
That energy.
00:54:42.079 --> 00:54:49.039
I have a song, and I it I think the song came out way before like, yeah, way before 2016.
00:54:50.079 --> 00:54:51.199
Cue it up for me.
00:54:51.360 --> 00:54:53.280
Or unl let me see your phone real quick.
00:54:53.440 --> 00:54:54.719
Is it still connected?
00:54:54.960 --> 00:54:55.599
Yes.
00:54:56.159 --> 00:55:00.000
This is a song that reminds me of 2016 summer.
00:55:00.239 --> 00:55:00.559
Oh.
00:55:01.280 --> 00:55:02.639
Not kids is great.
00:55:03.280 --> 00:55:04.719
This is like a movie.
00:55:04.960 --> 00:55:07.039
This is like an ex like the exit song.
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This puts me 2016.
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We're all getting ready to party tonight.
00:55:12.639 --> 00:55:13.840
We're in the car.
00:55:15.199 --> 00:55:18.239
Someone's got a bottle, someone's got a bag.
00:55:23.679 --> 00:55:25.599
We'll let this one play out, guys.
00:55:27.039 --> 00:55:27.920
Another podcast.
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Party.
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Party out.
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Little little.
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I love you.