النص الكامل لحلقة How to Leave your TOXIC Relationship & Love Yourself Again

have an inner count encounter with some person in a different country. And I'm like, I still remember that a year from now. Like we don't even talk that often. But I'm like, Nah, she got some in her. That's like dope. Like, that's so cool. Like she's, you know, when you say somebody's name in conversation, people just smile. That's this girl. And so I was so excited to hang out with her, me and one of my teammates went to her place with her friends. And you know, when you just can tell somebody in, something's off. And I felt that with her. I'm just like, yeah, she's still like you. No one would say like, Dang, this girl is dope. Like, she's cool. She's fully alive. She's smiling. Like, she's awesome. Like, and that was the case but I don't know, I think I have a funny gift of kind of noticing things and people, especially people that I care about and something was off with her. I say all this to say not even speaking to just that situation. She was in study week, I think she's studying for a bunch of exams. And also relationship wise. She's going through something with a male and it's it's funny and it's so annoying whenever I have like friends going through things like this because it's like, you can get lost in that you know your stride Glenn already in your school, stop trying to succeed, succeed, Excel and pass, you know, get to the next level. But you also have stuff on the social side emotionally that's also weighing you down. If you're listening to this, and you're in a time where you're pulled in every different direction, like you're pulled with your job, you're pulled with your school stuff, then you're pull with your relationship, and you're losing yourself in that. And you're starting to become a shell of yourself in that, and you're starting to dim your light in that and you're starting not to see the worth of who you are and who you already made to be in that. I think this is for you, I don't even have like a certain message, per se, obviously, I don't write things down. Because I think for me personally, the way that I come out my life, my speech, and the things that, you know, God speaking through me, I think it really just comes through randomly. And as I sit here, and I think about people going through a situation with a guy that doesn't even know who the hell they are in Christ doesn't even know who they were called and made to be, they just see a smidgen or a little stint of their story. And they try to, you know, kind of shine a light or not even a light, obviously, it's a dim, dark, black, ugly light, they try to act and, you know, twist somebody's kind of view of themselves without doing so without even knowing not saying this guy's a terrible person. But I think, you know, in relationships, whenever you have two parties, yes, one may be going through something real, like the guy is actually going through something real in his life. And he's not, you know, communicating in the way that he used to. And, you know, I told her, there's two things here, because I was that guy in a relationship previously, where I was at Texas Tech, just lost two family members. And I had a girlfriend at the time. And for me, I understand that, you know, people go through things, and I was going through things, but I even told her, I was like, I don't care about anything right now. Like, I don't even care about my life. So how can I care about yours? Like, as harsh as that sounds? I think in those moments, if you're going through a time, even if you're listening as a God doing that, and you have a girl who's just, you know, waiting, backing, like staying there for you says like, I told her, I told her that and it was hard. But I do think in a relationship like that it's on both parties to be open about communication and communicating that to someone else. Because again, on one hand, you know, the real stuff that you're going through that you literally can't talk to this person. But to string or to kind of give that person hope of what can be when you're already changed. And you're already on a different mindset, I don't think it's beneficial to the other person. Because now the other person's looking at it like okay, I knew it, I knew that I was less than I knew that I was unworthy of a relationship, whether it's this relationship, whether it's past relationships in my past is validated this point, like I knew it, I knew it, I keep going through the certain things. And they start believing that not only about that moment, but about the past and about what their future looks like with not only this person, or say this doesn't work out with any other relationship, they think, Okay, this is how I am this is how the person, like that's how life sees me, that's how it's always been, they start looking for the evidence, based on the belief that they already had about themselves based on the past that they already had. Maybe it's their childhood, maybe it's the things that they've said from a family member. And that belief kind of stuck with them in every single step of the way, whether relationship wise, or things that they wanted to do for themselves. That point gets validated through the different veins that they believe their life through. I don't know. It's just, it's, it's unfortunate, because you know, life happens to everyone. But I do think communication is a huge thing that can really solve and help soothe a lot of these problems. I'm saying that to say yes, the guy and I even went through a tough time and it's, it's hard. But literally, if you're listening to this podcast right now, you are going through something like every single person breathing goes through something, but it's on the people that actually care about those people in their lives to speak about that. I asked her candidly like, frankly, I was like, Do you love this guy? She was like, nah. So I'm like, Wait, so it's on you to love yourself first. And that's not even selfish. Love yourself first and be like, wait, I

know that I'm actually taking this the wrong way. Yes, he's going through some thing. But I know that it's making me feel a way about myself. And it's dim in my life. Like I'm like, wait, wait, wait, wait. This ain't like I started saying her name. I don't want to say her name now because it's kind of really personal what I'm saying but I was like, literally, you're, you're literally Norense I'm using my name as an example because I'm Norense I kept literally saying that like, because again, I see this person in such a total different way than she even sees herself even my friends like, oh, they cool, like, who was that? Like, I see this person as one way, but they can't see it. And as a friend, as a family member, you know, if you have anybody in their lives that you think is dope, like, man, that person is actually awesome, but they don't see themselves that way. Sometimes it charges you up like nah, like, you're actually Nords. Like, you're actually Norense Like, oh, I literally, I literally kept saying I could have said that like, 30 times because it didn't like for me, it doesn't make sense. It didn't click like how do you not see yourself? The way I see you? How do you not see yourself the way God sees you? It's it's disheartening. But I do think it is on people in that individuals lives to make sure and communicate that as well with who they actually are. It's a journey, and I told her bye. Frankly, like, honestly, it's nothing about him. Like we could talk about him till we're blue in the face. We could talk about how he ain't doing this. Yeah, he's not doing that, how he's this how he's, I said, it's about you. And once you start loving yourself, you know, like, Wait, this is not, no, I'm not about to take this, it might sound harsh, but there's decisions in life that you have to put yourself first, knowing that you're actually feeling these things. Because one thing can be to him that you can hold on to for years to come. Because of this circumstance. Because of this situation, you already know that you're holding on stuff from the past, from your other relationships from what was said in the past. So you now know that this relationship, what you're going through, now, you will hold on to that, ma I don't, I can cut ties here, knowing that I know who I am. And I know what I can handle. If I can't handle this relationship, let me move on and build my relationship that I have with myself first, before I jump into anything else, I think, you know, speaking to that, I know there's a lot of people that whether they realize it or not, subconsciously or not, they're jumping from one relationship to the next or jumping from this thing or this thing, because it's like, they've always had this kind of theme. And it's comforting to have someone there and it's comforting for someone to feel or for some point of time, they feel valued of having someone right there with them. So it's like they pour so much into this one person, they pour, they pour the poor, they pour, and it comes from a heart of gold, obviously you want to pour, pour, pour, but they never pour into themselves. Like, and it's it's tough, because I can speak to this because I feel like every relationship I've had, I've had that kind of person. And I'm kind of like I draw near to that type of person, because they come off like their caregivers. Like they're nurturing. They're really people that really care about other people. That's what I always tell my friends, like I find that attractive and a girl like she's, like, almost motherly in a way and some people. I don't care. That's what I like, whatever. And she's because of my background, my Nigerian background, my mom's real that way. But a lot of times, you know, in my time and my relationships, it's just like those people pour so much in that. It's almost like, they throw all their eggs in one basket, and they don't invest in the basket of themselves. And it I don't know, it even sounds weird, because it's just like, I don't know, it's tough. You know, I'm speaking to my relationship. But literally, that's what it was my first relationship, everything she was and poured into was me. And it ended up a terrible situation because she lied about a bunch of stuff. But I say all that to say you should literally love yourself first. And when you say love yourself first, everybody always says that it's like so cliche but nah. Like, I don't actually like how I'm being treated in this relationship. I don't actually like the lack of communication. I don't actually like the inconsistency of the communication. I have made this known several times, I still have seen and no change. And when will it change? If I don't even love this person? What am I doing? Am I putting myself in jeopardy? Yes. Or that's it literally, you're only putting yourself in jeopardy and it's, I'm one of those people too in a relationship where it's like, you won't end it until something drastic happens like until you come to this kumbaya moment all in one head like okay, I should end it. Otherwise you're just gonna keep stringing along. I call it the Olympic relationship because you're just like, up just going along. It's just you just surviving together. I don't think that's purposeful at all. It's not purposeful at all. If you don't love someone, love yourself. First. Build yourself rehearse, work through things for yourself first, no, and really gain a real strong base relationship with yourself to know like, Okay, I should go after this person and this person or that's the type of traits that I like in this person. So that you know that like, you're not always feeling upset or feeling less than when you get into a wrong relationship. I don't know, I think I asked her the question of do you love them? Because I think if you love someone, it's a different kind of journey. You know, you you stick with them through their different things, their trials, like their what they're going through. But again, it's on

them to communicate like, Hey, I can't right now, this is not the right time for me, like you. Like, I love you. I love and I'm not even saying they love each other. But in example, I love you enough to let you go. Like I'm not right for you right now. You're too special. You're too much of a beautiful person for me to dwindle, who you think and what you think about yourself for sticking along with me because of how I'm acting because I ain't right right now. So I gotta get right for us to get right. And for someone tonight and communicate with them. I don't know. I don't need I don't judge. I'm just speaking candidly, you know how I am i That's how I am. That's how I was I've done that before where it's just like, I haven't said anything. I haven't said anything. I haven't said anything, then it boils up and it comes to a head where it's like, volatile almost, and you're screaming at one another. And it's like, Wait, where did that come from? Obviously, that's not the right way either. So it's on like, in your relationships to communicate. I say all of that to say this, if you're going through this time, and it feels like you're getting hit over the head with everything with life. And you're just like, bro, what? Why do I even deserve this? Am I even in a good state of mind to jump into this? Yes, I want to build this one thing, but I don't even feel me anymore. Like I'm getting strung out like, everything is draining me the schoolwork, the grind, my job, my relationship, my day to day, my finances, everything is just draining. Should I actually jump and run into the lane that I really want to do. But it's not feasible at this moment. For me, I will say do it because that's loving yourself knowing that wait, I actually want to do this one thing. And I've been putting it off because I don't have the vitality, the energy to run in that lane. I think the first step to actually loving yourself is to run in that lane to figure out what you actually want to do. Whether it's with your life, whether it's with your relationship life, your frickin social life with friends and building community that way because a lot of people feel lost and this time they want to find the wrong community. Whether it's okay, I should jump into this what they're doing. A lot of times, it's like wait, I actually like arts let me go tap into that community. Let me go go to poetry classes, whatever. It's just the intention. A lot of times again, I say this, because it resonates with me and I live through my life experiences. We get in this autopilot autopilot and that autopilot drains you and anything else that you would like to do whether it's something business, whether it's something with a podcast, whether it's something just photography, something cool that you want to do. You're so drained from this one lane of the schoolwork, the relationship, everything that it takes the energy out of every other area of your life. And if you really look at it from outside lens, how dare you? How dare you literally, how dare you do that? How dare you? If I'm god, I'm like, bro, what are they doing? Like, actually, what are they doing? What are they doing? They keep going left, left Left when I gave them a right lane to I gave him a straight path to they can actually turn around and go the other way to then keep going left left left and left is just hurting them. They feel sad they feel in less than they keep turning left, left Left left a CRASH CRASH CRASH over and over. It's just like bro i What is this? Metaphor analogy? I don't know one of them. As a basketball player, you always grow up now when it gets to the league. I want to get to the league which is great. Go to the league you have that okay. But what would it be like getting to the league and everything else in your life? I believe God gave me an ability to speech. Speech. Can you see I always when I'm making a point I mess up God gave me the ability to speak I don't know what that will turn out to be usually and in my life to this point. It's always just been basketball be a leader on the court speak and you know, guys resonate or growing up. I would always call the leader before I even show that because of the way people would you know, respond to what I was saying. So I kind of known that speech is a thing. But I've only been turning left and speeds Basketball, basketball, basketball, what would it look like going into the league with my voice? Whether it's a podcast, whether it's down the line, something else, what would it be like if you're listening, going to the league and all the traits that you have, not just the one that you're working towards? What would it be like? Go to the league, I want to go to the league with my walk. I don't know what that means. But it's just, we just think of ourselves so small. And then we let ourselves get in these relationships, because we think of ourselves so small, that when things aren't going, right, we start even dwindling our light even more and even more and even more. And then God forbid, it goes to a point where, okay, I want to solve the next problem. I don't see the value in my life, I want to take my life. I want to end it here. Because you're always trying to solve solve your problem, solve, solve, solve, doing doing more in the relationship pouring more, and then the other people sees you as annoying because you're you're doing you're trying to be there, you're trying to be there everything, no be your everything. God Forbid not even that. Don't be your everything. Let God be your everything. And once you let God be your everything he tells you, I made you everything. Like you actually are something your of worth you're of purpose, you're someone going somewhere and doing great things, it's on you to see yourself that connected with the source, once the source get you to the Alright, run that play, go with that play and turn left. I said turn left turn, right. I'm just I don't know, I'm speaking this through

like in a vibrant, you know, kind of way because it's literally something I experienced just now I see a girl with so much life, so much light, so much enthusiasm, so much purpose and just genuine, almost turn that knob down. I'm like, don't, don't you dare do that. You're literally north. Again, I'm paraphrasing, you're literally an orange, you're literally north, don't do that. Don't do that. You walk in a room and you light them up. You don't like walk in the room and try to be shallow yourself, light it up, you're literally one of one, you're the only one here. Don't ever don't ever don't ever see yourself as less than what you already called to be no matter what you're going through the circumstances that have no business have no role on who you are. You are in the circumstances. Yes, you're in this world, but you are not of the circumstances, they don't consume your life. All right, days go on. And it's so hard to see that, again. When you're in that I get it. And you're in that of your past and your other beliefs and what they've said, it's so hard to see that. But once you connect with the source, he gives you revelation on who you are. And then even when you can't see it, that's what the faith is for the believing in the things unseen, that I can do this, that I am greater than that. Even if my circumstances don't say so I am that I'm going to get to where I want to get. And I know if you're listening, you have so many touch points in your life, whether you even stop and realize it are not where you thought you would not do something. And you look back and you say Damn, I do it. Damn, I did it. But you don't even look back and take the time and say, Wow, I remember how I felt when I was not yet you probably feel similar right now. So why don't you look at your life through the lens of what you've already been through, and what you've already got through and how far you've already came. It's like bro, we we get wrapped up in this life and trying to do more, doing more doing more. The real thing and the real way to actually look at your life is actually with just your life. And not what anybody else says about your life, and not what anybody else is doing in their life. You look at your life and you look at the past and you're like wow, I've overcome a lot. And before I overcame a lot I did think similar to how I feel now so if I pan out and I look at my life now how do I see myself? Oh, I see myself as less than Oh, I see myself as I just want this guy to like me. I just want to get this job. I just want to go there. I just want to do this. I want to do this so bad. And if I don't get it, man I am I am what they say I am. Have you felt like that before? If it's yes. How are you to the place now how did you end up doing the thing that you wanted to do? Is by the constant belief is by the constant faith is by the constant speech to walk the movement that pushed you forward. This Life ain't about evidence of what you see. It's about pushing

forward creating the evidence powered by the source, knowing that that's how the system works. It's your choice to fulfill and to walk through the gifts that he has on your life. He ain't gonna come back Not gonna call he ain't gonna take back the gifts he gave you it's your choice to run and Crow in that lane and stop taking the little left, left Left left left lane. swerving on him lanes got them is this rose honestly for this podcast and for my speech, one of the real kind of main factors here is I really truly want people to know the fullness of who they are and want people to see like how God sees them. You know, I want people to see like, bro, I actually am. I'm actually him for show like I'm him for show. And I know a lot of people say I'm him. I'm him. I'm him. I'm him. Honestly, I don't even like this, that that phrase because I'm him. It's like copying in for me. I'm stubborn. I don't like taking anybody else. I'm here. But as Wayne like, this is a cyborg lit. It was so weird. You know when that were Oh, it's late. It's late came out. I did not start saying that because it's like, Bro, that's not my lingo. I'm not going to do that. I only am like that with like other cultures because I think like, you know, that's different, like I'm taking from Neko so that's cool. Like, I'm gonna say British accent whatever. But when people you know around me start saying some lingo they just made it's like, Ill lit. Like, I'm not saying that, but I just, I don't know, I just want you to know who you are, and be confident in who you are. And that confidence can be seen as arrogance, but it's like again, I'm not saying be confident in who you are, by itself be confident with the source too. Because once you know I'm only saying what my dad is saying. I'm only saying what God say about me so I don't care what you think about what I say. I'm just saying what he said about me it's so bro it's like bro I was made and created what does it say? I'm speaking out well but you know the just shall live by faith who are the just the righteous or is that the self righteous no the righteous meaning what is righteous mean? Right standing I got right standing with God that my pops when I walk into a room I walk chest to the son chest up knowing that hey my dad bought Is this my dad health How dare you tell me I'm this are less than like, okay, that's what you think you're not connected like, bro. I don't know. It's just a different flex when you understand who you are. And even in every relationship whether it's business relationships, whether it's with your job, whether it's with your friends, whether it's romantic relationships, if you see yourself as who he sees you to be and who you actually are you can start having rich relationships and know when relationships are wrong for you know that okay? Now they don't actually value this Hino you don't they don't value this little Rolex here they think it's a little Casio This ain't no Casio. No offense to Casio. But it's a Rolex and you treat this like a little Walmart look. Dollar Tree treat nice that I'm Whole Foods. I ain't Walmart. You feed me. Right, so I don't know. Yeah, I'm gonna keep this rolling because I do like this episode. And it's been a while since I just shot it at length yesterday due to talking tough but sometimes I don't get time to finish a thought boy be thanking a boy be speaking a boy be spitting and breathing on the mic. But sometimes I just want air you know, I want airspace to just think and say and speak and move in G. M. J Guam dancer, but I just want time. All right. And I think what the episodes would guess is so super cool, obviously super dope. But I think the best part of a podcast and the best part of life and growth is pivoting and trying new things and just doing different things. Not saying that I've never talked to you guys like this at length, but just having a pulse and alright, I'll switch and not being so strictly like scared scared, I gotta do this, and I gotta get an episode. I gotta get against British shut up and chill, bro, and speak life. You didn't do this to create a framework just to stick with the framework? No, I created this because of the vision, the passion, the purpose, the mission, and the heart, honestly, of what I'm saying. And if that's with you, in this episode, do what you got to do again, God gave you to give when he gave you a brain be creative, and you figure it out. So I'm just glad that I'm speaking on here, I think for me, right? We have so much purpose in this episode, not just this episode, this podcast. And so yeah, I have a mic. Not a mic. I have a camera and everything set up but again with the autopilot the life of this city in this city. I haven't really had the time to really tap tap tap in and I have but then I'm Such a overthink or to where it's like, oh, that's not the right, Sony A seven four settings to make the video quality beautiful I want it to be fire. And that's not like I keep looking at so many different YouTube videos and overthinking like bro just try things. And even to this episode and everything I'm not the best with computers, I bought like different hard drives, and like with all the episodes, I usually just save them onto my computer. And so like after I would save the episode, like my heart would be like, racing because it's like, if this episode, don't say I'm gonna break this damn computer. But you know, there's something called harddrive Nords. And there's fast ones that can do it really quick and have a lot of space. And Black Friday was last month. So I went ahead and invested in some as long as well as memory cards that I had come in. So there's a lot of things that you know, I really need to buy guy nice if you don't know that's a guy called Eishockey. Oh, sorry, Louis. I shock a guy nice every day, or a guy nice fire. But there's a lot of things in my life that I need to organize, to even put out a better product. I'm so tough on myself, obviously not

because of Oh, you're just I just think I'm the greatest? No, I don't. And that's why I think God actually gave me the nod because I actually really don't think I'm the greatest I think he is and I think he's using me to have a greater purpose and a greater message out. So that's why I'm hard on myself. Because it's like, bro, this message gotta get out and it's on, you know, you to figure things out of how it gets out. But yeah, you have a Helper, the Holy Spirit, my Christ, that helps me but I definitely want to expand and to grow and different things. So that's that's one of the things in 2023 that I actually am like looking forward towards, what is yours? If you're listening to this podcast? What do you want to do in 2023, that you didn't quite accomplish in 2022. And you can look at it from a lens of ah, I didn't do I didn't make it I'm this, I'm that. Or you can decide this month while we still have time to really sit down. And what are those things I actually want to do that I didn't do last year. I actually didn't do the year before. And I didn't do the year before. And I've been talking about it, talking about it talking about a new year new me. But I don't actually make the practical steps to do so. And it's like, we all are so energized until the moment arrive. The moment arises like, man, the monotony when that comes? Will you still stay dedicated to what you said that you want to do? Once you really remember the feeling. That's why journaling does help. I did say this about journaling. Once you journal how you feel in those moments, and you say I want to do this, and you go back and look at how you felt and it connects with your time. Now you're like, wait, it strengthens that thing that you want to do. Because you keep remembering that feeling. You remember that feeling? You're like okay, now like Let me lock in. I want to do greater, I want to do more I want to do better than I've ever done before. It's those constant steps of growth. I think one thing that one should realize going into the next year is failure. What does that look like? Maybe this year for you was a bunch of failure. Fail? Fail, fail, fail fail? Does that mean that you should stop going because I failed? No, that's literally part of the path failure. You figuring it out, developing the strategies to the different things that you can do to push you forward. That's literally part of your journey. ain't ever gonna be sunshine and rainbows. But my thing for this podcast even in the dark to remember who the hell you are when I walk in my dad and run is I don't care if his darkness Oh, and not my daddy run all of this. Because I know there will always light at the end of the tunnel. Man just don't, bro. I always get back into this little hifi maybe it's just flow let yourself talk. Maybe it's the moment but bro, it's man coming into this new year. Just know who you are, bro. For real. The confidence has to be from who you are first. And then once you come with that confidence, people are like, okay, okay, they will believe what you say and how you move. People aren't dumb. They ain't gonna believe what you don't think about yourself. I again, I only Shut up. I can actually tell when somebody knows what they talk about, is they come to me with like, and they're less confident or speaking on my eyebrow. Why should I believe in what you're saying when you don't? How does that make sense believing you first so everybody believes in you? And even if they don't, I need them to believe in Me. Because He believed in me because he plays them inside me. What the gift that you have, he ain't never going to take back. So answer that call pick Have that call because that call ain't never gonna leave that ring ring in there. If you pick up that call and run in that lane with confidence with enthusiasm with purpose with love even in the dark, the light will light your path I'm sitting here cotton mouth might just feel was nice. I always say I'm spitting on the mic but this episode I'm actually chillin boy, hatchback. I got my boxes on with the Texas Tech shadow Red Raiders. I watched them play yesterday cheeses I hang on while I was hot. I was pissed boys look list itch, turning that thing over left, right and center. But again, there is so funny with fans they don't understand like it's actually a journey. It's actually a journey literally from the smallest things of freshmen coming on and shooting 17 Free Throws like dang. Like the fact that he got to the line that much the fact that he was so aggressive, that maybe even goes back to the mind blowing in his head, oh, I can't do this. I can't do that. Let me be aggressive this game. Let me get to the cup. Those small things do so much to building a team becoming who you are. And just fulfilling your greater purpose in a team. It's just the steps. Yes, I was pissed. We turned that thing over left and right. But I do think it's important to spend paying out of your literally moment in literally, your what what is it scheduled, no record, paying out of your record who you're playing and know that row. Every single thing is purposeful is intentional, and has and holds a greater purpose to who I'm going to be where I'm going to become where I'm going to become whatever, I'm gonna stick with it. But everything is so purposeful in your life. Yeah, the monotonous I always have trouble with that word, the monotony, the autonomy now autonomy, the autopilot life it, it gets us to not even see the small details in our life. That may be the case. But everything in your day that you're working towards. Maybe it's the failures, maybe it's the mistakes, all of those are purposeful. There's lessons and all of those who will you become after you overcome those? What are you building in you through those? What are you saying to yourself while you're going through those, if you're saying I'm less than I can't get past this moment, that God made this system to be worked off of choices, he

not gonna push you through, he already gave you the traits. And you keep saying this stuff based on what they say. And they don't actually know you, it's gonna keep you there. But once you say okay, I actually do have the choice to see myself how he does see me that even though I walk into a dark room, and all these people are negative, I can actually bring the light maybe it's actually me, that's the light. Maybe the thing that I'm frustrated about and pissed off at and saying that and all this stuff, it's on me to change that because I already have the gifts inside of me maybe it's on me to build in me to show these people that it can be done a different way. If that's you and this year, and come next year, really lock in with that you the light you know one that is a Light Fight wherever you walk into darkness and light, your light versus there's darkness be the light that lights up that room. And you can only be that life if you really lock in with who you are and have the confidence and the love first with who you are afforded from your father. I think Man, life bro, life bro, I just it's funny. It's really funny that we can have these voices in our head, the mind bully, try to take us down literally every step of the way. Like try to take us down. And for me how I combat that all the time is I say what he says about me. The Bible wouldn't say submit yourself to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you. He will flee from you. But a lot of people always take that submit to God and he goes, No. What am I saying? A lot of people say oh, he gonna leave me but they don't submit their self unto God. I make sure of it. Because a i Everybody keeps saying they will chase me now he's not he's actually not. I submit myself to God and I say the things that God has said about me and I come in and I have authority behind my words with nah, not today. This voice this mine, Billy not today. I ain't going for that. I'm not called to be less than I'm not called to be anxious. I don't have to be sad and sick and all these things. Even though I'm currently experiencing one thing. I'm not that good. So I start seeing that and it always gets me through that Because once you know who you are is greater than what you're experiencing. It gets you to the next step. Connect with who you are, man. That boy screaming on the mic, but that's how I am. Sometimes it's time for play play. Hey, ain't no joke with my wife. Ain't no joke was your life no joke with unless than I, you can't joke with it. I'm literally I have my head on the armrest right now. And I'm literally getting up like nah, hell, no, you can't joke with your life. If you're going into the next year not knowing who the hell you are. You can't joke with that you can't play with it. You can't say, oh, it's it's not a big deal. I'm just not, it's a big deal. It's actually a huge deal. Because you keep running into things that build and build and build and build and build. And then you start seeing yourself less and less and less. And I'll never take my wife, I'll never think of that. You don't know that. But the more you keep less than less than less than it adds more voices. Oh, well, that's happened in the past. Oh, well, you know, that's just kind of who you are, oh, well, this job gave you this offer with this money. I've never got more than that. I'm less than Oh, well, that all compounds and you start thinking of taking yourself? Hell no, hell no, bro. hell nah, it's on you right now to build that muscle, that faith muscle, that that muscle of courage, that courage to step out of this relationship or step out of this opportunity to jump into who you are. Yes, it's not easy. I'm not saying it's gonna be easy. But it's building that muscle, that courage to do so now. Sometimes, even if you're in a great point, and you're not even in that point of I feel this way, I feel less than it's the monotony the day to day that kind of reminds you to build that courage build that face, faith muscle, because a lot of times was just like, I'm not bad, I'm not good. But I do want to do this one thing. It's just trying things stretching yourself so much that you actually need courage that you actually need faith. But then once you start doing that, and you build towards that, with everything that you're doing, and you're giving, even when you don't have the money, and you're giving life and service, even when you don't really have the time, you're building all of that your contribution with what you want to do and you're working with and towards what you want to do. All of that makes you greater in the end. You're so much more than what you're experiencing in 2023. What do you want to do? What do you want to accomplish? Who do you want to be? Where do you want to be? It's on you right now to establish those things. really sit down with yourself? And be like, that's where I'm gonna go. But then unpack how am I going to go there? If I'm going somewhere. And I use this because I just went on the plane to Toronto, I'm using and I'm trying to go somewhere, and I got 55 pound luggage, knowing that they only exceed they only take 50 And I'm trying to bring all this baggage on my past but I'm trying to go to a different destination. yo ass ain't going nowhere. You're gonna have to sit us right there at the gate at the lunch counter and take on the clothes take them big ass shoes out, put it back on the scale and have less baggage to where you want to go. You can't bring that old I'm lack I'm unworthy I can't get it you can't bring that bag as to where your final destination you can't it's not gonna get you there literally it's too heavy. It's too heavy. So where does that baggage go? That little big ass boots where do they go? Is called pops cast all your gears on him for he cares for you. So you know how I literally did this what I've done this in my life and man hold the shoes back can't take this mom she take it to the crib hold my worry hurled my anxiety hold my less than my leg god I can't take it to where I'm going. Do that please and continue to do that because that is truly what's going to get you to your destination. I'm not saying be perfect. I'm not saying you can't have these words you can't have these thoughts because everybody has these thoughts. But once you cast those thoughts onto something greater someone greater e is greater. He works with you and helps you get there don't ever let the doubts in your head affect the faith in your heart because that faith in your heart you know usually try to end it with some you know beautiful but I'm literally just talking those groups. I don't know. Just don't let it affect it man. I'm so grateful to have a podcast where I can speak candidly and anyone listens This is beautiful. This is God and if you've found value in this content in this very episode do me one favor, please. rate and review rate and review this podcast I said Twice no edits on this at all rate review this podcast because it does so much for this platform. So many homes hearts and ears get here what we're building here together until the next one, Peace and love going on