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Green k r I dot Calm Heart of Darkness by
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Joseph Conrad, Chapter two, Part two. Two pilgrims were quarreling
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in hurried whispers as to which bank left. No, no,
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how can you right? Right? Of course, it is very serious,
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said the manager's voice behind me. I would be desolate
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if anything should happen to mister Kurtz. Before we came up.
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I looked at him and had not the slightest doubt
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he was sincere. He was just the kind of man
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who would wish to preserve appearances. That was his restraint.
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But when he muttered something about going on at once,
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I did not even take the trouble to answer him.
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I knew, and he knew, that it was impossible. Were
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we to let go our hold of the bottom, we
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would be absolutely in the air in space. We wouldn't
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be able to tell where we were going to, whether
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up or down stream or across till we fetched against
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one bank or the other, and then we wouldn't know
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at first which it was. Of course, I made no move.
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I had no mind for a smash up. You couldn't
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imagine a more deadly place for a shipwreck. Whether we
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drowned at once or not, we were sure to perish
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speedily in one way or another. I authorized you to
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take all the risks, he said, after a short silence.
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I refused to take any, I said shortly, which was
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just the answer he expected, though its tone might have
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surprised him. Well, I must defer to your judgment. You
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are captain, he said, with marked civility. I turned my
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shoulder to him in sign of my appreciation, and looked
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into the fog. How long would it last? It was
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the most hopeless look out. The approach to this Kurts,
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grubbing for ivory in the wretched bush, was beset by
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as many dangerous as though he had been an enchanted
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princess sleeping in a fabulous castle. Will they attack, do
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you think? Asked the manager in a confidential tone. I
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did not think they would attack, for several obvious reasons.
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The thick fog was one. If they left the bank
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in their canoes, they would get lost in it, As
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we would be if we attempted to move still. I
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had also judged the jungle of both banks quite impenetrable,
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and yet eyes were in it, eyes that had seen us.
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The riverside bushes were certainly very thick, but the undergrowth
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behind was evidently penetrable. However, during the short lift, I
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had seen no canoes anywhere in the reach, certainly not
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abreast of the steamer. But what made the idea of
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attack inconceivable to me was the nature of the noise
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of the cries we had heard. They had not the
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fierce character boding immediate hostile intention. Unexpected wild and violent
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as they had been, they had given me an irresistible
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impression of sorrow. The glimpse of the steamboat had for
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some reason filled those savages with unrestrained grief. The danger,
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if any, I expounded, was from our proximity to a
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great human passion let loose. Even extreme grief may ultimately
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vent itself in violence, but more generally takes the form
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of apathy. You should have seen the pilgrims stare. They
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had no heart to grin or even to revile me.
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But I believe they thought me gone mad with fright.
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Maybe I delivered a regular lecture. My dear boys, it
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was no good bothering keep a lookout. Well, you may guess.
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I watched the fog for the signs of lifting as
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a cat watch as a mouse, but for anything else.
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Our eyes were of no more use to us than
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if we had been buried miles deep in a heap
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of cotton wool. It felt like it too, choking, warm, stifling. Besides,
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all I said, though its sounded extravagant, was absolutely true
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to fat. What we afterwards alluded to as an attack
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was really an attempt at repulse. The
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action was very
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far from being aggressive. It was not even defensive in
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the usual sense. It was undertaken under the stress of desperation,
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and in its essence was purely protective. It developed itself,
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I should say, two hours after the fog lifted, and
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its commencement was at a spot, roughly speaking, about a
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mile and a half below Kurtz's station. We had just
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floundered and flopped round a bend when I saw an islet,
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a mere grassy hummock of bright green in the middle
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of the stream. It was the only thing of the
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But as we opened the reach more I perceived it
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was the head of a long sand bank, or rather
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of a chain of shallow patches stretching down the middle
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of the river. They were discolored just a wash, and
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the whole lot was seen under the water, exactly as
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a man's backbone is seen running down the middle of
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his back under the skin. Now, as far as I
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did see, I could go to the right or to
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the left of this. I didn't know either channel. Of course,
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the banks looked pretty well alike, the depth appeared the same.
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But as I had been informed the station was on
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the west side, I naturally headed for the western passage.
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No sooner had we fairly entered it than I became
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aware it was much narrower than I had supposed. To
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the left of us there was the long, uninterrupted shoal,
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and to the right a high steep bank, heavily overgrown
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with bushes. Above the bush, the trees stood in serried ranks.
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The twigs overhung the current thickly, and from distance to distance,
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a large limb of some tree projected rigidly over the stream.
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It was then well on in the afternoon. The face
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of the forest was gloomy, and a broad strip of
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shadow had already fallen on the water in this shadow.
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We steamed up very slowly. As you may imagine, I
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sheared her well inshore, the water being deepest near the bank.
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As the sounding pole informed me, one of my hungry
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and forbearing friends was sounding in the boughs just below me.
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This steamboat was exactly like a decked scow. On the
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deck there were two little teak wood houses with doors
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and windows. The boiler was in the fore end, and
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the machinery right astern. Over the whole there was a
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light roof supported on stanchions. The funnel projected through that roof,
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and in front of the funnel a small cabin built
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of light planks served for a pilot house. It contained
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a couch, too, campstools, a loaded martini henry leaning in
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one corner, a tiny table, and the steering wheel. It
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had a wide door in front and a broad shutter
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at each side. All these were always thrown open. Of course,
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I spent my days perched up there on the extreme
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fore end of that roof, before the door. At night
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I slept or tried to on the couch. An athletic
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black belonging to some coast tribe and educated by my
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poor predecessor was the helmsman. He sported a pair of
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brass earrings, wore a blue cloth wrapper from the waist
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to the ankles, and thought all the world of himself.
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He was the most unstable kind of fool I had
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ever seen. He steered with no end of a swagger
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while you were by, but if he lost sight of you,
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he became instantly the prey of an abject funk, and
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would let that cripple of a steamboat get the upper
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hand of him. In a minute, I was looking down
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at the sound pole and feeling much annoyed to see
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at each try a little more of it stuck out
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of that river, when I saw my poleman give up
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on the business suddenly and stretch himself flat on the deck,
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without even taking the trouble to haul his pole in.
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He kept hold on it, though, and it trailed in
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the water. At the same time, the firemen, whom I
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could also see below me, sat down abruptly before his
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furnace and ducked his head. I was amazed. Then I
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had to look at the river mighty quick, because there
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was a snag in the fairway. Sticks, little sticks were
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flying about, thick they were whizzing before my nose, dropping
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below me, striking behind me against my pilot house. All
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this time, the river, the shore, the woods were very quiet,
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perfectly quiet. I could only hear the heavy splashing thump
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of the stern wheal and the patter of these things.
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We cleared the snag clumsily. Arrows. By jove, we were
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being shot at. I stepped in quickly to close the shutter.
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On the land side. That fool helmsman, his hands on
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the spokes, was lifting his knees high, stamping his feet,
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champing his mouth like a reined in hoarse confound him,
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and we were staggering within ten feet of the bank.
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I had to lean right out to swing the heavy shudder,
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and I saw a face amongst the leaves on the
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level with my own, looking at me, very fierce and steady.
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And then, suddenly, as though a veil had been removed
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from my eyes, I made out deep in the tangled gloom,
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naked breasts, arms, legs, glaring eyes. The bush was swarming
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with human limbs and movement, glistening of Braun's color. The
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twig shook, swayed, and rustled. The arrows flew out of them,
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and then the shutter came too. Steer her straight, I
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said to the helmsman. He held his head rigid, face forward,
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but his eyes rolled. He kept on lifting and setting
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down his feet gently. His mouth foamed a little. Keep quiet,
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I said, in a fury. I might just as well
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have ordered a tree not to sway in the wind.
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I darted out below me. There was a great scuffle
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of feet on the iron deck, confused exclamations. A voice screamed,
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can you turn back? I caught sight of a V
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shaped ripple on the water ahead. What another snag? A
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fusillade burst out under my feet. The pilgrims had opened
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with their winchesters and were simply squirting lead into that bush.
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A deuce of a lot of smoke came up and
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drove slowly forward. I swore at it. Now. I couldn't
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see the ripple or the snag either. I stood in
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the doorway peering, and the arrows came in swarms. They
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might have been poisoned, but they looked as though they
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wouldn't kill a cat. The bush began to howl. Our
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woodcutters raised a warlike whoop. The report of a rifle
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just at my back deafened me. I glanced over my shoulder,
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and the pilot house was yet full of noise and smoke.
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When I made a dash at the wheel, the fool
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nigger had dropped everything to throw the shutter open and
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let off that Martini Henry. He stood before the wide opening, glaring,
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and I yelled at him to come back while I
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straightened the sudden twist out of that steamboat. There was
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no room to turn, even if I had wanted to.
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The snag was somewhere very near ahead. In that confounded smoke.
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There was no time to lose, so I just crowded
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her into the bank, right into the bank, where I
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knew the water was deep. We tore slowly along the
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overhanging bushes in a whirl of broken twigs and flying leaves.
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The fuselade below stopped short, as I had foreseen it
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would when the squirts got empty. I threw my head
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back to a glinting whiz that traversed the pilot house
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in at one shutter hole and out at the other.
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Looking past that mad helmsman who was shaking the empty
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rifle and yelling at the shore, I saw vague forms
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of men running bent double leaping, gliding distinct, incomplete evanescent.
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Something big appeared in the air before the shutter. The
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rifle went overboard, and the man stepped back swiftly, looked
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at me over his shoulder in an extraordinary, profound, familiar manner,
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and fell upon my feet. The side of his head
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hit the wheel twice, and the end of what appeared
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a long cane clattered round and knocked over a little
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camp stool. It looked as though after wrenching that thing
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from somebody ashore, he had lost his balance in the effort.
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The thin smoke had blown away. We were clear of
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the snag, and looking ahead I could see that in
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another hundred yards or so I would be free to
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shear off away from the bank. But my feet felt
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so very warm and wet that I had to look down.
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The man had rolled on his back and stared straight
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up at me. Both his hands clutched that cane. It
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was the shaft of a spear that either thrown or
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lunged through the opening, had caught him in the side,
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just below the ribs. The blade had gone in out
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of sight after making a frightful gash. My shoes were
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full a pool of blood lay very still, gleaming dark
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red under the wheel. His eyes shone with an amazing luster.
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The fusillade burst out again. He looked at me anxiously,
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gripping the spear like something precious, with an air of
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being afraid I would try to take it away from him.
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I had to make an effort to free my eyes
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from his gaze and attend to the steering. With one hand,
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I felt above my head for the line of the
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steam whistle, and jerked out screech after screech hurriedly. The
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tumult of angry and warlike yells were checked inside, and
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then from the depths of the woods went out such
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a tremulous and prolonged wail of mournful fear and utter
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despair as may be imagined to follow the flight of
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the last hope from the earth. There was a great
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commotion in the bush. The shower of arrows stopped, a
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few dropping shots rang out sharply, then silence, in which
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the languid beat of the stern wheel came plainly to
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my ears. I put the helm hard a starboard. At
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the moment when the pilgrim in pink pajamas, very hot
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and agitated appeared in the doorway, the manager sends me.
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He began in an official tone and stopped short. Good God,
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he said, glaring at the wounded man. We two whites
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stood over him, and his lustrous and inquiring glance enveloped
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us both. I declare, it looked as though he would
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presently put to us some questions in an understandable language.
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But he died without uttering a sound, without moving a limb,
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without twitching a muscle. Only in the very last moment,
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as though in response to some sign we could not see,
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to some whisper we could not hear, he frowned heavily,
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and that frown gave to his black death mask, an
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inconceivably somber, brooding and menacing expression. The luster of inquiring
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glance faded swiftly into vacant glassiness. Can you steer, I
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asked the agent eagerly. He looked very dubious. But I
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made a grab at his arm, and he understood at once.
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I meant him to steer, whether or no. To tell
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you the truth, I was morbidly anxious to change my
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shoes and socks. He is dead, murmured the fellow, immensely impressed. No,
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doubt about it, said I, tugging like mad at the
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shoe laces. And by the way, I suppose mister Kurtz
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is dead as well. By this time, For the moment
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that was the dominant thought, there was a sense of
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extreme disappointment, as though I had found out I had
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been striving after something altogether without a substance. I couldn't
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have been more disgusted if I had traveled all this
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way for the sole purpose of talking with mister Kurtz.
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Talking with I flung one shoe overboard and became aware
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that that was exactly what I had been looking forward to,
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a talk with Kurts. I made the strange discovery that
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I had never imagined him as doing, you know, but discoursing.
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I didn't say to myself, now I will never see him,
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or now I will never shake him by the hand.
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But now I will never hear him. The man presented
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himself as a voice, not of course, that I did
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not connect him with some sort of action. Hadn't I
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been told, in all the tones of jealousy and admiration,
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that he had collected, bartered, swindled, or stolen more ivory
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than all the other agents altogether. That was not the point.
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The point was in his being a gifted creature, and
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that all of his gifts, the one that stood out
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pre eminently, that carried with it a sense of real presence,
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was his ability to talk, his words, the gift of expression,
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the bewildering, the illuminating, the most exalted and the most contemptible,
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the pulsating stream of light, or the deceitful flow from
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the heart of an impenetrable darkness. The other she went
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flying unto the devil god of that river. I thought,
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by Jove, it's all over. We're too late. He has vanished.
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The gift tis vanished by means of some spear, arrow,
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or club. I will never hear that chap speak after all,
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And my sorrow had a startling extravagance of emotion, even
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such as I had noticed in the howling sorrow of
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these savages in the bush. I couldn't have felt more
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of lonely desolation somehow, had I been robbed of a belief,
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or had missed my destiny in life? Why do you
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sigh in this beastly way? Somebody absurd? Well absurd? Good Lord,
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mustn't a man ever hear? Give me some tobacco. There
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was a pause of profound stillness. Then a match flared,
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and Marlow's lean face appeared worn hollow, with downward folds
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and dropped eyelids, with an aspect of concentrated attention, And
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as he took vigorous draws at his pipe, it seemed
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to retreat and advance out of the night. In the
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regular flicker of tiny flame, the match went out. Absurd,
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he cried, This is the worst of trying to tell here.
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You all are each moored with two good addresses, like
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a hulk with two anchors, a butcher round one corner,
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a policeman round another. Excellent appetites and temperature normal. You
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hear normal from year's end to year's end, and you
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say absurd, absurd, be exploded. Absurd, My dear boys, what
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can you expect from a man who, out of sheer nervousness,
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had just flung overboard a pair of new shoes. Now
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I think of it, it is amazing. I did not
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shed tears. I
am upon the whole proud of my fortitude.
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I was cut to the quick at the idea of
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having lost the inestimable privilege of listening to the gifted kerts.
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Of course I was wrong. The privilege was waiting for me.
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Oh yes, I heard more than enough, and I was
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right too. A voice, he was very little more than
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a voice, and I heard him it this voice, other voices,
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all of them were so little more than voices. And
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the memory of that time itself lingers around me, impalpable,
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like a dying vibration of one immense jabber, silly, atrocious, sordid,
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savage or simply mean, without any kind of sense, voices, voices,
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even the girl herself. Now he was silent for a
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long time. I laid the ghost of his gifts at
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last with a lie. He began suddenly, Girl, What did
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I mention a girl? Oh? She is out of it completely,
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They the women, I mean, are out of it. Should
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be out of it. We must help them to stay
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in that beautiful world of their own lest ours gets worse. Oh,
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she had to be out of it. You should have
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heard the disinterred body of mister Kurt saying my intended.
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You would have perceived directly then how completely she was
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out of it. And the lofty frontal bone of mister
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Kurt's they say, the hair goes on growing sometimes but
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this ah specimen was impressively bald. The wilderness had patted
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him on the head, and behold, it was like a ball,
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an ivory ball. It had caressed him, and lo he
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had withered. It had taken him, loved him, embraced him,
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got into his veins, consumed his flesh, and sealed his
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soul to its own by the inconceivable ceremonies of some
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devilish initiation. He was its spoiled and pampered favorite ivory.
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I should think so. Heaps of it, stacks of it.
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The old mud shanty was bursting with it. You would
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think there was not a single tusk left either above
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or below the ground in the whole country. Mostly fossil,
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the manager had remarked
disparagingly. It was no more fossil
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than I am. But they call it fossil when it
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is dug up. It appears these niggers do bury the
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tusks sometimes, But evidently they couldn't bury this parcel deep enough.
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To save the gifted mister Kurtz from his fate, we
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filled the steamboat with it and had to pile a
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lot on the deck. Thus he could see and enjoy
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as long as he could see, because the appreciation of
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this favor had remained with him to the last. You
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should have heard him say, my ivory. Oh yes, I
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heard him. My intended, my ivory, my station, my river,
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my everything belonged to him. It made me hold my
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breath in expectation of hearing the wilderness burst into a
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prodigious peal of laughter that would shake the fixed stars
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in their places. Everything belonged to him. But that was
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a trifle. The thing was to know what he belonged to,
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How many powers of darkness claimed him for their own.
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That was a reflection that made you creepy all over.
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It was impossible. It was not good for one either,
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trying to imagine he had taken a high seat amongst
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the devils of the land. I mean, literally, you can't understand.
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How could you, with solid pavement under your feet, surrounded
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by kind neighbors ready to cheer you or to fall
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on you, stepping delicately between the butcher and the policemen,
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in the holy terror of scandal and gallows and lunatic asylums.
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How can you imagine what particular region of the first
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ages a man's untrammeled feet may take him into by
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the way of solitude, utter solitude without a policeman, by
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the way of silence, utter silence where no warning voice
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of a kind neighbor can be heard, whispering of public opinion.
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These little things make all the great difference. When they
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are gone, you must fall back on your own innate strength,
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upon your own capacity for faithfulness. Of course, you may
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be too much of a fool to go wrong, too
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dull even to know you are being assaulted by the
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powers of darkness. I take it no fool ever made
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a bargain for his soul with the devil. The fool
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is too much of a fool, or the devil too
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much of a devil, I don't know which. Or you
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may be such a thunderingly exalted creature as to be
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altogether deaf and blind to anything but heavenly sight and sounds.
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Then the earth for you is only a standing place.
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And whether to be like this is your loss or
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your gain. I won't pretend to say. But most of
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us are neither one nor the other. The earth for
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us is a place to live in where we must
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put up with sights, with sounds, with smells too. By Jove,
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breathe dead hippo so to speak and not be contaminated.
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And there, don't you see. Your strength comes in that faith,
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in your ability for the digging of unostentatious holes to
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bury the stuff, in your power of devotion not to
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yourself but to an obscure, backbreaking business. And that's difficult enough. Mind.
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I am not trying to excuse or even explain. I
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am trying to account myself for for mister Kurtz, for
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the shade of mister Kurtz. This initiated wrath from the
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back of nowhere honored me with its amazing confidence before
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it vanished altogether. This was because it could speak English
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to me. The original Curts had been educated partly in England,
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and as he was good enough to say himself, his
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sympathies were in the right place. His mother was half English,
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his father was half French. All Europe contributed to the
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making of Kurts. And by and by I learned that,
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most appropriately, the International Society for the Suppression of Savage
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Customs had entrusted him with the making of a report
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for its future guidance, and he had written it too.
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I've seen it, I've read it. It was eloquent vibrating
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with eloquence, but too high strung. I think seventeen pages
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of close writing he had found time for. But this
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must have been before his let us say, nerves went
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wrong and caused him to preside at certain midnight dances
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ending with unspeakable rights, which, as far as I reluctantly
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gathered from what I heard at various times, were offered
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up to him, do you understand, to mister Kurtz himself.
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But it was a beautiful piece of writing. The opening paragraph, however,
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in the light of later information, strikes me now as ominous.
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He began with the argument that we whites, from the
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point of development we had arrived at, must necessarily appear
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to them savages. In the nature of supernatural beings, we
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approached them with the might of a deity, and so
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on and so on. By this simple exercise of our will,
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we can exert a power for good, practically unbounded, et cetera,
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et cetera. From that point he soared and took me
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with him. The peroration was magnificent, though difficult to remember.
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You know, it gave me the notion of an exotic
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immensity ruled by an august benevolence. It made me tingle
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with enthusiasm. This was the unbounded power of eloquence of words,
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of burning noble words. There were no practical hints to
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interrupt the magical current of phrases, unless a kind note
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at the foot of the last page, scrawled evidently much
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later in an unsteady hand, may be regarded as the
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exposition of a method. It was very simple, and at
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the end of that moving appeal to every altruistic sentiment,
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it blazed at you, luminous and terrifying, like a flash
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of lightning in a serene sky. Exterminate all the brutes.
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The curious part was that he had apparently forgotten all
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about that valuable postscriptum, because later on, when he, in
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a sense came to himself, he repeatedly entreated me to
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take good care of my pamphlet. He called it, as
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it was sure to have in the future a good
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influence upon his career. I had full information about all
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these things, and besides, as it turned out, I was
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to have the care of his memory. I've done enough
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for it to give me the undisputable right to lay
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it if I choose for an everlasting rest in the
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dust bin of progress, amongst all the sweepings, and figuratively speaking,
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all the dead cats of civilization. But then you see,
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I can't choose. He won't be forgotten. Whatever he was,
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he was not common. He had the power to charm
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or frighten rudimentary souls into an aggravated witch dance in
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his honor. He could also fill the small souls of
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the pilgrims with bitter misgivings. He had one devoted friend
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at least, and he had conquered one soul in the
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way world that was neither rudimentary nor tainted with self seeking. No,
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I can't forget him, though I am not prepared to
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affirm the fellow is exactly worth the life we lost
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in getting to him. I missed my late helmsman, awfully.
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I missed him even while his body was still lying
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in the pilot house. Perhaps you will think it passing strange,
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this regret for a savage who was no more account
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than a grain of sand in a black sahara. Well,
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you don't see. He had something he had steered for months.
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I had him at my back, a help, an instrument.
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It was a kind of partnership. He steered for me.
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I had to look after him. I worried about his deficiencies,
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and thus a subtle bond had been created, of which
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I only became aware when it was suddenly broken. And
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the intimate profundity of that look he gave me when
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he received his hurt remained to this day in my memory,
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like a claim of distant kinship affirmed in a supreme moment.
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Poor fool, if he had only left that shutter alone,
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he had no restraint, no restraint, just like Kurts a
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tree swayed by the wind. As soon as I had
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put on a dry pair of slippers, I dragged him out,
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after first jerking the spear out of his side, which
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operation I confess I performed with my eyes shut tight.
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00:31:35.119
His heels leaped together over the little doorstep. His shoulders
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were pressed to my breast. I hugged him from behind desperately.
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Oh he was heavy, heavy, heavier than any man on earth,
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I should imagine. Then, without more ado, I tipped him overboard.
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The current snatched him as though he had been a
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wisp of grass, and I saw the body roll over
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twice before I lost sight of it. Forever, all the
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pillow rooms and the manager were then congregated on the
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awning deck about the pilot house, chattering at each other
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like a flock of excited magpies. And there was a
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scandalized murmur at my heartless promptitude. What they wanted to
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keep that body hanging about? For? I can't guess embalm
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it maybe, But I had also heard another and a
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very ominous murmur on the deck below. My friends, the
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woodcutters were likewise scandalized, and with better show of reason,
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though I admit that the reason itself was quite inadmissible,
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Oh quite. I had made up my mind that if
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my late helmsman was to be eaten, the fishes alone
494
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should have him. He had been a very second rate
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helmsman while alive, but now he was dead he might
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have become a first class temptation and possibly caused some
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startling trouble. Besides, I was anxious to take the wheel
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the man in pink pajamas showing himself a hopeless duffer
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at the business. This I did directly. The simple funeral
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was over. We were going half speed, keeping right in
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the middle of the stream, and I listened to the
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talk about me. They had given up Kurtz they had
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given up the station. Kurtz was dead, and the station
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had been burnt, and so on and so on. The
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red haired pilgrim was beside himself with a thought that
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at least this poor Kurts had been properly avenged. Say,
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we must have made a glorious slaughter of them in
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the bush. Eh, what do you think? Say? He positively
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danced the bloodthirsty little gingery beggar, and he had
nearly
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fainted when he saw the wounded man. I could not
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help saying, you made a glorious lot of smoke. Anyhow,
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I had seen from the way the tops of the
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bushes rustled and flew that almost all the shots had
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gone too high. You can't hit anything unless you take
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aim and fire from them shoulder. But these chaps fired
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from the hip with their eyes shut. The retreat, I maintained,
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and I was right, was caused by the screeching of
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the steam whistle. Upon this they forgot Kurts and began
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to howl at me with indignant protests. The manager stood
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by the wheel, murmuring confidentially about the necessity of getting
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well away down the river before dark at all events.
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When I saw in the distance, a clearing on the
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river side, and the outlines of some sort of building.
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What's this, I asked. He clapped his hands in wonder
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the station, he cried. I edged in at once, still
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going half speed through my glasses, I saw the slope
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of a hill, interspersed with rare trees and perfectly free
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from undergrowth. A long, decaying building on the summit was
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half buried in the high grass. The large holes in
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the peaked roof gaped black from a far. The jungle
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and the woods made a background. There was no enclosure
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or fence of any kind, but there had been one,
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apparently for near the house. Half a dozen slim posts
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remained in a row, roughly trimmed and with their upper
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ends ornamented with round carved balls. The rails or whatever
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there had been between had disappeared, of course. The forests
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surrounded all that. The river bank was clear, and on
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the water side I saw a white man under a
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hat like a cart wheel, beckoning persistently with his whole arm.
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Examining the edge of the forest above and below, I
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was almost certain I could see movements human forms gliding
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here and there. I steamed past prudently, then stopped the
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engines and let her drift down. The men on the
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shore began to shout, urging us to land. We have
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been attacked, screamed the manager. I know, I know, it's
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all right, yelled back the other, and as cheerful as
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you please, come along. It's all right. I am glad.
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His aspect reminded me of something I had seen, something
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funny I had seen somewhere. As I maneuvered to get alongside,
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I was asking myself, what does this fellow look like?
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Suddenly I got it. He looked like a harlequin. His
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clothes had been made of some stuff that was brown,
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Holland probably, but it was covered with patches all over,
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with bright patches, blue, red and yellow patches on the back,
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patches on the front, patches on elbows, on knees, colored
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binding around his jacket, scarlet edging at the bottom of
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his trousers. And the sunshine made him look extremely gay
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and wonderfully neat withal because you could see how beautifully
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all this patching had been done. A beardless, boyish face,
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very fair, no features to speak of, nose peeling, little
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blue eye, eyes, smiles and frowns chasing each other, over
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that open countenance, like sunshine and shadow on a windswept plain.
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Look Out, captain, he cried, there's a snag lodged in
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here last night. What another snag? I confess, I swore, shamefully.
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I had nearly holed my cripple to finish off that
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charming trip. The harlequin on the bank turned his little
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pug nose up to me. You English, he asked, All smiles,
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are you? I shouted from the wheel. The smiles vanished,
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and he shook his head as if sorry for my disappointment.
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Then he brightened up. Never mind, he cried encouragingly. Are
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we in time? I asked, He is up there, he replied,
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with a toss of the head up the hill and
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becoming gloomy. All of a sudden. His face was like
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the autumn sky, overcast one moment and bright the next.
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When the manager, escorted by the pilgrims all of them
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are to the teeth, had gone to the house, this
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chap came on board. I say, I don't like this.
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These natives are in the bush, I said, He assured
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me earnestly, it was all right. They are simple people.
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He added, Well, I am glad you came. It took
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me all my time to keep them off, but you
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said it was all right. I cried, Oh, they meant
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no harm, he said, And as I stared, he corrected himself.
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Not exactly then, vivaciously, my faith, your pilot house wants
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a clean up. In the next breath, he advised me
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to keep enough steam on the boiler to blow the
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whistle in case of any trouble. One good screech will
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do more for you than all your rifles. They are
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simple people, he repeated. He rattled away at such a
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rate he quite overwhelmed me. He seemed to be trying
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to make up for lots of silence, and actually hinted,
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laughing that such was the case. Don't you talk with
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mister Kurtz. I have said you don't talk with that man.
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You listen to him, he exclaimed, with severe exultation. But
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now he waved his arm, and in the twinkling of
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an eye, was in the uttermost debts of despondency. In
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a moment, he came up again with a jump, possessed
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himself of both my hands, shook them continuously while he
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gabbled brother, sailor, honor, pleasure, delight, introduce myself, Russian son
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of an arch priest, government of Tamboy. What tobacco, English tobacco,
601
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The excellent English tobacco. Now that's brotherly smoke. Where's a
602
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sailor that does not smoke? The pipe soothed him, and
603
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gradually I made out he had run away from school,
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had gone to sea in a Russian ship, ran away again,
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served some time in English ships, was now reconciled with
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the arch priest. He made a point of that, But
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when one is young, one must see things, gather ex experience, ideas,
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enlarge the mind. Here, I interrupted, you can never tell
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here I met mister Kurtz, he said, youthfully, solemn and reproachful.
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I held my tongue. After that, it appears he had
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persuaded a Dutch trading house on the coast to fit
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him out with stores and goods, and had started for
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the interior with a light heart and no more idea
614
00:40:25.320 --> 00:40:28.320
of what would happen to him than a baby. He
615
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had been wandering about that river for nearly two years alone,
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cut off from everybody and everything. I am not so
617
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young as I look. I am twenty five, he said
618
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at first. Old Van Schueten would tell me to go
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to the devil. He narrated with keen enjoyment. But I
620
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stuck to him and talked and talked till at last
621
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he got afraid I would talk the hind leg off
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his favorite dog. So he gave me some cheap things
623
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and a few guns, and told me he hoped he
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would never see my face again, good old Dutchman van Shoyten.
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I've sent him one small lot of ivory a year
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00:41:03.519 --> 00:41:05.400
ago so that he can't call me a little thief
627
00:41:05.400 --> 00:41:09.440
when I get back. I hope he got it, and
628
00:41:09.519 --> 00:41:11.760
for the rest I don't care. I had some woodstacked
629
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for you. That was my old house, did you see.
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I gave him Towson's book. He made as though he
631
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would kiss me, but restrained himself. The only book I
632
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had left, and I thought I had lost it, he said,
633
00:41:24.280 --> 00:41:27.760
looking at it ecstatically. So many accidents happened to a
634
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man going about alone. You know, canoes get upset sometimes,
635
00:41:31.880 --> 00:41:33.960
and sometimes you got to clear out so quick when
636
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the people get angry. He thumbed the pages. He made
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notes in Russian. I asked, He nodded. I thought they
638
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were written in cipher. I said, He laughed, then became serious.
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I had lots of trouble to keep these people off,
640
00:41:50.519 --> 00:41:54.199
he said. Did they want to kill you? I asked,
641
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Oh no, he cried and checked himself. Why did they
642
00:41:58.000 --> 00:42:03.679
attack us? I pursued. He hesitated, then said, shamefacedly. They
643
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don't want him to go, don't they? I said curiously.
644
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He nodded, a nod full of mystery and wisdom, I
645
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tell you, he cried, This man has enlarged my mind.
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He opened his arms wide, staring at me with his
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little blue eyes that were perfectly round. End of Chapter two,
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Part two